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Legit might lose my job

Done eating

Numbers barely budged but all the exercise is paying off and half my clothes don’t fit anymore

Idk liquid diet and hey if I lose my job I can just…mope and sleep because that’s all I want to do anymore anyway

#personal

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I’m not ok

Lol update to say I just saw my last post and wow looks like that hasn’t changed

Except im literally so fucking stuck in the stupid “ED” that I genuinely don’t know how to get out…or if I really want to.

Like if I lose my job (and ha looks like I might because im a dumbass bitch) I would genuinely consider doing an IOP or something before starting anywhere else because I just can’t do this anymore

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I’m just not ok

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Coffee and running - my two favorite things

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Dreams get you started, Discipline keeps you going.

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back on track

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I don’t want to be this way but I don’t know how to be any other way

#personal #ed related

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Ugh just ordered food to BP except not a true binge because I can’t even do that right

Idk. I’m so fucking fat it’s dumb at that I’m doing this but also I don’t really care right now

#personal

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Happy Halloween!

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I mean sure I’m dizzy and hungry af but at least I’m at 4.5 down from last week

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Cozy Autumn Cottage

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I cry over how fucking massive I am every day like a fucking idiot

I can barely get out of bed. I don’t care about anything so every day at work drags. I get home and do nothing except long to be asleep. But I hate going to sleep because it leads to waking up

I’m just done

#personal

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Neon Halloween - Haunted House