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jellyfishs-thoughts · 1 month

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Cough so hard that you vomit all you negative feelings.

- all in a days work.

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jellyfishs-thoughts · 2 months

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A quick update :

June : I moved out! 9 hours away from home. This was as far as I could get.

Obviously parents didn't take it well.

But I told Them the news a week before I left after I already have a job. That day was a whole boss beast in a dungeon all on it's own.

June :also went cold turkey on my anxiety and depression medication

June day 1 in my apartment. Soon as I had moved everything in I sobbed.

July: got a promotion at work and doing surprisingly well without medication

August: got another promption at work. Adopt a kitten.

August - September : work is going great gained some weight.

October : went to Dallas for my sister's court wedding ( this was a whole thing in it's own)

November :doing great at work. Gained some more weight. I finally convinced my parents to accept my sister's court marriage.

December: got a great bonus at work.

January - February: I cannot wait to get another job found out I would only get a 40 cent raise.

I know my worth at work and it's not a 40 cent raise.

May : my lease ends and I can't wait for a new start, near friends.

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jellyfishs-thoughts · 4 months

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The most interesting results come from challenges.

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jellyfishs-thoughts · 6 months

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Definition of success as a parent:

Your kids, as an adult want to spend time with you

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jellyfishs-thoughts · 9 months

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I know my worth

I swear I know my worth,

I'll bring you down and humiliate you,

I don't care if you leave or come back,

I don't even see you.

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jellyfishs-thoughts · 1 year

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If life is going to fuck you over no matter what you do, might as get fucked over trying to achieve your goals.

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jellyfishs-thoughts · 1 year

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"They say that plants don’t talk...”

by Rosario Castellanos

They say that plants don’t talk, nor do brooks or birds, nor the wave with its chatter, nor stars with their shine. They say it but it’s not true, for whenever I walk by they whisper and yell about me

“There goes the crazy woman dreaming of life’s endless spring and of fields and soon, very soon, her hair will be gray. She sees the shaking, terrified frost cover the meadow.” There are gray hairs in my head; there is frost on the meadows, but I go on dreaming—a poor, incurable sleepwalker of life’s endless spring that is receding and the perennial freshness of fields and souls, although fields dry and souls burn up.

Don’t gossip about my dreams: without them how could I admire you? How could I live?

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jellyfishs-thoughts · 1 year

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I shouldn't have expected anything less of my toxic parents.

My parents told my sister if she married the person she likes.

They will cut her off.

Clearly they still want to. Control every aspect of out life. And I shouldnt have expected anything less.

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jellyfishs-thoughts · 1 year

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It is not your job or responsibility to help your toxic parents regulate and work through their emotions.

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jellyfishs-thoughts · 1 year

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I hope you never delude yourself like I do every time.

Dont ever think that you could ever make your toxic parents understand you and your feelings

Trust me you'll end up hurt all over again

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jellyfishs-thoughts · 1 year

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I don't know how to love or be loved.

I've never known unconditional love.

My parents never taught me love. My parents never showed me what love looks like.

All I know is love is conditional,

If you do what they say then your loved.

If you lean on somebody, that's a weakness.

If you love somebody, you never show them you weakness.

All I know I of conditional love.

I Don't know how to love or be loved.

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jellyfishs-thoughts · 1 year

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A person who comes from a toxic household knows how to cope and get themselves to recover from a breakdown better then anyone else.

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jellyfishs-thoughts · 1 year

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They say your happiest times will come after the struggles....but I not make it till then.

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jellyfishs-thoughts · 1 year

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Day in the life of 25y/o

-Wake up with your dad telling at you.

Be too afraid to have anything big for breakfast because they will attack your weight.

-try and do all your work because during the week you work two jobs and attend classes. But conveniently all the professors have the same due date for their assignments. But your also attenting two school.

-your dad will continue to interrupt you and your time to have you do things. Yet the brother who's out grown you is still sleeping at 1 pm and your the only one in this house apprently.

-both your mother and father will intrupt again to pass a message to the other because they aren't talking to each other

- every comment you family makes you take personally because it's clearly ment to be attacking you when you've done everything thy asked when they asked you to do it.

- your mother will ask you to go to work and watch her business with no regard for your day time or schedule.

Your 2 assignments down and it's 3pm

- now you go to the gym to show that your working out so that you can get married so they an get off your back, and all you've had is a protine shake since 10 am.

- coming home to both your parents gone, your brother finally awake when you get a call from your mom asking if you made your brother dinner. But I can't say the comment that your making me into a single mother of a 15 y/o when I'm only supposed to be his sibling

- you quickly make something and go to your room to lay down for a bit.

- but your ears are listening for the car to know when they came home so you can look productive not that it matters to them.

you start working again and it's 6 pm

- your brother complains he's hungry so you feed him.

- your dad complains about how he doesn't like seeing the sink full. When all you have added is a bowl a plate and a fork to the sink that already had the dishes he was using. Like this is your fault now.

Holding on for a whole week trying to not let your anxiety take over and cry at work to keeping it together at home. Having a breakdown and hyperventilating when no ones home cuz your afraid they would say something.

You finally accept you have a problem and therapy isn't going to fix it. You schedule an appointment for anxiety meds.

And your day concludes with your mother telling you,

Your incapable of Handling stress.