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blck-eyed-bl0nde · 5 years

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because a lot of us grew up not knowing how to take care of ourselves :/

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blck-eyed-bl0nde · 5 years

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When you are writing a story and refer to a character by a physical trait, occupation, age, or any other attribute, rather than that character’s name, you are bringing the reader’s attention to that particular attribute. That can be used quite effectively to help your reader to focus on key details with just a few words. However, if the fact that the character is “the blond,” “the magician,” “the older woman,” etc. is not relevant to that moment in the story, this will only distract the reader from the purpose of the scene.

If your only reason for referring to a character this way is to avoid using his or her name or a pronoun too much, don’t do it. You’re fixing a problem that actually isn’t one. Just go ahead and use the name or pronoun again. It’ll be good.

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blck-eyed-bl0nde · 5 years

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The U.S. is so weird. This place is so capitalist, once you can’t reproduce or work, you’re pretty much left to die alone. No one sees you. Everyone disregards you.

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blck-eyed-bl0nde · 5 years

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Reblog and you might save someone’s life, especially with all our Black Girls going missing #ProtectBlackGirls #SaveLife

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I Don’t Think Anyone Will Talk But....

I was hoping maybe someone would be out there. Because I’m alone pretty often. And even when I’m not, I feel lonely. And I’ve been in a really bad place mentally for a long time. But I’m afraid to look sad in front of the people I know anymore because reaching out hasn’t gone very well in the past. I don’t want them to know that I STILL never figured out how to be okay.....So I’m just here. And my own head is the worst voice to be alone with.

I’m just realizing there is not one single person on this whole planet I will ever be able to talk to. All my relationships, family and friends alike, are surface level. I’m doing my best to grow as a person and be comfortable with being myself and I can’t help but feel like people are displeased over every little thing. I feel such critical eyes on me. And I know I’m supposed to brush it off and tell myself, “Who cares what people think. Be you, the right people will stay. If they don’t appreciate you then who needs them?”....But then before I knew it, there was no one. When I stop joking, and shed the sunshine and sarcasm, and sit down with myself and really look inward, there is no one I feel ok with or safe with. So now I feel like it is literally me against everyone. Me defending my right to exist freely and do what makes me happy against everyone else who disapproves of my every move.

I don’t know what hurts more, the sometimes outright judgement and criticism of near strangers, or the indifference of my own family. It just feels SO HEAVY. I can’t get away from it. The only escape I get is being in denial of it and pretending I don’t notice it or feel fake when I’m with other people. And again, what’s worse? Sitting alone with my intrusive thoughts, or feeling lonely and fake with people who I’m supposed to feel loved by? I just question that love constantly because I don’t feel loved. I feel tolerated.

I think I might actually be going crazy at this point. I keep telling myself it isn’t normal to think this much about things, that I’m paranoid and maybe people know something is off and what I’m sensing is just how uncomfortable I’m making them. It’s possible. Just writing this is so difficult because I feel like there are a dozen people inside me, each with their own version of the life I’ve lived and their own ideas about how I should be handling things. I can’t focus on what to even say to convey just how this feels. I don’t think there is enough time in this lifetime to sift through it all and get the right answer or find the right words.

I always said anxiety and depression were such a weird combo. I don’t care about anything accept all the things that don’t matter.

-Syd

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blck-eyed-bl0nde · 5 years

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Writers As Kinds of Tea

Jasmine: Gentle, flowery prose with beautiful romantic storylines. They’re a staple of indie and traditional writing. They usually are sweet and their characters tend to be gentle and warm. They collect pretty candles and their moodboards are very neat.

Earl Grey: This writer is in the quiet libraries. They are always enthusiastic about writing, then they get on the computer and goof off on tumblr. They do eventually write, little by little. Their characters aren’t always the strongest, but their worldbuilding is on point.

Chai: These are the ones who are up all night writing. Their action scenes and villains are electric and their romances fiery. They’re the strongest when it’s 2 am and they’re hopped up on sugar and paranoia. They do NaNo every year and they have like 90 WIPs.

Lemon Ginger: Smut Sneakers. Now, these writers are amazing at setting everything up and then suddenly, when you’re at the bottom of the cup… It’s lemony, spicy smut that hits you in the stomach. They’re fun and bouncy and great at comforting people.

Darjeeling: These are the sci-fi writers who write about beautiful distant planets. They collect stationary and make moodboards instead of writing. They are down-to earth and write some of most tearjerking angst you will ever read.

Matcha: These are the short story writers. Their stories are fluffy and warm and leave you feeling energetic. They have a gentle prose and the fluff they write pulls you in until you safe and warm.

Orange Pekoe: They’re not very good under pressure, but they’re trying damnit. Most of their stuff is dark and terrifying and needs to have milk and sugar added to it. They like dystopias, monsters and apocalypses.

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blck-eyed-bl0nde · 5 years

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ATTENTION WRITERS

Google BetaBooks. Do it now. It’s the best damn thing EVER.

You just upload your manuscript, write out some questions for your beta readers to answer in each chapter, and invite readers to check out your book!

It’s SO easy!

You can even track your readers! It tells you when they last read, and what chapter they read!

Your beta readers can even highlight and react to the text!!!

There’s also this thing where you can search the website for available readers best suited for YOUR book!

Seriously guys, BetaBooks is the most useful website in the whole world when it comes to beta reading, and… IT’S FREE.

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blck-eyed-bl0nde · 5 years

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I’m just super fucking bitter that once the flint water crisis got it’s 15 minutes of fame people stopped giving a shit. The water is still poisoned, people! Donations have plummeted and people have been forced back into drinking and bathing with the water! The medical effects of this are astounding, cases of legionnaires disease have skyrocketed, people are having seizures, people are having weird rashes break out over their body, people (including me!) are having their blood poisoned, and it’s not just lead! it’s coliform bacteria! it’s THMs! it’s all in the water and it gets into the bloodstream and breaks down blood vessels, causing bruising and petechiae and internal bleeding and no one gives a shit anymore and it’s only gotten worse like how many people are going to have to die until people realize this is still a problem

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blck-eyed-bl0nde · 5 years

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I Keep My Dreams Quiet

But they’re so beautiful, the world might be a different place if I decided to contribute them to it.

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blck-eyed-bl0nde · 5 years

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More Than Anything, I Want To Publish These Stories

I’ve been handwriting stories (some entire novels) since middle school. I would really like to type them out and edit them and send them to a publisher. I’ve never owned my own laptop. I have nudes I’d sell or painting or drawing services.

Please DM if interested! I need to make some SCHMONEY $$ 💰