#actually hallucinating

[the-edgy-fuckerz]

"Mental health matters" until its a minor struggling with substance abuse

"Mental health matters" until someone doesn't want/refuses help

"mental health matters" until someone struggles with an addiction

"Mental health matters" until someone is unable to do 'basic' hygiene

"Mental health matters" until someone is deemed violent and scary

"Mental health matters" until someone doesn't 'look like' their struggling

"Mental health matters" until someone has bulimia or bed

"Mental health matters" until someone wants to get worse

"Mental health matters" until someone is a dropout or unemployed

"Mental health matters" until someone has disturbing intrusive thoughts

"mental health matters" until someone is delusional

"Mental health matters" until someone struggles with hallucinations and hearing voices

"mental health matters" until someone is extremely scared of other people

"Mental health matters" until someone has violent outbursts

"Mental health matters" until someone has trouble masking/ can't mask their illness

"Mental health matters" until it doesn't fit your romanticized view abt it

(feel free to add onto this)

#mental health #mental illness #actually mentally ill #tw bulimia #depression holder #actually cptsd #living with cptsd #actually hallucinating #hallucinations #addiction #neurodivergent #audhd #complex ptsd #abuse survivor #childhood trauma #hearing voices #mental health matters #trauma survivor #traumagenic did #idk how to tag this

[schizoafucktive]

yeah I have sex

Schizophrenia

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#schizo spectrum #schizoaffective #schizoposting #actually schizoaffective #actually hallucinating #I made this post a million years ago but I was drunk at the time and I chose to misspell psychosis??? #schizophrenia was sitting right there dude #schizophrenic disorder #schizophrenia

[neuroticboyfriend]

i've never seen this talked about, but do any other psychotics experience the "mind playing a trick on you" often? like you're not hallucinating something new, but your mind is misinterpreting something that already exists - thinking you saw a person when it's just a car casting a shadow, or thinking you're hearing whispers when it's just background noise. it's like my mind searches for illusions. like a cross between a hallucination and paranoia.

#softspoonie #disabled #disability #neurodivergent #hallucinations #actually hallucinating #psychosis #psychotic disorders #actually psychotic #psychotic #actually psychosis

[lilithlinen]

What if you cheated on Kevin LOmax?

What if you cheated on Kevin Lomax? What would he do?😬😬

I have some ideas and they're not pretty tho....

#rant #rant post #fever hallucinations #actually hallucinating #keanufan #keanuverse #keanu reeves #kevin lomax #kevin lomax x you #kevin lomax x reader #keanu reeves gif #the devil's advocate #the devils advocate

[s1l4s-l1k3s-t0m4t03s]

hello tumblr people

im a sch1z0phrenic (disorganized + catat0nic) w aut¡sm, t2 b!p0lar and in ED recovery

im gonna make a post abt helping people around you, so pick on this poll :]

ill try create posts about the top 3

reblog to reach a wider audience etc, etc <3

#ed male #ed recovery #tw mia #tw ana bløg #anor3c1a #bulim14 #actually bipolar #bipolor #manic pixie dream girl #actually schizophrenic #schizophrenia #schizospec #schizoposting #schizoaffective #schizoid #actually hallucinating #hallucinations #actually psychotic #psychosis #autistic things #actually autistic #autism #ed relapse #anami4 #complex ptsd #ptsd #cptsd life #cptsd vent #just cptsd things #tumblr polls

[justanotherstardrop]

hallucination trauma IS trauma

#allison #trauma #auditory hallucinations #hallucinations #hallucinatory #actually hallucinating #visual hallucinations #psychosis #schizo spectrum #schizophrenic spectrum #schizophrenia #schizo things #schizotypal

[zennotixs]

The voices better shut up before I make them.

#rot rotting #voices #the voices #actually mentally ill #mentally fucked #mentally unstable #tw mental illness #mental health #hallucinations #actually hallucinating #vent #vent post #tw vent

[fairysquirt]

if anyone here has hallucinations and know of ways to make them stop.. lemme know. Would be greatly appreciated.

#actually psychotic #actually bpd #actually bipolar #actually ocd #this is depressing #need help #vent post #need advice #schizoaffective #actually hallucinating #actually mentally ill #bpd vent #bpd feels #adhd stuff #text post #bipolar psychosis #psychosis

[theethlezprincez]

if my cats weren’t here i would be gone for sure

#ana is my friend #ana miaa #actually mentally ill #cats and books #cats #my cat #my cat is my life #4narex1a #mental illness is not cool #mentally exhausted #mentally unstable #fuck my life #mental illness #mental health #tw m14 #tw 3d vent #tw ed but not sheeran #tw sui ideation #tw vent #tw depressing thoughts #suicide squad #chronic pain #m14blr #m14 #am i hallucinating #actually hallucinating #hallucinations #hallucinating #psychotic disorders #actually psychotic

[bipolarmango]

I cannot stress this enough: it's important not to push someone with a trauma to process it faster than they can. I am looking at you, mental health workers.

I once was at a mental health institution due to a major depressive episode that presented as a part of my bipolar-2. I am a grownup, over 30, so I mentioned to my doctor that I am not on the best of terms with my family and gave them a brief overview of my childhood. I also said that most of my childhood feels like it belongs to someone else, like I've read it from a book (I'm totally emotionally disconnected from it), and I have massive gaps in memory.

For unknown reasons, instead of focusing on the current events, such as the physical health issues I had been diagnosed with, the pandemic, my ex leaving, you name it, the doctors and psychologist decided to focus on digging as deep as possible on my childhood literally everyday hours after hours. On top of that, my psychologist and I didn't really get a long well.

During the first week of these sessions, I had some of my typical dissociations, these vague feelings like you're living what I call a movie moment -- a moment stolen from a movie. Not quite real, not quite unreal, but in between. Moments when you suddenly are not sure if your hand is really your hand. They got worse as the week progressed.

After a week, on Friday, I found myself sitting on my hospital bed, and suddenly a feeling like I was a little scared toddler took over me. I had to hide. I crawled under the bed, just like little kids do when they're afraid. If someone would've tried to talk to me, I'm sure I would've sounded like a toddler, I would've behaved like a toddler. My whole mind went back to the same mode it was when I was that small.

When the toddler episode ended, the next stage started. By Friday night, I was in so deep in dissociation that I literally saw these light grey, mostly transparent curtains that separated me from the real world, and behind me, there was another set of deeper grey curtains that separated me from another world. I knew it was another world, and I could just open the curtains and step in and disappear if I wanted. I literally wasn't part of the real world, I was following it behind a curtain, ready to completely disappear if things got even a little bid worse.

Luckily, my whole team was off for the weekend, so the concerned nurses alerted a more senior doctor who sat me down and asked me question about what's going on. He called off the questioning about my childhood as he concluded the stress was just too much for my brain to process at this speed. I was placed under constant supervision. My symptoms kept developing. I started having auditory hallucinations that my own medical team dismissed for some reason. I also had minor visual hallucinations that also got dismissed by my own team for some reason. I started getting random symptoms that I didn't know if they should be accounted for mania or something else (ie. I felt a massive urge to take a wheelchair and run with it through the hallway, push it through the massive window and fly with it from the fifth floor to the ground, not to die but to fly and to, just, well, just to do it. I also wanted to "run away" and literally jump off the walls, scream at the top of my lungs, climb to the roof of the hospital just because. Mind you, I am usually very quiet and withdraw person, and my hypomania doesn't include this kind of behaviour).

It took a month for all these symptoms get back to normal (I do often have dissociation but not on the level when I had at the time, auditory and visual hallucinations I haven't had for years). My own medical team made me understand that they believe I was faking it for attention.

I got a new medical team soon after.

I believe that the stress of trying to force me to process the trauma to fast caused me a massive dissociation, hallucinations, and possibly my first ever mania that should have changed my diagnosis from bipolar-2 to bipolar-1 had I have a team that took me seriously.

#actually dissociative #actually bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar2 #bipolar ii #mental health #mental illness #tw depression #relationship ptsd #actually mentally ill #relationship trauma #cptsd #cptsd problems #just cptsd things #living with cptsd #cptsd recovery #actually cptsd #cptsd vent #ptsdawareness #ptsd treatment #ptsd recovery #complex ptsd #ptsd #actually ptsd #tw ptsd #hallucinations #actually hallucinating #mental hospital #tw trauma #complex post traumatic stress disorder

[ocean-not-found]

My communication cards.

Never used them before but since i cant speak bc of my mental health, i hope they can help me communicate with the carers.

I said to my school therapist "i picture my hallucinations like... a cloud in a place it shouldn't be?" Which made sense to me, as hallucinations *shouldnt be there*. So i put a weirdcore edit onto the card, for my enjoyment :).

My Mary statue helps with my derealisation (not feeling real/nothing around me feels real)

#i see emotions as images/aesthetics #idk why but its just how I experience it #communication #communication cards #actually autistic #non verbal #selective mutism #actually adhd #derealisation tw #actually hallucinating #psychosis #panic attack #panic disorder #mental illness #actually mentally ill #mental health

[angelskillingme]

i feel 'it' touch me again... it's on my thighs, on my chest... i just want someone to cut wherever its hands are and play with the wound... put your hand in it, pinch the insides, lick the blood... don't think it will stop touching, but at least i will have more fun than this. make fun of my hallucinations... then destroy them while in the process of destroying me...

#bl00d k!nk #bl00d play #violence kink #autoassassinophilia #bd/sm masochist #bd/sm sadist #sadomasochistic #actually hallucinating #hallucinations #erotophonophilia #bl00d kink #knifeplay #cannibalism kink #humiliation kink #murder kink #tw g0re #g0recore #g0r3c0r3 #g0rewh0re #fr33use #free use kink

[schizoafucktive]

Anyone else have some sort of psychotic disorder but not autism, yet get mistaken for having autism a lot, or am I just alone in that boat?

#schizo spectrum #schizoaffective #schizoposting #actually schizoaffective #actually hallucinating #psychosis #psychotic spectrum #actually psychotic #psychotic

[neuroticboyfriend]

something nobody tells you about substance use disorder is that if you get cravings it's possible for them to present as olfactory (scent) and gustatory (taste) hallucinations. for example, i will smell alcohol, vapor, sometimes even post nasal drip, when there. is none. or i'll taste alcohol in drinks i usually mix alcohol with, even though they contain no alcohol. cravings can honestly just register as hunger and thirst but Different, too.

this may also intersect with the fact i'm schizophrenic but um. yeah. that's a thing! now you know.

#softspoonie #hallucinations #actually hallucinating #substance use disorder #substance abuse #substance misuse #alcohol use disorder #vaping #drugs tw #alcohol tw #mental health #mentally ill #mental illness #drug use #drug abuse #mental health awareness #schizophrenic #actually schizophrenic #actually psychotic

[skinnyr4t]

"delulu girls🥰😜" looking at me when I tell them that I often feel bugs on my body and under my skin (I think my skin is bitten), that I can smell the rot of my own body and I can't drive often because I have hallucinations and I could cause an accident

#tw #actually hallucinating #hallucinations #gaslight gatekeep girlblog #girlhood #bipolar mania #mania #depressiv #sorry for being depressing #tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts #actually bpd #vent post #tw vent #vent

[chaos-and-ink]

Having a lot of hallucinations is so funny because now I just ignore literally everything weird or unusual and assume it’s not real until someone else acknowledges it. And normally they get really confused why I’m so unfazed and idk how to say “I just kinda assumed I was hallucinating again so I just ignored it?” Without sounding insane.

#hallucinations #psychosis #actually psychotic #actually hallucinating #bipolar disorder #actually bipolar #bipolar #chaos