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Chosen by Eywa | Masterlist
neteyam x omatikaya!reader - complete
summary: eywa makes no mistakes... in the midst of his preparation to become the future olo'eyktan, neteyam is told to be with a chosen mate. guided by the signs of eywa, tsahik picks y/n, a woman orphaned by the war, whose heart already belongs to another. y/n's whole world begins to crumble, as she is forced into the loveless bond. will neteyam and y/n be able to overcome the odds and find their true happiness?
contains: arranged marriage, mentions of war and grief, angst, one-sided enemies to lovers
wc: 30.4k
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a/n: i usually don't write for this trope but the idea had been inciting since rewatching the first avatar movie. this is going to be very angsty but very rewarding too and thank you to the anon who sent in the request ♡ so excited to start this journey with you!
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Chapter 1: The Dream Hunt
Chapter 2: The Betrayal
Chapter 3: Lessons to Learn
Chapter 4: Crossing the Bridge
Chapter 5: New Beginnings
Chapter 6: A Team of Two - finale
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somebody must have cursed or gave me an evil eye because there is no way i got sick every month since april and this is my second time getting sick in september?? like it's either a stomach issue or a flu every month for the past six months
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randxmthxughts · 7 months
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Chosen by Eywa - A Team of Two - Chapter 6 - Finale
← chapter 5
contains: arranged marriage, mentions of war and grief, angst, one-sided enemies to lovers, slow burn
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chosen by eywa masterlist | general avatar masterlist
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a/n: ngl it was funny to disappear for three months and randomly drop the finale like this. to be quite honest, whoever has been closely following my blog, knows that i took a break due to some personal matters as well as bc of guilt of making avatar-related content. in anyway, this series has been a journey, i really put so much into this, thinking about this story has been a consistent thing for the past months. i really don't expect this to get the same hype it did when i published the first part bc it's been soo long and people might have forgotten about it completely but i would still appreciate it if you read it and leave a comment. enjoy!
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They were nice about it, welcoming as if she was already a part of the family, but Y/N still couldn’t push away the nagging feeling of intruding into their space. She was used to being on her own, sleeping, eating, living by herself. There was no shared meal before going to sleep, no conversation to lull her into her dreams, yet at Sully's home the well-forgotten routine that Y/N’s been doing with her parents before their death, was practiced like a prayer. 
Neteyam’s warm gaze encouraged her to accept yet another sweet gesture from his little sister. Eager to bond, Tuk offered Y/N her hammock, next to Kiri’s. The other siblings only snickered at the unfortunate unfolding of events, and Neteyam too, tried suppressing an amusing smile that was so ready to give away the humor he found in the whole situation. 
She was so nervous about it too, and suddenly, Neteyam felt his chest swell with something unbearably big and overwhelming. I love you, he thought, watching the way she complied with his family’s wish to take care of her, the way she mumbled a “good night” to everyone before laying down in an unfamiliar hammock. 
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Y/N’s eyes fluttered softly, the light spilled into the room with a brightness she wasn’t adjusted to yet. The hammock underneath her was different, uncomfortable, and she grumbled, shifting her position, only to be met with restriction. The further she pushed against it, the more she realized that the resistance wasn’t from the hammock itself. With a puzzled frown, she turned around and when her eyes settled onto a chest, that’s what snapped her fully awake. The sight of Neteyam, snoring peacefully next to her, brought back the memory of the last night with a flush of embarrassment. 
How did she end up in his hammock? In the stillness of the night, her thoughts restless, Y/N watched how everyone seemed to have fallen asleep a long time ago. She tried peeking out of her hammock to catch a glimpse of Neteyam but it was too far and too dark to see him. Quietly, without giving it a second thought, she slipped out of her hammock and carefully stepped around others to approach Neteyam’s. His face was bathed in the moonlight with a soft glow, and as if she was in the dream and had all the time in the world, she stared at him for a moment, to make sure he was still there, safe and sound. Maybe because she loved him too.
It caught her off guard when he opened his eyes with a knowing smile, already having felt her eyes on him. She didn’t move for a moment, but the unspoken connection seemed to grow deeper in the darkness. Without a word, he opened up his arms, and Y/N didn’t take long to consider his silent offer. She dived into his hammock and snuggled close to him, and the way he held her, made her feel the safest she had ever felt. Ever since her parents died, since Kaye was no longer there, Neteyam grounded her like the gravity. As if he understood her too, like the vision from his Dream Hunt, everything just clicked, and nothing felt more natural than having her in his arms. 
They fell asleep so quickly that, in the morning, as Y/N recalled the events of the night, she almost assumed it was only a drem. Her heart dropped as she traced the patterns of his chest all the way up to his face, finding his peaceful expression, mouth slightly open as he snored with such sweet noises coming out of it. She smiled to herself at the sight and then heard a faint rustling joined by soft giggles. Y/N’s head quickly snapped into the direction and the revelation nearly made her die at the spot from the embarrassment. 
In an attempt to be quiet, Tuk and Lo’ak were giggling like a pair of toddlers who had seen a banshee for the first time. Their gazes were surely pointed at their older brother sound asleep and Y/N, cuddled up into him. Y/N’s mortified eyes then quickly found Kiri, who just looked irritated and tried ignoring her siblings, then they traced the frames of Neteyam’s parents. Jake and Neytiri were trying to be mature about it, to put on the blissfully unaware act, even though both of them were the first to find Y/N in Neteyam’s hammock. They circulated around the small table, setting up for the breakfast, and Y/N hid her face in Neteyam’s chest, whispering softly but urgently.
“Neteyam, wake up, please.”
His nose scrunched once but then it felt like his mind just gave up and decided to ignore Y/N’s voice completely. She tried again, this time swatting at his chest just enough to make him shift. The sunlight did the rest of the work, as Neteyam lazily opened his eyes, stretching as much as he could within the proximity of the small space in his hammock. He blinked sleepily, his gaze landing on Y/N and it took him a few seconds to register the situation, but as he did, a small smile tugged at the corners of his lips. Y/N was the woman from his Dream Hunt and last night, as he struggled to fall asleep, he found out that she felt so too, the way she laid into his arms and lulled him to sleep just with her scent. Neteyam’s chest warmed with love, and he couldn’t wait to let her know about his secret.
With a yawn, Neteyam stirred from his seat, and as his eyes grazed around the room, taking in the scene, Y/N was already jumping out of his hammock. 
“Good morning,” he greeted them loudly, giving a particularly stern look to his siblings.
"Good morning," Y/N echoed him, her voice barely above a whisper.
Lo’ak and Tuk giggled once more under their brother's gaze, while Kiri only hid a knowing smirk. Neytiri and Jake continued to set up the morning table with content smiles on their own faces. Y/N stood awkwardly next to the hammock, and it made Neteyam’s chest swell with even more amusement. He had never been happier than now, to wake up to the woman of his dreams next to him, with his family being genuinely proud of him. Y/N peeked from behind her hair, as Neteyam stepped out of his hammock with comfortable stature, and she slowly followed after him, as he sat down on the ground around the table.
“Come, Y/N, you’ll eat with us,” Neytiri gave Y/N a soft smile, gesturing to the spot next to her oldest son.
With a nod, Y/N took her place silently, the embarrassment of being caught in Neteyam’s hammock was clearly showing through how deep blue her cheeks were turning. Jake and Neteyam exchanged a knowing look and like a proud father he only chuckled to himself at the situation. And it wasn’t like anything had happened, everyone could have guessed that they only shared a hammock, but to Y/N it seemed like her whole reputation had crumbled.
Kiri, clearly enjoying her friend’s sudden flustered state, couldn't contain her amusement any longer, busted into laughter.
"You two are so whipped."
"Y/N, did you cuddle with Neteyam because you like him?" Tuk added on, her voice filled with innocent curiosity.
Y/N's cheeks turned even deeper at the question, and she fumbled for words, feeling the weight of everyone's gaze on her. She glanced at Neteyam, who was trying his best to hide his own embarrassment behind a composed expression. 
“Neteyam is a wonderful person, I mean… everyone probably likes him,” Y/N stammered.
"I mean it's clear she does more than like him," Kiri teased.
People don’t just fall in love overnight. It happens gradually, with shared moments, time spent together, with tears of both sadness and joy. It is just the realization of it all hits them suddenly. Y/N had a whole day to realize that she felt love for Neteyam, but she wasn’t going to say it for the first time so publicly. She wanted it to happen naturally, after she had processed everything herself, alone.
"Come on now, I'd be worried if they didn't touch each other at all," Jake whispered with a snicker, coaxing a small chuckle from Neytiri. He cleared his throat, "Alright, alright, enough for now.”
Neteyam attempted to hide his own smile at the words, and he hung his head, focusing on his food, but his tail quickly and secretly found its way under the table, wrapping around Y/N’s ankle. She shivered at the touch but welcomed it, nonetheless, relaxing just a second later. 
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“You’re staring again,” she tried to scold him for it, but frankly, there was not a feeling more pleasant than to feel his warm gaze on her.
Neteyam chuckled to himself, the excitement from waking up besides Y/N - woman from his vision overflowing him. Like the pieces of the puzzle were finally fitting together, everything just clicked, his world fell back into its place. He leaned in, his finger hooking under the long necklace adorning her neck and for the third time since she wore it, Y/N couldn’t understand his astonishment with Tuk’s gift. Sat in front of him on the forest ground, as they took a break from the morning chaos with his family, Y/N let out a sigh. There was a mixture of happiness and guilt swirling inside of her, babbling up in her chest to the point that she wasn’t sure how else to behave. It was as if she suddenly had forgotten about who she was.
“You’re still wearing the necklace,” Neteyam pointed out, gathering one of the blue feathers and running it through his fingers with fascination, “Isn’t it too long? Uncomfortable?”
“Do you not think it’s nice? Your sister made it for me,” Y/N teased.
They were close to each other, an undeniable pressure building and hardening in between the two bodies. Like a magnetic pull that lured him in closer, and Neteyam now took another one of the feathers into his gentle grasp, studying it for a moment before breaking into a grin.
“I didn’t even know she was going to give it to you,” he recalled with a low chuckle, almost as if he was saying it to himself. His eyes shifted back to hers, finding Y/N already looking at him, “It doesn’t mean you’re obligated to wear it though… if it’s bothering you.”
“Hey, hands off,” Y/N swatted at his hand playfully, pulling the necklace away from him, “I like it very much, so I don’t really care about the practicality. I think it looks great on me!”
“It does,” Neteyam chuckled, leaning back onto his elbows and Y/N felt a little disappointed at the loss of proximity, “I think you could make anything look beautiful.”
“Oh,” she let out. He was bold. Since the morning, he was more forward than usual, and she couldn’t guess if it was the aftermath of her willingly stepping into his hammock and sleeping with him or was it the fact that their ceremony was fast approaching and now there was only a matter of a few casualties left. But she liked the boldness.
Though Y/N could assume that Neteyam wasn't in the wrong. If he was making a move on her, he was truly just doing his duty, he was warming up to his mate. It wouldn’t be very pleasant to have their first kiss in front of the whole clan, would it? Y/N shivered at the thought of kissing him first, now, alone. There were certainly moments she thought he would, and it almost seemed like if she didn’t push him away, they’d be much closer now than she ever anticipated.
“I’ll tell you tomorrow,” Neteyam promised suddenly, a soft smile stretching his lips.
“Tell me what?”
“Tell you about the necklace… why I’m so intrigued by you wearing it.”
“Is there a valid reason?” Y/N quirked her eyebrow in surprise.
“There is, I just don’t want to scare you away.”
“Scare me away? Neteyam, I think we’re way past that point. It’s not like we can back out now,” she joked weakly.
Neteyam didn’t find humor in her words. Was she still bothered about it? Was she still spiteful of the idea of mateship with him? Surely, if she hated it so much, why would she stay? He was beginning to think that she was finally reciprocating, last night was the testament to that, so why was she back to making these comments? He frowned, suddenly growing silent, and that’s when Y/N knew that she messed up. She jumped to retrieve her words with eagerness, hand clutching at the long necklace.
“I was joking.” 
“I know,” Neteyam hummed softly but his head shook slightly, giving away his disagreement.
Y/N could feel her heart sink at the way his face fell. She leaned in closer, her palms finding support on either side of his body, nails digging into the soil. Their faces were now mere inches apart, and Neteyam's breath caught in his throat, his eyes searching her face.
“I don’t want to back out of this,” she whispered sincerely, her own eyes boring into his.
Neteyam could only gulp, waiting anxiously for her to take the next step. His heart picked up a rhythm, when she finally closed the gap between them, and though hesitantly, but with such tenderness, pressed her lips against his. He welcomed her like the forest would welcome the first warm rays of the sunshine, responding to her kiss. Savoring her taste wasn’t enough, he needed to engrave the way she felt into his memory permanently. 
Love couldn’t be that easy, could it? Falling into the person you were so begrudged against, letting him catch you when there is no one else to witness your fall. Letting him become your rock, your whole world, your person who makes everything else become a senseless noise, a blurry background. When your words are guided by the wish to please him, to humor him, to bring a smile to his face. Falling into him was sudden but easy, careless. It felt right. Like it was destined by the greater power, by the will of Eywa herself. 
Eywa makes no mistakes. Y/N had clung to these words her whole life, in bad and in good, she found comfort in knowing that her journey was already written out, that she was destined for a greater purpose, greater love than she was used to receiving. That no matter the circumstances she had brought upon herself, the Great Mother had been looking out for her, that Eywa brought Y/N the kind of love that she never imagined possible.
The silence as they pulled away was bittersweet. Neteyam could feel his heart almost stop at the proximity, as she was still looming over him, catching on her breath. Overwhelmed, he brought a hand to her cheek to make sure he hadn’t imagined it. Her smile grew, eyes darting between his to guess if he was thinking the same. Y/N had no idea that up until this morning, Neteyam was already utterly smitten with her. That every thought in his mind was occupied with her. 
“What was that for?” he questioned 
“For being patient with me. For seeing me…”
“I do, I see you,” he nodded, eager to spill the confession that has been on the tip of his tongue for some time now.
“I see you too,” she whispered, “I thought I knew what love is. Thought that I got what I deserved and nothing more but now I know how blind I was.”
Neteyam's heart swelled with both joy and sadness. He reached out and gently brushed a strand of hair behind her ear. She leaned into him, closing her eyes briefly to savor the moment. 
“You weren’t blind, you were just scared,” he reassured, “But you don’t have to be anymore. I’m here now.”
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Y/N looked up from her unfinished work to Neytiri for the third time in the past minute, it was hard to concentrate on something she was struggling with, when right next to her, somebody else was doing it perfectly. Neytiri’s fingers worked quickly and gracefully, beads were woven into a shawl with recognizable patterns usually worn by the Olo’eyktan’s family. Y/N sighed in frustration at her own piece of work - a long beaded skirt that was supposed to match the shawl for the ceremony.
“You’re doing great, just be patient with yourself,” Neytiri spoke softly, barely lifting her gaze towards Y/N, but a small smile stretched her lips, nonetheless.
“I don’t have time to be patient,” Y/N sighed again, “The ceremony is tomorrow and…”
“Take your time, the ceremony won’t happen until you finish your skirt the way you like it,” Neytiri teased, putting aside the shawl, as if she was sensing that there was something else bothering Y/N.
To be quite frank, though Neytiri knew from the beginning that Eywa’s signs were truthful, the reactions she first got from her son and Y/N scared her. She could see the way they started looking at each other, the morning Y/N spent in their hut was an undeniable testament to her growing connection with Neteyam, but Neytiri still wasn't completely convinced that they were going into it surely. She watched how Y/N struggled with her weaving for a moment before reaching out to pat her shoulder lovingly, signaling for her to take a break.
“There is something else on your mind that is keeping you distracted. Tell me.”
Y/N gulped nervously, giving up on the skirt. She contemplated for a minute if she should spill the intense guilt she has been feeling since kissing Neteyam onto his mother and possibly ruining the way she was perceived by his family for the rest of her life. 
“I know that after losing someone as close as your mom it is hard to open up to another woman,” Neytiri spoke softly, "But I already consider you my child. You can tell me what’s wrong.”
“It’s…” Y/N looked up with a softened expression, “You know why I was so opposed to the arrangement in the beginning?”
“You were scared, no?” Neytiri squinted.
“Yes but there was a bigger reason,” Y/N breathed out slowly, taking her time, “I was in love with someone else… or I thought I was. But we weren’t mated and I don’t think he was ever going to mate with me, so I couldn’t tell anyone that. I could only be angry because I was helpless.”
“Do you still see that someone else?” she asked carefully, like a mother asking her child something she is afraid to know the answer to.
“No. It was Kaye.”
“Kaye?”
Neytiri nodded in understanding, small pieces of information she heard about Kaye’s death were falling into pieces. The way Y/N behaved when he was first shot, how long she refused to attend to her tasks and how Neteyam skipped training to be with her. The days Y/N stayed inside and turned into an empty shell of herself. Y/N wasn’t just angry and rebellious, she was hurt because she was alone. Neytiri reached out once more to pat her on the shoulder with motherly care.
“I’m sorry, my child.”
“I felt so guilty,” Y/N hung her head, staring at her own hands, as she revealed the deepest secret she withheld, “Because no matter how much Kaye hurt me, I didn’t want to fall for somebody else. And Neteyam… he is perfect. I can’t help it, the way I feel about him. But it also feels like betraying Kaye… betraying what we had.”
“Y/N, look at me,” Neytiri spoke gently, “Eywa does not make mistakes, she brings us what we need, even when we don’t expect it. Just because you’re following your destiny, it doesn’t mean you are forgetting Kaye and what you had with him. Your heart is capable of holding both love and memories.”
Y/N nodded weakly, her eyes tearing up at the words she had been so desperate to hear. She wiped her eyes, lips trembling in the search for ways to express her gratitude. Neytiri watched her for a moment with a newly gained perspective. She had always observed Y/N to be a smart empathetic girl but she had never gotten to experience her side of things.
“I understand more than you think I do,” she attempted a playful tone, “Before mating with Toruk Makto, I was meant to be with another warrior… his name was Tsu’tey. It was my duty to the clan, a tradition. But Eywa sent me Jake, a sky person. He was an outsider, it was against all odds, challenged the path I thought was set for me. But love finds a way."
Y/N felt her heartbeat pick up. Surely, she had known the way Neytiri and Jake found their way to each other, how he became the Toruk Makto to prove himself to her. But hearing it like this, from Neytiri herself, made Y/N see her as someone real, who wasn’t perfect, who was once a girl too, torn between her duties and her heart. 
“Eywa has a way of guiding us, you just have to trust her,” Neytiri smiled, her gaze returning to the girl in front of her, “Whatever you feel, know that I am here for you, just as your mother would be there for you. You are a part of our family now.”
“Thank you, Neytiri, for… everything,” Y/N reached out to gently grasp Neytiri’s hand.
She felt accepted and understood. For the first time in so long she remembered the connection she had with her mother. How, no matter the circumstances, she had a safety net to fall into. Neytiri smiled, squeezing her hand, and reached for the unfinished skirt.
“Now, for this part, you’d want to change up your technique…”
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Lo’ak had never witnessed such unease in Neteyam, it was so out of character for his typically unshakable older brother. This unexpected anxiety radiating from Neteyam has somehow transferred to him too, Lo'ak's palms were sweating, as he observed silently. With trembling hands, Neteyam held up a bowl of vibrant yellow paint to Jake, who dipped his fingers into it and continued drawing a pattern on his eldest son’s forehead,
“You alright, son?” Jake took a small sigh, throwing a quick knowing glance at Lo’ak. Neteyam took a moment to reply.
“I don’t think so,” he mumbled, zoned out, eyes focusing on the horizon with a deep wrinkle forming between his eyebrows, “Everyone is going to be there watching, no?”
“Well, yeah, that’s kind of the point,” Jake chuckled weakly, “To seal your bond before the clan and Eywa.”
“Are you scared?” Lo’ak chimed in anxiously, he wasn’t sure if Neteyam’s answer was going to calm him down either way.
Neteyam couldn’t bring himself to respond with words, so he only gave his brother a short nod. Jake frowned and took a step back to glance at him.
“What are you scared of? Everyone loves you and Y/N together, your union has already been blessed by Eywa. You love her, no?”
“Yes! I mean… it couldn’t be anything less,” Neteyam looked up at his father, then sighed again, “But it’s scary. How did you do it? I mean, you gave vows before the entire clan like a hundred times, with everyone watching you, holding you responsible.”
Jake chuckled warmly, guessing that the reason for Neteyam’s nervousness wasn’t necessarily the choice of being with Y/N, undeniably, he was smitten with her, but rather announcing it to everyone. Because once he makes his union everyone’s business, there is no going back. But as the future Olo’eyktan, whatever Neteyam was affected by in his role as the chief was also going to affect the others. Jake thought he knew exactly what to say now.
“It is scary, I’m not gonna lie. It gets easier with time but I remember being terrified to make big promises with everyone’s eyes on me,” a hint of nostalgia flashed in his eyes, then a lazy smile made its way onto the man’s face, “But I have a secret. Helps me every time.”
“What is it?” both brothers asked simultaneously, watching their father.
“Your mother,” Jake answered in a heartbeat, “When you know there is the right person standing beside you, who supports you wholeheartedly and will always keep by your side, it doesn’t matter anymore. Because you’re making a promise to her, and you know that when it comes to her, you will keep that promise with your life.”
Neteyam nodded with a sense of understanding, as if the answer his father gave him, suddenly connected bridges. He rapidly stood up from his seat, shoving the bowl of paint into Lo’ak’s hands, and sprinting away. It wasn't hard to guess where he was headed.
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Y/N twirled awkwardly, the long-beaded skirt trailing behind her in a swift dance, glistening under the soft sunlight filling out the tent. Neytiri tilted her head slightly at the movement with an approving hum and beside her Tsahik nodded in agreement. Y/N felt herself melting under their gazes.
"Oh Eywa," Kiri’s voice brought her back into a state of insecurity.
Y/N twirled once more, this time weaker, discouraged by the tone. She ran her hands over the beaded top, before staring back at her friend in anticipation.
"What's wrong with this?"
"Nothing," Kiri shook her head, "You just look so beautiful.”
“You look perfect, my child,” like her mother’s voice, Neytiri spoke to Y/N with such surety and tenderness, that all of the worries were now melting away.
"Can I steal her for a moment?"
Everyone's head snapped at the future Olo'eyktan walking in, his eyes glistening at the sight of Y/N in the beautiful garments she had woven for the ceremony. It was too soon for him to be there, to ruin this moment of her bonding with the women in his life, but Neteyam didn't care. Couldn't care if he had to, he was eager to get her alone, to wash away his anxiousness once more before they were mated before the whole clan.
His grandmother tsksed loudly, Neytiri throwing a disapproving glance, and before anyone could really protest how improper it was of Neteyam out of all people to disrupt the tradition, Y/N was already apologizing and running out of the tent.
"Come," his hand found hers like an instinct and pulled her gently towards his ikran, "The Mother Tree is beautiful at this time."
"But there are preparations for the ceremony," she scrunched up her nose at the thought of so many people seeing them.
"Don't worry, we'll just sneak a look and be out of there," Neteyam reassured.
As Y/N followed Neteyam's lead, her heart raced with a mixture of excitement and nervousness. She couldn't believe she was going against tradition, breaking away from the preparations for the ceremony. But at the same time, she couldn't deny the thrill of being alone with Neteyam, away from prying eyes and expectations.
They reached the outskirts of the camp, where the dense forest greeted them with its familiar embrace. Neteyam led her to a secluded spot near the Mother Tree. The sunlight filtered through the leaves, casting a warm glow over the two of them.
"Close your eyes," he whispered, a mischievous smile playing on his lips. 
She rolled her eyes but complied anyway with a grin. She felt his touch as he sneaked something into her palm and closed it gently, something smooth and rounded and familiar but she couldn’t guess what it was.
Without waiting for his instructions, once his hand left hers, she opened her palm to find two wooden rings. Y/N looked back at Neteyam in a slight confusion, finding him already smiling at her, his freckles glowing with particular brightness.
“I made these out of the root of the Mother Tree,” he explained softly, “One for you, one for me.”
“They’re beautiful,” she whispered, examining the rings up closer, noticing the small patterns needled into them. 
“I know it seems a little simple but let me explain first,” Neteyam stole one of the rings back, twirling it in between his fingers, “Where my father comes from, there was no ceremony before Eywa but there was something similar… a tradition,” he paused to gulp down, suddenly a rush of nervousness overwhelming him, “The couples would exchange rings to symbolize their love for each other. And they would wear it for the rest of their lives to show how their hearts still belong to each other, that they will always be connected.”
Gently, taking her free hand into his Neteyam pondered for a moment before sliding the ring onto her finger. Silently, his eyes asked for approval, and once he noticed hers glistening with the tears of joy and a faint smile forming on her lips, he smiled too, sealing the bond. It fit perfectly, he hadn’t guessed it, of course it would. He held her hand too many times not to know.
“This means…” she whispered, her voice filled with too many emotions, “I want to be connected to you too.”
Without a thought, she slid the other ring onto his finger and ran over the patter with care. His fingers quickly intertwined with hers, the wooden rings clinking from the touch as if Eywa suddenly clinked all of her bellflowers to signify the success of the union. Eager now to express his love, Neteyam cupped her face quickly, resting his forehead against hers with a toothy grin.
“You’re mine now, and I am yours,” he announced happily, coaxing a joyful laughter out of her.
His mouth quickly caught that sound, she nearly stumbled but Neteyam’s hands were firm and steady, pulling her into him. His lips felt so natural against hers, it felt like they were molded off each other and no one, not even Eywa herself, could plan how perfect they seemed to be right in this moment.
As they pulled away, Y/N glanced at the ring again with genuine warmth in her eyes. For the first time in years, she felt happy unconditionally, without fear of losing it. A few more tears streamed down her face.
“Well, now my gift will look lame,” she mocked playfully through the tears, coaxing a chuckle out of Neteyam.
Shaking his head, he reached out to gently wipe away a tear from her cheek. 
"No gift you could ever give me would be considered lame," he assured.
Slowly, she reached into her pouch, carefully taking out the necklace she had prepared to give him during the ceremony. The one that he got a glimpse of the other night, but she was so quick to hide. Woven with intricate patterns it reminded Neteyam of the necklace worn by his grandfather. He took a small breath; his fingers grazed over the beads and feathers to try and feel everything he could at once.
“I made this for you to wear,” she whispered softly, like she was scared he wouldn’t like it.
Unmistakably, it was a necklace worthy of an Olo’eyktan. The colors, the patterns, the size. It was too fancy to be worn by the other clan members, too clanky and beautiful to be used every day. Very fitting to show a status. With trembling hands, he took the necklace into his hands, marveling at its beauty. 
“Are you sure?” Neteyam gulped, looking back at her with uncertainty.
“You don’t like it?”
“I do,” he was quick to interrupt her before she could jump to conclusions, “No. I mean, of course, I like it! But I don’t know if I can wear it… it looks like something…”
“Something like an Olo’eyktan would wear.”
Neteyam nodded in agreement, his own insecurity of his status and fear of leading one day washed over him. He might have prepared for the change his whole life but no one chose him. His father was chosen, but Neteyam was never the leader that his people asked for. Sure, he was strong and brave and smart but was he capable of being the one? These thoughts would often consume his mind with a rotten feeling of incapability, vulnerability that would ultimately make him question everything about himself. So why was she sure of him?
“Well, you are the Olo’eyktan. My Olo’eyktan,” she assured with a soft smile, as if guessing his thoughts. And just like that, he felt the weight fall off his shoulders.
Her faith in him was like a guiding light, illuminating the path that seemed so unknown and dark before. He realized that it wasn't about living up to the expectations of others; it was about doing his best while he had her by his side.
Neteyam, suddenly flustered by the way she was looking at him, eyes so full of love and admiration, looked down. His eyes caught the blue and instinctively almost his fingers reached to graze the blue feathers of the too familiar necklace. Y/N shivered at the touch.
“You know how I saw a woman in my vision, during my Dream Hunt?” he whispered, looking back up at her.
Y/N nodded with an understanding, showing that it wasn’t something she could forget. The memory has set in motion the whole ordeal, their mating, their fate.
“I couldn’t see her face… I thought it was only a sign I was ready, that it wasn’t anyone in particular that Eywa was showing to me,” Neteyam continued, lost in his own thought, “But there was something odd about her… a long necklace, just like yours, with blue feathers, going all the way down… too long to be worn by anyone else. I thought it was odd but then... what isn’t odd about getting a vision from Eywa during your Dream Hunt?” Neteyam chuckled and paused, waiting for Y/N’s reaction, “It was you, wasn’t it? From the beginning, it was destined to be you and me.”
Y/N put her hand over his, the one that was still holding onto her necklace, her eyes widening in surprise. Her heart raced at the revelation, and just like a confirmation, she noticed a woodsprite floating around the two of them. Eywa makes no mistakes.
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the end!
this was lazily edited so please don't mind me, i'm just glad to have put out this final chapter! i hope you enjoyed the series, i know i did, thank you!
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I remember loving “chosen by Eywa” but sadly I read ALOT and I forgot the plot and I m lazy as hell to fast read it…. so can you sammeriz the previous parts!! please please
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HI BABES IM SO EXCITED TO SEE THE FINALE OMG
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Don’t get your hopes up too high, i have spent no time editing the finale so i’m guessing it sucks haha
but i am excited for you to read it and let me know if the ending was enough
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Chosen by Eywa - A Team of Two - Chapter 6 - Finale
← chapter 5
contains: arranged marriage, mentions of war and grief, angst, one-sided enemies to lovers, slow burn
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a/n: ngl it was funny to disappear for three months and randomly drop the finale like this. to be quite honest, whoever has been closely following my blog, knows that i took a break due to some personal matters as well as bc of guilt of making avatar-related content. in anyway, this series has been a journey, i really put so much into this, thinking about this story has been a consistent thing for the past months. i really don't expect this to get the same hype it did when i published the first part bc it's been soo long and people might have forgotten about it completely but i would still appreciate it if you read it and leave a comment. enjoy!
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They were nice about it, welcoming as if she was already a part of the family, but Y/N still couldn’t push away the nagging feeling of intruding into their space. She was used to being on her own, sleeping, eating, living by herself. There was no shared meal before going to sleep, no conversation to lull her into her dreams, yet at Sully's home the well-forgotten routine that Y/N’s been doing with her parents before their death, was practiced like a prayer. 
Neteyam’s warm gaze encouraged her to accept yet another sweet gesture from his little sister. Eager to bond, Tuk offered Y/N her hammock, next to Kiri’s. The other siblings only snickered at the unfortunate unfolding of events, and Neteyam too, tried suppressing an amusing smile that was so ready to give away the humor he found in the whole situation. 
She was so nervous about it too, and suddenly, Neteyam felt his chest swell with something unbearably big and overwhelming. I love you, he thought, watching the way she complied with his family’s wish to take care of her, the way she mumbled a “good night” to everyone before laying down in an unfamiliar hammock. 
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Y/N’s eyes fluttered softly, the light spilled into the room with a brightness she wasn’t adjusted to yet. The hammock underneath her was different, uncomfortable, and she grumbled, shifting her position, only to be met with restriction. The further she pushed against it, the more she realized that the resistance wasn’t from the hammock itself. With a puzzled frown, she turned around and when her eyes settled onto a chest, that’s what snapped her fully awake. The sight of Neteyam, snoring peacefully next to her, brought back the memory of the last night with a flush of embarrassment. 
How did she end up in his hammock? In the stillness of the night, her thoughts restless, Y/N watched how everyone seemed to have fallen asleep a long time ago. She tried peeking out of her hammock to catch a glimpse of Neteyam but it was too far and too dark to see him. Quietly, without giving it a second thought, she slipped out of her hammock and carefully stepped around others to approach Neteyam’s. His face was bathed in the moonlight with a soft glow, and as if she was in the dream and had all the time in the world, she stared at him for a moment, to make sure he was still there, safe and sound. Maybe because she loved him too.
It caught her off guard when he opened his eyes with a knowing smile, already having felt her eyes on him. She didn’t move for a moment, but the unspoken connection seemed to grow deeper in the darkness. Without a word, he opened up his arms, and Y/N didn’t take long to consider his silent offer. She dived into his hammock and snuggled close to him, and the way he held her, made her feel the safest she had ever felt. Ever since her parents died, since Kaye was no longer there, Neteyam grounded her like the gravity. As if he understood her too, like the vision from his Dream Hunt, everything just clicked, and nothing felt more natural than having her in his arms. 
They fell asleep so quickly that, in the morning, as Y/N recalled the events of the night, she almost assumed it was only a drem. Her heart dropped as she traced the patterns of his chest all the way up to his face, finding his peaceful expression, mouth slightly open as he snored with such sweet noises coming out of it. She smiled to herself at the sight and then heard a faint rustling joined by soft giggles. Y/N’s head quickly snapped into the direction and the revelation nearly made her die at the spot from the embarrassment. 
In an attempt to be quiet, Tuk and Lo’ak were giggling like a pair of toddlers who had seen a banshee for the first time. Their gazes were surely pointed at their older brother sound asleep and Y/N, cuddled up into him. Y/N’s mortified eyes then quickly found Kiri, who just looked irritated and tried ignoring her siblings, then they traced the frames of Neteyam’s parents. Jake and Neytiri were trying to be mature about it, to put on the blissfully unaware act, even though both of them were the first to find Y/N in Neteyam’s hammock. They circulated around the small table, setting up for the breakfast, and Y/N hid her face in Neteyam’s chest, whispering softly but urgently.
“Neteyam, wake up, please.”
His nose scrunched once but then it felt like his mind just gave up and decided to ignore Y/N’s voice completely. She tried again, this time swatting at his chest just enough to make him shift. The sunlight did the rest of the work, as Neteyam lazily opened his eyes, stretching as much as he could within the proximity of the small space in his hammock. He blinked sleepily, his gaze landing on Y/N and it took him a few seconds to register the situation, but as he did, a small smile tugged at the corners of his lips. Y/N was the woman from his Dream Hunt and last night, as he struggled to fall asleep, he found out that she felt so too, the way she laid into his arms and lulled him to sleep just with her scent. Neteyam’s chest warmed with love, and he couldn’t wait to let her know about his secret.
With a yawn, Neteyam stirred from his seat, and as his eyes grazed around the room, taking in the scene, Y/N was already jumping out of his hammock. 
“Good morning,” he greeted them loudly, giving a particularly stern look to his siblings.
"Good morning," Y/N echoed him, her voice barely above a whisper.
Lo’ak and Tuk giggled once more under their brother's gaze, while Kiri only hid a knowing smirk. Neytiri and Jake continued to set up the morning table with content smiles on their own faces. Y/N stood awkwardly next to the hammock, and it made Neteyam’s chest swell with even more amusement. He had never been happier than now, to wake up to the woman of his dreams next to him, with his family being genuinely proud of him. Y/N peeked from behind her hair, as Neteyam stepped out of his hammock with comfortable stature, and she slowly followed after him, as he sat down on the ground around the table.
“Come, Y/N, you’ll eat with us,” Neytiri gave Y/N a soft smile, gesturing to the spot next to her oldest son.
With a nod, Y/N took her place silently, the embarrassment of being caught in Neteyam’s hammock was clearly showing through how deep blue her cheeks were turning. Jake and Neteyam exchanged a knowing look and like a proud father he only chuckled to himself at the situation. And it wasn’t like anything had happened, everyone could have guessed that they only shared a hammock, but to Y/N it seemed like her whole reputation had crumbled.
Kiri, clearly enjoying her friend’s sudden flustered state, couldn't contain her amusement any longer, busted into laughter.
"You two are so whipped."
"Y/N, did you cuddle with Neteyam because you like him?" Tuk added on, her voice filled with innocent curiosity.
Y/N's cheeks turned even deeper at the question, and she fumbled for words, feeling the weight of everyone's gaze on her. She glanced at Neteyam, who was trying his best to hide his own embarrassment behind a composed expression. 
“Neteyam is a wonderful person, I mean… everyone probably likes him,” Y/N stammered.
"I mean it's clear she does more than like him," Kiri teased.
People don’t just fall in love overnight. It happens gradually, with shared moments, time spent together, with tears of both sadness and joy. It is just the realization of it all hits them suddenly. Y/N had a whole day to realize that she felt love for Neteyam, but she wasn’t going to say it for the first time so publicly. She wanted it to happen naturally, after she had processed everything herself, alone.
"Come on now, I'd be worried if they didn't touch each other at all," Jake whispered with a snicker, coaxing a small chuckle from Neytiri. He cleared his throat, "Alright, alright, enough for now.”
Neteyam attempted to hide his own smile at the words, and he hung his head, focusing on his food, but his tail quickly and secretly found its way under the table, wrapping around Y/N’s ankle. She shivered at the touch but welcomed it, nonetheless, relaxing just a second later. 
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“You’re staring again,” she tried to scold him for it, but frankly, there was not a feeling more pleasant than to feel his warm gaze on her.
Neteyam chuckled to himself, the excitement from waking up besides Y/N - woman from his vision overflowing him. Like the pieces of the puzzle were finally fitting together, everything just clicked, his world fell back into its place. He leaned in, his finger hooking under the long necklace adorning her neck and for the third time since she wore it, Y/N couldn’t understand his astonishment with Tuk’s gift. Sat in front of him on the forest ground, as they took a break from the morning chaos with his family, Y/N let out a sigh. There was a mixture of happiness and guilt swirling inside of her, babbling up in her chest to the point that she wasn’t sure how else to behave. It was as if she suddenly had forgotten about who she was.
“You’re still wearing the necklace,” Neteyam pointed out, gathering one of the blue feathers and running it through his fingers with fascination, “Isn’t it too long? Uncomfortable?”
“Do you not think it’s nice? Your sister made it for me,” Y/N teased.
They were close to each other, an undeniable pressure building and hardening in between the two bodies. Like a magnetic pull that lured him in closer, and Neteyam now took another one of the feathers into his gentle grasp, studying it for a moment before breaking into a grin.
“I didn’t even know she was going to give it to you,” he recalled with a low chuckle, almost as if he was saying it to himself. His eyes shifted back to hers, finding Y/N already looking at him, “It doesn’t mean you’re obligated to wear it though… if it’s bothering you.”
“Hey, hands off,” Y/N swatted at his hand playfully, pulling the necklace away from him, “I like it very much, so I don’t really care about the practicality. I think it looks great on me!”
“It does,” Neteyam chuckled, leaning back onto his elbows and Y/N felt a little disappointed at the loss of proximity, “I think you could make anything look beautiful.”
“Oh,” she let out. He was bold. Since the morning, he was more forward than usual, and she couldn’t guess if it was the aftermath of her willingly stepping into his hammock and sleeping with him or was it the fact that their ceremony was fast approaching and now there was only a matter of a few casualties left. But she liked the boldness.
Though Y/N could assume that Neteyam wasn't in the wrong. If he was making a move on her, he was truly just doing his duty, he was warming up to his mate. It wouldn’t be very pleasant to have their first kiss in front of the whole clan, would it? Y/N shivered at the thought of kissing him first, now, alone. There were certainly moments she thought he would, and it almost seemed like if she didn’t push him away, they’d be much closer now than she ever anticipated.
“I’ll tell you tomorrow,” Neteyam promised suddenly, a soft smile stretching his lips.
“Tell me what?”
“Tell you about the necklace… why I’m so intrigued by you wearing it.”
“Is there a valid reason?” Y/N quirked her eyebrow in surprise.
“There is, I just don’t want to scare you away.”
“Scare me away? Neteyam, I think we’re way past that point. It’s not like we can back out now,” she joked weakly.
Neteyam didn’t find humor in her words. Was she still bothered about it? Was she still spiteful of the idea of mateship with him? Surely, if she hated it so much, why would she stay? He was beginning to think that she was finally reciprocating, last night was the testament to that, so why was she back to making these comments? He frowned, suddenly growing silent, and that’s when Y/N knew that she messed up. She jumped to retrieve her words with eagerness, hand clutching at the long necklace.
“I was joking.” 
“I know,” Neteyam hummed softly but his head shook slightly, giving away his disagreement.
Y/N could feel her heart sink at the way his face fell. She leaned in closer, her palms finding support on either side of his body, nails digging into the soil. Their faces were now mere inches apart, and Neteyam's breath caught in his throat, his eyes searching her face.
“I don’t want to back out of this,” she whispered sincerely, her own eyes boring into his.
Neteyam could only gulp, waiting anxiously for her to take the next step. His heart picked up a rhythm, when she finally closed the gap between them, and though hesitantly, but with such tenderness, pressed her lips against his. He welcomed her like the forest would welcome the first warm rays of the sunshine, responding to her kiss. Savoring her taste wasn’t enough, he needed to engrave the way she felt into his memory permanently. 
Love couldn’t be that easy, could it? Falling into the person you were so begrudged against, letting him catch you when there is no one else to witness your fall. Letting him become your rock, your whole world, your person who makes everything else become a senseless noise, a blurry background. When your words are guided by the wish to please him, to humor him, to bring a smile to his face. Falling into him was sudden but easy, careless. It felt right. Like it was destined by the greater power, by the will of Eywa herself. 
Eywa makes no mistakes. Y/N had clung to these words her whole life, in bad and in good, she found comfort in knowing that her journey was already written out, that she was destined for a greater purpose, greater love than she was used to receiving. That no matter the circumstances she had brought upon herself, the Great Mother had been looking out for her, that Eywa brought Y/N the kind of love that she never imagined possible.
The silence as they pulled away was bittersweet. Neteyam could feel his heart almost stop at the proximity, as she was still looming over him, catching on her breath. Overwhelmed, he brought a hand to her cheek to make sure he hadn’t imagined it. Her smile grew, eyes darting between his to guess if he was thinking the same. Y/N had no idea that up until this morning, Neteyam was already utterly smitten with her. That every thought in his mind was occupied with her. 
“What was that for?” he questioned 
“For being patient with me. For seeing me…”
“I do, I see you,” he nodded, eager to spill the confession that has been on the tip of his tongue for some time now.
“I see you too,” she whispered, “I thought I knew what love is. Thought that I got what I deserved and nothing more but now I know how blind I was.”
Neteyam's heart swelled with both joy and sadness. He reached out and gently brushed a strand of hair behind her ear. She leaned into him, closing her eyes briefly to savor the moment. 
“You weren’t blind, you were just scared,” he reassured, “But you don’t have to be anymore. I’m here now.”
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Y/N looked up from her unfinished work to Neytiri for the third time in the past minute, it was hard to concentrate on something she was struggling with, when right next to her, somebody else was doing it perfectly. Neytiri’s fingers worked quickly and gracefully, beads were woven into a shawl with recognizable patterns usually worn by the Olo’eyktan’s family. Y/N sighed in frustration at her own piece of work - a long beaded skirt that was supposed to match the shawl for the ceremony.
“You’re doing great, just be patient with yourself,” Neytiri spoke softly, barely lifting her gaze towards Y/N, but a small smile stretched her lips, nonetheless.
“I don’t have time to be patient,” Y/N sighed again, “The ceremony is tomorrow and…”
“Take your time, the ceremony won’t happen until you finish your skirt the way you like it,” Neytiri teased, putting aside the shawl, as if she was sensing that there was something else bothering Y/N.
To be quite frank, though Neytiri knew from the beginning that Eywa’s signs were truthful, the reactions she first got from her son and Y/N scared her. She could see the way they started looking at each other, the morning Y/N spent in their hut was an undeniable testament to her growing connection with Neteyam, but Neytiri still wasn't completely convinced that they were going into it surely. She watched how Y/N struggled with her weaving for a moment before reaching out to pat her shoulder lovingly, signaling for her to take a break.
“There is something else on your mind that is keeping you distracted. Tell me.”
Y/N gulped nervously, giving up on the skirt. She contemplated for a minute if she should spill the intense guilt she has been feeling since kissing Neteyam onto his mother and possibly ruining the way she was perceived by his family for the rest of her life. 
“I know that after losing someone as close as your mom it is hard to open up to another woman,” Neytiri spoke softly, "But I already consider you my child. You can tell me what’s wrong.”
“It’s…” Y/N looked up with a softened expression, “You know why I was so opposed to the arrangement in the beginning?”
“You were scared, no?” Neytiri squinted.
“Yes but there was a bigger reason,” Y/N breathed out slowly, taking her time, “I was in love with someone else… or I thought I was. But we weren’t mated and I don’t think he was ever going to mate with me, so I couldn’t tell anyone that. I could only be angry because I was helpless.”
“Do you still see that someone else?” she asked carefully, like a mother asking her child something she is afraid to know the answer to.
“No. It was Kaye.”
“Kaye?”
Neytiri nodded in understanding, small pieces of information she heard about Kaye’s death were falling into pieces. The way Y/N behaved when he was first shot, how long she refused to attend to her tasks and how Neteyam skipped training to be with her. The days Y/N stayed inside and turned into an empty shell of herself. Y/N wasn’t just angry and rebellious, she was hurt because she was alone. Neytiri reached out once more to pat her on the shoulder with motherly care.
“I’m sorry, my child.”
“I felt so guilty,” Y/N hung her head, staring at her own hands, as she revealed the deepest secret she withheld, “Because no matter how much Kaye hurt me, I didn’t want to fall for somebody else. And Neteyam… he is perfect. I can’t help it, the way I feel about him. But it also feels like betraying Kaye… betraying what we had.”
“Y/N, look at me,” Neytiri spoke gently, “Eywa does not make mistakes, she brings us what we need, even when we don’t expect it. Just because you’re following your destiny, it doesn’t mean you are forgetting Kaye and what you had with him. Your heart is capable of holding both love and memories.”
Y/N nodded weakly, her eyes tearing up at the words she had been so desperate to hear. She wiped her eyes, lips trembling in the search for ways to express her gratitude. Neytiri watched her for a moment with a newly gained perspective. She had always observed Y/N to be a smart empathetic girl but she had never gotten to experience her side of things.
“I understand more than you think I do,” she attempted a playful tone, “Before mating with Toruk Makto, I was meant to be with another warrior… his name was Tsu’tey. It was my duty to the clan, a tradition. But Eywa sent me Jake, a sky person. He was an outsider, it was against all odds, challenged the path I thought was set for me. But love finds a way."
Y/N felt her heartbeat pick up. Surely, she had known the way Neytiri and Jake found their way to each other, how he became the Toruk Makto to prove himself to her. But hearing it like this, from Neytiri herself, made Y/N see her as someone real, who wasn’t perfect, who was once a girl too, torn between her duties and her heart. 
“Eywa has a way of guiding us, you just have to trust her,” Neytiri smiled, her gaze returning to the girl in front of her, “Whatever you feel, know that I am here for you, just as your mother would be there for you. You are a part of our family now.”
“Thank you, Neytiri, for… everything,” Y/N reached out to gently grasp Neytiri’s hand.
She felt accepted and understood. For the first time in so long she remembered the connection she had with her mother. How, no matter the circumstances, she had a safety net to fall into. Neytiri smiled, squeezing her hand, and reached for the unfinished skirt.
“Now, for this part, you’d want to change up your technique…”
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Lo’ak had never witnessed such unease in Neteyam, it was so out of character for his typically unshakable older brother. This unexpected anxiety radiating from Neteyam has somehow transferred to him too, Lo'ak's palms were sweating, as he observed silently. With trembling hands, Neteyam held up a bowl of vibrant yellow paint to Jake, who dipped his fingers into it and continued drawing a pattern on his eldest son’s forehead,
“You alright, son?” Jake took a small sigh, throwing a quick knowing glance at Lo’ak. Neteyam took a moment to reply.
“I don’t think so,” he mumbled, zoned out, eyes focusing on the horizon with a deep wrinkle forming between his eyebrows, “Everyone is going to be there watching, no?”
“Well, yeah, that’s kind of the point,” Jake chuckled weakly, “To seal your bond before the clan and Eywa.”
“Are you scared?” Lo’ak chimed in anxiously, he wasn’t sure if Neteyam’s answer was going to calm him down either way.
Neteyam couldn’t bring himself to respond with words, so he only gave his brother a short nod. Jake frowned and took a step back to glance at him.
“What are you scared of? Everyone loves you and Y/N together, your union has already been blessed by Eywa. You love her, no?”
“Yes! I mean… it couldn’t be anything less,” Neteyam looked up at his father, then sighed again, “But it’s scary. How did you do it? I mean, you gave vows before the entire clan like a hundred times, with everyone watching you, holding you responsible.”
Jake chuckled warmly, guessing that the reason for Neteyam’s nervousness wasn’t necessarily the choice of being with Y/N, undeniably, he was smitten with her, but rather announcing it to everyone. Because once he makes his union everyone’s business, there is no going back. But as the future Olo’eyktan, whatever Neteyam was affected by in his role as the chief was also going to affect the others. Jake thought he knew exactly what to say now.
“It is scary, I’m not gonna lie. It gets easier with time but I remember being terrified to make big promises with everyone’s eyes on me,” a hint of nostalgia flashed in his eyes, then a lazy smile made its way onto the man’s face, “But I have a secret. Helps me every time.”
“What is it?” both brothers asked simultaneously, watching their father.
“Your mother,” Jake answered in a heartbeat, “When you know there is the right person standing beside you, who supports you wholeheartedly and will always keep by your side, it doesn’t matter anymore. Because you’re making a promise to her, and you know that when it comes to her, you will keep that promise with your life.”
Neteyam nodded with a sense of understanding, as if the answer his father gave him, suddenly connected bridges. He rapidly stood up from his seat, shoving the bowl of paint into Lo’ak’s hands, and sprinting away. It wasn't hard to guess where he was headed.
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Y/N twirled awkwardly, the long-beaded skirt trailing behind her in a swift dance, glistening under the soft sunlight filling out the tent. Neytiri tilted her head slightly at the movement with an approving hum and beside her Tsahik nodded in agreement. Y/N felt herself melting under their gazes.
"Oh Eywa," Kiri’s voice brought her back into a state of insecurity.
Y/N twirled once more, this time weaker, discouraged by the tone. She ran her hands over the beaded top, before staring back at her friend in anticipation.
"What's wrong with this?"
"Nothing," Kiri shook her head, "You just look so beautiful.”
“You look perfect, my child,” like her mother’s voice, Neytiri spoke to Y/N with such surety and tenderness, that all of the worries were now melting away.
"Can I steal her for a moment?"
Everyone's head snapped at the future Olo'eyktan walking in, his eyes glistening at the sight of Y/N in the beautiful garments she had woven for the ceremony. It was too soon for him to be there, to ruin this moment of her bonding with the women in his life, but Neteyam didn't care. Couldn't care if he had to, he was eager to get her alone, to wash away his anxiousness once more before they were mated before the whole clan.
His grandmother tsksed loudly, Neytiri throwing a disapproving glance, and before anyone could really protest how improper it was of Neteyam out of all people to disrupt the tradition, Y/N was already apologizing and running out of the tent.
"Come," his hand found hers like an instinct and pulled her gently towards his ikran, "The Mother Tree is beautiful at this time."
"But there are preparations for the ceremony," she scrunched up her nose at the thought of so many people seeing them.
"Don't worry, we'll just sneak a look and be out of there," Neteyam reassured.
As Y/N followed Neteyam's lead, her heart raced with a mixture of excitement and nervousness. She couldn't believe she was going against tradition, breaking away from the preparations for the ceremony. But at the same time, she couldn't deny the thrill of being alone with Neteyam, away from prying eyes and expectations.
They reached the outskirts of the camp, where the dense forest greeted them with its familiar embrace. Neteyam led her to a secluded spot near the Mother Tree. The sunlight filtered through the leaves, casting a warm glow over the two of them.
"Close your eyes," he whispered, a mischievous smile playing on his lips. 
She rolled her eyes but complied anyway with a grin. She felt his touch as he sneaked something into her palm and closed it gently, something smooth and rounded and familiar but she couldn’t guess what it was.
Without waiting for his instructions, once his hand left hers, she opened her palm to find two wooden rings. Y/N looked back at Neteyam in a slight confusion, finding him already smiling at her, his freckles glowing with particular brightness.
“I made these out of the root of the Mother Tree,” he explained softly, “One for you, one for me.”
“They’re beautiful,” she whispered, examining the rings up closer, noticing the small patterns needled into them. 
“I know it seems a little simple but let me explain first,” Neteyam stole one of the rings back, twirling it in between his fingers, “Where my father comes from, there was no ceremony before Eywa but there was something similar… a tradition,” he paused to gulp down, suddenly a rush of nervousness overwhelming him, “The couples would exchange rings to symbolize their love for each other. And they would wear it for the rest of their lives to show how their hearts still belong to each other, that they will always be connected.”
Gently, taking her free hand into his Neteyam pondered for a moment before sliding the ring onto her finger. Silently, his eyes asked for approval, and once he noticed hers glistening with the tears of joy and a faint smile forming on her lips, he smiled too, sealing the bond. It fit perfectly, he hadn’t guessed it, of course it would. He held her hand too many times not to know.
“This means…” she whispered, her voice filled with too many emotions, “I want to be connected to you too.”
Without a thought, she slid the other ring onto his finger and ran over the patter with care. His fingers quickly intertwined with hers, the wooden rings clinking from the touch as if Eywa suddenly clinked all of her bellflowers to signify the success of the union. Eager now to express his love, Neteyam cupped her face quickly, resting his forehead against hers with a toothy grin.
“You’re mine now, and I am yours,” he announced happily, coaxing a joyful laughter out of her.
His mouth quickly caught that sound, she nearly stumbled but Neteyam’s hands were firm and steady, pulling her into him. His lips felt so natural against hers, it felt like they were molded off each other and no one, not even Eywa herself, could plan how perfect they seemed to be right in this moment.
As they pulled away, Y/N glanced at the ring again with genuine warmth in her eyes. For the first time in years, she felt happy unconditionally, without fear of losing it. A few more tears streamed down her face.
“Well, now my gift will look lame,” she mocked playfully through the tears, coaxing a chuckle out of Neteyam.
Shaking his head, he reached out to gently wipe away a tear from her cheek. 
"No gift you could ever give me would be considered lame," he assured.
Slowly, she reached into her pouch, carefully taking out the necklace she had prepared to give him during the ceremony. The one that he got a glimpse of the other night, but she was so quick to hide. Woven with intricate patterns it reminded Neteyam of the necklace worn by his grandfather. He took a small breath; his fingers grazed over the beads and feathers to try and feel everything he could at once.
“I made this for you to wear,” she whispered softly, like she was scared he wouldn’t like it.
Unmistakably, it was a necklace worthy of an Olo’eyktan. The colors, the patterns, the size. It was too fancy to be worn by the other clan members, too clanky and beautiful to be used every day. Very fitting to show a status. With trembling hands, he took the necklace into his hands, marveling at its beauty. 
“Are you sure?” Neteyam gulped, looking back at her with uncertainty.
“You don’t like it?”
“I do,” he was quick to interrupt her before she could jump to conclusions, “No. I mean, of course, I like it! But I don’t know if I can wear it… it looks like something…”
“Something like an Olo’eyktan would wear.”
Neteyam nodded in agreement, his own insecurity of his status and fear of leading one day washed over him. He might have prepared for the change his whole life but no one chose him. His father was chosen, but Neteyam was never the leader that his people asked for. Sure, he was strong and brave and smart but was he capable of being the one? These thoughts would often consume his mind with a rotten feeling of incapability, vulnerability that would ultimately make him question everything about himself. So why was she sure of him?
“Well, you are the Olo’eyktan. My Olo’eyktan,” she assured with a soft smile, as if guessing his thoughts. And just like that, he felt the weight fall off his shoulders.
Her faith in him was like a guiding light, illuminating the path that seemed so unknown and dark before. He realized that it wasn't about living up to the expectations of others; it was about doing his best while he had her by his side.
Neteyam, suddenly flustered by the way she was looking at him, eyes so full of love and admiration, looked down. His eyes caught the blue and instinctively almost his fingers reached to graze the blue feathers of the too familiar necklace. Y/N shivered at the touch.
“You know how I saw a woman in my vision, during my Dream Hunt?” he whispered, looking back up at her.
Y/N nodded with an understanding, showing that it wasn’t something she could forget. The memory has set in motion the whole ordeal, their mating, their fate.
“I couldn’t see her face… I thought it was only a sign I was ready, that it wasn’t anyone in particular that Eywa was showing to me,” Neteyam continued, lost in his own thought, “But there was something odd about her… a long necklace, just like yours, with blue feathers, going all the way down… too long to be worn by anyone else. I thought it was odd but then... what isn’t odd about getting a vision from Eywa during your Dream Hunt?” Neteyam chuckled and paused, waiting for Y/N’s reaction, “It was you, wasn’t it? From the beginning, it was destined to be you and me.”
Y/N put her hand over his, the one that was still holding onto her necklace, her eyes widening in surprise. Her heart raced at the revelation, and just like a confirmation, she noticed a woodsprite floating around the two of them. Eywa makes no mistakes.
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the end!
this was lazily edited so please don't mind me, i'm just glad to have put out this final chapter! i hope you enjoyed the series, i know i did, thank you!
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Chosen by Eywa - A Team of Two - Chapter 6 - Finale
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contains: arranged marriage, mentions of war and grief, angst, one-sided enemies to lovers, slow burn
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a/n: ngl it was funny to disappear for three months and randomly drop the finale like this. to be quite honest, whoever has been closely following my blog, knows that i took a break due to some personal matters as well as bc of guilt of making avatar-related content. in anyway, this series has been a journey, i really put so much into this, thinking about this story has been a consistent thing for the past months. i really don't expect this to get the same hype it did when i published the first part bc it's been soo long and people might have forgotten about it completely but i would still appreciate it if you read it and leave a comment. enjoy!
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They were nice about it, welcoming as if she was already a part of the family, but Y/N still couldn’t push away the nagging feeling of intruding into their space. She was used to being on her own, sleeping, eating, living by herself. There was no shared meal before going to sleep, no conversation to lull her into her dreams, yet at Sully's home the well-forgotten routine that Y/N’s been doing with her parents before their death, was practiced like a prayer. 
Neteyam’s warm gaze encouraged her to accept yet another sweet gesture from his little sister. Eager to bond, Tuk offered Y/N her hammock, next to Kiri’s. The other siblings only snickered at the unfortunate unfolding of events, and Neteyam too, tried suppressing an amusing smile that was so ready to give away the humor he found in the whole situation. 
She was so nervous about it too, and suddenly, Neteyam felt his chest swell with something unbearably big and overwhelming. I love you, he thought, watching the way she complied with his family’s wish to take care of her, the way she mumbled a “good night” to everyone before laying down in an unfamiliar hammock. 
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Y/N’s eyes fluttered softly, the light spilled into the room with a brightness she wasn’t adjusted to yet. The hammock underneath her was different, uncomfortable, and she grumbled, shifting her position, only to be met with restriction. The further she pushed against it, the more she realized that the resistance wasn’t from the hammock itself. With a puzzled frown, she turned around and when her eyes settled onto a chest, that’s what snapped her fully awake. The sight of Neteyam, snoring peacefully next to her, brought back the memory of the last night with a flush of embarrassment. 
How did she end up in his hammock? In the stillness of the night, her thoughts restless, Y/N watched how everyone seemed to have fallen asleep a long time ago. She tried peeking out of her hammock to catch a glimpse of Neteyam but it was too far and too dark to see him. Quietly, without giving it a second thought, she slipped out of her hammock and carefully stepped around others to approach Neteyam’s. His face was bathed in the moonlight with a soft glow, and as if she was in the dream and had all the time in the world, she stared at him for a moment, to make sure he was still there, safe and sound. Maybe because she loved him too.
It caught her off guard when he opened his eyes with a knowing smile, already having felt her eyes on him. She didn’t move for a moment, but the unspoken connection seemed to grow deeper in the darkness. Without a word, he opened up his arms, and Y/N didn’t take long to consider his silent offer. She dived into his hammock and snuggled close to him, and the way he held her, made her feel the safest she had ever felt. Ever since her parents died, since Kaye was no longer there, Neteyam grounded her like the gravity. As if he understood her too, like the vision from his Dream Hunt, everything just clicked, and nothing felt more natural than having her in his arms. 
They fell asleep so quickly that, in the morning, as Y/N recalled the events of the night, she almost assumed it was only a drem. Her heart dropped as she traced the patterns of his chest all the way up to his face, finding his peaceful expression, mouth slightly open as he snored with such sweet noises coming out of it. She smiled to herself at the sight and then heard a faint rustling joined by soft giggles. Y/N’s head quickly snapped into the direction and the revelation nearly made her die at the spot from the embarrassment. 
In an attempt to be quiet, Tuk and Lo’ak were giggling like a pair of toddlers who had seen a banshee for the first time. Their gazes were surely pointed at their older brother sound asleep and Y/N, cuddled up into him. Y/N’s mortified eyes then quickly found Kiri, who just looked irritated and tried ignoring her siblings, then they traced the frames of Neteyam’s parents. Jake and Neytiri were trying to be mature about it, to put on the blissfully unaware act, even though both of them were the first to find Y/N in Neteyam’s hammock. They circulated around the small table, setting up for the breakfast, and Y/N hid her face in Neteyam’s chest, whispering softly but urgently.
“Neteyam, wake up, please.”
His nose scrunched once but then it felt like his mind just gave up and decided to ignore Y/N’s voice completely. She tried again, this time swatting at his chest just enough to make him shift. The sunlight did the rest of the work, as Neteyam lazily opened his eyes, stretching as much as he could within the proximity of the small space in his hammock. He blinked sleepily, his gaze landing on Y/N and it took him a few seconds to register the situation, but as he did, a small smile tugged at the corners of his lips. Y/N was the woman from his Dream Hunt and last night, as he struggled to fall asleep, he found out that she felt so too, the way she laid into his arms and lulled him to sleep just with her scent. Neteyam’s chest warmed with love, and he couldn’t wait to let her know about his secret.
With a yawn, Neteyam stirred from his seat, and as his eyes grazed around the room, taking in the scene, Y/N was already jumping out of his hammock. 
“Good morning,” he greeted them loudly, giving a particularly stern look to his siblings.
"Good morning," Y/N echoed him, her voice barely above a whisper.
Lo’ak and Tuk giggled once more under their brother's gaze, while Kiri only hid a knowing smirk. Neytiri and Jake continued to set up the morning table with content smiles on their own faces. Y/N stood awkwardly next to the hammock, and it made Neteyam’s chest swell with even more amusement. He had never been happier than now, to wake up to the woman of his dreams next to him, with his family being genuinely proud of him. Y/N peeked from behind her hair, as Neteyam stepped out of his hammock with comfortable stature, and she slowly followed after him, as he sat down on the ground around the table.
“Come, Y/N, you’ll eat with us,” Neytiri gave Y/N a soft smile, gesturing to the spot next to her oldest son.
With a nod, Y/N took her place silently, the embarrassment of being caught in Neteyam’s hammock was clearly showing through how deep blue her cheeks were turning. Jake and Neteyam exchanged a knowing look and like a proud father he only chuckled to himself at the situation. And it wasn’t like anything had happened, everyone could have guessed that they only shared a hammock, but to Y/N it seemed like her whole reputation had crumbled.
Kiri, clearly enjoying her friend’s sudden flustered state, couldn't contain her amusement any longer, busted into laughter.
"You two are so whipped."
"Y/N, did you cuddle with Neteyam because you like him?" Tuk added on, her voice filled with innocent curiosity.
Y/N's cheeks turned even deeper at the question, and she fumbled for words, feeling the weight of everyone's gaze on her. She glanced at Neteyam, who was trying his best to hide his own embarrassment behind a composed expression. 
“Neteyam is a wonderful person, I mean… everyone probably likes him,” Y/N stammered.
"I mean it's clear she does more than like him," Kiri teased.
People don’t just fall in love overnight. It happens gradually, with shared moments, time spent together, with tears of both sadness and joy. It is just the realization of it all hits them suddenly. Y/N had a whole day to realize that she felt love for Neteyam, but she wasn’t going to say it for the first time so publicly. She wanted it to happen naturally, after she had processed everything herself, alone.
"Come on now, I'd be worried if they didn't touch each other at all," Jake whispered with a snicker, coaxing a small chuckle from Neytiri. He cleared his throat, "Alright, alright, enough for now.”
Neteyam attempted to hide his own smile at the words, and he hung his head, focusing on his food, but his tail quickly and secretly found its way under the table, wrapping around Y/N’s ankle. She shivered at the touch but welcomed it, nonetheless, relaxing just a second later. 
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“You’re staring again,” she tried to scold him for it, but frankly, there was not a feeling more pleasant than to feel his warm gaze on her.
Neteyam chuckled to himself, the excitement from waking up besides Y/N - woman from his vision overflowing him. Like the pieces of the puzzle were finally fitting together, everything just clicked, his world fell back into its place. He leaned in, his finger hooking under the long necklace adorning her neck and for the third time since she wore it, Y/N couldn’t understand his astonishment with Tuk’s gift. Sat in front of him on the forest ground, as they took a break from the morning chaos with his family, Y/N let out a sigh. There was a mixture of happiness and guilt swirling inside of her, babbling up in her chest to the point that she wasn’t sure how else to behave. It was as if she suddenly had forgotten about who she was.
“You’re still wearing the necklace,” Neteyam pointed out, gathering one of the blue feathers and running it through his fingers with fascination, “Isn’t it too long? Uncomfortable?”
“Do you not think it’s nice? Your sister made it for me,” Y/N teased.
They were close to each other, an undeniable pressure building and hardening in between the two bodies. Like a magnetic pull that lured him in closer, and Neteyam now took another one of the feathers into his gentle grasp, studying it for a moment before breaking into a grin.
“I didn’t even know she was going to give it to you,” he recalled with a low chuckle, almost as if he was saying it to himself. His eyes shifted back to hers, finding Y/N already looking at him, “It doesn’t mean you’re obligated to wear it though… if it’s bothering you.”
“Hey, hands off,” Y/N swatted at his hand playfully, pulling the necklace away from him, “I like it very much, so I don’t really care about the practicality. I think it looks great on me!”
“It does,” Neteyam chuckled, leaning back onto his elbows and Y/N felt a little disappointed at the loss of proximity, “I think you could make anything look beautiful.”
“Oh,” she let out. He was bold. Since the morning, he was more forward than usual, and she couldn’t guess if it was the aftermath of her willingly stepping into his hammock and sleeping with him or was it the fact that their ceremony was fast approaching and now there was only a matter of a few casualties left. But she liked the boldness.
Though Y/N could assume that Neteyam wasn't in the wrong. If he was making a move on her, he was truly just doing his duty, he was warming up to his mate. It wouldn’t be very pleasant to have their first kiss in front of the whole clan, would it? Y/N shivered at the thought of kissing him first, now, alone. There were certainly moments she thought he would, and it almost seemed like if she didn’t push him away, they’d be much closer now than she ever anticipated.
“I’ll tell you tomorrow,” Neteyam promised suddenly, a soft smile stretching his lips.
“Tell me what?”
“Tell you about the necklace… why I’m so intrigued by you wearing it.”
“Is there a valid reason?” Y/N quirked her eyebrow in surprise.
“There is, I just don’t want to scare you away.”
“Scare me away? Neteyam, I think we’re way past that point. It’s not like we can back out now,” she joked weakly.
Neteyam didn’t find humor in her words. Was she still bothered about it? Was she still spiteful of the idea of mateship with him? Surely, if she hated it so much, why would she stay? He was beginning to think that she was finally reciprocating, last night was the testament to that, so why was she back to making these comments? He frowned, suddenly growing silent, and that’s when Y/N knew that she messed up. She jumped to retrieve her words with eagerness, hand clutching at the long necklace.
“I was joking.” 
“I know,” Neteyam hummed softly but his head shook slightly, giving away his disagreement.
Y/N could feel her heart sink at the way his face fell. She leaned in closer, her palms finding support on either side of his body, nails digging into the soil. Their faces were now mere inches apart, and Neteyam's breath caught in his throat, his eyes searching her face.
“I don’t want to back out of this,” she whispered sincerely, her own eyes boring into his.
Neteyam could only gulp, waiting anxiously for her to take the next step. His heart picked up a rhythm, when she finally closed the gap between them, and though hesitantly, but with such tenderness, pressed her lips against his. He welcomed her like the forest would welcome the first warm rays of the sunshine, responding to her kiss. Savoring her taste wasn’t enough, he needed to engrave the way she felt into his memory permanently. 
Love couldn’t be that easy, could it? Falling into the person you were so begrudged against, letting him catch you when there is no one else to witness your fall. Letting him become your rock, your whole world, your person who makes everything else become a senseless noise, a blurry background. When your words are guided by the wish to please him, to humor him, to bring a smile to his face. Falling into him was sudden but easy, careless. It felt right. Like it was destined by the greater power, by the will of Eywa herself. 
Eywa makes no mistakes. Y/N had clung to these words her whole life, in bad and in good, she found comfort in knowing that her journey was already written out, that she was destined for a greater purpose, greater love than she was used to receiving. That no matter the circumstances she had brought upon herself, the Great Mother had been looking out for her, that Eywa brought Y/N the kind of love that she never imagined possible.
The silence as they pulled away was bittersweet. Neteyam could feel his heart almost stop at the proximity, as she was still looming over him, catching on her breath. Overwhelmed, he brought a hand to her cheek to make sure he hadn’t imagined it. Her smile grew, eyes darting between his to guess if he was thinking the same. Y/N had no idea that up until this morning, Neteyam was already utterly smitten with her. That every thought in his mind was occupied with her. 
“What was that for?” he questioned 
“For being patient with me. For seeing me…”
“I do, I see you,” he nodded, eager to spill the confession that has been on the tip of his tongue for some time now.
“I see you too,” she whispered, “I thought I knew what love is. Thought that I got what I deserved and nothing more but now I know how blind I was.”
Neteyam's heart swelled with both joy and sadness. He reached out and gently brushed a strand of hair behind her ear. She leaned into him, closing her eyes briefly to savor the moment. 
“You weren’t blind, you were just scared,” he reassured, “But you don’t have to be anymore. I’m here now.”
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Y/N looked up from her unfinished work to Neytiri for the third time in the past minute, it was hard to concentrate on something she was struggling with, when right next to her, somebody else was doing it perfectly. Neytiri’s fingers worked quickly and gracefully, beads were woven into a shawl with recognizable patterns usually worn by the Olo’eyktan’s family. Y/N sighed in frustration at her own piece of work - a long beaded skirt that was supposed to match the shawl for the ceremony.
“You’re doing great, just be patient with yourself,” Neytiri spoke softly, barely lifting her gaze towards Y/N, but a small smile stretched her lips, nonetheless.
“I don’t have time to be patient,” Y/N sighed again, “The ceremony is tomorrow and…”
“Take your time, the ceremony won’t happen until you finish your skirt the way you like it,” Neytiri teased, putting aside the shawl, as if she was sensing that there was something else bothering Y/N.
To be quite frank, though Neytiri knew from the beginning that Eywa’s signs were truthful, the reactions she first got from her son and Y/N scared her. She could see the way they started looking at each other, the morning Y/N spent in their hut was an undeniable testament to her growing connection with Neteyam, but Neytiri still wasn't completely convinced that they were going into it surely. She watched how Y/N struggled with her weaving for a moment before reaching out to pat her shoulder lovingly, signaling for her to take a break.
“There is something else on your mind that is keeping you distracted. Tell me.”
Y/N gulped nervously, giving up on the skirt. She contemplated for a minute if she should spill the intense guilt she has been feeling since kissing Neteyam onto his mother and possibly ruining the way she was perceived by his family for the rest of her life. 
“I know that after losing someone as close as your mom it is hard to open up to another woman,” Neytiri spoke softly, "But I already consider you my child. You can tell me what’s wrong.”
“It’s…” Y/N looked up with a softened expression, “You know why I was so opposed to the arrangement in the beginning?”
“You were scared, no?” Neytiri squinted.
“Yes but there was a bigger reason,” Y/N breathed out slowly, taking her time, “I was in love with someone else… or I thought I was. But we weren’t mated and I don’t think he was ever going to mate with me, so I couldn’t tell anyone that. I could only be angry because I was helpless.”
“Do you still see that someone else?” she asked carefully, like a mother asking her child something she is afraid to know the answer to.
“No. It was Kaye.”
“Kaye?”
Neytiri nodded in understanding, small pieces of information she heard about Kaye’s death were falling into pieces. The way Y/N behaved when he was first shot, how long she refused to attend to her tasks and how Neteyam skipped training to be with her. The days Y/N stayed inside and turned into an empty shell of herself. Y/N wasn’t just angry and rebellious, she was hurt because she was alone. Neytiri reached out once more to pat her on the shoulder with motherly care.
“I’m sorry, my child.”
“I felt so guilty,” Y/N hung her head, staring at her own hands, as she revealed the deepest secret she withheld, “Because no matter how much Kaye hurt me, I didn’t want to fall for somebody else. And Neteyam… he is perfect. I can’t help it, the way I feel about him. But it also feels like betraying Kaye… betraying what we had.”
“Y/N, look at me,” Neytiri spoke gently, “Eywa does not make mistakes, she brings us what we need, even when we don’t expect it. Just because you’re following your destiny, it doesn’t mean you are forgetting Kaye and what you had with him. Your heart is capable of holding both love and memories.”
Y/N nodded weakly, her eyes tearing up at the words she had been so desperate to hear. She wiped her eyes, lips trembling in the search for ways to express her gratitude. Neytiri watched her for a moment with a newly gained perspective. She had always observed Y/N to be a smart empathetic girl but she had never gotten to experience her side of things.
“I understand more than you think I do,” she attempted a playful tone, “Before mating with Toruk Makto, I was meant to be with another warrior… his name was Tsu’tey. It was my duty to the clan, a tradition. But Eywa sent me Jake, a sky person. He was an outsider, it was against all odds, challenged the path I thought was set for me. But love finds a way."
Y/N felt her heartbeat pick up. Surely, she had known the way Neytiri and Jake found their way to each other, how he became the Toruk Makto to prove himself to her. But hearing it like this, from Neytiri herself, made Y/N see her as someone real, who wasn’t perfect, who was once a girl too, torn between her duties and her heart. 
“Eywa has a way of guiding us, you just have to trust her,” Neytiri smiled, her gaze returning to the girl in front of her, “Whatever you feel, know that I am here for you, just as your mother would be there for you. You are a part of our family now.”
“Thank you, Neytiri, for… everything,” Y/N reached out to gently grasp Neytiri’s hand.
She felt accepted and understood. For the first time in so long she remembered the connection she had with her mother. How, no matter the circumstances, she had a safety net to fall into. Neytiri smiled, squeezing her hand, and reached for the unfinished skirt.
“Now, for this part, you’d want to change up your technique…”
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Lo’ak had never witnessed such unease in Neteyam, it was so out of character for his typically unshakable older brother. This unexpected anxiety radiating from Neteyam has somehow transferred to him too, Lo'ak's palms were sweating, as he observed silently. With trembling hands, Neteyam held up a bowl of vibrant yellow paint to Jake, who dipped his fingers into it and continued drawing a pattern on his eldest son’s forehead,
“You alright, son?” Jake took a small sigh, throwing a quick knowing glance at Lo’ak. Neteyam took a moment to reply.
“I don’t think so,” he mumbled, zoned out, eyes focusing on the horizon with a deep wrinkle forming between his eyebrows, “Everyone is going to be there watching, no?”
“Well, yeah, that’s kind of the point,” Jake chuckled weakly, “To seal your bond before the clan and Eywa.”
“Are you scared?” Lo’ak chimed in anxiously, he wasn’t sure if Neteyam’s answer was going to calm him down either way.
Neteyam couldn’t bring himself to respond with words, so he only gave his brother a short nod. Jake frowned and took a step back to glance at him.
“What are you scared of? Everyone loves you and Y/N together, your union has already been blessed by Eywa. You love her, no?”
“Yes! I mean… it couldn’t be anything less,” Neteyam looked up at his father, then sighed again, “But it’s scary. How did you do it? I mean, you gave vows before the entire clan like a hundred times, with everyone watching you, holding you responsible.”
Jake chuckled warmly, guessing that the reason for Neteyam’s nervousness wasn’t necessarily the choice of being with Y/N, undeniably, he was smitten with her, but rather announcing it to everyone. Because once he makes his union everyone’s business, there is no going back. But as the future Olo’eyktan, whatever Neteyam was affected by in his role as the chief was also going to affect the others. Jake thought he knew exactly what to say now.
“It is scary, I’m not gonna lie. It gets easier with time but I remember being terrified to make big promises with everyone’s eyes on me,” a hint of nostalgia flashed in his eyes, then a lazy smile made its way onto the man’s face, “But I have a secret. Helps me every time.”
“What is it?” both brothers asked simultaneously, watching their father.
“Your mother,” Jake answered in a heartbeat, “When you know there is the right person standing beside you, who supports you wholeheartedly and will always keep by your side, it doesn’t matter anymore. Because you’re making a promise to her, and you know that when it comes to her, you will keep that promise with your life.”
Neteyam nodded with a sense of understanding, as if the answer his father gave him, suddenly connected bridges. He rapidly stood up from his seat, shoving the bowl of paint into Lo’ak’s hands, and sprinting away. It wasn't hard to guess where he was headed.
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Y/N twirled awkwardly, the long-beaded skirt trailing behind her in a swift dance, glistening under the soft sunlight filling out the tent. Neytiri tilted her head slightly at the movement with an approving hum and beside her Tsahik nodded in agreement. Y/N felt herself melting under their gazes.
"Oh Eywa," Kiri’s voice brought her back into a state of insecurity.
Y/N twirled once more, this time weaker, discouraged by the tone. She ran her hands over the beaded top, before staring back at her friend in anticipation.
"What's wrong with this?"
"Nothing," Kiri shook her head, "You just look so beautiful.”
“You look perfect, my child,” like her mother’s voice, Neytiri spoke to Y/N with such surety and tenderness, that all of the worries were now melting away.
"Can I steal her for a moment?"
Everyone's head snapped at the future Olo'eyktan walking in, his eyes glistening at the sight of Y/N in the beautiful garments she had woven for the ceremony. It was too soon for him to be there, to ruin this moment of her bonding with the women in his life, but Neteyam didn't care. Couldn't care if he had to, he was eager to get her alone, to wash away his anxiousness once more before they were mated before the whole clan.
His grandmother tsksed loudly, Neytiri throwing a disapproving glance, and before anyone could really protest how improper it was of Neteyam out of all people to disrupt the tradition, Y/N was already apologizing and running out of the tent.
"Come," his hand found hers like an instinct and pulled her gently towards his ikran, "The Mother Tree is beautiful at this time."
"But there are preparations for the ceremony," she scrunched up her nose at the thought of so many people seeing them.
"Don't worry, we'll just sneak a look and be out of there," Neteyam reassured.
As Y/N followed Neteyam's lead, her heart raced with a mixture of excitement and nervousness. She couldn't believe she was going against tradition, breaking away from the preparations for the ceremony. But at the same time, she couldn't deny the thrill of being alone with Neteyam, away from prying eyes and expectations.
They reached the outskirts of the camp, where the dense forest greeted them with its familiar embrace. Neteyam led her to a secluded spot near the Mother Tree. The sunlight filtered through the leaves, casting a warm glow over the two of them.
"Close your eyes," he whispered, a mischievous smile playing on his lips. 
She rolled her eyes but complied anyway with a grin. She felt his touch as he sneaked something into her palm and closed it gently, something smooth and rounded and familiar but she couldn’t guess what it was.
Without waiting for his instructions, once his hand left hers, she opened her palm to find two wooden rings. Y/N looked back at Neteyam in a slight confusion, finding him already smiling at her, his freckles glowing with particular brightness.
“I made these out of the root of the Mother Tree,” he explained softly, “One for you, one for me.”
“They’re beautiful,” she whispered, examining the rings up closer, noticing the small patterns needled into them. 
“I know it seems a little simple but let me explain first,” Neteyam stole one of the rings back, twirling it in between his fingers, “Where my father comes from, there was no ceremony before Eywa but there was something similar… a tradition,” he paused to gulp down, suddenly a rush of nervousness overwhelming him, “The couples would exchange rings to symbolize their love for each other. And they would wear it for the rest of their lives to show how their hearts still belong to each other, that they will always be connected.”
Gently, taking her free hand into his Neteyam pondered for a moment before sliding the ring onto her finger. Silently, his eyes asked for approval, and once he noticed hers glistening with the tears of joy and a faint smile forming on her lips, he smiled too, sealing the bond. It fit perfectly, he hadn’t guessed it, of course it would. He held her hand too many times not to know.
“This means…” she whispered, her voice filled with too many emotions, “I want to be connected to you too.”
Without a thought, she slid the other ring onto his finger and ran over the patter with care. His fingers quickly intertwined with hers, the wooden rings clinking from the touch as if Eywa suddenly clinked all of her bellflowers to signify the success of the union. Eager now to express his love, Neteyam cupped her face quickly, resting his forehead against hers with a toothy grin.
“You’re mine now, and I am yours,” he announced happily, coaxing a joyful laughter out of her.
His mouth quickly caught that sound, she nearly stumbled but Neteyam’s hands were firm and steady, pulling her into him. His lips felt so natural against hers, it felt like they were molded off each other and no one, not even Eywa herself, could plan how perfect they seemed to be right in this moment.
As they pulled away, Y/N glanced at the ring again with genuine warmth in her eyes. For the first time in years, she felt happy unconditionally, without fear of losing it. A few more tears streamed down her face.
“Well, now my gift will look lame,” she mocked playfully through the tears, coaxing a chuckle out of Neteyam.
Shaking his head, he reached out to gently wipe away a tear from her cheek. 
"No gift you could ever give me would be considered lame," he assured.
Slowly, she reached into her pouch, carefully taking out the necklace she had prepared to give him during the ceremony. The one that he got a glimpse of the other night, but she was so quick to hide. Woven with intricate patterns it reminded Neteyam of the necklace worn by his grandfather. He took a small breath; his fingers grazed over the beads and feathers to try and feel everything he could at once.
“I made this for you to wear,” she whispered softly, like she was scared he wouldn’t like it.
Unmistakably, it was a necklace worthy of an Olo’eyktan. The colors, the patterns, the size. It was too fancy to be worn by the other clan members, too clanky and beautiful to be used every day. Very fitting to show a status. With trembling hands, he took the necklace into his hands, marveling at its beauty. 
“Are you sure?” Neteyam gulped, looking back at her with uncertainty.
“You don’t like it?”
“I do,” he was quick to interrupt her before she could jump to conclusions, “No. I mean, of course, I like it! But I don’t know if I can wear it… it looks like something…”
“Something like an Olo’eyktan would wear.”
Neteyam nodded in agreement, his own insecurity of his status and fear of leading one day washed over him. He might have prepared for the change his whole life but no one chose him. His father was chosen, but Neteyam was never the leader that his people asked for. Sure, he was strong and brave and smart but was he capable of being the one? These thoughts would often consume his mind with a rotten feeling of incapability, vulnerability that would ultimately make him question everything about himself. So why was she sure of him?
“Well, you are the Olo’eyktan. My Olo’eyktan,” she assured with a soft smile, as if guessing his thoughts. And just like that, he felt the weight fall off his shoulders.
Her faith in him was like a guiding light, illuminating the path that seemed so unknown and dark before. He realized that it wasn't about living up to the expectations of others; it was about doing his best while he had her by his side.
Neteyam, suddenly flustered by the way she was looking at him, eyes so full of love and admiration, looked down. His eyes caught the blue and instinctively almost his fingers reached to graze the blue feathers of the too familiar necklace. Y/N shivered at the touch.
“You know how I saw a woman in my vision, during my Dream Hunt?” he whispered, looking back up at her.
Y/N nodded with an understanding, showing that it wasn’t something she could forget. The memory has set in motion the whole ordeal, their mating, their fate.
“I couldn’t see her face… I thought it was only a sign I was ready, that it wasn’t anyone in particular that Eywa was showing to me,” Neteyam continued, lost in his own thought, “But there was something odd about her… a long necklace, just like yours, with blue feathers, going all the way down… too long to be worn by anyone else. I thought it was odd but then... what isn’t odd about getting a vision from Eywa during your Dream Hunt?” Neteyam chuckled and paused, waiting for Y/N’s reaction, “It was you, wasn’t it? From the beginning, it was destined to be you and me.”
Y/N put her hand over his, the one that was still holding onto her necklace, her eyes widening in surprise. Her heart raced at the revelation, and just like a confirmation, she noticed a woodsprite floating around the two of them. Eywa makes no mistakes.
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the end!
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Chosen by Eywa - New Beginnings - Chapter 5
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contains: arranged marriage, mentions of war and grief, angst, one-sided enemies to lovers, slow burn
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a/n: see? i promised two chapters within a week and i'm delivering!!! also the next chapter is going to be the finale and i'm so bummed out about it. i feel very connected to this story and planning it from the beginning had brought me lots of peace
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For a while, Y/N remained frozen, watching from a distance as the Na’vi surrounded the motionless body of her former love. Neteyam, who felt sick to his stomach just from the mere sight of Kaye, anxiously observed Y/N, waiting for something to happen, though he wasn’t sure what exactly to expect. Any kind of reaction instilled a sense of dread within him; would she ever be able to move on from that? 
Jake had no time to recount the entire situation over the wired comms device. As the Olo’eyktan, he had to explain everything in a hurry to Neteyam, while also soaring through the territory in case anyone else defied the curfew and needed to be protected. But Jake’s voice gave it away - the worry, the guilt he had carried as the chief for such a pointless death. Kaye, who had lost his tracking device earlier, during the surveillance, and had been instructed to just abandon it, opted for sneaking after the curfew and searching for it. Joined by a friend, they landed within the area and continued their search on foot, when a single bullet suddenly found its mark beneath Kaye’s ribcage, tearing right through his left lung. The devilish human, a vile being who had no business lurking the land this late, and who had possessed neither the size nor the strength to bring down a Na’vi, somehow managed a victory. One that he’d boast about to his comrades later. By the time Kaye was hoisted onto the back of his friend's ikran and flown back to camp, it was already too late.
The surrounding Na'vi watched in horror as he drew his final breath, and then he was gone. It shattered Y/N. Her frozen composure suddenly moved, then a loud cry, as if she was in physical pain. A cry that had been suppressed for countless years, ingrained deep within her throat since the tragic day her parents were taken from her. Like an overwhelmingly big wave, desperation, remorse and guilt threatened her with loneliness she could no longer bear. 
The Na'vi pressed closer to Kaye, shielding him from her view, but she surged forward to close that distance. It was as if she believed she could somehow resurrect him, breathe life back into his still form. It was strange and peculiar — how could a woman, bound to another man, suddenly mourn so passionately for a stranger? 
Sobbing, she drew nearer, but hands, one after another, pushed her away from Kaye. Encountered with resistance and hushed pleas to calm down, Y/N only grew more desperate to reach him. Neteyam trailed closely behind her, but refrained from restraining her. Y/N was giving a piece of herself that she had kept closed off for years, as she crumbled before the entire clan. But he could only wait for her to reach for him when she was ready.
Yäyä’s cry was what pierced through the atmosphere then, bringing the crowd to a stillness. Having performed the sacred bond with Kaye and falling for him, his death felt like a nightmare. A nightmare she’d likely have after Kaye’s small but reckless rebellions, fueled by the desire to resist his parents' authority sometimes. As people stepped away, some not quick enough and pushed aside by her determined shoves, Yäyä pressed forward to make her way to her mate.
Through the haze, Y/N watched the unraveling scene and then it suddenly hit her like a thunderbolt. It should have been her, not Yäyä. To be bearing the weight of the loss, to forge a connection with Kaye, then ultimately release him back into the embrace of the Great Mother. Tears blurred Y/N's vision as she watched the poor girl kneel beside her beloved's lifeless body, hunching over him as if she was shielding him from the prying gazes of others.
Neteyam gulped down nervously, his hand reaching out to gently grasp Y/N's upper arm. His touch was delicate, so light that she barely registered it. Y/N turned her gaze towards him, her brows furrowing in a pitiful expression, and in that moment he thought he could hear his heart drop at the sight.
“Neteyam,” she whispered weakly, unsure of what exactly she was asking of him, but he understood anyway.
His arms opened instinctively, inviting her into an embrace, and the force with which her body collided with his threatened to knock him off balance. Her face pressed tightly against his chest, arms wrapped around his back, pressing on all of the wounds she was treating just a few moments ago, hurting him but he paid it no mind. She sobbed against him, and with every breath she took, he cradled her head gently, drawing her closer. Y/N’s words came in a blur, and he couldn’t understand what she was trying to tell him, but before he could even ask, Kiri appeared next to them, her hands resting on Y/N's back.
“Y/N, let’s get away from here, yeah?”
Kiri and Neteyam shared a knowing look, and he nodded in agreement. Slowly, he began to step back, gently guiding Y/N with him, never releasing his hold on her. Almost instinctively, Y/N's feet followed the movements of his body, as if they were entrained to his every step. 
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The remainder of the night passed by in a blur. Y/N had barely come to terms with the fact that the man she had once loved was now gone. No matter how much she regretted being with him, being his, no matter how much she hated him, nothing could have outweighed the immense pain she felt at his loss. Even though he had never truly been hers to begin with. The haunting image of Yäyä, broken and fragile, crumbling under the weight of grief, sent shivers down her spine.
Neteyam, who had brought Y/N back home with Kiri, now found himself alone with her. Kiri had promised to check on them later, as her assistance was required with the preparations for the upcoming funeral. Sitting on the ground, Y/N’s back leaned into his chest, the position that would have been awkward in any other circumstance, but now provided a sense of comfort. Y/N was no longer crying, and though Neteyam couldn’t see her face, he could guess that she had calmed down.
"I'm sorry," she mumbled, turning her face to meet his gaze. He furrowed his brows in response, his eyes tracing the trails of dried tears on her cheeks.
"Why are you apologizing?"
"I must have caused a scene…" Y/N's voice hitched, her gaze shifting downward as she fidgeted in her seat, "I didn't mean to... to... I'm not his mate... I mean, I just... and right next to Yäyä... I had no right to..."
"The right to grieve?" Neteyam completed her thought, his frown deepening. "Y/N, you have every right to feel pain. You were in love with him."
"I know," she sniffled, "But I wasn't -" another sniffle interrupted her words, "I'm sorry if it causes you any trouble."
"Y/N, I don't care about any of that," he assured her, his voice gentle, soothing like cool water against weary muscles.
Y/N shook her head, still refusing to meet his gaze. Now that the situation had settled in and she reflected on her actions, she had realized that she took away from the secrecy of their relationship with Kaye. And along with it, she made a cut in Neteyam’s carefully crafted image. Made space for the clan to speculate.
"Look at me," he insisted, gently lifting her chin with a finger, "You have every right to grieve for someone you loved. Nothing else matters."
She nodded weakly, her hand wrapping around his wrist in silent gratitude. Neteyam's eyes roamed across her face, searching for something he couldn't quite articulate. He gulped.
“We are a team, remember? Whether we like it or not, you can rely on me.”
And so, Neteyam stayed by her side throughout the night. He dozed off from time to time, only to awaken and check if she was still peaceful in his embrace. Neteyam wondered if she was truly comfortable in that position. He tried shifting his weight every now and then, attempting to create more space for her, but she’d only grumble in dissatisfaction and cling tighter to his chest.
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The loss of Kaye, this time both literal and physical, was more dull rather than acute. Days seemed to stretch on endlessly, each one feeling like a month, and it was only at nights when Y/N felt just a little like herself. Neteyam became her guardian, shielding her fragile bubble from any disruptions, not tolerating even his grandmother, who sought to push Y/N back into her duties. He understood that she needed her time, and he was ready to give her as much as she required, becoming the only consonant in her routine. His heart swelled with a clinging torturous protectiveness towards her that he embraced without hesitation.
Eventually, though it still seemed too soon, Y/N returned back to her duties. The lessons she had missed were especially hard, but she only encouraged the challenge because it helped her take her mind off things. But what distracted her even more, an undeniable part of her recovery, was the man she was promised to. As if Neteyam had effortlessly woven himself into her thoughts, his scent lingered in her home, his gaze on her was so warm, it surpassed the brilliance of a thousand suns. Slowly, but surely, somethin started to bloom inside of her that felt beyond gratitude and loyalty towards him. 
Now more often than out of obligation, their paths continued to intersect, with Neteyam seeking her out in between his breaks under the reasoning of checking on her. Small activities they shared nestled the dearest place in her heart, easing the scars left behind by Kaye's tragic passing. Like a balm for her wounds, Neteyam became everything that she craved.
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All that time, Neteyam feared that Kaye’s death would affect the fragile relationship he had with Y/N, thinking that she would drift further away under the weight of grief. But when she leaned on Neteyam instead, seeking comfort and finding strength in his support, he realized that maybe the roots of their bond had taken deeper than they ever saw coming. And if they survived this, then maybe they could face anything together.
But the newfound confidence quickly wavered with a single announcement. The fear of tying their lives together was mutual, seeped into both of their thoughts. They couldn’t deny the pull they felt for another but the weight of the ceremony, looming over them as an unknown abyss, was too heavy to sustain. 
“You two look like ghosts, what did grandmother say?” Kiri was eager to tease her brother and Y/N, once they walked out of Mo’at’s tent.
Y/N felt a knot form in her stomach at the question, glancing up at Neteyam next to her, who seemed equally anxious, chewing on his bottom lip. Was their bond strong enough to survive such timing? Kiri, tired of waiting, raised her eyebrows to urge them to speak.
“Tsahik has set the day for the ceremony,” Neteyam took a deep sigh before passing the news to his sister, "It will take place in ten days' time, during the next full moon."
“So soon?” Kiri questioned, glancing between her brother and Y/N.
“The bond between two mates is supposed to be sacred, and Eywa has deemed it the right time for our union,” Y/N repeated Mo’at’s words.
Neither of them protested. 
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“I can’t today,” Y/N forced an apologetic smile, “There's so much to prepare for the ceremony. I’m sure you’d -”
“I understand,” Neteyam nodded eagerly to convince her he really did, “I have preparations to make as well.”
Y/N let out a sigh of relief, the interaction had been repeated a few times already over the course of the past few days, ever since Mo’at had declared the date for the blessing of their union as mates. Neteyam backed out of the healing tent with a sheepish smile, but his mind was a mess. He couldn’t understand why she suddenly made him so nervous? The weight of the approaching ceremony fueled his unease every time he saw her now.
To make the matters worse, the vision from his Dream Hunt relentlessly invaded his dreams every night. There she was, the graceful and strong woman standing beside him, holding his hand, haunting his subconscious that was already stirred with the events in his life. The unusually long necklace, adorned with blue feathers and layered twice, hung from her neck, cascading down to her hips. But as his eyes tried tracing her face, it felt like the image of her slipped through his grasp like sand. No matter how hard he tried, her face remained a mystery. He would wake up in the middle of the night, the vision of this woman lingering in his mind, and he would desperately try to recapture the moments, hiding his face in between his knees and squeezing his eyes shut to go back. But his thoughts would invariably drift to his soon-to-be mate.
What was Y/N feeling? There was a whirlwind of emotions, bundled up from the loss, from the gain, from the upcoming unknown. But she wasn’t quite ready to face their depths. So she occupied herself with preparations for the ceremony earnestly, not out of her wish to become Neteyam’s, rather out of desperation to avoid him as much as she could. Seeing him made it all too real, too rushed, so instead she had declared herself to be busy for walks, for talks, for any kind of interaction that’d be long enough to give away her anxiousness. 
To choose and make the ceremonial special mixes, to weave her garments, to prepare a gift for her future mate - everything seemed to be more important, than spending time with Neteyam. But deep down, she was just scared. Of facing the guilt she carried for letting go of Kaye and having her heart beat for Neteyam now. 
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The night was draped in a blanket of darkness when Neteyam found himself standing outside Y/N’s home, the faint flicker of light from the inside drawing him closer. He hesitated for a moment before nearing the entrance. He wanted to respect this distance between them that she eagerly seeked out but it’s been too difficult. 
The sight of Y/N immediately took his breath away. Under the soft glow of the handmade fluorescent lamps, Y/N was hunching over a piece of unfinished jewelry, her fingers working swiftly, with far more ease than when she worked on mats. The piece resembled a traditional Omatikaya necklace but its intricacy suggested a higher rank than any of their clan members would typically wear. It was as if she had envisioned him wearing it one day, in his rightful place as the Olo'eyktan. Neteyam gulped nervously at the thought.
Y/N, sensing his presence, suddenly looked up from her work, eyes widening in surprise to find him standing there. It had been a while since they had been truly alone together, ever since the announcement of the ceremony.
“Neteyam?” her voice was quiet, “What are you doing here?”
Neteyam cleared his throat, his gaze lingering on the unfinished necklace for a moment.
"I... I couldn't stay away," he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. "I saw the light and... I wanted to see what you were doing."
Y/N clutched the half-finished necklace, hiding it from his view with a hurry. A small pout settled on her face from his sudden curiosity. 
“It’s not done, stop looking,” she ordered protectively.
“Is it for me?” Neteyam couldn’t resist the prying.
He stepped further, sitting down in front of her and craning his neck to catch a glimpse of the piece she was masterfully hiding from him. He chuckled to himself, shaking his head in amusement at the childish behavior.
“Seriously, aren’t you going to show it to me?”
“No, it has to be a surprise,” she was a little irritated with his sternness. 
“Really?” he quirked an eyebrow with irony.
“Well, can I see your gift?” Y/N challenged him back.
“No, but -”
“Then I’m not showing you this. It’s not finished yet.”
He smirked, finding the whole banter just amusing and relaxing for the first time in days, but decided not to push it. Deciding to give her a little more space, he leaned back on his palms and watched with a glint in his eyes, as Y/N quickly gathered her supplies away, hiding the necklace as promptly as she could under her working table. 
“Why are you even awake at this hour?”
Her question caused him to falter. It really has slipped his mind to come up with an excuse to invade her space this late at night. 
“I guess… I wanted to check on you. We haven’t spoken in a while.”
“We spoke this morning.”
“No, not like that,” Neteyam shook his head, “I mean a real conversation.”
“Yeah, well… we have been busy, it’s not like…” Y/N trailed off guiltily. 
“Not like you were avoiding me?” 
“What? No!” she quickly withdrew from the accusation, though it was a truthful one.
“Come on, Y/N. I can see that you’re dreading to spend time with me. I know this timing for the ceremony is not ideal, but if we just push through this together, instead of doing it alone -” his words tumbled out of his mouth in a rush, but Y/N interrupted him, pressing a finger to his lips. His eyes widened, waiting for an explanation.
"I'm just nervous," she confessed softly, her hand falling back into her lap.
“You are?”
“Of course, aren’t you?”
“Are you kidding me? I haven’t slept in a week!” Neteyam chuckled with relief.
A soft smile stretched Y/N’s lips, and under the soft light, it almost seemed like Neteyam was glowing too, a bright orange warmth radiated from within his chest and spread out all the way to his cheeks. 
“I didn’t know that you had the ability to get nervous,” Y/N couldn't help but tease.
He gave her a lopsided smirk, almost as if he was annoyed but at the same time excited that the feeling of being wrapped up in her comfort had finally returned. 
"Even I can have flaws sometimes," he playfully retorted, earning a playful smack on his chest in response.
He caught her palm in his hand, gently placing it against his chest just above his ribcage, and both of their heartbeats picked up. Y/N looked up at him with tenderness, surprised by the intimate gesture, but it felt more profound than any moment she had ever shared with Kaye. The intensity in Neteyam's eyes mirrored her own emotions, as if he was pleading for something, anything from her. When his eyes fell to her lips, a blush warmed her cheeks, and Y/N cleared her throat. Quickly, Neteyam withdrew his hand, rising to his feet. The air in the room suddenly filled with a hint of awkwardness
"Well, I better go. I have to wake up early tomorrow," he hurriedly explained, "It's... um, a really important mission."
Y/N nodded with slight disappointment, not sure if it was aimed more at him or at herself.
“Good luck, Neteyam.”
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“Neteyam!” Y/N shouted, her eyes fluttering open.
With a ragged breath and cheeks wet from tears, she jumped off of her mat immediately, having just woken up from a vivid nightmare. Her heart pounded at the images of Neteyam going off the mission and never returning. This rotten feeling of something bad happening gripped her stomach, urging her to rush out of her home as soon as her feet could carry her.
It was already an early morning, sun just barely rising from behind the horizon, and Y/N feared she might have been too late. Her steps were fueled by desperation, as she finally made it to Sully's home, ignoring the cold morning air sending shivers down her skin. Before she could proceed further into the pod, Jake, who went unnoticed by the young woman, caught her attention.
“Are you okay, kid?” he raised his eyebrows in response to her flinch, clearly not expecting to be seeing him.
The Olo’eyktan was sitting on the ground, his back leaning against the wall, the strange sky people's weapons were laid out in front of him, as he was in the middle of checking every single one before the day ahead. Y/N only nodded, the reality of her actions just settling in, turning her cheeks dark blue from all the embarrassment crashing in. 
“Oel ngati kameie,” she quickly signed to him, bowing her head slightly, “Is Neteyam still home?”
Jake hummed with a slight confusion, still unsure of what the girl had been doing so early in the morning there, clearly distraught. But before he could voice out his response, Neteyam already walked out of the pod, with his mother right behind him. Y/N’s eyes quickly traced the similar weapons adorning both Na’vi, their war paint already on. She caught them just a moment before they were ready to leave, and drew in a small breath of relief.
“Oel ngati kameie,” she gestured quickly to Neytiri, her eyes darting between the woman and her son.
Both were surprised to see her there but the anxiousness plastered over Y/N’s face worried Neteyam. He greeted her back, silently asking for an explanation with his gaze. Just like Jake, Neytiri observed the exchange with a small frown.
“Y/N, is something wrong?” Neteyam urged her gently, his own voice haltering at the sudden fear of rejection.
He went home last night content with their mutual confessions, thinking that they had reached an understanding. But right then, as she stood before him like that, doubts started reappearing in his mind. What if she was there to tell him she wasn’t ready? That she regretted agreeing to the union?
“I have to speak with you right now,” Y/N requested with a stern voice.
“We don’t have time for that, kid,” Jake intervened, as he stood up from his seat, “Once Lo’ak is ready, we’re leaving for the mission.”
Y/N’s eyes darted pleadingly between the three Sully’s. Her hand reached out for Neteyam’s, clinging to him, as she glanced back at Jake, her voice breaking.
“It is very important, please.”
“Jake,” Neytiri finally chimed in, her tone empathetic, “Let them speak.”
The chief shook his head with slight irritation but complied with his mate’s wish anyway. His gaze softened once it landed on their intertwined hands.
“Alright, but only for a minute. I’m serious, Neteyam.” 
“Yes, sir.”
Quickly, Y/N nodded in gratitude to the Olo’eyktan, as she led Neteyam slightly away from them, enough to feel safe in her confession. Her eyes were already tearing up, and she wasn’t really sure why, but Neteyam tensed up immediately, preparing himself to take whatever she was going to throw at him.
"Neteyam, you can't go on this mission. I had a dream, and... you never came back from it. You can't go now," she began to babble, her words rushed and jumbled together.
“Y/N, what are you talking about?” he frowned, barely managing to get anything out of what she said.
"I saw you in my dream! You got shot and fell from your ikran during the mission. I lost you," she choked, her eyes welling up with tears once again. "Please, you have to listen to me."
“Y/N, I can’t miss out on this mission. It is too important,” Neteyam stepped closer, his voice reassuring her with his gentle tone, “You just had a nightmare. It wasn’t real.”
“I can’t lose you too,” a tear streamed down her cheek.
As the first rays of sunrise painted the sky, Neteyam's heart swelled with a love as vast as the forests of Pandora. The sight of her, standing there with tear-filled eyes, pleading for him to stay, stirred something deep within him. He could feel the roots of their connection grow stronger, intertwining with his every fiber. With a tender touch, he wiped her cheek with his palm, then tucked the hair behind her ear. 
“I will be safe, I promise.”
“I can’t let you go.”
“My child,” Neytiri's voice broke the moment, drawing their attention.
Y/N hastily wiped away her eyes, aware that Neytiri had likely overheard their conversation. In the past days, most of Y/N’s time was spent on the preparations, occupying herself with endless options for things that were not as important as just her being ready mentally. But the pressure of perfection weighed even heavier on Y/N under Neytiri's watchful presence. As a Na'vi deeply rooted in tradition and loyalty to their home, Neytiri's opinion held great significance. Y/N couldn't help but feel a nervousness, fearing that her choices would be met with disapproval. Though she didn’t know that Neytiri’s attentiveness was only fueled by the intention of seeking out signs that Y/N and her eldest son were finally growing closer. Now seeing the way Y/N teared up at the mere thought of Neteyam getting hurt had finally satisfied that curiosity. 
“Do not worry about Neteyam, he is a skilled warrior, and he will be safe,” she stepped closer to Y/N, hand reaching out to softly pat her back.
“But the dream -”
“It is only a bad dream,” Neytiri interrupted the small protest, “Kiri has told me about how busy and restless you have been recently. Perhaps even nervous about the nearing of the ceremony? That must have affected your mood.”
Y/N nodded hesitantly at the inquiry. Neytiri offered her an understanding smile.
“You worry too much,” she concluded, “Stay with the girls today. They’ll help you with distractions.”
“Especially Tuk,” Neteyam chimed in with a reassuring smile, “She has been dying to spend time with you anyway.”
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“I made you a necklace!” Tuk's eyes sparkled with enthusiasm as she jumped up from the ground, eager to present her masterpiece she had been crafting for the past days under the guidance of her mother. 
“Oh, Tuk, you didn’t have to!” Y/N leaned back, a gentle smile gracing her lips, as she observed the young girl.
"She's been eager to welcome you into the family, so," Kiri replied with a smirk, taking a seat next to Y/N, "She even convinced Lo'ak to find these blue feathers for her."
“Hey, don’t spoil it!”
Y/N chuckled at the distraction, but as she waited for Tuk to retreat the necklace, her thoughts drifted back to Neteyam. The Sully’s tent was already filled with darkness, it was way past the sunset and the war party still hasn’t returned from their mission. Y/N sat up straight, her posture tensing up at the thoughts, trying to steady her nervous breaths. The chaos that unfolded from Tuk’s search for the gift somehow brought that panic back into her. Kiri observed her friend with curiosity.
To Kiri, Y/N changed drastically in the past months. The way she carried herself, how she slowly grew more accustomed to the idea of being in an arranged union with Neteyam, her active involvement in the preparations. She seemed like a changed person, better, stronger. And though at first Kiri had written it off as being an aftermath of distracting herself from Kaye’s death, now seeing how anxious Y/N was turning with every minute as she glanced towards the door, it was evident that it was rather the effect of her older brother.
“They’ll be back soon, don’t worry.”
“Hm?” Y/N turned to face her, “It is so late though…”
“But the mission was kind of big and dangerous and they had to be extra careful?” Kiri quirked her eyebrow, a slight irony registering in her voice, “Trust me, they have done this a thousand times. Dad and mom won’t let anything bad happen.”
“Of course, I do not question your parents’ bravery and skill, it is just,” Y/N took a deep sigh, “This dream really messed me up.”
“You refused to believe Tsahik’s vision from Eywa about you and Neteyam but you think a silly nightmare you had is a warning?”
“No,” Y/N blushed deeply at the mention of the vision, then casted her gaze downwards, “I do believe Tsahik now.”
The very idea that Y/N had strongly opposed was now tinged with an unexpected delight. The thought of the Great Mother orchestrating the entire situation to bring her and Neteyam closer together sent such a pleasant shiver down her spine. Thankfully, before Kiri could tease her about the open admittance, Tuk interrupted, kneeling in front of them and placing a string of beads and blue feathers in Y/N's lap.
“Here! Lo’ak said it will be too long but you’re tall, right?” Tuk’s eyes twinkled with excitement.
Y/N couldn't suppress a snort of amusement, grateful for the momentary distraction. She let Tuk place the necklace around her neck in two layers, even though it was still overly long and disproportionate for an adult Na'vi. As Y/N stood up, the feathery necklace cascaded down to her hip bone. But it was surprisingly complimenting her tall frame.
"Well, Tuk, what do you think?" Y/N attempted a half-hearted twirl, earning a genuine laughter from the little girl.
“That looks nice!” a male voice chimed in, and all eyes turned towards the entrance.
It was Jake, walking in with a knowing smile, already recognizing the handiwork of his youngest. Y/N's own smile faded instantly, her heart pounding in her chest as she anxiously scanned the room for a familiar face. One after the other, Neytiri and Lo'ak entered, carrying items, retreated from the mission, but the commotion of Tuk running to her parents and their concerned inquiries to Kiri began to fade into the background. Y/N's eyes locked onto the man she had been worrying about the entire day, and her knees were ready to give out at the mere sight of him.
Neteyam, visibly exhausted and weary, entered the room carrying the remaining weapons they had retrieved. When his eyes met Y/N's, they lit up with a sudden glow. Without hesitation, she leaped towards him, and though his arms were still occupied with unfamiliar items, she wrapped her own around his neck with a sigh of relief.
“Thank Eywa, you’re okay!” Y/N tightened her grasp, burying her face in the crook of his neck.
Neteyam, taken aback by the sudden affection, took a brief moment to set aside the items he was carrying and hugged her back. A toothy joyful grin quickly made its way to his face.
"I'm more than okay," he chuckled, his heart melting from the warmth. He almost didn’t even notice the way his family watched the whole interaction with teasing smiles. 
He rolled his eyes at his father, who gave him an approving nod, but couldn’t ignore the way his heart raced in sync with Y/N’s. The lines of worry and exhaustion that had been etched onto his face throughout the heavy mission began to fade away within the comfort of her arms.
“So grandmother was right,” Lo’ak mumbled with sarcasm, though the nature of Y/N’s and Neteyam’s relationship had been predicted by the whole family since a few weeks ago.
“They like each other, right, mom?” Tuk's voice echoed loudly through the room, pulling Neteyam and Y/N back to the present moment. Neytiri, her eyes sparkling with a mix of amusement and affection, nodded in response to her daughter's question.
Y/N quickly unwrapped herself from Neteyam, an awkwardness finding a way into the air. She gave him a sheepish apologetic smile but his gentle smile in return sent a pleasant warmth to her cheeks. Hastily, she averted her eyes, settling them on the family. 
“Come on, let’s give them some privacy guys,” Jake pretended to be serious about it, but not even he could hide the excitement in his own tone, “We’ll go to Tsahik for a check-up and will be back soon.”
Like toddlers, one after the other, Neytiri rushed her kids out. But all of them still kept those teasing, mischievous expressions on their faces. Even Lo’ak, who had barely shown any interest in the arrangement since its beginning, dealing with his own difficulties with his parents, couldn’t help but snicker at his brother, knowing exactly what he was going to joke about later, when they were alone. On his way out, Jake gave them a final nod.
“Y/N, you’re staying with us tonight, right?”
Awkwardly, she could only nod back.
Once the tent was empty, Y/N took a moment before finally turning around to face Neteyam. He still had that soft look on his face that made it dawn upon her how much she missed him. And that maybe she loved him? 
Simultaneously, Neteyam’s eyes traced her face, then the blue caught his attention and as he took in the obnoxiously long necklace around her neck adorned with big blue feathers, his breath got stuck in his throat. 
“Is that yours?” he asked suddenly.
“Oh, yeah, Tuk gave it to me,” she answered a little confused.
The vision from his Dream Hunt suddenly felt complete - the tall beautiful woman standing next to him, a long necklace hanging low from her neck. It was supposed to be Y/N! The woman he had been obsessed with the idea of, that Eywa herself had chosen for him, wasn't just a mere concept of a destined mate; it was Y/N, standing right beside him.
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Chosen by Eywa - Crossing the Bridge - Chapter 4
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contains: arranged marriage, mentions of war and grief, angst, one-sided enemies to lovers, slow burn
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a/n: i know i haven't updated in two weeks, but it was only due to the circumstances. like i promised, i will have another chapter out during the week, bc i'm so happy that i got my visa and went to my concert, so stay stuned, babies. i hope you still like this series and will keep reading T.T
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It was awkward. The way Neteyam stood in front of the tent, hesitating to walk in to avoid drawing the attention of the other healers. Awkward, how he had to shift his weight from one foot to the other every few minutes because everyone, except her, had caught sight of the future Olo'eyktan at some point. And it took Kiri to finally shove her so forcefully to look up from her task, that Y/N almost fell face first onto the ground.
The whole intention of spending time together away from the High Camp was to avoid the attention and the murmurs of the villagers about them. More importantly, to avoid running into Kaye and his new mate. But the moment their ikrans touched down in the forest, far away from the prying eyes, the pressure of performing got replaced with an uncomfortable tension. And neither Y/N nor Neteyam knew how to close that gap between them. How come weaving mats in a healing tent seemed to be easier and less stressful than taking a stroll in the lush forest of Pandora?
“Say something, show her the real Neteyam,” Neteyam muttered to himself, trailing awkwardly behind Y/N.
She, immersed in her own thoughts, walked ahead without a clear direction, fingers fidgeting with the hem of her loincloth. Neteyam desperately tried searching for an opening to deliver, and took a few larger strides not to fall behind too far.
“So… how was your day?” he finally mustered the courage to ask.
Y/N paused in her tracks, glancing back at him with a small frown, as if she couldn’t quite make out the words he said. Neteyam stopped walking too, waiting for a response.
“The usual. Lessons,” her voice lacked any enthusiasm that could have encouraged him to go on. 
“Good,” Neteyam nodded, trying to offer something else in return, “I’ve had training today.”
“How was it?” 
“The usual,” he repeated Y/N’s words with an ironic snicker, recalling his morning, “It’s either getting beaten up by your fake opponents, or by the actual bad guys. Today was the pretend one.”
He shrugged to complete his explanation, something that he had borrowed from his brother whenever he made a joke, as if to give his words a humorous meaning. And though they were quite ghastly, it coaxed a small chuckle out of Y/N. Neteyam’s ears twitched at the sound with a flicker of delightful surprise. He made her smile.
“Well, you look alright for someone who got beaten up,” Y/N gestured at his woundless body, her canines peeking out.
“I’d have to turn that compliment down, since I didn’t get beaten up today,” Neteyam smirked, “You should have seen the other guy.”
“Oh, is that so? That’s always the case with you?”
“No, I get beaten up too sometimes… though not as often,” he shrugged again, this time releasing the pressure of performing, as he admitted to a vulnerability that most warriors wouldn’t, “And even when I do, I don’t worry about that stuff.”
“Why not?” Y/N’s ears perked up in curiosity.
“Well, let’s see…” Neteyam bit back a smile, pretending to be thinking about his answer, “I have a grandmother for Tsahik, my mother used to be the tsakarem, now my sister is a tsakarem,” he paused, hesitating to add, “And my destined mate is training under the guidance of the Tsahik. So, I think I’m in good hands.”
“Right,” Y/N snorted at the comment, and for a moment Neteyam thought that he might have crossed the line his father kept telling him about, but once she turned away from him to continue walking, he noticed a ghost of a smile on her lips, and that was enough of a confirmation to send his heart into a rapid beat.
Neteyam wasn’t even sure why the reaction made him suddenly giddy but it felt like a small victory he could showcase, if his family expresses any interest in his progress with Y/N. And as he continued to trail behind her, though they mostly remained in silence, the atmosphere seemed to ease.
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“It’s okay, Y/N, let’s switch,” Kiri’s tight grip on Y/N’s arm brought her back into reality.
Y/N stood awkwardly a few steps away from the two warriors in front of her - one, who looked at her with guilt but still some lingering warmth in his eyes, and the other - who studied her earnestly, looking for any signs of discomfort, as if he could make them vanish. Kiri, who was only a moment ago treating her brother, was quick to read the situation and attempted her best to resolve it. Everything just unraveled so fast, the way the group of warriors stumbled into the tent for the first time in days, seemingly wounded after an encounter with the sky people. 
Since they were practically regulars at the tent, each warrior was used to being treated by the same one or two healers, and everyone found their places right away. Kiri too, without a second thought, was immediately grabbing her older brother and getting to work. Which left Y/N standing in front of Kaye, according to the unspoken habit that had developed over the past months. Kaye had a gash across his chest that needed close inspection, but Y/N couldn’t really move, as if her feet were suddenly glued to the ground, weighed down. 
Neteyam, of course, watched the scene unravel before him, but he couldn’t do much but just contain himself from making a bigger deal out of it for the whole tent to see. His eyes darted around the room, searching for his grandmother, who perhaps could help Kaye instead, but Mo’at was already busy with placing stitches on another warrior’s thigh, and it would take a while before she would be free.
“It’s alright, I can wait for somebody else to -” Kaye cleared his throat, raising his palms in the air, as if to prevent the switch up, but Kiri simply ignored him, already nudging Y/N to the side.
“That looks bad, you need to take care of it,” Neteyam gestured at Kaye’s chest with much discontent, as if acknowledging the truth made him cringe.
Defeated, Kaye stopped disagreeing, the sting of the wound was only getting more painful when he spoke, and to be quite honest, he couldn’t wait. Y/N’s expression remained stone cold, as she watched Kiri lead Kaye to the other side of the tent. Neteyam pressed his lips into a thin line, watching them two, his irritation finally starting to seep away, the farther they got. He was almost caught off guard, when he felt a pair of cold hands against his skin.
Y/N silently kneeled in front of him, starting to treat the small scraps over his arms and shoulders. Her expression was unwavering, as if nothing had happened, and he wondered what she was really thinking about. Was this the first time she saw Kaye after their fight?
“Stop staring,” Y/N mumbled, without looking up at him, while her hands still worked their healing magic.
Neteyam shook his head to deny her request, and continued to watch her every move intently. Irritated, she hooked a finger under his chin and forcefully turned his head to the side, so that he was met with the tent wall. He chuckled weakly at the gesture but kept the new position.
“You can take a breather, you know? I’m not dying, I can wait,” he suggested.
Y/N paused to stare at the side of his face for a moment, giving him a false sense of actually contemplating his offer. Of course, she was going to turn it down, there was no way she could’ve just walked out of the tent. The scolding she’d get from Mo’at wasn’t worth it.
“I can’t,” Y/N pretended to be unbothered, her hands continuing to work over his forearm, where a few smaller cuts were in need of a soothing balm.
“Why not? I won’t mind,” Neteyam turned his face again to look at her. 
“Because I can’t leave my destined mate unattended, can I?” Y/N's voice dripped with irony, and she couldn't resist stealing a quick glance at him, searching for a reaction.
Neteyam's frown deepened, caught off guard by the repetition of his own words. Was that a bad slip? Maybe she took what he said in a way where Neteyam only valued Y/N for her skills, rather than her as a person. Disappointed with himself, he shook his head and then gently covered her hands with his own, halting their movements.
"Y/N, I didn't mean it that way," Neteyam's voice was low, and he waited patiently for her to meet his gaze before continuing, "This... it doesn't matter. I was just kidding. Go on, and take a breather if you need one."
“I know, Neteyam, I was only teasing,” the corners of her mouth twitched in amusement.
For a fleeting moment, Y/N allowed herself to forget that the love of her life was sitting and watching her from across the room. It felt exhilarating to indulge in the playful banter, teasing Neteyam and pretending that they were a blissful couple, free from the weight of their responsibilities.
“You’re teasing,” he breathed out with relief, “Oh… good.”
“Yes,” she rolled her eyes, “And obviously I can’t just take a break right now. Your grandmother will kill me.”
As Y/N returned to tending his scrapes and cuts, Neteyam bit his cheek, thinking for a moment. A sudden surge of courage coursed through him, and he made a decision, quickly standing up and pulling her gently to her feet. His hand found hers, and the movement surely caught the attention of those around them but Neteyam only shrugged, his eyes on Y/N. She was confused, and she couldn't help but glance nervously at Kaye, who had been watching the whole interaction with unease. 
“Let’s go,” Neteyam’s thick-accented voice grabbed her attention once more, and without waiting for an answer, he was already walking out of the tent, leading her by the hand with him.
Y/N had little time to react, on the way out, her eyes caught a sight of Mo’at, who shook her head at the interruption and returned back to her task.
“Neteyam,” Y/N hissed embarrassed, but his grip on her, though gentle, remained unmoving.
“My grandmother won’t kill you, if I’m coming with you,” he explained, without even glancing back at her.
“You’re coming with me? Where?” Y/N’s nose scrunched up in confusion.
“Wherever you want.”
Neteyam was never one to protest the rules. Lo’ak liked to tease him about it and call him a “goody-two-shoes,” but Neteyam was too focused on excelling rather than getting offended by his brother’s weak insults. But he also never had enough motivation to disobey. Breaking the rules only brought trouble, and after careful consideration, Neteyam had never deemed it worthwhile. But here, now, as he led Y/N away from her responsibilities to offer her a moment of peace, he decided that it was for a good reason. That it wouldn’t matter if his grandmother got mad at them and he would take the blame anyway, since he initiated it. But if it meant that she didn’t have to keep working while her past lover gawked at her, then maybe it was worth it.
When they were finally away from the tent, Y/N stood right in front of him, their hands still intertwined. Despite trying to stare down at his much bigger frame with disapproval, there were traces of gratitude in her eyes. Her tail swished with excitement, thinking of how great it felt to abandon her day’s duties and just be left alone.
"Thank you," she whispered, her voice carrying an earnest tone.
"No need to thank me," Neteyam squeezed her hand, "My mother always reminds me that those who care of others also deserve care in return. I tend to forget it at times, but she's right."
He tugged at her hand once more, his gaze already wandering off to somewhere else. Without hesitation, Y/N willingly trailed behind him along the narrow path that meandered through the Hallelujah Mountains. Neteyam's grasp on her hand remained firm all throughout, neither of them sure if it was to guide her safely or simply to reassure her with his presence.
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Walks with Neteyam had shifted from being an obligation to somewhat of an entertainment. They still didn’t speak much, finding peace in the quiet companionship, as they wandered through the forest, away from the eyes of the clan. In those moments, Y/N stopped feeling the pressure of pretending to be happy about her impending union with the future chief, while Neteyam was happy to reconnect with the forest. Since the relocation of the clan to the Hallelujah Mountains, his time in the forest was limited to missions or overseeing his siblings, never to revisiting his past and his roots.
And while to Y/N, this relationship had evolved into a strong foundation for friendship, Neteyam struggled with his growing protectiveness over her. It felt like she might crumble if he wasn't there to watch over, and the mere mention of her past could be her breaking point. These thoughts consumed Neteyam's restless mind, keeping him awake at night. Alongside with them, his frustration towards Kaye and the lack of respect, fueled his anger, as he delivered another forceful hit to his pretend opponent. Was it genuine protectiveness he harbored for Y/N, or was it simply his frustration with Kaye's behavior? Neteyam felt like a hypocrite. 
The future chief groaned in frustration, delivering another calculated strike, disarming his opponent, Kaye. But his anger and irritation were blinding, making Neteyam lose his focus, not necessarily in his movements but within the depths of his mind. He couldn’t stop the attacks. 
Kaye fell into his parents’ trap and mated with a woman of their choosing. Yet, he seemed content with their decision and he had no trouble leaving Y/N behind. Did he ever even love her, or was he simply leading her on all that time? Either way, Kaye had moved on, and Neteyam had to be the one who watched Y/N try to deal with the fact.
Another powerful shove, and Neteyam swiftly toppled his opponent, sending him sprawling onto his back. His spear was aimed threateningly, directly at the vulnerable spot beneath Kaye's throat. Kaye’s eyes widened in fear, as for a fleeting moment, it seemed like Neteyam might not stop. He immediately lowered his ears in a gesture of submission to the future Olo’eyktan.
“Neteyam, that’s enough,” Jake's voice cut through, jolting Neteyam back to reality.
With an almost aggressive shake of a head, as if trying to force away the nagging thoughts, Neteyam took a step back and lowered his spear. The fight was clearly over and he was the winner, but it barely even felt like a victory.
Neteyam exchanged a look with his father, who was confused with his son’s behavior. To Jake, Neteyam was one of his best warriors, always in control of his emotions and precise with his movements, and it was rare that he got to witness him being overtaken with anger. With a loud sigh, Neteyam still complied with the unspoken rule within the camp and extended his hand to his opponent to pull him to his feet.
Oblivious to the fact that the fight was twice as violent because Neteyam had developed a personal vendetta against him, or perhaps he only chose to be ignorant of it, Kaye offered a small, appreciative smile in response to the extended hand, accepting the help. He dusted off his back and thighs, and before Neteyam could sign a goodbye and leave, Kaye quickly moved to stand in his way.
“I need to talk to Y/N,” he announced, forcing Neteyam to stop in his tracks, “You must see her, right?”
Neteyam clenched his jaw, struggling to contain the anger that still hasn’t died down from the fight. Just when he started to get the things moving for himself and Y/N, just when it seemed like Kaye wouldn’t hurt her anymore, he was suddenly wanting to talk to her? She wouldn’t hide if she wanted to see Kaye, would she?
“I think it’s safe to say that she doesn’t want to talk to you,” Neteyam’s voice trembled slightly, “If I were you, I would have kept my distance. Just like you've grown accustomed to doing over the years.”
“Ouch, I guess I deserved that,” Kaye winced at the comment, “Listen, I am truly sorry for the way things turned out but I never meant to hurt her. I just want to apologize.”
Neteyam simply shook his head, indicating that the explanation fell short of convincing him. If Kaye wanted to speak to Y/N, it would only be on her terms, Neteyam certainly wasn’t going to take part in helping him.
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Y/N sat in front of the healing tent in silence, the small wrinkle in between her eyebrows was turning deeper within each passing minute. She was annoyed with Neteyam, who didn’t show up, but mostly she was annoyed with herself for still being there and waiting for him. Her lesson had ended long ago, their usual routine of going for a walk right after was simply abandoned, and Neteyam was nowhere to be found. She knew that he came home a few hours ago, when she heard the shouts of the warriors, and some even came in for a check-up at the tent. So, if he was safe, it puzzled her why he hadn't come. Did he seize an opportunity and forget to warn her not to wait? 
She shouldn’t be annoyed though. Wasn’t this exactly what she wished for? To spend less time with him, to be left alone. But it didn’t feel like a win at all, just a let-down. The times when Kaye would sometimes stand her up floated her mind with insecurity. Though it didn’t happen often, she got hurt deeply every time. No amount of apologies from Kaye could ever help her overcome the fear of him simply not showing up one day and giving up on her completely. 
Shaking her head, disappointed with herself for wasting time, she stood up, ready to leave. To her surprise, just as she rose, Neteyam appeared right in front of her.
"You waited," he uttered softly, a mix of confusion and gratitude in his voice.
“You made me wait,” she retorted, her irritation impossible to hide as her eyes bore into his.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to,” Neteyam raised his palms in the air, offering a defeat.
And that’s when Y/N noticed it. Before she could unleash the angry words she had rehearsed in her mind for the past hour, or fully grasp the tinge of pain in his voice, her eyes caught sight of something. A streak of red smeared across Neteyam's forearms, clumsily wiped but not enough to be completely rid of. Almost as if he tried taking care of it himself and failed miserably. Her amber eyes swiftly traced the path of the color, trailing from his ribcage and vanishing around his body, and without a word she circled him, to find his back, covered in awkwardly arranged leaves. She guessed that Neteyam had placed them himself, since some of the wounds were only partially covered, and there was dried off blood all over his skin.
“Neteyam, what the hell happened to you?” Y/N asked, her eyes turning bigger in shock. How long has he been in pain? Why didn’t he come to the healing tent and get it treated? Her mind was flooded with questions.
“It’s nothing,” he mumbled, turning around to face her, though his expression was painted with guilt, “Just a few scratches.”
“These are not just scratches, they look horrible,” Y/N gestured at him once more, “Why didn’t you come to your grandmother? You came home hours ago, no?”
Neteyam flinched at her words. They held the truth, but he didn't want to admit it. There was something embarrassing about getting that many wounds on his back. It meant he hadn't noticed the enemy behind him, which also signified his lack of attentiveness. But how could he pay attention when his whole reality was shifting around him? Neteyam took a step away from her, trying to force a small smile.
“Since you had to wait for so long, let’s go on that walk now, hm? I’ll try to make it up to you,” he tried nonchalantly.
But Y/N was quick to close the distance between him. She grasped his hand and without a word pulled him into the healing tent. Once inside, she gestured for Neteyam to take a seat on one of the rarely used old wooden chairs, thinking that being on her feet would be more convenient when treating his back.
“Seriously, I am okay, we can still go on that walk,” Neteyam tried to reason, but she was already hissing at him in annoyance to stop talking.
His ears lowered in defeat, which he desperately didn’t want to accept, but also secretly had craved. Because even though Neteyam was used to being the one taking care of others, it felt like a sun on his skin, knowing that somebody else was there for him. And he could tell she was mad just by the way she treated him with silence, but the anger was coming from a place of caring.
The wounds he bore were throbbing with pain, located in a difficult-to-reach place. Neteyam hadn't intended to be late; it simply took him longer than expected to dress his injuries. Yet, his heart fluttered with a mixture of relief and gratitude when he spotted Y/N still seated in front of the healing tent, patiently waiting for him. She could have easily left hours ago, so why did she choose to stay?
“You have a whole family of healers, why didn’t you just ask them for help? Why didn’t you ask me?” Y/N sighed.
Neteyam's ears twitched at the touch, a subtle response to the gentleness of her fingers on his back. Soon, the leaf bandages he had grown weary of were being carefully removed, and as she worked, a wave of empathy flowed through her, her tone turning into a softer, more understanding one.
“I know that there is some kind of pride that comes with being the Olo’eyktan’s son, and also this pressure of being perfect and never showing your vulnerabilities. But when you get hurt, Neteyam, none of it should matter.”
“I know, you’re right,” Neteyam admitted guiltily, hanging his head, “I just…”
Y/N tsksed at the incomplete explanation with discontent, taking off the last bandage. Now, fully exposed, Neteyam’s back was covered in multiple gashes arranged at sharp angles around his spine. Fortunately, they hadn't pierced deep enough to cause nerve damage, which meant that Neteyam was quick to react. A damp cloth grazed his skin as Y/N gently wiped away the brown stains of the dried off blood.
“Whether we like it or not, we are a team now,” she continued after a pause, “So you can rely on me.”
He nodded, even though he couldn't see her face. There was a sincerity in her words, something different from before. It didn't feel like mere obligation; it felt like she genuinely meant it, like she truly wanted him to rely on her.
“Thank you, Y/N.”
His earpiece suddenly crackled to life, interrupting the moment, and Neteyam immediately tensed up at the sound of his father’s worried voice. He sat up, and pressed a finger to his wired necklace, speaking into it.
“I am safe, dad, what happened?” Neteyam questioned.
Worried, and unable to hear Jake’s voice on the other end, Y/N quickly came in front of Neteyam, searching his face for clues of what was happening. The future Olo’eyktan seemed to grow more concerned, as he remained quiet to hear his father.
“What is it?” Y/N whispered impatiently, and then she felt it.
Y/N's stomach plummeted as she observed the transformation of Neteyam's expression. What was initially concern now gave way to a haunting mix of guilt and remorse. It was as if he carried the weight of something deeply troubling, something that was unfixable, probably too difficult to say out loud.
“How many of them?” Neteyam spoke again, his eyes still glued to Y/N’s, “And who exactly got shot?”
It felt like the world around her came to a stop, as in these seconds of waiting, Y/N had imagined hundreds of scenarios running through her head. And it could be anything, but the way Neteyam rose to his feet in a hurry, she feared that the worst one was coming to life.
“Is it him?” Y/N’s voice cracked, and Neteyam nodded, pressing his lips into a thin line.
“It is Kaye.”
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Chosen by Eywa - Lessons to Learn - Chapter 3
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contains: arranged marriage, mentions of war and grief, angst, one-sided enemies to lovers, slow burn
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a/n: i hope this chapter will meet your expectations, and from now on the romance will only get better
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Resentment. It was an unfamiliar feeling for Y/N, something that hadn’t occurred even in the face of Kaye’s family’s open disapproval of her during the past years. But now, as she endured the constant barrage of congratulations from other villagers on her upcoming engagement to the future chief (rumors traveled faster than she expected), and the hovering of Tsahik near her, Y/N couldn’t help but feel a growing sense of hostility towards them all. The resentment had taken root deep within her, growing stronger with each lesson, when she would feel the way Mo’at’s gaze would linger on her for too long, watching her at all times. As if suddenly Y/N wasn’t herself anymore but only carried the sole purpose of being a good mate for her grandchild. All Y/N wanted was to hide, and her safest place, where she usually found solace was now unavailable. Being in the village, really, was unsafe, as she didn’t want to accidentally see Neteyam, or even worse, Kaye with his new mate.
Now that the reality had settled in, and her arrangement to the Olo’eyktan’s son was far from being broken, Y/N was too scared to face it. So she sought refuge in hiding, avoiding the pressure as nifty as she could by skipping communal dinners and retreating into the forest, once she was done with her chores. Kiri wasn’t blind to her eagerness to escape, and so she gave her space, treating her more delicately than usual. But Tsahik didn’t seem to be as understanding, and she pressed on, either being oblivious or just willfully ignorant to Y/N’s mounting irritation. 
The days dragged on slowly recently with a temporary lull settling between the sky people and the clan after a big clash. Both parties had to retreat to recover, which meant that in the past days, there were fewer warriors to treat, and Y/N, along with the other healers, had more time for studying and minor tasks. Though she wasn’t sure if it was for the better or the worse; of course, with less battles, she wouldn’t have to accidentally run into Kaye or Neteyam, but at the same time enduring Mo’at’s not-so-accidental lectures about serving the clan suddenly felt suffocating too. So, when another lesson came to an end, Y/N was one of the first to hastily rise to her feet to escape. Kiri observed her quietly with a defeated look, seeing no point in arguing. But Tsahik’s frustration with Y/N’s attitude became increasingly evident.
“Kiri and Y/N, stay behind,” Mo’at ordered.
Y/N clenched her jaw, reluctantly settling down on the ground beside Kiri, who offered her a strained smile. The silence lingered as they waited for the other healers to depart, leaving the three of them alone.
“What is it, grandmother?”
“I want you two to begin participating in our ceremonial rituals to deepen your knowledge and connection with the Great Mother. We haven’t had much time to focus on them recently, but they are integral to the Omatikaya way of life,” Mo’at settled herself in front of the two women and continued, “Tomorrow morning, there will be the communal for mothers and their newborns to connect with Eywa. As the tsakarem, I want you to assist me.”
“Thank you, grandmother, it would be an honor,” Kiri broke into a delighted smile, clearly excited for getting a bigger role than she usually did.
A small smile stretched Y/N’s lips too, happy for Kiri. Over the years of working alongside each other, Y/N had learned that Kiri had a natural affinity for animals and children. Being entrusted with a role in such an important ceremony must have felt like a gift. Y/N turned her attention back to Tsahik then, waiting to hear the purpose behind her inclusion in the conversation.
“Y/N, you must also participate alongside Kiri,” Mo’at finally granted her attention, “As the future Olo’eyktan’s mate, you must embrace our traditions and become a support for Kiri.”
“It is a great honor, Tsahik, but I do have to question your choice. I do not feel prepared to assist in such a ceremony in front of the entire clan. I fear I would be of little help,” she confessed with a pang of insecurity.
Y/N had grown accustomed to being reserved and unnoticed in the clan, attending only to people who sought her help in the quiet solitude of the healing tent, where there was no pressure of public performance. Considering how the news of her arrangement to Neteyam was already drawing so much attention to her, no matter how great the honor was, she had to refuse.
“I have noticed your increasing doubts in your Tsahik lately,” Mo’at’s voice became harsher, and Y/N had to summon all of her willpower to refrain from pleading with her to stop, “Are you doubting Eywa’s guidance too?” 
Eywa’s guidance. Y/N wanted to scoff at the words that have been used countlessly now to force her into situations she did not want to be in. Her parents’ death, Kaye’s arrangement, her union with Neteyam… everything she dreaded was justified with Eywa’s name, as if the Great Mother had a vision when putting her through it all. It seemed ridiculous.
“I am not doubting Eywa’s guidance, but I do question whether or not the signs have been misinterpreted for the benefit of somebody else, rather than mine.”
As the words left her mouth, Y/N regretted them already. She had never dared to challenge Tsahik so directly, let alone voice her concerns about Mo’at’s lifelong commitment. Kiri gulped down nervously, looking in between the two.
“Rather than yours?” Mo’at raised her eyebrows in surprise, “You dare to question if the signs that brought you to this point were for the benefit of the others?”
“Grandmother, I don’t think she meant that -” Kiri tried to intertwine, sensing her grandmother’s growing frustration but it was too late. Mo’at raised her hand to silence her, a scowl forming on her face, as she kept her eyes trained on Y/N.
“The Great mother had looked after you since the day you became orphaned. It was her that pushed you into the arms of the Olo’eyktan and his family, her, who guided you into a care. You wanted to be ‘useful,’ isn’t that what you told me?” Tsahik’s voice raised with an accusatory tone, and Y/N felt herself sinking in her seat, “The day when Jakesully had brought you to me and asked for help in guiding you… do you think it was the first time he came to me? I had no intentions of taking you in, I already had a tsakarem and students chosen, I did not need somebody with no knowledge or interest in healing. But then the Great Mother had sent me a sign, had spoken to me in my dream to give you a chance because she had a plan for you all along.”
Both Y/N and Kiri blinked in surprise at the revelation, as they heard the reasoning. They had always assumed that Mo’at had taken in Y/N out of the Olo’eyktan’s request, but they never realized that the initial request had been rejected. It dawned on them that Eywa had been actively looking out for Y/N all along. Y/N's face flushed with a mix of embarrassment and gratitude.
“Didn’t you wish for a place in the clan? To be accepted because you had lost your family, and therefore, your role?” Tsahik continued, her expression unwavering, “Now the Great Mother has given you the chance to be ‘useful,’ to stand next to the Olo’eyktan. Isn’t that a great honor?”
“It is,” Y/N mumbled, her ears lowering in defeat. Kiri shifted in her seat slightly, feeling as if she was getting scolded too.
“So, you do realize that it is an honor,” Mo’at rose to her feet, “Yet you have done nothing but complain about it. As if you had great sacrifices to make. All that is asked of you is to learn and remain strong to help your mate. As the future leaders of this clan, Neteyam and Kiri already carry a big responsibility on their shoulders. You need to be next to them, be a capable and resilient woman to offer your support whenever it is required. You have been blessed by the Great Mother, Y/N, trust in her will.”
Y/N took a moment to absorb Mo'at's impassioned words, her heart heavy with conflicting emotions. While it felt awful to bear such weight, she realized that Mo’at was right. There were always greater sacrifices to make, the clan was in danger, and if Eywa had sent signs about her, it would be foolish to go against them. Kiri reached to squeeze Y/N's hand in support, and Y/N took a deep breath, straightening her posture.
“I see you, Tsahik,” she spoke, her voice steady, “I hear your wisdom, and I will not question it again.”
Mo’at nodded, content with Y/N’s answer, but there was also a hint of gratitude for the compliance. Ever since the decision has been made, her heart felt heavy for forcing Neteyam and Y/N into a union, but she was sure that it was the right path to follow.
“You are free to go,” Mo’at’s expression softened.
Kiri lingered behind, watching after Y/N left. She then turned her head to her grandmother.
“Grandmother, don’t you think that was a little harsh? She’s having a hard time already.”
“Y/N had to be reminded of her destiny instead of fighting it. Once she does, things will start falling into their places,” Mo’at explained with a sigh.
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The clinking of the metal knife blended with the crackling of the burning wood and the distant laughter of Lo'ak, Kiri, and Tuktirey. The family was preparing to sleep, with Neytiri keeping a watchful eye over her children as she silently prayed to Eywa to keep them safe. Neteyam sat alone by the fire, occupied with the sharpening of his knife. When he noticed his father settling beside him, he barely lifted his gaze.
“I think you’ve finished with that, looks good,” Jake nodded at the knife, giving his son's shoulder a reassuring pat. "Are you tired?"
"Not more than usual," Neteyam sighed, continuing to hone his weapon despite his father's approval.
"Tomorrow will be a little slow too, so use this opportunity to gather your energy. Don't stay up too late, go and catch up on your sleep."
Neteyam nodded, stealing a quick glance over his shoulder at his siblings. They were still playing that silly game, where they had to create patterns with their long beaded strings without getting them tangled. Tuk laughed wholeheartedly, as Kiri swatted Lo’ak for getting his string tangled up with hers. A pang of longing tugged at Neteyam's heart, wishing he could join in the carefree fun. But he knew his responsibilities as he grew older. Jake watched him with a slight concern, and when Neteyam moved to put his knife away and retire for the night, he gently tugged at his son’s belt, signaling him to stay a little longer.
"Before you go, there's something I need to discuss with you.”
Neteyam settled back down, his full attention now on his father. 
"Yes, sir. What is it?" he asked cautiously, sensing as if there was something bothering Jake.
“Nothing bad, don’t worry,” Jake reassured with a forced smile, but it fell short of easing up the tension, “Y/N doesn’t show up at the dinners anymore. Do you know where she is?”
“I don’t know, sir,” Neteyam shrugged absentmindedly, “She might just need some space.”
Space. Or maybe she was just hiding from him. Intentionally avoiding Neteyam because despite their conversation that night, he couldn’t shake the feeling that nothing changed. At least, not for her. Neteyam wondered if she was still repulsed by the idea of being with him. And that took a very heavy toll on his heart. Why did fate have to choose the one woman who had already given her love to another?
“Space,” Jake repeated, as if processing the word, then nodded in acceptance, “And the other day, when she came to the training camp, did you end up finding her afterward? You still haven’t told me what happened.”
“Yes, sir,” Neteyam bit the side of his cheek, as if contemplating how much he could reveal. He decided to keep it brief, like reporting a mission, “She was upset and wandered off to the forest, but she was unharmed and let me take her back home. It seems like Y/N and Kaye had some sort of misunderstanding, though she assured me that it’s all in the past now. She only acted out of her emotions.”
“Oh,” Jake was a little taken back by the revelation, “I didn’t know that.”
He fell quiet for a moment, feeling a mixture of guilt and confusion. To be quite honest, Jake felt like he didn’t keep his promise of keeping an eye on Y/N, and realized the implications of his negligence only now. Witnessing her argument with Kaye, a warrior with whom he had never seen her interact, had caught Jake off guard. How much did he miss anyway? Did something happen between Y/N and Kaye? Jake couldn’t escape the nagging guilt of not knowing. Yes, he had entrusted Y/N’s well-being to Mo’at years ago, but did he ever make an effort to make sure she was alright? Just watching her from afar couldn’t be enough, could it? To top it off, his own family was forcing her into a bond with his oldest son. Despite all the possibilities and respect Y/N could get in her new role, he still wasn’t sure if it was the right decision to make. Jake cleared his throat, speaking with a more hopeful tone.
“And how are things between you two? Are you getting along with her?”
“I haven’t spoken or seen her much lately, sir,” Neteyam replied, pressing his lips into a thin line. Of course he hadn’t, because Y/N avoided him. 
“Hey, let’s drop the ‘sir,’ okay? We’re talking as father and son right now,” Jake’s expression softened, “Be honest with me, don’t you like her? I thought she was a nice girl.”
“I think she is a nice girl too, dad,” Neteyam let his shoulders slump for a moment, almost as if he had to relax to be able to tell the truth, “But I don’t think she likes me much… I kind of think she hates me.”
“Hates you? That’s a strong word, Neteyam,” Jake chuckled, finding some humor in the exaggeration, “Maybe she’s just scared because she doesn’t really know you.”
Neteyam shrugged, though he felt a small sense of relief wash over him. Maybe his father was right.
“Look, son, you can’t expect her to like you unless you give her a chance to get to know you first,” Jake continued, his voice filled with paternal wisdom, “Maybe you should work on breaking down that barrier. Y/N is a smart girl but she needs to see you’re a good person, not just a warrior following the orders. Show her the real you, just Neteyam.”
“And how do I do that? Show her this… just Neteyam?” uncertainty swirled in Neteyam’s eyes.
“Well, for starters, try talking to her,” his father suggested with a teasing smirk, “Go visit her, ask to spend time with you. Do you think your mother fell head over heels for me at first sight?”
“Yeah, you always say that it was love at first sight,” Neteyam chuckled, humoring Jake.
“Sure, barely,” Jake let out a laugh, “Your mom thought I was a crazy sky person who didn't understand the Na'vi ways. I mean, there was definitely an initial attraction and mutual fascination, but it was only thanks to Eywa that I even survived. It took some time for your mom to warm up to me. And the more time we spent together, and got to know each other, that’s when the sparks started flying.”
Neteyam listened intently, hanging on each word. It was as if Jake was giving him a guide to navigate this relationship with Y/N. Not that Neteyam was in love with her, or liked her, for that matter, but he recognized the importance of trying. The thought of enduring a lifetime of her hostility would be suffocating. At least, he could be content with having a friend, a companion he could trust and rely on in the journey of life.
“Listen, I know that this whole thing puts a lot of pressure on both of you, but sometimes, the paths we desire don't align with the paths laid out for us,” Jake reached to pat Neteyam’s shoulder once more, “Remember, there's a reason for everything. Trust in Eywa's plan, even if it takes time to make sense of it all… I have trusted in Eywa and in our people, and it only led me to the greatest happiness of my life. I would hate to see you miss out on it. So, just give it a chance, alright?”
“And if it doesn’t work out as well as it did for you, then what?” Neteyam’s voice wasn’t defensive, more resigned than anything.
“If you genuinely give it your best effort and it’s still not meant to be, then you have my support,” Jake affirmed with a gentle voice, “Your happiness matters to me, and I don’t care if it goes against the traditions. I will stand by your side and we will figure it out, how does that sound?
Neteyam nodded, his heart quickening at the anticipation as he absorbed his father’s words. They always had shared a strong bond, rooted in a deep understanding, but with the recent circumstances, Neteyam had begun feeling somewhat isolated from his family. He broke into a wide toothy grin. 
“We got a deal, dad.”
Jake laughed, then gestured towards his older daughter to drop the game and join them. Kiri rolled her eyes, but complied nonetheless, walking to them.
“Babygirl, your brother could use your help. You spend a lot of time with Y/N, right? What can you share about her with him?”
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He saw her during the ceremony in the morning for the first time in days, and Neteyam, for some reason, felt nervous. Not that he was closely familiar with the feeling, but there was something about the way she delicately assisted his grandmother and the women with their newborns that made his mouth suddenly dry. While his family beamed with pride as Kiri took on such an important role, guiding the clan members through the ceremony and orchestrating their placements within the intricate pattern, Neteyam couldn't help but feel a pang of guilt for finding Y/N more captivating.
So hours later, long after the ceremony had concluded and he had fulfilled most of his day’s duties, Neteyam made his way into the healing tent to finish the last chore - the one his father had given him the evening prior. And the second he entered, the healers, engrossed in their tasks, were suddenly intrigued by his presence. The future Olo’eyktan had no visible injuries and seemed unharmed, which meant that there was a specific reason for his visit. And considering the news of engagement between him and Y/N spreading, it wasn’t difficult to make a connection. Mo’at had granted him not more than a mere nod, fully aware of Neteyam’s intention. And Neteyam stiffened slightly, as he walked through the spacious tent, politely greeting everyone, eliciting giggles and knowing smiles in response. 
Then his eyes finally spotted Y/N along with his sister on the far end, both immersed in their work, as they weaved fresh sets of mats. Kiri noticed him right away, greeting her brother with an exasperated roll of her eyes. Neteyam hesitated for a moment at the reactions, and suddenly felt awkward to be interrupting their work with his presence, especially when Y/N paid him absolutely no mind. He took a few more steps, coming to a halt before the two women, and cleared his throat.
The sound finally made Y/N look up and meet his gaze, and her expression immediately changed into a frown. He greeted her, and she returned the gesture politely, though in her mind she couldn’t figure out a reason for his arrival.
"Neteyam," she acknowledged him, her tone guarded, "What brings you here? Are you injured?"
He stiffened again, sensing the suspicion in her inquiries. Of course he wasn’t injured, the question seemed more like a mocking gesture, undermining his carefully crafted plan. Kiri, who had gone over it with their father just the night before, rolled her eyes impatiently.
“I am not injured, thank you for asking,” he finally answered, gaining a little more courage, “I actually came here because I wanted to see you.”
No matter how much she tried to hide it, a subtle flush spread across Y/N’s cheeks in response to the unexpected directness, knowing well that the whole tent was watching. Her gaze shifted momentarily to Kiri, who only seemed to be amused by the exchange.
"Oh," Y/N let out, regaining her composure and looking back at Neteyam, "Perhaps you meant that somebody else told you to come here and see me?”
Now she was definitely mocking him. Kiri huffed in an attempt to suppress a chuckle - her brother would have to really work to break through the underlying tension. It seemed so easy last night, when Jake was telling him how to win a woman’s heart, how communication and honesty is the best foundation for a relationship. However, right now, Neteyam wondered if revealing the actual answer would truly be helpful.
“Perhaps,” he answered, deciding on keeping it vague, "But it's not really important. Spending more time together wouldn’t hurt.”
“Fascinating,” Y/N bit her lip in amusement. 
At this, Kiri couldn't contain her giggles any longer, her eyes gleaming with mischief. A twinge of irritation flitted across Neteyam's expression, but he swiftly regained his composure, refusing to be defeated, especially not in front of his baby sister. Without waiting for a further response, Neteyam sat down crossed-legged in front of them, resting his palms over his thighs.
“Alright," Y/N sighed, her gaze lingering on his frame for a moment before averting, “It’s not like I can refuse anyway.”
The tension settled back in again at the mention of her defeat. And though there was an internal shift within Y/N since her conversation with Tsahik, she wasn’t keen on openly showing it. The wounds from the past, Kaye’s betrayal, still fueled her resentment towards the whole arrangement. But she was also tired, too hurt to keep thinking back on the past. She desperately wanted to move on, escape from her own mistakes. 
“Right, so we’re working on making some new mats for the tent,” Kiri chimed in with a light-hearted tone, finally deciding to help her brother, “There’s clearly a need for that, since we have more warriors to treat now.”
Neteyam nodded, fully understanding. Often, he would find himself sitting on the cold ground when the rest of the mats were taken, especially after heavy encounters with the sky people that left many injured warriors.
“Since it is somewhat more peaceful, we are using this time for learning and restocking,” Kiri continued, while Y/N resumed her weaving, “We've already replenished our supplies of healing herbs, balms, and bandages too. So now we are trying to make the tent more comfortable and equipped.”
Neteyam listened carefully, the information needed to be absorbed if he was to lead the clan one day. But his eyes fixated on Y/N’s nimble fingers, expertly weaving the strands of material. Her movements were swift and determined but graceful at the same time, as if her whole personality, her resilience and tenderness was reflected in the way she worked. Maybe underneath all of that cold exterior, she was concealing a warmth waiting to be unleashed. 
“Can I help?” he offered.
“That’s a great idea, brother,” Kiri encouraged. She couldn’t help but take on the role her father had asked her to, “Y/N can show you how. She’s the best at this stuff.”
Having witnessed the toll that Kaye's mating with another woman had taken on Y/N, Kiri couldn't bear to see her friend lose the spark in her eyes. Deeply empathetic, Kiri understood the pain of losing a mother, of feeling alone at times, and of being denied the love that was within reach. Yet, Kiri was also concerned for Neteyam. She knew her brother's selflessness and willingness to sacrifice, but being arranged to mate with a woman who was already taken seemed cruel. Although Neteyam would never voice his discontent, it was clear that he didn't want things to be strained between him and Y/N. He held onto hope that the situation could change. So quietly, in her mind, Kiri made a promise to Eywa to follow her signs.
Y/N paused for a moment, surprised, then scooted over to make more room for Neteyam by her side. Kiri nodded discreetly, signaling for him to move closer, and Neteyam hurried to settle next to her, almost too quickly, bumping his shoulder into hers. Quietly, Y/N passed him a bundle of fibers and gestured for him to untangle it.
“I think you got it from here, I’ll go check if mom needs help at home,” Kiri announced, rising to her feet.
Kiri did not care that her excuse might have seemed ingenuine to both Y/N and Neteyam, but there was little else they could do about it. With a graceful stride, she made her way towards the exit. And as she departed, Kiri made sure to exchange knowing glances with the other healers, her discreet smirk signaling for them to finish up their tasks too. Whispers passed, and gradually, as Y/N started to walk Neteyam through the steps of weaving a pattern, the tent began to empty, leaving the two of them alone.
“I did not expect this to be harder than weaving bracelets,” Neteyam sighed in defeat, his fingers entangled in the strings once again.
“It is only because you are rushing,” Y/N responded, covering his hands with hers, hoping to slow him down. The touch seemed to startle both of them, but neither showed it.
“But I don’t have the privilege to take my time with this when I can be called into a battle any second,” he explained, stopping his movements, “I don’t want to leave it unfinished.”
“You can finish it another time. Patience is the key.”
Neteyam nodded once more, and Y/N slowly peeled her hands away from his. Taking a deep breath in, Neteyam restarted the pattern, this time allowing himself a bit more time, as he recalled the steps she had shown him. Y/N's gaze wandered around the tent, noting its emptiness, and suddenly it felt like the air had shifted. A delicate deep blue color tinged her cheeks as she stole a glance at Neteyam. He was concentrating hard on getting the pattern right, and Y/N wondered if it was because he excelled at everything and didn't want to fail at something as seemingly simple as weaving, or if he wanted to impress her and build a bridge. Regardless of the intention, she found herself getting amused at the way his tongue poked out of his parted lips and his eyebrows knitted together.
“I did it!” he exclaimed with a relieved laugh, proudly pointing at the completed small circle he had crafted around the base. There was still a long way to go, with many more sets of larger circles to be woven around it, yet the pride was unremarkable in his voice.
“That looks good,” Y/N complimented, a small smile playing on her lips.
He returned the smile, then suddenly realized that perhaps he was being too loud. Neteyam’s eyes scanned the tent for a confirmation of his doubts, only to find that there was no one else there with them. His smile quickly dropped into a small pout. 
"Did I take that long?" he asked, genuinely upset with the pace of his progress. "I mean, if everyone else has already finished their tasks and left."
“That’s not why they left,” Y/N raised her eyebrows slightly, as if waiting for him to take the hint. But Neteyam remained silent, waiting for her to elaborate. She sighed, “I believe it was Kiri that encouraged everyone to leave the two of us alone.”
Yeah, Kiri definitely did not feel the need to include Neteyam in this part of the plan. He knew that he was supposed to come and talk to Y/N, but he didn’t know that his baby sister had made some tweaks to her own liking. He suddenly felt shy, the earlier awkwardness making its way back into the air. 
“She’s the worst, I know,” Y/N said, trying to lighten the mood with a joke, “I am only kidding.”
“No, you’re right. She can be a little cruel sometimes,” Neteyam smiled, appreciating the effort.
“Ah, she’s alright,” Y/N chuckled.
“Yeah, she’s alright,” Neteyam chuckled too, shaking his head.
A brief silence settled, and Y/N found herself studying the mats they were weaving. The weight of their unspoken connection hung in the air, begging to be acknowledged.
“Actually, Kiri’s been great to me, especially recently, you know? With the whole situation,” Y/N confessed, letting her sincerity and gratitude show through.
“I’m glad,” he replied softly, then asked more carefully, “Well, how are you dealing with the whole situation?”
“I don’t know anymore,” she shook her hand, a little distant now, as if she tried to treat it like an old memory, “He betrayed my trust and that shattered me. I loved him but I don’t think I can ever see him that way.”
Neteyam gulped, feeling the anger creeping up his neck again. He could never understand the way Y/N felt but he still couldn’t contain his resentment towards Kaye.
“But I… we don’t really have a choice, and it’s like I can change anything now, right? It’s too late.”
She let out a bitter chuckle but her gaze betrayed defeat that Neteyam didn’t miss. He felt courageous at her vulnerability, and reached out, resting his palm over her thigh. The gesture wasn’t meant to be romantic or sensual, just supportive.
“What do you say tomorrow we go for a walk instead of staying here?” he forced a small smile, his voice more upbeat, “That way the whole tent doesn’t have to abandon their tasks to give us privacy.”
“Tomorrow?” she quirked an eyebrow at him.
“Oh, haven’t I mentioned?” Neteyam played along with a smirk, “I’m making it a priority to see you every day from now on.”
A promise was spoken, and in the quiet of the healing tent, a foundation for friendship had begun to settle. The mats that they were weaving became a symbol of a connection.
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Chosen by Eywa - The Betrayal - Chapter 2
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summary: eywa makes no mistakes... in the midst of his preparation to become the future olo'eyktan, neteyam is told to be with a chosen mate. guided by the signs of eywa, tsahik picks y/n, a woman orphaned by the war, whose heart already belongs to another
contains: arranged marriage, mentions of war and grief, angst, one-sided enemies to lovers
wc: 4.4k
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a/n: so i've always imagined neteyam to be in a full prince mode for this series and yesterday my dearest @cinetrix had turned my dreams into a reality, it's now canon in this au that neteyam has a long hair and looks like this, and this, and this, and yes, this will probably distract you from everything else in your life! also this is still a little slow but i promise you from the next chapter things will finally start to get spicy
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Y/N’s tears had dried up already, she had simply run out of them, now left with only short whimpers and shallow breaths. In Kaye’s tight embrace she didn’t feel protected anymore, on the contrary, she was helpless, small. There was no choice that she could make. She could never even hint at it, let alone ask Kaye to claim her as a mate and upend Tsahik’s plans. The arrangement with Neteyam, to be set in stone, could only be disrupted with Kaye’s help but Y/N wasn’t going to blatantly say that to him. Surely, he must have understood, yet Kaye didn’t say a word...
Kaye had always been generous with his promises to her, but he was never held responsible for keeping them. And now, after finding out the situation, he didn’t even offer a promise. And Y/N could sense that things shifted. He was already distant, though he was holding her close and calming her down, his voice wasn’t like a soothing balm to her wounds anymore and his touch had lacked the usual warmth. She wondered if he felt betrayed by her for not refusing Mo’at’s offer and fighting back. But she didn’t know that there was something else going on in his head, a secret he was going to reveal to her that night. And as Kaye saw what state she was in, he decided to hold his tongue.
“It’s going to be alright, Y/N,” he whispered once more, cradling her head, “You will see.”
“How can it ever be alright if we are not together?” Y/N sniffled.
“I just… I think we must trust in Eywa’s signs,” he replied with a resigned sigh.
What she didn’t know was that there was a burden just as heavy on Kaye’s shoulders. It’s been days since he argued with his parents over an arrangement of his own, and earlier, just before meeting up with Y/N, it was confirmed. Kaye knew it was foolish to bring up Y/N's name and try to make a case for her when his family was already vehemently opposed to her. They saw her as weak, with no family to rely on, with nothing to give in return. But the woman they picked for Kaye was more and everything that Y/N lacked. Kaye would lie if he said he didn’t consider it, even though he didn’t really have a choice.
Yäyä was beautiful, innocent, shielded from the war by the warmth of her family. Her heart knew no grief, no pain, she was so opposite to Y/N. Yäyä couldn't relate to Y/N, to the way her traumas constantly wore her down, and along with her, Kaye too. And Kaye could feel his heart sting with guilt at the comparison he drew in his mind between the two women. It would be so easy to start anew, to not go against his family and fight his whole life when he could just melt into the arms of the other.
Y/N’s body convulsed with whimpers making him wince in pain. Kaye fought the urge of telling her the truth now, letting it all out, but the thought of having to see her reaction made his stomach turn. Maybe it would be better if he held onto the news and waited for the arrangement between Y/N and Neteyam to be announced first before he could move on with his life. Yes, Y/N had been his first love, first kiss, the first person who saw him, but she was also his first heartbreak, his first wound, a bundle of all of his worries and exhaustion. And things as such can pass, it was about time they grew up. Grew apart.
"I'm so sorry, Y/N," he murmured, cupping her tear-streaked face in his hands. "But I have to go now. My father needs to speak with me about… some urgent matters."
"When can we meet again?” she looked up at him with puffy eyes, and his heart twisted at the sight, “I...I don't know what to do. I can't do this alone, Kaye."
“You don't have to do it alone,” he forced a smile, “We can talk tomorrow. I'll see you then."
Y/N nodded; her eyes filled with hope at his words. And Kaye couldn’t hold himself back from leaning in and brushing a soft kiss on her nose. His heart raced at the sight of her blushing, as if he had been kissing her for the first time, and the way she held her breath for a moment before exhaling shakily. He felt like he was bidding his farewell, closing a chapter before it would get too messy with the announcements. His thumb moved swiftly, wiping the dried tears off her cheeks, and then he pressed another kiss to her forehead. 
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“I don’t get it,” Kiri’s nose scrunched up in confusion, “What do you mean grandmother has chosen Y/N?”
“I mean exactly that, Kiri,” Neteyam sighed, a little irritated with his sister’s slowness, “And she won’t budge.”
“But isn’t Y/N with Kaye?” Kiri questioned further, repeating the same questions that were bothering Neteyam too. Unfortunately, he had no answers for her.
“I don’t know,” he shook his head, “She didn’t even mention him… or anyone. I mean, if they were together, wouldn’t she just say it? I thought it was strange too.”
Kiri frowned, her mind racing with thoughts. She had been witnessing the relationships blooming between Y/N and Kaye for years now. Though they had tried to keep it hidden, it was hard to miss the small gifts, lingering touches, longing eyes. And given how often Y/N and Kiri were around each other out of their occupation, Kiri could have sworn that there was at least something going on between Y/N and the warrior. But if they truly were together and Y/N despised the thought of being with Neteyam to the point she was ready to deny Tsahik, why wouldn’t she make a case for herself? The wrinkle between Kiri’s eyebrows suddenly turned deeper, when her mind settled on a particularly convincing possibility. She gripped her brother’s shoulder eagerly.
“You need to talk to her,” she ordered with determination, “Y/N probably feels trapped because she can’t mention Kaye.”
“But why?” Neteyam was utterly confused.
“I’m not sure… but it might be because he doesn’t want her to reveal their relationships,” his sister explained, then took a small pause to gather her thoughts, “I mean, it must be the reason why they have kept it a secret so far. Otherwise, why wouldn’t she use it to protest grandmother’s wishes?”
“So you think Kaye’s the one who doesn’t want anyone to know?” Neteyam frowned, his eyes flashing with a hint of anger, “Are you saying he's been leading her on?”
“I don’t know, brother. You must speak with her,” Kiri shook her head, though the implication of her words were more than clear.
Kiri had never given much thought to the secrecy of Y/N and Kaye’s relationships before, but now, as she let her theory sink, the dots were finally connecting. Kaye never meant to mate with Y/N before Eywa.
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“Great,” Y/N mumbled sarcastically, spotting a figure crouching next to her hammock, “What are you doing here?”
Neteyam quickly rose to his feet, his muscles still a little sore from all the waiting. He quickly took in her features, and his guard fell down for a moment, registering the signs of sorrow. He had forgotten the reason for his arrival.
“Were you crying?” he asked, blatantly ignoring her question.
“Neteyam, I asked what are you doing here?” 
“I wanted to talk to you about what happened.”
“About what happened? You mean your family forcing me into a union with you?” she threw with bitterness.
“Look, I know that you didn’t wish for this,” Neteyam raised his palms in the air to convey that he had no intention of perpetuating his grandmother's harshness, “But I think there is a way for us to work through it.”
“Are you serious?” she narrowed her eyes with a slight disbelief, “So that’s it? You’re just going along with this and following the orders. Do you even care about how I feel? No one does.”
Suddenly all of the hurt and helplessness she had been feeling gathered into a big bubble of anger that she wanted to unleash on Neteyam - the very person who was responsible for trapping her. Y/N crossed her arms over chest defensively, hoping that if she made him miserable and pushed him away, maybe Neteyam would use his power to break the arrangement.
“I’m only doing my duty, Y/N,” Neteyam explained, trying to maintain a calm tone, “And I do care, but sometimes, sacrifices must be made for the greater good of the clan."
“This is ridiculous,” she scoffed bitterly, “You're carrying out your duty for the clan? Am I not part of the clan? Pick somebody else.”
“I can’t pick,” Neteyam gritted through his teeth, now feeling irritated too, “The sign and the orders were clear. All I can do is follow them.”
“It is concerning that as the future chief of this clan you’re incapable of making your own decisions,” she spat, her voice dripping with venom, "You're nothing but a coward."
Neteyam was taken aback. Was she really calling him a coward for respecting the tradition? He huffed, almost in disbelief, taking a pause before his mind could process the words she had hurled at him.
“Oh, you want to talk about being a coward?” he raised his voice slightly, taking a step closer to her. 
Despite her frustration with him, Y/N’s ears lowered involuntarily at his proximity. Her body recognized and complied with his status, before she could even deny the authority that he held over her.
“Alright. Let’s say I am a coward and just following orders. Why didn’t you protest then? If you didn’t want this so much, why didn’t you bring up Kaye?”
Y/N's ears were now flat against her skull, and she downcasted her gaze in shame. With the rhythm of her heart, her tail swished rapidly on the ground, creating a small cloud of dust. Neteyam waited for her response, but met with silence, he continued.
"The union would have never been approved if you told them that you were already mated with another man."
“Kaye and I are not mated,” she muttered, stealing a glance at him through her lashes. She was too embarrassed to face him head on.
“Well, you could have still -” Neteyam stopped himself mid-sentence, pressing his lips into a thin line. He could see the way her form slumped and shoulders hunched further into herself, as if the topic was too sensitive to discuss. He let out a heavy sigh, his frustration with the situation starting to fade.
“I can’t do that,” Y/N replied, her voice still low and subdued, “It wouldn’t make a difference anyway.”
“Why can’t you?” Neteyam pressed, and his own anger was beginning to mount again, “It’s him, isn’t it? He doesn’t want others to know about you two?”
He wasn’t wrong at all but her blood boiled at the insinuation in his words regardless.
“Stop,” Y/N gritted her teeth, “He can’t do it, alright?”
“Can’t, or he won’t?”
“He can’t,” she was desperate to convince Neteyam that it was the truth - that there was a bigger reason, “And I won’t ask him to.”
“Does he at least know about it?” Neteyam sighed. When Y/N didn’t reply, it was already enough of an answer to him, “And he didn’t offer anything?”
“Just drop it, Neteyam. Don’t taunt me.”
“Fine, if you wish to keep being upset about it, then take all the time you need,” Neteyam exclaimed, mimicking his father's disappointed demeanor when dealing with his children, “But don’t expect me to solve this for you. If you despise the idea of being mated with me that much, perhaps Kaye and you should talk to Tsahik. I’m sure that will help. And if you won’t… then at least try a little harder to make life easy for the both of us.”
But as he brushed past her angrily, heading for his home, Neteyam realized that he wasn’t actually frustrated with Y/N or their situation anymore. Rather, it was the confirmation of the doubts he shared with Kiri that had him seething. Kaye was the root of the problem - his refusal to take responsibility for his actions, not owning up to them. The respect Neteyam once held for the warrior seemed to slip away from his body with each passing moment.
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“Oel ngati kameie,” Y/N greeted with a small bow, touching her fingers to her forehead as she glanced between Mo'at and the man beside her - Kaye’s father, “Please forgive me for my early arrival for the lesson, Tsahik. I will wait outside.”
She hastily apologized before stealing another glance at the man and slipping out of the tent. Y/N had sensed Kaye's parents' dislike for her for years, ever since her name was brought up in a certain context, which made being in their presence stressful. And as Kaye's father had never showed up at the healing tent, which was the only place where Y/N could breathe freely and focus on her studies, seeing him there now made her shiver. She kept a respectful distance from the tent, not wanting to overhear their conversation, but her mind raced relentlessly, wondering about the topic of it.
“You’re going to bite your lip off if you keep that up,” Kiri came into her view, gesturing at Y/N’s teeth digging into the plump of her lower lip.
“Oh, hey.”
“Aren’t you going in?” Kiri nodded towards the tent.
“Tsahik is busy. She is talking with Kaye’s father.”
Kiri nodded, understanding that they would have to wait for Tsahik to call them in once she was finished with her conversation. She crouched down next to Y/N and let the silence hang between them for a moment before speaking up.
"I'm sorry that you and Neteyam have to go along with the arrangement," Kiri said, turning her head to look at Y/N's face, "He came back angry after the conversation with you last night, so I assume you must have fought. If he was a skxawng to you, I can beat him up,” she added half-jokingly.
"It's okay, it wasn't his fault," Y/N sighed, looking down at her hands. "He's only doing what he has to do. It's me who can't..." she trailed off.
“So? Aren't you going to fight it?”
“I don’t think I can, Kiri. Not without… you know, not without the support.”
Kiri nodded in understanding. Though it was obvious that the support had to be offered by Kaye, Y/N still hesitated to mention his name. As if she was still trying to protect his privacy, letting him off the hook without attaching her name to his.
“For what it’s worth, my family likes you, and you can count on me to be your biggest ally,” Kiri's hands covered Y/N's, drawing her gaze.
"That's a relief," Y/N’s lip’s curved into a grateful smile, "Knowing that the future Tsahik has my back."
Kiri chuckled weakly but her grip on Y/N’s hands tightened, when both of them saw Kaye’s father exiting the tent. He directed a quick harsh gaze at Y/N before walking away. 
"What could be so urgent that it brought him all the way here at this time?" Kiri rose to her feet and extended a hand to Y/N.
“I don’t know but it seemed important,” Y/N shrugged, accepting the help to stand up.
“I’ll ask grandmother,” Kiri announced, as they made their way towards the tent, ”Maybe it’s something about you.”
“You really think so?"
"It's possible.”
A glimmer of hope sparked in Y/N’s chest at the words. What if Kaye had finally spoken to his parents about her and asked them to approve of their love? Y/N’s thoughts wandered, as Kiri and her settled in on the ground, waiting for the arrival of the rest of the healers in teaching. Mo’at was already occupied with another quick chore, tending to a smoldering herb and paying the two women no mind.
“Grandmother?” Kiri addressed Mo’at hesitantly, only receiving a hum in response, “What did he want from you?”
“Not that it is any one of your concern,” Mo’at threw a quick look at her granddaughter over her shoulder, “But he asked me to bless a union between his son and Kaä’s daughter.”
With Mo'at's words, Y/N felt her heart sink. Surely, she meant Kaye - after all, his brothers were already mated. Was this it then? Was his father going to arrange a union for Kaye just like that? Kiri nervously gulped and glanced at Y/N.
“Grandmother, do you mean a union between Kaye and Yäyä?” Kiri asked, her voice barely above a whisper.
“Isn’t that what I just said?” Mo’at turned to face them with a stoic expression, “They will be here tonight for the blessing.”
As Kiri squeezed her hand, Y/N tried to hold back the gasp that threatened to escape her lips. She blinked rapidly, fighting the tears. The image of Kaye holding Yäyä, kissing her, and being with her was overwhelming. It was all happening too soon, and Y/N hadn't even had time to process her own feelings about Kaye before hearing about his arranged union. Luckily, the silence was shattered as more healers entered the tent, their greetings filling the space and drowning out Y/N's inner turmoil. She struggled to compose herself, her mind racing with thoughts of confronting Kaye and getting some answers as soon as she could.
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The wind whipped against Y/N's face as she flew towards the isolated floating island of the Hallelujah Mountains, where the training camp was set. Her ikran, usually steady and reliable, sensed her unease and reacted to it erratically, reflecting her determination to see Kaye. She paid no mind to the gazes of the warriors around her, as she landed on the edge of the island. Without hesitation, she hastily greeted Jake and asked to speak with one of his warriors. Her abruptness drew attention, making the others suddenly curious about a healer invading the training area.
“Sure, go ahead,” Jake granted her permission, never having seen her so eager and anxious before. The man shot a quick glance at his son, wondering if he knew the reason for Y/N's distress.
Kaye was as startled as everyone else with Y/N’s sudden appearance. He was in the middle of a sparring match with another warrior when he caught sight of her. For a moment, Kaye stood still, when she hurriedly approached him and led him away. The others looked on curiously at them, but Y/N paid no heed to their inquisitive glances. Neteyam hung his head in shame, already feeling his father’s eyes on him. He would have to explain this later - why his future mate was blatantly ignoring him and having a private conversation with another man.
But Y/N couldn’t wait, her heart was pounding to find out the truth. To ask if Kaye had even fought for her. Did he know about the arrangement and didn’t tell her? Let her cry into his arms, while he had a big secret of his own that he kept away.
“I deserve the truth, Kaye,” she demanded, her throat already ablaze with the harshness of her tone. It was a tone she had never used with him, not even during their worst fights, "When exactly were you going to tell me that your father had arranged a union for you and Yäyä?"
“Oh… so you know?” he stammered, his voice barely above the whisper. Kaye could sense the weight of the other warriors’ stares in the distance, but the heaviest of all was the way Y/N was looking at him. She was overflowed with anger and disappointment, and he knew that he deserved it, choosing to withhold the truth from her. “I’m so sorry, Y/N, I was only waiting for the right time.”
“The right time?” she repeated in disbelief, "What about the time when I confided in you about Mo'at's arrangement for me? Remember how I cried in your arms because I couldn't bear the thought of being forced into a life where I couldn't be with you?"
Kaye's ears drooped in shame as he reached for her arm, but Y/N stepped away from him with a sharp shake of her head. It felt as though his touch would sear her skin.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t want to hurt you,” he shook his head, as if disappointed with himself, “But both of us knew that our time together was limited. I mean… you’re being forced into a union too, it’s not like either of us can defy tradition.”
“Maybe if you had fought for me,” tears began to well up in her eyes again, “If you had stood up for me and fought for me, none of this would have happened."
“Y/N -” he tried reaching for her again,  but she turned on her heel and strode towards her ikran, wiping away her tears.
Kaye, and the rest of the warriors, watched in silence as she mounted her ikran in a swift motion, not bothering to even complete a Tsaheylu with the banshee, and took off into the sky.
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Despite being far from the caves, Y/N was sure that she could hear the distant thudding of the drums and the soft humming of Mo'at. As if the intoxicating scent of burning herbs was filling her nostrils, and she was enveloped in a haze of smoke inside of the healing tent. Closing her eyes, too tired to keep them open, she saw Kaye holding hands with Yäyä, whispering words of blessing for their union as Tsahik presided over the private ceremony. Y/N pulled her knees closer to her chest, burying her face in her hands.
The memory of Kaye kissing her forehead and holding her close, comforting her with his soothing words, was now too painful to recall. She felt cold and numb, unable to face the reality of the situation. When she had fled from the mountains and found herself alone in the forest, she had lost all her emotions, along with her self-preservation. If she returned home and saw Kaye with Yäyä, she knew her heart wouldn't be able to handle it, so she decided to stay in the forest.
Her usual very aware self was so lost in thought that she barely paid attention to the rustling of the leaves. Y/N felt a pang of disappointment, once she realized that it wasn’t danger, but just Neteyam stepping from behind the bushes. She almost wished it was a sky person or a palulukan that came to take away her pain, replace her injured heart with something even worse and unbearable.
“Finally. I have been looking for you,” Neteyam announced, his voice cutting through the silence.
She slowly lifted her gaze to meet his, her eyes lacking spark. Her freckles, usually prominent on her skin, seemed to blend in with the darkness of the forest, concealing her like a protective cloak. Neteyam could see that she was disconnected from the present, lost in her own thoughts. He sighed, taking a step closer and crouching down in front of her.
“I didn’t mean to interrupt you but it is dangerous to be here alone by yourself. Everyone is worried.”
“I doubt many worry about me,” she attempted a scoff but the lack of energy faded it into a despondent mutter.
“Nonsense,” Neteyam shook his head.
Y/N studied him for a moment, searching for any ulterior motive behind his visit. Was he there merely out of duty to locate his ‘destined’ mate and ensure her safety after her outburst at the training camp? Could that be sufficient to make Tsahik regret her decision?
“I am sorry for the way I behaved earlier, in front of the others,” she spoke with a hint of hope appearing in her voice, “It might have ruined my chances of being mated to anyone.”
“See? I meant doing something bigger than that if you wanted to end this arrangement,” Neteyam regarded her with a teasing smile, “What you did only scratched the surface. And much to your disappointment, it was not enough.”
“Not like I planned it,” she scoffed, “I just had to talk to him before his ceremony with her…” Y/N trailed off. 
“I get it,” Neteyam nodded in understanding, “You don’t have to apologize though. I can see that you’re hurting, and just so you know, I would never stand in your way if you’d want to see or talk to him sometimes in the future,” he sighed with a slight difficulty, as if the offer he made took much effort, “”s just make sure to keep it a secret. I can't be seen by the clan in such a way.”
She let out a breath, caught off guard by his offer, then frowned, as though it seemed too generous. Y/N had never seen Neteyam in this light before. While he was known for making sacrifices for the good of the clan, she had always thought it was simply part of his duty. Now, Y/N wasn't certain if he was performing for her or if Neteyam was genuinely trying to help. It seemed foolish for him to propose such a risky idea that could easily ruin his carefully-crafted reputation as the future chief. She found herself gaining trust in him.
“Thank you for the kindness,” Y/N finally spoke, her smile weak, "But there's no need for that. It's over between him and me. I won't revisit that history again."
Eywa makes no mistakes. Maybe this was her chance to mend things with Neteyam, and get on the right path. Maybe they could do this, build a strong bond on a mutual understanding, friendship, and share moments of solitude. They couldn’t be lovers, but they could become good partners. Maybe there was much more to Neteyam that Y/N yet had to see. 
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Chosen by Eywa - The Dream Hunt - Chapter 1
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summary: eywa makes no mistakes... in the midst of his preparation to become the future olo'eyktan, neteyam is told to be with a chosen mate. guided by the signs of eywa, tsahik picks y/n, a woman orphaned by the war, whose heart already belongs to another
contains: arranged marriage, mentions of war and grief, angst, one-sided enemies to lovers
wc: 4.6k
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a/n: i just wanted to say a major THANK YOU for 4k and for the support you have shown for this series before i even posted anything 😭 i hope this meets your expectations, and i am very excited for the next chapters
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Eywa makes no mistakes. Y/N had clung to these words her whole life, since the day her parents were taken by the merciless war against the sky people. She found comfort in knowing that her journey was already prewritten, destined for a greater purpose. But she had never expected for Eywa to turn her world upside down, forcing her to question everything she believed in, and lead her to a love that she never imagined possible…
The scent of smoldering herbs filled the air, mingling with the soft groans and hushed whispers of the healers attending to the small party of warriors. Y/N's deft hands worked quickly, spreading the last thick layer of healing poultice over the gash on his arm. He winced at the searing pain, then let out a weak chuckle at his own reaction.
"Mawey," she murmured to the injured warrior, her voice sweet with warmth that she failed to conceal, “We are done.” Their eyes met briefly, and a blush crept up Y/N's cheeks.
She turned away, to hide a small smile that tugged at the corners of her lips, and stepped closer to Kiri to search for another remedy in their shared basket. Neteyam, sitting beneath his sister's tender ministrations, winced slightly. His eyes then spotted Y/N, who was rifling through the herbs and ointments, though her thoughts seemed to drift somewhere else.
“What are you looking for?” Kiri asked, poking her head out from behind her brother.
“Oh,” Y/N turned, flashing the siblings a sheepish smile, “Was just making sure that we had enough eanean.”
Kiri nodded, though she was hardly convinced. Having worked with Y/N side by side for years now, she had grown to read her subtle moods. Over the past few months especially, with the increased work, the two women had become closer, and Kiri had suspected that there was something going on between Y/N and Kaye, the warrior she was just tending to. But she ultimately decided not to intervene. 
“I still don’t understand how you even crossed paths with those skxawngs at the Eastern border,” Kiri returned to the conversation she was having with her brother.
"They were lying in wait," Neteyam answered, his gaze still fixated on Y/N, "I don't know how they figured out we'd be there today, but they attacked us from above."
"That's very bad," Kiri sighed, applying fresh bandages to his back, “What if there were more of them?”
She circled to stand in front of her brother, while her eyes darted around the spacious tent. The healing tent had been expanded due to Mo’at’s request, who had decided that the old one was too cramped. Mo’at also took on more students because of the attacks from the sky people, and the clan now boasted a larger number of healers than ever before.
"We probably wouldn't have made it out alive," Neteyam sighed, disappointed. 
The future Olo’yektan saw no point in hiding the intensity of the day’s event; he had barely escaped his own death earlier. He was assigned to lead the party, and the weight of bringing his warriors to safety was heavy on his shoulders. How could he ensure they would never end up in the same situation again? Getting trapped by the sky people, almost facing death. He couldn’t help but feel insecure in his own ability as the future chief, maybe he wasn’t ready to pass his Dream Hunt yet.
Kiri's shoulders slumped in response, though the answer wasn't difficult to guess. She stole a quick glance at Y/N, who seemed to be frozen in place, listening to the conversation. If anything happened to Kaye, if she lost another person she loved to the war, would she be able to bear it?
The familiar touch of Kaye's hand on her back broke Y/N out of her thoughts. As he passed by, uttering a grateful "thank you," she blushed deeply, but the worry in her eyes was not lost on Neteyam.
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Y/N dipped her feet into the cold water, feeling the soreness starting to slip away from her body. The river was serene, calming her, as she had been on her feet all day, working under the watchful eyes of Mo’at and tending to the injured warriors. Kaye, who sat next to her, nudged her thigh with his. She could feel the warmth of his body against hers, his canines peeking out with a small smirk.
“You know I don’t like it when you are upset with me,” he said, nudging her again playfully, “Y/N.”
Her ears twitched, as she turned to look at him with a hint of annoyance at how unserious he was being. He had accidentally blabbered about his stupid idea to take on two geared up sky people at once and almost lost his arm during the encounter.
“The Great Mother may have looked after you today, but it won’t always be so,” she said firmly, “I lost my parents to a slip-up like this. Eywa does not intervene in these matters.”
“I know,” Kaye cupped her cheek tenderly, recognizing the reminiscing in her eyes, “I will be more careful.”
She leaned into his touch, eyes closing for a moment with a small sigh. Her mind wandered back to the memories of her parents. It was a pain that never fully went away, a constant ache that still kept her up at nights.
“I worry about you, Kaye,” she murmured.
“And I worry about you,” he replied softly, his thumb rubbing circles on her cheekbone, “Which is why I think it is time to tell my family about us.”
Y/N blinked at him, feeling the familiar spark of hope ignite within her, but she quickly pushed it aside. She had heard these words from Kaye before, a promise that he had broken time and time again. His family held importance in the clan, his parents were strict, determined to arrange a mate for Kaye, just like they did for the rest of their children. And she was never worthy of their attention. She had nothing to offer to them. Kaye knew that too well, but he continued to give both of them false hopes of a bright future together.
“You don’t have to, it is no rush,” she mumbled, wondering if her devotion to him would ever be matched, “I don’t want you to fight with your parents.”
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Like in the womb of Pandora, surrounded by the elders and the Tsahik, Neteyam proudly wore the white paint on his body as he silently took a seat in the middle of the circle. His mother lingered behind with a mixture of worry and pride on her face; she had looked forward to the day her firstborn passed the Dream Hunt, but the earlier encounter with the sky people had shaken her slightly. What if Neteyam was too tired and wouldn’t survive his uniltaron? Jake threw an assurring arm around her shoulder, pulling her into his chest, and she gratefully complied, peeking at her son with a smile. Jake was grinning, confident that Neteyam, who had already accomplished so much at his age, would pass his trial with ease. He had prepared for it for months, what’s one more rite?
The chanting began to pick up with the beginning of the ritual, and knowing his role too well, Neteyam opened his mouth willingly when Mo'at approached him with a glowing worm hanging from her fingers. The worm wiggled around as Neteyam closed his lips around it and chewed it down. The smoke from burning herbs filled his nose and eyes, burning all the way to his lungs. 
The chant grew louder and more hypnotic, and the taste of the worm on his tongue numbed his buds like a torch. Neteyam felt his body vibrate involuntarily, and as his father placed an arachnoid on his neck, he felt it stung him twice mercilessly. Neteyam squeezed his eyes shut, blocking out the noise and the pain, as his mind began to slip into a trance. He could feel his lungs give out with a sharp pain and as he desperately gasped for air, it seemed like he was falling, spiraling down with nothing to grab onto. His heartbeat suddenly was louder, faster in his ears, thumping in a rhythm as he plummeted it down. The world went dark, and when he opened his eyes, Neteyam saw himself in the forest, surrounded by mist.
His body went limp for a moment, bright sunlight blinding his vision. He gathered his energy and barely moved to his feet, when with a sudden gust of wind, a banshee flew right above him, so close to the ground that it almost threw him off. Instinctively, Neteyam reached to cover his eyes with his hand, and then he was no longer himself.
His body ached, as it began to stretch out. His hands were growing, transforming into wings, as venom flowed through his blood, he was suddenly floating above the forest. It was like he was on the back of his ikran but the feeling was more intense. Unmistakably, his mind was no longer his own, Neteyam saw and felt through the banshee.
A rush of adrenaline burst through him, and Neteyam, for the first time in his life, was free, as he soared through the sky. He couldn’t express it, but he could feel it somewhere in his heart that this is what he was meant to be. One with Eywa.
As he flew over the trees, he spotted and neared closer to himself. His own Na’vi body stood small and fragile from the new point of view. But there was also somebody else standing next to him. A woman holding his hand. She was laughing, her voice vibrantly filled his ears with a pleasant sound. A long necklace wrapped around her neck and hung all the way down to her stomach, adorned with big beads, glistening under the sun, and blue feathers. Her hair was let down in soft waves, and her face… When Neteyam tried tracing her features, he realized he couldn’t. The image began to slip away from him, and he felt his body betray him once again…
Suddenly, his eyes flew open, the darkness of the cave enveloping him. His trembling body was arched, palms digging into the soil beneath him, sweat rolling down his face in big drops. Neteyam took a moment to regain his breath, heart pounding.
“It is finished,” Mo’at’s voice broke the silence, words echoing through the cave.
Neteyam winced slightly at the loudness and rubbed his eyes to regain his vision. He could feel the eyes of elderly on him, then the relief in his mother’s voice, as she rushed to his side. Her hands reached for his face, massaging his temples.
“Did you see your spirit animal?” Neytiri asked with a smile, her eyes brimming with curiosity.
Neteyam nodded weakly, a small smile of his own stretching across his lips. 
“I saw an ikran… I was the ikran!” he exclaimed, his laughter filling the cave.
Jake and Neytiri joined in his giddy laughter, the rest of the circle smiling in approval. Neytiri pulled her son into a tight embrace.
“We are very proud of you, son,” Jake said, crouching down next to them and patting Neteyam’s head, knowing exactly what he went through.
“Thank you,” Neteyam smiled, then as if he remembered another vision from his Dream Hunt, continued, “But I saw something else too!”
Mo’at approached him hastily, making a room for herself, as she splayed her fingers against Neteyam’s face. She peered into his amber eyes with curiosity, urging him to continue.
“I saw a woman,” he smiled, the memory returning to him, “She was holding my hand… well, the hand of my Na’vi body.”
Neytiri gasped softly, her eyes widening with shock. Mo’at’s expression remained stoic, though she gripped Neteyam’s shoulder. 
“Did you recognize her, child?” she questioned, concealing her surprise.
“No, I couldn’t see her face,” Neteyam shook his head with a slight disappointment, “She was a Na’vi woman. But I couldn’t see her clearly.” He looked to his father, seeking answers, but found only confusion there. 
Neytiri and Mo’at shared a knowing glance before rising to their feet. Neytiri brought her hands to her chest, anxiety etched onto her features. Jake registered it immediately, now alerted too by their reactions. 
“Is something wrong?” he whispered to her.
She looked back at him, confusion marring her expression. She wasn’t really sure what it meant, only knew that Eywa very rarely sent a vision during the uniltaron. Mo’at circled around Neteyam, the air thick with tension. He waited patiently, his eyes trained on his grandmother, though he was already a little worried by how long she waited to speak. She took a step back and motioned for him to stand up. He complied, his body still weak.    
“The Great Mother had blessed you with another vision, a peek into your destiny,” Mo’at’s tone was serious. 
Jake’s ears perked up, unsure if it should excite him or scare him. He looked around the cave, seeking for a similar reaction, but everyone except him and Neteyam seemed to have an idea of what it meant. 
“What does it mean, grandmother?” Neteyam asked carefully.
“It is time, Neteyam,” Mo’at spoke with a glimmer of pride in her eyes, “The Great Mother thinks you are ready to take a mate. Your journey begins now.”
Neytiri wrapped her arms around her son once more with a bittersweet smile. She seemed relieved by the explanation. Neteyam, like the perfect son, had passed every rite on his own. Now it was time for him to face the rest of his challenges with a woman by his side, someone he would love and cherish. He wouldn’t have to be alone anymore. Jake watched with the same confused expression on his face, ever so often glancing at Neytiri to try and understand how he should react.
“If you have already chosen a mate in secret from the clan, you must reveal it now, child,” Mo’at spoke again. 
“No, grandmother, I have not chosen,” Neteyam shook his head firmly, “I am not mated with anyone.”
“Very well,” Mo’at heaved a sigh, then tilted her head slightly, “Do you have anyone in mind for the role?” 
“No,” he shook his head again, this time slightly embarrassed by his own answer. It was the only thing he lacked so far, “I didn’t have time for that.”
The words brought a pang of guilt to his parents. They both lowered their ears immediately, feeling fully responsible for raising their son with such a weighty burden on his shoulders.
“Good. Then the search begins,” Mo’at announced, “You will hear the answer soon.”
Neteyam felt his heart sink. His mouth hung open, as he looked around the cave for support but the elderly only seemed content with the decision and began to disperse. He would hear the answer? Were they going to decide for him? Of course, arranging bonds was quite common and successful in his clan, especially within the line of Olo’eyktans. Their mates were chosen carefully, keeping in mind that the couples had to be strong enough to lead their people through thick and thin. But he was content with his life as of now, exploring the forests and working on his skills. Neteyam didn’t feel ready, despite his vision. He glanced at his father, who was now frowning and clearly holding himself back from speaking, biding his time until they were left alone to discuss the matter further.
“Neteyam, you should go to the celebration, your brother and sisters have been waiting for you this whole time," Neytiri spoke softly.
"But mother -" Neteyam tried to protest.
"No buts, boy," his father interjected, “You did well. Go celebrate."
“Fine,” Neteyam nodded, his voice falling to a whisper.
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It has been a few days since Neteyam passed his Dream Hunt, but he was already impatient for his grandmother’s decision. It could take her months to make it, yet he couldn’t help the anxiousness. Was he too late to choose a mate for himself? What made it worse was the conversations he overheard between his parents. He tiptoed around the corner of his family tent, his mind already racing with conflicting thoughts. He had gathered every argument and piled it into a high tower, ready to unravel it onto his parents, but as their voices grew louder, he couldn't help but eavesdrop.
"I can’t believe you’re going along with this, Neytiri," Jake's voice echoed, his tone growing more exasperated by the second. "He should have a choice in who he wants to spend his life with."
"He didn’t make a choice in time," Neytiri replied, her voice firm, "But the Great Mother has. A mate has already been chosen by Eywa.”
“And what if he doesn’t like this arrangement? You were in his place once,” Jake was upset. He had never expected Neytiri to agree with Mo’at’s decision.
“Ma’Jake,” Neytiri sighed, “Eywa makes no mistakes. Neteyam received a clear sign, it would be foolish to ignore it.”
Neteyam's heart skipped a beat at her words. His mother seemed determined that it was the right step to take, and deep down, he thought he agreed with her. He had to trust in the wisdom of Eywa. Yet, Neteyam was scared because of his own helplessness. 
“I don’t know…” Jake trailed off. 
It wasn't fair play, arguing with Tsahik’s decision, with Eywa’s signs. Jake may have lived on Pandora for over 20 years, having been reborn as a Na’vi, but he still felt like an outsider when it came to the traditions of the clan. He wasn’t going to enforce his opinions with his position as Toruk Makto and go against everyone. But he also didn’t want to see his son suffer.
Neteyam sighed before stepping into the tent and revealing himself. Both of his parents stiffened, having suspected that he overheard their conversation. He felt caught between two and he had no other choice but to put a stop to it.
“‘Itan,” Neytiri’s expression softened, sensing the uncertainty in his eyes. She walked up to him and placed a hand on his shoulder, “I know that you might feel confused but I believe that accepting Eywa’s sign will lead you to being a strong leader someday. Sometimes we have to make sacrifices, but ultimately the Great Mother looks after us. Our fate is already written.”
“Whatever your grandmother decides, you don’t have to go along with it, if you don’t want to, Neteyam,” Jake added with a strained voice, “Trust your heart.”
Neytiri nodded with a small sigh. She too was conflicted, torn between her trust and her love for her son. The vision during the Dream Hunt was a rare blessing, and Neytiri didn't want Neteyam to miss out on it.
“You have been destined for greatness, ‘itan,” her expression softened, “We will be with you every step of your journey.”
“Thank you,” Neteyam looked between his parents, “But I decided to accept the sign. And I want to make you proud,” he added, his voice barely above a whisper.
Jake and Neytiri exchanged a glance. Neteyam could feel the weight of his clan's expectations heavy on his shoulders, like he couldn’t refuse, no matter how much his parents expressed they would support him. Now, as he looked at their worried faces, he knew he had to put his own desires aside for the sake of his people. 
“Grandmother sent me over to get you. She has her answer,” Kiri’s voice trembled slightly as she delivered the news, interrupting their moment.
Her ears were flat against her skull, face etched with worry for the burden placed upon her brother. She could only hope that he would be happy and at peace with whatever will be decided.
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One man's joy is another man's sorrow. 
Becoming the future Olo’eyktan’s mate, getting accepted into his family, being his family, filling the hole left by the death of her parents. To be granted the ultimate praise and be chosen by Tsahik, be approved, be enough. After losing everything, it all seemed too good to be true to Y/N.
Her heart sunk deep in her chest, voice hitching in her throat before words of protest could even escape. How could she agree to being with Neteyam? Sure, he was handsome, skillful, he was respected and would be sweet to her. But he wasn’t Kaye, wasn’t the one she wanted. Not the one who promised to be hers. No. It was going to be Neteyam, the future Olo’eyktan. The guy who had grown up with the eyes of the whole clan on him. Who was performing all the time, concealed his true feelings. Someone whom she didn’t know well, whom she never saw that way. 
“Y/N, do you accept?” Mo’at asked, her voice louder this time.
Y/N’s thoughts raced faster at the gravity of the question. Mating with Neteyam would fulfill her duty to her people, a duty to carry on the traditions, an opportunity to belong, to be part of something bigger, greater. To finally feel useful, be able to give back to her clan. She glanced at Tsahik and could see the disapproval etched on the older woman’s features. 
Any girl would kill to be in her position. It felt like a slap to even consider rejecting Neteyam, Mo’at was convinced that her grandson was going to be everything and more. She had seen him in her visions since even before he was born. He had a strong heart, was destined to be a leader, guide his clan to a better future, make a happy one for himself too. 
The atmosphere was thick with anticipation, each breath Y/N took felt like a burden on her chest. Jake and Neytiri, who stood nearby, waited patiently, hoping for the answer they wanted to hear but also expecting the one they feared. It was hard to tell apart which was which. Y/N stole another glance at Neteyam, whom she had greeted only a few minutes ago, just before his grandmother revealed her vision of Y/N being mated with him. He looked guilty, chewing on his bottom lip, muscles tense, as he desperately seeked for a reaction from her, anything. He felt the guilt eating away at him, he wasn’t blind, Neteyam had seen they way she was around Kaye. He just couldn’t understand why they had never announced it to the clan. Maybe things wouldn’t be so difficult now… 
“I-I,” she stuttered, “I don’t know what to say, it is a great honor but…”
“But you deny?” Mo’at raised her eyebrows in disbelief, completely baffled with her answer.
“No - yes,” Y/N stammered, shaking her head, “I am only saying that there are many women in the clan who are worthy of becoming the mate of the future Olo’eyktan. Women better than me, who would know how to lead a clan.”
Mo’at pursed her lips together, clearly dissatisfied. Y/N wanted to scream, to run away, to hide from the responsibility that was thrust upon her so unexpectedly. Neteyam's eyes bore into hers, pleading silently for a chance. But she didn't know him, not really. How could she possibly agree to mate with someone her heart didn’t long for? Neytiri shifted uncomfortably, nudging Jake to do something, anything to ease the situation. He sighed, stepping forward to Y/N.
“I know it can be hard to let people take care of you, kid, but sometimes it is okay to let yourself just be,” he placed a hand over her shoulder, his features etched with sincerity, “Your parents were great people. I thought very highly of them, I truly mean it.”
“I know, Olo’eyktan, they respected you too,” Y/N nodded weakly. 
Ever since their passing, Y/N could feel Jake’s protective gaze on her. He had been looking out for her for years now, making sure that people in the clan treated her well. It was him who had asked Mo’at to take Y/N as a student because he saw the potential in her to help others. But now, it was time for him to be taking all that back, and the realization made her heart clench painfully.
“I’ve never told you this but before your mother passed away, I was there with her,” he paused for a moment, “She asked me to take care of you, to make sure you had a place in the clan. And I know of no better way to fulfill that wish than this.”
As he spoke, Y/N's felt like shrinking under the weight of his arm still resting on her shoulder. She couldn’t tell him that her heart belonged to someone else, someone she could never have because she had nothing to offer. Nothing to give, nothing to make his family think she was worthy of him.
“The sign of Eywa was clear,” Neytiri chimed in, drawing attention back to her, “Neteyam had a vision during his Dream Hunt. He saw his mate.”
“But that’s… that never happens during Dream Hunts!” Y/N seemed baffled too.
She looked at Neteyam, hoping for a further explanation, but he seemed to be lost in his own thoughts. Shame and pressure showed on his face, as if the argument made by his mother put him into an even deeper pit of despair. 
“It happens rarely,” Neytiri continued, then smiled softly, as if catching up on with her own thoughts, “Very rarely, Eywa sends these signs to exceptional Na’vi. It must be her way of saying that it is time to let somebody else help him on the rest of his journey.”
Useful. It was the precise word Y/N used, whenever she asked for Tsahik’s help during the lessons. When her eyes would go red from the amount of tears she shed when she felt unwanted. When she hid herself from the man she loved because his parents would never accept her. Y/N had always been a hard worker, eager to prove herself in the clan, but no matter how much she did, it never felt enough.
Neteyam watched her with fear and desperation. Now the more he thought about it, the more he wanted to make things work. The pressure of being the perfect son, the future leader, was a weight that he needed to share with someone strong.
Then they saw it. A single atokirina’, a sacred seed that had last appeared to Y/N on the day her parents were killed, floated around her, casting a soft glow over her features. For a moment, nobody spoke, watching the seed with adoring smiles. Y/N's expression softened too, feeling as if the Great Mother herself had blessed her. Eywa had spoken.
“It seems like Eywa tries hard to convince you, my child,” Mo’at's words were soothing, her voice softening as she spoke with adoration for her world.
"To be chosen by Eywa is a wondrous thing,” Neytiri added with a grin.
Y/N’s gaze met Neteyam's, his eyes searching for any sign of what she was thinking. Did he feel the same pressure as her? Did he want this, or was he as trapped as she was?
“Is this really how it works?” Y/N asked, her voice barely more than a whisper.
“Eywa speaks to us in many ways, my child,” Mo’at nodded.
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Chosen by Eywa | Masterlist
neteyam x omatikaya!reader - complete
summary: eywa makes no mistakes... in the midst of his preparation to become the future olo'eyktan, neteyam is told to be with a chosen mate. guided by the signs of eywa, tsahik picks y/n, a woman orphaned by the war, whose heart already belongs to another. y/n's whole world begins to crumble, as she is forced into the loveless bond. will neteyam and y/n be able to overcome the odds and find their true happiness?
contains: arranged marriage, mentions of war and grief, angst, one-sided enemies to lovers
wc: 30.4k
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a/n: i usually don't write for this trope but the idea had been inciting since rewatching the first avatar movie. this is going to be very angsty but very rewarding too and thank you to the anon who sent in the request ♡ so excited to start this journey with you!
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Chapter 1: The Dream Hunt
Chapter 2: The Betrayal
Chapter 3: Lessons to Learn
Chapter 4: Crossing the Bridge
Chapter 5: New Beginnings
Chapter 6: A Team of Two - finale
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Chosen by Eywa - A Team of Two - Chapter 6 - Finale
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contains: arranged marriage, mentions of war and grief, angst, one-sided enemies to lovers, slow burn
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a/n: ngl it was funny to disappear for three months and randomly drop the finale like this. to be quite honest, whoever has been closely following my blog, knows that i took a break due to some personal matters as well as bc of guilt of making avatar-related content. in anyway, this series has been a journey, i really put so much into this, thinking about this story has been a consistent thing for the past months. i really don't expect this to get the same hype it did when i published the first part bc it's been soo long and people might have forgotten about it completely but i would still appreciate it if you read it and leave a comment. enjoy!
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They were nice about it, welcoming as if she was already a part of the family, but Y/N still couldn’t push away the nagging feeling of intruding into their space. She was used to being on her own, sleeping, eating, living by herself. There was no shared meal before going to sleep, no conversation to lull her into her dreams, yet at Sully's home the well-forgotten routine that Y/N’s been doing with her parents before their death, was practiced like a prayer. 
Neteyam’s warm gaze encouraged her to accept yet another sweet gesture from his little sister. Eager to bond, Tuk offered Y/N her hammock, next to Kiri’s. The other siblings only snickered at the unfortunate unfolding of events, and Neteyam too, tried suppressing an amusing smile that was so ready to give away the humor he found in the whole situation. 
She was so nervous about it too, and suddenly, Neteyam felt his chest swell with something unbearably big and overwhelming. I love you, he thought, watching the way she complied with his family’s wish to take care of her, the way she mumbled a “good night” to everyone before laying down in an unfamiliar hammock. 
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Y/N’s eyes fluttered softly, the light spilled into the room with a brightness she wasn’t adjusted to yet. The hammock underneath her was different, uncomfortable, and she grumbled, shifting her position, only to be met with restriction. The further she pushed against it, the more she realized that the resistance wasn’t from the hammock itself. With a puzzled frown, she turned around and when her eyes settled onto a chest, that’s what snapped her fully awake. The sight of Neteyam, snoring peacefully next to her, brought back the memory of the last night with a flush of embarrassment. 
How did she end up in his hammock? In the stillness of the night, her thoughts restless, Y/N watched how everyone seemed to have fallen asleep a long time ago. She tried peeking out of her hammock to catch a glimpse of Neteyam but it was too far and too dark to see him. Quietly, without giving it a second thought, she slipped out of her hammock and carefully stepped around others to approach Neteyam’s. His face was bathed in the moonlight with a soft glow, and as if she was in the dream and had all the time in the world, she stared at him for a moment, to make sure he was still there, safe and sound. Maybe because she loved him too.
It caught her off guard when he opened his eyes with a knowing smile, already having felt her eyes on him. She didn’t move for a moment, but the unspoken connection seemed to grow deeper in the darkness. Without a word, he opened up his arms, and Y/N didn’t take long to consider his silent offer. She dived into his hammock and snuggled close to him, and the way he held her, made her feel the safest she had ever felt. Ever since her parents died, since Kaye was no longer there, Neteyam grounded her like the gravity. As if he understood her too, like the vision from his Dream Hunt, everything just clicked, and nothing felt more natural than having her in his arms. 
They fell asleep so quickly that, in the morning, as Y/N recalled the events of the night, she almost assumed it was only a drem. Her heart dropped as she traced the patterns of his chest all the way up to his face, finding his peaceful expression, mouth slightly open as he snored with such sweet noises coming out of it. She smiled to herself at the sight and then heard a faint rustling joined by soft giggles. Y/N’s head quickly snapped into the direction and the revelation nearly made her die at the spot from the embarrassment. 
In an attempt to be quiet, Tuk and Lo’ak were giggling like a pair of toddlers who had seen a banshee for the first time. Their gazes were surely pointed at their older brother sound asleep and Y/N, cuddled up into him. Y/N’s mortified eyes then quickly found Kiri, who just looked irritated and tried ignoring her siblings, then they traced the frames of Neteyam’s parents. Jake and Neytiri were trying to be mature about it, to put on the blissfully unaware act, even though both of them were the first to find Y/N in Neteyam’s hammock. They circulated around the small table, setting up for the breakfast, and Y/N hid her face in Neteyam’s chest, whispering softly but urgently.
“Neteyam, wake up, please.”
His nose scrunched once but then it felt like his mind just gave up and decided to ignore Y/N’s voice completely. She tried again, this time swatting at his chest just enough to make him shift. The sunlight did the rest of the work, as Neteyam lazily opened his eyes, stretching as much as he could within the proximity of the small space in his hammock. He blinked sleepily, his gaze landing on Y/N and it took him a few seconds to register the situation, but as he did, a small smile tugged at the corners of his lips. Y/N was the woman from his Dream Hunt and last night, as he struggled to fall asleep, he found out that she felt so too, the way she laid into his arms and lulled him to sleep just with her scent. Neteyam’s chest warmed with love, and he couldn’t wait to let her know about his secret.
With a yawn, Neteyam stirred from his seat, and as his eyes grazed around the room, taking in the scene, Y/N was already jumping out of his hammock. 
“Good morning,” he greeted them loudly, giving a particularly stern look to his siblings.
"Good morning," Y/N echoed him, her voice barely above a whisper.
Lo’ak and Tuk giggled once more under their brother's gaze, while Kiri only hid a knowing smirk. Neytiri and Jake continued to set up the morning table with content smiles on their own faces. Y/N stood awkwardly next to the hammock, and it made Neteyam’s chest swell with even more amusement. He had never been happier than now, to wake up to the woman of his dreams next to him, with his family being genuinely proud of him. Y/N peeked from behind her hair, as Neteyam stepped out of his hammock with comfortable stature, and she slowly followed after him, as he sat down on the ground around the table.
“Come, Y/N, you’ll eat with us,” Neytiri gave Y/N a soft smile, gesturing to the spot next to her oldest son.
With a nod, Y/N took her place silently, the embarrassment of being caught in Neteyam’s hammock was clearly showing through how deep blue her cheeks were turning. Jake and Neteyam exchanged a knowing look and like a proud father he only chuckled to himself at the situation. And it wasn’t like anything had happened, everyone could have guessed that they only shared a hammock, but to Y/N it seemed like her whole reputation had crumbled.
Kiri, clearly enjoying her friend’s sudden flustered state, couldn't contain her amusement any longer, busted into laughter.
"You two are so whipped."
"Y/N, did you cuddle with Neteyam because you like him?" Tuk added on, her voice filled with innocent curiosity.
Y/N's cheeks turned even deeper at the question, and she fumbled for words, feeling the weight of everyone's gaze on her. She glanced at Neteyam, who was trying his best to hide his own embarrassment behind a composed expression. 
“Neteyam is a wonderful person, I mean… everyone probably likes him,” Y/N stammered.
"I mean it's clear she does more than like him," Kiri teased.
People don’t just fall in love overnight. It happens gradually, with shared moments, time spent together, with tears of both sadness and joy. It is just the realization of it all hits them suddenly. Y/N had a whole day to realize that she felt love for Neteyam, but she wasn’t going to say it for the first time so publicly. She wanted it to happen naturally, after she had processed everything herself, alone.
"Come on now, I'd be worried if they didn't touch each other at all," Jake whispered with a snicker, coaxing a small chuckle from Neytiri. He cleared his throat, "Alright, alright, enough for now.”
Neteyam attempted to hide his own smile at the words, and he hung his head, focusing on his food, but his tail quickly and secretly found its way under the table, wrapping around Y/N’s ankle. She shivered at the touch but welcomed it, nonetheless, relaxing just a second later. 
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“You’re staring again,” she tried to scold him for it, but frankly, there was not a feeling more pleasant than to feel his warm gaze on her.
Neteyam chuckled to himself, the excitement from waking up besides Y/N - woman from his vision overflowing him. Like the pieces of the puzzle were finally fitting together, everything just clicked, his world fell back into its place. He leaned in, his finger hooking under the long necklace adorning her neck and for the third time since she wore it, Y/N couldn’t understand his astonishment with Tuk’s gift. Sat in front of him on the forest ground, as they took a break from the morning chaos with his family, Y/N let out a sigh. There was a mixture of happiness and guilt swirling inside of her, babbling up in her chest to the point that she wasn’t sure how else to behave. It was as if she suddenly had forgotten about who she was.
“You’re still wearing the necklace,” Neteyam pointed out, gathering one of the blue feathers and running it through his fingers with fascination, “Isn’t it too long? Uncomfortable?”
“Do you not think it’s nice? Your sister made it for me,” Y/N teased.
They were close to each other, an undeniable pressure building and hardening in between the two bodies. Like a magnetic pull that lured him in closer, and Neteyam now took another one of the feathers into his gentle grasp, studying it for a moment before breaking into a grin.
“I didn’t even know she was going to give it to you,” he recalled with a low chuckle, almost as if he was saying it to himself. His eyes shifted back to hers, finding Y/N already looking at him, “It doesn’t mean you’re obligated to wear it though… if it’s bothering you.”
“Hey, hands off,” Y/N swatted at his hand playfully, pulling the necklace away from him, “I like it very much, so I don’t really care about the practicality. I think it looks great on me!”
“It does,” Neteyam chuckled, leaning back onto his elbows and Y/N felt a little disappointed at the loss of proximity, “I think you could make anything look beautiful.”
“Oh,” she let out. He was bold. Since the morning, he was more forward than usual, and she couldn’t guess if it was the aftermath of her willingly stepping into his hammock and sleeping with him or was it the fact that their ceremony was fast approaching and now there was only a matter of a few casualties left. But she liked the boldness.
Though Y/N could assume that Neteyam wasn't in the wrong. If he was making a move on her, he was truly just doing his duty, he was warming up to his mate. It wouldn’t be very pleasant to have their first kiss in front of the whole clan, would it? Y/N shivered at the thought of kissing him first, now, alone. There were certainly moments she thought he would, and it almost seemed like if she didn’t push him away, they’d be much closer now than she ever anticipated.
“I’ll tell you tomorrow,” Neteyam promised suddenly, a soft smile stretching his lips.
“Tell me what?”
“Tell you about the necklace… why I’m so intrigued by you wearing it.”
“Is there a valid reason?” Y/N quirked her eyebrow in surprise.
“There is, I just don’t want to scare you away.”
“Scare me away? Neteyam, I think we’re way past that point. It’s not like we can back out now,” she joked weakly.
Neteyam didn’t find humor in her words. Was she still bothered about it? Was she still spiteful of the idea of mateship with him? Surely, if she hated it so much, why would she stay? He was beginning to think that she was finally reciprocating, last night was the testament to that, so why was she back to making these comments? He frowned, suddenly growing silent, and that’s when Y/N knew that she messed up. She jumped to retrieve her words with eagerness, hand clutching at the long necklace.
“I was joking.” 
“I know,” Neteyam hummed softly but his head shook slightly, giving away his disagreement.
Y/N could feel her heart sink at the way his face fell. She leaned in closer, her palms finding support on either side of his body, nails digging into the soil. Their faces were now mere inches apart, and Neteyam's breath caught in his throat, his eyes searching her face.
“I don’t want to back out of this,” she whispered sincerely, her own eyes boring into his.
Neteyam could only gulp, waiting anxiously for her to take the next step. His heart picked up a rhythm, when she finally closed the gap between them, and though hesitantly, but with such tenderness, pressed her lips against his. He welcomed her like the forest would welcome the first warm rays of the sunshine, responding to her kiss. Savoring her taste wasn’t enough, he needed to engrave the way she felt into his memory permanently. 
Love couldn’t be that easy, could it? Falling into the person you were so begrudged against, letting him catch you when there is no one else to witness your fall. Letting him become your rock, your whole world, your person who makes everything else become a senseless noise, a blurry background. When your words are guided by the wish to please him, to humor him, to bring a smile to his face. Falling into him was sudden but easy, careless. It felt right. Like it was destined by the greater power, by the will of Eywa herself. 
Eywa makes no mistakes. Y/N had clung to these words her whole life, in bad and in good, she found comfort in knowing that her journey was already written out, that she was destined for a greater purpose, greater love than she was used to receiving. That no matter the circumstances she had brought upon herself, the Great Mother had been looking out for her, that Eywa brought Y/N the kind of love that she never imagined possible.
The silence as they pulled away was bittersweet. Neteyam could feel his heart almost stop at the proximity, as she was still looming over him, catching on her breath. Overwhelmed, he brought a hand to her cheek to make sure he hadn’t imagined it. Her smile grew, eyes darting between his to guess if he was thinking the same. Y/N had no idea that up until this morning, Neteyam was already utterly smitten with her. That every thought in his mind was occupied with her. 
“What was that for?” he questioned 
“For being patient with me. For seeing me…”
“I do, I see you,” he nodded, eager to spill the confession that has been on the tip of his tongue for some time now.
“I see you too,” she whispered, “I thought I knew what love is. Thought that I got what I deserved and nothing more but now I know how blind I was.”
Neteyam's heart swelled with both joy and sadness. He reached out and gently brushed a strand of hair behind her ear. She leaned into him, closing her eyes briefly to savor the moment. 
“You weren’t blind, you were just scared,” he reassured, “But you don’t have to be anymore. I’m here now.”
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Y/N looked up from her unfinished work to Neytiri for the third time in the past minute, it was hard to concentrate on something she was struggling with, when right next to her, somebody else was doing it perfectly. Neytiri’s fingers worked quickly and gracefully, beads were woven into a shawl with recognizable patterns usually worn by the Olo’eyktan’s family. Y/N sighed in frustration at her own piece of work - a long beaded skirt that was supposed to match the shawl for the ceremony.
“You’re doing great, just be patient with yourself,” Neytiri spoke softly, barely lifting her gaze towards Y/N, but a small smile stretched her lips, nonetheless.
“I don’t have time to be patient,” Y/N sighed again, “The ceremony is tomorrow and…”
“Take your time, the ceremony won’t happen until you finish your skirt the way you like it,” Neytiri teased, putting aside the shawl, as if she was sensing that there was something else bothering Y/N.
To be quite frank, though Neytiri knew from the beginning that Eywa’s signs were truthful, the reactions she first got from her son and Y/N scared her. She could see the way they started looking at each other, the morning Y/N spent in their hut was an undeniable testament to her growing connection with Neteyam, but Neytiri still wasn't completely convinced that they were going into it surely. She watched how Y/N struggled with her weaving for a moment before reaching out to pat her shoulder lovingly, signaling for her to take a break.
“There is something else on your mind that is keeping you distracted. Tell me.”
Y/N gulped nervously, giving up on the skirt. She contemplated for a minute if she should spill the intense guilt she has been feeling since kissing Neteyam onto his mother and possibly ruining the way she was perceived by his family for the rest of her life. 
“I know that after losing someone as close as your mom it is hard to open up to another woman,” Neytiri spoke softly, "But I already consider you my child. You can tell me what’s wrong.”
“It’s…” Y/N looked up with a softened expression, “You know why I was so opposed to the arrangement in the beginning?”
“You were scared, no?” Neytiri squinted.
“Yes but there was a bigger reason,” Y/N breathed out slowly, taking her time, “I was in love with someone else… or I thought I was. But we weren’t mated and I don’t think he was ever going to mate with me, so I couldn’t tell anyone that. I could only be angry because I was helpless.”
“Do you still see that someone else?” she asked carefully, like a mother asking her child something she is afraid to know the answer to.
“No. It was Kaye.”
“Kaye?”
Neytiri nodded in understanding, small pieces of information she heard about Kaye’s death were falling into pieces. The way Y/N behaved when he was first shot, how long she refused to attend to her tasks and how Neteyam skipped training to be with her. The days Y/N stayed inside and turned into an empty shell of herself. Y/N wasn’t just angry and rebellious, she was hurt because she was alone. Neytiri reached out once more to pat her on the shoulder with motherly care.
“I’m sorry, my child.”
“I felt so guilty,” Y/N hung her head, staring at her own hands, as she revealed the deepest secret she withheld, “Because no matter how much Kaye hurt me, I didn’t want to fall for somebody else. And Neteyam… he is perfect. I can’t help it, the way I feel about him. But it also feels like betraying Kaye… betraying what we had.”
“Y/N, look at me,” Neytiri spoke gently, “Eywa does not make mistakes, she brings us what we need, even when we don’t expect it. Just because you’re following your destiny, it doesn’t mean you are forgetting Kaye and what you had with him. Your heart is capable of holding both love and memories.”
Y/N nodded weakly, her eyes tearing up at the words she had been so desperate to hear. She wiped her eyes, lips trembling in the search for ways to express her gratitude. Neytiri watched her for a moment with a newly gained perspective. She had always observed Y/N to be a smart empathetic girl but she had never gotten to experience her side of things.
“I understand more than you think I do,” she attempted a playful tone, “Before mating with Toruk Makto, I was meant to be with another warrior… his name was Tsu’tey. It was my duty to the clan, a tradition. But Eywa sent me Jake, a sky person. He was an outsider, it was against all odds, challenged the path I thought was set for me. But love finds a way."
Y/N felt her heartbeat pick up. Surely, she had known the way Neytiri and Jake found their way to each other, how he became the Toruk Makto to prove himself to her. But hearing it like this, from Neytiri herself, made Y/N see her as someone real, who wasn’t perfect, who was once a girl too, torn between her duties and her heart. 
“Eywa has a way of guiding us, you just have to trust her,” Neytiri smiled, her gaze returning to the girl in front of her, “Whatever you feel, know that I am here for you, just as your mother would be there for you. You are a part of our family now.”
“Thank you, Neytiri, for… everything,” Y/N reached out to gently grasp Neytiri’s hand.
She felt accepted and understood. For the first time in so long she remembered the connection she had with her mother. How, no matter the circumstances, she had a safety net to fall into. Neytiri smiled, squeezing her hand, and reached for the unfinished skirt.
“Now, for this part, you’d want to change up your technique…”
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Lo’ak had never witnessed such unease in Neteyam, it was so out of character for his typically unshakable older brother. This unexpected anxiety radiating from Neteyam has somehow transferred to him too, Lo'ak's palms were sweating, as he observed silently. With trembling hands, Neteyam held up a bowl of vibrant yellow paint to Jake, who dipped his fingers into it and continued drawing a pattern on his eldest son’s forehead,
“You alright, son?” Jake took a small sigh, throwing a quick knowing glance at Lo’ak. Neteyam took a moment to reply.
“I don’t think so,” he mumbled, zoned out, eyes focusing on the horizon with a deep wrinkle forming between his eyebrows, “Everyone is going to be there watching, no?”
“Well, yeah, that’s kind of the point,” Jake chuckled weakly, “To seal your bond before the clan and Eywa.”
“Are you scared?” Lo’ak chimed in anxiously, he wasn’t sure if Neteyam’s answer was going to calm him down either way.
Neteyam couldn’t bring himself to respond with words, so he only gave his brother a short nod. Jake frowned and took a step back to glance at him.
“What are you scared of? Everyone loves you and Y/N together, your union has already been blessed by Eywa. You love her, no?”
“Yes! I mean… it couldn’t be anything less,” Neteyam looked up at his father, then sighed again, “But it’s scary. How did you do it? I mean, you gave vows before the entire clan like a hundred times, with everyone watching you, holding you responsible.”
Jake chuckled warmly, guessing that the reason for Neteyam’s nervousness wasn’t necessarily the choice of being with Y/N, undeniably, he was smitten with her, but rather announcing it to everyone. Because once he makes his union everyone’s business, there is no going back. But as the future Olo’eyktan, whatever Neteyam was affected by in his role as the chief was also going to affect the others. Jake thought he knew exactly what to say now.
“It is scary, I’m not gonna lie. It gets easier with time but I remember being terrified to make big promises with everyone’s eyes on me,” a hint of nostalgia flashed in his eyes, then a lazy smile made its way onto the man’s face, “But I have a secret. Helps me every time.”
“What is it?” both brothers asked simultaneously, watching their father.
“Your mother,” Jake answered in a heartbeat, “When you know there is the right person standing beside you, who supports you wholeheartedly and will always keep by your side, it doesn’t matter anymore. Because you’re making a promise to her, and you know that when it comes to her, you will keep that promise with your life.”
Neteyam nodded with a sense of understanding, as if the answer his father gave him, suddenly connected bridges. He rapidly stood up from his seat, shoving the bowl of paint into Lo’ak’s hands, and sprinting away. It wasn't hard to guess where he was headed.
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Y/N twirled awkwardly, the long-beaded skirt trailing behind her in a swift dance, glistening under the soft sunlight filling out the tent. Neytiri tilted her head slightly at the movement with an approving hum and beside her Tsahik nodded in agreement. Y/N felt herself melting under their gazes.
"Oh Eywa," Kiri’s voice brought her back into a state of insecurity.
Y/N twirled once more, this time weaker, discouraged by the tone. She ran her hands over the beaded top, before staring back at her friend in anticipation.
"What's wrong with this?"
"Nothing," Kiri shook her head, "You just look so beautiful.”
“You look perfect, my child,” like her mother’s voice, Neytiri spoke to Y/N with such surety and tenderness, that all of the worries were now melting away.
"Can I steal her for a moment?"
Everyone's head snapped at the future Olo'eyktan walking in, his eyes glistening at the sight of Y/N in the beautiful garments she had woven for the ceremony. It was too soon for him to be there, to ruin this moment of her bonding with the women in his life, but Neteyam didn't care. Couldn't care if he had to, he was eager to get her alone, to wash away his anxiousness once more before they were mated before the whole clan.
His grandmother tsksed loudly, Neytiri throwing a disapproving glance, and before anyone could really protest how improper it was of Neteyam out of all people to disrupt the tradition, Y/N was already apologizing and running out of the tent.
"Come," his hand found hers like an instinct and pulled her gently towards his ikran, "The Mother Tree is beautiful at this time."
"But there are preparations for the ceremony," she scrunched up her nose at the thought of so many people seeing them.
"Don't worry, we'll just sneak a look and be out of there," Neteyam reassured.
As Y/N followed Neteyam's lead, her heart raced with a mixture of excitement and nervousness. She couldn't believe she was going against tradition, breaking away from the preparations for the ceremony. But at the same time, she couldn't deny the thrill of being alone with Neteyam, away from prying eyes and expectations.
They reached the outskirts of the camp, where the dense forest greeted them with its familiar embrace. Neteyam led her to a secluded spot near the Mother Tree. The sunlight filtered through the leaves, casting a warm glow over the two of them.
"Close your eyes," he whispered, a mischievous smile playing on his lips. 
She rolled her eyes but complied anyway with a grin. She felt his touch as he sneaked something into her palm and closed it gently, something smooth and rounded and familiar but she couldn’t guess what it was.
Without waiting for his instructions, once his hand left hers, she opened her palm to find two wooden rings. Y/N looked back at Neteyam in a slight confusion, finding him already smiling at her, his freckles glowing with particular brightness.
“I made these out of the root of the Mother Tree,” he explained softly, “One for you, one for me.”
“They’re beautiful,” she whispered, examining the rings up closer, noticing the small patterns needled into them. 
“I know it seems a little simple but let me explain first,” Neteyam stole one of the rings back, twirling it in between his fingers, “Where my father comes from, there was no ceremony before Eywa but there was something similar… a tradition,” he paused to gulp down, suddenly a rush of nervousness overwhelming him, “The couples would exchange rings to symbolize their love for each other. And they would wear it for the rest of their lives to show how their hearts still belong to each other, that they will always be connected.”
Gently, taking her free hand into his Neteyam pondered for a moment before sliding the ring onto her finger. Silently, his eyes asked for approval, and once he noticed hers glistening with the tears of joy and a faint smile forming on her lips, he smiled too, sealing the bond. It fit perfectly, he hadn’t guessed it, of course it would. He held her hand too many times not to know.
“This means…” she whispered, her voice filled with too many emotions, “I want to be connected to you too.”
Without a thought, she slid the other ring onto his finger and ran over the patter with care. His fingers quickly intertwined with hers, the wooden rings clinking from the touch as if Eywa suddenly clinked all of her bellflowers to signify the success of the union. Eager now to express his love, Neteyam cupped her face quickly, resting his forehead against hers with a toothy grin.
“You’re mine now, and I am yours,” he announced happily, coaxing a joyful laughter out of her.
His mouth quickly caught that sound, she nearly stumbled but Neteyam’s hands were firm and steady, pulling her into him. His lips felt so natural against hers, it felt like they were molded off each other and no one, not even Eywa herself, could plan how perfect they seemed to be right in this moment.
As they pulled away, Y/N glanced at the ring again with genuine warmth in her eyes. For the first time in years, she felt happy unconditionally, without fear of losing it. A few more tears streamed down her face.
“Well, now my gift will look lame,” she mocked playfully through the tears, coaxing a chuckle out of Neteyam.
Shaking his head, he reached out to gently wipe away a tear from her cheek. 
"No gift you could ever give me would be considered lame," he assured.
Slowly, she reached into her pouch, carefully taking out the necklace she had prepared to give him during the ceremony. The one that he got a glimpse of the other night, but she was so quick to hide. Woven with intricate patterns it reminded Neteyam of the necklace worn by his grandfather. He took a small breath; his fingers grazed over the beads and feathers to try and feel everything he could at once.
“I made this for you to wear,” she whispered softly, like she was scared he wouldn’t like it.
Unmistakably, it was a necklace worthy of an Olo’eyktan. The colors, the patterns, the size. It was too fancy to be worn by the other clan members, too clanky and beautiful to be used every day. Very fitting to show a status. With trembling hands, he took the necklace into his hands, marveling at its beauty. 
“Are you sure?” Neteyam gulped, looking back at her with uncertainty.
“You don’t like it?”
“I do,” he was quick to interrupt her before she could jump to conclusions, “No. I mean, of course, I like it! But I don’t know if I can wear it… it looks like something…”
“Something like an Olo’eyktan would wear.”
Neteyam nodded in agreement, his own insecurity of his status and fear of leading one day washed over him. He might have prepared for the change his whole life but no one chose him. His father was chosen, but Neteyam was never the leader that his people asked for. Sure, he was strong and brave and smart but was he capable of being the one? These thoughts would often consume his mind with a rotten feeling of incapability, vulnerability that would ultimately make him question everything about himself. So why was she sure of him?
“Well, you are the Olo’eyktan. My Olo’eyktan,” she assured with a soft smile, as if guessing his thoughts. And just like that, he felt the weight fall off his shoulders.
Her faith in him was like a guiding light, illuminating the path that seemed so unknown and dark before. He realized that it wasn't about living up to the expectations of others; it was about doing his best while he had her by his side.
Neteyam, suddenly flustered by the way she was looking at him, eyes so full of love and admiration, looked down. His eyes caught the blue and instinctively almost his fingers reached to graze the blue feathers of the too familiar necklace. Y/N shivered at the touch.
“You know how I saw a woman in my vision, during my Dream Hunt?” he whispered, looking back up at her.
Y/N nodded with an understanding, showing that it wasn’t something she could forget. The memory has set in motion the whole ordeal, their mating, their fate.
“I couldn’t see her face… I thought it was only a sign I was ready, that it wasn’t anyone in particular that Eywa was showing to me,” Neteyam continued, lost in his own thought, “But there was something odd about her… a long necklace, just like yours, with blue feathers, going all the way down… too long to be worn by anyone else. I thought it was odd but then... what isn’t odd about getting a vision from Eywa during your Dream Hunt?” Neteyam chuckled and paused, waiting for Y/N’s reaction, “It was you, wasn’t it? From the beginning, it was destined to be you and me.”
Y/N put her hand over his, the one that was still holding onto her necklace, her eyes widening in surprise. Her heart raced at the revelation, and just like a confirmation, she noticed a woodsprite floating around the two of them. Eywa makes no mistakes.
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the end!
this was lazily edited so please don't mind me, i'm just glad to have put out this final chapter! i hope you enjoyed the series, i know i did, thank you!
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Chosen by Eywa - A Team of Two - Chapter 6 - Finale
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contains: arranged marriage, mentions of war and grief, angst, one-sided enemies to lovers, slow burn
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a/n: ngl it was funny to disappear for three months and randomly drop the finale like this. to be quite honest, whoever has been closely following my blog, knows that i took a break due to some personal matters as well as bc of guilt of making avatar-related content. in anyway, this series has been a journey, i really put so much into this, thinking about this story has been a consistent thing for the past months. i really don't expect this to get the same hype it did when i published the first part bc it's been soo long and people might have forgotten about it completely but i would still appreciate it if you read it and leave a comment. enjoy!
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They were nice about it, welcoming as if she was already a part of the family, but Y/N still couldn’t push away the nagging feeling of intruding into their space. She was used to being on her own, sleeping, eating, living by herself. There was no shared meal before going to sleep, no conversation to lull her into her dreams, yet at Sully's home the well-forgotten routine that Y/N’s been doing with her parents before their death, was practiced like a prayer. 
Neteyam’s warm gaze encouraged her to accept yet another sweet gesture from his little sister. Eager to bond, Tuk offered Y/N her hammock, next to Kiri’s. The other siblings only snickered at the unfortunate unfolding of events, and Neteyam too, tried suppressing an amusing smile that was so ready to give away the humor he found in the whole situation. 
She was so nervous about it too, and suddenly, Neteyam felt his chest swell with something unbearably big and overwhelming. I love you, he thought, watching the way she complied with his family’s wish to take care of her, the way she mumbled a “good night” to everyone before laying down in an unfamiliar hammock. 
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Y/N’s eyes fluttered softly, the light spilled into the room with a brightness she wasn’t adjusted to yet. The hammock underneath her was different, uncomfortable, and she grumbled, shifting her position, only to be met with restriction. The further she pushed against it, the more she realized that the resistance wasn’t from the hammock itself. With a puzzled frown, she turned around and when her eyes settled onto a chest, that’s what snapped her fully awake. The sight of Neteyam, snoring peacefully next to her, brought back the memory of the last night with a flush of embarrassment. 
How did she end up in his hammock? In the stillness of the night, her thoughts restless, Y/N watched how everyone seemed to have fallen asleep a long time ago. She tried peeking out of her hammock to catch a glimpse of Neteyam but it was too far and too dark to see him. Quietly, without giving it a second thought, she slipped out of her hammock and carefully stepped around others to approach Neteyam’s. His face was bathed in the moonlight with a soft glow, and as if she was in the dream and had all the time in the world, she stared at him for a moment, to make sure he was still there, safe and sound. Maybe because she loved him too.
It caught her off guard when he opened his eyes with a knowing smile, already having felt her eyes on him. She didn’t move for a moment, but the unspoken connection seemed to grow deeper in the darkness. Without a word, he opened up his arms, and Y/N didn’t take long to consider his silent offer. She dived into his hammock and snuggled close to him, and the way he held her, made her feel the safest she had ever felt. Ever since her parents died, since Kaye was no longer there, Neteyam grounded her like the gravity. As if he understood her too, like the vision from his Dream Hunt, everything just clicked, and nothing felt more natural than having her in his arms. 
They fell asleep so quickly that, in the morning, as Y/N recalled the events of the night, she almost assumed it was only a drem. Her heart dropped as she traced the patterns of his chest all the way up to his face, finding his peaceful expression, mouth slightly open as he snored with such sweet noises coming out of it. She smiled to herself at the sight and then heard a faint rustling joined by soft giggles. Y/N’s head quickly snapped into the direction and the revelation nearly made her die at the spot from the embarrassment. 
In an attempt to be quiet, Tuk and Lo’ak were giggling like a pair of toddlers who had seen a banshee for the first time. Their gazes were surely pointed at their older brother sound asleep and Y/N, cuddled up into him. Y/N’s mortified eyes then quickly found Kiri, who just looked irritated and tried ignoring her siblings, then they traced the frames of Neteyam’s parents. Jake and Neytiri were trying to be mature about it, to put on the blissfully unaware act, even though both of them were the first to find Y/N in Neteyam’s hammock. They circulated around the small table, setting up for the breakfast, and Y/N hid her face in Neteyam’s chest, whispering softly but urgently.
“Neteyam, wake up, please.”
His nose scrunched once but then it felt like his mind just gave up and decided to ignore Y/N’s voice completely. She tried again, this time swatting at his chest just enough to make him shift. The sunlight did the rest of the work, as Neteyam lazily opened his eyes, stretching as much as he could within the proximity of the small space in his hammock. He blinked sleepily, his gaze landing on Y/N and it took him a few seconds to register the situation, but as he did, a small smile tugged at the corners of his lips. Y/N was the woman from his Dream Hunt and last night, as he struggled to fall asleep, he found out that she felt so too, the way she laid into his arms and lulled him to sleep just with her scent. Neteyam’s chest warmed with love, and he couldn’t wait to let her know about his secret.
With a yawn, Neteyam stirred from his seat, and as his eyes grazed around the room, taking in the scene, Y/N was already jumping out of his hammock. 
“Good morning,” he greeted them loudly, giving a particularly stern look to his siblings.
"Good morning," Y/N echoed him, her voice barely above a whisper.
Lo’ak and Tuk giggled once more under their brother's gaze, while Kiri only hid a knowing smirk. Neytiri and Jake continued to set up the morning table with content smiles on their own faces. Y/N stood awkwardly next to the hammock, and it made Neteyam’s chest swell with even more amusement. He had never been happier than now, to wake up to the woman of his dreams next to him, with his family being genuinely proud of him. Y/N peeked from behind her hair, as Neteyam stepped out of his hammock with comfortable stature, and she slowly followed after him, as he sat down on the ground around the table.
“Come, Y/N, you’ll eat with us,” Neytiri gave Y/N a soft smile, gesturing to the spot next to her oldest son.
With a nod, Y/N took her place silently, the embarrassment of being caught in Neteyam’s hammock was clearly showing through how deep blue her cheeks were turning. Jake and Neteyam exchanged a knowing look and like a proud father he only chuckled to himself at the situation. And it wasn’t like anything had happened, everyone could have guessed that they only shared a hammock, but to Y/N it seemed like her whole reputation had crumbled.
Kiri, clearly enjoying her friend’s sudden flustered state, couldn't contain her amusement any longer, busted into laughter.
"You two are so whipped."
"Y/N, did you cuddle with Neteyam because you like him?" Tuk added on, her voice filled with innocent curiosity.
Y/N's cheeks turned even deeper at the question, and she fumbled for words, feeling the weight of everyone's gaze on her. She glanced at Neteyam, who was trying his best to hide his own embarrassment behind a composed expression. 
“Neteyam is a wonderful person, I mean… everyone probably likes him,” Y/N stammered.
"I mean it's clear she does more than like him," Kiri teased.
People don’t just fall in love overnight. It happens gradually, with shared moments, time spent together, with tears of both sadness and joy. It is just the realization of it all hits them suddenly. Y/N had a whole day to realize that she felt love for Neteyam, but she wasn’t going to say it for the first time so publicly. She wanted it to happen naturally, after she had processed everything herself, alone.
"Come on now, I'd be worried if they didn't touch each other at all," Jake whispered with a snicker, coaxing a small chuckle from Neytiri. He cleared his throat, "Alright, alright, enough for now.”
Neteyam attempted to hide his own smile at the words, and he hung his head, focusing on his food, but his tail quickly and secretly found its way under the table, wrapping around Y/N’s ankle. She shivered at the touch but welcomed it, nonetheless, relaxing just a second later. 
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“You’re staring again,” she tried to scold him for it, but frankly, there was not a feeling more pleasant than to feel his warm gaze on her.
Neteyam chuckled to himself, the excitement from waking up besides Y/N - woman from his vision overflowing him. Like the pieces of the puzzle were finally fitting together, everything just clicked, his world fell back into its place. He leaned in, his finger hooking under the long necklace adorning her neck and for the third time since she wore it, Y/N couldn’t understand his astonishment with Tuk’s gift. Sat in front of him on the forest ground, as they took a break from the morning chaos with his family, Y/N let out a sigh. There was a mixture of happiness and guilt swirling inside of her, babbling up in her chest to the point that she wasn’t sure how else to behave. It was as if she suddenly had forgotten about who she was.
“You’re still wearing the necklace,” Neteyam pointed out, gathering one of the blue feathers and running it through his fingers with fascination, “Isn’t it too long? Uncomfortable?”
“Do you not think it’s nice? Your sister made it for me,” Y/N teased.
They were close to each other, an undeniable pressure building and hardening in between the two bodies. Like a magnetic pull that lured him in closer, and Neteyam now took another one of the feathers into his gentle grasp, studying it for a moment before breaking into a grin.
“I didn’t even know she was going to give it to you,” he recalled with a low chuckle, almost as if he was saying it to himself. His eyes shifted back to hers, finding Y/N already looking at him, “It doesn’t mean you’re obligated to wear it though… if it’s bothering you.”
“Hey, hands off,” Y/N swatted at his hand playfully, pulling the necklace away from him, “I like it very much, so I don’t really care about the practicality. I think it looks great on me!”
“It does,” Neteyam chuckled, leaning back onto his elbows and Y/N felt a little disappointed at the loss of proximity, “I think you could make anything look beautiful.”
“Oh,” she let out. He was bold. Since the morning, he was more forward than usual, and she couldn’t guess if it was the aftermath of her willingly stepping into his hammock and sleeping with him or was it the fact that their ceremony was fast approaching and now there was only a matter of a few casualties left. But she liked the boldness.
Though Y/N could assume that Neteyam wasn't in the wrong. If he was making a move on her, he was truly just doing his duty, he was warming up to his mate. It wouldn’t be very pleasant to have their first kiss in front of the whole clan, would it? Y/N shivered at the thought of kissing him first, now, alone. There were certainly moments she thought he would, and it almost seemed like if she didn’t push him away, they’d be much closer now than she ever anticipated.
“I’ll tell you tomorrow,” Neteyam promised suddenly, a soft smile stretching his lips.
“Tell me what?”
“Tell you about the necklace… why I’m so intrigued by you wearing it.”
“Is there a valid reason?” Y/N quirked her eyebrow in surprise.
“There is, I just don’t want to scare you away.”
“Scare me away? Neteyam, I think we’re way past that point. It’s not like we can back out now,” she joked weakly.
Neteyam didn’t find humor in her words. Was she still bothered about it? Was she still spiteful of the idea of mateship with him? Surely, if she hated it so much, why would she stay? He was beginning to think that she was finally reciprocating, last night was the testament to that, so why was she back to making these comments? He frowned, suddenly growing silent, and that’s when Y/N knew that she messed up. She jumped to retrieve her words with eagerness, hand clutching at the long necklace.
“I was joking.” 
“I know,” Neteyam hummed softly but his head shook slightly, giving away his disagreement.
Y/N could feel her heart sink at the way his face fell. She leaned in closer, her palms finding support on either side of his body, nails digging into the soil. Their faces were now mere inches apart, and Neteyam's breath caught in his throat, his eyes searching her face.
“I don’t want to back out of this,” she whispered sincerely, her own eyes boring into his.
Neteyam could only gulp, waiting anxiously for her to take the next step. His heart picked up a rhythm, when she finally closed the gap between them, and though hesitantly, but with such tenderness, pressed her lips against his. He welcomed her like the forest would welcome the first warm rays of the sunshine, responding to her kiss. Savoring her taste wasn’t enough, he needed to engrave the way she felt into his memory permanently. 
Love couldn’t be that easy, could it? Falling into the person you were so begrudged against, letting him catch you when there is no one else to witness your fall. Letting him become your rock, your whole world, your person who makes everything else become a senseless noise, a blurry background. When your words are guided by the wish to please him, to humor him, to bring a smile to his face. Falling into him was sudden but easy, careless. It felt right. Like it was destined by the greater power, by the will of Eywa herself. 
Eywa makes no mistakes. Y/N had clung to these words her whole life, in bad and in good, she found comfort in knowing that her journey was already written out, that she was destined for a greater purpose, greater love than she was used to receiving. That no matter the circumstances she had brought upon herself, the Great Mother had been looking out for her, that Eywa brought Y/N the kind of love that she never imagined possible.
The silence as they pulled away was bittersweet. Neteyam could feel his heart almost stop at the proximity, as she was still looming over him, catching on her breath. Overwhelmed, he brought a hand to her cheek to make sure he hadn’t imagined it. Her smile grew, eyes darting between his to guess if he was thinking the same. Y/N had no idea that up until this morning, Neteyam was already utterly smitten with her. That every thought in his mind was occupied with her. 
“What was that for?” he questioned 
“For being patient with me. For seeing me…”
“I do, I see you,” he nodded, eager to spill the confession that has been on the tip of his tongue for some time now.
“I see you too,” she whispered, “I thought I knew what love is. Thought that I got what I deserved and nothing more but now I know how blind I was.”
Neteyam's heart swelled with both joy and sadness. He reached out and gently brushed a strand of hair behind her ear. She leaned into him, closing her eyes briefly to savor the moment. 
“You weren’t blind, you were just scared,” he reassured, “But you don’t have to be anymore. I’m here now.”
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Y/N looked up from her unfinished work to Neytiri for the third time in the past minute, it was hard to concentrate on something she was struggling with, when right next to her, somebody else was doing it perfectly. Neytiri’s fingers worked quickly and gracefully, beads were woven into a shawl with recognizable patterns usually worn by the Olo’eyktan’s family. Y/N sighed in frustration at her own piece of work - a long beaded skirt that was supposed to match the shawl for the ceremony.
“You’re doing great, just be patient with yourself,” Neytiri spoke softly, barely lifting her gaze towards Y/N, but a small smile stretched her lips, nonetheless.
“I don’t have time to be patient,” Y/N sighed again, “The ceremony is tomorrow and…”
“Take your time, the ceremony won’t happen until you finish your skirt the way you like it,” Neytiri teased, putting aside the shawl, as if she was sensing that there was something else bothering Y/N.
To be quite frank, though Neytiri knew from the beginning that Eywa’s signs were truthful, the reactions she first got from her son and Y/N scared her. She could see the way they started looking at each other, the morning Y/N spent in their hut was an undeniable testament to her growing connection with Neteyam, but Neytiri still wasn't completely convinced that they were going into it surely. She watched how Y/N struggled with her weaving for a moment before reaching out to pat her shoulder lovingly, signaling for her to take a break.
“There is something else on your mind that is keeping you distracted. Tell me.”
Y/N gulped nervously, giving up on the skirt. She contemplated for a minute if she should spill the intense guilt she has been feeling since kissing Neteyam onto his mother and possibly ruining the way she was perceived by his family for the rest of her life. 
“I know that after losing someone as close as your mom it is hard to open up to another woman,” Neytiri spoke softly, "But I already consider you my child. You can tell me what’s wrong.”
“It’s…” Y/N looked up with a softened expression, “You know why I was so opposed to the arrangement in the beginning?”
“You were scared, no?” Neytiri squinted.
“Yes but there was a bigger reason,” Y/N breathed out slowly, taking her time, “I was in love with someone else… or I thought I was. But we weren’t mated and I don’t think he was ever going to mate with me, so I couldn’t tell anyone that. I could only be angry because I was helpless.”
“Do you still see that someone else?” she asked carefully, like a mother asking her child something she is afraid to know the answer to.
“No. It was Kaye.”
“Kaye?”
Neytiri nodded in understanding, small pieces of information she heard about Kaye’s death were falling into pieces. The way Y/N behaved when he was first shot, how long she refused to attend to her tasks and how Neteyam skipped training to be with her. The days Y/N stayed inside and turned into an empty shell of herself. Y/N wasn’t just angry and rebellious, she was hurt because she was alone. Neytiri reached out once more to pat her on the shoulder with motherly care.
“I’m sorry, my child.”
“I felt so guilty,” Y/N hung her head, staring at her own hands, as she revealed the deepest secret she withheld, “Because no matter how much Kaye hurt me, I didn’t want to fall for somebody else. And Neteyam… he is perfect. I can’t help it, the way I feel about him. But it also feels like betraying Kaye… betraying what we had.”
“Y/N, look at me,” Neytiri spoke gently, “Eywa does not make mistakes, she brings us what we need, even when we don’t expect it. Just because you’re following your destiny, it doesn’t mean you are forgetting Kaye and what you had with him. Your heart is capable of holding both love and memories.”
Y/N nodded weakly, her eyes tearing up at the words she had been so desperate to hear. She wiped her eyes, lips trembling in the search for ways to express her gratitude. Neytiri watched her for a moment with a newly gained perspective. She had always observed Y/N to be a smart empathetic girl but she had never gotten to experience her side of things.
“I understand more than you think I do,” she attempted a playful tone, “Before mating with Toruk Makto, I was meant to be with another warrior… his name was Tsu’tey. It was my duty to the clan, a tradition. But Eywa sent me Jake, a sky person. He was an outsider, it was against all odds, challenged the path I thought was set for me. But love finds a way."
Y/N felt her heartbeat pick up. Surely, she had known the way Neytiri and Jake found their way to each other, how he became the Toruk Makto to prove himself to her. But hearing it like this, from Neytiri herself, made Y/N see her as someone real, who wasn’t perfect, who was once a girl too, torn between her duties and her heart. 
“Eywa has a way of guiding us, you just have to trust her,” Neytiri smiled, her gaze returning to the girl in front of her, “Whatever you feel, know that I am here for you, just as your mother would be there for you. You are a part of our family now.”
“Thank you, Neytiri, for… everything,” Y/N reached out to gently grasp Neytiri’s hand.
She felt accepted and understood. For the first time in so long she remembered the connection she had with her mother. How, no matter the circumstances, she had a safety net to fall into. Neytiri smiled, squeezing her hand, and reached for the unfinished skirt.
“Now, for this part, you’d want to change up your technique…”
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Lo’ak had never witnessed such unease in Neteyam, it was so out of character for his typically unshakable older brother. This unexpected anxiety radiating from Neteyam has somehow transferred to him too, Lo'ak's palms were sweating, as he observed silently. With trembling hands, Neteyam held up a bowl of vibrant yellow paint to Jake, who dipped his fingers into it and continued drawing a pattern on his eldest son’s forehead,
“You alright, son?” Jake took a small sigh, throwing a quick knowing glance at Lo’ak. Neteyam took a moment to reply.
“I don’t think so,” he mumbled, zoned out, eyes focusing on the horizon with a deep wrinkle forming between his eyebrows, “Everyone is going to be there watching, no?”
“Well, yeah, that’s kind of the point,” Jake chuckled weakly, “To seal your bond before the clan and Eywa.”
“Are you scared?” Lo’ak chimed in anxiously, he wasn’t sure if Neteyam’s answer was going to calm him down either way.
Neteyam couldn’t bring himself to respond with words, so he only gave his brother a short nod. Jake frowned and took a step back to glance at him.
“What are you scared of? Everyone loves you and Y/N together, your union has already been blessed by Eywa. You love her, no?”
“Yes! I mean… it couldn’t be anything less,” Neteyam looked up at his father, then sighed again, “But it’s scary. How did you do it? I mean, you gave vows before the entire clan like a hundred times, with everyone watching you, holding you responsible.”
Jake chuckled warmly, guessing that the reason for Neteyam’s nervousness wasn’t necessarily the choice of being with Y/N, undeniably, he was smitten with her, but rather announcing it to everyone. Because once he makes his union everyone’s business, there is no going back. But as the future Olo’eyktan, whatever Neteyam was affected by in his role as the chief was also going to affect the others. Jake thought he knew exactly what to say now.
“It is scary, I’m not gonna lie. It gets easier with time but I remember being terrified to make big promises with everyone’s eyes on me,” a hint of nostalgia flashed in his eyes, then a lazy smile made its way onto the man’s face, “But I have a secret. Helps me every time.”
“What is it?” both brothers asked simultaneously, watching their father.
“Your mother,” Jake answered in a heartbeat, “When you know there is the right person standing beside you, who supports you wholeheartedly and will always keep by your side, it doesn’t matter anymore. Because you’re making a promise to her, and you know that when it comes to her, you will keep that promise with your life.”
Neteyam nodded with a sense of understanding, as if the answer his father gave him, suddenly connected bridges. He rapidly stood up from his seat, shoving the bowl of paint into Lo’ak’s hands, and sprinting away. It wasn't hard to guess where he was headed.
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Y/N twirled awkwardly, the long-beaded skirt trailing behind her in a swift dance, glistening under the soft sunlight filling out the tent. Neytiri tilted her head slightly at the movement with an approving hum and beside her Tsahik nodded in agreement. Y/N felt herself melting under their gazes.
"Oh Eywa," Kiri’s voice brought her back into a state of insecurity.
Y/N twirled once more, this time weaker, discouraged by the tone. She ran her hands over the beaded top, before staring back at her friend in anticipation.
"What's wrong with this?"
"Nothing," Kiri shook her head, "You just look so beautiful.”
“You look perfect, my child,” like her mother’s voice, Neytiri spoke to Y/N with such surety and tenderness, that all of the worries were now melting away.
"Can I steal her for a moment?"
Everyone's head snapped at the future Olo'eyktan walking in, his eyes glistening at the sight of Y/N in the beautiful garments she had woven for the ceremony. It was too soon for him to be there, to ruin this moment of her bonding with the women in his life, but Neteyam didn't care. Couldn't care if he had to, he was eager to get her alone, to wash away his anxiousness once more before they were mated before the whole clan.
His grandmother tsksed loudly, Neytiri throwing a disapproving glance, and before anyone could really protest how improper it was of Neteyam out of all people to disrupt the tradition, Y/N was already apologizing and running out of the tent.
"Come," his hand found hers like an instinct and pulled her gently towards his ikran, "The Mother Tree is beautiful at this time."
"But there are preparations for the ceremony," she scrunched up her nose at the thought of so many people seeing them.
"Don't worry, we'll just sneak a look and be out of there," Neteyam reassured.
As Y/N followed Neteyam's lead, her heart raced with a mixture of excitement and nervousness. She couldn't believe she was going against tradition, breaking away from the preparations for the ceremony. But at the same time, she couldn't deny the thrill of being alone with Neteyam, away from prying eyes and expectations.
They reached the outskirts of the camp, where the dense forest greeted them with its familiar embrace. Neteyam led her to a secluded spot near the Mother Tree. The sunlight filtered through the leaves, casting a warm glow over the two of them.
"Close your eyes," he whispered, a mischievous smile playing on his lips. 
She rolled her eyes but complied anyway with a grin. She felt his touch as he sneaked something into her palm and closed it gently, something smooth and rounded and familiar but she couldn’t guess what it was.
Without waiting for his instructions, once his hand left hers, she opened her palm to find two wooden rings. Y/N looked back at Neteyam in a slight confusion, finding him already smiling at her, his freckles glowing with particular brightness.
“I made these out of the root of the Mother Tree,” he explained softly, “One for you, one for me.”
“They’re beautiful,” she whispered, examining the rings up closer, noticing the small patterns needled into them. 
“I know it seems a little simple but let me explain first,” Neteyam stole one of the rings back, twirling it in between his fingers, “Where my father comes from, there was no ceremony before Eywa but there was something similar… a tradition,” he paused to gulp down, suddenly a rush of nervousness overwhelming him, “The couples would exchange rings to symbolize their love for each other. And they would wear it for the rest of their lives to show how their hearts still belong to each other, that they will always be connected.”
Gently, taking her free hand into his Neteyam pondered for a moment before sliding the ring onto her finger. Silently, his eyes asked for approval, and once he noticed hers glistening with the tears of joy and a faint smile forming on her lips, he smiled too, sealing the bond. It fit perfectly, he hadn’t guessed it, of course it would. He held her hand too many times not to know.
“This means…” she whispered, her voice filled with too many emotions, “I want to be connected to you too.”
Without a thought, she slid the other ring onto his finger and ran over the patter with care. His fingers quickly intertwined with hers, the wooden rings clinking from the touch as if Eywa suddenly clinked all of her bellflowers to signify the success of the union. Eager now to express his love, Neteyam cupped her face quickly, resting his forehead against hers with a toothy grin.
“You’re mine now, and I am yours,” he announced happily, coaxing a joyful laughter out of her.
His mouth quickly caught that sound, she nearly stumbled but Neteyam’s hands were firm and steady, pulling her into him. His lips felt so natural against hers, it felt like they were molded off each other and no one, not even Eywa herself, could plan how perfect they seemed to be right in this moment.
As they pulled away, Y/N glanced at the ring again with genuine warmth in her eyes. For the first time in years, she felt happy unconditionally, without fear of losing it. A few more tears streamed down her face.
“Well, now my gift will look lame,” she mocked playfully through the tears, coaxing a chuckle out of Neteyam.
Shaking his head, he reached out to gently wipe away a tear from her cheek. 
"No gift you could ever give me would be considered lame," he assured.
Slowly, she reached into her pouch, carefully taking out the necklace she had prepared to give him during the ceremony. The one that he got a glimpse of the other night, but she was so quick to hide. Woven with intricate patterns it reminded Neteyam of the necklace worn by his grandfather. He took a small breath; his fingers grazed over the beads and feathers to try and feel everything he could at once.
“I made this for you to wear,” she whispered softly, like she was scared he wouldn’t like it.
Unmistakably, it was a necklace worthy of an Olo’eyktan. The colors, the patterns, the size. It was too fancy to be worn by the other clan members, too clanky and beautiful to be used every day. Very fitting to show a status. With trembling hands, he took the necklace into his hands, marveling at its beauty. 
“Are you sure?” Neteyam gulped, looking back at her with uncertainty.
“You don’t like it?”
“I do,” he was quick to interrupt her before she could jump to conclusions, “No. I mean, of course, I like it! But I don’t know if I can wear it… it looks like something…”
“Something like an Olo’eyktan would wear.”
Neteyam nodded in agreement, his own insecurity of his status and fear of leading one day washed over him. He might have prepared for the change his whole life but no one chose him. His father was chosen, but Neteyam was never the leader that his people asked for. Sure, he was strong and brave and smart but was he capable of being the one? These thoughts would often consume his mind with a rotten feeling of incapability, vulnerability that would ultimately make him question everything about himself. So why was she sure of him?
“Well, you are the Olo’eyktan. My Olo’eyktan,” she assured with a soft smile, as if guessing his thoughts. And just like that, he felt the weight fall off his shoulders.
Her faith in him was like a guiding light, illuminating the path that seemed so unknown and dark before. He realized that it wasn't about living up to the expectations of others; it was about doing his best while he had her by his side.
Neteyam, suddenly flustered by the way she was looking at him, eyes so full of love and admiration, looked down. His eyes caught the blue and instinctively almost his fingers reached to graze the blue feathers of the too familiar necklace. Y/N shivered at the touch.
“You know how I saw a woman in my vision, during my Dream Hunt?” he whispered, looking back up at her.
Y/N nodded with an understanding, showing that it wasn’t something she could forget. The memory has set in motion the whole ordeal, their mating, their fate.
“I couldn’t see her face… I thought it was only a sign I was ready, that it wasn’t anyone in particular that Eywa was showing to me,” Neteyam continued, lost in his own thought, “But there was something odd about her… a long necklace, just like yours, with blue feathers, going all the way down… too long to be worn by anyone else. I thought it was odd but then... what isn’t odd about getting a vision from Eywa during your Dream Hunt?” Neteyam chuckled and paused, waiting for Y/N’s reaction, “It was you, wasn’t it? From the beginning, it was destined to be you and me.”
Y/N put her hand over his, the one that was still holding onto her necklace, her eyes widening in surprise. Her heart raced at the revelation, and just like a confirmation, she noticed a woodsprite floating around the two of them. Eywa makes no mistakes.
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the end!
this was lazily edited so please don't mind me, i'm just glad to have put out this final chapter! i hope you enjoyed the series, i know i did, thank you!
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Chosen by Eywa - A Team of Two - Chapter 6 - Finale
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a/n: ngl it was funny to disappear for three months and randomly drop the finale like this. to be quite honest, whoever has been closely following my blog, knows that i took a break due to some personal matters as well as bc of guilt of making avatar-related content. in anyway, this series has been a journey, i really put so much into this, thinking about this story has been a consistent thing for the past months. i really don't expect this to get the same hype it did when i published the first part bc it's been soo long and people might have forgotten about it completely but i would still appreciate it if you read it and leave a comment. enjoy!
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They were nice about it, welcoming as if she was already a part of the family, but Y/N still couldn’t push away the nagging feeling of intruding into their space. She was used to being on her own, sleeping, eating, living by herself. There was no shared meal before going to sleep, no conversation to lull her into her dreams, yet at Sully's home the well-forgotten routine that Y/N’s been doing with her parents before their death, was practiced like a prayer. 
Neteyam’s warm gaze encouraged her to accept yet another sweet gesture from his little sister. Eager to bond, Tuk offered Y/N her hammock, next to Kiri’s. The other siblings only snickered at the unfortunate unfolding of events, and Neteyam too, tried suppressing an amusing smile that was so ready to give away the humor he found in the whole situation. 
She was so nervous about it too, and suddenly, Neteyam felt his chest swell with something unbearably big and overwhelming. I love you, he thought, watching the way she complied with his family’s wish to take care of her, the way she mumbled a “good night” to everyone before laying down in an unfamiliar hammock. 
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Y/N’s eyes fluttered softly, the light spilled into the room with a brightness she wasn’t adjusted to yet. The hammock underneath her was different, uncomfortable, and she grumbled, shifting her position, only to be met with restriction. The further she pushed against it, the more she realized that the resistance wasn’t from the hammock itself. With a puzzled frown, she turned around and when her eyes settled onto a chest, that’s what snapped her fully awake. The sight of Neteyam, snoring peacefully next to her, brought back the memory of the last night with a flush of embarrassment. 
How did she end up in his hammock? In the stillness of the night, her thoughts restless, Y/N watched how everyone seemed to have fallen asleep a long time ago. She tried peeking out of her hammock to catch a glimpse of Neteyam but it was too far and too dark to see him. Quietly, without giving it a second thought, she slipped out of her hammock and carefully stepped around others to approach Neteyam’s. His face was bathed in the moonlight with a soft glow, and as if she was in the dream and had all the time in the world, she stared at him for a moment, to make sure he was still there, safe and sound. Maybe because she loved him too.
It caught her off guard when he opened his eyes with a knowing smile, already having felt her eyes on him. She didn’t move for a moment, but the unspoken connection seemed to grow deeper in the darkness. Without a word, he opened up his arms, and Y/N didn’t take long to consider his silent offer. She dived into his hammock and snuggled close to him, and the way he held her, made her feel the safest she had ever felt. Ever since her parents died, since Kaye was no longer there, Neteyam grounded her like the gravity. As if he understood her too, like the vision from his Dream Hunt, everything just clicked, and nothing felt more natural than having her in his arms. 
They fell asleep so quickly that, in the morning, as Y/N recalled the events of the night, she almost assumed it was only a drem. Her heart dropped as she traced the patterns of his chest all the way up to his face, finding his peaceful expression, mouth slightly open as he snored with such sweet noises coming out of it. She smiled to herself at the sight and then heard a faint rustling joined by soft giggles. Y/N’s head quickly snapped into the direction and the revelation nearly made her die at the spot from the embarrassment. 
In an attempt to be quiet, Tuk and Lo’ak were giggling like a pair of toddlers who had seen a banshee for the first time. Their gazes were surely pointed at their older brother sound asleep and Y/N, cuddled up into him. Y/N’s mortified eyes then quickly found Kiri, who just looked irritated and tried ignoring her siblings, then they traced the frames of Neteyam’s parents. Jake and Neytiri were trying to be mature about it, to put on the blissfully unaware act, even though both of them were the first to find Y/N in Neteyam’s hammock. They circulated around the small table, setting up for the breakfast, and Y/N hid her face in Neteyam’s chest, whispering softly but urgently.
“Neteyam, wake up, please.”
His nose scrunched once but then it felt like his mind just gave up and decided to ignore Y/N’s voice completely. She tried again, this time swatting at his chest just enough to make him shift. The sunlight did the rest of the work, as Neteyam lazily opened his eyes, stretching as much as he could within the proximity of the small space in his hammock. He blinked sleepily, his gaze landing on Y/N and it took him a few seconds to register the situation, but as he did, a small smile tugged at the corners of his lips. Y/N was the woman from his Dream Hunt and last night, as he struggled to fall asleep, he found out that she felt so too, the way she laid into his arms and lulled him to sleep just with her scent. Neteyam’s chest warmed with love, and he couldn’t wait to let her know about his secret.
With a yawn, Neteyam stirred from his seat, and as his eyes grazed around the room, taking in the scene, Y/N was already jumping out of his hammock. 
“Good morning,” he greeted them loudly, giving a particularly stern look to his siblings.
"Good morning," Y/N echoed him, her voice barely above a whisper.
Lo’ak and Tuk giggled once more under their brother's gaze, while Kiri only hid a knowing smirk. Neytiri and Jake continued to set up the morning table with content smiles on their own faces. Y/N stood awkwardly next to the hammock, and it made Neteyam’s chest swell with even more amusement. He had never been happier than now, to wake up to the woman of his dreams next to him, with his family being genuinely proud of him. Y/N peeked from behind her hair, as Neteyam stepped out of his hammock with comfortable stature, and she slowly followed after him, as he sat down on the ground around the table.
“Come, Y/N, you’ll eat with us,” Neytiri gave Y/N a soft smile, gesturing to the spot next to her oldest son.
With a nod, Y/N took her place silently, the embarrassment of being caught in Neteyam’s hammock was clearly showing through how deep blue her cheeks were turning. Jake and Neteyam exchanged a knowing look and like a proud father he only chuckled to himself at the situation. And it wasn’t like anything had happened, everyone could have guessed that they only shared a hammock, but to Y/N it seemed like her whole reputation had crumbled.
Kiri, clearly enjoying her friend’s sudden flustered state, couldn't contain her amusement any longer, busted into laughter.
"You two are so whipped."
"Y/N, did you cuddle with Neteyam because you like him?" Tuk added on, her voice filled with innocent curiosity.
Y/N's cheeks turned even deeper at the question, and she fumbled for words, feeling the weight of everyone's gaze on her. She glanced at Neteyam, who was trying his best to hide his own embarrassment behind a composed expression. 
“Neteyam is a wonderful person, I mean… everyone probably likes him,” Y/N stammered.
"I mean it's clear she does more than like him," Kiri teased.
People don’t just fall in love overnight. It happens gradually, with shared moments, time spent together, with tears of both sadness and joy. It is just the realization of it all hits them suddenly. Y/N had a whole day to realize that she felt love for Neteyam, but she wasn’t going to say it for the first time so publicly. She wanted it to happen naturally, after she had processed everything herself, alone.
"Come on now, I'd be worried if they didn't touch each other at all," Jake whispered with a snicker, coaxing a small chuckle from Neytiri. He cleared his throat, "Alright, alright, enough for now.”
Neteyam attempted to hide his own smile at the words, and he hung his head, focusing on his food, but his tail quickly and secretly found its way under the table, wrapping around Y/N’s ankle. She shivered at the touch but welcomed it, nonetheless, relaxing just a second later. 
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“You’re staring again,” she tried to scold him for it, but frankly, there was not a feeling more pleasant than to feel his warm gaze on her.
Neteyam chuckled to himself, the excitement from waking up besides Y/N - woman from his vision overflowing him. Like the pieces of the puzzle were finally fitting together, everything just clicked, his world fell back into its place. He leaned in, his finger hooking under the long necklace adorning her neck and for the third time since she wore it, Y/N couldn’t understand his astonishment with Tuk’s gift. Sat in front of him on the forest ground, as they took a break from the morning chaos with his family, Y/N let out a sigh. There was a mixture of happiness and guilt swirling inside of her, babbling up in her chest to the point that she wasn’t sure how else to behave. It was as if she suddenly had forgotten about who she was.
“You’re still wearing the necklace,” Neteyam pointed out, gathering one of the blue feathers and running it through his fingers with fascination, “Isn’t it too long? Uncomfortable?”
“Do you not think it’s nice? Your sister made it for me,” Y/N teased.
They were close to each other, an undeniable pressure building and hardening in between the two bodies. Like a magnetic pull that lured him in closer, and Neteyam now took another one of the feathers into his gentle grasp, studying it for a moment before breaking into a grin.
“I didn’t even know she was going to give it to you,” he recalled with a low chuckle, almost as if he was saying it to himself. His eyes shifted back to hers, finding Y/N already looking at him, “It doesn’t mean you’re obligated to wear it though… if it’s bothering you.”
“Hey, hands off,” Y/N swatted at his hand playfully, pulling the necklace away from him, “I like it very much, so I don’t really care about the practicality. I think it looks great on me!”
“It does,” Neteyam chuckled, leaning back onto his elbows and Y/N felt a little disappointed at the loss of proximity, “I think you could make anything look beautiful.”
“Oh,” she let out. He was bold. Since the morning, he was more forward than usual, and she couldn’t guess if it was the aftermath of her willingly stepping into his hammock and sleeping with him or was it the fact that their ceremony was fast approaching and now there was only a matter of a few casualties left. But she liked the boldness.
Though Y/N could assume that Neteyam wasn't in the wrong. If he was making a move on her, he was truly just doing his duty, he was warming up to his mate. It wouldn’t be very pleasant to have their first kiss in front of the whole clan, would it? Y/N shivered at the thought of kissing him first, now, alone. There were certainly moments she thought he would, and it almost seemed like if she didn’t push him away, they’d be much closer now than she ever anticipated.
“I’ll tell you tomorrow,” Neteyam promised suddenly, a soft smile stretching his lips.
“Tell me what?”
“Tell you about the necklace… why I’m so intrigued by you wearing it.”
“Is there a valid reason?” Y/N quirked her eyebrow in surprise.
“There is, I just don’t want to scare you away.”
“Scare me away? Neteyam, I think we’re way past that point. It’s not like we can back out now,” she joked weakly.
Neteyam didn’t find humor in her words. Was she still bothered about it? Was she still spiteful of the idea of mateship with him? Surely, if she hated it so much, why would she stay? He was beginning to think that she was finally reciprocating, last night was the testament to that, so why was she back to making these comments? He frowned, suddenly growing silent, and that’s when Y/N knew that she messed up. She jumped to retrieve her words with eagerness, hand clutching at the long necklace.
“I was joking.” 
“I know,” Neteyam hummed softly but his head shook slightly, giving away his disagreement.
Y/N could feel her heart sink at the way his face fell. She leaned in closer, her palms finding support on either side of his body, nails digging into the soil. Their faces were now mere inches apart, and Neteyam's breath caught in his throat, his eyes searching her face.
“I don’t want to back out of this,” she whispered sincerely, her own eyes boring into his.
Neteyam could only gulp, waiting anxiously for her to take the next step. His heart picked up a rhythm, when she finally closed the gap between them, and though hesitantly, but with such tenderness, pressed her lips against his. He welcomed her like the forest would welcome the first warm rays of the sunshine, responding to her kiss. Savoring her taste wasn’t enough, he needed to engrave the way she felt into his memory permanently. 
Love couldn’t be that easy, could it? Falling into the person you were so begrudged against, letting him catch you when there is no one else to witness your fall. Letting him become your rock, your whole world, your person who makes everything else become a senseless noise, a blurry background. When your words are guided by the wish to please him, to humor him, to bring a smile to his face. Falling into him was sudden but easy, careless. It felt right. Like it was destined by the greater power, by the will of Eywa herself. 
Eywa makes no mistakes. Y/N had clung to these words her whole life, in bad and in good, she found comfort in knowing that her journey was already written out, that she was destined for a greater purpose, greater love than she was used to receiving. That no matter the circumstances she had brought upon herself, the Great Mother had been looking out for her, that Eywa brought Y/N the kind of love that she never imagined possible.
The silence as they pulled away was bittersweet. Neteyam could feel his heart almost stop at the proximity, as she was still looming over him, catching on her breath. Overwhelmed, he brought a hand to her cheek to make sure he hadn’t imagined it. Her smile grew, eyes darting between his to guess if he was thinking the same. Y/N had no idea that up until this morning, Neteyam was already utterly smitten with her. That every thought in his mind was occupied with her. 
“What was that for?” he questioned 
“For being patient with me. For seeing me…”
“I do, I see you,” he nodded, eager to spill the confession that has been on the tip of his tongue for some time now.
“I see you too,” she whispered, “I thought I knew what love is. Thought that I got what I deserved and nothing more but now I know how blind I was.”
Neteyam's heart swelled with both joy and sadness. He reached out and gently brushed a strand of hair behind her ear. She leaned into him, closing her eyes briefly to savor the moment. 
“You weren’t blind, you were just scared,” he reassured, “But you don’t have to be anymore. I’m here now.”
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Y/N looked up from her unfinished work to Neytiri for the third time in the past minute, it was hard to concentrate on something she was struggling with, when right next to her, somebody else was doing it perfectly. Neytiri’s fingers worked quickly and gracefully, beads were woven into a shawl with recognizable patterns usually worn by the Olo’eyktan’s family. Y/N sighed in frustration at her own piece of work - a long beaded skirt that was supposed to match the shawl for the ceremony.
“You’re doing great, just be patient with yourself,” Neytiri spoke softly, barely lifting her gaze towards Y/N, but a small smile stretched her lips, nonetheless.
“I don’t have time to be patient,” Y/N sighed again, “The ceremony is tomorrow and…”
“Take your time, the ceremony won’t happen until you finish your skirt the way you like it,” Neytiri teased, putting aside the shawl, as if she was sensing that there was something else bothering Y/N.
To be quite frank, though Neytiri knew from the beginning that Eywa’s signs were truthful, the reactions she first got from her son and Y/N scared her. She could see the way they started looking at each other, the morning Y/N spent in their hut was an undeniable testament to her growing connection with Neteyam, but Neytiri still wasn't completely convinced that they were going into it surely. She watched how Y/N struggled with her weaving for a moment before reaching out to pat her shoulder lovingly, signaling for her to take a break.
“There is something else on your mind that is keeping you distracted. Tell me.”
Y/N gulped nervously, giving up on the skirt. She contemplated for a minute if she should spill the intense guilt she has been feeling since kissing Neteyam onto his mother and possibly ruining the way she was perceived by his family for the rest of her life. 
“I know that after losing someone as close as your mom it is hard to open up to another woman,” Neytiri spoke softly, "But I already consider you my child. You can tell me what’s wrong.”
“It’s…” Y/N looked up with a softened expression, “You know why I was so opposed to the arrangement in the beginning?”
“You were scared, no?” Neytiri squinted.
“Yes but there was a bigger reason,” Y/N breathed out slowly, taking her time, “I was in love with someone else… or I thought I was. But we weren’t mated and I don’t think he was ever going to mate with me, so I couldn’t tell anyone that. I could only be angry because I was helpless.”
“Do you still see that someone else?” she asked carefully, like a mother asking her child something she is afraid to know the answer to.
“No. It was Kaye.”
“Kaye?”
Neytiri nodded in understanding, small pieces of information she heard about Kaye’s death were falling into pieces. The way Y/N behaved when he was first shot, how long she refused to attend to her tasks and how Neteyam skipped training to be with her. The days Y/N stayed inside and turned into an empty shell of herself. Y/N wasn’t just angry and rebellious, she was hurt because she was alone. Neytiri reached out once more to pat her on the shoulder with motherly care.
“I’m sorry, my child.”
“I felt so guilty,” Y/N hung her head, staring at her own hands, as she revealed the deepest secret she withheld, “Because no matter how much Kaye hurt me, I didn’t want to fall for somebody else. And Neteyam… he is perfect. I can’t help it, the way I feel about him. But it also feels like betraying Kaye… betraying what we had.”
“Y/N, look at me,” Neytiri spoke gently, “Eywa does not make mistakes, she brings us what we need, even when we don’t expect it. Just because you’re following your destiny, it doesn’t mean you are forgetting Kaye and what you had with him. Your heart is capable of holding both love and memories.”
Y/N nodded weakly, her eyes tearing up at the words she had been so desperate to hear. She wiped her eyes, lips trembling in the search for ways to express her gratitude. Neytiri watched her for a moment with a newly gained perspective. She had always observed Y/N to be a smart empathetic girl but she had never gotten to experience her side of things.
“I understand more than you think I do,” she attempted a playful tone, “Before mating with Toruk Makto, I was meant to be with another warrior… his name was Tsu’tey. It was my duty to the clan, a tradition. But Eywa sent me Jake, a sky person. He was an outsider, it was against all odds, challenged the path I thought was set for me. But love finds a way."
Y/N felt her heartbeat pick up. Surely, she had known the way Neytiri and Jake found their way to each other, how he became the Toruk Makto to prove himself to her. But hearing it like this, from Neytiri herself, made Y/N see her as someone real, who wasn’t perfect, who was once a girl too, torn between her duties and her heart. 
“Eywa has a way of guiding us, you just have to trust her,” Neytiri smiled, her gaze returning to the girl in front of her, “Whatever you feel, know that I am here for you, just as your mother would be there for you. You are a part of our family now.”
“Thank you, Neytiri, for… everything,” Y/N reached out to gently grasp Neytiri’s hand.
She felt accepted and understood. For the first time in so long she remembered the connection she had with her mother. How, no matter the circumstances, she had a safety net to fall into. Neytiri smiled, squeezing her hand, and reached for the unfinished skirt.
“Now, for this part, you’d want to change up your technique…”
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Lo’ak had never witnessed such unease in Neteyam, it was so out of character for his typically unshakable older brother. This unexpected anxiety radiating from Neteyam has somehow transferred to him too, Lo'ak's palms were sweating, as he observed silently. With trembling hands, Neteyam held up a bowl of vibrant yellow paint to Jake, who dipped his fingers into it and continued drawing a pattern on his eldest son’s forehead,
“You alright, son?” Jake took a small sigh, throwing a quick knowing glance at Lo’ak. Neteyam took a moment to reply.
“I don’t think so,” he mumbled, zoned out, eyes focusing on the horizon with a deep wrinkle forming between his eyebrows, “Everyone is going to be there watching, no?”
“Well, yeah, that’s kind of the point,” Jake chuckled weakly, “To seal your bond before the clan and Eywa.”
“Are you scared?” Lo’ak chimed in anxiously, he wasn’t sure if Neteyam’s answer was going to calm him down either way.
Neteyam couldn’t bring himself to respond with words, so he only gave his brother a short nod. Jake frowned and took a step back to glance at him.
“What are you scared of? Everyone loves you and Y/N together, your union has already been blessed by Eywa. You love her, no?”
“Yes! I mean… it couldn’t be anything less,” Neteyam looked up at his father, then sighed again, “But it’s scary. How did you do it? I mean, you gave vows before the entire clan like a hundred times, with everyone watching you, holding you responsible.”
Jake chuckled warmly, guessing that the reason for Neteyam’s nervousness wasn’t necessarily the choice of being with Y/N, undeniably, he was smitten with her, but rather announcing it to everyone. Because once he makes his union everyone’s business, there is no going back. But as the future Olo’eyktan, whatever Neteyam was affected by in his role as the chief was also going to affect the others. Jake thought he knew exactly what to say now.
“It is scary, I’m not gonna lie. It gets easier with time but I remember being terrified to make big promises with everyone’s eyes on me,” a hint of nostalgia flashed in his eyes, then a lazy smile made its way onto the man’s face, “But I have a secret. Helps me every time.”
“What is it?” both brothers asked simultaneously, watching their father.
“Your mother,” Jake answered in a heartbeat, “When you know there is the right person standing beside you, who supports you wholeheartedly and will always keep by your side, it doesn’t matter anymore. Because you’re making a promise to her, and you know that when it comes to her, you will keep that promise with your life.”
Neteyam nodded with a sense of understanding, as if the answer his father gave him, suddenly connected bridges. He rapidly stood up from his seat, shoving the bowl of paint into Lo’ak’s hands, and sprinting away. It wasn't hard to guess where he was headed.
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Y/N twirled awkwardly, the long-beaded skirt trailing behind her in a swift dance, glistening under the soft sunlight filling out the tent. Neytiri tilted her head slightly at the movement with an approving hum and beside her Tsahik nodded in agreement. Y/N felt herself melting under their gazes.
"Oh Eywa," Kiri’s voice brought her back into a state of insecurity.
Y/N twirled once more, this time weaker, discouraged by the tone. She ran her hands over the beaded top, before staring back at her friend in anticipation.
"What's wrong with this?"
"Nothing," Kiri shook her head, "You just look so beautiful.”
“You look perfect, my child,” like her mother’s voice, Neytiri spoke to Y/N with such surety and tenderness, that all of the worries were now melting away.
"Can I steal her for a moment?"
Everyone's head snapped at the future Olo'eyktan walking in, his eyes glistening at the sight of Y/N in the beautiful garments she had woven for the ceremony. It was too soon for him to be there, to ruin this moment of her bonding with the women in his life, but Neteyam didn't care. Couldn't care if he had to, he was eager to get her alone, to wash away his anxiousness once more before they were mated before the whole clan.
His grandmother tsksed loudly, Neytiri throwing a disapproving glance, and before anyone could really protest how improper it was of Neteyam out of all people to disrupt the tradition, Y/N was already apologizing and running out of the tent.
"Come," his hand found hers like an instinct and pulled her gently towards his ikran, "The Mother Tree is beautiful at this time."
"But there are preparations for the ceremony," she scrunched up her nose at the thought of so many people seeing them.
"Don't worry, we'll just sneak a look and be out of there," Neteyam reassured.
As Y/N followed Neteyam's lead, her heart raced with a mixture of excitement and nervousness. She couldn't believe she was going against tradition, breaking away from the preparations for the ceremony. But at the same time, she couldn't deny the thrill of being alone with Neteyam, away from prying eyes and expectations.
They reached the outskirts of the camp, where the dense forest greeted them with its familiar embrace. Neteyam led her to a secluded spot near the Mother Tree. The sunlight filtered through the leaves, casting a warm glow over the two of them.
"Close your eyes," he whispered, a mischievous smile playing on his lips. 
She rolled her eyes but complied anyway with a grin. She felt his touch as he sneaked something into her palm and closed it gently, something smooth and rounded and familiar but she couldn’t guess what it was.
Without waiting for his instructions, once his hand left hers, she opened her palm to find two wooden rings. Y/N looked back at Neteyam in a slight confusion, finding him already smiling at her, his freckles glowing with particular brightness.
“I made these out of the root of the Mother Tree,” he explained softly, “One for you, one for me.”
“They’re beautiful,” she whispered, examining the rings up closer, noticing the small patterns needled into them. 
“I know it seems a little simple but let me explain first,” Neteyam stole one of the rings back, twirling it in between his fingers, “Where my father comes from, there was no ceremony before Eywa but there was something similar… a tradition,” he paused to gulp down, suddenly a rush of nervousness overwhelming him, “The couples would exchange rings to symbolize their love for each other. And they would wear it for the rest of their lives to show how their hearts still belong to each other, that they will always be connected.”
Gently, taking her free hand into his Neteyam pondered for a moment before sliding the ring onto her finger. Silently, his eyes asked for approval, and once he noticed hers glistening with the tears of joy and a faint smile forming on her lips, he smiled too, sealing the bond. It fit perfectly, he hadn’t guessed it, of course it would. He held her hand too many times not to know.
“This means…” she whispered, her voice filled with too many emotions, “I want to be connected to you too.”
Without a thought, she slid the other ring onto his finger and ran over the patter with care. His fingers quickly intertwined with hers, the wooden rings clinking from the touch as if Eywa suddenly clinked all of her bellflowers to signify the success of the union. Eager now to express his love, Neteyam cupped her face quickly, resting his forehead against hers with a toothy grin.
“You’re mine now, and I am yours,” he announced happily, coaxing a joyful laughter out of her.
His mouth quickly caught that sound, she nearly stumbled but Neteyam’s hands were firm and steady, pulling her into him. His lips felt so natural against hers, it felt like they were molded off each other and no one, not even Eywa herself, could plan how perfect they seemed to be right in this moment.
As they pulled away, Y/N glanced at the ring again with genuine warmth in her eyes. For the first time in years, she felt happy unconditionally, without fear of losing it. A few more tears streamed down her face.
“Well, now my gift will look lame,” she mocked playfully through the tears, coaxing a chuckle out of Neteyam.
Shaking his head, he reached out to gently wipe away a tear from her cheek. 
"No gift you could ever give me would be considered lame," he assured.
Slowly, she reached into her pouch, carefully taking out the necklace she had prepared to give him during the ceremony. The one that he got a glimpse of the other night, but she was so quick to hide. Woven with intricate patterns it reminded Neteyam of the necklace worn by his grandfather. He took a small breath; his fingers grazed over the beads and feathers to try and feel everything he could at once.
“I made this for you to wear,” she whispered softly, like she was scared he wouldn’t like it.
Unmistakably, it was a necklace worthy of an Olo’eyktan. The colors, the patterns, the size. It was too fancy to be worn by the other clan members, too clanky and beautiful to be used every day. Very fitting to show a status. With trembling hands, he took the necklace into his hands, marveling at its beauty. 
“Are you sure?” Neteyam gulped, looking back at her with uncertainty.
“You don’t like it?”
“I do,” he was quick to interrupt her before she could jump to conclusions, “No. I mean, of course, I like it! But I don’t know if I can wear it… it looks like something…”
“Something like an Olo’eyktan would wear.”
Neteyam nodded in agreement, his own insecurity of his status and fear of leading one day washed over him. He might have prepared for the change his whole life but no one chose him. His father was chosen, but Neteyam was never the leader that his people asked for. Sure, he was strong and brave and smart but was he capable of being the one? These thoughts would often consume his mind with a rotten feeling of incapability, vulnerability that would ultimately make him question everything about himself. So why was she sure of him?
“Well, you are the Olo’eyktan. My Olo’eyktan,” she assured with a soft smile, as if guessing his thoughts. And just like that, he felt the weight fall off his shoulders.
Her faith in him was like a guiding light, illuminating the path that seemed so unknown and dark before. He realized that it wasn't about living up to the expectations of others; it was about doing his best while he had her by his side.
Neteyam, suddenly flustered by the way she was looking at him, eyes so full of love and admiration, looked down. His eyes caught the blue and instinctively almost his fingers reached to graze the blue feathers of the too familiar necklace. Y/N shivered at the touch.
“You know how I saw a woman in my vision, during my Dream Hunt?” he whispered, looking back up at her.
Y/N nodded with an understanding, showing that it wasn’t something she could forget. The memory has set in motion the whole ordeal, their mating, their fate.
“I couldn’t see her face… I thought it was only a sign I was ready, that it wasn’t anyone in particular that Eywa was showing to me,” Neteyam continued, lost in his own thought, “But there was something odd about her… a long necklace, just like yours, with blue feathers, going all the way down… too long to be worn by anyone else. I thought it was odd but then... what isn’t odd about getting a vision from Eywa during your Dream Hunt?” Neteyam chuckled and paused, waiting for Y/N’s reaction, “It was you, wasn’t it? From the beginning, it was destined to be you and me.”
Y/N put her hand over his, the one that was still holding onto her necklace, her eyes widening in surprise. Her heart raced at the revelation, and just like a confirmation, she noticed a woodsprite floating around the two of them. Eywa makes no mistakes.
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the end!
this was lazily edited so please don't mind me, i'm just glad to have put out this final chapter! i hope you enjoyed the series, i know i did, thank you!
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