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Fic Writers/Readers!!!!!

Okay, so it's been a rough year for a lot of reasons, but one thing that has suffered and been ignored a lot this past year, for me, has been my fic writing. Recent events, however (being dragged back into this fandom kicking and screaming) have inspired me to start working again on the fics that I abandoned. A couple are going to have to stay on the back burner for now until I can get my groove going again, but I wanted to share the prologue to one I had started because I got super excited about when the idea popped into my head. I think this is going to be the one that gets me back into things and I wanted to see if anyone might be interested.

It's horror/thriller canon compliant (mostly) up to 15x08 (Destiel stuff involved) and it will feature a lot of characters. It might be a finale fix-it, I'm not sure, I don't have an outline for the ending yet, but it has some really good bones and I just wanna know if it's worth it. It's not edited or anything yet but if you could give the prologue an read and leave a like or a comment or a criticism I would really appreciate it. Thank you.

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Prologue

Dean woke up. Same as every morning. He got out of bed and headed to the bathroom, where he did his business and took a shower. He brushed his teeth and changed into his work clothes, before walking down the hallway lined with pictures, a time capsule of his life's most significant moments. His wedding, baby pictures, his family trip to the Grand Canyon, his graduation, Sam's graduation, Ben's. He let his finger trace over a picture of his parents, holding him on the day he was born, as he passed by, before making his way into the kitchen, where he was greeted by the smell of coffee and bacon.

Lisa smiled, kissing him on the cheek as she handed him his mug before heading out the door to go to work. Dean waved her goodbye as he sat down at the table with his paper. He drank his coffee and ate his breakfast, as he scanned the day's headlines. Same as every morning. Once he was finished, he took his plate and fork to the sink and washed them, setting them neatly on the drying rack before grabbing his keys and  locking up the house. He sauntered outside, whistling a happy tune down the walkway to his shiny new sedan parked in the driveway.

Dean climbed into the fuel efficient vehicle, started it up and turned up the volume to blast the day's Top 20 before heading down the street to pick up Sam. He parked infront of the two story townhouse, waiting on his brother to finish wishing his wife and kids goodbye. Dean leaned out the window to wave off Becky and the kids as Sam climbed into the passenger seat. Once his brother was safely buckled, Dean pulled safely away from the curb and started off towards City Hall to drop Sam off for work. The two of them joked and laughed on the drive across town, just as they had every morning. Once Sam had left the car, Dean drove to work, arriving at the fire station minutes early, like always. He greeted Bobby in the office on his way to the lockers, where he finished putting on his gear, officially ready to start his day.

It was a typical day. One small grease fire at the local diner that was put out in a couple of minutes, a cat stuck up a tree, a local teen caught in the tube slide at the park, and a desk full of paper work. Nothing too strenuous, nothing too stressful, nothing exciting or eventful, same as every day. When his shift was over, he clocked out, wished Bobby goodnight and, knowing Becky and the boys had picked Sam up as usual, he headed home. Lisa greeted him as he walked in the door, from the kitchen where she was setting the table for dinner. Dean took off his boots, set them by the door, and went to the kitchen to help his wife.

Dean and Lisa sat down at the table and ate their dinner, telling each other about their days, as they always did. Once they were done eating, the two of them cleaned up together and moved to the living room, where they sat on the couch to watch an episode of the same sitcom they watched every night. As the end credits began to roll, Dean reached for the remote and shut the TV off. He and Lisa began their nightly routine. Dean went around the house, locking all the doors as Lisa went around turning off the lights before the two of them headed upstairs to get ready for bed. They each took a shower and changed into pajamas. They both brushed their teeth, they both climbed in bed and they kissed each other goodnight, just as they did every night, before closing their eyes to go to sleep.

As Dean layed in bed, eyes closed, waiting on sleep to whisk him into the unconcious realm, he wondered what is was that got him to this point. He racked his brain thinking back on everything he had done that could have lead him to having a wife, a kid, a good job and a happy family. What could have possibly lead him to marry the woman he never thought he would have, what lead Sam to start a happily family with the woman he once avoided? He couldn't for the life of him figure out how it was, he was living the American dream. Somehow he and his brother had been given the apple pie life. It was an absolute mystery to him.

How any of this was possible, he wasn't sure, but there was one thing Dean was absolutely certain of:

He was in a Fucking. Living. Nightmare!

#destiel #fanfic #ao3 #help me decide #do i want to do this

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Y'all, someone on Twitter just told me that fanfiction is rarely novel length.

They told ME that, when the context was “the best novel (a specific) someone knowledgeable has never read.”

I’m cackling.

Raise your hand if you have written fanfic longer than 60k. I’m raising all my limbs like a horse rolling on its back because I’ve written many things longer than 200k*.

(sort any popular fandom by bookmarks, define the word count and you’ll find many excellent 60k+ works that I can almost guarantee that editor hasn’t read, and in some, you’ll still be finding professional quality work 20 pages in. That’s 20 pages of ao3 search results. Not everything will be that good, but many will.)

*2 of them are not on ao3, and my series are often novels broken into parts, each “story” more a subsection of a larger plot than a truly separate entity because digital publishing is flexible that way.

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Okay, so little announcement/coming out/vent.

First and foremost, if y'all followed me from ao3, from the depths of my heart, THANK YOU! I know I am not consistent in posting fics and the fact that you bothered to read any of my stuff is enough... but to follow me...wow. You guys are amazing!

I have had a hell of a year, including (but not limited to) losing my night shift job that I loved, almost losing my spouse due to their neurological issues, thinking they might have brain damge for a solid month due to those neurological issues, losing my relationship with my mother because she turned my situation into a political debate, all while trying to be a decent parent to my kids and not let them see that I was breaking, during a continuing pandemic in a state that does not care about the safety of others. There is more, but I'm not here to complain. I just wanted to give a brief explanation as to why I haven't really posted anything in a while. I've written things, just lost motivation to post.

The thing that has gotten me through this year is my fandoms and you guys. I thank each and every follower on all my stupid blogs and the people I follow, for giving me an escape from the fucking shit storm that has been this year. And because of you beautiful people, I am beginning to learn that it is okay to be myself without hiding behind a screen. You see, until this year, there were maybe four people I know IRL who knew I even wrote fanfiction. Hence, creating this little side blog. But now, I'm feeling a little more confident in myself. Now, a good majority of the people who actually know me....actually know me. So, I'm opening up a little more of my world to the people who helped me get there.

If you want to continue following this page for my fics, that's fine. I'll continue posting updates here ( I have about 2 or three in the works). But, if you want to see the true level of my insanity, see reblogged shitposts, a bunch of destiel ( with occasional cockles content) and some other fandoms sprinkled in, you can follow me here: @kagesdumpsterfire

I'll reblog this post there as well, but I have a couple rules:

If you know me IRL, no you don't.

If you know me IRL please do not read A Thing of Fiction....the risk is too great. It's poorly written, under construction and well...just don't do it.

PLEASE do not let the actor people perceive me. My anxiety is too high.

If you see previous posts on either page that contradict one another, remember, I was trying to not be me. Just shake your head, judge silenty, and leave it be.

If you feel I am wrong about something or want to call me out on something, that is fine, just please be respectful.

Keep specific fic talk here.

I may add more. Idk. This is still kind of scary to me.

Thank you all so much. Truly, for everything. Enjoy.

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Nonononononono!

NOOOOOO!

#fanfic #misha collins #I use to live in constant fear of one of them coming across my fics! #now i know it a distict possibility #im freaking out

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Not to be an opportunist or anything but... in light of recent goings on....

If you're looking for a nice long Good Omens/Supernatural crossover Complete with slow burn Destiel, confused Ineffable Husbands, finale fixit (that is also somehow slightly clairvoyant considering most of it was written before the final season even aired and well...you'll see) that features a handful of fan favorites from both fandoms then I might just have the fic for you....

Chapters: 33/33 Fandom: Supernatural, Good Omens - Neil Gaiman & Terry Pratchett Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Aziraphale/Crowley (Good Omens) Characters: Castiel, Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Rowena MacLeod, Aziraphale (Good Omens), Crowley (Good Omens), Kaia Nieves, Adam Young (Good Omens), Anathema Device, Various Demons, Garth Fitzgerald IV, Claire Novak Additional Tags: Ineffable Husbands (Good Omens), Castiel and Dean Winchester Have a Profound Bond, Fluff and Angst, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Post-Episode: s14e20 Moriah, Confused Dean Winchester, Drunk Castiel (Supernatural), This is Getting Out of Hand, Sam is a Saint, Anthony J. Crowley and Dean Winchester should be bffs, Aziraphale is so done with these two, Winchesteritus, Dean’s Top 13 Zepp Traxx Mixtape, Idiots in Love, Mixtape origin, Aliens, Dean’s great with kids, Jealous!Cas, Happy? Reunions, Dean’s in dean-ial, Crowley is a Little Shit, Aziraphale is precious, Badass Castiel, Aziraphale Loves Crowley (Good Omens), Crowley Loves Aziraphale (Good Omens), A little PTSD, Honestly tagging anything else beyond this point would be spoilery, Sorry Not Sorry Summary:

After Chuck sets ‘The End’ in motion, the remaining members of TFW make a miraculous escape. Not willing to waste any time, Castiel comes up with a plan to travel to one of the other world’s to try and get help from the angels there, but after a fight with Dean, it’s the hunter who gets sent into an alternate universe,with seemingly no hope of return.

When a mysterious human with a heavenly weapon shows up in Aziraphale’s shop, he and Crowley learn that their world is not the only one. Now it is up to them to decide whether or not they want to join forces with the human and help him save his world or simply find a way to send him home.

#destiel #ineffable husbands #fanfic #crossover #good omens #supernatural #is this shameless advertising #yes #but it's the only work of mine I'm actually proud of #so check it out if it tickles your fancy #or not idk

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Do you consider fanfiction legitimate writing?

I won the 2004 Hugo Award for Best Short Story for an H. P. Lovecraft /Arthur Conan Doyle mashup fiction, so fanfiction had better be legitimate, because I'm not giving the Hugo back.

Or the 20O5 Locus Award for Best Novelette. I'm not giving that back either.

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*cracks knuckles* lets see if i can do fluffy fic without making myself cry.

I need this

Someone?? is there a fanfic of this??? any fic recs??? I never knew I needed this till now but holy fucking hell is this prompt absolutely magnificent

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*pulls up to the fanfic drive-thru window* uh yeah, i’ll take a fake relationship with a side of mutual pining and thinking the other isn’t interested, thanks

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So, I have a problem now, and I need to ask.

I started working on a long ass Destiel highscool AU a while back and abandoned it after the finale. After the wedding frenzy though, I picked it back up and got 50k in. Then shit hit the fan.

I'm really proud of it so far and I want to keep going with it, but it has Ellen and Ash. I love the characters but...with all the shit the actors pulled...I don't know if people would even bother reading it and starting all over to exclude them would damage the story (not ash so much as Ellen) and im feeling a little discouraged and idk what to do.....

Do the actions of the actors spoil the characters for you?

#destiel #ao3 #fanfic #help #i dont want to put the effort in for nothing

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Yes! Okay, I felt super bad for writing this when i did? Even worse when I saw such a similar scene play out on screen a couple of months later

I also had another fic entirely, where Chuck tells Castiel that he couldn't control him and that he kept messing up the plan. And I know I wasn't alone. I almost feel like the writers went through a bunch of fics and fan theories and just said "here's our finale boys."

Ok so we DID manage to predict the finale. And kind of the black goo engulfing Cas thing.

So I've got a question. Did you stumble upon something resambling confession scene in posts, fics, tweets, anything other? If you want you can submit posts or dm me or whatever but I WANNA find out if there is something similar in supernatural fandom's gigantic archives.

Would be very very thankful for any involvement in this treasure hunt

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Wow, some of ya'll are so pressed. No, I dont think it's funny to bully the actors. ANY OF THEM. I think the extremists who send death threaths and actively try to destroy and diminish their carreers are sick in the head. I think any one who discusses fandom drama, outside of the fandom space, need to get a grip on reality and realize that actors are people too and deserve the same respect and privacy as the rest of us. I think it's stupid, toxic, and a down right waste of time, to spend so much energy on something you hate, instead of something you love. I think it's funny that there are people so dedicated to hating on another person, a person they don't even know, that they will go out of their way to let everybody know. I think its down right hilarious that the people who commented on this post, seem to be the very people who punish themselves by following the every move of someone they hate. I think it's bass ackwards thinking, trying to prove a point by entering a conversation aggressively and expecting someone to back down on their opinion just because you "came in strong". I think it's unfair to make snap judgments about a complete stranger you know next to nothing about because they dont have the same thought process as you. Now, I would love to dust off my old psychology notes and get into why certain people act this way, but I don't want to do something that I know will just irritate me. So instead, I'm going to send my kids off to school, make myself a nice cup of coffee, get on my computer, and go to work, because those are the things that make me happy. Those are the things that bring me peace. I won't be arguing with people on the internet, because it is beyond pointless and beyond frustrating, and I don't like having that kind of energy in my life.

I suggest you find the things that bring you peace as well. I promise you, your life will be better for it.

I'm sorry, what?! 🤣🤣🤣🤣 why are we not talking about Rich throwing shade at the ANTI crowd!? Like, I'm sorry, thats too f*ing funny!

I don't normally post things that involve the actors, but i couldn't help it! the ultra meta this fandom has become! I'm dead!

#misha collins #richard speight jr #kings of con #koc #podcast #i fkn love this cast

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I'm sorry, what?! 🤣🤣🤣🤣 why are we not talking about Rich throwing shade at the ANTI crowd!? Like, I'm sorry, thats too f*ing funny!

I don't normally post things that involve the actors, but i couldn't help it! the ultra meta this fandom has become! I'm dead!

#misha collins #richard speight jr #kings of con #koc #podcast #misha haters #now you've got the cast calling you out #must suck being so toxic #i fkn love this cast #spn

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural), Bobby Singer, Eileen Leahy, John Winchester, Mary Winchester Additional Tags: Fix-It, Series Finale, Roadhouse in Heaven (Supernatural), Angst with a Happy Ending, Carry On References, Ending Fix Summary:

After defeating Chuck, Dean narrowly escaped death on a simple hunt and decides that he is through with the life.

A 15x20 fix it fic

#spn s15 #destiel #fix it fic

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Supernatural really had me out here thinking I was better than what I thought I was for the last ten years.

It had me out here thinking I was worth so much more than my waisted potential.

Welp, I guess I was wrong.

#supernatural #spn s15 #season 15 spoilers #dean deserved better

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Watch "Let It Go/Let Her Go (Frozen/Passenger MASHUP) - Sam Tsui" on YouTube

Alright, listen. I have kids. I know both of these songs because of that. When my daughter played me this mashup for the first time I was hesitant because of how often I heard them, but I immediately fell in love. Now, being in my dumb fandoms feels, every love song, tragic or otherwise reminds me of THEM...

With that confession scene.....

I'm not saying someone NEEDS to make an edit for this song....but y'all are so talented. I write, but I dont technology well, and I know one of you could make it beautiful. Just a thought.

#destiel #destiel edit #let it go #let her go #Youtube

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 so, in light of recent events, people have been discussing when they think Dean and Cas realized that they were in love with each other. While I 100% believe dean realized in purgatory, I dont think Castiel realized until Dean broke Naomi's connection.

BUT!!!!

I also think that is around the same time Sam realized it too. Obviously Charlie already knew ( " what about Castiel, he seems helpful and..Dreamy" she's a lesbian. That comment wasn't for Her!") I think Charlie was the one to point it out to sam and I think the two of them agreed to keep it to themselves since neither of those two would have been able to handle that information. So, I wrote a little thing about how I think it went down.

I also wanted to give myself an explanation for those wierd looks and mystery note from the end of the episode...so yeah...here's that.

Sam hobbled down the hall to the guest room, his hand still throbbing from knocking Dean unconcious . It was…worrisome, to say the least, that he was having this much trouble with healing from such a minor injury, not to mention the other things that were happening to his body; the fatigue, coughing up blood. Troubling, but, as much as he hated to admit it, worth it. Dean had been pissing him off more than usual lately anyway. It wasn't just the trials. Sure, he was frustrated with Dean for thinking he wasn't strong enough to handle them (he had fought against Lucifer in his own mind for christ's sake) but it was everything else too. His loyalty to Benny still didn't sit right with him. He had been so quick to kill Amy, just because she was a monster. He didn't care that she was just feeding her kid. She was just a monster to him. But for some reason, Benny got a pass. Sure, the guy saved both their asses, he was grateful for that, but even Bobby knew it was wrong.

And then there was Cas.

 

Sam wanted nothing more, than to tell Dean that he should have learned his lesson the first time with the Angel. It wasn't like he didn't like Castiel. Of course he did. He was appreciative of everything the guy had done for them. Dean was right that he had saved their asses more than once. It was just….at the end of the day, whether they liked him or not, Castiel had betrayed them. He understood that perfectly. What he couldn't understand, was why dean was so suprised by him doing it again. Hell, Dean had been the one to bring up that fact that the guy wasn't acting right since he got back and yet, there he was, praying to him, putting his trust in him again. It was maddening, to say the least. He had tried to talk to his brother about it, but Dean immediately shut down.

So, yeah, his hand was still hurting, but it was damn worth it.

He turned the corner to find Charlie stuffing her things into her duffle. He knocked on the door frame with his uninjured hand. "Hey, there."

"Sam." She half smiled, when she turned around, her eyes still a little bleary from crying. "Hi, I'm just…just packing up to head out and…" she sniffled and plopped down on the bed, covering her face as she began crying anew.

Sam walked into the room and pulled up the desk chair, sitting down in front of her. "Dean told me what happened, while you two were under." He said. "I am so sorry about your mom, Charlie." He placed his hand on her shoulder as she began crying harder. "I know how hard it is to let go like that…"

"Dean was right," she sniffed. "I needed to stop holding on."

Sam let out a bitter scoff and pulled his hand back, squeezing both hands between his legs. "Yeah, Dean's always right, isn't he? Too bad he can't follow his own advice."

Charlie looked up, her eyes sad and confused. "Holding on to my mom was the reason I was stuck there. If he hadn't made me let go, I would have died.we both would have."

Sam shook his head at himself, trying his damndest to let go of his own bitterness to be there for his friend. "Ya, I know. I'm sorry…just…I know you're hurting right now, I just want you to know I'm here for you."

Charlie sniffed again, wiping her arm across her face to dry it before leaning back and staring at Sam. "I don't get it." She said, as firmly as possible.

Sam, leaned back and shrugged. "Me neither, really. I always thought all djinn fed off happiness. It's like every time we figure stuff out, something new comes along to throw us off our game."

"Not that." Charlie said, waving his statement off. Sam looked at her, confused, not sure what she was referring to. She took a breath and pulled a book out of her duffle throwing it on Sam's lap. 'Mystery Spot' By Carver Edlund. "You say these books happened in real life. That everything written in them actually went down…but the past two times I've been around you guys…you certainly dont act like you do in the books."

Sam skimmed the first page of the book and chuckled, tossing it back on the bed next to Charlie. "Yeah, well, things have just been different, I guess."

"So, you used to love and support each other, no matter what and now you just, what? Stopped?" She asked.

"It's…" Sam scoffed and shook his head. "things are just, more complicated now…"

"You maybe, wanna elaborate there buddy?" She asked. "I may be a genius, but a mind reader, I am not."

Sam let out a breath and scrubbed a hand through his hair. He figured it might feel better to at least get something off his chest. "To be honest Charlie, I dont think Dean is cut out for the job anymore."

"Why not?"

"His judgment, for one thing." Sam answered. "I don't know, just ever since he got back from purgatory… he's been…it's like he can't think straight anymore. He used to be no nonsense when it came to killing monsters and only trusting people he knew he could trust and now… I mean, I get it. Purgatory was rough on him, but the guy has literally been to Hell and back. I don't see why this time is any different."

"What do you mean?" Charlie asked softly.

"I mean like, being friends with a freaking vamp." Sam answered, coldly. "Yeah, Benny wasn't like the others, and I get the whole 'brother's in arms' aspect, but it still doesn't make sense." He waved his hand, gesturing back at the book before letting it drop. "That Dean? That Dean would have never put his trust in a monster. That Dean wouldn't let people back into his life that had screwed him over, and now…I don't know, now it's like he just doesn't care about letting people in that who could hurt him, or…people who already have."

"So, it's not just about the vampire." Charlie said. "Who else has Dean been trusting that you don't think he should?"

Sam gritted his teeth and shook his head. "Cas really messed him up Charlie. I mean, the guy already turned his back on us once and Dean just let him back into our lives like nothing even happened."

"Ah." Charlie said, with complete understanding. "Okay, I get it now."

"Get what?" Sam asked.

"I get why Dean has been acting wierd, duh." She said, like it was obvious. Sam sat, staring at her, trying to peice together what puzzle she seemed to have completed. "Oh, my God. Do you really not see it?" Charlie laughed.

"Um, no?" Sam said, skeptically.

"Wow," she scoffed. "And here I thought you were the observant one." Sam waited for her to explain herself, still utterly lost on what she was talking about. "It's Castiel." She said, speaking to him as if he were a child.

"What about him?" Sam asked, hoping like hell that she wasn't talking about the angel brainwashing his brother or something.

"I've read the books, Sam." She said. "I know all about Dean's special Angel friend."

"No." Sam shook his head. "No, chuck stopped writing after Dean went to hell. There's no way you could have a read anything about Cas."

Charlie scrunched her face and bobbed her head back and forth. "Mmmm, not exactly." She reached into her bag and pulled put her laptop, turning it on. "Remember how I said the books were online now?" Sam nodded waiting for her to continue. "Okay, dont get mad," she said as she typed "but, he may have kept writing a little bit longer than you thought…."

"He what?!" Sam said, furious. They had told that dick to knock it off after that stupid convention."How long?"

"Relax." She said, scrolling through some page on her screen. "He stopped after you sacrifice yourself to Hell, actually. It was beautifully written by the way, super emotional, but no one has seen or heard from him since."

'Good!' Sam thought to himself. He felt a little bad for that thought, since Kevin was now the prophet it meant that the reason no one had heard from Chuck was likely because he was dead, but at least no one else could know more about their lives than they already did. "Okay, but what does any of this have to do with Dean? Why would Cas be the reason he's acting wierd?"

Charlie sighed, cringing to her self a little. "Well, as you already know, where there's a fandom, there's most likely fanfiction…"

"I'm aware." Sam said, peeved by the memory of stumbling upon the fanfiction written about him and Dean.

"Look, I'm not saying anything is definite, but alot of people who write fanfiction are really good at reading between the lines." She clicked her mouse a few times before closing her laptop and setting it back in her bag. "I mean, I've read all the books myself, and I totally know that you guys are real people and not some fictional characters, and it's completely not okay to speculate on your lives and feelings or whatever...but I mean, it's kinda hard not to see where they're all coming from."

"What are you talking about, Charlie?"

"Dean said that Benny helped him fight through purgatory, right?" She said. "He met him pretty early on in his time there, no?"

"Yeah," Sam said, still completely bemused, "I guess…Dean hasn't really talked a lot about what happened while he was there. He told me some things, but he never really went into detail."

Charlie nodded and shrugged sheepishly before continuing. "Okay, so he met Benny early on, and Benny told him he had a way to get back, right off the bat. So, why did it take them so long to get out of there?"

"Dean said he spent alot of his time searching for Cas." Sam answered.

"Exactly!" She exclaimed, like that should have been the answer.

"I'm sorry Charlie, I still don't understand what you're getting at here."

"Sam, he could've come back at any point after meeting Benny. They only spent as much time as they did together, because Dean wanted to bring Castiel back with him. Even after everything he did. Don't you think that's a little…suspicious?"

"That's exactly what I've been saying!" Sam said. "Why would he do that?!"

"Yeah, Sam, why?" She said, still trying to lead him. "Why would someone run back into a fire, when they have a way out? I mean, I think you, of all people, would know the answer to that."

Sam gaped at her in shock. It took a minute for him to register what she was implying, but once he did… "Charlie, that's…"

"Just a thought!" She defended before he finished. "I'm just saying that Dean doesn't normally put his trust in people. Except, maybe…the people he REALLY cares about and the people that protect them. Maybe there's more to the story when it comes to his trust in Benny than you thought. I definitely feel like there's more when it comes to Castiel."

"Charlie, come on." Sam laughed a little. " You know Dean. He's…"

"More complicated than people give him credit for." Charlie cut him off. "He also knows how hard it is to let go of the people he loves. He's actually really bad at it. Maybe, worse than you know."

"Charlie," Sam started, before being cut off once more.

"He's definitely more concerned about you than you think." Charlie said firmly, standing up as she did. She began packing once more, keeping her eyes averted from Sam's. "He's not trying to control you, you know. He raised you, Sam. You mean alot to him. You ever think for a moment that he's just really scared for you? Scared of losing you? I mean, back to my point, he is really bad at losing people."

Sam sat in silence, petulantly mulling over Charlie's words. She was right, probably. Dean may have been scared, but it was still possible that he just couldn't hack the life anymore. Sam wasn't some child. And the other stuff she was saying…she was way off base. There was a big difference between reading about someone's and living it.

"I sent you the link to the website I used to read the books." Charlie said as she zipped up her bags. She slung her backpack over her shoulder crossing her arms as she stared him down. "I know you lived through it all and everything, but not every part was about you. There's a few things you may have missed."

"Yeah, I don't think that's gonna happen." Sam shook his head.

"Just a suggestion." She shrugged. "It might open your eyes to a few things you don't understand. I get not wanting to relive those times but…if you ever decide that's something you might wanna do, hit me up. I can tell you what chapters to skip, or whatever. And, if your really curious about Dean's relationship to Castiel, 'On the Head of a Pin' is a good place to start. The torture chapters are pretty rough, and I know you'll want to skip over your parts…but the other stuff.…" she shrugged.

"Okay." He said, at a loss for more words than that.

"You ready to roll?" Dean said, from the doorway, knocking on the door frame before entering the room.

"Looks, like it." Charlie smiled up at him as he entered.

"I didn't interrupt anything did I?" Dean asked looking between her and Sam with concern written all over his face. "You guys look a little spooked."

"Ew, gross, no." Charlie said, scrunching her face at Dean's implications. "Sam, was just helping me with my bags. Right Sam?"

"Uh, yeah…" Sam said, standing up and grabbing her duffle off the bed.

"Eh, come on, you know I'm just teasin ya!" Dean chuckled, jabbing her on the shoulder playfully. "He may have the hair, but the body parts are all wrong, right?"

"Definitely." Charlie agreed.

"Come on." Dean said, tilting his head toward the door. He waited for Charlie to leave the room, then cast a skeptical glance at Sam before following after. Sam was sure he was in for an earful after she left. He began dreading it as he said his goodbyes, anticipating the lecture as he told Charlie she was welcome to comeback at anytime. But it wasn't the only thing on his mind now. After bidding Charlie farewell, he went inside, giving the two of them their time alone. He hesitated for a moment, convinced that the trials were seriously messing with his head if he was even considering this. Then again…

He headed to the library, grabbing a peice of paper and a pen on his way and sat down. 'This is just stupid.' He thought to himself as he wrote down the words 'On the Head of a Pin'. He heard the bunker door open. Dean walked up, the look on his face telling Sam that it was time for his ass- chewing, so he decided to cut it off before it could start.

He clicked the pen closed and stood up, ready to defend his actions. "Okay, look you were right. I-I should laid low. I-I know." He said as Dean approached him."I should have hung back. I'm glad I was able.."

Then Dean grabbed him. Then Dean pulled him into a hug. It wasn't at all what he was expecting. He was lost, but relieved and hugged his brother back.

Dean chuckled and patted his back before pulling away. "What do you say we find our prophet?." Dean smiled, before smaking him in the chest and walking away.

Sam was left to himself, completely bewildered by what had just occurred. Dean had certainly not been acting like himself, but this was a whole new level. Maybe there was some truth to Charlie's words? Maybe he really was just scared? Maybe Sam really didn't know everything about his brother. Now, wasn't the time to think about that, though. Dean was right, the had to look for Kevin. They had work to do. Research.

But Dean had to sleep at some point. Maybe Sam could do a little light reading in that time.

If Charlie was right about Dean being scared for him, who knew what else she was right about?

#destiel #fanfic #destiel crack #crack post #this is not at all what happened #unless

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Part 2 of me apparently being a prophet:

#destiel #ao3 #did...did i do this?!? #was this my fault #oh my god #i hurt