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Aleina

Sky Edwards

2024

Ensign Selfix 320

120 Ilford HP5+ 400

This medium format camera is very fun, and a challenge. The lens is tilted, so focussing and framing are a matter of guesswork. Also, the bellows were disintegrating, hence the dust.

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That's incredible, I'm so glad we spontaneously came up with the same idea.

Actual photo of the goodest boy and our god, JEDD Mason:

(psychologist said I'm "probably autistic." Full disgnosis too expensive. But JEDD is such a mood. And so good.)

YEAH MY FRIENDGROUP ALREADY HAS A LOT OF JEDD AUTISM BEAST MEMES ITS SO TRUE!!!!! i have the creature as a custom discord emoji in our server as :jeddmason:.... he's such a little guyyyyy. Having autism is basically akin to being a visiting god of a vastly different universe, it's true

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OOOOH city of stairs looks 👀👀 i loveeee weird fantasy. OH AND forgot to mention arkady martin's teixcalaan also. political scifi with brain ghosts YAAAAY i love brain ghosts as a trope i have so many of them in my collection. plural guy likes brain ghosts who could have GUESSED!!!

Teixcalaan!

I had these memories that had the texture of a Radch story but couldn't remember where from. Hell yeah.

Off topic, my main other obsession is weird horror. In novels, Vandermeer, China Mieville, and probably others I can't remember right now. In film, Alien, Alien, Alien, Alien, etc.

#fiction #novels #teixcalaan #vandermeer #china mieville #jeff vandermeer #annihilation #new crobuzon #ann leckie #imperial radch

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Aw hell yeah.

Just finished my reread of Radch, liked it even more the second time around.

And fuck yea for Jemison's Broken Earth. Fantasy is less my style but Jemison is so good. (Vaguely on topic, also City of Stairs? It's Weird Fantasy with strange theology)

Terra Ignota fucked up my whole brain (positive). I think it's either the deepest or most pretentious (more likely both) works of fiction I've ever encountered. Ada Palmer is my new god. These books are so gender and strange and interesting and horrifying and political.

My favourite genre is Scifi Where Your Favourite Character Is A Queer War Criminal (or other monster beyond comprehension) (Machineries of Empire, The Locked Tomb, etc). In this area, Terra Ignota is a holy book.

Canner and Sniper are my precious innocent friends who can do no* wrong.

*all

(I deeply love these books, I'm just very insane about them)

SAME SAME SAME SAME SAME SAME SAME. YOURE IN SUCH GOOD COMPANY. i first read like the lightning in 2017, promptly shoveled seven surrenders in my mouth, got the will to battle for christmas, and then spent the next three-and-change years rereading them multiple times and collecting a small cadre of weird friends i could convince to attempt it. perhaps the stars permanently rewired my brain on first readthrough. terra ignota kinda one of the lenses through which i see most things cus it came to me at the right time. touchstone of my brain and heart. also MASSIVE UPS FOR MACHINERIES OF EMPIRE AND LOCKED TOMB ASWELL LETS GOOOOOO!!!!! also off the top of my head i'll point to ann leckie's imperial radch & related books, kameron hurley's stars are legion, seth dickinson's exordia which im reading rn, and on the fantasy side of the same trope we got seth dickinson's traitor baru cormorant, n.k. jemison's broken earth trilogy, fuckin, don't feel like going upstairs to remind myself of more but yeah. i slurp compellingly fucked up people with strong motivations/principles with a straw. And good god if you like those terra ignota has like fifty of them ! Yay! christ i love these books. if you want to marinate your brain in thoughts about them i have a "ti tags" tag which is a lot of stupid memes and also some very juicy thoughts..... things to rotate... i have been rotating it all for so many years in my mind

#fiction #books #terra ignota #imperial radch

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As a kid I didn't understand the effect every tomboy or butch had on me. Awesome punk gender?? scout leader and lesbian highschool humanities teacher, I owe you my life. 🙏

I wonder how all the "I'm a lesbian trapped in a man's body" girls turned out...

#personal #gender #lesbian

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It's "the quotative like", it serves an important linguistic function that English lacked: it indicates that you are paraphrasing, not literally quoting. So in many situations it serves to give the vibe or emotion without saying "said", since "said" and most other options imply accurate quotation.

the humble "like" is oft mocked despite what it does for us. "like, three people" is a vastly different statement from "three people". "and i was like 'what the fuck'" is vastly different from "and i said 'what the fuck'". i love you "like" and anyone who says you make people sound stupid will be killed on sight

#quotative like #like #linguistics

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This makes so much sense

#trying to remember to do this

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#364 day queue

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#aw fuck I'm 32 though

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It has been a challenge: how to not be read as male while working at Iconic Hardware Store, given the uniform requires: steel cap boots, apron, red polo shirt, and shorts or pants.

I just realised: there is no restriction on socks.

Very powerful concept: Hardware store uniform, booty shorts, trans flag thigh highs.

#unhinged #iconic hardware store #trans #clothes

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My life is a constant cycle between "I need to rest before I burn out" and "I'm wasting my potential, I should work harder"

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Free Palestine protesters shut down the Golden Gate Bridge and 880 freeway in Oakland. This is huge🫡

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You're welcome!

thank you lesbians that make strange & unmarketable art

#i sold an item then found it in an op shop soon after

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Darcy is my middle name. Was going to be my first name. I hated it as a kid, gender insecurity? Now my original deadname sucks but Darcy would have been a decently gender neutral name.

i'll go first my parents almost named me felicity. which would've been so cool but i definitely would've been like 5x crazier if i was named that

#personal #names

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Waiting for my psychologist. Previous person seeing her: very gender, very cool.

Gonna tell psychologist I'm a girl. I'm not worried at all, she's lovely, most people know now.

Also have to talk about... so much that's fucked up with my mental and physical health.

#sickposting #personal #gender #medical

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the curse of adhd:

i will remember with absolute clarity, when the thought strikes me that i have a text to send someone, that this is the fourth time in three days i've attempted to send this specific text

i will forget, in the time it takes me to pick up my phone, that i picked it up intending to send a text

#it fucking sucks #sometimes it's important