I hope one day i am brave enough to just end my life because I can’t take this anymore, I’m so fucking sick of being a fuck up no matter how hard I try it’s never fucking enough.
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How to get out of a bpd episode no glue no borax
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I feel like a bad partner because of my bpd. My episodes are exhausting. I'm exhausting. I can't help I'm broken, but I can help my behavior. I'm so sorry. I know I apologize too much. I'm sorry you have to walk on eggshells. I feel guilt, knowing that a different partner could be easier for you. I feel guilt knowing practically no one will put up with me. Why do you?
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gang, am i onto something?
[Note: the definitions are simplified, I wouldn't be able to fit the full criteria into each circle and that's not the full point anyway-- the point is to show key differences and similarities. I am not a professional and my observations may be incorrect.]
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BPD (+ dating your fp's) culture is never really relating to those "splitting on my fp and thinking they're the worst person ever" posts. sure, i definitely split on my fp's, there's really no way around that with this disorder, but i can never think that they're terrible or that i hate them, i couldn't bring myself to ever do that, i love them too much. instead, my splitting on them is more thinking that they hate me, want to leave me, that i don't deserve them, and so on. essentially splitting on myself for them?
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I just realized I make every character I touch BPD coded. They normally act like themselves except for random bouts of them acting unusually talkative and sounding like they've lost it that concerns their friends???? Randomly becoming a total MANIaC????? Sad for no reason sometimes? They don't know why their sad, but everything feels super hopeless all the sudden and they don't think they'll ever be happy again????? STOP GIVING THE BITCHES BPD, YOURE GONNA SCARE THEM AWAY
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You are fucking crazy (flirting)
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why can't i act normally about things. i hate my emotions i hate my thoughts i hate everything about myself. make it stop please. i can't live my life with this. i don't want to be stuck like this anymore. why can't it just be a phase?
i just upset everyone around me. i know it. they're done listening to me complain. i scare them and i need to stop talking about the things going on in my head. they aren't something others should have to hear.
i don't deserve comfort or love or care or kindness or friends or anything. they should all hate me and want to leave me forever. they deserve someone better than me. all i do is ruin things.
i want to bash my head in. i want to drown. i want them to beat me to a pulp. i want to be physically hurt because at this point it sounds better than having to feel my emotions.
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Everyone is all for celebrating neurodiversity until you're the "wrong" kind of neurodivergent.
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