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I was scrolling on TikTok and saw this guy singing a song in Spanish and it was so beautiful. Then I went to his page to see his other videos and instantly got the ick.

I hate that. I really do. Too bad. He resembled Paul Mescal too.

#what a shame

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Is GPOYW still a thing on here?! Well, here it is. Cheers.

#gpoyw

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I bought a lotto ticket for the first time in years. I didn’t win.

You know what I did get? A nose bleed.

#imsooverit

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Tumblr users remembering the passage of time each week

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I’m avoiding working on a huge project. Procrastinating when I know I should be doing it now. Why do I wait until the pressure is really on to complete the damn thing?!

This is something I’ve always done. I just realized this recently too. I know I can get it done but why do I make it so stressful for myself. This does not help my blood pressure.

This little voice in my head says “don’t worry you’ll get it all done” and I believe it 100%

#I need to start saying no to new projects #I just wish I didn’t need the money so bad

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Fun fact: my feed is full of cats.

How does tumblr know I’m allergic and taunts me?

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Went to the doctor today.

Riddle me this: how is my blood pressure always so high when I see the doctor? It’s pretty average when I take it at home. Is it stress?!

I’m also possibly anemic. Cool cool.

#getting the mammogram next

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january is one of those months where you experience every feeling on the human spectrum and you just have to go about your day like that isn’t happening

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Went to the library today and checked out some books including the Jodie Sweetin memoir. It’s titled UnSweetined.

I also found out that she went to elementary school with my husband. What a small world.

#what ever happened to predictability

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I have the urge to rearrange my living room. Moving giant furniture pieces that are far too heavy for me to move alone.

There must be a project due tomorrow or something.

#pro procrastinator

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Todays menu: Saltines and 7up

#yum

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As if things couldn’t get worse, now I have food poisoning?!?

I’m not sure but it feels like something did not sit well with my entire digestive system. I’m scared to go to sleep because I dont want to sh-

-it the bed. Literally.

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Whether I like it or not I’m pretty sure it’s time for me to really learn to cook. I’ve made it so far with ingredients that can easily make meals with but gotdamn is everything so expensive now.

I’m talking about possibly growing my own foods and making meals. Is this realistic or am I being Delulu?

I’m going to start by making my own bread. I can do it right? Or is this going to be just as expensive?!

Any advice?

#yes chef #cooking #baking

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Of course I can’t fall asleep tonight. I’m just going over everything I said and did today. On a loop. I’m such an idiot sometimes. Deep down inside I know it’s not a big thing, I know it. I just hate how my brain won’t give it a break.

#ay ay ay

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I think we can do good things this year.

I think we can hop off the doom cycle if we really put some effort into it.

I think we can do a kind thing for someone at least once a week.

I think we can do a nice thing for ourselves when we need to.

I think we can start a silly project with no purpose

I think we can learn something new, a joyful thing.

I think we can read a fucked up (complimentary) book.

I think we can do a small political action for good.

I think we can find a new favorite food.

I think we can stop doing one unnecessary thing.

I think we can think differently about the future.

I think we can grow wide with hope.

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New Year’s Eve spent in my jammie’s after completing my skincare routine. A slice of veggie pizza and some beer while watching Saltburn. Honestly not too shabby.

The neighbors were shooting off fireworks until 2am and we had to clean up our driveway with all the mess this morning. So happy new year to us!

I’m slowly taking down Christmas decor this week leaving the tree for last. No resolutions at the moment other than to live my best version every day.

Happy 2024 friends.