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starfishinthedistance · 1 year

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I talk to many people who say things like "oh I have trauma but I don't have PTSD", but then when I talk to them a little more I realize that they most likely do, they just can't recognize it as such due to how lacking PTSD awareness is, even beyond the whole "it's not just a veteran's disorder" thing.

The main reason they think they don't have PTSD usually has to do with flashbacks and nightmares, either they have one but not the other or have neither. But here's the thing, those are only two symptoms out of the 23-odd recognized symptoms. Flashbacks and nightmares are two of the five symptoms under Criterion B (Intrusion), which you only need one of for a diagnosis. The other three symptoms are unwanted upsetting memories, emotional distress after being reminded of trauma and physical reactivity after being reminded of trauma (i.e. shaking, sweating, heart racing, feeling sick, nauseous or faint, etc). Therefore you can have both flashbacks and nightmares, one but not the other, or neither and still have PTSD.

In fact, a lot of the reasons people give me for why they don't think they have PTSD are literally a part of the diagnostic criteria.

"Oh, I can barely remember most parts of my trauma anyway." Criterion D (Negative Alterations in Cognition and Mood) includes inability to recall key features of the trauma.

"Oh but I don't get upset about my trauma that often because I avoid thinking of it or being around things that remind me of it most of the time." Criterion C (Avoidance) includes avoiding trauma-related thoughts or feelings and avoiding trauma-related external reminders, and you literally cannot get diagnosed if you don't have at least one of those two symptoms.

"Oh I just have trouble getting to sleep or staying asleep, but I don't have nightmares." Criterion E (Alterations in Arousal and Reactivity) includes difficulting sleeping outside of nightmares.

"But I didn't have many/any trauma symptoms until a long time after the trauma happened." There's literally an entire specification for that.

Really it just shows how despite being one of the most well-known mental illnesses, people really don't know much about PTSD. If you have trauma, I ask you to at least look at the criteria before you decide you don't have PTSD. Hell, even if you don't have trauma, look at the criteria anyway because there are so many symptoms in there that just are not talked about.

PTSD awareness is not just about flashbacks and nightmares.

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rainywhispersblog · 5 months

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ed-recoverry · 10 months

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To anyone who was suicidal at age 14 or younger, here’s your permission to grieve. Here’s your permission to not joke about it or just flat out ignore it. Here’s your permission to acknowledge that lost child who felt way more pain than any child should ever feel. You’re allowed to cry for that child, whether you healed or are still suffering the same thoughts. Finally allow yourself to grieve for that child filled with undeserved hurt.

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to0needy · 4 months

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i thought i was gonna be dead before i turn 18 and now im 24 and have no idea what im doing with my life

#borderline #borderline personality disorder #borderline thoughts #bpd #bpd vent #actually bpd #tw ptsd #actually ptsd #bpd feels #bpd thoughts #tw depressing thoughts #depressing shit #tw depressing stuff #bpd shit #bpd problems #bpd mood #bpd stuff #text

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unstablemotions · 1 month

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Hey, you! You who suspect you might have PTSD, DID or another trauma disorder, but you think you didn't experience trauma "bad enough" to have developed a mental disorder from it? Let me suggest looking at it differently:

"If there's smoke, there's fire"

Do you experience symptoms of PTSD, such as hypervigilance, trouble sleeping, flashbacks, memory problems, dissociation, ect? Then yes, it was "bad enough". Maybe you don't remember anything "really bad" happening or you don't "feel like" it affects you, but listen to your body. The body remembers and the body doesn't care if you think it is "stupid" or "weak" to have a panic attack when someone touches you or that you still have nightmares about that thing you saw when you were 4 years old

Trauma isn't what happened. Trauma is the reaction to what happened. So what I'm trying to say is that if the reason you think you can't have PTSD/DID/OSDD/ect is because you didn't go through anything horrific enough for that, then maybe forget about what happened to you for a moment and just look at the evidence your body and mind are showing. And then, most importantly, be compassionate with yourself. You're going through a lot and it's gonna be okay in the end. Take it easy, okay? <3

#posting now instead of forgetting it in a draft per usual #actually traumatized #actually ptsd #actually did #actually cptsd #actually cdd #actually osdd #actually dissociative #actuallytraumatized #actuallyabused #actuallydissociative #actuallydid #actuallycdd #actuallyptsd #actuallycptsd #actuallyosdd #personal #my posts

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c-0-yote-teeth · 8 months

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borderlineangel222 · 11 months

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i’m afraid that one day my anger will overshadow the little love i still have left for the world

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sawiet · 5 months

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life with bpd is always trying to fill a huge hole in your chest. you spend your life looking for a cure that doesn't really exist

#bpd #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #bpd problems #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #borderline pd #ptsd #actually ptsd #mental problems #mental illness #mental health #dissociation

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mothcain · 10 months

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Nah but let’s talk abt how ppl use disability terms/harmful stereotypes/ derogatory words so casually this disabled pride month (tw ableism below)

The new terms are “sch*zoposting” and “delulu” but shit like this has been around for years and it’s so incredibly frustrating.

Another example is those TikTok POVS about “the weird kid in class” but they are all stereotypes of autistic ppl.

Or the misuse of the word triggered, the misuse of the word OCD, the misuse of gaslighting, of cr*pple, “are you deaf?” “Are you blind?” “Hellen Keller isn’t real.” I could go on and on but I will simply say this.

Disabled people are real people with feelings, emotions and lives. We deserve to use the terms that we need to COMFORTABLY. We deserve to exist without people taking the language used in the context of ourselves and putting it in a negative light.

We deserve to exist.

We deserve happiness.

Check in on your disabled friends.

Don’t assume things about people you don’t know.

#local bitch speaks #disability pride month #ableism tw #cripple punk #actuallyautistic #actually adhd #actually ptsd #actually disabled #actually chronically ill #unreality tw #1k #1.5k #2k #2.5k #3k #3.5k #4k

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cccat-in-a-meat-sack · 5 months

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me, with both:...

#borderline personality disorder #bpd splitting #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #bpd problems #bpd #bpd vent #actually borderline #borderline pd #ptsd #complex ptsd #actually ptsd #ptsd recovery #tw ptsd #tw abuse #tw abuse mention #calico hisses

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a-sip-of-milo · 7 months

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Abuse isn't only physical. Sometimes it is...

Shouting at them until they cry/retaliate.

Humiliating them in front of friends and family.

Refusing to let them see friends and family.

Isolating them from what's outside.

Refusing to let them have control over their own finances / keeping it all for yourself.

Belittling their looks, their personality, their thoughts, etc.

Bullying them in any way.

Purposely pushing boundaries.

Threatening them, either physically, verbally or emotionally.

Controlling what and when they eat.

Locking them in rooms so they can't escape.

Refusing to let them use the toilet/eat/sleep/etc. after or before a certain time.

Gaslighting them into questioning their own reality.

Lying to or manipulating the people around them so they look like the abuser.

Purposely breaking their belongings, especially in front of them.

Ignoring safewords/"stop"/anything that indicates they're not okay with what's happening (in general, not just in the bedroom)

Giving them zero privacy. That means going through their diaries, tracking them, attending their therapy/doctors appointments when they don't want you to.

Setting them up to fail for the sole purpose of getting to punish them.

Obvious favoritism of one child over another/the others.

All of these are things that I have personally been through. They contributed heavily to my eating disorder, my BPD, my anxiety and my depression.

#cluster b safe #cluster b #bpd #borderline #borderline personality disorder #actually bpd #actually borderline #npd safe #aspd safe #hpd safe #tw.abuse #bpd safe #emotional abuse #childhood trauma #ptsd #actually ptsd #ptsd recovery

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psychocitysblog · 11 months

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Why does being alive have to be so hard?

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rainywhispersblog · 9 months

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#actually borderline #actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd vent #bpd thoughts #bpd feels #bpd mood #bpd blog #trauma #complex ptsd #actually ptsd #living with ptsd #borderline personality disorder #alone with my thoughts

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to0needy · 4 months

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not being able to kill myself is the worst feeling

#borderline #borderline personality disorder #borderline thoughts #bpd vent #actually bpd #bpd #tw ptsd #actually ptsd #bpd feels #bpd thoughts #tw sui vent #tw sui talk #tw sui ideation #tw sui implied #sad thoughts

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dying-weeds · 2 years

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#mine #vent #trauma #words #spilled thoughts #traumacore #ventcore #actuallytraumatized #actually ptsd #traumacore vent #trauma vent #venting #my thoughts #ptsd vent

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borderlineangel222 · 1 year

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i never felt loved by my family which is why i always searched for it in the worst places because when you’re about to die of thirst, even a drop of poison tastes like heaven.

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