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Finally finished spoiler!

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Bothering the beast

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All this mlp on my timeline again reminds me of the one time I went to some local donut shop in a Mystery Skulls shirt and cashier spotting it and said.

"oh, are you a brony?"

I wish I left my mortal coil in that moment.

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I didn’t miss that social cue I just thought it was stupid 

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((I have been coughing at a slowly-increasing intensity for nearly two weeks now. I have to sleep sitting up to get any rest, and the coughing is now so intense that I'm all but throwing up at the end of the fits. Work has turned me away twice bc I sound like I'm dying. I have gone to the walk-in hours at my GP's location three times now bc their all booked up for appointments through June and:

Doctor #1, on day 6: "It's just allergies. Take this steroid and wear a mask."

Doctor #2, on day 11: "Thaaat doesn't sound like allergies...also sorry you reacted badly to the steroid and had to stop taking it. Here's some antibiotics."

Doctor #3, on day 14: "Because you didn't power through that steroid you reacted badly to, you didn't treat this properly and now your coughing triggers cough spasms. Take this other steroid for a week and go back to work. You're fine if they can tolerate the coughing."

I am. Screaming. I have spent almost as much on prescription pickups in the last two weeks as I have walk-in co-pays. I have stress-crocheted three and a half scarves. I'm either not getting paid this cycle OR I'm going to lose all my PTO to this once incident and not a SINGLE. PERSON. I'VE SEEN ABOUT THIS. HAS SAID THE SAME THING-

I just want to go back to work I am so done with dry heaving every time I breathe too deep or too shallow or swallow funny or speak too loud-))

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We ask your questions so you don’t have to! Submit your questions to have them posted anonymously as polls.

#OOC #((mom made the threat thousands of times when I was growing up)) #((she followed through with it the first time too)) #((ended up throwing out a beloved stuffed animal and a toy that I had borrowed from a classmate)) #((had to replace the toy AND put the fear of God in me for 20+ years)) #((it uh....kind of backfired tho)) #((I'm in therapy now I'm working on it))

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((Opinion time my dashboard friends...))

#OOC #((signal boost))

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#OOC #((I have missed an entire week of work to this respiratory hell)) #((I am SO done with whatever this is))

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"I cant draw" then do it bad who gives a fuck.....

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i’m obsessed with the mum from ponyo. driving single lane on a cliff edge? drift those turns in your nissan cube. husband has to work an extra shift? tell him to fuck off in morse code. pet fish turned into a child on your driveway? adopt her. town drowned in a tsunami? leave your 5 year old in charge, he’s the man of the house now

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((So the person renting my parents' attached in-law suit is supposedly leaving next month, and my parents 'offered' to have me move in after him as a stepping stone to true independence.

And I put 'offered' in quotes there because my mother had already started sourcing free furniture off of Facebook before I ever said yes (loveseats, console tables, lamps, rugs, etc.), and while I told them that I appreciate the gesture (three utilities included + a $200 concession on rent) I was still doing the math and reducing forgotten subscriptions and didn't know if I could afford it.

I now feel trapped because I have one month to commit and be ready to start paying or bail and start up a family-wide argument bc my sister thinks this is a good idea, too. I have no basis for what my water, AC, or power bills might be per month, I have to rework my gas and grocery estimates due to circumstances and new meds, and I'd have so little left at the end of the month that a single Problem like a car accident or a really bad cold that keeps me out of work longer than I have PTO for would come straight out of my savings.

I feel like I can't back out because my mother clearly wants me out of her space, but I also don't trust her to be my landlord. I've already spent years watching her enter other renter's buildings w/o the 24hr prior notice and come back complaining about how they decorated, how they do their laundry, how they organize, etc..She already does that to my face, but I don't want to live with the anxiety of imagining what she'll say to my dad behind my back, now.

I feel like I'm being set up to fail and have to come crawling back to my childhood bedroom in a year or two with slashed savings and shredded mental health, but I have no other options bc there are no other apartments within an hour's drive of my workplace that rent for anything less than $1576...and if I can barely afford my parents' in-law suite, I damn sure can't afford that.

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there's a cherry blossom tree in DC that keeps blooming every year even though it shouldn't and the park service keeps thinking it's dead and then it keeps blooming! well they're removing a lot of trees to rehabilitate the area and they've said it's finally time for stumpy to go and they're going to mulch it and use the mulch to enrich all the other trees so it can help everything else keep going. and they're also going to plant spliced little pieces of it all over so that stumpy can live forever and this is genuinely sending me into a spiral

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Hi I have a question about Pacific Rim. Given that the sparring is just A way to test for drift compatibility and any activity that requires people to collaborate and anticipate each others moves works, including stuff like multi player video games

Can you test for drift compatibility via improv comedy

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For those of you who weren’t able to get 100% of the total solar eclipse today… I gotchu <3

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HI ACES

decided to do a fun poll bc I love the ideas of cards and its Asexuality Awareness Day! If you dont identify with any feel free to come back when the poll is done <3

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((Just found out that my grandaunt passed last week. :c We weren't super-close, but she was always nice to me at family functions.

Why do you always learn the cool facts about someone after they pass? I never knew she had a music degree...))

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