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#aend me anons
marcsmarquez · 2 years
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saying "folks who can get pregnant" when discussing abortion bans is as spineless and pathetic as saying "i'm colorblind" when discussing police brutality. if you can't correctly and accurately name the demographic affected by systemic oppression then you are not ever going to be able to stop it. in fact, by obscuring the reality, you are actively helping the oppression continue.
the female sex is under attack. until you are ready to use those words instead of wishy washy gender neutral nonsense, i'm going to assume you are working for the GOP.
oh bestie, if only GOP members used gender neutral and gender inclusive language!!
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ivoncu · 1 year
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SORRY IF TBIS AENDS TWICE LMAO ANYWAY I WAS THE ANON THAT SEND THE QUESTION ABOUT THE REQUEST UHH HERE IT IS (FEEL FREE TO WRITE IT WITH SOMEONE ELSE IF U WANNA AUAUAU)
so rei with a friend (they have a crush on rei but hasnt confessed yet) thats an idol too !!! cool, right??? readers group is finishing a concert, ending with a song where reader is the main vocals (which is pretty rare for em,, i was thinkin something like this) and the day after the concert reader goes missing, and the rest of their group is oddly quiet about it,, and then rei accidentally stumbles upon them like a month later?? reader ends up confessing they cut off contact with everyone except their group and hasnt left their house because they were getting stressed,, and end up confessing that they like rei,,,
FEEL BETTER S. REI
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〝 ☆ 𓈒 SYPNOSIS  𝄒  sometimes you feel like giving up on your dreams and die
〝 𓈒  CONTENT WARNING 𝄒  descriptive implications of reader being depressed, self loathing, if theres anything else i missed please let me know!!
(n.) — note hihi its been a while since i posted anything huh.. this fanfic is fucking long and unproofread so ignore if i did grammatical mistakrs or someyhibg... i am sorry for making you wait for a whole month for something likr this cesarsbeloved merry christmas 🤗
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Everything starts and ended in a flash—you are starting to wonder whether any of these are real in the first place.
You used to like being on stage like this; singing your hearts out with your unitmates, trying to capture as many peoples attention as possible.
But these past few days, you feel nothing but dread whenever you're on stage. Is it burnout or are you really not that into being an idol anymore? You didn't know either.
And shouldn't you do your best since that Rei Sakuma had actually agreed to hold this concert with you—the esteemed UNDEAD with a unit such as yours. What an unlikely joint of events.
Well, it's all coming to an end anyways. You've decided to give everybody something they haven't seen before in a while, but would they like it?
You're sure that your other unitmate could hold this off better than you—hell, their voice is better than yours anyways. Why did they even agree to let you do this?
There isn't any room for regret now, the show's coming to a close. With a heavy heart, you sang. Your skips a thousand beats a minute; there was nobody to cover up your mistakes, nobody to help you. Even if they could, it'll be too late and you'd already embarrass yourself in front of the huge crowds.
Well at least UNDEAD isn't currently on stage to see you fail first hand, you suppose.
This is just terrible, this is why you don't like being the main vocal.
Your song surprisingly went right, nothing terrible happens but there's still something that looms behind you—some sort of sense of shame?
The moment you walked off stage, you instantly ran towards the bathroom.
The tap water sinking into the drainer was nothing but another white noise to you. All of your thoughts and emotions are whirling inside of you—it all felt so overwhelming to the point where you're sure you can break the edge of the sink that seemed like you're holding onto dear life to.
You wouldn't say you're insecure about how you look, but you'd be lying if you said it's not hard trying to look at yourself in the mirror right now.
Sometimes you simply wish you could look like someone else; someone prettier and more talented than what you are right now it's going to drive you to the edge.
Oh, and how you wish you could punch the mirror right now.
This isn't right, you should remain your composure. You've worked so hard for this, have you not?
But do you truly deserve it?
You shook your head, trying to regain your composure once again. It's terrible that you just ran off like that—they're all probably worried about you.
Your lips formed a thin line as you looked at yourself in the mirror dead in the eye. You only scoffed before closing the tap, preventing anymore water waste. You felt like you should apologize to whoever was paying this place's water bill for wasting water.
But nonetheless, you remained your composure. Your thoughts are all repressed to the back of your head; at least for now.
You unlocked the bathroom door, and opened the door. You didn't expect to see anything the moment you open the door, but to your surprise none other than Rei Sakuma himself was standing afoot, his hands behind his back as he did nothing but smiled.
"Ah... Sakuma-san...?" You stuttered, suddenly gripping onto the doorknob for dear life. "D-did I made you wait for too long...? Aha, sorry if I did." You sheepishly apologized, closing the door behind you.
"Ah, no. I was simply waiting for you to come out."
"So.. Like... You wanted to go to the bathroom?"
"Fufu, as I had previously stated; no. I was concern over your wellbeing, thus followed you here." He chuckled.
It's really... Surprising, indeed. Why would the Rei Sakuma be so worried over your wellbeing? And what did he even expect you to do in there?
"Thank you, Sakuma-san." You thanked, unsure on what to do other than that.
"There's no need for formalities; we're friends, aren't we? You can just call me Rei-kun ♪"
"Rei... Kun, huh?" You muttered out the name. You couldn't help but smile at his words, even you could feel your cheeks heating up.
"[Name], shall we go back to the others now?" He asks, his smile never falters even slightly as he nudges his head to the direction the others are, you suppose.
If you weren't blushing before, you are absolutely blushing right now.
"... Sure." You replied. You still wanted to keep your composure, you didn't want to seem weird over such simple friendly gesture.
But that was so embarrassing...?? Why'd he call your name like that??
"Well, Sakuma—urm, Rei-kun. Was there another reason for you to do this?" You ask, walking alongside him as you passed by workers who were doing their job to finish cleaning up for the day.
"You're sharp, indeed." He smiled, turning his head to you, "I did notice something rather unusual about your performance just now—by no means I am trying to say it's terrible; I am simply rather curious. About you, specifically." He continues his monologue before his gaze falls upon you once again.
"You weren't acting like yourself, were you?" He asked, his tone sounded nonchalant over such question—too casual, is that the word?
His question is also ridiculous. You don't know what he means. No idols by all means truly act like themselves on stage, do they? It's just ridiculous.
"Fanservice, sultry clothes to keep the fans hooked—shouldn't you understand it, Rei-kun? You're an idol; an esteemed one, that is." You sighed, shaking your head. "I am sure even you don't want to reveal all part of yourself to the public, so isn't it... Quite a hypocritical question to ask?"
"It isn't about fanservice and whatnot, it's about how you acted so indifferently than the others; you looked sad, [Name]."
"... Please don't try to poke your nose into something you aren't apart of." Your tone was something of an angry whisper more than anything. You gritted your teeth, your hands curled into balls as you look away from him.
"Of course I wil not, that is something I am not qualified to do, but do well remember that we all love and care for you." Suddenly, his hands were on top of your shoulders.
His grip on your shoulders were firm—so warm for a self proclaimed vampire. His smile was so gentle too.
"I will not force you to tell me about your problems, but if you ever need someone to talk to please remember that I'm always available." With that, his hands left your shoulders, and thus he turned his back on you, leaving you there.
He stopped on his tracks and glanced back at you, he suavely smiled at you with a wave before he walks once again. "Don't be too late, alright? Your unitmates must be worried sick about you."
Perhaps you should've listened to his advices, but are you going to? No.
It's been... Months? Since you last saw Rei, you hadn't even went outside for a while. You feel so dirty for not doing so, the only source of light in your room was from the computer screen.
Your whole place is a mess, but you felt no motivation to clean up; no motivation to do anything anymore, not even to eat.
Your phone was left with thousands of unread messages from your immediate family, all voicing their concern about your sudden disappearance, but you knew they all had ulterior motive and didn't bother—you just can't bother anymore.
Your friends had been understanding of your situation, but you had allowed none to go inside your apartment—either way, it's pretty disgusting.
You soon lean back onto your chair, feeling nothing but eternal dread. How did you end up like this...? You used to be so bright and cheerful. How did you turn into a loser who hasn't seen the sun in weeks?
You want to change, you want... To go outside for a change. You haven't hanged out with your friends in a while, you want to hang out with them again, you wanna laugh with them again.
But do you even have the motivation to even put a deodorant on? You must smell pretty disgusting for not showering in a while. Ah, you'll just force yourself to.
You didn't really think too much about what to wear. You simply put on whatever clothes that was the closest to you. A hoodie and a tracksuit, it's fine. It's starting to get chilly outside anyways.
You grabbed your phone and other essentials before going to unlock the door. You stare back at your apartment, sighing through your nose at the ugly sight. Alas, you left.
The leaves are starting to fall down, the atmosphere is starting to get colder—the winter days are near. Ah, just what happened to fall?
You felt terrible; you've made so many plans with your friends this fall but only to end up standing them up like this. But surely they understand, right?
And how is Rei doing today? Does he miss you?
... Why would you even want to know. Him missing you or not is the least of your concern. You should be trying to fix your life that's in shambles right now, not think of that bastard.
Your attention focused on the cobblestone path, silently passing by different people with different lives—ah, how you envy them. They are all probably living a normal, comfortable life with their loved ones.
A normal life without needing to overthink about the simplest mistakes you make and even if they did, they'd come back home with someone to comfort them. How envious you are of them, really.
You shook your head, trying to shake those loathing thoughts away. Ah, must you really think of that right now? Just focus on... Trying to interact with another human being or something.
You continued afoot; to where? Not that you have a peculiar place in mind to go, but the park is always the prettiest in times like these. Maybe you should go there.
And thus you followed with your idea. The moment you were in the park, you covered your your lower face with your scarf. There was so many people here, it'd be a terrible thing if someone were to find out you're here.
You doubt everybody thinks you're dead, but still. Being caught in a park like this would be embarrassing.
From where you were standing, you could already see the lake frozen up as the atmosphere grows colder around you—the snows are piling up at the side of the pathways, much enough for children to already start playing with it.
The laugher goes through your ear and left the other as you further walked near the railing of the lake.
Christmas is near... You wish you could spend it with your friends and family this year, but you don't think you can after going on a sudden unplanned hiatus like this.
A rather melancholic feelings arisen within you. Ah, this is just terrible. You grip on the railing tighter, trying not to let a single tear fall.
From the corner of your eyes, a man came a close, leaning on the railing also besides you. The distance between you two is big, but it still felt awkward nonetheless.
"Christmas... It's the most wonderful time of the year, don't you think so?" The man asks. You would've just nodded or replied with a short yes like any other person would, but his voice. He isn't just some random guy—his voice was rather familiar.
You look over to your side to see the Rei Sakuma standing right beside you.
Wait, how did he know you're here? Or does he genuinely think you're a random person? Wait, what are you even supposed to do now?
Should you show your identity to him? Should you just pretend to not know him? What should you do?
"I-I guess." You coughed, pulling on your scarf farther onto your face as you glance away from the man.
He would be lying if he said he didn't knew it was you, but you don't seem to be too ready to disclose everything from the looks of it, so he'll just pretend; he'll simply pretend that you both are nothing but strangers by lucky circumstances.
"The snow... Does it remind you of anything, may I ask?" His question was a weird one. Well, it's Rei Sakuma... He is known to be an eccentric, so you suppose his questions are oughtta be eccentric too.
"... Well, I suppose it takes me back to when I was a dumb kid, playing the snow with my friends." You responded, smiling fondly at the memory. "My friend accidentally hit me with a snow so hard I accidentally fell and slipped down and hurt my head. Funny story."
"Fufu, that is a wonderful story. It brings back many nostalgic memories of me and my little brother in the past."
"I suppose." You replied once again.
Soon silence followed. The lack of conversation made the situation awkward, for you at least. There was white noise of children laughing and people talking, but it doesn't matter.
"I have a question for you, if you don't mind answering it." He suddenly spoke, his gaze didn't stray away from the distant buildings and his smile stays the same.
"Ah...? Go on?"
"Whenever you think of Christmas, does anyone come to mind? Christmas is a wonderful time of the year; even you have someone who you cherish deeply, no?"
You stayed silent. To him, his silence says it all.
"Ah, my apologies. A rather rude question to ask someone whom you've just met, huh?" He tried to damage control everything. "I apologize again, stranger. You must have somewhere else to go."
He pushed himself away from the railing, and soon turned his back on you. It reminds you all like that moment you shared with him on your last show.
"Until we meet again, kind stranger." He turned his head back to you for one last time.
Before he could leave, you instantly grab ahold of his biceps. His smile never falters yet you can see the confused look on his face.
"Sakuma Rei-kun. Please don't leave yet." You brought your scarf down, flashing him your face for a few moment.
"Ah, [Name]-chan. It's been a long time, hasn't it?" He asks, flashing you a closed eye smile as if he did not just try to pretend that you both are nothing but strangers.
"How did you know I was here?" Was your first question to him before you let go of his arm.
"I did not. It was simply a coincidence." His response deadpanned you mentally. "Perhaps even God has decided we'd be more a fit to be together and brought us in the same path once again...?" He chuckled at his own unfunny joke.
Your heart skipped a beat at his statement. Well, that was simply just a joke. He likes to tease around, yeah. It's a joke, don't get your hopes too high...
"I'm sorry for disappearing. I... Should've told you sooner that I'd be on hiatus, huh? Well, sorry. I'm a bad friend; if you even think of me as one..."
"No, don't fret over it, [Name]. I was concern about your sudden disappearance, but I'm sure you have your own reasons—whatever it is, I truly do hope that it's settled."
"I have been so lonely without you, you know? Without my best friend beside me, just who will I tease otherwise?"
"You are not funny, Rei-kun." You replied.
"Fufu, alright, alright. I'm sorry." He apologized, yet the chuckle he lets out says otherwise.
"But it has truly been a while, [Name]. I'd like to know more about everything that happened during your disappearance. Shall we grab a cup of hot tea?"
"Nothing happened. I was just fighting my own demons during my hiatus, I guess."
"Oh? Are you saying you summoned a demon during your break?" He asks, looking genuinely confused at your statement.
"It's... A slang." You muttered out.
"Ah, I see. What a weird slang, fufu. Perhaps I'll ask the children about it later." He chuckles, leaving you dumbfounded yourself.
You couldn't help but chuckle at his own words. Seriously, this guy such an eccentric.
An "I love you..." suddenly rolled down your tongue before you could even realize it.
Silence soon followed once again. You weren't sure whether you said that loudly or not, but the look on his face says the former.
"You... Love me?" He asks, bringing his hand to his chin as his cheeks were tainted with pink hues.
"Uhm, no... I didn't say—uhm, you're dreaming. Nothing about this is real." You stammered out, trying to hide the fact that you're far more than embarrassed that you accidentally confessed to him.
"Fufu, there's no need to be embarrassed about it, in fact; I do love you too."
Those words that rolled down his tongue, it was... Too surreal, you suppose? No way the Rei Sakuma from the unit UNDEAD would like—no, love you back, right?
What a strange turn of events.
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sleepykas · 1 year
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The temptation to aend my mutuals asks ob anon and see if they recognize me hehehe
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chimpanzeedotcom · 2 years
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Hey chimp.i went on a date with a guy (seeing the batman) and at one point we were talking about the riddler and we were looking at each other and he said are we about to kiss and then laughed and like leaned away from me and like 30 seconds later he left to "use the bathroom" aend he came back10 minutes later like with tears and was like can we talk in the hall and he was like uhh sorry for like saying are we about to kiss and then not kissing you i like you but like and then we went and finished the movie andi tried to like assure him it was ok but like idk. This is also a month after a guy dumped me because he "wasn't ready for a relationship" so maybe i will just kill myself heehee
Anon I don’t know what to do with this information 😭😭😭😭 maybe go become a monk
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swamp-surgeon · 6 months
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anyone who wants to send fatphobic anon hate to rita you can aend it to me instead. i promise im fatter and bitchier and hate more things you like. cmere
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crystalbaby12 · 4 years
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Well I give a damn good foot rub if you promise I won’t get kicked in a ticklish fury lol
Appreciate the offer! I haven’t kicked anyone yet lol
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me: *tries to help myself first for once*
y’all: oho what’s this?????!!!!! mickey being blunt???!!!!! mickey putting himself first?????!!!!!! mickey being sarcastic and rude on his own blog???????!!!!!! blasphemous!!!!!! i must insult him!!! i must yell at and attack him!!!!!!!!! he must know that he should always put others first or else he will get anon hate!!!!!!!!!!!!! he must be forced to think about his triggers!!!! because i’m uncomfortable with the idea that he blocked people to keep himself safe!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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anarmorofwords · 3 years
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My opinion of you is that you are so cool and that I really want to be friends with me but you would be way too far out of my league
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kiraisei · 3 years
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Yall sending anon hate are absolute garbage. Seriously if you follow me and send anon delete yourself. If you dont like someone be an adult and unfollow. I
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lastnightsglitter · 4 years
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if you could travel anywhere in the world rn where would you go and why?
back to southern California, I was supposed to go visit all my friends in May and I'm missing them a whole lot rn :(
and maybe a less sad answer: I really wanna to Europe
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augujerdeer · 5 years
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Who's Micah???? Are they a new person???
Yea she is!!
Jamie tlkd abt her JUST NOW a lil but she’s a goat dragon????
Idk what she’s like, we haven’t seen her inspace except glimpses or like she’s gets near front?? Never spoke 2 her yet and we’re all a lil nervous bc this is the first time we STILL haven’t talked 2 some1 and thy haven’t fronted long enough 2 even make a BOT
it’s fuckin wack bro but we’ll welcome them anywy!
We’re not scared of her, it’s more like we’re stressed bc we split againa and it doesn’t mean we’re not recovering- it just means we have 1 new person we have 0 idea abt who they r very much JBSJSBWKW
ITS GNNA B A WHILE
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dailyjeons · 5 years
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i have exam tomorrow........ definitely gonna flop this cause my dumbass procrastinated heavily......... pls say sike...
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Poor boy :( well at least it happened sooner rather than later, & he got it out of his system & he had marius to help him & it didn't last very long, considering the whole immortality thing. And I'm glad he recovered his mental facilities & came out stronger on the other side as a competent, capable, & well adjusted vampire that he deserves to be
Exactly!
....now if only Anne Rice hadnt decided she was bored with Daniel and actually let us /have that/
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spinef0ryou · 4 years
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hi hi i don't talk 2 you v much but i appreciate you as a mutual and i go :> when i see you in my notifs
HI SAME THANK U!!!! UR VERY COOL AND POST TOO QUALI CONTENT
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eloquent-apollo · 2 years
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TO THAT ANON WHO JUST AEND ME AN ASK THE ANSWER IS YES OBVIOUSLY I LOVE JEREJEAN ANGST 👀 its gonna take a while bc im busy with my internship hence why im making a post instead of replying to your ask bc I dont wanna lose said ask but im gonna do it bc I love it
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starglitterz · 3 years
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I DREW A LEAF OMG
I made ir only witj the iuhm those sketch pens and i was actually going for an eye which someownow turmed into a leaf I WOULD AEND U IT SIMCE I'M LOWKEY VERY PROUD OF IT BUT I'm an anon ugh🙄🙄🙄 tumblr, nonnies sending photo feeature when frfr 🙄🙄🙌‼️ I'm actually contemplating on sending u tge leaf off anon and then u woild have ro pretend that i mever revealed myself in the firsy olace but idk man am i gonna reveal my totally awesome tumblr this soon or what😍‼️ /hj
LASDKJASKJD OMG CONGRATS !! GOOD JOB TYPO NONNIE <3 IM PROUD OF YOU /G
tbh idk what sketch pens youre talking abt but yay !!!!! very cool :D wait an eye??? 😭 how'd it become a leaf??? it's ok trust the process ig HAHA /pos
PLS DO SEND IT I'D LOVE TO SEE 🤩😳 NOOOO SOBS LOUDLY,,, tumblr please,,, Please,,, tumblr if u dont make this an optional feature ill storm your headquarters 😠😡🤬 /j omg if ur comfy w it you could send me the leaf off anon and i could reply privately ! :D HAHAHA it's okay im good at pretending i can def pretend that you've never come off anon KSDSKDJ
LOL dw darling !! you can reveal your super cool epic tumblr if/whenever you want to :D mwahhhh !!! im sure it cant be more awesome than u HAHA <3
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