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Im struggling with self harm thoughts

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dress by me

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When you say "even in canon this character is acting OOC" do you mean it as in "this character's canon dropped the ball on internal consistency with them" or do you mean "this character I normally relate to made a decision that I wouldn't have made" or do you mean "this character isn't acting like the fanon we developed by rotating them in our heads for 67295 combined hours away from the source material"?

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I have a hard time valuing myself

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I miss you

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Literally so anxious all of the time

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agrees to do petplay and she sells me on craigslist for $30 including my wheel and cage

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Jesus died for me? That’s manipulative

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I miss having a sober father

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I want to be covered top to bottom in scars. I deserve pain i want repercussions i deserve repercussions im so scared im so scared i want a hug i want touch i want someone to feel safe i want to feel safe i want to stab my eye i want to hurt i want to breathe breathe breathe i cant do it i cant breathe i am having a hard time with self worth god i am so angry im so tired oh yes finally i want to feel tired i want to sleep for ever. Relief please gods please i want to feel Relief

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i miss my friend

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I miss them. I miss talking to them, i really enjoyed being around them. They were a fantastic conversationalist. I was so rarely bored with them. It was so hard to be bored when they were around. What they had to say was just entertaining and fun. Mean this is of course at their best. But their best was amazing. I love, loved it. I still Love them just not in the way they want me to. Or probably more like wanted me to. There is so much i could have dont better. But the problem was. I was trying my best. I really was. I did a lot of the things i did because i thought they would want me to.... i wanted them to be able to be happy and feel good. They deserve to feel good and happy. And they had said i was making them happy. Time and time again it felt like i was just the vessel to make them happy. I just. I want them to achieve happiness they deserve it. I was trying. But i failed. I did the exact opposite. Fucking god fucling damn fuck

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i hate that ive chosen 2 be a good person (as best i can) because somedays i just want to hurt some fuckers feelings

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listen. Birthdays were never good

And Oh i know how i should

Should like birthdays

Oh but how i hate them,

Oh and how that condemns

Condemns me to a fate i hate