#A Waste of Space

[captainsourwolf]

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#there’s nothing quite like the realization of just how alone you are #than when you’ve said twice in as many weeks that you don’t want to exist anymore #and it’s just been fucking crickets #i am invisible #like #it’s always “well we have our own things to worry about and your problems aren’t one of them #my existence is pointless #i have no friends #I’m fat and ugly and alone #a waste of space #I’ve accomplished nothing meaningful or worthwhile #I’m sick to death of living with my mom and dealing with the situation we’ve been in for a few years now #i just don’t want to bother anymore

[dazedabby]

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#I haven't felt so small in so long #Just absolute dirt #A waste of space #Surrounded by people who love me and it's not enough #How selfish of me #I'm feeling so numb #Still no professional help #I'm on a waiting list #But I don't know if I can wait any longer #will delete soon

[denkithunder]

even the thought of endeavor makes me want to throw up i hate him

#disgusting excuse of a man #a waste of space

[probsnothawkeye]

There are only 3 acceptable ways to play golf:

1) Not at all.

2) Mini golf

3) Wii golf

#i hate golf so much its such a waste of space #mini golf and wii golf are great though #and dont destroy the environment by filling it with chemicals and removing biodiversity #the best way to play golf is not to play golf #anyway this is inspired by my brother playing wii golf the other day #pine throws thoughts into the void of tumblr

[insignificantfailure]

im so fucking useless

#all I do is consume without contributing anything to society #i feel so guilty for eating breathing taking up space buying things producing trash wasting people's time and energy #literally my existence has no meaning #why am i alive #literally w.o.r.t.h.l.e.s.s. #tw depressive #tw depressing thoughts #tw depression #depressing shit #sorry for being depressing #im exhausted #i hate everything #i hate my self #more than anyone else #i dread having to exist #self h@te #i'm sad #mentally tired #vent #venting #personal

[xxcherrycherixx]

cupid's gals meet

#monster high #ever after high #c.a cupid #abbey bominable #blondie lockes #heartlockes #c.a cupid x abbey bominable #abbey x cupid #theyre both my proud poly queens #cupid is dating blondie but abbey is her ex who she still gets on great with- #-if you know what i mean 👀 #blondie is fine with it #in fact blondie encourages it- she encourages Recording it and sending it to her too- she just wants to make sure there's no funny business #thats totally the only reason! #also fuck it blondie is a monster fucker shes a big ol monster fucker with a big fat crush on her monster gf #and maybe a lil one on her monster gf's monster fwb- shh #abbey is happy to have open relationship. why waste time on relationship drama when you can communicate with your partner and agree to kiss #-whoever you want? she's dating heath and he definitely doesn't mind that way of thinking. long live the polycule! #im in a polyamory mood bby gonna blast the orion experience-cult of dionysus and chrissy chlapecka-affection brb #add space age bachelor man to that list because fuck yeah thats a polyamory song i forgot #my art

[cozylittleartblog]

my friend loot bug... from lethal company.... (or at least we're friends until he runs off with my scrap)

vinyl sticker on my etsy :)

#lethal company #loot bug #hoarding bug #yippie #art #artists on tumblr #stickers #lethal company fanart #reblogs especially appreciated because tumblr will surely slap me for having a link in my post #edit sorry for the bigger watermarks! some waste of space stole this erased my watermark and put it on redbubble :) #second time this year and its only march :)

[fortheloveofexy]

it's a pet peeve of mine when ppl frame Andrew as hating Aaron and being needlessly cruel to him... bc while yes, their relationship is fractured and strained, Andrew genuinely cares about his brother and wants the best for him, he just doesn't know how to show that in a normal way.

like he might not know how to express it in a healthy manner but Andrew LOVES Aaron, like he truly just wants Aaron to be healthy and safe. It's like, his whole Thing. Aaron is one of the most important people in his life. Andrew wants him around. He'd do anything to protect him.

I guarantee Andrew wants to be emotionally close to Aaron too, he just doesn't have the tools to do that and the thought of letting someone in terrifies him. He also has no concept of what a healthy sibling relationship looks like, so he has no frame of reference to work from.

#i love bickering twinyards as much as the next guy but sometimes ppl write andrew has if he thinks aaron is a waste of space #and that just isn't true #andrew values his brother #he wouldn't insist on keeping aaron close if he didn't #when ppl do this is just so obvious to me that they're using andrew as a mouthpiece for their own dislike of aaron #and like ok yeah you're entitled to not like a character i guess #but it's just so wildly out of character to me for andrew to treat aaron like shit for no reason beyond Being Cruel #like yeah andrew can be mean when he's feeling defensive or trying to make a point #and yeah he can treat people like shit if he's got a reason to justify it like Keeping People Safe #but he's not needlessly cruel to the people closest to him without cause #like neil says #everything andrew does #he does For A Reason #even neil isn't needlessly mean to aaron tbh #like he doesn't like aaron much at certain points but if he picks a fight with aaron it's never without cause #and he's genuinely happy for aaron when things work out with katelyn in the end #and he wants aaron to have a relationship with andrew as well! like it's important to neil that the twins have a healthy bond!! #anyway im getting off my soapbox now this is just something i was thinking about today a Lot #aftg #all for the game #the foxhole court

[guiltyidealist]

"I'm sorry I vented and took up your time with my bullshit" ❌

feeds abandonment fears, implies having needs and being helped with them are wrong, makes it all about you

"Thank you for being patient with me through that, I appreciate that you took the time" ✅

shows your gratitude, affirms your affinity, no "using up" anybody's effort, makes it about you both as equals

"I'm sorry I dumped without checking consent first. I need to act respectfully and ask for your permission before I vent" ✅

"I'm sorry I said x, that was inappropriate of me to put on you" ✅

"Was it okay when I said x the way I did?" ✅

"Would you like to place a boundary around that?" ✅

"What could I do/say instead that's healthier for us both?" ✅

correct an actual wrong, seize due accountability, consider their rights as much as yours, make amends, work to correct missteps going forward

#this is a personal callout 😍 #reminders #codependency #codependent #recovering codependent #recovery #bpd #rsd #rejection sensitive dysphoria #guilt #shame #taking up space #waste of space #sorry for existing #apology #over apologizing #sorry #people pleaser #toxic #regret #remorse #gratitude #self worth #codapunk

[stardustinthesky]

Captain Sheridan, Dan Randall, ISN News. Thank goodness, someone reasonable to talk to.

#babylon 5 #susan ivanova #john sheridan #m: babylon 5 #mine: edits #susan's face is delight the whole time #especially when john's like susan please don't waste perfectly good clothes #you see the moment when she goes 'wait a minute--' #what a bunch of idiots i love them #idiots in space: the duet

[verefex]

I'm napping, you can continue your little ball game later.

#sky #sona #you can't blame me #have you seen how soft and nice the grass is on golf courses? #all that wasted space. I'm plopping down on that 7th hole and taking a FAT nap

[buckttommy]

One thing that was very interesting to me in this episode is the way Eddie was just... not joking about Buck's love interests.

That stuck out.

Usually when Eddie talks to Buck about his love interests, it's with an edge of fond exasperation, teasing laced around his gently delivered truths, but there was none of that this episode. Buck told Eddie he went to see Natalia and it was like something switched. Eddie's entire affect changed when Buck started talking about Natalia. He went from being loose and easy (as loose and easy as one can get when standing at a grave) to being... not combative, necessarily, but visibly actively not wanting to engage in conversation about her either, and it's not...

It's not even jealousy!! We joke a lot about Eddie and jealousy, but it wasn't that at all. It was a fatigue that comes with silence, that comes with holding your tongue, that comes with keeping secrets. Especially when Buck said that he feels like Natalia sees him. That look Eddie gave him immediately after? That was pure hurt. That was him saying I see you too, I've always seen you. But he can't say that. He can't say that, because to say that would be to say so many other things about the way he sees Buck, and to say so many other things would mean to have to unstick his tongue from the roof of his mouth about the ONE thing he's been holding onto ever since he was shot.

I don't know. I don't know, but I think Eddie taking Buck on a date and I think about how Eddie left his son—his heart—in Buck's care so they could bake cookies together (which becomes profoundly more significant in an episode where Christopher was talking about baking smores with his mom), and I think about Kenny saying Ryan has been doing some very nuanced work in the back half of this season, I'm like

Oh. Oh. I see it, thank you. Loud and clear.

#Before 5B I was like 'Eddie's pining era Eddie's pining era WHEN?' #but babes we are right in the thick of it. It's in his eyes. It's in his smile. It's in the way he looks Buck #in the way he treats him. In the way he creates space for his confusion for his fatigue for his grief. #In the way he shows quiet support and a stern shoulder to lean upon #In the way he doesn't burden Buck with his own feelings (even though that's mostly selfish on his part because #no part of Eddie will ever be a burden on Buck but Eddie doesn't know that yet) #It's just. Eddie's feelings for Buck are literally in *everything* he says and everything he does #It bleeds from him just like his blood did on that street. #If everything about Buck/Eddie's lives have been shrouded by the shooting since it happened #everything about their lives has *also* been shrouded by Eddie's enormous and unflinching love for him #and he keeps holding his breath and swallowing it down and putting off the moment where he pulls back the lid #and it all spills out and before he knows it... before he knows it #it's going to be too late. And instead of his blood staining the street it's going to be Buck's and he's going to tell him #but he won't hear him because Eddie was too slow too fucking slow #(did we all peep the watch on his wrist? Yeah. Time is running out Eddie. Time is running out and it is not going to #wait for fear to release its hold on you. Buck's not going to cheat death again. Don't waste time babe) #Anyways. Yeah. YEAH. Yeah....... whew. This episode was a Lot #jack.txt #tv: 911 #911: 06 x 15 #911 spoilers

[darlingod]

Cardan: *brings his ex back to live on the land and then exiles Jude who he married the night before & who just got back from enduring over a month of torture*

Cardan: *does not have any doubts that Jude could possibly misinterpret this situation*

#out of context just calls out to me I’m sorry #also poor Jude saved his life the day before too #Cardan and Jude not realizing how insecure the other feels about themselves in their relationship is just #I understand Cardan’s perspective I just love giving him shit for this #like you created the biggest misunderstanding that has ever been misunderstood #the way we could have avoided that #fuck you too Lady Asha you miserable waste of space #like ew keep out of ur sons love life I cannot believe u did that #Jude is the only reason that bitch was ever out in about in the first place and Asha did the opposite of paying her back #UGH like Cardan ripped out his heart and put it in those letters #and you just destroyed them?? #alarming #excruciating #distressing #cardan greenbriar #the wicked king #jude duarte

[larabar]

putting him through it

#messing with expressions again. hes like playdough #not happy with all of these but i wanna do the whole page because you need to see how crowded my sketchbook gets💥 #ive had this one for nearly a year because i draw on both sides of a page which. is not recommended #but i feel like im wasting space if i dont so :/ complete mess it is #anyways i love my highlighters. made for him #sth #doodles

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Are those little dolls made to look like 3zun as animals in the most recent comic? I need to know how/when Nie Mingjue got those. Are they gifts from Lan Xichen or Nie Huaisang? Did Jin Guangyao sew them himself and stuff them full of evil talismans in case the song didn't work? So many possibilities.

The 3zun dolls were a self-indulgent reference to this (previously abandoned) doodle! As for who made them in universe? I'll leave it up for interpretation B*)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #jin guangyao #lan xichen #nie mingjue #ask #Ah why not: #mdzs warrior cats au #by 'previously abandoned' I mean to say that this was just a pencil sketch I cleaned up just now. #Because I draw all of these on paper there are a lot of little doodles in the spaces between. #I don't like wasting paper so I try to squeeze something in there! Even if it's just a silly sketch or a doodle. #Sometimes they are little B plot jokes or alt dialogue to a comic. #or notes about what I want to say in the tags! #I was trying to thumbnail what would have been a larger piece (for the lace detailing practice) but put it aside to focus on the comic. #The aesthetic I was going for was 'Antique Victorian Dolls' with the little hand sewn dresses. #I really want to practice drawing lace and I thought this would be a cute way to do so. #Also something about the Venerated Triad being fluffy cats just really speaks to me...This is 3zun. In my heart. #In the comic they are 'cat -bunny - goat' dolls but the kitty trio was the OG concept.

[scificrows]

Murderbot conducting weirdly specific data analysis on a random detail in its media storage... It's just like us for real!!

#cant believe this is the first SC spoiler post i make #but like. #honesty #the query on the correlation of round hatch shape and uh. terrifying things?? #really feels like it could have come from this fandom and i love it so much #also the 'you wasted processing space on that' #art-drone confirmed as a hater who hates research when it comes to literary studies :( #anyways. i'm only at the beginning of chapter 5 and i love this book so so so much #the murderbot diaries #murderbot #system collapse #system collapse spoilers #𓄿