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the funny thing is, i could just drop off the face of the earth and it wouldnt affect anyone

#diary #i'm sad

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Klea McKenna 

Web Studies, 2013 - 2016

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the bad thoughts wont stop coming and im starting to feel sad again. i don’t know why i can’t simply stay happy. i slip into depression like it’s second nature and im afraid that i’ll be stuck here forever. i close my eyes and i see a blade slicing my neck. i think people are watching me. i see people lurking who aren’t real. people speak to me but only i can hear them. the walls melt around me. the room spins. i think there is someone under my bed who will grab my feet. i check my closet every night before bed just to make sure nobody is in there. sometimes im afraid to sleep because i think i’ll die if i close my eyes. im sick and im only kidding myself if i think i’ll ever be anything else.

#diary #mentally ill #actuallymentallyill #ptsd #actually psychotic #psychosis #trauma #i'm sad

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little psychosis things: constantly hearing buzzing

#psychosis #mentally ill #actuallymentallyill #actuallypsychotic

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i want to be put on an antipsychotic i can feel myself slipping into a psychotic episode and i want it to stop

i hurt myself and i barely felt anything i dont think i can feel love i think im destined for failure i will never be anything worth speaking about

#diary #sorry im dramatic

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i’ve been having panic attacks before going to bed every night and its a terrible feeling and i dont know what to do

#i wish someone would hold me #diary

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i dont even care about being clean

i will never be a year clean

all i can think about is cutting and making myself hurt

#diary

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i feel so shitty that i wish i was in the hospital again haha

#diary

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things people have told me about my scars

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visual hallucinations

#my art #mentally ill #mental health #trauma #vent art #psychotic #psychosis #actuallypsychotic #actuallymentallyill #paranoia

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im scared because it was so easy for me to relapse. i did it without thinking. its almost second nature for me to hurt myself and i hate it

#diary #i sound so dramatic

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i relapsed after being clean for two and a half months

#diary #im so mad at myself