#and i feel numb

[urjunkdrawer]

My brain is sad and doesn’t feel right I feel like I either need to throw everything I own away and restart by buying only the necessities. Or that I need to wash my brain with hot water and soap and then set it in an ice bath for a hot minute.

#in my sad hours #I can’t get comfortable #I’m too warm then too cold #my brain won’t shut up #and I feel numb #maybe it’ll fix itself by morning #junkdrawer rambles #don’t mind me

[summerlinenss]

david jenkins only ever wanted 3 seasons.

3 seasons to tell their story.

and even after slashing their budget nearly in half, making them cut the amount of episodes and their runtimes, and having to cut out and rewrite entire storylines, that still wasn’t enough.

fuck you, david zaslav.

#i don’t even know how to explain what i’m feeling #it’s numbness and fury and heartbreak all at once #ofmd #david jenkins #david zaslav

[ryanthel0ser]

Moodboard for post Spider Verse

#i'm gonna be insane for the next year over that #it was so good but i feel numb now how do i go on #i broke for a solid hour and all i did was scream and go “what” “heh” “i dont” “what” #spiderman #spider man across the spider verse #spider verse #across the spiderverse #miles morales #spiderverse

[sandflakedraws]

the song came on my shuffle and would not leave me alone until i penned this i'm so sorry

#this is way too much effort but like. music makes me feel things y'know? #trolls #floyd #branch #john dory #clay #bruce #cannot recommend Comfortably Numb enough as like. THE listless + dizzy song #no other tune has quite nailed the feeling like you're about to pass out at any second #also the human scream of agony in the middle is great too #either way #don't look at me #is he dead? i couldn't decide so thats up to u #long post #undescribed

[abusedpixie]

𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐚𝐬𝐤 𝐦𝐞 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐈 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐠𝐨𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐯𝐨𝐢𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐈'𝐦 𝐞𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐭 𝐨𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐨𝐫 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐬𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐮𝐩 𝐬𝐡𝐫𝐮𝐠𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠

“𝐈 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰“

#actually bpd #bpd #bpd blog #bpd feels #bpd problems #bpd things #bpd thoughts #bpd vent #bpd relatable #borderline #actually borderline #borderline personality disorder #borderline thoughts #i dont even know #void thoughts #selectively mute #bpd shit #borderline problems #i feel everything #i feel numb #borderline things #bpd splitting #borderline personality traits #borderline blog #borderline feels #borderline personality problems #actually mentally ill #mental illness #mentally exhausted #emotions

[smash-chu]

Long distance loneliness

#my art #doodles #smash-chu's art #not having the luxury of being able to just drive and see someone i know and love #having all my human connection come from digital screens when not visiting my family once or twice a year #it makes your heart sink down into a place that is hard to get out of #a place of acceptance that i will just have to live with being lonely #i love my friends #i just wish they weren't so spread out away from me #in a way i was left back here cause i was the only one that didn't move back to their parents #and now i struggle alone being comforted via keeping in touch online #but it can never replace seeing face to face #getting to be right there next to someone #touch starved is a understatement #but for now that is just how it has to be #anyways #my period is frying my brain making every feeling feel more intense so i feel super fucking alone right now #it's fine it'll go back to being numb soon enough #but sometimes you just need to let stuff out

[geceninbaligi]

I feel numb. No tears, no anger, nothing. Just going through the same day again and again. I would rather just sleep without waking up.

#bpd mood #actually borderline #bpd favorite person #bpd fp #mental health #favorite person #borderline personality disorder #yanderecore #obsessive yandere #i feel numb #i feel empty #brain empty #depressing quotes

[bluegarners]

bruce and dick are both emotionally repressed but in kind of different but parallel ways. like, the repression that bruce experiences stems from never confronting trauma or any negative emotion, whereas dick's repression stems from needing to be the emotional support for an emotionally repressed man at the ripe age of 9 and so never being able to process any emotions associated with that responsibility

#the difference as well is that dick is happy to be emotionally repressed if it means supporting bruce bc thats his guy #bruce is dick's blorbo in a sense <- awful sentence #like to me bruce is the kind of guy who sits in a dark room and feels numb and just never registers anything #and dick is the kind of guy like that meme of the dog sitting in a burning house and saying 'this is fine' #am i making sense? probably not. do i care? not really #dick grayson #bruce wayne

[agoraphobia-anxiety]

I just want to be okay. I don’t need to be happy, I just want to be okay.

#sorry for being depressing #depressing life #depressing quotes #tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts #self destruction #borderline personality disorder #kinda depressing #depressing shit #i feel numb #shower thoughts #late thoughts #sad aesthetic #sad thoughts #my thougts #thoughts

[temeyes]

my wrist's been hurting all day but i saw a real cute [chibi tutorial,] i had to try it out LOL

#MY CARPAL TUNNEL RUINS MY PLANS ONCE AGAIN!!!!!! #i literally bought a new wrap the other day + a hand massage ball (?) cuz my left hand was starting to feel a bit numb ashashhs #and my right hand's been acting up since i woke up today. so it's kinda hard to draw ahsahsh #my art #2023 #call of duty #call of duty: modern warfare #call of duty: modern warfare ii #call of duty: modern warfare iii #cod #codmwii #codmwiii #modern warfare #mw #mw2 #mw3 #soap #soap cod #soap mactavish #johnny soap mactavish #art #fanart #digital art #digital drawing #sketch #doodle #video games #activision

[honeypleasejustkillme]

with how life has been going this year, i’m contemplating suicide more than ever before

#actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd vent #actually borderline #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #bpd #bpd shitposting #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #my entire life is going to absolute shambles and i feel like a fish flopping out of water.. nothing has gone well this year for me #everything has gotten significantly worse.. to the point of feeling like there’s no uphill this time #i’ve become so numb to life at this point that if one more bad thing happens i’m calling it quits #i’m tired of living like this #i CANT live like this #i physically cannot take any more this year

[tamarrud]

You know what's funny about this? Not only is it in reference to a post I made about Zionists who try to get to me... anonymously but also the fact that literally two messages before this I was accused of being hateful.

So let me repeat, there's nothing that screams hate more than Zionists and their rhetoric.

They say shit like this while they literally have the means to act on it given their entire culture is built on this type of violence, yet when they get cornered have the nerve to turn around and say "but Palestinians are hateful and want us all dead!"

I know for a fact the iof that pointed their rifles at me wanted to finish the job every time. And while I somehow survived, countless other Palestinians didn't. I know for a fact that had the iof finished the job, they would have rejoiced over my dead body like they do to all the Palestinians who do end up getting murdered. Had the iof finished the job with me, my body would probably still be in detention and not released to my family, similar to what is done to the many Palestinians who the iof kills whose families don't get to give them proper burial.

Zionists are sadistic and vile, and this is a quick reminder in case anyone was still on the fence about it.

#I also want to note that while I am not affected by messages like this #doesn't mean you shouldn't #I might have grown... what's the word? numb? idk #but that's because of my own personal experiences and also my own personality and everything in between #it's more than fair to get sick to your stomach and feel enraged even #so yea just don't use me as an example lol

[vaxieth]

i don’t know who needs to hear this, but the only time imogen has ever questioned if the ruby vanguard had a “point” was in the thirty seconds after an extremely emotionally intense dream where she experienced what it was like to be without pain for the first time in a decade, and when she was corrected by orym, she immediately apologized because she knew she was wrong. this is not and never has been some character defining struggle.

even if we consider her pull to predathos as analogous to a pull towards supporting the vanguard (it isn’t at all, but let’s say it is), she hid how she was feeling in the immediate aftermath, again, of an extremely emotionally intense dream that clearly left her feeling overwhelmed and confused, but the next day, when she was back to herself, she told them she felt a pull and that she wanted them to help her resist it. she said herself, “i know what’s right, even if my heart would say otherwise at some point.”

the fandom’s cynical obsession with imogen “betraying” the group despite ample evidence that, in her right mind, she is committed to them fully and would never willingly chose otherwise is one of the most utterly baffling and frustrating takes i consistently see.

#imogen temult #critical role #cr discourse #i suppose #textpost #my posts #also the fact that the same people judging imogen based on what she says at her lowest moments #instead of how she chooses to deal with those feelings afterwards #call imogen herself ‘judgmental’ for ‘judging people based off their thoughts not their actions’ #would be funny if it weren’t so mind-numbing

[klownkoster]

He's practically melting but he doesn't have the heart to move them

#noise's arm is going to be completely numb when he wakes up i just know it #straight up not gonna feel it for hours #someone said peppinoisecoupletavo in a reblog so im using that from now on thank you #klowndraws #my art #doodle tag #pizza tower #pizza tower fanart #peppino #peppino spaghetti #the noise #noisette #gustavo #pizza tower gustavo #peppinoise #noisecouple #peppino x gustavo #peppinoisecoupletavo #also wanna call them pizza poly teehee #pizza poly

[neurodivergenttales]

People talk about wanting to recover so that they can re-gain their old selves, their old passions, their old interests

What do you do when you don't have an old self to go back to and re-gain? There wasn't a 'me' before mental illness or if there was I don't remember them

When you start struggling with your mental health at a young age, it becomes all that you know and your identity can become distorted around it

Now I'm an adult who has no idea what they like, what they enjoy or even how to comfort themselves

What am I supposed to do with myself and how am I supposed to find reasons to recover when it feels like drowning is all I know?

#mental health #mental illness #neurodivergent #neurodiverse stuff #journal #journaling #diaryposting #sadcore #actually autistic #neurodiversity #numb #i feel empty #depersonalization

[bass-alien]

some days I just need extra love and today is one of those days

#my depression has just been brutal lately #and I’m not even sad I just feel like numb almost? #idk man I need a hug