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[livewithjoey]

Ignored

The biggest pain i’ve had in my entire life, is the pain I feel right now. The pain of being ignored by someone that used to tell me everything. To feel like that same person is lying to you and avoiding you while having fun with other people. To feel like an outsider, to be pushed out and left out of everything that used to mean the world. All that is needed now is a conversation about why this is happening, why this feels needed. It will fix it. No it won’t be the same after this, the trust has been broken and can’t be fixed. But we can grow closer again, if you just let me. No anger from my side, just a lot of unknown feelings and pain. You’re my soulmate in the form of a friend. I have nothing but love for you and that is why I cry, because it feels like i’m about to lose you forever. Yes if I give you space this might fix it self. But to be honest everyday I die a little inside and the damage will be to big to fix if we don’t talk this out now.

I hope you never read this, I know you hate this a lot. But it helps me cope and hopefully the next post is about how things are better again. Remember people, if you love someone, friend, family or partner. Tell them when something is wrong! It might be painful, but at least you can grow together afterwards.

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[livewithjoey]

The choices we make aren't always easy. Sometimes you try, try and try again and still fall down. Until the moment something clicks and you find what you were supposed to do all along. This can be in relationships, friendships, work and every other aspect of life. No it is not easy, buy you try anyway because the end result will always be worth the struggle.

I found improv during my struggle! A place where I can be myself and find new friends and like minded people. I learned much about myself and I keep learning new things ever time I go there. It is also the place where I will keep honing the skills I need to be the best me. 😄

2020 a nice start of a new decade! I write this as a little time capsule, to remind myself that things are okay. Even with all the struggles. I'm sure by the time this decade is over that life is completely different again and I can't wait to find out how!

Stand strong, be good, love those around you. Even if you struggle sometimes, keep reminding them you love them, be open and be the best you that you can be.

See you in 2030.

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