#Which; of course; is why he won't

[the-acid-pear]

I wonder if the fact that Jack is always called out for smelling funny but Dave is never despite both being undead has to do with them rotting in different ways or if it's just because Jack has dogshit hygiene and Dave doesn't.

#luly talks #dsaf #dsaf jack #dsaf dave #dave miller #jack Kennedy #i love the idea of jack just being stinky tho and dave somehow being fucking Not it's so funny #like at the very least we know Dave took one (1) shower. we never saw Jack do that much 🙄 #i do wonder how the resurrection *but it refused #shit works bc Jack is alive bc Fredbear hyped him and shit #but we never saw Dave dying we don't know whta he saw what he heard what he felt #he never talks about it as far as i remember only Henry does #and he just says the guy didnt want to let go #maybe having a soul stuck to you just prevents the rotting which is why davetrap is so fucking gone since Dave let go? #of course jack doesn't have blackjack so he just never stopped rotting #the jack won't bathe theory is funny but i think i fancy the later more

[jaguarys]

Hello! I don't know if someone already asked, but if not, please tell us you thoughts about Danaël?

Thank you for asking! On a real note I super appreciate all the LL asks that people have been sending, I LOVE to yell about this series.

In a lot of ways, he's really the straight man of the series, but I honestly think that's sort of what makes him so great. He's the one who the rest of the group revolves around, not just because he's their leader, but he's also just their focal point. He's the one who brought them together; he's the one they follow. I think in a lot of ways he's the one they aspire to and model themselves after, and I do firmly believe he's the best of them.

He's also truly the definition of haunting the narrative. His absence is more acute than his presence in a lot of ways, and I think narratively it's a lot more important. I'm genuinely obsessed with the way the series shifts after his death–– it's a tangible absence, and no matter how much they try to cover the gap he leaves, there's just no way for them to.

Of course, the series post-Anathos becomes a lot darker, but I also think it's just more... bleak. They've really and truly lost their core, and they don't ever regain the sense of family their group had before. They scattered during their recovering period following vol 10, and they never fully reconverge much as they might want to.

I don't think it would be impossible, had they had the time. They're focused on trying to rebuild what they had, when I think what would have been best would be to create something new. And, I think, being that he was the glue, they never really learned to fill those gaps (and actually communicate. I think he was the one who made them talk to each other, holy shit (affectionately, they're dumbasses)).

I absolutely adore him. I won't get into his Dynameïs version here but I think about that a lot too... really depends on how you want to interpret Kalandre's hold over their group (are they still themselves? Are they entirely other people? Is it full control or just influence? I'm obsessed.)

#i also won't get into his and jadina's relationship here. but i am OBSESSEDDDDD #i think he was the most emotionally intelligent of them by far (which doesn't mean he was always perfect. he ABSOLUTELY had his flaws) #vol 8 and his argument with kel-cha comes to mind (he fucked that up. but of course he does apologize) #and of course in his origines he's a lot less mature #razzia's also REALLY emotionally intelligent but he's also not as forthcoming. he's not gonna call people out when they're being assholes #which danaël was definitely better at and it was why he was best as leader #but yeah. they just don't TALK about his absence but it's ever-present #they deserved to break down and scream about it a little #UGH love them. they're so dysfunctional <3 #type: mail #type: meta #fandom: les légendaires #les légendaires #les legendaires #danaël les légendaires

[myreygn]

modern au dad askeladd except he's not an actual dad but this random kid shows up to his house every day and tries to have beef over the closed food store askeladd bought and turned into an antiquarian store. turns out the food store used to be run by the kid's father until he passed away which is very sad of course but also askeladd is not gonna cooperate with some brat that borderline harasses him day by day. only that he can't call the cops because he kinda has a turbulent past and if they find out he's filling his store with stolen goods it's gonna become a huge problem. and note to destiny, the stupid kid finding out is not that great either because now he has to hear it out if he doesn't wanna go to prison and also he should probably learn the demon child's name while he's at it. shenanigans ensue.

#askeladd agrees to honor the memory of thorfinn's dad and in return thorfinn won't call the cops on him #then they fight about how the honoring should be done #askeladd doesn't want to change his entire store's image only to make sure people don't forget about the former owner #and thorfinn isn't satisfied with just a sign with his dad's name on it which is as far as askeladd is willing to go #things change when some rich jackass wants to buy every building on the street and turn the whole area into a luxury resort #now thorfinn and askeladd have to work together because thorfinn doesn't want his dad's store to vanish #and askeladd doesn’t want HIS STORE to be torn down because smuggling the stolen stuff out of town would be a pain #(also affordable houses with basements big enough to keep the meth laboratory running are rare these days) #(also also thorfinn learns some kind of martial art in the dojo across the street which is whatever but the coach is really nice) #(like. REALLY nice.) #(with a nice voice and a nice face and nice muscles and as if that wasn't enough he makes a kickass apple pie) #“bjorn is single btw” - “shut up thorfinn” - “i'm trying to help” - “go bother your twink why dontcha” #yeah thorfinn actually manages to make friends with the son of that asshole that tries to get their houses #great for the brat of course but now askeladd has to deal with a snobbish teen criticizing his cooking #not to mention the nosey nanny slash accountant the rich idiot hired to keep his twink son entertained who's very curious about the basement #he also knows a lot about modern art which. not great. well great for him but not for askeladd. #anyway tldr #askeladd has to save a street while trying to raise two boys that aren't his not falling in love and keeping ragnar out of the meth basement #thorkell is the construction worker hanging around and refusing to do his job until sven pays him quadruple the original agreement #vinland saga #bjornskeladd #thornute #ragnar and thorkell are also there #and sven but no one wants him to

[isfjmel-phleg]

📋

#random personal stuff #personal whining feel free to ignore #why forward me an email with additional information #when you could PRINT the email and scribble your additional remarks on it and highlight what you want me to do like I can't read #and hand me the printouts #that's so much more efficient #and not at all wasteful #this man prints every dang thing whether it needs it or not #it was like pulling teeth trying to get him to email me book order requests at all #and now we're back to square one #(it's the guy with the humming & loud videos & p o l i t i c al cartoons & questionable book orders & using my printer for pointless things #& the whim vacation which of course he got permission for with no problem) #(he'll be out the rest of the week leaving just two of us here and I am struggling to exist in the same office with him right now) #(I have been putting up with the nonsense for seven years and I am losing patience & I don't know why he won't retire because he's like 80)

[proto-language]

been thinking about how weird i have been feeling about the king's cancer diagnosis. and i had been wondering, 'am i wrong for feeling strange and sad about this when the family at the heart of it are the centre of this awful system?'

and i think that, actually, this is just another part of what makes the system terrible. of course it is, first and foremost, exploitative of the people - of the united kingdom, of the wider commonwealth, of the many other places which were touched by the british imperial project. but it is exploitative also of the people around whom it is designed. for whom a cancer diagnosis is not a private tragedy, but a public affair. whose actions and appearances are noticed, reported, scrutinised. what does this mean for harry and william's relationship? - where is the king staying during his treatment? - how is he going to meet with the prime minister?

nobody wins, i think, while the royal family remain royal. certainly some are losing more severely than others. charles will have access to the best possible care for his condition while millions languish on nhs waiting lists. but this doesn't feel like any sort of victory to me.

#i very much understand why people hate not just the institution but also the individuals of the royal family #doubly so those whose backgrounds mean that comparatively recent royal history has had a tangible negative impact on their community #(which i don't feel is the case for me as a middle class white scot) #and it is certainly fallacious to claim that 'he's just an old man; he could be your grandad!' or whatever. #but for myself personally i prefer not to lose sight of the fact that they are *people*. #of course they're not 'just like us' - but they could have been. and the fact that they never had that chance or choice is #another failing of the system. not the *primary* problem - but symptomatic of much much deeper and broader issues. #and anyway. on a shallower level. i think i just find it hard to find much glee in cancer regardless of the context. #this post won't even show up on my own dashboard because i have the term blacklisted.

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: February 17

“DYWTYLM” by Sleep Token

#song of the day #Sleep Token really saving my sanity as we navigate this dark and uncertain time without an upgraded sibling singalong playlist #had to go out into the snow on under two hours' sleep to get groceries #(the farmers' market gave me kefir cheese so any amount of suffering would've been worthwhile but I couldn't know that at the time) #and getting into Nick's car knowing there was music I could request that he could play loud as he wanted and I wouldn't want to cry #I mean blessing isn't even a strong enough term. baking a cake for the Sleep Token guy (his name is Vessel) as we speak #anyway this song sounds incredible in the original and then so odd sung acapella. like singing a bass line just a couple beats repeating #polar opposite of my lady indie covers. a song rendered fully unrecognizable when I wander the house mumbling it to myself #the verses do alright I suppose but the chorus is out of the question. the lyrics are so strong too real gut-punch lines #'and my reflection just won't smile back at me like I know it should / and I would turn into a stranger in an instant if I could #and there is something eating me alive I don't know what it is / maybe not that you conceal your feelings they just don't exist' #the whole song is like that it is so so so good. every new Sleep Token song I hear I'm like oh of course yes I see why these are fic titles #(Sleep Token catching up to Fall Out Boy and Hozier in terms of lines I've seen as fic titles. I mean we are really getting up there #and I am definitely not immune. if/when I put up those fanmixes y'all are gonna be seeing some Sleep Token let me tell you) #edit: it stands for 'Do You Wish That You Loved Me' I just realized I never said #didn't even pick lyrics that include it which is nuts when you realize that every verse does twice. whoops

[dutybcrne]

Me BSing hcs like: The fact that Kae is not only able to create a shield when he is dangerously low HP but also the fact that he is able to regenerate HP when he hits opponents with Frostgnaw is definitely due to him receiving his Vision when Diluc had tried to kill him in their Confrontation...but could it be possible that his familial ties to the Abyss Order could have influenced that HP drain of his-

#//And that's without mentioning the fact that Glacial Waltz's duration increases FOR EVERY OPPONENT DEFEATED #//Between that and his lil teleporting trick like an Abyss mage's (minus the flurries of ice); I have SO many thinkings #//Deffo love the abilities of his being an amalgam of Vision based and Abyssal energy imbued #//Deffo love that fact meaning it hurts a bit to use his Vision at all; esp with the teleporting being such a Staple to his combat style #☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Sidetracking a bit; but I also like to think that even after the Abyss is defeated/beaten back enough to not be such a threat; he'd still #keep his abilities from it/some connection to it. Bc he's so used to it being such a big PART of his fighting style/assets to use in a pinc #//But also bc keeping that connection means it'd help him keep track of any remnants of the Order far easier #//He could track them down with far more ease; sense if they are growing stronger; get intel from Domains/abyssal traces #//Of course being very mindful to keep it a secret & trying to not involve his loved ones/fellow knights of it all #//But he very much is careful esp bc of risks of him being corrupted by it; keeping a keen eye on his mental/physical/emotional states #//Deffo has plans to leave Mond and/or end his own life if he starts seeing the Abyssal corruption affecting him irreversibly #suicide mention tw #//Kind of but also kind of not; considering some of the ways how he'd go abt it #//Knows it'd be harder to the further it goes; so he has particular criteria he keeps tracks of to ensure if they come to pass #//he; in a clearer state of mind; would either 1) use his Vision to try & purge the energy out of himself (extremely painful; COULD kill #if the corruption runs deep enough & save him the trouble) or 2) use the aggressiveness of the corruption to provoke someone (esp Luc) #into taking care of him &thus ending the problem all together. Bc he KNOWS he's strong; only a handful of beings could actually kill him #//& actually be WILLING to; without hesitation. Luc comes to mind first bc of their Confrontation. But also bc Kae'd be happy w him being #the last person he ever sees. Thinks it'd be comforting more than anyone else. Esp since a lover would just break his heart to see them #//Worst case scenario is him falling to the corruption & sb breaking it out of him in the moment #//Bc the Instant he realizes what's happening; esp if they are crying and/or angered at him; he WILL fatally wound himself #//And make SURE it's not something he can come back from; save by a miracle (or 'curse' as he'd see it) #//Probably making an icicle and slitting his own throat; if not jamming the thing into his heart #//he won't hesitate; wont offer explanations; final words or apologies; he cant risk that moment of clarity being too short for it #//he HAS to make sure he can't hurt anyone any further; no matter what it means for him #//Which is partly why he'd be so keen to make sure it's not found out; bc he KNOWS he can be talked out of keeping those abilities #//Or worse; he'd fight them on it; and thus make for a fucken MESS in the aftermath if he's been too far along in the corruption #//But he KNOWS that even with the risks; the powers are a VALUABLE asset to him; &thus desperately wants to keep them #//'sidetracking a bit'; I said. Proceed to write a wHOLE FUCKEN NEW HC IN TAGS; I did; kjfbgkftg. Whoops lmao

[doctorweebmd]

coming out of my baldurs gate 3 delirium (aka i am working a night shift and can't physically play it. at work.) to say that horikoshi. horikoshi when i GET YOU. you are NOT leaving izuku with no quirk and no arms. i am in your walls

#bnha spoilers #also. more evidence that horikoshi read zero-sum game #like come on the twins thing the izuku losing his quirk thing the losing his arm thing the shiggy getting decay from afo thing #TELL ME THE TRUTH HORIKOSHI. DID YOU READ MY FANFIC. #i'm joking of course. he's just done a really good job of foreshadowing through the series. its a marker of an amazing author #and i know that izuku probably won't lose both his arms and his quirk. i fully expect it to be a happy ending in some way shape or form #this is a sixteen year old boy who sacrificed EVERYTHING. more than he ever had to give #and he had less than a year. LESS THAN A YEAR. #sorry i'm already crying thinking about the scene of him holding shigaraki's hand even though it will decay him........ #izuku who knows better than ANYONE what shigaraki's power can do.... reaching out to him. caring more about others than about himself. #he's just. he's so good. he's SO GOOD. he deserves the world #tbh i feel like eri HAS to be involved at this point. she's the deus ex machina in all this #that or overhaul #both of their abilities can at least physically restructure izuku's body #it would actually be a very interesting redemption point for overhaul....... #i mean WHY ELSE RESCUE HIM. and why give him THE SAME FUCKING INJURY #what a powerful thing it would be to have eri give overhaul his arms back #and overhaul learning about goodness and forgiveness from this girl he's done nothing but abuse and torture #and saves izuku........ #its about ATONEMENT. its about GROWTH. its about IT NEVER BEING TOO LATE. #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I LOVE YOU MY HERO ACADEMIA #... ok. i'm normal. its fine. #on another note #i loved the ending to my first bg3 run which i think i finished Tuesday/Wednesday. i cried. #IMMEDIATELY started a durge run where i'm playing a male human bard instead of the female half-wood elf ranger #i was like 'haha. i'll make a character based on hisoka from hxh! i'm gonna be SOOOO evil! >:)) #and guess who still isn't good at being big evil. ME. at worst i'm probably chaotic neutral. #its wild i'm already finding SO MANY new scenes i missed on the first playthrough even though i'm making a lot of the same choices #so it still feels super fun and fresh. more so now because i kind of know the characters and the mechanics better #my current playthrough i'm with lae'zel shadowheart and asterion with no intention of switching out

[chirpsythismorning]

☎️🎲 🤼‍♂️ ✈️🚪 ➡️ 🫀🎮⌛️

Slipping Through My Fingers by ABBA

previous ⏮️ now playing ⏭️ next back to playlist

#platonic elmike #stranger things #bizarre love triangle playlist #mike wheeler #mike's pov #mike is still a hard nut to crack for me... #this scene in particular i'm still not certain about #i do think it was riddled with his very consistent tactic of stalling #but he's also of course relieved to hear el say she missed him #perhaps this is him thinking "oh thank god she doesn't hate me' #while also having to accept in real time that will was perhaps right that el still needs him... but is he up for the task of el's bf?... #and so he's sort of trying to work out how he can finally just do this to do right by el #which comes with the fear that he is indeed going to lose her when it all comes crashing down inevitably like it already has and is #either way i think he's contending with the fact that losing el may be inevitable #that's why he's having such a hard time lying to her in the first place #bc he knows lies lead to the truth eventually being revealed #and so he just feels her slipping through his fingers no matter what he does #he imagined this future with her (and will) where they stayed connected to each other no matter what #but mike's scared that future won't be possible once all is revealved #i think will's whole speech in the van has mike even more conflicted #bc his feelings for will are very strong at this point #and so even if he believes that this is truly how el feels as of now... #he also probably knows deep deep down that he wishes (still hopes) it was will's feelings #which makes going through with this even harder #not to mention all the parallels between mike and hopper ('not hopper...not mike... you!') #these two male figures in el's life who rescued her from a horrible situation are having a hard time coming to terms with her growing up #like yes she's growing and 'slipping through your fingers' but that's okay! #you don't have to lose her forever just because she doesn't have to rely on you anymore! #4x09 #gif

[meatmensch]

The people that have abandoned me really need to stop talking to me like they have any right to tell me what to do, or I swear to God, I'm gonna get the FUCKING hammer.

#inspired by my bitch of a mother sending me a text that basically said u need to get ur life together #as i always say! LET HE WHO IS WITHOUT SIN CAST THE FIRST STONE! #this woman's life is a dumpster fire #and she specifically said 'i won't financially support u. i'll always be there for u but that's a conditional statement' #which is INSANE because that don't make no sense AND she has NEVER financially supported me? genuinely why does she think she has any #fucking right...😭😭😭 #meanwhile. my dad. during the shitstorm that has been my family's existence lately. is being way more lax about me getting a job and moving #out than he has been in the past. because some fucks despite being shitheads aren't total assholes #this post is also inspired by my insufferable sister who fucked off to another fucking continent when i was 7 and treats me...well. exactly #how u would expect an upper middle class dumb jock to treat her awesome nerd little brother. and is always telling me i'm making #the wrong fucking decisions and judging me. #these ppl r so funny bc they think this is normal and that i will endure it bc the power of love or what the fuck ever. wrong! i have been #on the brink of cutting off my entire family since i was fourteen. now that i actually have the power to do some cutting off i'll be honest #i feel pretty great #it is all of course a horrible nightmare and i wish things were different etc etc etc. but in the words of supernatural. i was always going #to end up here. #while i am thinking about such things what's my other sister's deal? she has not reached out to me for years. it was like i turned 18 and #she was like ok who cares abt this dude now #which was incredibly bizarre and makes me feel like a stupid idiot who did something wrong but i know i didn't. and she was always the most #supportive of my siblings. i don't know what her problem is #in her defense her life has been weird lately. but 'lately' has lasted long enough that it's just her life now. and whenever i try to be th #one to reach out she basically gives me...nothing. #while i am thinking about such things i will acknowledge the slays. my one totally kickass sister who is the only other one of my siblings #who understands anything. i am rly grateful for her and she has been so good to me for so long especially during the recent shitstorm #she is moving very far away and that has brought up my abandonment issues but i genuinely am so happy for her and her family and she is ver #adamant about me visiting and PAYING for the visit (or at least doing the scamming that pays for the visit so i don't have to pay lol) and #making sure i'll be ok. #it's not all bad! i am going to be ok! there r so many people in my life who love me and love me in a way that makes sense to me and doesn' #make me feel like the world's worst man #personal log

[catboyolli]

another day of feeling like i don't belong anywhere ✌

#cheers! #i love my friends and i love knowing that i will have to see one of their friends whom i massively dislike in a month and a half! #i can't control my friends' friendships of course but my god why do some of them have to be friends with especially these two people??? fuc #i don't usually dislike people that easily and it takes me a lot of time to form some sort of judgement but i've known one of these fuckers #for about 10 years already and there's a long list of fucked up stuff that he did and it's enough to not want to see him anymore. ever #i would've treated myself to some new clothes to drown this feeling but i feel so out of place that i won't buy shit until i lose weight #which also means no going out to eat with my s/o and crying all afternoon. amazing!!!! #i love these days where how i value myself is very tied to my body!!! why bother about my personality (awful) and my skills (also awful)+ #where there is something even worse to focus on! very fun!!! #anyway there's no way to avoid that meeting with my friends and their friends. bye

[vulturevanity]

The people who complain about Natsuki DDLC's grumpiness wouldn't survive watching a single Haruhi episode

#been thinking about the show post-binge and I actually really like Haruhi's toxicity and why it developed #she's exactly what would happen if a 7-year old had a mid-life crisis #of course she's angry at everything. she's still a hormonal teen who thinks she's insignificant and wants to change that #normal teen angst #it just so happens that she also has literal godlike powers and people have to walk on eggshells around her so she won't blow up reality #which is why she can't be called out for her horrible behaviour #and why it's such a shock to her when Kyon gets so mad he tries to punch her #she cannot conceive of him not going along with her. that's unthinkable. he always complained but he was her most reliable follower #she's a horrible person because no one ever confronted her about it. that's all #and sometimes she managed to do something nice and every time people thanked her for it she was like “??????” #she's so used to being served unconditionally that she doesn't recognize the joy of being actually rewarded for her actions #i fucking love haruhi man. i would hate her if she was real but she's such a good unlikeable character #the melancholy of haruhi suzumiya #meanwhile Natsuki is lashing out due to being an abuse victim and basically drops the act pretty fast in both acts #i also like Natsuki but for different reasons #she doesn't recognize just how badly her situation has warped her #she's hurt and curling up into herself and biting every hand that comes close because she doesn't know if it'll hurt her this time too #and sometimes she hurts others and spirals into self-hatred and “why am i like this? ehy is this so hard? am i the problem?” #it's so sad #doki doki literature club

[antihibikase-archive]

The Vessel has stigmata on both his palms in Mutual Rotting.

But regular Cheren Slater doesn't- what he has, instead, are two different burn marks on both his palms, where Vessel's stigmata usually is; a mark from Reshiram on the right, and a mark from Zekrom on the left.

And technically there's a third mark; the void in his chest left by Kyurem.

#BW/BW2 Rewrite - Blur / Blight #((I did mention that Slater gets burned by Hilbert post-BW but pre-Flocessy Arc which is also Hilbert's breaking point and why he chooses-) #((-to leave; because he thinks leaving will free everyone from their roles and-)) #((-he won't hurt Cheren anymore. Which of course. Is Not The Case)) #((He gets the Zekrom mark from Nate when Nate was holding his palm as Zekrom was awakening))

[bylertruther]

ok now tht i’ve gotten my mushy gushiness out can i just say.... that it is soooooo funny tht midlevens FINALLY got their i love you after four seasons..... and it.... lmao... i can’t even say it 🤭... it was... 🤭 bdjshfbdj based on a literal boldfaced lie that mike’s boy best friend told him and it was that boldfaced unbelievable and so painfully clockable lie that made mike feel loved and seen and safe enough to give eleven what he previously could not and stubbornly would not and that even when he did finally give her his speech after his boy best friend told him to it just made the vines around her neck tighten and was filled with things that the show itself refutes and proves to be yet another lie. because even when he says it... he isn’t saying it. he can’t say it. not really. not to her. not in the way she wants. LIKE LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOO 🫣🤭💀

#byler #so insane. rip in peace to eleven tho and max who literally died bc of mike's gay ass. other things too bt im ignoring tht rn. BDFHJBDJHBFJD #thinking abt how mike has tried to recreate moments he had with will with her but failed [which implies tht they are romantic and moments he #felt were important to him and ones that he believes you should have with a lover which makes u wonder why he had those with will #when HE'S the one that initiated said moments with will and claims tht they're just friends seriously JUST friends but ok..] #and when she begs him while crying to please tell her he loves her he cannot do it and refuses to do it because mike is NOT a liar #and he won't lie not about this and not to her which is why he won't even WRITE it as a goodbye he's never said it #bc he knows the way that she'll take it and he knows he won't mean it that way #and it's only when his boy best friend who is JUST his friend and ONLY his friend confesses his love and makes him feel seen #for the very first time in his life probably and shows him that he IS worthy and he IS MORE than enough and that he's so very loved #and SEEN and WANTED that he goes and does it but ONLY after being pushed to by said boy best friend who's JUST a friend #and then when he DOES tell her he loves her finally his speech is a direct response to his boy best friend's confession that contradicts #everything that she wants and is and needs and lies because he's scared and overwhelmed and doesn't want her to fucking DIE #because if SHE dies if SUPERMAN dies then they're ALL dead and it's like season one when mike CANONICALLY says that they need her #because they're no use without her #and they can't fight this evil in hawkins and save the literal world without eleven #but like. yeah. okay. midleven rulez and she's definitely NOT going to dump his ass and that painting and entire confession is #definitely NOT EVER going to come up again not even ONCE not even in PASSING nope absolutely not surely bc midleven is endgame<3 #bc of course the girl who just went through an entire fucking journey this season to AS SHE SAYS WITH HER OWN MOUTH find out who she is #is going to want to go back to someone that she CANONICALLY does not need and has not spoken to and tha #--t made her feel like a monster at her lowest and that simply does not see her as anything other than the weapon they found in the woods #of course she wants to go back to someone that idolizes her and it's totally meaningless that the memories she thought of #while reviving max were 'not hopper. not mike. you.' and 'there's more to life than stupid boys' literally right after tht monologue. #like im srry bt. girl what world are u living on<3 #the crazy together scene was planned before the kids were cast it was part of the audition dnd is canonically code for mike and will #eleven literally thinks tht mike is going to be her brother in s1 and everything that she asks him to do or that everyone expects him to do #for her is something that he UNPROMPTED does for will without hesitation and their first kisses were put in bc of millie not written in #but yeah. ok. midleven is endgame. sure. ofc. yes. ur so right. mr shawn 'nothing is an accident' levy is wrong. the duffers r wrong. yup. #[and mike does love her platonically n see her as a person bt. she's superman before she's el hopper. he idolizes her. max sees her. u kno?] #mine

[sadaveniren]

Sometimes the homophobia inside the house is so much stronger than outside. And that's just... I don't know what to say.

Oh, and if you ask why I'm saying this, well. The community kind of made me stay in the closet, because I was not a gay or a lesbian and therefore not welcome into the community. And of course not that welcome to the outside world for that matter. Yeah

For sureeeee. I'm so sorry the community is for everyone and some people truly don't understand how excluding groups of queer people from their own community is so damaging ❤️ The infighting within our own community is so damaging and harmful to queer people who don't fit into what some perceive as "acceptable" and "family friendly" BUT it is also not welcoming to people who aren't in the LG(sometimes B and maybe just maybe T) area and this isn't even beginning to touch on people who don't fall under the label of "white" within the community and how they identify/present themselves.

#i remember the president of our gsa in highschool told me no one was bisexual and we needed to pick #and he was like IM JOKING after but like... no dude you weren't #and that's an insanely harmful thing to say to someone who was you know... 14 and trying to find a community within high school #I was also on tumblr during the ace hatred (which is still a thing) #and now of course the trans hatred #and god forbid you try and do some sort of assimilation for PROTECTION #DO YOU KNOW WHY WE LET ALLIES INTO QUEER SPACES BECAUSE CLOSETED PEOPLE CAN BE ALLIES SOMETIMES #I HAD SO MANY 'ALLY' FRIENDS IN HIGH SCHOOL WHO WOULD SLOWLY CONFIDE IN JUST A FEW PEOPLE THEY WERE MAYBE GAY #BUT THEIR PARENTS COULDN'T KNOW #BECAUSE THEN THEY COULDN'T COME TO GSA ANYMORE #i just... the infighting in the queer community is horrible #and the vitriol that comes at closeted queer people in the form of hatred towards potential closeted celebrities is just... #as the meme goes harry styles/taylor swift/etc won't see your words #but your closeted friends who identify strongly with these people will and those are the people you are harming #like... my annoyance is very much not at people thinking a celeb isn't gay i don't care #i care that you are making young closeted queer people feel like garbage and excluding them with your words and actions #and you don't even care because you're so high and mighty in being 'right'

[gideonisms]

good god. If anyone knows how to turn off the brain setting that is like. If I do not write this perfectly I will die but also I Cannot get started or I will die. Let me know

#i'm suffering #because the prof was like what are your plans after this class and i was listing jobs i might apply to #he was like no i mean ur grad school plans and we had the whole conversation u know the one teachers sometimes have with you #it would be a waste of potential to do *whatever terrible job you are doing* instead of like. continuing to write papers #and he was really kind so i kind of played it off like haha you haven't read my final paper don't make up ur mind yet #but he said if my paper was good i should discuss my options for grad school afterwards with him and like. fine okay #i was planning to go to trade school after this maybe but like #1 conversation about my other options would be nice don't look a gift horse in the mouth etc #of course i'm wary af i don't trust an authority figure as far as i can throw them but you know. my paper was good i know this for a fact #point is now this paper has to be good or i'll become an electrician. or whatever #and u know what it definitely will be good it's just it won't be quite as good as the last one and i have #work hours and like due dates and i also have to eat food and experience experiences and everything is extremely bright and loud this month! #this is exactly why i am not living up to my 'full' 'potential'. this is exactly why i work the job i do which by the way someone has to #someone has to check out ur groceries and listen to you complain and my only real quarrel with it is the pay and the fact that #i'm just wildly unsuited to it as far as personality goes. like this is just because i can imitate everyone else #i do it in my papers too. i just think of the last peer reviewed paper i read and make my writing also do that #in a way i'm constantly writing fic. when u think about it #if you're wondering whether it has inhibited my 'own' 'voice' the answer is yes! it has.