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Chapter Three: Interference

#stony

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Chapter Three: Interference

#stony #tony stark #steve rogers #dom/sub

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Coworker just saw me pull in and absolutely HOLLERED across the parking lot “NEW DEADPOOL AND WOLVERINE TRAILER DROPPED HAVE YOU SEEN IT”

They are My People (tm)

#Deadpool and Wolverine

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Wrote 6k of Stony Dom yesterday.

Woke up this morning and realized it was all trash.

Rewriting.

#stony

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On a slightly different note:: have you thought about using the already written fics for the Big Bang events or other fandom writer/artist events?

No actually. Those always seem too big and scary for me for some reason! 😂

That's also the weird thing. I know in the beginning I wanted to become a 'big fandom writer' but now I also know that also comes with a lot of nasty comments and stuff....

I guess now I'm at the totally different side, as in ' a very,very small fandom writer'. And my brain even convinces me that stepping away from it isn't a big deal because I hardly got comments on my updates. Even the big ships, the explicit ones, that I updated weekly,... Even typing this all out makes me realize how depressing it all has become.

Girl if it’s becoming depressing to think about posting, then just don’t! Your mental health comes first!

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I'm still writing fanfiction but I'm just not able to bring myself to post it on AO3 anymore. I think it's now a little more then a month that I took a break because of the lack of engagement.

I even have stories that are totally finished and could be posted in 5 seconds but I just- I'm just afraid to do it. Sharing them and sharing a bit of my heart. Guess I never really realized how daunting that is until now.

And sadly, I'm not the type of fanfic writer that can just write for myself or can post a story and then be content with a few kudos. It's a weird thing.

Yeah, just following a few fanfics for now and leaving comments there. I guess that still makes me part of the fandom? 😊

Have a good day!

I totally get that.

Posting IS like putting a piece of our heart right out there in public and especially after a rough run with shitty commenters or even a random “flop” of a fic that for whatever reason didn’t get any comments or way less hits than usual and ends up being super discouraging.

Personally I have at least six fics (less than 50k words, so shorter fics for me) fully written that I haven’t published because they’re rare pairs or a premise I don’t think will be popular or a gen fic vs a mature or explicit one so maybe people just won’t bother reading. I wrote them, title chapters and everything and then just… downloaded them to a USB and moved on. Never posted them.

And yes I AM someone that writes for myself, that’s why even my commissioned fics tend to be self indulgent. I write the stories I want to read. I re read my own stories constantly cos I wrote them for ME.

But I am also always very upfront about POSTING for the engagement. I post my stories for hits and kudos and comments and engagement and it’s the community If I don’t think a story will get hits and kudos and comments and engagement, I write it and leave it on my computer or get if printed and just put the book my bookshelf for personal use. No problem.

I completely understand writing but not wanting the sometimes emotional upheaval and vulnerability of posting.

But you know, there’s two parts to fandom— people who create fanworks and people who interact with the fan works so by reading and commenting OF COURSE you’re still a valid and participating member of the fandom. Moving from posting to not posting isn’t like a…. Fandom rank? Badge? At different times in our lives we engage with hobbies and passions at different levels and there’s no shame in changing that level as life changes or interest wanes or anything like that.

On a slightly different note:: have you thought about using the already written fics for the Big Bang events or other fandom writer/artist events? I’ve never gotten into any of those but I have a couple writer friends who do every sign up that comes along and swear it is the most fun ever plus it’s a great way to build relationships within the fandom! You could just sort of… wait until the right event comes along and then hey, you already have a ready fic that maybe just needs to be polished or slightly updated and you’re in!

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LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOO

#Deadpool and Wolverine #Youtube

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I go "pspspsps" as I rattle a plastic box with a bunch of tiny Tonys inside.

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Stevie, look

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This movie is gonna save my life

#deadpool #wolverine #deadpool and wolverine

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⁉️⁉️ if this a reader/person caused purity police anti whatever group targeting authors with abusive spam comment issue, congratulations you are terrible human beings and an absolute thundercunt.

If this is a web novel-esque ai generated spam issue— I guess ughhh but ultimately whatever. I have guest comments turned off anyway so it won’t affect me but jfc what a pain for other people. Glad we have a dedicated archive team working on it

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I love that Chapter 19: the end???? has all those questionmarks. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

I literally just designated chapters based on the general flow of ideas I already had jotted down but I didn’t have an “ending” idea written yet so that’s why there’s question marks 😂😂 like who the hell knows how many chapters it will be?? NOT ME!

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i would comment directly on 'til morning but it's currently at 69 comments and i don't want to ruin that so here is me, back and reading after a weirdly long dryspell and holy shit. i am so here. kudos x1mil.

First of all HI it’s so good to see you back in my notifs!

Second of all, haha NICE. I haven’t checked the comment count on that fic but 69 is excellent.

I’m glad you’re enjoying the story! I have lots of chapters planned!

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Took a couple hours to organize my notes for the Stony Dom fic since The Plot actually starts happening in chapter 3.

And?? I thought I only had a couple chapters worth of ideas??

The Outline:

NINETEEN CHAPTERS????

#stony

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Getting the oil changed in my car and listening to the lady behind me talking on the phone about how she helped her cousin escape the cops by hiding in a Burger King??? What????

My life is boring AF I’ve never had a story half that interesting to tell 😂😂

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WIP - About 16 hours in.

Look at that sexy hand! Actually, on second thought, having seen far too many nightmare-inducing AI hands, Tony's goofy unfinished hand is looking pretty good.

Digital paint, photobash, and some AI elements.

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Our favourite Aussie is back posting on Instagram, I missed him 🫶🫶