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#let him be happy always

#came back on here after ages of hiatus or whatever #god i miss this

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Diary Entries of Robert Bruce Banner #5

January 26, 2020

Thor’s hands.

When you look at how big and strong the guy is, you really would think that he always has a firm grip and calloused palms. Hell, from how tightly he grasps Mjolnir you would be under the impression he couldn’t touch anything mortal without it shattering.

But it’s not like that.

Sure his hands are large could squeeze anyone like a vice, but most of the time...he’s gentle and soft...when he needs to be.

When he lightly grabs a flask to hand me from across my desk.

When he pets animals.

When he holds a pen with it barely touching the paper.

When he slides his hands up my arms as he takes off my shirt.

And when he runs his hands through my hair when he thinks I’m asleep.

#this is so beautiful....

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You can be anything you dream, little Thor.

I know the timeline is off but I like to picture them that way :D

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Diary Entries of Robert Bruce Banner #4

January 4th, 2020

Wow, I thought I’d be writing this later on, but the seasonal depression decided to hit hard and fast this year I guess.

New Years came and went, nothing too special, and then things just went downhill. Rain came soon after New Year’s Eve and made everything cold and wet and it’s put such a damper on my mood that I don’t want to do anything.

The last couple days it’s been a struggle to get out of bed, I really hate this time of year. The cold and darkness makes it hard to stay motivated or excited. I guess I’ve been desperate to stay warm or at least give the illusion I am so I’ve been taking a lot of baths. Thor has joined me quite a few times but I’m worried the amount of baths I’m drawing is getting to be too much for him. He was fine with joining me the first couple times but now I’m worried it might be too much of a commitment.

If I’m not in the bathtub I’m trying to keep my spirits up and not focus too much on the outside circumstances. I’ve been watching some home renovation shows that take place on tropical islands, stuff like that. It’s definitely helping.

I’m hoping we get snow later this week. When it’s just cold and wet it’s depressing, but snow helps lift the spirits and such and Thor mentioned possibly going sledding if we do get some snowfall.

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Fyodor Dostoyevsky, White Nights

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https://james-winston.tumblr.com/post/32570368574

sorry i don't know how to reblog properly so. i will just credit @james-winston. thank you very much for sharing this quote with us!

so here it is.

and that story with Carl Perkins... Paul was in SUCH denial.

i also always remember how Paul said that you couldn't even say 'that's a good shot' or 'gun' around him because it triggered him immediately...

Happy New Years’ I can’t stop thinking about and imagining how fucking sad it is to think that, allegedly, Paul didn’t believe John had died at first when he heard the news that John got hurt/shot. He really believed John had survived, and was wondering when he could go visit John in the hospital. 

And when I think about that, I mean– it sort of explains why he was so insensitive to it all at first [though shock and stress of it all can cause that sort of reaction in some people] and had thought it to be a “drag.” It’s sort of something you’d say if you heard your friend had simply hurt themselves being a stupid wanker, and it’s simply a drag to just make sure they’re okay and going to be fine. It’s something you’d say if you thought it wasn’t so serious, just a scratch from being dumb, you’ll make it to see another day.

“Stop being such a drag John, get up, you’re alright, walk it off, no need to be dramatic now, come off it, don’t we got plans to start making music again together and here you are…” but John doesn’t just, walk it off. It wasn’t just some close call, or him being an idiot. John was shot dead. 

I just, can’t stop mulling it over around in my head. It’s so fucking tragic, why am I doing this to myself.

[amelanda]

are you living or are you just jumping from one obsession to the other to run away from yourself

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Diary Entries of Robert Bruce Banner #3

December 29th, 2019

I had to look at my phone before writing down the date. This entry could honestly cover the last 5 days, seeing as were all stuck in the post-Christmas limbo.

Christmas was good. Really fun actually. Tony had the idea of getting our kids together and have them all open Christmas presents with all of us. Tony and Pepper brought Morgan, Scott and Hope brought Cassie, and Clint brought Kate. It was...really nice. A little too loud for me, but if laughter is the loudest thing I’ll endure again, I’ll gladly accept it.

Thor and I have just been lying around the house doing nothing. Pretty sure we’ve watched 20-something movies at this point and could feed a city with the amount of takeout he’s ordered. When we aren’t vegging, Thor has been trying the new guitar and he’s got the nack for it. It brings a smile on my face to see him play.

#THIS IS WHAT I NEEDED TODAY

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peepee poopoo 🐖

#EXACTLY #WHENEVER I MAKE GIFS IT TAKES ME FOREVERRRR #i mean i don't complain i love making gifs #BUT #it's not 5 min process

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Bruce Banner’s heart of gold.

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Avengers: Infinity War (2018)

#you're so right #i love bruce to death BUT she's smarter #and that's amazing #and i wanna see them being science buddies

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I’m just a traveler. Sometimes I see things need fixing, I do what I can.

Haven’t done anything Doctor Who in ages so a small sketchy 13 piece it is

Edit: since some of you guys asked me about the prints, you can now get them at my Redbubble store

#i don't watch dw anymore #but #THIS #this is so beautiful

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#my fav moment

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“You’re stronger than her, you’re smarter than her, you’re Bruce Banner.”

#BRUCE... #god i miss him SO much it's unreal

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Diary Entries of Robert Bruce Banner #2

December 18th, 2019

50 years old. Didn’t think I’d make it this far.

Thor woke me up this morning with forehead kisses and happy birthdays. He claimed I was “a youthful babe in the cradle of the cosmos.” It made me smile, I know he was trying to make me feel young, but I’m not Asgardian. But then again I’m unsure of how the gamma rays affected my aging. We’ll wait and see.

Thor and I went into town for brunch and he gave me the first part of my gift which was one of those Jr. Volcano kits. We headed back to the house and put it together. I’m glad we started to give each other joke gifts. It makes things so much more light hearted and non stressful.

Tony and Pepper stopped by and gave me their gift and best wishes, I haven’t opened it yet, but they’re not here so it’s not too high on my priority list.

Thor is putting a movie in now, he says it’s my favorite but honest to god I have no clue what that is.

#THE ENDING KILLED ME #this is so good damn

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Diary Entries of Robert Bruce Banner #1

December 14th, 2019

I never really liked Christmas, but I guess this year is different. Dad and Mom never celebrated it, we never had family to celebrate it with so it was something they didn’t bother with.

Tony always invited me to the Avengers Christmas party but I always avoided it, but this year I went and actually enjoyed myself. Steve whipped up some kind of festive drink, it had vodka and some kind of peppermint? I don’t know. I didn’t enjoy it too much but drinking socially is okay.

We swapped gifts but I unfortunately wasn’t ready and didn’t have anything for my friends, but they assured me it was fine. I’m still gonna go out and buy them gifts because I felt bad and I care about them.

I’m glad the meaning of Christmas is changing.

#💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 #my heart...... #bruce baby I'm so happy things are changing for youuu