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Today you sat in my room until 3 am working on your embroidery. I knitted a sock.

You have a spot on my bed. I put your favorite pillow there before you arrived. It's the one with the armrests, and you lean over and let me put my head on your shoulder while we watch movies.

#ahaha i'm fucked #lesbian #butch #love

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Chaotic academia is

1.) Intense obsessions that last maybe two weeks but consume your soul

2.) Spacing out in class but loving to learn

3.) Swearing and slang while discussing deep academic topics

#the saga continues

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Jesus Christ, the one and only Son Of God The Father, died on the cross for your sins. He was not sent here to condemn us, but to save us(John 3:16-17)! He knows you more than anyone else! You are wonderful and loved by Him. Let Him lead your life, and love Him with all that you are.

This is fascinating to me. I’d love to think you’re not a bot. It makes me feel special.

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Today I found out I will not be able to attend at least the first month of my first semester of university in person. Though I prepared for and anticipated this, I’m very disappointed as this is something I’ve looked forward to and worked hard for for a long time. That being said, I have wonderful parents who are helping me turn our spare bedroom into a study space for me to attend online classes in, which should give me some nice aesthetic content for this blog in the future.

#why did i choose to cross an international border for college? #do i have stupid? #i think so #but still #there is a silver lining #i get to design a cool new study space #maybe i'll repaint the room grey

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Aggressive Academia

When you low key hate academia but would beat someone over the head with a book before you left the community

#its me #i don't post here but yall keep it coming #academia #chaotic academia #chaos academia #dark academia #light academia #grey academia #gray academia #punk academia #academia aesthetic #aesthetic

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Me, seeing a bug: Nice Kafka reference

#just saw one and named him gregor #the metamorphosis #gregor samsa #franz kafka #kafka #literature memes #literature #litblr

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False confessions are so cool, man. Like, as a writer, nothing gives me more joy than psychology, and in psychology, nothing gives me more joy than false confessions. They’re just neat.

#writing #psychology #academia #chaotic academia #studyblr #writing memes #writer problems #false confessions

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Someday, I will be where I want to be. Every book I read, every paper I turn in, every semester I complete is one step closer. I was far away once, but now I am twice as close, maybe even more. Just keep going. One day at a time. One word at a time. One dream at a time.

#this is about the fact that i am roughly a year away from embarking on the biggest journey of my life #and about three years away from something ive wanted since i was two years old #inspiration #studyblr #study inspiration #academia #chaotic academia #dark academia #light academia #grey academia

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Dark Academia Books for Students of Politics and International Relations:

I mean, heck, I am no expert but my need to see this niche ass post is a lot so here goes.

The Prince: Machiavelli- do I NEED to explain this one. Its a seminal text in politics and political philosophy and when you listen to the ideas described in it they can sound a little crazy but once you read it you realise they are still crazy but grounded in something very real. Also its short as heck and an easy read.

Politics among Nations: The Struggle for Power and Peace- Hans J Morgenthau. I had to pick this one up for my coursework last semester and I thought it would be a snooze fest but no. I was drawn in and I haven’t finished it since but I do plan to get back to it at my leisure.

The End of History and the Last Man: Francis Fukuyama- YES, I fundamentally disagree with Fukuyama on so many points. YES, it is still one of my favourite books of all time. it is a very riveting discussion of political philosophy, history and international relations. If you are interested in any of those topics, pick it up. You won’t regret it.

How Democracy Ends: David Runciman- captivatingly written, great arguments, and a very unique voice. Super relevant in today’s international political atmosphere and if you are interested in studying the rise of right wing authoritarian governments across the globe, this is a great place to start.

Thomas Hobbes: Leviathan- another one that I just feel like i don’t need to explain. Again haven’t read it fully yet, but its quite chill inducing and the basis for most of the contemporary discussion on state, liberalism, authoritarianism, rights and so forth. 

These were just my recommendations, and I by no means claim that they cover the entire gamut of the field. In fact, I would consider myself a noob still where texts relating to politics or IR are concerned, so feel free to give your recommendations and opinions as well!  

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Peak aesthetic is sharing an office with your best friend. You’re both working on the same project. There’s a comfortable silence broken only by the scratch of pencils, the click of keyboards, and the occasional dazed conversation. Totally absorbed, totally at peace. 

#academia #aesthetic #science #stem #literature #chaos academia #chaotic academia #grey academia #dark academia #light academia

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Don’t feel bad for “losing your edge” right now. This is the time for your mind to recover, to rest and expand and explore new things. You will find yourself again, I promise.

#quarantine #quarantine academia #lmao #academia #chaotic #chaos academia #chaotic academia #dark academia #light academia #grey academia #mental health

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Chaotic academia is based on a lack of trust in the institutions that have historically driven academia. If you have the urge to physically fight the College Board, then congrats, welcome to your new subculture. 

#academia #punk #rebellion #chaotic academia #chaos academia #college board #the college board

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Chaotic academia is very close to punk, yes, I know. It’s just punk but for people who like writing out their protests instead of shouting them in the streets.

#tbh most of us do both #punk #punk academia #academia #chaotic academia #chaos academia

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Chaotic academia is over-analyzing cheesy TV shows until you’ve completely outstripped the author’s intent

#chaotic academia #academia #chaos academia #literature #analysis #literary analysis

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Sometimes... academia means going outside and looking at a frog for extended periods of time... maybe seeing a bee... peaceful

#stem meets cottagecore #academia #light academia #grey academia #gray academia #dark academia #cottage academia #cottagecore #lesbian #stem #stem major #biology #ecology #frogs #bees

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Historical preservation doesn’t just happen in museums. It happens when you’re walking in the woods and you make the choice not to push at that old rock wall. It happens when you find the time to go down to the battle reenactment near you. It happens when you learn what’s happened on the soil under your own feet and consider what it means to leave something behind.

Historical preservation is protecting what’s left of people’s lives, even if you’ll never meet them.

#god i love history #its so fucking important #politically socially emotionalky #everything #academia #history #historical preservation #chaotic academia #history buff #education #preservation

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You know you must have learned this, but you can't remember where or when

Unintellgible scribbles filling pages of notebooks (you can call it "asemic writing")

Jars and bins of things organised according to some theme, you just can't figure out what

Blue-light headaches from late-night conspiracy binges

Doing the wrong assignment at the right time

The feeling that you should know how to play a classical instrument

Chaotic academia (dark academia without the elegance):

Having one dusty record on the turntable that hasn't been touched in weeks.

Spare change shoved deep into pockets.

Rips in the lining of a wool coat.

Dyeing a shirt black to fit the occasion instead of getting a new shirt.

Listening to the same tape over and over and over.

Taking half an hour to get to the point of your anecdote.

Word vomit.

Bending a paperback in half when you read it.

Bobbing a foot up and down when you sit with your legs crossed.

Tea stains.

Tea rings on every surface.

Empty cups everywhere.

Plants that somehow manage to cling to life.

Piles of newspapers in the bathroom, kitchen, next to the sofa, everywhere.

Old light bulbs because new ones are bright white and inferior.

Being very passionate about many things at the same time.

Knowing a little bit about a lot of things.

Essentially being a glorified hoarder.