#actuallyschizophrenia

[schizophreniah]

life stressors are a huge contributing factor in psychotic and or symptom breaks in general. life stressors include

death of a family member or close loved one

moving into a new home

sickness illness injury

divorce

incarceration

leaving or being fired/laid off from a job

unemployment

abuse and or DV

money deficiency

those are just some of the examples that life can throw at you causing immense stress and triggering psychotic symptoms and even mood disturbances as well. it’s very important to know your triggers so once and or if the psychosis comes back there’s a safety plan in place for you and or a loved one.

it’s believed that 70% of those with sz spectrum disorders are likely to have a second psychotic disorder relapse within 5-7 years.

so in a sense it is imperative those who happen to have or suspect to have sz or related disorders have a safety plan with triggers stated and warning signs of when and how and why a psychotic episode could occur.

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[angiethewitch]

researching my illness is so funny because it's always full of non schizophrenics being like explain yourself explain your mental derangement. here's some of my favourite searches that come up in my recommended

#angie talks #schizophrenia #pseriouslypsychosis #pseriouslyschizophrenic #psychosis #actuallyschizophrenia #actually schizophrenic

[paranoidscizo]

nothing worse then trying to tell if what you are seeing is really there or not

#scizophrenia #self£harm #bpd vent #s3lf mutilation #self h@rm #cvutting #self mutalition #tw self destruction #bpd thoughts #cvtaddict #actuallyschizophrenia #actuallyschizophrenic

[neil646]

I have the most privileged little rant in the world.

I have schizophrenia, which used to be quite bad before, but at this point of my life its quite manageable. I still have a lot of ways in which it complicates my everyday life, but it definitely has progressed from the _scary_ aspects. My symptoms are now more of the negative sympotoms which portraiy itself mildly. Something I find to be bothersome is that I feel like the tumblr communities are fixated about talking about this _scary_ state of the illness, which from one hand I think is very sad, but also a bit strange? When I had my _scary_ state I was never in a place to acknowledge the illness as a genuine illness, let alone being involved in activism. I would also think that because people are aware of their disease that their path through healing would be a lot more (active?), and more in line with what I am experiencing right now. More of manageable inconvenience rather than something consistently _scary_. Somewhere in the idea of most people talking about schizophrenia on tumblr being simultaniously in the _scary_ phase of their schizophrenia, as well as aware of their disorder and activating about it, feels a bit... off.

With this I do not deny that this of course is possible. It is completely possible to experience a lot of intense disruption from the disorder while still understanding it is a disorder and talking about it. I just think its strange it seems a vast majority.

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[skitsofreenikko]

The Voices are loud again. They tell me to do things, kill myself, hurt myself. I can't find a way out, exept the One. I'm just a burden, no one cares, why should I. I'm stuck here and I need to get out.

#voices #hallucinations #actuallyschizophrenia #psychosis #pseriouslypsychosis #text #skitsofreenikko #ask to tag

[meth-clefairy]

I love how my "God being on the schizophrenia spectrum" post gets a lot of notes. And certainly lots of reblogs but I have one complaint, only 1 gripe just one (1) bitchy thing to say bout it and its this::: at least if you're going to reblog my post on schizophrenia please try an add tags especiallyd if you happen to be schizophrenic yourself then im beggin you could you please please add tags or at least leave your thoughts and or comments on my post or something??? or pls tag it as at least #schizophreniaspectrum or also #schizophreniamemes a #schizophreniaawareness would even be cool you know. Just wanted to rant a Lil bit bout my stupid meme post my schizo ass made thank you...

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[physichotic]

your intrusive thoughts disgust you for a reason. your intrusive thoughts scare you for a reason. your intrusive thoughts send you into a panic for a reason. your intrusive thoughts distress you for a reason. your intrusive thoughts upset you for a reason.

they're not things that you secretly think. they're not things that you secretly believe. they are the worst things your mind could conjure in order to make it difficult for you to get through the day.

#actuallybipolar #actuallyschizoaffective #pseriouslypsychosis #seriouslyschizophrenic #actuallyschizophrenia #mental illness #my posts #text #intrusive thoughts

[ghostlyschizophrenic]

Why being forced to hide psychotic symptoms is detrimental to recovery:

Hi! it’s your friendly neighborhood schizoaffective and i have a story to tell, a story that’s backed by research.

my psychotic symptoms were early onset. my earliest memory of psychotic symptoms was 6 years old, when my parents were changing the locks on the house and i had an intense belief that changing them would mean someone had broken into our house and hadn’t left. i believed my toys had human emotions and felt sad if i played with another toy, so i refused to buy new toys because i was so scared of making my toys sad.

i had a very flattened emotional response (which i would later learn is a symptom of schizophrenia), and in kindergarten and first grade when we learned about emotions, i learned to fake the look of emotional response. i learned how to put a smile on my face when i felt happy and to put a frown on my face when i felt sad. when i was alone, i would practice, but some days i was too tired to do it and i kept my face in the natural way: flat. it wasn’t that i wasn’t feeling emotions, i just couldn’t express them the way people wanted me to

during my elementary school years, i made up words constantly to communicate. i couldn’t form proper sentences, something was blocked in my brain and everything felt scattered and scrambled (disorganized thoughts and speech). my teachers broke that habit in me, not by helping me learn to organize my thoughts, but by teaching me not to speak unless i knew exactly what i was trying to say.

then came middle school and i started hallucinating and my delusions got worse. but everything i had learned from teachers and tv was that hallucinations are scary to people, and i didn’t want to be scary. i would be laughed at if i told anyone about my strong beliefs (delusions) so i didn’t tell anyone. i didn’t tell anyone that i believed that the characters in my tv show were real and the government was hiding their existence and if they knew that i knew they’re real, they’d put me on a watch list. i didn’t tell anyone i was hearing sounds that came straight out of a horror movie. i hid that.

i hid it so well that i avoided treatment. i had an acute psychotic episode, and all i said was that i was having panic attacks. i didn’t tell anyone about the delusion that school was going to literally kill me, or that i heard blood curdling screams in the hallways and when i was trying to sleep at night. i avoided early intervention.

for other reasons that i won’t get into, i was put on seroquel as a mood stabilizer, but as many of you know, it’s also an antipsychotic. this was the first time in my life i felt some kind of relief from my symptoms. i didn’t connect the dots because my psychiatrist called it a mood stabilizer, not an antipsychotic, so i didn’t know why i was feeling better in those areas.

it wasn’t until 10th grade when i was taking a psychology class from a teacher i trusted that i connected the dots. by this time i knew i had psychosis. i had access to the internet and i had googled what was wrong with me, but it wasn’t until a class where he emphasized getting help that i thought ok, now i should bring it up.

by this point, i had had 2 more acute psychotic episodes that kept me out of school, but because i was taught to hide everything, i still didn’t tell anyone the real reason why i couldn’t function. “paralyzing panic attacks” became code for “whatever the real reason is that’s keeping him out of school”. but my teacher made me think i needed help, especially because we were learning about schizophrenia in class and i had a sneaking suspicion that i, someone with a family history of schizophrenia, had it.

i brought it up to my doctors and i was started on antipsychotics, this time with the official name of antipsychotics. but it was a bit too late. my psychiatrist told me that if we had caught it earlier, i may have reacted to treatment better.

i’ve been in treatment for years and the longest i’ve gone without an acute psychotic episode is 5 months. i’ve done my research and in patients with psychosis, the first few months after psychotic symptoms are present are vital to the treatment and recovery of the patient.

it’s not just, oh you won’t suffer as long, it’s literally you will have a better chance at recovery. if you catch psychosis in the prodromal stage, it can greatly reduce the chances of another psychotic episode happening.

by being taught to hide my illness from a young age, i lost the chance at having an easier recovery. yes i learned to confine myself to societal expectations and appear “normal”, but i caused myself more pain in the long run.

early intervention is key to an easier recovery, and i’m going to leave a few links to show you what i mean.

ted talk about early psychotic intervention

psychosis prodromal phase

talking with a psychiatrist about early psychosis intervention

early intervention of psychosis

benefits of early intervention

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[psychotic-psypport]

It's ok if you're fragile right now. Its ok if little things set you off and you can't handle stress or conflict and you're easily disturbed. It's ok. You don't have to be made of stone all the time. Be gentle with yourself in this time. Avoid what you need to, steer away from the things that will send you spiralling, even if other people think you're being "temperamental" or "too sensitive". You're going through something. Have some forgiveness for yourself in the moments when you're not as strong and resilient as usual.

#psychosis #psychotic #actuallyschizoaffective #pseriouslypsychotic #schizophrenia #actuallypsychotic #actuallyschizophrenic #actuallyschizophrenia #schizophrenic spectrum #schizoaffective #schizo #schizophrenic

[schizophreniah]

hi everyone just wanted to give an update. changing medications within the next two weeks goodbye abilify! hello sweet sweet geodon. anyways i also found out that i never had just “disordered eating” i had full blown anorexia? not sure what to do with that information but i probably should’ve known. anyways

#schizoaffective #schizophrenia #psychosis #psychotic #bpd #pseriouslyparanoid #pseriouslypsychosis #actuallyschizophrenia #actuallyschizoaffective #actuallypsychotic #eating disoder trigger warning #recovery #living with borderline #quiet borderline #borderline pd #borderline personality disorder

[actuallyschizophrenic]

since we psychotic-spectrum and schizophrenia-spectrum dorks have claimed the moon (since we're "lunatics"), i made some moon graphics with the symbol. one in purple since the colors repping psychospec and schizospec are purple and silver, and one in black and white.

#actually schizophrenic #actuallyschizophrenia #actually psychotic #psychosis #schizoprenia

[angiethewitch]

psa to everyone on antipsychotics during the summertime

some antipsychotics can make you more susceptible to heat exhaustion because they make it so your body cannot regulate your body temperature correctly. I learned this the hard way last summer, I got really nasty heat exhaustion while on a high dose of quetiapine. so check if your meds react badly to heat, and if they do, please be sure to wear your sunscreen, have light cover ups on or with you, wear a hat, and stay hydrated! be safe

#angie talks #mental health #psychotic #psychosis #schizophrenic #schizophrenia #actuallyschizophrenia #pseriouslyschizophrenic #pseriouslypsychosis

[paranoidscizo]

The government are out to get me hmm i don't know why yet but i can feel it i'm always being watched i feel people's eyes burning into my skin

#scizophrenia #self£harm #bpd vent #s3lf mutilation #self h@rm #cvutting #self mutalition #tw self destruction #bpd thoughts #cvtaddict #actuallyschizophrenic #actuallyschizophrenia

[cinnamonsticktea]

Non-psychotic people make paranoia and delusions out to be a joke so often that I cant talk about my own because it causes paranoia and delusions 😐 Like how do I know you arent gonna turn around and laugh at me with your friends? "Oh I know this crazy person who believes ----". Its so damaging. I refuse to get help because of it. I cant stand the thought of telling someone something so personal and harmful and they are just waiting to get home and laugh about it like its some silly work story.

If you do this then fuck you. Our suffering isn't your comedy act.

#actuallypsychotic #pseriouslypsychosis #pseriouslymentallyill #psychosis #actuallyschizophrenia #seriouslyschizophrenia #actuallyschizophrenic #im mad

[meth-clefairy]

God being on the schizophrenia spectrum really just be like: ?!???????????!!!!!!!!!????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????huh wtf is going on ????????????????????? A shadow people???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????incoherent sobbing?????????????????????????????????? I want chicken Alfredo?????? Is it bedtime sleepy sleepzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzwakes up to again: ???????????????huh wtf is-

#james jesse souza #actuallyschizophrenic #actuallymentallyill #actuallyschizo #actuallyschizoaffective #actuallyschizophrenia #actually schizophrenic #actually neurodivergent #schizo #schizophrenic spectrum

[physichotic]

tired of people acting like psychotics with violent/angry outbursts or whose psychosis presents aggressively are the scary, basement sibling of the psychotic community and not another of the many facets of this community who desperately needs support, compassion and understanding just like the rest of us

#pseriouslypsychosis #actuallyschizoaffective #actuallybipolar #actuallyschizophrenia #seriouslyschizophrenic #text #mental illness #psychosis #is this understandable bc i have a bad habit of using 50 words when 10 will do #my posts