#( let's have some ache )

[reineydraws]

Saw your Mishanks bodyswap art! Very cute and fun! (Mihawk with a genuine smile on his face so so fun)

I imagine Shanks whould have trouble fighting in Mihawk's body at first since it's been years since he's had two arms

yes absolutely, i imagine that too! conversely, i think mihawk would have a little bit of trouble adjusting his balance and reach with a body missing one arm, as well. it's interesting to think about how they both would be forced to change their fighting style, and whether or not they would exchange swords.

mihawk's been seen using yoru with just one hand so he could probably pull it off with shanks's body. also interesting to think about shanks tripping up on having two arms until he naturally slips into his old fighting style again--or would he? because there's also the question of muscle memory, right? would mihawk's body automatically do things that shanks isn't predisposed to doing, and vice versa?

the other thing i find intriguing about body swapping in one piece is the question of whether or not your haki powers would switch as well. they say haki is spiritual presence, so presumably your haki switches if your spirits switch, but if it's the kind of spirit that's tethered to the presence of the body? then consider mihawk having the strongest conqueror's haki out on the blues, or shanks being able to use observation haki at mihawk's level, practically being able to predict the future--or mihawk, able to counter with shanks's haki-kill technique. food for thought!

#rei replies #one piece #mishanks body swap au #mishanks #akataka #dracule mihawk #shanks #akagami no shanks #red haired shanks #re: the genuine smiling #i also like to think shanks in mihawk's body would have this moment where he realizes his cheeks ache from all the smiling he's doing lol #bc mihawk's facial muscles arent used to doing it #and when they switch back shanks teases mihawk about it ('you exercise so many of your muscles hawky but your cheeks? they're weak!') #and he manages to get a smile out of mihawk that's mihawk's version of a genuine smile and it's softer and less wide but it's honest #and oh shanks is soooooo in love with him hahaha #BY THE WAY ALSO I JUST THOUGHT OF THIS OMG but in this body-swapped au mihawk-as-shanks would 100% shave for shanks #like hell is he gonna let shanks grow *stubble* on *his* face. dracule mihawk with STUBBLE? banish the thought!!!!!! #but shanks doesnt do it up to his standards so there's totally a scene where mihawk and shanks are body swapped in the bathroom #and mihawk is standing too close and shaving his lil pointy sideburns and mustache onto shanks's face #and shanks is having a crisis because that's his own face breathing too close and waaaay to intimately but that look of concentration #is ALL mihawk. shanks can practically his eyes--so familiar from the mirror and wrinkled with laugh lines--glow yellow with how #much mihawk looks like himself right now even in shanks's body. #it's all very strange. shanks has been attracted to mihawk for a long time but it's just blatantly unfair that the first time in YEARS #theyre this close again and it's shanks's own body that he has to look at. on the upside he supposes all he needs to do to ogle #mihawk is to look down. pros and cons pros and cons. #(mihawk isnt having a crisis. mihawk is annoyed that hia beard is easier to do in first person it is to do in the third person. #surely not having to do it reflected in a mirror should be easier and yet for some reason everything feels off! ugh.) #i digress

[introspectivememories]

roger who's nickname for buggy was "junebug" cause they found him in june and his hair is the same color.... buggy who hates it at first until he's climbing into his captain's bed at night bc of a nightmare and his captain says ever so softly, "oh junebug, c'mere"..... the nickname getting adopted by everyone on the crew until nobody calls him buggy anymore..... them meeting up with thr whitebeard pirates and getting irrationally jealous when the whitebeards use the nickname bc that's their nickname and who the fuck do these people think they are getting so close to their junebug.... rouge who has never met buggy calling him junebug in her head.... roger whose last words to buggy that fateful day before loguetown was "you shine like the sun, junebug. never stop"..... buggy who waits for years after the execution for a call from one of his former crew members, hoping every time the den-den one day it'll be rayleigh or seagull or gaban or sunbell on the other side with a familiar "hey junebug", except no one ever calls and the years go by and buggy slowly learns to stop waits, and gives on being the roger's junebug and learns how to be buggy the clown, buggy the genius jester, buggy the immortal, everything and anything other than junebug

#the thing about buggy is that he is always loved but never enough yknow? #and he'll never be his dad's junebug again and it kills him some days #he'll never argue with shanks again and have rayleigh come and break them apart with a 'junebug! shanks! enough you're both dumbasses' #toki-neesan will never let him curl up with momo and hiyori again #those days are over and yet somedays he looks in the mirror and he is still 14 wtching his captain's head hit the ground with a splat #he is still 12 watching his dad walk away from them and knowing in his heart that this was the end #he is still 8 and climbing onto his new home and when his captain asks for his name he says 'buggy sir' and capt laughs and says #'what an ordinary name for a boy like you!' as shanks look ready to well shank capt for the perceived slight against buggy #he is still 8 and sitting on captain's shoulders as his dad says 'do you see how beautiful she is junebug? you carry her with you' #he'll never be junebug again but by god he wants it so badly he thinks he'll die from the ache of it #(junebug is dead and has been dead for a long time but smtimes when he sits by shanks and they're sharing a drink as they carefully tiptoe #around certain topics; shanks'll just Look at him and for one soft gut-wrenching moment junebug is alive again #and then the moment passes and they're back to being buggy and shanks: two broken men desperately trying to make sense of the cards #gave them) #op buggy #buggy the clown #buggy one piece #gol d. roger #roger pirates #anyway how y'all doin?

[shittywriterbrain]

i thought licking potentially dangerous things was a ten thing but the first doctor just put sweets from the fucking toymaker's world into his fucking mouth they really have always been that stupid

#also funny how it cut away from him collapsing and the title of the next episode appears on the screen “holiday for the doctor” #like “this man is clearly mentally slow and physically unwell. let's get him some sleep” #doctor who #classic who #first doctor #the celestial toymaker #also funny how it doesnt have any consequences besides him getting a tooth ache

[apollo18]

Head canon that I explore in one of my fics; not only does wisdom of Solomon sensor Billy but it also keeps him from being rude and forces him to use respectful language while he’s ‘working’(aka on a mission from shazam) to keep from starting diplomatic nightmares. (New 52 Billy would be boiling with rage every time the phrase “Mr. Batman, sir’ crosses his lips)

#so he’s a customer service worker basically with Solomon as the manager that is always watching 👁️👁️ #it bothers so many people in the justice league bc it makes him sound even more distant; it gets counter productive after a while #considering that in this fic shazam ordered him to join the league and help the other heroes he’s never ‘off the clock’ when hes around them #so he can’t ever let up on the honorifics unless he’s interacting with a league from a different dimension #that causes a lot of drama and heart ache for some of the heroes that have tried to ‘tear his walls down’ #billy batson #captain marvel #Shazam #also I love the phrase ‘Mr Batman sir’ so much bc of how childish it sounds and I make cap use it constantly #it’s so funny and it really plays up the ‘innocence of Billy batson’ angle

[silenthillbunni]

lately i've been finding it so so hard to be positive and hopeful. and it's making me so bitter and hateful. i hate it but i dont know what to do about it

#idk it's just all too much to deal w #i have sm pains and physical discomforts. money issues. stress bc my avpd is making school very hard for me to finish #i have suicidal thoughts and really bad anxiety every single day. i've basically begged the mental health care system for help for 7 months #like i've kept contacting them and asking them but they havent done anything at all for me. i dont even get to see anyone and talk #i just dont know what to do or how to handle it #im so stressed abt the future. i have to finish school but then choose smth so i can go to school/get a degree & get a job #im holding my mom down and back and i need to find a way to kove out from her and support myself #i have no friends to meet or hangout with and destress with etc etc and im really feeling the lack of it #idk the list just goes on and on and on #nothing is working and idk how to fix it. but also i know that me and only me have to find a way bc there is no help #i struggle bc of my avpd and mental health but there is no treatment for me to get. they just dont wanna give me *any* help at all #im just so frustrated. and every day is the same. everyday is full of some physical pain anxiety stress worries suicidal thoughts etc etc #i cant break free idk how!!!! my life is so fkn boring and pathetic and miserable #i never get to relax bc all of a sudden last year i got extremely noise sensitive. and it's never quiet anywhere in this city #anyway yeah i could just keep going. and like now im feeling anxious bc my tooth is aching :(( #it -everything- never stops or lets up or relents. and it makes me wanna die even more. #so... idk im just incapable of being hopeful abt anything and that's really killing me idk

[cookinguptales]

man, I don't know if it's like. residual emotional effects from yesterday, the physical toll it took on my body, hormones or just like. a general sense of malaise. but I just kind of want to lie in bed and cry today.

I just finished a work project, which is generally call for celebration, but I just. every time I try to work on a creative project instead, I feel like everything I make is awful. every time I try to just veg and watch something, I feel like I'm wasting my time. my brain is very... scratchy today, for lack of a better word.

idk, maybe I'm just mentally exhausted. I had to put on kind of a brave and friendly face for most of yesterday, but it was a pretty awful experience. the actual migraine(?) was terrifying, especially because the experience wasn't anything like other migraines I've had, the tests were stressful and painful and I'm having quite a few physical effects today because of them. and no matter how often it happens to me, there's something so specifically demoralizing about paying several hundred dollars to go to the hospital and stay there all day just for them to say "good news! we can't find anything wrong!" like that makes you feel any better at all when something clearly is.

idk how I feel so simultaneously over and underwhelmed today.

#vent post #I'd usually go for a walk to air out my brain but uh #let's just say that my body is very unhappy about some things that happened to it yesterday #plus the overall ache that comes from tensing up for an hour for an MRI #my joints are so fragile today and it's driving me nuts #I had to hold the call button in a weird angle during the MRI and MRA yesterday and my fingers hurt like hell by the end #and this morning they just won't do fucking anything I want #and they had to give me a large dose of zofran because I have bad reactions to MRI contrast #and uhhhhh let's just say that I'm not having a great reaction to that rn either #plus after all those attempts with the IV my arms are one big bruise #I'm whining sorry but today everything feels like a lot #maybe just feeling the things I didn't have space to yesterday idk

[sourstars]

watching barbie makes me think about all of the moments between female friends that went unsaid but we always understood.

the lingering hand holding; i see you. the hugs that last too long but never break until we are both ready; i see you. the checking your outfit for you to make sure you are clean and still comfortable unprovoked; i see you. the late nights and the calls and the unrestrained laughter that borders on ugly by social standards; i see you. the fixing of hair and sharing of secrets and possessions and dreams; i see you. the understandings we don’t talk about—the nightmares, the sleepovers we never had, the silent conversation in which we let break us; i see you. the tears of pain too deep to give name to; i see you. the anger, the fear that makes us lock it all away, keep our heart in the dark despite the burning want for family, however it comes; i see you. the exhaustion; i see you. the darkness and the light; i see you.

the women with too small hands to hold big dreams, big loves, big hurts, big aches; i see every single one of you and i offer my hands as support beams. i see you, i see you, i see you.

#just some thoughts i’m having tonight. have seen the movie twice. #i cried both times and i’ll cry again. #where is my girlhood? where did it drop along the road and i had not noticed the lack of the soft and warm sound of my unconditioned joy? #aimed at every identifying women. i see you and i miss you and i love you i miss my girlhood #woman* #barbie for the briefest moment reminded me that i did not deserve to be shamed for it #god i love barbie #i don’t care how weird it sounds. or how gut wrenching my sad i’m not deleting this one i want to feel this ache i’m letting myself do so #what a strange. cruel mercy #barbie #barbie the movie #am i buzzed out of my mind and had to have someone type for me? yes.

[rainymoodlet]

i mean legit the best example i can give of dan’s purposeful censorship of his life was in that last post tbh

his reality: horrific absolute monster deadbeat dad who made him and his family’s life a living hell

what he says: my dad was mean to my mom :(

#he’s not LYING… he just… refuses to go further fjdjjf #like if his siblings want to vent to him abt their dad??? go ahead #but dan is a Steel Fortress ugh #i could talk abt him for hours i’m sorry pff #it wasn’t that he was expected to be a protector or his mother or younger siblings assigned him that role - he’s just… like that #he decided very early on that he could Handle It - no matter what It was #because as long as someone could handle it they could all be okay #it wasn’t that he was expected to step between his mother and his father he just… did #and earlier in the same day he and his dad could have gone out hunting and sat in odd comfortable but not at all friendly or loving silence #but god… he’s been so repressed for so long #he only knows how to be there for others - i don’t think (even for as insightful and confident in himself #because of his years of introspection that he has) that i can properly even put into words #how much this man has mistaken having a restricted section in his library for healing and Moving On #he still has trouble hanging out with his siblings - he still feels guilt - he still feels like he’s been stuck in some strange limbo #of life. he’s very lucky to be where he is and doing what he loves #but some mornings he wakes up and he’s still that fourteen year old boy #whose face aches and ribs hurt and when he comes to… he doesn’t feel any ownership of the space he occupies #he’s just… there. #daniel is the boy who practices a few smiles as he pushes himself to sit in bed because he can hear his baby siblings running down #the hall to let him know breakfast is ready - and he told them yesterday that the broken nose was nothing and the black eye was fine #and giving them that relief will always come before the sick feeling in his stomach and the fear coiling around his neck #i could wax poetic abt this sumbitch for hours omg pls bless you if you read this AT ALL idk if anything i say abt daniel makes sense fjfhf #child abuse tw // #military yt man marries local selvadoradan beauty whose twenty years younger than him - does their eldest son have some #Serious Generational Trauma?? vote now on your phones!!! 📞 #dan takin a hit for everyone in the house at one point or another: light work no reaction #dan learning there’s cucumbers in his food: 😰😭😢🤕

[jinx-you-owe-me]

PART 20

of the dfk 2023 audiobook translation

@cnka

Narrator (audiobook): Robert puts another piece of wood on the trunk and swings the axe.

Bökh: „And you never wanted to get in touch?"

The Nichtraucher picks up a piece of wood.

Silence.

Nichtraucher: „Why should I? We didn’t see each other for the past ten years either.“

He rips the piece of wood apart with his bare hands. While holding eye contact with Justus.

Silence.

Justus lowers his head.

Jo: „Uh.. weren’t you-" Martina, quietly: „Jo, leave it. Lets go.“

Martina, louder: „We need to go! We still have something to do.“

The kids leave. Jo and Martina are holding hands as they walk away.

Bökh: „Yeah… Thank you, kids.“

Jo, whispering as they walk away: "What was that just now?!"

Robert picks up the chopped wood and walks back to his wagon. Justus looks after him.

Narrator (audiobook): If the two friends will find back together? Matze isn’t so sure of that.

Matze, sarcastically: „Well, that was a great success!“ Jo: „Yeah, so much for friendship between Internals and Externs.“

Narrator (audiobook): At least Robert granted Herr Bökh access to his wagon. He looks around lost in thought more or less, while Robert washes the dishes.

Dishes clatter. There is silence otherwise.

Justus stares wistfully at Robert while he washes the dishes.

Justus takes his eyes off Robert and starts looking around while Robert continues to ignore him.

Bökh: „I thought you were living in London.“ Nichtraucher: (silence) Bökh: „It's nice here.“ Nichtraucher: (silence)

Justus starts walking around.

Bökh: „I told the kids about our friendship.“ Nichtraucher: „As a cautionary tale?“ Bökh: (chuckles/scoffs) „No. Of course not.“

Narrator (audiobook): Bökh spots the poster of „the Bandits“, the same one hanging in his apartment.

Bökh: „The 'Wild Dog' that we always played in is still there.“

Nichtraucher: (silence)

Bökh: „Should we meet there sometime? For a beer?“

Robert looks up.

He lets out a small huff, almost like an incredulous laugh or a scoff.

He dries his hands on a towel and folds it.

Nichtraucher: (silence) Nichtraucher: „I don’t know what we would have to say to each other.“

Bökh: „Hm. Well. A lot of time has passed.“

Narrator (audiobook): Robert sits down at the table and lights himself a cigarette.

Justus turns as well and starts looking around again.

Nichtraucher: „Why didn’t you come to Marie’s funeral back then?“

Nichtraucher: „You didn’t even get in touch.“

[„You didn't even get in touch“ -> parallels to „And you never wanted to get in touch?“]

Justus is silent. He starts fiddling with his jacket and pulls it off his shoulder. He lets out a deep, shaky sigh and is silent for another few moments.

Bökh: „…I don’t know, you met her and… and suddenly you were gone.“

[Parallels to „suddenly your closest loved ones are gone“]

Bökh: „As if everything -our friendship, the band- as if that had all just been a dream.“

Justus turns around and looks at Robert.

Bökh: „Wir zwei. Wir hatten doch Pläne.“

Bökh: „That really hurt me.“ Nichtraucher: „It hurt you.“

Silence. Just the music.

Bökh: „Yes. Very much back then.“

The Nichtraucher lets out a soft incredulous laugh again, almost like a scoff.

Nichtraucher: „I see.“

Long silence. Justus stares out the window. Finally, he turns and walks to the door.

Bökh: „You know where to find me.“

Justus leaves the wagon. Robert nods to himself silently.

Narrator (audiobook): And with these words, Herr Bökh leaves his friend’s train wagon. If the two will ever see each other again?

#das fliegende klassenzimmer #dfk 2023 audiobook translation #dfk #das fliegende klassenzimmer 2023 #mine #this is the most scene of dfk 2023 to me. i am having so many feelings and thoughts about it #there is so much to unpack #i really hope this did it justice... the whole. silent staring obviously doesnt translate #the silence in general doesnt translate #i would recommend to actually watch the scene #the silence is so so pivotal #another addition; #ach gott ich nehm grad neue bilder auf weil diese szene hq wirklich wert ist #und ich komm immer noch nicht darüber hinweg dass justus den nichtraucher allen ernstes 7 SEKUNDEN LANG ANSTARRT WÄHREND DER SPÜLT #ich hab hier wirklich am image limit gekratzt #tbh mit dem foto von den kindern kann ich nichts anfangen aber es scheint nicht unwichtig zu sein so i included it #it cant be robert and justus cause these kids are waaayy too young #if robert and justus met in school #these kids are like. idk. 9?? #and i assumed they met when they were around the age of the kids in this movie #but maybe i got it wrong?? #its so funny at some point i dont even talk about the Main Things of this scene anymore and focus on the most miniscule details instead #thats probably bc ive watched it maybe 10 times now and literally know this scene by heart. but let us PLEASE talk about the Main Things #i am so ready to have endless discussions about justraucher #hopefully the last addition of tags; #ok honestly i made almost as many edits to the tags as i did to the post #cause i kept changing little things so my comments werent up to date anymore #i think this part will be my magnum opus out of them all. but who knows theres still 9 to come #i think it shows that this is my favourite 🙃 #oh yes i also added mentions to the parallels. felt like these were significant

[age-of-moonknight]

Timeless (Vol. 3/2023), #1.

Writers: Jackson Lanzing and Collin Kelly; Penciler and Inker: Juann Cabal; Colorist: Edgar Delgado; Letterer: Travis Lantham

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Timeless vol. 3 #Timeless 2023 #Timeless #Moon Knight comics #latest release #Moon Knight #Power Man #Luke Cage #let’s get this bread #ach I won’t get a chance to cover the rest of this issue in one sitting like I usually do #but I’ll get to it because??? I was very pleasantly surprised??? #I went into this with absolutely no expectations and ended up loving the art and some of the designs plus was reminded #of why I do have Danny Rand on my comic tbr list (e.g. gives off BIG «homeschooled» energy) #oh yeah that’s a bit of a spoiler for the story I guess but #Danny Rand #is here too #yeah it’s just a lot of fun??? I wasn’t planning on buying a comic this week but??? here we are?

[glitterghost]

I wish I could see on my followers list who has become inactive or just dropped off the face of the platform.

#like im still surprised at the number but most were probably from the peak books days when i started this one #and everyone was massively active #like let me wave a goodbye to all my fallen friends and mutuals that will never step foot here again #that i never got a chance to say goodbye but also thank you for some of the best damn memories of my life #and signing my tumblr yearbook with your posts and interactions and messages #its like a have a good summer / see you next year #but one of us moved away and we're left with the ache of a end of school year unfilled promise to see one another again #i miss you #class of 20-- #too many years to just be one

[istherewifiinhell]

Actually. If ive learnt anything from spending too long on this site its to really consider when you are the person to say "you can always talk to me". If you think your not. Maybe just stick with the "in my thoughts" type sentiment.

#some shit #AGAIN. i solemnly prommy im not vague blogging how anyone here has interacted #i had to tell someone i know to just be a person at me. just hsbdbdndhdj #u know who HASNT been on the internet for so fucking long and not both had and BEEN the. #person getting over involved in someones else sadness #sympathies is fine but lets have some normal conversations b4 bringing out that energy lol. #ach well i suppose this is kinda bitchy but bdbdbdhdv well.

[possiblytracker]

HELLO????????

#LOTERALLY ON MY WAY OUT THE DOOR TO GO DO MY MEDIOCRE ASS PRESENTATION #NEARLY MISSED MY BUS . #I DON'T . KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH IT????? WILL IT LET ME PLAY IT????? #*DO* I PLAY IT???? I FEEL LIKE THAT MIGHT BE MEAN IN SOME WAY #well at least i don't have to get up at ass o clock in the morning tomorrow to wait for delivery #BUT. UM??? #my anxiety stomach ache and weird anticipation vibes are mixing how am i supposed to give a serious talk in these conditions #i won't be home for another few hours anyway lmao i have time to figure it out #i feel like im 14 again fr #leaning towards restraining myself and cashing it in for one free extra long nap tomorrow morning instead #fairer on others that way hdgBX

[troglobite]

i love* when chronic pain flares up SUPER fucking bad for no discernible reason, completely canceling all plans and hopes i had for the day

*fucking loathe w my entire existence

#ankles in braces rn #have taken a lot of aleve today #laid on heating pad #did not stretch but slightly massaged #that pain has gotten slightly better but now my whole body aches in various locations #this fucking sucks ass dude i'm TIRED #like i'm actually tired and also i'm tired of this bullshit #at least let it be a LITTLE predictable y'know? #lemme be like ah shit i brought this one on myself whoops #but today was just like ??? the fuck? WHY TODAY??? #anyway i was going to wash and change all of my sheets #and also maybe get some work in and some gameplanning in #BUT FUCK ME I GUESS HUH!!!! #this is the most i've typed all day bc my hands and arms have been hurting so badly! #also if i have to be understanding of my mom's shitty moods i'm gonna need her to understand #that i'm not personally mad at her when i fucking snap or complain or seem down #I AM IN LITERAL CHRONIC PAIN PLEASE JUST LET ME BE FUCKING CRABBY

[apfelhalm]

I've watched "The city on the edge of forever" 3 times now and there's no denying it, this is my favourite episode, hands down.

#tess is rambling #listen i love amok time as much as the next star trek girly #but this episode man! #jim and edith are so cute! 🥺 #spock is so jealous #there's something so wildly romantic about spirk being stuck in time together and trying to get by #the bittersweet ache of impending tragedy #and jim can't do shit about it because that's who he is #he'll lose everything for the right cause #and some of that dialogue?!?! #flat out poetry #where do we belong? - you? at his side as if you've ever been there #'let me help you' having more meaning than 'i love you' #going insane #the tragedy is peak #i love love love this episode

[kendallroygf]

the thing is. yeah kendall feels like his whole life now is worth nothing. the one thing he was always meant to do, since he was seven years old he now cannot do. he will never get to do it. so he might as well die, right? he might as well end it all but the thing is life is never that kind nor generous. so i think kendall will try and fail. and he’ll try again and again but the world will keep its grip on him and eventually he’ll just stop trying. and yeah maybe he’ll never be a whole person (we’re nothing) maybe he’ll take logan’s advice and collect sports cars or write a book or start a new company but either way he’ll be forced to start anew. kendall logan roy died it’s just kendall now. and this outcome in itself is generous in a way because circumstances out of his control have kind of forced him to hold some accountability for his own life finally instead of counting on broken promises his father made him at 7 years old. he’s actually being forced to Be instead of just living up to someone else’s name. and he actually has people around him who still undoubtedly care. he’s sick and horrible and twisted but he is still ultimately lovable. he is still a human being weeping on the dirty ground even though he has spent so long trying not to be. even though he recanted the very thing that made him Real. the world will simply not relinquish its hold on him! tragic but somewhat hopeful in a way

#like he’s never going to be happy. never ever. but being content or even ambivalent to your life is different than being happy and i truly #think kendall could get there at some point. something about the world forcing you to go on. i like how his last scene was surrounded by #earth and water. things that are Materially Real compared to kendall himself who is Not Real. like i think while some things can’t be #repaired it’s not too late for him to be a little bit involved in his kids lives. maybe a few years down the line. rava still cares about #him and offers him so much kindness even when she shouldn’t. he will have stewy forever like. stewy will love him forever. give roman a few #months. ultimately i think roman will push kendall away at first bc he spent this whole season maintaining his family out of Necessity and #i think kendall and roman have got to a place where it’s a bit sick. and roman will come around but he needs some time and so does kendall. #but ultimately they’ll be okay. #with shiv it’s like. well. god. like kendall will never ever be able to look tom in the eye ever. but i think they will not talk for years #maybe. but they’ll ache for each other a little bit. but also the resent and anger and hurt gets in the way. but i think give it like. 10 #years or idk maybe even less but 10 seems good to me. and they’ll slowly start to let each other in again. i think the three of them will #grow old together like ultimately they’ll always be kids when they’re with each other ykwim. #but idk i think kenshiv will be okay in the end jus rn it’s bleak asf. i think at different times in the next few years they will Try with #each other but the other will be so resistant but there will be a time where they’re just both so Tired and when tom dies shiv will call #kendall first even though they maybe haven’t spoken for god knows how long and he will be with her on the phone. and when connor passes away #they will hold hands again and idk. they’ll be okay. broken but okay. #anyway. i’m so over this <- girl who will never ever be over it #kendall