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i think i love you, which is odd, because i promised myself i couldn't love anything that breathes - on account of a sense for the dramatic and also one time i got thrown against the ground so hard that the splatter was chalk dust. i said i'd never let that happen standing up. it happened like a sunrise anyway, between the fingers over my eyes. you flew as a bird and made a nest in my heart. i want it to pass over me like a locust. my hands keep shaking. anything close can cut through bone. like looking down a deep hole, i hear the stones skitter over and plunge. i wanna be an adult about this and instead i feel like crying. this will only make things worse. i wasn't supposed to do this again. what a fool, this girl.

it's like she wants to get hurt.

#lovesick #yearn

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I think any inanimate thing you regularly care for becomes a little alive.

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@roach-works // Melissa Broder, "Problem Area" // Mary Oliver, "The Return" // @annavonsyfert // Koyoharu Gotouge, Demon Slayer // Haruki Murakami, Dance Dance Dance // David Levithan, How They Met and Other Stories // Tennessee Williams, Notebooks

#recovery #I think

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little update: my hair was long and now it's not

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going insane

#losing my mind #lovesick #yearn

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familiar things

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"heaven sent" filet crochet (inspo) - do not repost

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love changes you

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The Collected Poems, ‘Poem for a Birthday’ by Sylvia Plath 

[ID: Eaten or Rotten. I am all mouth.]

#sick #ab me

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they are Cancelling me for dealing with my grief as best i can . also for the vicious war Crimes

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if you were a deity, what would you be the god of

#beauty and relationships #ab me #quizzes

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heather havrilesky

#oh #lmao #negative #ab now #ab b #tw

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in the club tearing the fuck out of my fingernails and cuticles

#type shit I’m on

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― Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

#lose my mind every time I see this post #ab now #lovesick #touch starved #yearn

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#weird

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#lovesick #yearn #I know this may be referencing the flower but alas. I do not care

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you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they’re gonna find out

#HAH #ab me #negative #perception #self image #I fear there is something terribly wrong with me