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Esme every time the family moves.

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he opens the door with his pinky. this is so cute to me. strong…..dainty……fancy …… a gentle doctor man……how many doors has he fucked up to get to this

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When your mom has an unexplained goth phase

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Esme and Carlisle

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Since vampires don’t need to breathe, do you think some of them just live underwater? Like mermaids? Perhaps Carlisle just spent a year swimming in the oceans eating orcas.

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Guys I created Carlisle and Esme chatbots on Character ai!!

This is still a very rough wip (just made it a few hours ago) but it's responding so well so far regarding personal background story and personalities. I'm still working on incorporating more details (especially those relat to other novel characters and plots)

Pls feel free to try this out. And here are some test run results

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Esme and Carlisle just standing there like “What the fuck did he just call her”

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Sketch

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Lmao why is Angela on brand though 😂

Credit to this user they are hilarious 😂

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If you're up to it, could you write about Carlisle having dinner at Esme's farmhouse (in the teen AU universe) sometime after the last installment. Maybe have her dad trying to intimidate him to know if Carlisle would be a good choice for his daughter. And/or her mother bringing Charles up, comparing them, but making clear that Charles is her preferred option. I live for the potential drama.

Esme tried to contain her smile at the sight of him blushing. She’d been nudging her foot against his every few minutes or so, the first time nearly making him drop the bowl of potatoes the family was passing around.

“It still amazes me that the two of you have become such close friends” Mrs. Platt said. “Young ladies and eligible bachelors don’t usually form such friendships.”

“Perhaps that’s why so many young ladies are miserable after getting married.” Esme responded, pushing her food around with a fork.

“Esme.” Her father grumbled.

Her mother continued as if Esme hadn’t spoken. “There is a reason we keep so divided. Women have their roles and men have theirs. A man wouldn’t want his wife going out and supporting the family just as a wife wouldn’t want to see her husband in the kitchen.”

“I love being in the kitchen with Carlisle. We made an apple pie just last week.”

“Well, Esme, you’re not his wife now, are you?”

“Not yet.” Carlisle said, his eyes shining with a level of indignation that Esme had never seen in him.

A silence fell over the room briefly before Mrs. Platt spoke up once again. “Charles Evenson has his eye on Esme. He just might beat you to it.”

“I’m not sure it’s a race. And even if it was, Esme has no feelings for Charles.”

“Feelings will come in time.” She told him. “You know nothing of marriage yet.”

“I won’t marry him.” Esme said, setting her fork aside. “Even if no one else ever asks for my hand, I won’t marry Charles.”

Mr. Platt sighed. “You’re being stubborn as a mule, Esme. That man would take good care of you. He comes from a decent family with good money.”

“I would take care of her too.” Carlisle said.

“On a pastor’s salary?” Her father scoffed.

“No, on a doctor’s salary.” He replied.

Esme couldn’t help but smile, the pride overcoming her. He’d just recently told her how seriously he was considering medical school.

“And even if she didn’t want to marry me or anyone else, Esme could take care of herself. One day, her artwork is going to hang in famous galleries.”

Esme’s parents shared a look across the table before her father responded. “If this is your way of asking for her hand, you’re doing a mighty poor job.”

“It wasn’t.”

“He has my permission.”

Carlisle smiled at her across the table. “And that’s all I need.”

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A familiar wolf whistle behind her stopped Esme mid-descent of the main staircase. “Look at you,” the familiar loving said as heavy footsteps got closer, a large hand on the small of her back. She turned into the embrace, looking up at her husband an abnormal amount due to their position on the stairs. “You used to have chemises longer than these shorts,” he said in a low voice, eyes scanning down her body, fingers fiddling with the, albeit short, hemline of her gardening shorts. 

“I know,” she laughed lightly, arms loosely wrapping around his waist. “Apparently this is the human fashion nowadays.” 

“I’m certainly not complaining,” he muttered into the point where her neck met her shoulder, lips hovering over an imprint of his own teeth. 

“Do you think one day we’ll all be walking around nude?” 

“I won’t,” he scoffed lightly. “But I wouldn’t object if you did.” He looked up, well down, at her with that boyish grin that showed all twenty-three years of his age. 

“Secrecy is of the utmost importance, Dr. Cullen. You can’t afford to not conform to societal norms,” she teased, poking at his sides. Her husband had never conformed to societal norms and they both knew it. 

“If everyone jumped off a cliff would -” 

Carlisle’s eyes went wide at his mistake, comically wide, his mouth was moving as if he was speaking frantically but not a sound was coming out. She let him flounder for thirty seconds, until she could no longer hold the solemn expression on her face and burst into a grin. 

“No, I go all on my own,” she beamed, breaking out of his embrace and bounding back down the stairs towards her garden. 

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I’ve risen from the dead to present you with my new favourite TikTok OC, that’s basically just an Esme Cullen variant.

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WHEN I SAY ESME IS A CURLY GIRL I SAID ESME IS A CURLY GIRL

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I watched Twilight with my partner last night (his first time) and the first time Carlisle comes on screen he said "that man looks like the human embodiment of a breath mint" and we had to stop the movie so I could process that.

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Hi! It's me bothering u again. But you recently said "it's important to note that these two's 'fights' are usually decades apart, they're definitely weird and weird", so I'm wondering if you have a specific idea of ​​what the house feels like when they fight? or what are the "kids'" thoughts and feelings about the fight or argument? because, c'mon, they're their parents

thank u for the firts answer about "Safe landing". Btw, i love all your work

First off, never a bother. Questions like this challenge me to look at these dynamics in ways I often haven’t before and force me to enrich my own writing by doing so. I also feel honored that anyone wants to hear my thoughts so no never a bother.

The referenced post.

Also I want to clarify when I say they don’t fight a lot, I don’t mean they don’t disagree, they do… a lot. (I am, once again, deferring to @gisellelx who put this thought much better than I could here).

But of course the entire family would have reactions to both Carlisle and Esme's fights and disagreements.

Undercut for brief references to domestic abuse and the after effects of such.

Fights in my mind are different from disagreements. Which is why I said fights are rare and weird. Trying to explain this is really convincing me to actually sit down and write that analysis but in the meantime I’ll annoyingly quote previous writing on how I think Esme and Carlisle fight weird:

“In their marriage they had to learn how to fight; to be honest they were still learning how to fight. Carlisle was, of course, terrified any sort of disagreement would make him her ex-husband. He’d rather die of discontent than ever make himself comparable to that man, to ever make her feel unsafe in their union...

What he hadn’t imagined was she was the one who had to refrain from becoming someone from her first marriage. She never hit him, she never would, in truth she was never anything more than angry. It was such a stark juxtaposition from the woman she typically was.

But in disagreements was the only moment Carlisle ever got a glimpse of the wife Charles had sculpted himself. Not the placating pushover who blamed herself for his abuse. The woman who had grown from a girl who challenged authority, pushed boundaries, and was stubborn as a goat and more than proud of it. The woman who emerged in their fights explained so much. It was ingrained in her psyche, disagreements were vicious wars. Defensives raised at the slightest provocations. A generally disinterested tone that triggered his own defenses.”

Now what does the rest of the family think of Esme and Carlisle's disagreements and fights?

Most of the time they’re genuinely not a witness for actual fights. Carlisle and Esme both respect each other to try to confront their bigger fundamental disagreements in private, always trying to give each other the benefit of the doubt. Key word try.

Sometimes there are extenuating circumstances. Like during Bella’s pregnancy the entire house, sans Bella’s human ears, heard Esme whisper through clenched teeth, “a word, Carlisle.” And they heard Carlisle’s even harsher, “I have many for you at this moment.” No matter how quiet the couple tried to be, their ‘children’ could hear a few jabs.

They heard the end of the fight in particular. Esme’s light out of place laugh, Carlisle’s scathing ‘you find this humorous?’ Then Esme’s eerily calm, “I’m just realizing all these years you’ve been right. I could never see why you saw yourself like that. But now I think I finally understand.” That was the end of the fight, and the end of the discussion, those words haunt Carlisle pretty much every day and she only partially regrets them.

The kids have gotten both simultaneously very good and very bad at telling when a disagreement is going to happen.

Carlisle and Esme have (at least in my head) a very specific brand of banter that can turn on a dime very easily and unintentionally. They’ve both had to learn how to communicate with the other when they’re not in the mood to hear jokes about their age or that they need flat out support without a sarcastic retort. The kids however don’t really understand this line and often misinterpret things Carlisle and Esme find harmless as passive aggressive and vice versa. Which results in misplaced protectiveness or insulting laughs.

But there are tell-tale signs that they all kind of recognize as Carlisle and Esme both refusing to acknowledge their discontent, which just comes with living with people that long. All the kids know if Esme is acting uncharacteristically nice something is wrong. One time in the 60’s Jasper and Emmett broke through an eight foot tall antique window and she did not blink an eye. “It’s just glass,” was all she said with a tight smile. She stops advocating for her opinions when upset, instead blindly agreeing to keep the peace. Carlisle lies about hunting when he’s mad, he’ll say he went after work despite his eyes being pitch black. He stops listening to others. “We’re moving, I apologize you’re frustrated with that decision but it is happening.” He works even more than usual, which is difficult to do.

A lot of the time they subconsciously try to meditate when they see these signs. If Carlisle’s working a lot one of them, most likely Emmett, will lightheartedly point it out. If Esme’s been absurdly withdrawn someone, most likely Emmett, will point it out and try to draw her back into reality.

But the three who consciously try to mediate, even during fights, are Edward, Alice, and Jasper (to an extent). Edward is really the one who cares. From 1921-1927 he was unintentionally the middle man. Carlisle and Esme didn’t try to triangulate him in. He felt they deserved to be happy and in Edward logic he could ensure that by making sure they never fought. It didn’t work, it just meant in 1927 when there was an Edward shaped hole in their relationship they fought and boy did they fight after he left. By the time he rejoins the scene they’ve learned how to communicate with each other and he often is a hindrance in their fights. This does not stop him from stepping in. Alice feels responsible for trying to stop things before they happen, which usually means disagreements turn into fights on a later day because resentment has risen. Jasper tries to appease emotions, they’re both passionate people so he feels good when they’re happy, and when they’re angry it is palpable. These attempts again don't work because conflict is healthy, and some would argue crucial for a relationship to work.

Rosalie is pretty much always on Esme’s side in fights. No matter what. Even if, objectively, Esme is being stupid, Esme is one of the two people Rosalie will play ‘Devil’s Advocate’ for. I’ve joked Rosalie would kill Carlisle if Esme asked, or pack up a bag and drive the getaway car, but I mean it.

At first they were really hesitant to even disagree in front of Rosalie, which resulted in them having their second or fourth biggest fight ever, depending on who you ask. But Rosalie assumed the worst when they both returned on the verge of impossible tears. When Esme refused to really speak about Charles or Royce for weeks afterward, that was practically confirmation of the theory Rosalie had built up in her mind. She had avoided speaking to Carlisle directly at the point but she managed to get Edward and Esme out of the house somehow and then she let him have it. She gave Carlisle forty-two seconds, yes she counted, to explain himself, and he had never spoken so fast. He reveals how far back Rosalie has set back Esme, how he is not the one hurting her, ect.

From then on they don’t shy away from disagreeing in front of Rosalie. She needed an example of a “healthy” relationship, and assurance that Carlisle was not abusing his wife.

Edward 99.5% of the time is on Carlisle’s side. (Unless Esme’s safety is in question then that’s a different story and the Mama’s boy who killed her first husband jumps out).

Emmett doesn’t really care all that much. He respects how they can easily disagree but makes jokes to Carlisle about missing out on “makeup-sex” which resulting in Carlisle desperately attempting to hold his tongue, and if Edward is in earshot wishing for death.

Alice and Jasper try to help out a little with their gifts but don’t objectively care all that much besides trying to “keep the peace.”

Bella on the other hand needs to see resolution. Her narration is very insecure, especially when it comes to romantic relationships. I imagine it’s very possible Renee had more than one boyfriend introduced as a permanent fixture only to be gone a week later. But even if not, the stories of Charlie and Renee’s relationship wouldn’t give Bella the best confidence. So in canon it’s no wonder she idealizes and romanticizes some of the Cullens and that “perfect” family they present themselves as (or Edward idealizes and the narrative sticks but I digress). When she hears Carlisle and Esme openly disagree for the first time she interprets it as the end. The next time she saw them they were acting completely normal but she was still suspicious.

A few weeks later she’s in Carlisle’s study and quietly says she’s glad he got back together, and then something about how she wouldn’t want him to go through the pain she saw her parents go through.

After a while he finally looks up from his laptop. “My apologies, I missed who was getting a divorce?”

“You and Esme… but you two are back together, which is good. I'm so happy for you. Did I say something wrong? I’m sorry I brought it up. That was stupid, forget I said anything,” Bella stammers.

“Es!” Carlisle shouts across the house. She’s in the study in a minute. “Did you know we're leaving each other?”

“I don’t have it on my calendar,” Esme said. “But can we do it next week? It works a lot better for me.”

“Isabella thought we had decided to go separate ways.”

Esme laughs but they’re both looking at Bella for an explanation. “You guys had that fight in the kitchen, and Esme you said that you were “done with the conversation and couldn’t keep having this fight for the rest of your life.””

Esme and Carlisle were matching frowns for a half minute until Esme understood. “The fight about him putting my Tupperware in the dishwasher?”

“They had red lids, you have said for decades the pink ones can go in the dishwasher. Red is in the same color family as pink, you the artist should know that.”

“The pink ones are Pyrex, completely different things, and they don’t go in that thing either.”

That’s when Bella realizes while they’re “fighting” they’re not mad, they’re both smiling, Esme’s arm is casually wrapped around her husband’s shoulders, he had angled his desk chair as she walked up so she could stand by him. She feels stupid for even worrying, of course they wouldn’t end an almost century long marriage over dish-ware but she was afraid, and that fear was real.

Carlisle and Esme recognize this pretty instantaneously and share a quick look of ‘we don’t know how we found another wildly traumatized teen but here we go.’

All that to say they make a point around Bella of either reemphasizing commitment or reconciling all together, even if they’ve talked it over in private they’ll fake a public truce. Sometimes that emphasis looks weird to everyone else; like Carlisle being welcomed home with an “I’m mad at you.”

And he’ll respond with a calm “Sounds good, we have dinner plans with Dr. Walters and her wife on Friday.”

“Great, what are we bringing?” Esme will ask, and then they’ll talk about why she’s mad at him.

In short: Each kid has a different reaction, some really mind and others not so much.

Thank you so much for asking, and for the very kind words. 💖💖

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Esme's human life and work in Ashland

I was thinking about Esme's life in Ashland and i did some research and calculation the other day. Astonished by the numbers, I can't imagine how difficult it was for Esme to live and work as a single mom, and how brave she was to leave Charles at the first place.

Salary:

Because public schools and better private schools require teacher certification, plus with her pregnant condition, Esme might have taught in a small private primary school for children from working-class families. So her salary was very likely below the average of $1,019, about $65- $70 / month, $750- $800 / year maxium. Esme made up the widow's lie so that she could not actually go collect the pension and the salary is all her income.

Living cost:

Referring to the 1921 cost of living. The rent was about $15-18 / month, food was $8 per month, clothing was ab $7 / month, fuel (coal, wood, gas and electricity) was about $7 / month), health was $4 / month average and other expenses about $5 / month. Ideally, a minimum of about $46-49/ month is required. However, considering her condition medical expenses, clothing should all be higher than the average monthly expenditure, so the monthly expenses may be higher than $50. It would cost her $20 if she chose to give birth in a hospital. There was little money left to save.

Workload：

Teachers also put in a lot of physical labor, which was especially difficult for Esme, who was pregnant. In the 1920s, teachers were also responsible for the construction of schools. They had to oil the lamps, carry a bucket of water and a small lump of coal as a heater, sweep the floor, clean the blackboard before 7 a.m. so the classroom would be warm and clean before 8 a.m. classes. Once a week, the teacher has to scrub the classroom floor.

*National Industrial Conference Board. (1921). The cost of living among wageearners. Detroit, Michigan, September, 1921. New York: National industrial conference board

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