#THE REAL SAD HOURS RN

[5hrignold]

redesigns of ocs i made when i was like 10

#they used to be furries and all boys but now they’re human and all girls #because i….. was 10 and didnt know i was male yet and also i only ever drew furries bc that was all i knew #agin. 10 is just an estimate #anyway im real sad because i used to just draw and think about these guys 24/7 to pass the hours at school #but now pretty much everything of them is lost to various exam papers and books that are probably a hazard now from how dusty they are #and an old phone thats been on the brink of death for a year that i cant be bothered to try and do anything with rn #odieart #original

[secrescaryat]

everytime i replay rdr2 and get to the epilogue i’m heartbroken because as soon as free roam is unlocked again i’ll just spend like an hour walking around looking at everything and thinking ‘arthur’s been in that house’ or ‘arthur’s been down this trail’ before bursting into tears

#does this make sense #i’d make a longer post about how sad this makes me and how i always relate it to my experiences with grief irl but idk if anyone wants that #im also gonna take a nap rn anyway but maybe when i wake up !! bc it gives me such a real feeling of sorrow that no other game has #even when im hours into the epilogue i’ll do this ngl #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #arthur morgan

[mooodyblue]

rambling in the tags 😵‍💫

#i have a whole journal n notes app but there's something therapeutic abt venting in the tags on here idk anyway #not rly a vent vent but just a ramble of my thoughts bc mmmmm feelin off rn #sometimes writing these little fics make me sad bc i'll never have a cg n i can't ever be rly 🤏🏼 bc im always afraid of being caught #im always needed for something even at night im still nervous abt it so i just sleep it off or watch something until i can get that feeling #to go away n idkkkkk that's why i like writing bc i can cope but then like i said they make me sad sometimes #like i've been trying to nawt feel like that for the past hour n im like do i get out of bed n try to color a lil b4 bed #or do i scroll on tt until it goes away and i fall asleep #maybe i should make a side blog for 🍼 but that's a lot of work im not gonna lie #ok anyway let me stop rambling im being a lil too vulnerable #but let's be real i write it so obviously ... u know ... #ok enough lily stop talking !!!!

[whump-queen]

Tile

Content: angst, self-worth issues, mentions of abusive relationships & domestic violence, mental illness probably.

The air was stuffy when they walked in. With no one home to open the windows, the air in the empty rooms had long since staled days ago.

They left their bags at the door and walked through, opening the windows in every room.

They knew they’d eventually have to come back here.

That didn’t make it hurt any less.

They tried hard not to think as they slid each window open, but the memories were knocking and prying at the threshold of their subconscious—lapping and licking behind their eyes like floodwater.

The bedroom hurt the most.

Everything smelled like them.

Unhealthy, their friends had called it. Abusive. Toxic. But to them, it hardly ever felt that way.

No, if they were honest, they missed the way things were back then. When there was always someone to call out to, someone to vent about their day, the feeling of whumper’s arms wrapped around them when they held them tight.

And the way they’d laugh.

God, no one else could make them laugh like that.

And sure, the hours whumpee had spent on the bathroom floor, trying to cry silently enough that they wouldn’t be heard, biting down into their hand hard enough to draw blood—

Sure, those memories were probably real too.

But they didn’t feel all that real, not anymore.

All they could think of as they passed through the rooms were the times they’d laughed so hard their stomach hurt, the time they’d covered the entire floor in wrapping paper and bows and presents last Christmas.

How whumper taught them to wrap things nicely.

How to crease the corners.

How kind, and how patient they’d been.

But Whumper—they were human too, weren’t they? Weren’t they allowed to make mistakes?

Whumpee knew that they themselves had made so many—they’d stayed up at night listing them all. Surely then, whumper should be allowed a few too, right?

It was too late, though, wasn’t it. They were gone now, and whumpee should be happy.

“Keep the place to yourself”, their friends had said, “that’ll show them.”

But was it worth it? Was it worth it if everything still hurt? If every room still smelled like them and every object was a memory that wrapped itself around Whumpee’s heart and squeezed like a boa constrictor, until they felt they couldn’t breathe, couldn’t speak, until they felt their heart might stop altogether.

And now they were in the bathroom again, curled up in their familiar spot on the floor. No need to cry silently anymore, for there was no one around to hear them.

Was this really any better? They’d done it, done what their friends wanted, what their family wanted, what they even thought they’d wanted and, what was it all for?

They’re still here. Still crying. But now, there was no one. No one to scoop them up off the bathroom floor, no one to go to for a hug, no one to hold them until they fell asleep, no one to see in the morning.

And really, they hadn’t minded the bruises so much, they really hadn’t. It felt like the least they deserved, right then.

Whatever thread Whumpee had been hanging by had snapped, and regret flooded their body like a tidal wave. God, they wished they hadn’t done it. They’d take it all back, they’d take comfort, they’d take pain, they’d take anything at all just to hear them laugh again, to feel the warmth of those arms around them again.

They stayed curled up there, on the cold tile, for god knew how long, until the tears wouldn’t fall anymore and they just felt numb. Eyes open, staring at nothing.

And there was nothing, no one, to bring them out of it this time.

This was all there was now. To exist. To live as a husk, floating through the hollowed out shell of their former life.

Whumpee woke up hours later, still curled up and shaking on the bathroom tile.

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[fdrsamericanflagduckfloaty]

Ça va, mon ami?

... Oui?

#🐝 #'?' as in 'maybe???? sorta??? idk' type '?' #okay sorry rant in the tags #does that make sense? #i would say okay but. . rn im just chilling #but my emotions flip flop as easy as flipping a coin #one moment ill be hella sad and upset and then the next it'll be like it never happened #like oh. i was sad?? yeah alr cool ANYWAYS time to watch my favorite actor #happy?? good times??? one wrong word or sentence boom im sad #but then that goes and its like okay well thats over time to be laughing and happy #so yknow i can never say yes because right now i cant recall the last 10 minutes #does that mean im just on autopilot??? maybe. #does that mean my brain is on power-saving low-usage mode??? yes. #yknow i just. i just. my emotions change so smoothly its kinda concerning? #i can go from being in the dumps to just 'eh im good' so quickly its as if it never happened #i just dont process anything longer than 20 minutes. 21 minutes? yeah watch me simping for one of the main 3 i like acting like i wasnt sad #yeah so im just. im just on low energy no-real-attention-needed mode rn mon ami #rewatching a tv show ive watched 30 times. music. dark room. my irl/online bestie/platonic marriage partner isnt on #i mean its just low vibration buzzing brain hours rn

[sanstropfremir]

i’m sure u received asks about the mma 2022 performances - hoping i’m not adding too much noise ur inbox 🫡

but i feel a bit underwhelmed with these performances? i was sad to see the lineups for all of the upcoming award shows and how there aren’t a lot (or any) 2nd gen/3rd gen performers. granted there aren’t as many 2nd gen active kpop artists that are doing music (most ventured into acting but also hello! i want a key gasoline end of year stage!). and 3rd gen bgs are enlisting + ggs disbanded or not as mainstream.

i’ve seen a lot of praise for le sseafim’s stage but idk it wasn’t anything wow. it felt awkward to me?

i haven't actually, it seems like everyone (including me) forgot about it. i don't know what the full list of performers is so i probably haven't watched all of them, but yea almost no strong performances. what the hell is wrong with the creative directors for these groups, like did y'all forget how stage a good awards show performance in two years? the mmas gave like 11-12 minutes to all these trendy fourth gen groups and NONE of them could keep any semblence of my attention for more than maybe three minutes. the only two groups that actually understood the scale of what they were supposed to be doing were monsta x and ive, bc starship has been sending groups to awards shows for ages. and of that mx's was the only one that was actually interesting and in proper scale for the event, and they did it in less time than everyone else. and also gidle but like. was that a good performance? no, but at least they got the scale right.

tbh the main problem seems to me that all these groups are doing songs/vcrs etc that are just too sedate/slow for that large a stage and they aren't planned well. some groups are kinda sol in that regard (sorry newjeans, your music isnt gonna work on an awards show stage without revamping the production), but literally why were there vcrs in the middle of some of these performances. the one in the ive performance literally just covered up them WALKING TO A DIFFERENT PART OF THE STAGE. why. are you too good to sing a song and hype up the audience while you walk? i dont even want to talk about the txt performance it has some of the worst everything i've seen in a hot minute. the le sserafim stage had extremely poor understanding of how to actually use the stage properly and pathetic styling. like sorry diesel outfits do NOT cut it for an awards show performance. enhypen had legitimately horrible styling like what the actual fuck was that. a lot of these groups are treating these stages as extentions of their 'lore' or whatever and having these ponderous ~mysterious~ vcrs without actually realizing that that is not what these shows are for. these shows need BIG performances bc they are long and they have huge lulls in them thanks to the actual awards presenting. it's one of the only types of performance that it's not necessary to build a dynamic arc into because you do not need one.

#i actually forgot how much i liked rush hour its so fun #also if i see another person call what changkyun was wearing a corset im going to walk off a bridge are y'all stupid? #have none of you seen a corset before?? #mx im gonna be so sad when you eventually go on hiatus bc ur literally holding everything up rn #GOD i miss nu'est so fucking BAD they were so good at awards show performances #also like.....where tf is highlight???? like theyre active they just had a really successful cb theyre an industry staple? #the lack of older gen groups here was really obvious like i hope they're going to show up at some other shows bc this is tragic #AND also the lack of sm groups too. i know its bc theyre all prepping for the winter concert but damn i could have used a real nct stage #(sorry atbo you tried and did admirably but you're still too baby) #also like....i know ateez said fuck all y'all and went on tour doing awards show season but lads i need you to come back you're our only ho #generally the song festivals have better lineups at least so maybe those will be better. fingers crossed #did everyone just have really long performance slots bc they didnt have a big enough performance lineup? #like 12 minutes is WAY too long these should be two songs maximum #mma 2022 #awards shows 2022 #text #answers #went and watched boa's inkigayo stage right after this and boy the difference

[pepprs]

lol

#i really. really need to talk to my therapist. have to wait 20ish more hours but i need to right now. i am so deeply depressed and keep #crying which is so fucking stupid how bad this is affecting me but im so deeply miserable. and i have to go hide when i need to cry bc my #family can’t know im trying to move out and work is the whole problem rn and there’s nothing anyone can do about it. i am utterly alone #purrs #delete later #what is getting me rn is… this is the path i picked. and i foolishly assumed it would be enough to live off of and it’s fucking not. and im #not going to like quit my job or anything but the despair and hopelessness i feel is so profound. i cancelled the apartment tours it’s not #even worth taking them and anyway the one place didn’t even call me back. actually no one has answered any of the calls ive put out for like #assistance getting on apartment sites and shit so. idk. i might as well just give up at this point. all the stuff i did in this past week #was for nothing basically. and meanwhile the horrors continue. im so so deeply sad and exhausted #the hr person didn’t even answer my call about getting double charged for my benefits LMAOOOOO. like fuck my entire life for real

[disneyprincessdxminatrix]

wallowing in self pity as an after work activity.

#I also watched tv and almost fell asleep #I woke up with a bad stomachache last night which kept me awake for a little over an hour before it got better #so I didn’t sleep enough and went to work #and then received a text that my boyfriend wouldn’t be home tonight cause he’s meeting from friends #and of course I’m not invited because one of his friends is my ex I keep shit taking about (rightfully I might add) #saw him for like one minute after his work before he left again #I’m really fucking sad rn still because as I told some friends #one of my Guinea pigs died just yesterday #and I’m tired and #I’m hungry #and yes my boyfriend offered to bring me food but I don’t even know when he will be back and he’s probably going to bring cake which isn’t #real dinner food anyway #my stuff #give it half an hour and I’ll be better I hope #maybe she least good enough to make myself something to eat #at least my cat his here he always comes when I’m crying #edit: I think the part about tonight that hurts the most is being invited but not being invited #one of the boys sent a message to the group chat if anyone wanted to join #and idk if all of them know #but my bf knows I won’t go anywhere near my ex #even though I haven’t seen one of the other friends there in a awhile and wouldn’t loved to see him #so it’s like #being invited #but not really #cause I can’t go there #I’d feel sick #I already do feel sick knowing he talks to this despicable piece of shit

[myriadsystem]

Its the end of pride month and i havent once seen the comic about that gay raccoon taking shots at his fox ex husband. Disgraceful

#personal #acnh #animal crossing #lgbtq+ #so sad it hasnt been on my dash this month #yes. i know hes a tanuki #*monokuma voice* IM NOT A TANUKI IM A BEAR! IM MONOKUMA! #well ive had zero hours of sleep so this post may be a bit rambly im gonna. stop #ugh im only awake now because i have a parcel being delivered that i need to sign for and dont wanna miss it #a parcel that came from my manic episode that they wont refund me for so btw if you wanted to help me out im in real need of finances rn #dm me or visit the support us link on browser to help out please i will be eternally grateful to you and if you cover the costs for me #help dig me out of this hole i put myself in i will do basically anything you ask and im not joking #good lord i hope the mail comes soon so i can fkn go to sleep 😮‍💨 my eyeballs hurt

[airborneace]

"Okay PokéNav. Play All Out Of Love, by Air Supply."

#(Real sad boi hours rn huh?) #IC : Fair Winds 🪶 #DASH COMM : Contacting Tower 🪶

[benetnvsch]

wouldn't it be funny :) if I just :) did not finish this final :) submitted it as it is :)

#I HAVE BEEN U{P FOR 30+ HOURS AND AM NOT CLOSER TO HAVING IT DONE RAHHHHH #guaranteed like 100/200 points though #and even that will only drop my grade down to and 85 #problem is I have a disease called feels bad man where I feel unreasonable amount of guilt turning in unfishined assignments for my #instructors for not taking their classes seriously #we had months to work on this whoops #in my defence #I forgor #(Also mental illness but HDSHKJDH) #how do I explain 'I got sad' to my professor as a reason why I just gave up halfway through the term #FFHJHJHHHH HE GOT SAD UR HONOR <</////333333 DKJHDKJ #/lh all of this dw abt me #I AM Very sick rn though #u know why? #bc I get Very Sick when I get stressed #and guess what stresses me out? #finals !! #and then I get too sick to do them good </3 #throwback to ummm #my midterm where I stressed myself into a migraine that lasted 48 hours and had me bedridden entirely How Am I A Real Guy #Guy who's defense mechanism is just fucking dying akjGDHJDHKDJH #They can't kill you if ur immune system does it for them :big brain:

[queerautism]

I'll try to get to some more asks and dms tomorrow 💜

#Real sad and tired hours rn

[athena-nz]

When will HRT make me sexy and happy

#it's real sad girl hours in my household rn #just kinda wanna put life on pause and timeskip to when HRT has had the full effect #want to be able to be out and happy and be who I want to be and with someone who loves me for that and who I love too #yknow

[spellbook-gayboy]

20 for the gesture prompts? <3

20.

Kyle almost didn't feel it at first, the thick layers of his costume dampening the weight of the hand on his shoulder. But what he could feel was the warmth that seeped through, making his whole upper torso tingle from the feeling. It wasn't the first time he'd felt this feeling, far from it. He'd felt it with a dozen different people over the decades, but this?

This was different. Thula's hand felt... stronger, more reassuring. It felt like armour around him, steeling his mind for what lay ahead.

"How bad is it, Ross?" He asked. Just saying the question made the pit in his stomach grow larger.

"What did he do?" Just asking made the pit in his stomach deepen.

"He cut a deal with the president, Kyle." Immortal replied flatly, his voice barely above a whisper. "He didn't just get away with it. The president made him..."

Kyle leaned forward in his seat. "Made him what, Ross?"

"Made him the new director of the GDA."

The thick steel of the chair bent like tissue paper in Kyle's grip. He didn't even mean to break the arm, but his muscles had moved quicker than his brain in the moment. The hand came away, exposing the horribly bent and crumpled section, the leather cushion ripped and warped into the damage. "...After Cecil? After... after Samson?" He asked, his voice barely a whisper.

"Yeah." Immortal whispered back. "Are you in?"

He sighed. "I'll tell the team to gear up. We'll rendezvous with you outside the old Teen Team base, two hours." His voice was monotonous, utterly devoid of any sort of emotion. "Where's Amanda?"

"Magic Man saved her. She's still recovering, but the doctors say she'll live."

Kyle didn't move. "God, it's gonna crush her." He murmured. "Alright. We'll be there."

"See you there." The screen went dead, leaving the couple alone in the vast room.

Thula opened her mouth to speak, but couldn't conjure any words from within. Viltrumites didn't... dwell, didn't mourn their losses after every battle. She could see how this entire situation was affecting him, but she was at a loss as to what she do to help.

Kyle rose to his feet with a grunt, not saying a word as he turned around. Thula tried to get as good a look as possible at his face, but the darkness of the room obscured most of his features. But she could see the tension in his frame, the way his body quivered slightly, like something inside of him was mere moments away from snapping. “Kyle, I...”

No sooner than had she said that, the tension in him broke. Frontline’s shoulders slumped, and his chest began to twitch as choked sobs began to be heard. Thula was suddenly pulled into a desperate and crushing hug, the force of the embrace stifling her breath. Kyle’s head lay on her shoulder, and the wet trickle of tears stained the strong fabric of her uniform. 

Her hands found their way to his back, rubbing small circles into his shoulder blades. “I’m coming with you.” She whispered, one hand moving to hold the back of his neck. 

“Wha- no! Thula, you-!”

“I’m coming with you.” She cut him off, her brow creasing in determination. “I’ve studied those drones that Connors has sent out, watched how they move about. I know them better than you could ever hope too.”

Kyle lifted his head, looking at her with bloodshot eyes. “You... you’re sure?”

“I am.”

“Okay.” He managed to croak out, slowly pulling back from her. “Okay. We should go. Ross’ll be expecting us soon.”

Thula nodded. She held out her hand, an open invitation to her husband. Kyle hesitated for a moment, but soon enough his hand joined with it, gripping tightly. 

“Let’s go, dear. We’re needed.”

#real sad hours in this storyline rn #also spoilers for the late comics too! #invincible #invincible show #invincible amazon #invincible oc #🦅🛡 #kyle washington #thula invincible #the immortal #my asks #sequids #writing prompt friday

[addictt-with-a-pen]

#it’s real bad sad boi hours rn #i’m not gonna make it #fuck. #tunes #Spotify

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

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#so for the last like. as long as i can remember. ive had a shit sleep schedule #mostly like sleep all day and stay up all night kinda shit #but i got sick/burnt out recently and slept for almost two days straight #and somehow it reset my sleep schedule to something normal #like i went to bed at 10pm and woke up at 5am for the last few days #and i havent had to nap #and the not needing to nap is really fucking with me #like im used to waking up. feeding my dog. and then napping until i go to work #i should be napping rn. but im not tired #i dont have to get ready for work for another four hours and ive already been awake for three hours #i went to the coffee shop and to walgreens. im in real clothes instead of pajamas. i did a load of laundry #im laying in bed (its so hot i might be dying) and i just. dont know what to do with my time #im probably gonna do some cleaning and packing because im moving in two months #idk im just feeling some strange type of way because for the last few days ive been. alive #instead of sleeping my life away #its so strange. i got sick. slept for a few days. and now my biggest problem is just fixed? and i can have a life now? #its 70 degrees today and the world is my oyster. what should i do? #i have a list of chores im gonna do. i might walk to the coinstar machine so ill have money #yeah i want to do that cuz im in the negatives in my bank account but i want to get a cool drink before work today #my dad texted me this morning 'noticed your bank account is overdrawn for the second time this week. whats going on kid?' #which is such a sad text to get because i know im broke. thanks dad. lets pls ignore my financial hardships #if you want to make my dad less sad hmu for my venmo /hj #anyways ill probs do that today. get some cash so i can get a frozen lemonade from wawa or something #yknow that post thats like 'seasonal depression seems fake until its 50 degrees in march and it feels like you took a party drug' #i think thats partially whats happening here. its 70 degrees and sunny and my systems dont know what to do with that #i hope youre all having a great day that you dont sleep through. i love you!!