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this episode gives me heart palpitations. the pure, selfish concern on her face oh my GOD.

and he knows she's worried, he's trying to joke around because if she's worried then HE'S worried about HER in return and why do they always separate jesus fucking christ

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How adorable is this.

do you believe in fate? well, i want to believe!

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Hiiii! I insanely love your work! Would you like to write a fic of scully always saying “oh my god I’m coming” when Mulders rubs her when fucking? Our man Mulder can tell the exact time when she will say it 😂

She's beautiful, raw, and vulnerable. He doesn't know what makes him feel luckier: the fact that he's able to read her so readily, or the fact that she trusts him enough to allow him to see her like this.

He's grateful for either option.

She's pliant and warm in his lap, her skin velvet soft and dewy with the light misting of perspiration that has gathered from their exertions. Her previously shower-damp hair has become humid and mildly frizzy, contributing to her beautifully wild look as he runs his palms up and down her bare back. She's panting as he thrusts, her little hands resting on his shoulders for leverage. Each exhale of her breath brushes lightly in his chest hair.

"Oh..." she whispers, "Oh...Mulder...oh yeah..."

Her voice is husky, devoid of oxygen, and he can discern the little twitches in her pelvis that denote her impending orgasm. She feels so damn good, so hot and wet and snug, and he knows the minute he feels that first pulse he's not going to last.

Gotta make this good for her. Always gotta make it so good for her.

He peppers kisses along her jawline and down her throat, knowing she responds positively to passion-coincided gentleness. He feels the vibration of her moan against his lips as he skillfully edges his middle finger to where they are joined, seeking out her slick clit. He knows she's sensitive tonight when he feels her nails dig sharply into the ball of his shoulder. Her other hand clasps his wrist, holding his rubbing fingers in place between her legs.

"Oh—" she gasps, "Oh yeah...oh—"

Any moment now, he prays as he concentrates on kissing, stroking, and thrusting, any moment now she's going to make that sweet little grunt and she's going to come un—

"Oh...oh my god, I'm coming..." Her eyes slip closed as her brow furrows, her hips writhing against his. Almost immediately the very-rare-to-impossible happens and he feels his balls seize, his body melding to hers as they slowly fall headlong over the cliff of blissful oblivion. Their mouths meet messily, not so much kissing as it is sharing their frantic breaths.

She breathes quiet little "oh my god"s against his lips as she slowly, steadily descends, and he does his best to brush her hair from her eyes in a somewhat coordinated fashion. He shivers with aftershocks, the ghost of her voice telling him she's coming threatening to pool his blood again well before he's ready.

"How do you always know," she breathes against the crook of his jaw, "exactly what I need?"

He chuckles into her sweat-dampened hair.

"Let's just say you make it easy for me," he replies affectionately.

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DANA SCULLY & FOX MULDER The X Files, ‘Home Again’

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Fic: in conclusion

Fandom: The X-Files

Pairing: Mulder/Scully

Rating: T

Word count: 3.370

Tagging @today-in-fic

Summary:

“What were you thinking about?” she asks.

He lets out a small laugh. “I was thinking about…you know. Human connections. What they are and how we define them. And why we need to put them into neat little categories that we specifically make up for them. Don’t you ever just wonder what makes relationships – any kinds of relationships – what they are?”

It's the middle of the night in a freezing cold motel room and they both haven't slept. The best time and place to figure out how relationships work -- theirs in particular.

Note: I have written another one! I guess I am so far down this rabbit hole that I may as well buy some furniture, because it seems I live here now. How I have ever stayed away this long is a mystery to me. I love those two. Set this wherever in the timeline, I don't think it matters much.

Read here on AO3

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…or keep us painfully, desperately apart.

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👽 X-Files Season 7 Fic, Part 11

There are so many great stories set in season 7 of The X-Files! Here are even more, following seven prior sets of season 7 fic recs. There are a lot of good season 7 stories. Enjoy! Parts 1 ** 2 ** 3 ** 4 ** 5 ** 6 ** 7 ** 8 ** 9 ** 10 Aquinnah by Anjou Axiom by allimarie Birthday Series by @syntax6 Hallowed by OnlyTheInevitable (@gaycrouton) Harmonice Mundi by @aloysiavirgata Into the Light by @msrafterdark keeping count by scullyism Learning Curve by JLB Mezzo Luna by msk Secret Spots by @baronessblixen Strangers and the Strange Dead by Kipler throat, eye and knucklebone by audries (@audriesfic) Untitled by @aloysiavirgata Untitled by @aloysiavirgata Untitled "Millennium" fic by @aloysiavirgata Untitled "Orison" crossover fic by @aloysiavirgata Wishes by @baronessblixen

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Your worst nightmare is your platonic co-worker betraying you? That's it? That's all you got?

Girl never been in sales..

THE X-FILES 3.23 ↠ Wetwired

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Mulder would 1000% have been Ems dad. Like Scully wouldn't even be able to stop him. He would just be like. "Scully I love you, yes?" Reluctant nod from Scully. "She is mini you, and theoretically still cooruptable..."

X Files but they got to keep the psychic children Emily and William

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Tell me you are from the U.S. without telling me you are from the U.S.

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(insp) 

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Now I see it too!! They both just want adventure.

If you squint, Anastasia (1997) is just an X-Files MSR AU

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Fic Masterpost

So, in the spirit of full disclosure - all the X-Files fiction I’ve ever written, as memory serves. And some thoughts on how this fine fandom has taught me to write. 

Starbuck (circa 1998)

I’m not kidding, this is really embarrassing, absolute beginner stuff, but we all start somewhere and it’s interesting in an evolutionary sense. I found these on  Zuffy’s X-Files Homepage.

Without The Bee  -  I couldn’t bring myself to look at this one. That title says it all. 

Agents of Change: Return from Antarctica  -  Obsessions—the Scott Expedition and the X-Files—collide. Rough early days, but probably with hints of potential. A legit turkey of a title! 

Penumbra 1998 - 2009

(I’m not going to bother with Gossamer links.) Learning the ropes as I went. Oblivious to so, oh so many things. Rickety, untrained writing, but mindlessly in love with creatively inspired by the churlish charms of our two razzle-dazzle creatures of the night. 

Contact High  -  The last line was plagiarized, pure and simple, from one of Gerald Durrell’s books about his childhood in Corfu. It’s bothered me ever since, so the big thing I took from this experience: by all means steal the rhythm of something, but at least change a word or two. 

Vespers  -  Very stoned ramblings. Inspired by John Leonard’s X-Files essay in The Nation that I’d managed to extract off a microfiche in a university library. I have a soft spot for this fic, probably because Khyber picked it very analytically apart, which was like having Jonathan Galassi or someone suddenly pay attention to you. He introduced me to ‘show, don’t tell’, a paralyzing concept if ever there was one, which I yet only fitfully grasp.

Black Hole Season  -  Still breakin’ all the rules. This one was hugely popular, and amidst all the ballyhoo, Punk Maneuverability emailed me and quietly said: ‘Please pick a POV and a tense and stick with it’—vastly important advice that I was probably too full of myself to heed. This one won a Spooky award, one of the greatest moments of my life that I had to keep completely to myself (therein lies the painful crux of fanfiction.)

Parabiosis  -  I was eating cereal and flipping through the dictionary, and there it was: parabiosis. Who knows what it means. I didn’t have a computer, and was working in the mountains, so I wrote the whole thing out on paper several times, unimaginable now. It flowed through my brain as I scrambled through the woods in the evenings. Nothing will ever be that easy again.

Honeymoon Video  -  Promising title, not much there.

The Cretan Paradox  -  Americana. JET sent me an ear of corn from a corn maze, because she’s thoughtful like that. 

Free Beer Night at the Astrodome  -  Cut years ago in despair out of Heuvelmans’; I think part of it went back in. 

Fathoms Five  -  In one of Gerald Durrell’s books about his childhood in Corfu, his brother steps in a swamp and says that his shoe is ‘full of fathoms five’, so that’s where I got that Shakespearean misquote. I resisted writing this for a long time, but it would creep into my mind as I was falling asleep. I think this is a pretty good story, but it could have used one more draft, so since then, I’ve resolved never to rush to post. Events of this year kind of date this story now. However, it’s rather pleasant to read about a careless, joint-passing, COVID-free 2020.

Fathoms Five Outtakes and gag reels - Sorry about the glitchy old site and bad font.

A random smut biscuit  -  Uncharacteristic, I know!

Octopods  - I loved this one, but it never fit in anywhere.

∩dsᴉpɐᴉsᴉnɯ -  Very flawed, because it was written and posted under a fund-raiser time crunch. I really should overhaul it. The X-Files was ending and I was so depressed when I wrote it, and that’s an unfortunate tincture to saddle a story with. 

The Inscrutable Pair  -  How The X-Files taught me to embrace ambiguity. Goreyesque nonsense à la Gashlycrumb Tinies that also troubles itself to rip off Eliot and Homer. 

(7-Year Cold-Turkey Hiatus From the X-Files)

Gave away DVDs, got some perspective, did a little growing up, tried and failed to write a screenplay, two novels, etc. Then they put The X-Files on Netflix. One lonely night, I thought: what could it hurt to watch Darkness Falls? 44 minutes later, with shaking hands, going for the hard stuff—Redux II. Lol, the hard stuff of ancient philes. 

The Mythopoeic*  2016  - 

Heuvelmans’ On the Track - The nearly suicidal heartbreak that surrounds this story—it was the first X-Files fic I got bogged down in and couldn’t finish, and it left me with a huge mental stigma—sweetens its completion. Under its shadow I tried to become a Real Writer, without success. Give things time, I learned. Just keep working hard. The initial failure of this story taught me stuff that I now wouldn’t trade for anything. 

*I came back just intending to hang out with Philes, and didn’t want to make a big deal, and had no intention of posting fic, so I gave little thought to the name. But, characteristically ostentatious name, check. Still keepin’ it real, pure and self-taught, a bit closer to what Chuck Palahniuk calls a ‘kitchen-table MFA’. Check.

But what I really want to say is this. It wouldn’t have occurred to me to try writing if I hadn’t been in this marvelous fandom, having the method and the means demonstrated all around me by wonderfully competent and encouraging writers for whom I felt such reverence that having them reach out or comment on stuff was earth-shaking. They showed the way, and I followed. Hands on my heart, friends, I owe you everything.

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I think we see this play out even more in a variety of episodes. His destruction in Demons, doing something dangerous because her cancer is getting worse and he needs some tread to find out how to help her. In Redux He very clearly tells CSM Scully is all that matters to him. He is prepared to give up everything for her to be ok. Krycek sees mulders devotion to scully in Season 2. He makes it clear she is a bigger problem than they realize. Csm thinks he can use this as Mulders weakness without realizing that Scully is Mulders strength. Mulder would easily have self destruction long before on his own if it wasn't for her.

Mulder chooses Scully everytime. He chooses her over Samantha in end game. In dod kalm he wants her to have the water. In paper clip her need to see Melissa overrides the digital tape that has all the answers he might have ever sought.

I think part of this is why Scully loses it in Wetwired. Mulder has chosen her over and over to imagine he would betray her is so fundamentally wrong it breaks her.

Then you have cancer. You have Mulder remembering her birthday because he doesn't want the last birthday she might ever have not be special. Because she has to know he loves her.

I think Diana fucks them both up a bit. Mulder has no idea why Scully is so off with Diana. Because to Mulder it was never a choice. He doesn't understand why she is making it so personal, when Diana is not personal to him. He begs for Scully. He mutters her name in his sleep. He feels like he has made himself so clear. But then you have Padgett pointing out that Scullys love is her internal struggle. She doesn't struggle with loving Mulder she struggles with the sheer force of what loving him in every way means.

I think Mulder explaining that she is the one person that he truly trusts, the one person which he knows is with him in Amor Fati pushes that last little bit for her. Because now despite what she feels she can't give him, he is adamantly saying she has and always will be enough.

I have an insane amount of feelings about Mulder breaking down by Scully's bedside in Redux II. No, not breaking down. He doesn't break down. He breaks. For a moment, all his walls crumble and we get to see everything he's holding inside, to a point where it seems almost voyeuristic to be watching. Sure, it's shippy af -- he so obviously loves her and carries all this fear and despair that wants out. But it's so much more too.

He doesn't wake her. He needs this moment for himself. It's too private for even her to see. As so many things in his life, this is a burden he thinks he's supposed to carry on his own. He doesn't want her to worry about whether or not he's going to be okay without her. Because we get to see here, more clearly than ever before, that he doesn't think he would be. This is him being completely and utterly broken by the fear of losing her.

And it doesn't look like a moment he let's himself have because he needs to; it looks like a moment that just happens to him because his world is shattering into pieces and the shards are cutting into his soul until he can't ignore the bleeding any longer. His body can't keep going. And then he glues the pieces back together as much as he can and keeps going anyway.

But that moment is so far beyond seeing him vulnerable. He's in so much pain. And he's all alone in it. Because the one person who would be able to understand and to hold him together is the one person he can't share this with.

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It got even cuter!!!

Warm enough?

Hello?! Scully is so adorable and cuddly in Ice.

TXF Fanart ☆ MSR Fanart

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I would also read this. Reid also might point out how much Mulder adores Scully. And Mulder would just be like duh.

I do not like cross-fandom fics or crossovers in general but,, BUT,, if it happened to be X files and Criminal Minds (and mayhaps Supernatural 👀👀), I would read it SO quick. And bc Mulder used to profile serial killers under the behavioral science unit at Quantico, it would be PERFECT BASIS FOR A CM CROSSOVER!!! Ex profiler teams up with current profilers for a case that involves and/or could count as an X file?? OHH unsolved serial killing case re-examined and discovered to fit with an X file so both teams called in?? And along the way they find brothers Sam and Dean suspicious and they seem fucking crazy but Mulder and Scully are like "no wait,, wait,, 🤨🤨🤨 they've got a point" and the bau just like ??? Cause these people seem batshit insane cause they're talking about monsters and aliens, but it works!!! And the criminal is under some other worldly influence, but that's just how it goes. Ohhhh, Mulder and Reid would love and hate each other bc they'd find the other so interesting and funny even, but they'd disagree on everything. Scully and JJ would be good friends, I think. Ahh this is turning kinda cringey I apologize but I've been thinking about this for a while hahah (I just started s2 of X files and s12(?) of CM)

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Fucking beautiful

Gothic