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“Dich ansehen fühlt sich an wie nach Hause kommen, nachdem man lange woanders war”

— samstag morgen / weil halt

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If I’d still be writing,

I wrote poems about you

about your kindness

and your humble shyness

about the things that make you, you

for the world shall see

what lays behind your eyes

where your dreams are buried

and romance never dies

If I’d still be singing

I sang songs about you

about your view on the world

and how you find the right words,

how I can be myself when I’m with you

for the world shall see

what your heart is made of

safe and warm

you keep me close to you.

oh I wish I could find the right words to say,

to do you justice

and make you stay.

21:33 (somewhere in Croatia)

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“1) the secret of life, though, is to fall seven times and to get up eight times. 2) we have to be prepared for change 3) it´s the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting 4) it´s the simple things in life that are the most extraordinary 5) when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it. 6) sometimes it is better to leave things as they are 7) all things are one 8) we have to live with our mistakes 9) sometimes, there is just no way to hold back the river 10) never stop dreaming 11) eat when it´s time to eat. and move on when it´s time to move on. 12) when you are in love, things make even more sense. 13) listen to your heart 14) tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself.”

— advice i took from ´the alchemist´ by paolo coelho. one new year´s resolution is to actually become ´the alchemist´

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(...) und vielleicht treffen wir uns in zehn Jahren an einem Bahnhof wieder und vielleicht erkennen wir uns wieder, vielleicht aber auch nicht. Aber vielleicht, und das will ich hoffen, trinken wir schlechten, dünnen Bahnhofskaffee und reden über das was einmal war.

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kleines Update

Dinge, die ich einmal gemacht haben muss (Update) :

Eine Nacht am Meer schlafen

´Der Steppenwolf´ lesen

Polarlichter anschauen

Ein Joy Division Shirt besitzen

Einen Mann mit Bart küssen

Mit dem Zug nach Paris fahren

Spontan ans Meer fahren

Nach Schweden reisen

An einem Tag eine Einmalkamera vollmachen

Einen Roadtrip machen

Ein Buch schreiben, wenn auch nur für mich

Ein Tattoo stechen lassen

Mumford & Sons, Bon Iver und Ben Howard live sehen

Jemandem lange Schreibmaschinenbriefe schreiben

Eine Polaroidkamera besitzen

Eine Nirvanaplatte besitzen

Nach London reisen

Nach Paris reisen

Nach Venedig reisen

nach Budapest reisen

An ein Musikfestival gehen

Gitarre spielen lernen

Mit jemandem Jam Sessions machen

Den Eiffelturm umarmen

Nach Schottland reisen so wie Mum & Dad

Eine The Smiths Platte besitzen

Eine Bon Iver Platte besitzen

Ein Moleskine Notizbuch besitzen

Ein Thanksgiving Essen kochen

Eine Minoltakamera besitzen

Gulasch kochen 

Jemanden glücklich machen

spontan zum Frühstücken nach Paris fahren

einen Hund adoptieren

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der traum

theslowtraveler

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life in a box

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this life

Shaftesbury | formgestalter 

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still

how I feel about scotland ☀️

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back home

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bei dir komm ich zur ruhe

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Life Update 22.05.2022

I recently turned 26 and life is good

- I’ve lived in Scotland for almost two years now, and I still love it. Going for wild swims at the weekend or after school! living close to the mountains and to the sea and so close to edinburgh and glasgow. so so lucky.

- I’m just finishing my probationer time and will work at the school for at least another year! also: getting good feedback for my lesson observations which means the world to me.

- we’re getting a dog next week! I can’t believe this is finally happening, but a. and I are so happy. our trip will be quite intense, as we have to drive all the way from scotland to calais to pick her up, but it will be worth it. can’t wait to have our little family back together!

- also, the summer holidays are starting in 4,5 weeks and we’ll go to wales! can’t wait!

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going to Wales later this year and desperately want to go to Swansea where submarine was filmed

on re-watching old movies #submarine

it is strange, you know to re-watch a movie that used to be really meaningful to yourself. In my case, it is Submarine, produced by Richard Ayoade. The last time I watched it must have been about six years ago. I was sixteen and really struggling with myself. My sister and the few people I forced to watch it, described it as a depressing and horrible movie, but I loved it. (Actually, I just came to the realisation that they might found it depressing because they saw how I felt and what it did to me, but I didn’t know back then.) In a bad week, I watched it three times, that was at my high peak when I realised I should actually watch it less and don’t identify too much with Oliver.  I love the movie, though, because there was and still is so much to explore. The motif of water that ‘ runs through’ (pun intended)  the movie, and the great soundtrack by Alex Turner. I love everything about it. Yet I felt like I needed a break and I took it. Yesterday I re-watched it after almost six years and it didn’t break me, as I thought it would. I guess in the last years I grew not only older but also stronger. I don’t identify with Oliver as much as I used to and I really questioned the relationship between Jordana and him.  It is still really close to my heart because it reminds me of who I was and how much I struggled, but somehow, at least for now I got out of it and I really hope Oliver did, too. I know that sometimes it’s hard to get around the wind, but it’s possible and necessary.

PS: By the way, did you know that the actor who plays Oliver’s father is staring in Game of Thrones as well? No? Now you know. 

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it’s a long way down

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das leben jetzt

Paula Morytko

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