emiliehaunted

[emiliehaunted]

🌑 "May the darkness protect you" 🌑 - Ph: Onix Model/Edit: @emiliehaunted Top: @fenixan.angi Spear: @physics_print_3d Character: Shadowheart from Baldur's Gate 3

#emiliehaunted #myself #Shadowheart #Baldur's Gate 3 #cosplay #dark photography #cosplay photography

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"You can't cast a shadow without a little light" ✨ - My upgraded Shadowheart cosplay is finally here! I really love how it looks and I couldn't be happier with the top @fenixan.angi made for me and with the spear the talented @physics_print_3d built + painted 🥺 I am also grateful for my two minions, @ursula.camposf & @xniperx_x who took the pics that day and were there during all the process supporting me!

Hope you like it, guys! It was made with love from all the artists behind it for you 🖤

#emiliehaunted #Shadowheart #Baldur's Gate 3 #cosplay #dark photography #shadowheart cosplay #bg3 cosplay #twitch streamer #gamer girl #videogame

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[𝐀𝐧𝟎𝐫𝟑𝐱𝟏𝐚]

For my project, I wanted to give voice to the protagonists who have to endure day after day all the conditions I want to portrait. In this case, I asked the model (who also happens to be a dear friend) to write some feelings or thoughts about living with it (I am trying not to use some trigger words so this pic doesn't get banned). This is what she decided to share with us:

"You don't do it for the beauty of it. Or at least that's what you say. You just don't know why you do it. No, it's not pretty. You are transforming into a beast that lives between tension and panic, because it is fear what attaches itself to your brain like ivy, what marks you with its dirty footprints. And then you start to reject what is under your skin, which is nothing more than your own existence. You live between guilt and guilt. Because the beast attacks when it feels vulnerated. Because you say you didn't want to hurt them but your muzzle is stained with beloved blood".

I personally felt very touched by her words, and I think she is really brave for sharing all this thoughts in such a public way.

Thank you so much @p4nt0cr4t0r4 for being part of this project, and for being my friend after all this years. I might not be the best at being present, but you know you can always count with me 🖤

#E. Haunted Photography #dark photography #mental health #mental awareness #ana warrior #gothic #dark #artist on tumblr

[emiliehaunted]

[𝑩𝑷𝑫 - 𝑴𝒊𝒈𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒆] Sometimes the pain speaks for me. It embraces me and my senses to the point I (literally) can't even see the light. It's a constant daily feeling I've learnt to live with, that I know I shouldn't have, but some times it gets so intense I can't even get up of bed. Kinda funny tho, how some people can judge this from the outside when they don't see the constant visits to doctors, the exams, all the meds you take and alternative therapies you try not just for your mental well being (which is another huge deal), but for the physical pain.

This pic is the first of a series I want to create about mental awareness, not only for things like BPD, which is something I can speak of from a personal point of view, but about several more that exist among us, and that even our loved ones might be struggling with right now. I hope you support this kind of content and also help to reach more people.

Take care, and please seek professional help if you don't feel alright. Remember you are important and there is always something worth looking after for tomorrow.

#emiliehaunted #E. Haunted Photography #bpd #borderline #migraine #mental health #gothic #dark photography #photography

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"She struggled with her sadness, but tried to conceal it, to divide it into smaller and smaller parts and scatter these in places she thought no one would find them" - Ph/Edit: @emiliehaunted Model: @sirenia_elan

#E. Haunted Photography #dark photography #gothic #alt model #red hair #alternative #metal #photography

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"I will cease to exist when the very last person forgets about me" (From my book "Lost In Whispers") - Ph: @emiliehaunted

#E. Haunted Photography #Lost In Whispers #church #photography #writers of tumblr #aesthetic

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"I took her hand and pulled her in the direction of the witches"~ - Ph: Onix Model/Edition: @emiliehaunted Crown gifted by @cotee.za (thank you!)

#emiliehaunted #myself #collab #cotee.za #dark photography #gothic #goth #alt girl #alternative #medieval #witches of tumblr

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"With such Hell in your heart and your head, how can you live? How can you love?" - Ph: Onix Model/Edit/ MUA: @emiliehaunted Crown gifted by @cotee.za (thank you!)

#emiliehaunted #cotee.za #dark photography #photography #gothic #goth #medieval #alt model #alternative #myself #all black

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"Flowers grow back even after they are stepped on, and so will I" 🪻 - Ph: Onix Model/Edit/MUA: @emiliehaunted Crown gifted by @cotee.za (thank you!)

#emiliehaunted #myself #gothic #dark photography #photography #medieval #alternative #collab #cotee.za #witches of tumblr #dark aesthetic

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"Face it, Harl, this stinks—you’re a certified nutso wanted by the law in over a dozen states, and hopelessly in love with a murderous, psychopathic clown" - Ph: @emiliehaunted Model: @infamousbylaura Character: Harley Quinn

#E. Haunted Photography #Laura Gilbert #Infamous By Laura #Harley Quinn #Suicide Squad #DC Comics #cosplay #cosplay photography #photography

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"It seems that, even the most gentle of things, turn violent when they go" (@helaena.c.moon) - Ph: Onix Model/Edit: @emiliehaunted Dress: @moon.sabbath Horns: @titaniathedreamer

#emiliehaunted #myself #witchcraft #forest witch #gothic #fantasy photography #photography #dark photography #succubus #gothic model

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"How many memories did you kill in order to survive?" - Ph/Model: @emiliehaunted Dress: @moon.sabbath Tarot card: @killstar

#emiliehaunted #myself #killstar #dark photography #monochrome #gothic #goth #bpd #borderline #witchcraft #witchy fashion #all black

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"I am so much more than what you made me" - VP/Edit: @emiliehaunted Character: Astarion from Baldur's Gate 3 (@larianstudios)

#E. Haunted Photography #Baldur's Gate 3 #BG3 #Larian Studios #Astarion #Virtual Photography #Videogame #Gaming #VP #Underdark #Gamer girl

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you’re not going to be famous Emilie, grow up, no one cares about your “ad” videos that no one asked you to do, your only twitch viewer is the boyfriend you stole like you did with your last bf, we all know your photographer is your mom, you’re obsessed with likes, and whitewashing is a form of racial discrimination. You always need to get attention all ways possible, even with your fake suicide attemps, and then you wonder why I didnt care that you “tried to” kill yourself lmao stop begging for money and find a job like every person in this planet, grow up, there’s meds for migraines in case you didnt knew.

Hi! First, why taking your precious time to send me an anon hate message? If you don't like me that much just ignore my content and don't be so pending about everything I do. As simple as that.

I am going to answer this just because this message sound exactly as previous ones I've received in this cowardly way, and because I have nothing to hide.

The past few months I've been lucky enough to have some collabs with different business from outside my resident country (and I still have a couple more I am waiting to sign/for the products to arrive). The "no one asked you to do" is kinda a silly statement considering the companies asked me to do it and paid me to do so??? I literally sign contracts for that???

I know I am not a huge Twitch streamer, and it's fun you also know that because it means you took the time to research that as well. But I don't truly mind because I mainly stream for my boyfriend, so he can watch and comment. And if someone else can join then that's great! If not, then that's okay too! Even still, thanks to streaming I've met great people online and I've been able to sign some of the contracts I said before.

Oh, and I didn't steal him or my previous one. They had girlfriends before but were not in the best terms. Either way that's not a subject I should talk about; they are the ones involved, so they should decide if they want to speak out loud about it or not. And I just know one side of the story anyway.

I never hide the fact that my mom is the one who mostly takes my pics, and I actually love that because it has helped us to reinforce our bond while we travel to different places. Why would that be a bad thing? I haven't been able to collab with other photographers lately because I rather edit the pics myself and that's something they usually don't like. And also I am not always in the best of health/mood to go outside so it's hard to schedule a meeting.

I do like and tend to edit my skin to be paler, but that's a form of art, a way to express myself. I don't think I need to get into details about how I decide to create art because if you don't get it then it's just not for you.

Obsessed with likes? Sometimes, sadly. Not for attention, but because I wish people could connect more with what I do, and I could have more clients as photographer. But that's it.

It's so sad that you claim that someone faked a suicide attempt. In my case I don't care anymore because I've learn to being dettach from people like you, but your words could actually hurt someone, which I know it's your goal here, but that won't make you feel better at the end. I don't have to prove you, or anyone, anything. I know what I've lived, my closest ones know what I've lived, my doctors know what I've lived. I could show you the meds I take, my medical record, my hospital bracelets, but even then you wouldn't believe it so what's the use?

Again, I take the time to answer because I have nothing to hide. I am an open book and if my story helps to someone else to survive a living Hell, then I am glad I've shared it.

Hope you find a way to stop hating people to the point to feel the need to write a message, and just live your life. That's not good for you, or for anyone~

#anon hate #anon #coward <3 #bpd #borderline personality disorder #mental health #trigger warning

[emiliehaunted]

"Throwing myself into the abyss. Not because I want to die. But because I want to fly" (from my book "Lost In Whispers") - Ph: @emiliehaunted Model: @p4nt0cr4t0r4

#E. Haunted Photography #Lost In Whispers #dark photography #dark art #bpd #writers of tumblr #writing #photography #monochrome #gothic

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"Sometimes I just go to a dark place. It happens. And I really love how you don't try to change me. You just sit down next to me and hold my hand, quietly, in the dark" - Ph: Onix Edit: @emiliehaunted Models: @emiliehaunted & @sirenia_elan 🖤

#emiliehaunted #dark photography #witchcraft #witches of tumblr #bff #best friends #alt girls #alternative #photography #gothic #goth

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"Why is it always the bad memories I can still recall...? In any case, I will be keen to avoid them" - Ph/Model/Edit: @emiliehaunted Character: Shadowheart from "Baldur's Gate 3" (@larianstudios)

#emiliehaunted #Shadowheart #Baldur's Gate 3 #BG3 #Larian Studios #cosplay #gothic #alt girl #twitch streamer #gamer girl #medieval #all black