#and starring role comes right after homewrecker

[perspectivestarters]

Perspective's Sentence Starters; Electra Heart (Part I)

BUBBLEGUM BITCH

"Got a figure like a pin-up."

"Got a figure like a doll."

"Don't care if you think I'm dumb."

"I'm the girl you'd die for."

"I'll chew you up and I'll spit you out."

"That's what young love is all about."

"Pull me closer and kiss me hard."

"I'm gonna pop your bubblegum heart."

"Hit me with your sweet love."

"Steal me with a kiss."

"I'm gonna be your bubblegum bitch."

"Life gave me some lemons so I made some lemonade."

"Baby, here I come."

"I met a boy."

"He made my doll heart light up with joy."

"We fell apart."

"Welcome to the life of (Name)."

"I think I want your American tan."

"I think you're gonna be my biggest fan."

PRIMADONNA

"All I ever wanted was the world."

"I can't help that I need it all."

"The primadonna life, the rise and fall."

"It's always someone else's fault."

"Got you wrapped around my finger, babe."

"You can count on me to misbehave."

"Would you do anything for me?"

"Would you get down on your knees for me?"

"Pop that pretty question right now, baby."

"Beauty queen on a silver screen."

"Living life like I'm in a dream."

"I know I've got a big ego."

"I really don't know why it's such a big deal though."

"I'm sad to the core."

"Every day is a chore."

"When you give, I want more."

"I wanna be adored."

"I'm a Primadonna girl, yeah."

"Take a picture, I'm with the boys."

"Get what I want 'cause I ask for it, not because I'm really that deserving of it."

"In the limelight I want to stay."

"Anything for the crown."

LIES

"You're never gonna love me, so what's the use?"

"What's the point in playing a game you're gonna lose?"

"What's the point in saying you love me like a friend?"

"What's the point in saying it's never gonna end?"

"You're too proud to say that you made a mistake."

"You're a coward till the end."

"Why don't we just pretend?"

"I can't let you go."

"I just want it to be perfect, to believe it's all been worth the fight."

"You only ever touch me in the dark."

"Only in the evening could you give yourself to me."

"The night is your woman, and she'll set you free."

HOMEWRECKER

"Every boyfriend is the one, until otherwise proven."

"The good are never easy, the easy never good."

"It never happens like you think it really should."

"Deception and perfection are wonderful traits."

"You'll find me in the lonely hearts."

"I'm after a brand new start."

"I don't belong to anyone."

"They call me homewrecker."

"Girls and their curls and their gourmet vomit."

"Boys and their toys and their six inch rockets."

"We're all very lovely 'til we get to know each other."

We stop becoming friends and we start becoming lovers."

"I'm only happy when I'm on the run."

"I break a million hearts just for fun."

"I guess you could say that my life's a mess."

"But I'm still looking pretty in this dress."

"I'm the image of deception."

"When everything is life and death, you may feel like there's nothing left."

"Instead of love and trust and laughter, what you get is happy never after."

"Deep down all you want is love."

"We cannot escape the past."

"You and I will never last."

STARRING ROLE

"You're hard to hug, tough to talk to."

"I never fall asleep when you're in my bed."

"All you give me is a heartbeat."

"I've turned into a statue and it makes me feel depressed."

"The only time you open up is when we get undressed."

"You don't love me, big fucking deal."

"I'll never tell you how I feel."

"It almost feels like a joke to play out a part when you are not the starring role in someone else's heart."

"You know I'd rather walk alone than play a supporting role."

"Sometimes I ignore you, so I feel in control."

"Fed up with the fantasies that cover what is wrong."

"Come on, baby, let's just get drunk, forget we don't get on."

"You're like my dad, you'd get on well."

"I send my best regards from Hell."

"I never had a heart to mend."

Before the start began, I always saw the end."

"I wait for you to open up, to give yourself to me."

"Nothing's ever gonna give."

"I'll never set you free."

THE STATE OF DREAMING

"Millions of girls float on that one quote."

"I live my life inside a dream, only waking when I sleep."

"I would sell my sorry soul if I could have it all."

"My life is a play."

"I've been living in the state of dreaming."

"Living in a make-believe land."

"All I really want is to be wonderful."

"People in this town, they can be so cruel."

"If I could sell my sorry soul, I would have it all."

"If only you knew my dear, how I live my life in fear."

"If only you knew my dear, how I know my time is near."

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[holylulusworld]

The art of hate

Summary: Meeting Jensen again makes your heart flutter, but he only offers rejection…

Pairing: Jensen x Reader, Jared x Reader (platonic), Misha Collins

Warnings: angst, love-hate relationship, Jensen being a douche, dirty talk, smut, unprotected sex, possessive Jensen, ‘marking’, language

Kinktober Special: Marking (= to cum deep inside of someone male or female : to leave your mark. They now smell like your musk.)

Kinktober Specials

Your heart beats faster, your hands are sweaty as you walk onto the set to meet your new colleagues.

You met Jensen and Jared last year during Comic-Con. At that time, you still had a leading role in ‘Arrow’ but you got killed off for a new addition. When you got the offer to work for Supernatural you squealed at first. Then you smiled the whole day and in the end, you got drunk to celebrate your new role.

Here you are now – ready to rock the show and even more important, to meet Jensen again.

“Hey, Y/N. Great you are with us now.” Jared chuckles picking you up without any effort to give you one of his ‘bear’ hugs.

“Jared, I can’t breathe…” You mutter. “Jesus, I need air, Sasquatch.”

“Sorry. I’m glad you took the role.”

Jared’s smile is honest, warm as he hands you a welcome gift – your trailer keys. “Thanks. I’m glad I got the role. I was worried after getting killed off at ‘Arrow’.”

Jared rolls his shoulders, smirking. “Their loss, our win. We will beat them for sure.”

“We need to prepare for the next scene,” Jensen mutters walking toward you and Jared. He’s pissed to see you again and wants nothing more than getting rid of you. His bad you got a contract for two seasons.

“Jensen, nice to meet you again.” You swoon holding out your hand. He smirks, looking at your hand before walking away.

“What was that?” Jared gasps seeing your hurt expression. “I don’t know. I thought we had a good time during Comic-Con. Got no clue why Jensen is pissed at me.”

“I’ll talk to him later. This is not the way to welcome a new cast member.” Jared is running after his friend to find out why he reacted that way.

—-

Days passed and Jensen prefers keeping his distance, making sure you feel his rejection. You still got no clue why he is acting like you are his archenemy but by now you are too angry to talk to him like a decent human.

Jensen is glancing into your direction, whispering something into one of the guest stars’ ears, causing her to look at you, laughing.

Your hands balled into fists you glare at him before stomping away, ignoring Jared calling after you.

“You shouldn’t get involved with her…” Jensen mutters while Jared still calls your name. “What is your fucking problem, Jay? That’s not the way you act around other colleagues. Y/N doesn’t deserve this treatment. You better get your shit together or you are into big trouble.”

“Why?” Jensen shrugs. “As I’m going to mop the floor with you, Jensen.” Towering intimidating over his friend Jared clenches his jaw. “Y/N is nice, attentively and professional. You should at least try the same.”

—-

“Cut! Perfect, Y/N. Jensen, stop glaring at Y/N. This is not in the script.” Bob mutters as you walk off the set to reach your trailer.

“Did you fuck him too?” Jensen mutters following you hot on your heels. “What?” Confused you look at Jensen who is glaring at you.

“Bob, did you fuck him too like Jared during the Comic-Con.” Jensen’s voice is cold, full of venom.

Shocked you cover your mouth with your hand, shaking your head. “I did not fuck anyone during the Con. Why are you saying something like that?” You talk back before your hand collides with Jensen’s cheek.

“I saw him coming out of your room!” Jensen mutters as you want to slap him once again. “Yeah. He wanted an autograph for Cliff, you idiot! I had the cards in my room and handed Jared one. I got no clue why you assumed I had sex with Jared, but he’s married and I’m not a homewrecker.”

“Liar.” Jensen is getting closer, towering over you. His green eyes fixated on your lips he scoffs as you push against his chest.

“I’m not! Why were you close to my room back then?” You ask and he looks away, flustered. “Holy…you asshole wanted to fuck me?”

“I earned it, Jared had no right to harvest my fruit…” Jensen curses grabbing your wrist harshly to drag you toward his trailer.

“Jared didn’t harvest anything, sick bastard. How did you earn me?” Gasping you fight his strength but he’s already pushing you into his trailer, locking it.

“I was charming, made you lean into my touch. You laughed at my jokes and your nipples got stiff when I brushed your hair aside. I wanted you but you spread your legs for my best friend.” Jensen’s anger is rising as you slap his cheek once again.

“I did not! I wasn’t into Jared back then. Now I know I might choose the wrong Winchester brother.” You curse.

“You wanted me?”

“Yeah. But you are an asshole so get out of my way.”

Jensen’s chest presses against yours as he pushes you against the wall. Hands get pinned above your head; lips claimed by his while his free hand fumbles your pants open.

“This is my fruit to harvest. Going to have you now and every night from now on. I will fuck you good and hard. If you are my good girl, you’ll get a reward.” Jensen is nipping along your jawline, enjoying your struggle.

“You won’t get any, pervert. You treated me like an enemy over the last days…” Your lips pressed into a thin line you try to ignore the arousal pooling between your legs, but Jensen won’t let you.

One hand slips into your panties. A dirty grin plastered all over his face Jensen leans closer, fanning his hot breath over your face. “I think you enjoy being mine. Say it.” His lips dangerously close to your pulse point he hums when a moan escapes your lips, caused by his fingers working your clit.

“Fuck you!” It’s a weak attempt to ignore his influence on your body. Jensen doesn’t mind, simply retreating his fingers to push you onto the bed. You want to scramble away but two strong hands grab your pants, shoving them down your legs, along with your soaked panties.

You still try to fight Jensen and it makes him want you even more. There’s a dangerous smirk on his face when his hand lands on your ass.

Squealing you look at him, pouting, but he takes the opportunity to cover your body with his.

“Get off me.” Feeling his erection pressing into your ass you gasp, before your body moves on its own, grinding against Jensen. “You’re mine. Jared can’t touch you. No one can…” His lips nip at your shoulder, leaving marks on your skin.

“Jay…”

“Be a good girl and strip your shirt and bra off. I want you bare underneath me. Begging me for more when you cum on my cock. I’m going to make you mine.”

—-

Your shirt and bra hit the floor while Jensen is busy dropping his boxers onto the pile of clothing. In a blink he is on the bed, pouncing on you, pressing his body against yours. Your legs fall open, allowing Jensen to slide into you with one hard thrust.

Gasps escape your lips when you grab his hair to bring him down for a sloppy kiss.

“Look at you. This is where you belong all your life. Underneath me, coming hard…screaming my name.” Jensen growls against your lips now barely able to hold back the need to make you his, to leave a ‘claim’ on you.

When he starts to move it’s hard, rough and fast. There’s no time for tenderness, he can make love to you later. Now he needs to make sure you know whom you belong to. His hips crash into yours with so much force you are sure he will leave bruises.

Jensen is growling, nipping at your nipples. His movement never falters as you try to meet his thrusts. The way he slides into you, hitting the right spot with every powerful stroke makes your body sing for Jensen. Your eyes want to flutter shut but you want to see Jensen’s contorted face as he pounds into you with abandon.

“Hold tight onto me, we are not done.” Jensen pants, grabbing your legs to move them around his waist. You cry out, digging your nails into his shoulder as he changes angles, now alternatively grinding and thrusting.

“Jay…”

“That’s it. Come all over my cock, come and I’ll fill you up, mark you. I want everyone to know it’s my cum inside of you.” Jensen bites down your shoulder causing your vision to blank out. Spasms rock your body as you fall over the edge, moaning his name.

“I…”

“Yeah…all I ever wanted.”

Jensen thrusts three, four more times burying his cock as deep as possible into you before he stills, emptying himself into you.

“I need a shower for sure…” You fall back onto the pillow. Skin sweat slicked, cum dripping out of you but Jensen only smirks, shaking his head.

“No way. You will shove your panties over your sweet pussy and have my cum inside of you till we are done with filming.” His lips nibble at your pulse point as he ruts against you, making sure every droplet filled your womb. “I want them to smell me on you. I claimed you as mine…”

“Are you a dog now marking your territory?” You chuckle but the look Jensen gives you makes your breath hitch in your throat. He’s fucking serious.

“You’re mine…”

“I can’t run around with your cum dripping out of me, Jensen…”

“You can and you will. Tonight I’ll mark you again, maybe I even knock you up, breed you. I can imagine you round with my baby. Hmmm…”

“UH—slow down, Cowboy.”

“Nope. I decided you are mine. I’ll make sure Jared keeps his greedy hands off you.” Jensen mutters against your skin. “Say it…”

“Fine, I’m yours, Ackles but I will not let you knock me up.”

Jensen smirks again, pulling out to lie down next to you. Eyes fixated on the ceiling he tries to catch his breath. “I want you to be my girl…”

“If you can make me cum like this all the time, I’m all yours, but we will have a shower…”

“Nooo…”

“Ackles, stop playing the Alpha…”

“Fine, shower…but we will do it in there again…” Jensen mutters giving you a dirty grin as you glance at his hardening cock.

“Damn…” Your lower lip trapped between your teeth you nod.

—-

“What the…?” Jared gasps hearing you cry out Jensen’s name followed by your lover’s grunts.

“Is Y/N alright? Does she need help?” Misha asks.

“I think she has all the help she needs…” Jared shudders turning to leave.

“What?” Misha glances at Jensen’s trailer mouth agape as he hears you and Jensen going at it. “I thought they hate each other…”

“I think they were acting. The art of hate…you know…” Jared walks away when your screams grow louder.

“Dammit, Ackles…I’m yours…”

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[into-control]

submission:

I love how a big part of the GP or people who just listen to their music but don’t know anything about them see through this shitshow, saying it’s PR or that it’s hella sus cause of the timing, the mv, the break up and basically everything. I just love it. But I read a thread on twitter twice and the second time I read it from GP’s POV cause it made much more sense to me, probably the person who wrote it is part of the GP. And before you attack me and start defending Shon just read it from another POV, imagine you don’t know anything about the industry or your faves. And I don’t agree with few things in the thread or they are not exactly right but it brings good points.

“I think this needs to be said, because I don’t see any discussion happening on this and this topic NEEDS to be explored - even regardless of all the movements and awareness that have taken place over the years, there is still rampant and unaddressed sexism in the music industry. On February 25th at the #Oscars, Lady Gaga and Bradley Cooper took the stage to perform #Shallow, from the ‘A Star Is Born’. Minutes afterwards, Gaga received 'Best Original Song’, and made history for winning a #BAFTA, #Grammy, #GoldenGlobe and Oscar, in a single year. However, this aspect was hardly covered by tabloids and magazines. The intimate performance by Gaga and Cooper of 'Shallow’ involved them locking eyes, leaning on each other while singing and a powerhouse vocal run by Lady Gaga. The main focus was on the chemistry between the two and the reaction of the audience members - particularly that of Irina Shayk (Cooper’s then girlfriend). Weeks later, Cooper ended his four year relationship with Shayk, with whom he shares a child.Rumors had been swirling around ever since initial shooting for 'A Star Is Born’ had commenced but intensified after the performance and skyrocketed after the breakup. Gaga appeared on Jimmy Kimmel’s show and clarified that the chemistry was what “we wanted you to see"Some celebrities like Piers Morgan and Mel B did little to dispel these speculations, accusing Gaga of 'crossing a few lines’ and breaking "a woman’s code”. Tabloids, fans, magazines accused Gaga of being a homewrecker and being responsible for breaking up Cooper and Shayk. Which I feel is pretty sexist and defamatory as we’re automatically assuming that Cooper had absolutely no role in this, and that Gaga, being the woman and due to her infamous '100 people in the room’ quote had a major role to play in this. Months later, the song #S*norita by Sh*wn M*ndes and C*mila C*bello was released whose music video was scandalous at best, and a bit uncomfortable at worst, as they have described each other as being 'best friends’ consistently. After the #S*noritaVideo was released, Camilla and her then boyfriend M*tthew H*ssey’s relationship ended. And what do you know? Absolutely, NOBODY is accusing Sh*wn M*ndes of being a homewrecker or attacking him like they attacked Gaga. They shared passionate lovemaking scenes in the video, whereas Gaga just LOOKED Bradley in the eyes and leaned on him while singing a LOVE SONG from a LOVE STORY . Yet, Gaga is almost exclusively blamed for breaking up a relationship while Sh*wn M*ndes gets a free pass. Coincidence? I think not.The sexism that is deeply rooted in our mindsets proves that there is still a long way to go to dismantle the patriarchy and to eradicate the misogynistic thoughts that so many of us grew up with. .When situations like these arise, blame will almost always be allocated to the woman as they are expected to settle down with one man and remain faithful, while men will always get away due to sayings like 'boys will be boys’ which appropriate and normalize unfaithful and flirtatious behavior as being a personality trait for men. We need to talk about this. This isn’t fair and it definitely needs to be addressed. Peace.”

I just want to say, I don’t have anything against Shon, I pretty much have a neutral opinion about him – talented vanilla dude who sings cheesy songs and teens can obsess about him, putting face to their imaginary boyfriends, but he is talented. This is not about Shon, it’s about how unfair the whole situation is and what kind of an imagine they are gonna pass Camila. The media was already implying it even before these photos came out and now everyone is going crazy. And those photos are not in everyone’s favor – hotel, shirtless curly boy, holding hands, kissing behind a cactus. Basically TS 2.0, so I’m kind of anxious about how this whole thing is gonna play out. Also Fans of Shon who don’t like Camila are saying she is a cheater, a wh*re, jumping from boy to boy. And we know how the society things – if a girl sleeps with 3 boys – she is a wh*re, if a boy sleeps with 3 women – wow,what a man, respect, he is a hero. I may sound very crude, sexist and hypocritical saying this but I won’t sugarcoat it – men in industry are privileged just because they have a fucking dick in their pants. Sure, they are not allowed to do everything they want to and are still controlled but. A grown up man takes the mic from a 19 years old girl during her acceptance speech – that’s him speaking his mind. A woman taking a huge issue in the industry and making it public – she is a bully, she is having a temper tantrum. A grown up man making a video with naked celebrities without their consent, calling people names – but yeah, Taylor is the snake. Mhm. Sexism, double standards, misogyny, fucked up industry. And the media plays a huge part of all this shit, cause they try to stir up some bs, again using the double standards and people eat this shit up like a fucking bagel. The GP eats it and doesn’t think that there are two sides of the coin whereas in the industry there are 1000 sides. Even people who aren’t interested in all the celebrity drama are kind of forced to see, hear or read about it, cause it’s shoved to our faces everywhere. And they eat that shit and I hope there won’t be any more shit about Camila then there is now. I can already read some bs like “Sh*wn scored that Cuban booty who apparently jumps very fast between relationships” or something along the line just with better words but still implying it.

The second thing I want to say is about that fucking heteronormativity. Toucs said it really well and I just want to say again how fucking disgusting people are. And we are the one who has disgusting sexual fantasies, yeah right. Sh*wmila shippers using 50x zoom to see “a condom in his pocket during the party” and then comments like “they should go raw”. Fine, we write sometimes witty comments about strapons or other things when an astro comes by, but how the fuck are we the ones with the sick fantasies? Just because we ship two girls. Using the photos and making up sexual things, which are really sick that I don’t even want to say them. But yeah, we are the ones who are disgusting. And their teams do know how to bait those shonmila shippers like crazy tho. PRs were not invented yesterday, so they definitely know that fans pay attention and notice everything. Boy and a girl hold hands – bang, we have a couple. Seen outside a hotel – bang, they banged. But don’t hate the player, hate the game.

I just wanted to take this off my chest, I don’t even know if I make any sense or said the things I wanted to cause my migraine is killing me and my thoughts are all over the place. I guess we just must stick around and wait again until this “relationship” run “its course” too. And let’s hope something nice would happen to our ship or our community (Taylor please come out). Also, don’t go and hate shon or shonmila shipper, it’s not worth it, we already know that everything is our fault and we are wrong about everything and should rot in hell cause our sick fantasies.

#CLAP CLAP CLAP #submission

[dykerightsmp3]

like it’s funny, MARINA’s Electra Heart is used as an aesthetic constantly but I almost never hear anything about its actual content so here are the best things about one of the best albums of all time

Got a figure like a pin-up, got a figure like a doll / Don't care if you think I'm dumb, I don't care at all

Bubblegum Bitch is an absolute bop to start off but it plays super well with this superficial ideal – it’s an introduction to the album as something just slightly satirical and also as a medium used to explore the roles women are placed within, and it establishes the idea of the songwriter playing a character

my favorite thing said about Primadonna is actually something Marina says: “It’s about not needing anybody when it comes to love—your raison d'être is to live for adoration. Girls usually feel like this when they are not appreciated in a relationship.” like, it’s her owning this thing that her ex-boyfriend used to throw at her. metal

the sort of rising howling oooooh right before the final chorus of Lies

also the way she sings you only ever touch me in the dark 

Homewrecker is this same reclaiming as Primadonna but also a statement on Why we express ourselves in that type of deceptive romanticism

But deep down all you want is love / the pure kind we all dream of / but we cannot escape the past / so you and I will never last

this idea of there being no real point to trying to make it last because you’re projecting this image so hard

you don’t love me / big fucking deal / I’ll never tell / you how I feel

I have sooooo much to say about Starring Role that can’t fit here but some underrated elements include: the notes in the background of the chorus that start over “when you are not the starring role”; how the music starts out pretty simple and sad and builds up in this almost desperate way; how it uses Primadonna imagery as a demand to simply be loved back

you’re like my dad / you’d get on well / i’ll send my best / regards from hell is absolutely one of the most Oh-Shit lyrics ever written it still makes me gasp every time I listen to it

Ending State of Dreaming on the simple line “my life is a play”

the transition from the stark abrupt realism of Starring Role to the dreamy music of State of Dreaming, and then going from this dreamy song to a song about being in control

yeah you may be good looking but you’re not a piece of art

the all-over-the-place bridge of Power & Control and how she goes from saying “doesn’t mean that I am weak” and just continues repeating “I am weak” over much more haunting music

I can’t decide which one of these is the best rhyme ever: I wanna be a bottle blond / I don’t know why but I feel conned vs I want back my virginity / so I can feel infinity

some cool shit said about Valley of the Dolls: “This song is like breaking point – it’s poising on the edge, and listener doesn’t know if Electra will manage to fight or she’s gonna be defeated to the point of suicide.”

how after that song about alienation, we move back into Hypocrates, a song that’s so much a breakdown and a statement of lack of ownership

the fact that Hypocrates is used both as a reference to being a hypocrite and doctor – like someone who wants to diagnose her problems

I know you only want to own me.

also like I know Buy the Stars isn’t on the US version but since the lyric is similar please just know that the delivery of the line “you know only how to own me” in that song is fucking Gorgeous

this might be known by others but in looking through the lyrics for this album I discovered that the reason Living Dead, Lonely Hearts Club, and Buy the Stars aren’t on the US deluxe (and probably the reason Sex Yeah is in a different place too) is because they were written for a different conception of this album. 

which is actually interesting in terms of thematic coherency -- this album is focused on the Four Archetypes, yes, but it’s essentially about 1) the relationship between love and control, 2) owning the insults that are thrown at women, and 3) emptiness. and I’d guess Hypocrates and Sex Yeah were both originally on the first album.

with That being said, How to Be a Heartbreaker changed me as a person at age 11 and still remains one of the most iconic beats I’ve ever heard.

AT LEAST I THINK I DO

Girls don't want / We don't want our hearts to break, in two / So it's better to be fake / Can't risk losing in love again, ba-abe and also how her voice GOES UP on that note

honestly dude the bridges on this album are all very confessional and also all honestly slap way too hard

'Cause the night is your woman, and she'll set you free vs. In the night your heart is full and by the morning empty

Radioactive is such a bop but also hurts? this song, to me, is about the conflict between desire for control and the way you feel around someone else; it’s about attempting to close off emotion in an attempt

the entire decision to end on Fear and Loathing 

this track... fucks. like it begins with this really sad statement about filling your heart with emptiness and then transitions into this statement on deciding to let go, and also the high notes oh my god, and the way she sings the chorus repeat, and also the damn ending.

And when the time comes along / And the lights run out / I know a light will burn on / When they blow me out

I think on a story level you can think of this song as the character letting go or maybe dying, but you can also think of it as the songwriter letting go -- this is an album about performance, of stereotypes or of control or of emptiness, and this song is letting go of all those things, letting go of trying to have it all and trying to divide yourself into archetypes and just being. which is wonderful

anyway I love Marina happy pride month to everything she’s ever done

#marina #electra heart #album reviews #elle.txt #please i wrote this so quickly i just have FeelingsTM #100

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Andi Mack 3x16 Review

One Girl’s Trash really showcased why Andi Mack is such an important show though I wish they would have spent more time on the stereotypes plot. Let’s dig in!

Positives: 

When Andi Mack is at its best there’s really nothing like it anywhere on TV and it’s going to leave such a void when it ends and I hope something fills that void sooner rather than later. 

A really strong A plot by Elena Song, it makes such a difference that the diversity we see on the show is mirrored in the writers room. I was so happy that they actually had Andi used the word Asian when talking about the stereotypes she was facing; it was a big improvement from the more coded way they had to talk about the racism Buffy faced back in S1 in regards to her hair. Words truly do matter and being able to openly and accurately describe these kind of things is so important.

Lilan and Peyton posted on how much this ep means to them and I hope we’ll be seeing more plots like this on kids TV. 

Honestly my only real complaint about the A plot is that it felt too short and I wish Celia had been in this ep and that Bex could have been brought in to, seeing three generations of Asian woman supporting each other would have been great. 

I also liked that Andi said that Mrs. Frankel turning the stereotyping into a teachable moment wasn’t fun which of course would be true in reality. I also appreciate that the show continues to put black women in positions of authority.

It was great to see Andi so into art again and it makes for a good way to bring her story to a climax.

Andi’s art project looked like something a 14 year old might come up with and I liked that she was inspired but didn’t immediately know what she was going to do for her project. 

Hangry and resting happy face were very funny jokes. 

A rare Andi and Cyrus scene. Liked the callback to the rainbow wig and the protest and the experiment; definitely a show reaching to its past as it prepares for the end.  And we get two callbacks to the party tonight to set up the finale. It did feel a bit tacked on but that’s likely because the writers wanted to get in some solo time for this duo before they run out of time. 

Stellar acting from Trent and Lilan this ep. Bowie talking about wanting to one day see Andi get married in Bex’s dress and how it wouldn’t happen now was so sad. That was some good Bexie angst. and it actually felt earned.  I’m glad it’s all out in the open now. Bex’s biggest flaw is that she runs from her problems and she was being willfully blind to the fact that obviously Bowie wanted to get married. Now she has to face reality and make her choice. 

Jonah was hilarious tonight. Asher was killing it with the comedy. His groan when he said he’d have to breakup with Amber again? Emmy worthy. There’s really not much to Jonah other than Frisbee and dimples and I like when they just use him as comic relief; it usually lands better than when they shove Cyrus in that role. 

Jonah is definitely true to life for the average 14 year old boy but in fairness at least he recognized that he didn’t reciprocate Amber’s feelings and that he had to eventually be honest with her. 

Nice little callback to 3x07 with Jonah wearing the same blue sweater he wore when he was with Libby at the school. And a nice realistic touch since he would be re wearing clothes. 

It was good of him to actually take her on a real date and I liked the detail of him winning tickets on the radio. 

Andi really is being a good friend to both Amber and Jonah and is giving good advice, though how long that lasts remains to be seen. 

Amber was the most likeable she’s ever been. Really strong performance from Emily tonight. Disney PR posted that she actually was driving the go kart which is cool. Must have been really fun to shoot. 

I liked that we opened on community service, too often this show just ignores the events of the previous ep. 20 hours of service for trespassing and theft versus 100 hours for playing with a gun is interesting

More set up for Buffy’s injury. 

Negatives: 

Jamber is a huge mess and really not a wise use of precious screen time. Amber is clearly looking for the affection she’s not getting at home and Jonah is probably the worst possible character on the show to seek that from. I really don’t know what exactly Amber’s version of a happy ending will be; there’s really nothing the show can do to solve her parents problems or her financial problems. 

Amber has always been an oddly written character. She’s never gotten the full redemption arc TJ had and the writers never seemed to truly settle on an arc for her. I get why she was in so many eps this season: unlike Garren they had Emily available from the start and didn’t have to work around her schedule and unlike Luke she’s not playing a gay character who’s story needs to be delayed until the very end but I really don’t think we needed Amber in 11 of the original 21 eps this season.

Jonah is another character who has been woefully under developed. I don’t think the writers ever decided what exactly was the deal with his not liking labels or commitments yet also being a chronic relationship hopper. He’s right that what he and Amber have can just be fun instead of love but then why is he dating her? Just stay friends! Part of the problem is that Jonah is first and foremost a love interest and they don’t tend to get much development but because Cyrus’ story has so many constraints the writers were forced to focus more on Jonah than they would have if Cyrus had been straight without really having much in the way planned for him. 

Cyrus’ shirt at school was ugly. A really bad misfire by the wardrobe department. 

Looking Ahead:

So the original casting notice released by our friends at Yun Casting was correct and Rachel is still Marty’s current girlfriend and the official Disney synopsis describing her as Marty’s ex is incorrect. I don’t think it’s ever happened before where the synopsis got a detail like that wrong. Obviously they break up at the bowling alley so maybe that’s why Disney wrote it that way? The casting notice describes Rachel as a co-star so she won’t get much screen time. 

It’s going to be very messy making Buffy a homewrecker. Her saying ‘’oh you’re real’’ to Rachel is quite a power move but then again Driscoll doesn’t draw.  Likely we see her twirling her hair at Marty since Cyrus is there and is the only one who knows about that tell. 

Good on Rachel for seeing what’s right in front of her. She was obviously just a rebound for Marty and he’s clearly been spending a lot of time with Buffy once she reached out to him. Not a good look to have him be emotionally cheating on Rachel for the last several weeks but I’m sure that will be swept under the rug in order to get that Muffy endgame. 

Buffy seems to be hobbling a bit so clearly her foot is getting worse. Does it get injured at the bowling alley or later on since she seems to be injured before the game itself in 3x18. 

Still no hint when the new Muffy pro player plot happens. It was meant to replace their scenes at the original wedding and it really does seem like the original wedding happened pretty quickly after 3x17 so I don’t know if they can delay those Muffy scenes all that long. 

It does look like the timeline is fairly smooth, it’s only been a few weeks since costume day and the rest of the series probably only spans another few weeks or a month in universe. 

Andi goes to SAVA. Does she stay there or transfer to a school elsewhere? Is it her moving in the finale or is Jonah moving far away? 

3x17 had Ham so we’re going to see some sort of cuts or re-shoots. The texts released before this ep had a convo between Bex and Bowie and Andi about a movie night do-over that was pretty clear foreshadowing for an ‘’I Do-over’’ convo in 3x17 even if that’s now cut. Bex talked about having a movie night do-over and Bowie questioned if it was a do-over if it never happened in the first place and Bex replied that she would give Bowie the movie night her deserved. Swap in wedding for movie night and you have a rough outline of the kind of convo we likely would have seen in 3x17 before the re-shoots. 

Ham obviously had an important role to play in getting the wedding back on track but what exactly we don’t know. And how Bex goes from not wanting to get married to agreeing to get married and agreeing to Celia’s lavish wedding plan in otl is an open question. The show has always struggled with pacing and they really should have had Bex call of the wedding earlier in the season rather than rushing it like this. It will be interesting if nothing else to see what kind of Mack family scenes we’re getting next week; there’s a range of possibilities from most of them being cut to a brief Mack family only wedding happening.

Therapist Cyrus is usually pretty boring and I wonder if his advice actually helps. His meddling often backfires like when he accidentally convinced Jonah to get back together with Amber in S1. 

I really don’t know if they can keep Andi completely romance free for the rest of the season. I did wonder if her asking Jonah to share a milkshake was going to lead to something.  She’s been very supportive of both Amber and Jonah but it seems like the kind of situation where the writers would make things messier for the drama, even if they didn’t fully think it through. 

This could very well be the last time we ever see the GHC inside Andi Shack. And come to think of it we’ve never seen Jonah inside of it and maybe we never will.

These last 4 eps are going to be wild. Until next week folks.

#Andi Mack #Bexie #Jamber #Jonah Beck #Amber #Bex Mack #Bowie Quinn #Cyrus Goodman #Buffy Driscoll #Andi Mack Reviews #Andi Mack Meta #Andi Mack Season 3

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Summary of My Favorite Quotes from the Enty Podcast (3/11):

Hey, I’m going to have to splice up the podcast audio because it is too long as is for Tumblr. I’ll try and do that tonight. But, I transcribed my favorite parts yesterday so I’ll post those for now. 

I bolded the comments by Enty I enjoyed the most and put my comments in (parentheses) and italized. If nothing else this is a good refresher for the timeline of these two, her and JJ, and the Fatih of it all ;) 

Enjoy!

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"Diane Kruger is an interesting story to me. And she is probably, she and Norman Reedus, are probably the #1 request I get...And it's, I don't know, it's the same. You know? Norman cheats, she forgives. She cheats, he doesn't care. That's kind of the thing."

(I still maintain this isn’t any real type of relationship. I mean he obviously is getting it a lot of other places besides her, meaning she just doesn’t do it for him, even in the bedroom. She just sticks arounf like the girl who hooked up with a guy and now is there every night watching him ignore her and flirt with everyone else in the room. Take the hint d. It is pretty pathetic, especially at this point.)

"I've never heard that they fight a lot. I think that they just...don't care. You know? Maybe they're just... Their apathetic, that's a good word.”

(That’s because he never wanted this to be serious or last this long. It is like two strangers sitting together at a table.)

[Talks about her ex-husband and their relationship]

[Talks about her and Joshua, more just friends than in love and there was overlap between Joshua and her ex-husband]

[Norman has let it slip that there is nothing "kinky" about Diane] 

(aka boring as fuck in bed lol! Let’s be real the man loves sex and I bet he enjoys mixing it up a bit at times, she obviously doesn’t fulfill him. I bet she just lays there lol!)

"Norman will have sex with anybody. He'll make the moves on anybody. And obviously, this is something Diane wanted... It happened Dec 2015, that's when the first inkling of it came up. And of course, she was still with Joshua at that time. And this totally makes sense, the story went that Norman and Diane were tipsy and he was on whiskey, she was on vodka, and they were making out in front of everybody. That totally sounds like every single Norman Reedus hookup ever! Okay? I've been writing Norman Reedus tips and they are all exactly the same. Comic con... drunk, go back to the hotel room, have sex, repeat the next day. That's his thing.

So when you hear the story and they’re in the bar and their drunk, I totally get it. There you know what happened. I 100% believe that's what happened and I think that perhaps Diane thought then maybe there was more to it or something? [he giggles at the thought] So, yeah they made out. Then she got him into a chair and she's straddling him. Which would lead you to believe that maybe things with Joshua aren't that great..."

(So again he was three sheets to the wind and that was the only reason she got him to make out with her. I go back to what I was told about on lookers saying he looked very uncomfortable when she was straddling him. So I have to wonder if his whiskey buzz had worn off by then and he wondered wtf he had just done.

And yeah she probably thought he would worship her ass and she would have him in the palm of her hand. But, I guess she really doesn’t know who he is and that to him this act wasn’t a serious thing. She legit was in his mind probably equivalent to a one night stand. Although Enty didn’t say anything about them leaving together and if I remember correctly he left alone not long after she straddled him and made an ass out of them both.)

[Talk about how awful she looked in this situation because she hadn't put it out there that she and Joshua had split when she was seen making out with Norman. She looks awful and "Norman doesn't care..."]

(He didn’t care because she wasn’t anything he was very interested in and it was a one time thing in his mind. Also remember when he heard she lied to him about not being with JJ anymore he ghosted her and pimp Fabienne had to pull him back in with a work related excuse.)

"Now she had said in an April 2016 article that she had never met Norman before filming Sky. She said, "We share a lot of intimate scenes and I was scared about meeting him and not being able to have a drink with him or talk with him." and "I would not recommend having your better half on set, when you have to film intimate scenes with another man," she said. I think that they were filming the movie, they start hooking up, and Joshua visits the set and he can see.”

(Funny drinking with him is the first thing that comes to mind before even talking to him! lol! Her only love besides herself is the bottle!)

(Also this is where I personally disagree. I do not think they hooked up on set. I think she tried several times but after she lied to him that trust for her was gone with him. Also, he had to have seen she was trying to latch onto him and not wanting anything serious I doubt he would be messing around with her when she was following him around like a puppy.  But, that’s my opinion.)

“The weird part was you had this happen in Dec 2015. But Diane and Josh didn't announce their split until July 2016. So 8 months after the fact. So what you had was everybody just blasting Diane Kruger for 8 months. And hurting Pacey, everybody loves Pacey. Nobody likes Diane Kruger. They don't have an emotional attachment to Diane Kruger...”

(”Nobody likes Diane Kruger.” - HAHAHA! Ain’t that the truth! Because she is a cold-hearted b*tch to everyone!)

“Over the time of the blog I've down 75 photos of Diane Kruger..75 pictures. She's maybe, maybe, wearing jeans in 2 of them. And I think it took me a decade to see her in a pair of jeans. I always thought about her who cared more about herself and fashion than anything else. And that Joshua was more like an accessory that had to be there. Much like a handbag or a pair of sunglasses...I think Joshua was always an accessory. And then Norman Reedus became that luxury item that you splurge on and break the bank with. And that's kind of what she wanted and Norman's that kind of guy for it.

(Well she certainly broke her career chasing after a man who didn’t want her!)

(I love the accessory comment because it really is true. When she was with JJ I always could tell she really only loved being with him for the camera and media attention. Norman is the very same thing to her, nothing more than her meal ticket to have an excuse to be in the media because otherwise no one cares about her or her career. She is a user.)

"Let's go back to 'Everybody Likes Pacey.'... Everybody in general public likes Pacey and Diane let herself be hammered for 7 or 8 months, 'homewrecker, homewrecker, homewrecker!" And what did they say about Norman Reedus? "Eh, It's Norman." So who's taking the brunt? Diane. Who's getting the sympathy votes? Joshua...

Anyway. She said about it in an interview in 2017 about why they waited until July of 2016. She says, "That break up was a long time coming. Also, we broke up many months before we said we were broken up, so by the time I made that decision it didn't feel like it was so urgent anymore. You don't break up overnight after 10 years, you know what I mean? It wasn't like an urgent, 'omg I can't sleep at night thing,' It felt liberating that I didn't have to worry about that anymore. So that I could immerse myself 100% into something else. That something else was the German language movie, "In the Fade."" Hmmm! "A role she won best actress at Canne's film festival in May."

“Okay. So, do you think that In the Fade coincided with that first time that she got pregnant? Right? So, maybe Diane was seeing Norman but he was seeing 50 other people. So, Diane and the director of In the Fade! 

(I heard she has had a few abortions, not miscarriages btw)

And Diane of course... This is how bad she is at this. By letting herself get hammered for 7 or 8 months... After 8 months of letting herself get hammered, she finally tries to get her friends to blame Josh, claiming he messed around for years and holding her career back because he was jealous. [sighs] Pacey doesn't have anything to be jealous about and Joshua Jackson can work all day long... But he was holding her back and he was jealous? She was working all the time. I don't think he was holding her back. The thing is she's never gonna be an A list actress, it's just not in the cards for her. People don't like her and now they like her less. Her cue scores are terrible!”

(She is never going to be an A list celeb. If she was meant to she would be by now. All she has ever been is a mediocre nobody who has to use men to get media attention.)

[Talks about Joshua's team saying she cheated and she was ruthlessly obsessed with her career over the relationship.]

"And again, I think that she... You can't tell everything about someone by the way someone dresses. But when you're seen at any kind of casual place and you're the one person who's wearing a chanel suit or a chanel dress, when everyone else is in shorts and flip flops or jeans and sneakers, and it happens all the time! It just gives everybody the impression that 'oh she thinks she is so much better than us.' And in Diane's case, she does think she's better than everybody. And maybe she is! I'm not saying she's not. 

I'm just not a huge fan of Diane Kruger. And I don't know a lot of people who are!

(My favorite line of the whole podcast lmao! SO TRUE!)

"And when they say, 'oh her friends,' I thought to myself what friends does she have? She doesn't. She has some guy friends. And I suppose they could have stuck up for her. But, she doesn't. Go look. Go back and find older pictures of her and see if you can find pictures of her hugging other women at parties or something. Maybe a co-star she's hugging on the red carpet that she's just filmed with and you'll never see her with that actress again. She's just not very loved..."

"She's hooking up with Norman but Norman's hooking up with 55 other people."

"They were totally platonic, they were separated... She was just, there." (Art exhibit Dec 2016)

Feb 2016 - garage pap pics

(with Fatih also through this time)

March 2017 - pap walk from hell

"I'm not saying she reads the site. But, I will say a lot of publicists read the site. Whenever I have a blind about Diane Kruger and like Norman hooking up with a co-star, that he hooks up with from time to time or regularly or frequently. Whenever I write something like that, remarkably, magically she will have some kind of post, usually within hours, but always by the next day, where she's facetiming him or an instagram post talking about how much in love they are. It's always like that. You never see those posts from her until there's something negative written and then the next day boom it's there!"

(It is a definite pattern for her! She basically ignores him unless someone starts questioning her rag fake storyline of “romance.” So contrived and she is so predictable!)

"So they had their child in November of 2018. So if you backtrack that she would have gotten pregnant in what? February? January? Something like that... So, let's say they were together from December 2017 and started trying to have the baby... There is that time though were you can definitely make the case that she was with the in the fade director. And I wonder, because there are plenty of rumors, that Norman Reedus, that he got a vasectomy. Because he's having so much sex with the comic con people right? And condoms break. And he didn't want to have 50 kids running all over, dressed as Walking Dead characters. So I've always wondered I don't know chemicals or something, it's possible. Plus she's 42 and she had a miscarriage before. Which is to be expected when you're having a baby and your over 40."

(She was with Fatih most of November and nearly all of December 2017. She barely saw Norman except in Costa when she was told to bring friends because he wasn’t hanging with her. So, being that cold to her I doubt they were screwing.)

(Also remember that article saying in March of 2018 she was seen in that warehouse district with Fatih? That was right after she trolled baby bump on the set of The Operative. If she was pregnant with Norman’s kid why would she be meeting up in secret with Fatih?)

(I also have always believed he was snipped. He enjoys himself too much not to be and have no accidental kids in 20 years since planned Mingus.)

"She's always been very private about the child...And here's the thing, she has never really been private about anything! You can always get her photo, right? Streets, red carpets, she'll do it all, met gala. She very, very, much wants to have her picture taken. She's that kind of actress who needs that publicity to stay relevant. Okay? Because she has to force herself out amongst it. She's not the type of person that the paparazzi gets all excited about. So she needs to push it. She needs to push where she is. She needs to do those kind of things.

Having a child of Norman Reedus and Diane Kruger, living in New York, you push that baby out in a stoller? You're gonna get some pictures. You're going to be in the tabloids every single day. And that's the kind of thing she needs to keep her career going at 42 years old... People are interested, it's more about Norman, but they want to know about this baby.

There is a lot of speculation that he is not the dad. Sperm wise or other. And the vasectomy thing, yes you can get them reversed. But it could be, has anybody's wondered, it could be perhaps that she doesn't want the child photographed. She has done her instagram thing, 'please do not like or retweet or anything like that about photos of the baby.' And I wonder if that's because the baby doesn't exactly look like Norman. So I want to know if she used a sperm donor. And I think that it's highly likely that she did. To me that makes more sense then him reversing a vasectomy.

(I definitely 1000% believe this kid is not his. Sperm donor or surrogate still makes most sense to me. And yeah why hide the baby? She is not private at all and LOVED trolling that this was his kid when it was in her womb - supposedly. So, why hide it now? She is lying about something with this kid and if it doesn’t look like him that would definitely explain it!)

He is a kind of guy who likes to have fun. You know? If they do end up splitting I think what you'll see is.. I wonder if he'll even, if... the true tell will be if he spends a lot of time on visits and things like that, if he's co-parenting, or if he just kind of fades away.”

“I think he thinks that she's trying to hang onto him. Which may very well be. Because since the time that she's been with Norman she makes much more news. She and Josh were kind of boring. But they were there and they were taking pictures all the time and they would get themselves out. But Norman's on a whole other level because so many people are fascinated with his life and the ins and outs of it and there are all these kinds of walking dead message boards... And like I said, I get the most requests for them out of anything.

(Norman isn’t wrong. She is desperate to hang onto him. But it has nothing to do with loving him and everything to do with loving the media attention.)

But it always is, when you have actresses and actors who always get their pictures taken but then all of a sudden become reluctant when it comes to the children and then you wonder, okay is this the real children?” 

(I think he meant is this the real parent.)

“And I don't understand Diane, because Norman doesn't seem her type really. He chain smokes, he drinks every night, he's always on the road, he loves comic cons. It doesn't seem as if the parental life is for him. Ya know? He will.. He loves going back to work! In Georgia, away, he knows that Diane's not coming down to Georgia. 

(No media attention in GA and she isn’t allowed to pap the set.)

He canceled a convention he was scheduled to attend because Diane basically made him. She doesn't like him meeting the female fans. She gets super jealous. And he likes meeting the female fans. And if she keeps trying to keep him from seeing stuff, it's not gonna work.

(What’s interesting to me is it seems like he let her semi tag along for years when she didn’t say anything or bother him about his hook ups. But lately she has been getting more and more jealous - probably because she knows he has lost all interest in her, which is why she trolled the pregnancy in the first place. But, she is going to wreck herself by doing this. It is obvious Norman loves his freedom and wants to be able to do whatever the fuck he wants. The more demanding she gets the more she will push him away. 

(p.s. fuck you for making him cancel a con, jealous bitch! If you were so comitted and in love with each other he wouldn’t prefer other women to you. Face reality and fug off!)

What's interesting is when Norman goes to these comic cons, he was still wanting to take pictures with everybody, every single female fan. He was, 'take a picture, take a picture, take a picture,' he doesn't care. Now though he doesn't want the photos taken, with Diane [being so jealous], because it interferes. Because then she gives him a hard time and then he can't go. The hooking up that goes on it's just, it's crazy.”

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Alright! That’s what I got! I don’t know if he is going to out more or not. He seemed like he wanted to dig around and see if he could find out if she had a sperm donor. I am still on the fence about her even carrying a kid! I also wanted to know a little more about the TH. So, I guess we will have to see if he outs more!

I’ll try and get the audio up soon after I splice it into parts!

#dk wank #enty

[crashdevlin]

Something More: Part Six

Author’s Note: *THERE IS NO WIFE-HATE HERE! I <3 Danneel Ackles. (it’s completely understandable how she acts)* This is a sequel to Open. READ THAT FIRST!  Something More Masterlist

Summary: Reader is a no-name actor who has been lucky enough to land a role on her favorite show and a part in an anthology of Marvel Cinematic Shorts. Her star is on the rise, but the man who’s made her his mistress isn’t the only one noticing it.

Pairing: Jensen Ackles x Reader, Tom Hiddleston x Reader

Story Warnings: Open Marriage, mistress, breakups, angst, anger, jealousy, things get REALLY bad between Jensen and y/n…

Chapter Warnings:  mentions of past D/s relationship, mentions of alcohol abuse, mentions of cheating, groping, mentions of divorce, anxiety, panic attack

It was hard to go back to Vancouver. I knew I’d be working on First Unit scenes, scenes with Jensen and I didn’t have to ask to know that Tom was worried about it. “You know I love you, right?” I asked as he walked me to the gate, moving slowly with our hands clasped together.

“You love him, too.”

I swallowed and shook my head. “That doesn’t matter. I won’t deny what I feel for him. I won’t lie to you, but… I love you and you are…”

“I don’t mind being the consolation prize, dea- hn… darling. Just… keep me in mind while you’re away.”

“Tom, you’re not the consolation prize.” He just shook his head and pressed his lips to my forehead. “I love you, Tom.”

“I love you, too, y/n. Call me when you land?” He was so sure not to order me to do anything and I appreciated his effort so much.

“Of course. You gonna call me when you get to Heathrow?” He nodded and smiled, but there was a sadness underlying it. He just knew that he was in danger of losing me if he wasn't there to mediate my interactions with Jensen. I was sure he was wrong.

When they handed me the script for my first episode of season 14, though, my jaw dropped. I guess the writers finally came to a consensus while I was off playing Sin. "They fuck. Dean and Tara fuck in this episode, Tom. What am I gonna do?" I whispered furiously into my cell phone as I paced in the parking.

"Your job.” He started simply, but I could hear it in his voice, he was nervous. “I know it won't be easy, darling, but you've simply got to act as though-"

"As though it's not completely awkward and terrible? Tom, I've barely spoken to him in the last three months. I've spent every con since Atlanta with a hard-driven 'Will Not Appear Sunday' on my schedule just to limit my exposure to him, and now? Now I have to go in there and pretend to fuck him like-"

"You don't have vivid memories of actually doing it. Yes. This is what you signed up for."

"I didn't think they were gonna fucking do it! The writers hadn't-" I sighed, heavily. I really hadn't thought they were going to turn Tara into a love interest. "Just do the job and get out. Okay. I got this... right?"

"Of course you do, my love, and I'll be here for you when you need support."

"Thanks, Tom." I took a deep breath. "I guess I should go talk to him."

"Good luck."

"Thanks. I'll call later... probably tomorrow morning your time."

"I'll be waiting."

I smiled as I hung up, but it melted as I remembered my next mission. I knocked on Jensen's trailer door, that door that I used to walk through as if it were my own, and waited. "Come in!" He called and I pulled the door open with shaky hands. He sighed when he saw me. "Figured it would be you. Welcome back." I could tell he was trying to keep the coldness out of his voice. He seemed sober, at least mostly, but the trailer smelled distinctly of beer.

"You got the pages for Wednesday?" I asked, timidly.

He nodded. "Yup."

I leaned against his counter, looking across his trailer, but making sure not to look into his eyes. "So... how do we-"

"We follow the script, y/n. Just like every other scene we've ever done.” He snapped. “You're gonna be Tara and I'm gonna be Dean and they're gonna share a messy first kiss, and then Dean's gonna fuck Tara on one of the tables in the library. And then I'm gonna come back to my trailer and you're gonna go to your motel and call your boyfriend."

"Jensen, I-"

"Y/n... just... look, I know this probably isn't any easier for you than me, but... I fuckin' miss you, and to have you right there, right in front of me, and to know that..." Jensen shook his head and cleared his throat. "Least he treats you good. That declaration of love on Facebook... grand gesture I could never..."

I flushed at the memory of being so pissed off at something Jensen would've loved to do for me. "I didn't want him to. I told him not to." I said, quietly.

"Well, that's nice. He can't even follow simple requests." Jensen rolled his eyes.

"Come on, Jay, don't-"

He put a finger up to silence me. "Don't 'Jay' me. I'm having to fight back callin' you 'Baby Girl' so you're gonna respect my damn effort and call me 'Jensen'."

Tears stung my eyes and I tried to blink them away, but that just made the tears fall. "Jensen, please. You can't tell me you don't understand."

"I understand. I understand just fine." A tear rolled out of the corner of his eye and left a wet path down his face. "But it doesn't make it hurt any less. It doesn't matter that you saw the end of my marriage rapidly approaching because I couldn't get you out of my head and distanced yourself for my family's good. It doesn't matter that your boyfriend capitalized on that distance the moment you created it."

He stepped right in front of me and swallowed before clearing his throat. "What matters is I haven't talked to you in months, but I still go to call you after we wrap every night. What matters is you left a bottle of perfume behind and I can't bring myself to throw it out because it's the only way I can keep the pillows on your side of the bed smelling right. What matters is that I'm so in love that it hurts and the fact that you saw it, saw how I felt, and left so that I wouldn't fuck up my life over you..."

He raised his right hand to cup my cheek and gave a little gasp when I let him do it. "That just makes me love you more."

I closed my eyes but I didn't pull away from his touch as more tears ran down my face. "You can't."

His grip moved to the back of my neck and he pulled me closer to him. "You say that but it doesn't change a thing about how I feel... Baby Girl, your protests don't change a goddamn thing."

I shivered at being called 'Baby Girl' again and shook my head, pulling away slightly, but his hand came down to grasp at my hip and pull me against his body. My eyes shot open and looked into his eyes. Beautiful green orbs with pink in the whites. Eyes I dreamed of, threatening to suck me in and drown me in him. "Jensen, I can't." I put my hand on his chest and pushed him away but not too far. "I'm not... I'm not that woman." I hoped he understood what I meant: that I wasn't a homewrecker, that I wasn't a cheater.

"I know." He whispered. He released his grip on me, stepped back and nodded. "It's why I love you. You're too good for me." He chuckled, but it was a sad sound. "But you're too good for Loki, too."

I took a deep breath and wiped my eyes. "Tell that to everyone who's been spamming my Twitter with death threats." I sighed and shook my head. "Tom's got some rabid fans... but I'm sure they're not as bad as our fans would be if they found out-"

"That Danneel is divorcing me?" Jensen looked down as he picked up a beer I hadn't noticed on the table. My face fell in shock and he gave another humorless chuckle. "It's not official, yet, but she's talking to lawyers."

"No!" I exclaimed, slamming my fist against the counter hard enough to cause tingling pain to shoot up my arm. "No, you have to fix it! I did not walk away so that you could still fuck it up!" He gave me a look somewhere between shocked and offended. "You love her. You love her and you love your kids and you just have to get over this stupid other-"

"My feelings are stupid, now?" He asked, definitely offended now.

"That feeling is stupid! That, you feeling like you think you're in love with me is stupid. You..." I threw my hands in the air. "Go to fucking couples' counseling or something. Go see a fucking shrink, go fucking fix this! Fix! It!" I shouted.

"We fuckin' were!" Jensen growled. "We've spent the last three months in counseling. It hasn't worked!"

"Try harder!" I demanded. "Three months, in between shooting and cons, that's not long enough. Try-"

"I don't want to!" He exclaimed, tossing his beer at his feet. It exploded, spraying us both with hoppy suds and brown glass. He barely seemed to notice. "I am tired of trying to not love you. I tried! I can't fuckin' do it. So you didn't fuck up my family, y/n, I did."

I tried to swallow away the heavy breathing and my heart in my throat, but I couldn't. "Fuck, Jay." I covered my mouth with my hand and shook my head.

He looked pained as he licked his bottom lip into his mouth. "I know..." He started, but then he stopped himself, biting his lips harshly. "I know you're with Tom. I know he loves you. I... really want you not to love him, but... I saw you on Colbert and I watched the interviews at your premieres, saw how you-"

I stepped forward, crunching over glass as I approached him and wrapped my arms around him. "I'm so sorry, Jay."

"You got nothing to be sorry for, Baby Girl." He whispered, wrapping strong arms around me.

"You're wrong." I disagreed. "If I'd never come here, you wouldn't..."

"No, hey." He looked down into my eyes. "Never say that. If you had never come here, you'd be-"

"Depressed, but you wouldn't be. It'd just be me sad and you'd still be happily-"

His lips were on mine in an instant, hands going to the backs of my thighs and hauling me up around his waist. His hands moved to grasp at my ass as our tongues moved against each other. In the back of my head, I knew I shouldn't be doing this. In the back of my head, I was thinking about Tom and how supportive and loving he'd been to me. But I wasn't thinking with the back of my head. I was thinking with my stupid fucking heart and my ridiculous body that remembered Jensen's body and the way it made me feel.

I wasn't thinking with the back of my head, so I let Jensen walk me to the bed in the back room. I let him lay us down on the mattress and let him attach his lips to my neck, his hands pushing under my shirt to grope at my lace-covered breasts. I let him grind his erection against my core.

I stopped him when he went to unbutton my jeans, my fingers wrapping around his wrist. "Don't." I whispered. His features fell as he looked down into my face. "I'm sorry. I'm not trying to... I'm not trying to be a tease, Jay, but..."

"I get it." He rolled off of me. "You don't want to do to Tom what Nate did to you."

I was shaking as I wrapped my arms around him and laid my head against his chest. "I'm so sorry. Everything so... messy."

Jensen sighed and wrapped his arms around me. He kissed the top of my head and let his lips linger in my hair. "It's okay. I can handle the mess. Long as I've got you with me, I can handle any mess."

It should have bugged me that he just assumed I was with him, but I was already half-composing a 'Dear John' letter to Tom in my head, so he wasn't wrong... and I felt terrible about that, but I fell asleep in Jensen's arms before I could think too hard about it.

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I woke a little while later to the sound of whispering in the main room. "It's asking for fuckin' trouble." Jared whispered.

"Dee's already leaving me. What more trouble could she give me?" Jay replied.

"She could take everything, dude. The house, the kids, the brewery, your fuckin' good clubs, just for spite."

"She can have 'em! Well, not the kids, but anything else she wants to use against me? She can have it. I already lost y/n once. Not happening again."

"What about Tom? I might not like the guy, but she's got a fuckin' boyfriend."

"And that's why she's still got clothes on right now, but as soon as she breaks it off with him, I'm gonna make her scream and I don't care who hears it."

"Danneel hasn't even filed, yet. You can't start fucking another woman when she hasn't filed, because then she can say that's the reason."

"I don't give a fuck about the money, Jared."

"You should." I said, opening the door and stepping out.

Jay smiled at me. "Hey, Baby Girl. How was your nap?"

"You should care about the money, Jay. 'cause even if she doesn't hit you for everything, the judge'll still-"

Jensen moved to put his hand on my shoulder. "You don't need to worry about-"

"Jensen, of the three of us in this room, only one of us has been through a divorce. So, let me use my sad expertise to help you get your mind right." Jared smirked as I moved past them to the kitchen area and grabbed a bottle of water from the mini-fridge. "She's gonna get a shitload of child support out of you, whether she goes at you hard or not. The judge is just gonna give it to her. Three young children, two of whom are still in diapers, daycare, private school, nanny, that's gonna be a lot. If she wants, Danneel will definitely be able to get alimony, since she hasn't done much acting since One Tree Hill, unless you count the Harold and Kumar movies, but I can't imagine those made bank for anyone besides John Cho, Kal Penn and NPH."

I took a drink of water and continued. "If she files with 'Infidelity' as the reason, the judge is just gonna hand her everything."

"Isn't she gonna do that, anyway? She's leaving because I couldn’t get rid of how I feel about you."

"No. Our old arrangement, that wasn't infidelity. You had her express permission. Hell, she suggested me, and if you've still got the phone you had in January last year, then you've got proof on there, I recorded the Skype call with Danneel."

Jensen pulled his phone out. "Really?"

"Yeah. Figured if the media found out, it'd be good to have proof that I wasn't a homewrecker or whatever."

"Huh." He bit his lip as the video started playing.

'Y/n said that’. If I were a jealous woman, things might be different, but I saw this as an opportunity.” “Really?” “Really. Jensen has a high sex drive, honey. He needs someone to fill that role whe-

Jensen stopped the video and looked up at me. "You thought of this in the few seconds after I handed over my phone to you?" His voice was impressed.

"My dad taught me to cover my ass. As soon as I knew we weren't doing anything wrong, I knew I needed proof of it not being anything wrong. That wasn't infidelity, but anything we do now... it would be, because you don't have permission, anymore." I sighed, feeling a confused anxiety start to rise up in my chest. “And there's Tom.”

“Tom's an ass.” Jared provided.

“No, he's not. He's a good man. He's…” I ran my hand through my hair, resisting the urge to tug on it in an attempt to get myself grounded. “Fuck, and he was so worried that he was going to lose me, that's why he was so controlling and now-”

“Controlling?” Jensen interrupted, his expression going serious and cold. “Controlling, how?”

I bit my lip and looked down. That look on his face wasn’t doing anything helpful for my anxiety. “Doesn't matter.”

“Yes, it does. What did he do?”

“Tom thinks she belongs to him.” Jared answered, which made me flinch.

I shook my head. “No. I talked to him. It wasn't that big a deal anymore.” I sighed and looked down at my phone. “I will tell you all about it later. Right now, we need to get to work.”

“You are gonna dump him, right?” Jensen asked as I started to walk toward the door.

I threw my hands up in exasperation. “I don’t fucking know! I don’t know what I’m supposed to do here!”

Jensen gave a reassuring smile and stepped toward me. “Y/n/n, you just-”

“No, shut up.” I demanded, trying to breathe and having trouble with it. “Don’t tell me to calm down, don’t tell me that everything’s gonna be fine, because nothing feels fine, right now!” My head started to feel dizzy and I knew I was having a full-blown panic attack. I hadn’t had one in a very long time, but it isn’t a feeling one forgets. “You’re getting divorced, Jensen. Your beautiful, amazing family is going to be broken in half an-and that’s not fine, and Tom told the world about me and him and if I break up with him? If I break up with him for my not-even-divorced-yet coworker, what kinda whore am I? What kinda bitch am I?”

My hand went over my heart and I tried to suck in a big gulp of air, but my lungs wouldn’t fill. Jared rushed to my side. “You’re having a panic attack. Do you have any Ativan, y/n?”

I shook my head. “I haven’t needed them. I… I can’t breathe.” I slid to sit on the steps by the door, still trying to catch a breath.

“Jensen, go tell Rich that y/n’s gonna be late.” Jay looked lost for a second, like he wanted to stay with me, but he eventually stepped past me and out the door as Jared wrapped his arms around me and hugged me tightly against his chest. “Come on, take a nice, deep breath and hold it for me.” I made myself follow his instruction, made myself stop hyperventilating and take one big breath. “Good, now let it out, super slow. Better?”

“Little bit.” I responded, blinking at the tears pricking at my eyes. “I don’t know what to do, Jared.” I ran my hand up to my hair again and tugged, lightly. It had the grounding effect I was looking for and my next breath came a little easier. “Shoulda watched more chick flicks. I have no idea what to do about being in love with two amazing, attractive men who both want me.”

“What do you say, ya make it through work today and you can come over to my trailer and we’ll watch Bridget Jones or something?” Jared squeezed me and I nodded. “Sound good?”

“Yeah. Sounds good. Pizza? I feel like pizza would help everything about my life right now.”

“Fuck yeah, pizza. And, hey, maybe you wanna call your daughter?”

“Yeah. Sounds good.” I was suddenly exhausted, the adrenaline of the panic attack leaving me and taking all of my energy with it.

“You comin’ down?”

“Yeah.”

“Wanna come lie down on the couch in my trailer?”

“Yeah.” Jared helped me out of Jensen’s trailer and into his own. I set the alarm on my phone for forty-five minutes and closed my eyes. “Tell Rich-”

“I got it. Just take another little nap and we’ll see you in about an hour, okay?”

I nodded and was out almost as soon as he closed the door behind him.

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[bonvoyagenoona]

Okay so I just finished reading the first chapter of Kittenfishing.

1. Someone mentioned that you’d said that this story would have yandere vibes? So does that mean this story is a yandere AU? Because if so, then unfortunately I will have to discontinue reading it because yandere AUs are something that I very personally refuse to read (it has nothing to do with your writing).

2. If not, then let’s discuss OC first. I have to admit that at first, she kind of rubbed me the wrong way due to her stalker-ish behavior (because let’s face it: if OC were a man digging through my trash, it would be full-on terrifying), but because we got to glimpse what was inside her head (as vague as it was for now), she’s officially intrigued me because she was more or less the same as me: we’re both painfully introverted and we’re both not close to our respective families. I wonder what her intentions to Taehyung are… pursuing a serious relationship with him? Or just one of those “he’s damn hot and I want him”? Because if it’s the first one, then she can’t be thinking that this whole kittenfishing will work in the long term? Guy’s a major family man and she decided to lie to him about her detachment from her family from the get-go… and I have a feeling that it’s not the “he’s damn hot and I want him” one. So why lie? Why did she feel the need to mold herself into who she thought he wanted her to be? What drove her to feel this indesirable? Because we all could glean from the first chapter that according to her, no one had ever stayed. That everyone would leave her eventually. So, what was her past like, then? I’m fully intrigued.

3. So, Yoongi. As much as I hate to perpetuate heteronormativity here, I truly hope there WILL BE NOTHING EVEN REMOTELY ROMANTIC happening between him and OC because I just don’t fuck with love triangles at all 😂😂. But I liked him. He was a dedicated best friend.

4. Now, let’s dive in to Taehyung. Seemed to struck me as someone who was on the active lookout for a potential romantic partner… to the point of coming off a bit… pitiful? I mean, the stars in his eyes when he was with the woman by the elevator? His almost-desperation to make the woman stay? But then turns out he found out he was a homewrecker, and he SWIFTLY changed course to the next door neighbor… who happened to be there on Matchmaker, readily available. Or… was she? What had he had to say about OC for the first six months of him moving in next door, I wonder? Had he always noticed her, hence him pursuing her now that he finally saw an opening through that dating app? Or had she just been nothing but someone in his periphery, so any girl was okay as long as it could fill the romantic role in his life? Very intriguing too. I’m so intrigued.

5. I still hope this story ends up in a happy ending where Taehyung and OC are happily together, despite this rocky start. But isn’t that what makes a story, a story? Conflict. Problems. Flaws. Can’t wait to see where you take this story, Miss Cheryl!

Ah, thank you for reading the first chapter! Hearing from you is so, so encouraging. I’m touched that you reached out!

I want to say upfront that I completely understand if people don't wish to continue reading along with me for any reason at all. I'm always grateful for whatever time you do choose to spend with these works!

Your points are impressively thorough -- thank you for sharing them with me! They made me reflect more on what I'm trying to express and share through Kittenfishing. I like to embed themes that are personally meaningful, including things that I have grappled with myself. Got more detailed answers for you after the jump, but here are quick answers for you and anyone who may have similar questions:

It is not a yandere AU. There will be no violence or extreme behavior.

You'll definitely get more info about your/Kitt's past. 

Yoongi is your/Kitt's platonic best friend.

You'll definitely learn more about Taehyung's point of view.

You're so right about what makes a story a story, and I hope you come away from Kittenfishing feeling satisfied! 

Here are some additional details (no spoilers!) for anyone interested!

Obsession. I put "slight yandere vibes" on my WIP/more info page (which needs to be updated!) in kind of a conversational tone. Apologies if that caused confusion or concern! But there will be no violene or extreme behavior usually associated with yandere fics. Part of what I am exploring with Kittenfishing is the rate at which we feel attraction. What propels the speed, level, and depth of that attraction. Whether we can discern attraction from love. How we lose ourselves to both, in different ways. With Yoongi's help, Kitt is definitely going to be working a plan. She may overstep at times, but this plan will serve as a plot device to fuel character understanding and growth.

Relationships. To understand and empathize with that growth, you'll learn more about what has shaped your/Kitt's mental model of relationships. Like in real life, it's shaped by so much, including but not limited to her perception of serious relationships, her processing of that immediate rush of attraction, and why she thinks she needs to mould herself. Similarly, you'll learn more about what Taehyung's mental model of relationships. Why he’s on the app. What his patterns are. How people usually respond to him. And what he's truly seeking.

Friendship. Those of you who know me or have read Matchmaker, Countermelody, or In the Margins know that it will be very, very hard for me to write Yoongi as not the love of my life! But I’m also trying to process non-romantic connection as well. How we bend for our friends as much as we do our lovers. Sometimes, even moreso. You/Kitt and Yoongi will do a lot of things together. People are going to perceive you in a certain way. But despite all that, the connection truly is one of platonic friendship. 

Thanks again for sharing these thoughts and prompting me to do more reflection! I hope that I didn't trigger or cause discomfort. I also hope that should you feel comfortable continuing to the end, that you enjoy this little fishing expedition that we're going on to learn more about Kitt. And, as always, ourselves. 💜

#asks #your asks #anon #kittenfishing #thank you again! #i do love having these kinds of discussions #really appreciate getting to have one with you! #😊

[xharuka17x]

Drabble: Tabloids

Title: Tabloids

Pairing: Destiel

Warnings: Alpha Dean, Omega Castiel, Cheating (not on each other), Famous Destiel

Notes: All @blubunn‘s fault XD

 “Are you out of your mind! What were you thinking?! Were you even thinking at all?” Balthazar was raving and ranting as he paced like a mad man while he ground his teeth in frustration.

Castiel sat, dejected, at his kitchen table, trying to keep himself from wincing at Balthazar’s rage.

He had absolutely nothing to say. No way of answering his manager when it came to this nightmare that was displayed all over his table.

“Look at these, Castiel!” Balthazar shoved the trash magazines towards him. The Omega’s sky blue eyes looked over the front pages of the three in front of him and groaned. In bold lettering, splattered across the covers were damaging titles. The titles were bad enough but the worse part were the pictures. Explicit and extremely intimate pictures of him and action movie star Alpha Dean Winchester having sex. To add to his horror, they were clearly taken at different times and places.

‘Homewrecker Castiel!’ was over a slightly grainy picture of Dean having Castiel bent over a table in his trailer with his face in Castiel's ass. Dean had a kink about rimming him. The picture had been taken through the side window. Castiel had stopped by to see his lover since they had both been in the same area of a studio that day.  

‘Dean Cheated on Anna with a younger Omega!’ was written over two split pictures. The left showed Dean fucking him against a wall while kissing him, Castiel’s hand lost in his lover short hair. The Omega couldn’t remember where this had been, but the clarity of the photograph was unnerving. The picture on the right showed the Alpha walking on the busy Soho streets, hand in hand with his wife Anna on a sunny day. Castiel noted they weren’t even looking at each other and had no idea when that picture was taken either.

‘Castiel Novak Caught in Whirlwind Affair with Famous Action Star!’ was displayed just under a slightly dim black and white photo of Dean draped over him as Castiel laid on his stomach. The Alpha’s mouth on his neck while Castiel’s face clearly showed his enjoyment.

The Omega shoved the tabloid rags away from him. He wanted to cry. These intimate moments with his Alpha displayed and distributed like some trashy porn. Everytime he had been with Dean it had been amazing and loving. Dean could be gentle and rough all at once but always made sure it was about Castiel’s pleasure before his own. What they had wasn’t just sexual. The Alpha made him laugh and feel comfortable in his own skin. They would spend what little times they would have cuddled up, watching old movies while sharing popcorn. Sometimes they just held each other for a few moments in the stolen seconds between the chaos of their busy lives.

The Alpha was a very well known and loved action hero movie star. His most recent big role was as Captain America. Castiel loved watching Dean in that movie franchise, but it had blown up and made seeing the Alpha much harder.

Castiel’s own movie career was successful, but nothing like Dean’s. Castiel hadn’t been acting extremely long yet had a handful of very popular rom-com movies. He was about to start in a TV show this upcoming fall as a young fry cook that could see the dead and helped them move on. Castiel was finally going to be able to show his serious side.

“Do you have any idea how bad this is? Cassie, you are barely out of diapers and you seduced an Alpha ten years older than you! An Alpha that is married to another actress, Castiel! Dean Winchester’s career can survive this, but yours? Who the hell is going to want to hire a twenty something Omega that whores himself out for Alpha knots!” Balthazar barked.

“I did not seduce him! I am not a whore!” Castiel yelled enraged. He knew how bad this looked, better than anyone else. He and Dean had met when they had both attended the Academy Awards and again at the after party last January. Both Alpha and Omega had immediately been drawn to each other. Dean had attended alone, and even though Castiel had known damn well who the Alpha was and that he was very married, he hadn’t been able to stop the kiss that happened. Dean had pulled him into a secluded room and Castiel had never been able to get rid of Dean’s scent nor what it did to him since.

Balthazar came around the table and placed his hands on the Omega’s shoulders. “Cassie, do you honestly believe you mean anything to Winchester beyond a young hole to fuck?” Castiel flinched at his manager’s harsh words. The Beta’s bluntness had always been something Castiel appreciated of Balthazar, but not at this moment. The Omega hated this. He felt like crying because he didn’t want to believe Balthazar’s words. “How long has this been going on?”

“Eight months,” Castiel replied sheepishly. Dean always made time to see him somehow and Castiel didn’t want to believe he meant nothing.

Balthazar almost look catatonic. “Eight months? Cassie, come on! Has that Alpha ever promised you he would leave his wife? Ever tell you he loved you? Be realistic here! He will buy his wife a nice big fat expensive gift, she’ll forgive him and this will all blow over, but for you? Winchester will forget you and you will have this permanent mark on your reputation and we will be lucky to get you any jobs.”

Castiel couldn’t help his tears. Maybe he was a naive twenty-five year old that was wrapped up in a forbidden romance with a dashingly handsome older Alpha. Maybe Dean really didn’t care about him, but he didn’t want that to be true. He just didn’t. Dean smelled so right to him, like home and safety. He was sure Dean felt the same about him. He had to. Dean had never brought up Anna and had always taken off his wedding ring whenever he and Castiel were together. It excused nothing, the Omega knew that, but still. The Omega remembered when he had tried to end it with Dean after three months.

“Cas? What's wrong sweetheart?” Dean had just walked into their secret meeting place and had tried to kiss Castiel but the Omega had taken a step back, out of reach.

“I-I can’t keep doing this” Castiel had started. Just a few nights ago, Castiel had seen Dean with his beautiful wife Anna on TV. They were on the red carpet at the premier screening of Dean’s latest movie. Sharing the Alpha was eating at Castiel. He didn’t want to be someone’s dirty little secret. The Omega was already falling quite hard for the Alpha and he had to end it now or his heartbreak would be so much worse later.

Castiel was trying to keep his composure, yet the sadness and hurt he saw in Dean’s jade green eyes made his heart twist painfully.

“Cas… I don’t understand. You don’t want to see me anymore?” Dean stepped closer, his voice was lower now, and gruff. His scent of pines and crisp apples took on a sour note of sadness as he came closer to Castiel.

“Dean, you’re married and I’m just-” Castiel tried, he did, but Dean was cornering him against the wall, boxing him in with his scent and those hurt jade green eyes. The Alpha caressed his face and kissed him, silencing his words. The kiss was soft and gentle, intimate as Dean nuzzled him before deepening the kiss. It became consuming and filled with passion, which made Castiel mewl into it. Dean mapped out his mouth leisurely, like there was nothing else he wanted more then to kiss Castiel and take possession over every single inch of him. The Alpha cradled his lover’s head, hands buried in his dark hair. Castiel’s hands fisted in Dean’s over shirt, holding onto the Alpha desperately as he gave everything he was to Dean Winchester.

Slowly the kiss ended, both nipping at each other’s lips gently before Dean nuzzled him once more and rested his forehead against Castiel’s.

“I need you, Cas. Please don’t end this,” Dean whispered against him, his hands caressing Castiel’s face gently, his green eyes intense and pleading as he looked into the Omega’s sky blue eyes. All Castiel was able to do was nod his agreement. Dean wasted no time claiming his lips after that.

Dean had taken him apart repeatedly that night, loving and worshiping every inch of Castiel’s body. The Omega had been completely lost in an ecstatic state of euphoria. He had never tried to end it again. That night had marked him as Dean’s completely. The Alpha had even gotten carried away during one of their trysts and had bitten him on his shoulder. Dean had profusely apologized afterwards, yet Castiel had endlessly wished it had been an actual mating bite.

Castiel had no idea what would happen now. The tabloids had hit mainstream two days ago and the fall out was massive. He had received an onslaught of hate mail, paper and email, so many hateful words. He could only imagine Dean was drawing in much the same things, if not worse. Dean’s wife Anna was also an actress and well loved as an all-American Omega. God only knew the wrath Dean was facing. Castiel couldn’t bring himself to read any of the magazine’s stories.

The sound of his TV being turned on snapped Castiel out of his haze as he looked over in time to see Balthazar putting the TMZ show on. Of course, only for the universe to continue to punish Castiel, the show was showing a clip of Dean leaving a building downtown, paparazzi everywhere, shouting and demanding questions about Castiel and their affair.

Balthazar was on the phone, pacing as he barked out words Castiel could barely hear as the Beta stepped out onto the balcony, leaving Castiel to sink down on his white leather sofa and watch the screen blankly. His senses were bombarded with questions and theories about the affair. Hosts speculating on how Anna was dealing with the situation. Videos of Dean with Anna, then Castiel by himself at some event flashed behind the tv hosts discussing the situation. Of course, it didn’t take long for them to brandish the compromising photos of Castiel and Dean across the screen with certain areas blurred. According to them, they had all been obtained by the same source.

Anna was perceived as the victim, which she of course was, while Castiel was painted as Dean’s mistress. The show’s hosts were throwing out speculations on how the affair started and Castiel groaned. Some disputed Castiel had seduced the Alpha who was a decade older while others speculated that Dean, being a big time star and well known, had used his handsome wiles to seduce the young and impressionable Omega.

Castiel wanted to disappear. He muted the tv as he laid his head back. What had he done? He closed his eyes as tears slipped past his lashes and down his cheeks. He was weak and in love with an Alpha that belonged to another Omega. He suddenly didn’t care anymore about his career, only that he would never see Dean again. He knew how selfish he was being, but his heart wouldn't stop twisting painfully at the realization that maybe he really had meant nothing to Dean. He would never feel his touch again, his kiss nor ever be buried in Dean’s chest with the Alpha strong arms wrapped around him and drowning in that apple and pine smell that made everything feel so right…

There was a knock at his door, surprising him out of his misery. Balthazar walked back into the living room, heading for the door. Castiel sat up when he heard a loud commotion from the hallway and stood.

Castiel’s sky blue eyes went wide in shock as Dean emerged from the hall and headed right for him. “Dean-” The Omega had no time to asses the situation nor say anything further as the Alpha wrapped his arms around him and captured his lips with his. Dean kissed him breathless. Hungry and unyielding in taking what was his. Castiel melted against him and gave everything Dean demanded.

When Dean pulled away, Castiel looked up at his lover, dazed and confused as the Alpha caressed his face. Emerald green eyes moved over every part of Castiel’s beautiful face with nothing but adoration and want. Castiel trembled in his grasp.

“I’m divorcing Anna.” Dean declared and Castiel couldn’t keep the smile from gracing his face and surged forward to kiss his Alpha.

“Wonderful,” Balthazar growled out, ready to hit the two fools in love, “but if you haven’t noticed, this is getting ugly and I highly doubt your soon to be ex-wife will take this lying down!”.

Dean nodded as he kept his eyes on Castiel’s. “I know. She won’t, but I’m where I’m supposed to be. If you’ll take me.”

Castiel couldn’t even answer him, choosing to kiss the Alpha all over again instead. Dean was his, and only his.

#xharuka17x #destiel #alpha!dean #omega!cas #drabble

[womenofcolor15]

The Glow Up Is Real! Jordyn Woods Covers Cosmopolitan UK - Talks Tristan Thompson, Social Media Bullies & Being A Black Woman

Jordyn Woods' glow up continues! The 21-year-old is featured on the newest issue of Cosmopolitan UK. See her cover and spread, plus what she said about Tristan Thompson, social media bullying and being a black woman inside...

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                  SEPTEMBER BABY thank you @cosmopolitanuk for giving me the opportunity to be your cover girl for my favorite month of the year. Thank you UK for always showing me so much love over the years. I can’t wait to share the rest of this shoot with you this week the young tomboy little girl in me is shaking. wearing my LA BABY lashes with @eylureofficial and a FIRST LOOK at my hair collab with @easilockshair wearing the pony.. only a few more weeks until you can get yours!

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    Jordyn Woods is the epitome of “when life gives you lemons, make lemonade” because there’s no denying that she’s had one of the biggest glow ups of 2019. Sometimes it just takes kicking culture vultures to the side to free yourself.

After her very public blow up with the Kardashian‐Jenner clan, Woods has gone on to launch a new collection of lash extensions, earn a guest role in Freeform’s "Grown-ish," launch her second Boohoo collection, and is now hitting magazine stands on the cover of the September issue of Cosmopolitan UK - rocking her own lashes and new hair extension collabo too.

Kylie Jenner who?

The 21‐year‐old used this opportunity to lay everything out on the table, opening up to the magazine about the fall out with her now ex‐bff and the infamous “kiss” that sparked cheating allegations between Woods and Khloe Kardashian’s daughter's dad-turned-ex‐boyfriend, Tristan Thompson.

You'll recall, Jordyn found herself at a house party with the NBA baller earlier this year and while she maintains that their encounter at the party was platonic, things got weird when Jordyn was getting ready to head home. That’s when Tristan planted a kiss on Jordyn and sparked an entire series of events that the families are both still dealing with today.

"I didn't know how to feel. I was like, 'That didn't just happen.' I [told him] 'I need to go,'" Jordyn told Cosmopolitan. "I was leaving already so I walked out immediately. I got in the car. I was in shock."

In her Red Table Talk interview with Jada Pinkett Smith following the event, Jordyn stated that her biggest mistake was not telling Khloe and Kylie that the kiss took place as soon as it happened. She explained to Cosmopolitan that she just needed time to process and pray about the whole situation before addressing it with the K’s. She continued:

"I just need[ed] some time by myself to try to understand what [was] happening, why it [was] happening, and how am I going to react to this internally, you know? How can I make things right with myself, with God and with my relationships? It took some time off in order for me to have a level head on how I should react.”

Jordyn also told the magazine that she decided to be mature and take the high road in this situation and not clap back at Khloe or any of the Kardahians who took to social media following Jordyn’s RTT interview to repeatedly call her a liar, homewrecker and basically bully her by naming Jordy as the reason Khloe’s family broke up.

"I don't believe in clapping back, or reacting out of emotion," Jordyn said. "I could have handled this a million different ways, but I just went with what felt the most natural to me.”

Now Jordyn, we've seen a couple low key clapbacks from you though, boo.  And nobody's mad about them. 

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                  she smiles I promise @cosmopolitanuk

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  Following the bullying from Khloe and klan, Jordy mentioned that she was called everything in the book and even received death threats for the incident that took place, which seemed to serve as a wake up call for the California native as she believed this illuminated what it means to be “demonised as a black woman existing in a public space”. She told Cosmo:

“I’ve had the privilege of not having to face it as hard as the girls in [that] school because of my surroundings, but now I have a clearer understanding of how this game works, and how people feel like it’s OK to say whatever they want. I know that I’m a black woman and I love being a black woman.”

Better late than never, I guess.

So now that Jordy’s "discovered" her blackness, what does this mean for her and Kylie’s friendship? The two obviously had a very strong bond as Kylie still has a special place in Jordy’s heart:

"I love her. That's my homie," she said of Kylie.

Oh. 

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                  Take a seat, because our September cover star @jordynwoods is ready to talk Hit the link in bio for Jordyn’s truth about trolls and Tristan Thompson. : @elisabethhoffphoto

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    Although the youngest of the Kardashian‐Jenners recently unfollowed her former best friend on Instagram, Jordyn still has hope that the two can reconcile one day.

"I hope everything falls into place and that we can all grow and build our relationships with our family and God and come back together one day and be stronger and happier."

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                  Our September issue is here and you’re in for a treat this month swipe for a preview and get your copy now!

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  Read Jordyn’s full Cosmopolitan UK interview here.

  Photo: Jordyn's IG

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[reinelefey]

Actually using my blog for what it was intended:

So, I’m sure that you’ve all grown used to me making posts about Christopher, and other paramours in my past. But... I’ve never really discussed those paramours in detail. Either because they hurt too much, or because I simply wasn’t ready to focus on the details myself.

But now, I’m going to write all of this out- for me- so that I can focus on the details, and learn from my past. Bear with me, because the beginnings are quite.... confusing. I did not date until I was 18, nearing 19, and even then did not really know my own self as of yet.

I suppose that it is easy for everyone to call forth their first love to mind. That easy smile, or sweet personality that drew you in, or the Bad Boy (tm) vibe that they gave off. For me, that person was William. I was in a place of massive self doubt, self loathing, and fear that I should never be good enough to have he things I desired. (I know better now, of course.) When he smiled, and spoke to me, it was that moment of world stopping clarity and understanding of the fact that I was NOT letting this man go without calling him mine. (Mind you that took at least another two years, and only lasted a short time...) 

William helped me to survive my final year of schooling, and the year after that one. To this day his little brother is still my little brother. He also helped me to gain self confidence, self love, and self respect. It may have taken me shouting the man down several times, and telling him I deserved better than what i was receiving, but it happened. Slowly. I began to realise that I was a force worth reckoning with, and that I deserved better than being on the back burner, which I almost always felt I was in the beginning with William.

Then came Zachary. I suppose you could call him the one who got away. (Though... he was cheating on me, so I guess it’s a good thing he did.) I had known Zachary longer than I’d known William, and he had been a wonderful friend. However, the year after I graduated, we lost touch. Nearly a year later, he commented on a facebook posting of mine, and soon the comments on this single post were ranging in the multitudes of hundreds. We arranged to hang out as friends later in the week, and left it at that. I believe we only made it to the second time we hung out before we were dating.

 We shared late night talks sitting in my car, we shared interests in cars, music, shows, and films. We also shared a love of computers, and building them, as well as playing video games on the finalized machines. His mother hated me, and so did his grandmother. They both felt that I had no future, and would drag him down with me, despite the fact that I had a home, a job, and a car at the time. We spent inordinate amounts of time together, and he was even there for me after I was grievously injured in a rather violent car crash. He was the first person my grandparents enjoyed enough to allow to spend the night routinely in our home. I even told him that “Yes, I would love to marry him once he finished school.”

Eventually, Zach left for school in another state, and I vowed to stay by his side, as the young optimistic lover always does. I applied for the same school, and put my heart into the application letter. I didn’t get my letter back from them until the day of his birthday. They had denied me. Earlier that week, I’d lost my job, and my car had broken down. My life felt a shambles, and I felt distinctly all of the words his mother and grandmother had spoken to me. my heart was broken, and I’d forgotten his birthday in my shame and grief. I did not move from my bed for nearly two weeks after this, and received a call from him then. He asked me if I was deliberately being an idiot, or did I not know what day it was. It was his day of arrival home for break, and I had forgotten, still trapped in my malaise. We met up, and went to the beach- a safe haven for us, previously. It did not go well, and our relationship was ended that very afternoon. We attempted to remain friends, I suppose... but his anger with me was too great, and we have not spoken in many a year, at this point.

It was March when William came home, and took me on our first date. We dressed in our finery, and went to a restaurant I have not visited since. We spent time together, and spoke, and talked of a future, and our life together. We spoke of sons and daughters; of weddings and homes, but still in my mind were the words of Zachary’s mother and grandmother. “You will amount to nothing, and drag him with you.” (If i’m completely honest, these words haunt me to this day, and I am ever fearful of them coming true.) I became enamoured all over again with William, and began to grow afraid of it. Afraid I would be his ruin. And so I ran. Farther, and faster than I ever thought myself capable, I ran. And I ended our relationship before we had even truly begun. The crazy, amazing man still feels guilt that he didn’t stop me. Or, did, when last we spoke of the matter. (William is one of the few important people in my life who hasn’t completely vanished... though he has somewhat.) 

Life moved on. William began to ate a girl who did not like him to speak to me, for fear he would leave her for my arms. And the best friend I’d had up until that point began to disappear out of my life. I respect both of them far too much to openly flout this rule, even years later.

I was single for a time after this. I didn’t know how to seek out a companion, and to be truthful, nor did I want to. It wasn’t until I stumbled into a companion that I even realised I had been lonely. 

Ramon. Oh, what can one even say about Ramon? Perhaps only that he is a good man, and that I wish to God I had remained naught but friends with him, even if it meant missing the amazing experiences i had as his girlfriend... i miss his friendship greatly, but his wife will no more allow me to spend time with him than William’s companion. 

You see, the relationship with Ramon began (as ill advised romances most oft do) in the workplace. I worked with him, and completely fell for his easy charm, sweet smiles, and the way that I was always taken care of, cared for, and watched over. At first, I kept my distance. He was engaged. It wasn’t until we both became utterly too drunk to make good decisions that I discovered he was in an open relationship with his fiancee, and that I could have my cake and eat it too. 

I began to date both of them, in an experimental phase of my life. I had much more time to spend with Ramon because we worked together, and hardly any time to spend with his fiancee, because of her work schedule. (She will not receive a name in this narrative, as I am still QUITE bitter about her role in the loss of Ramon in my life. Thank her VERY much. I do miss her friendship too, though... ) It came to a head when she expressed that she desired a monogamous relationship for her future, and that one way or another, our poly relationship was going to end. She said she could no longer manage her jealousy.

I saw red. There was no verbal expression which could encompass the anger I had for her in that moment, because of the way that this came about. In the midst of a restaurant, no less. One I’d frequented for YEARS, mind you. 

Ramon and myself had our last night- a final hurrah, if you will, and I decided that I would not step in the way of a multi-year relationship because I loved another woman’s fiancee. I didn’t have it in my heart to be a homewrecker. And yet... Ramon and I continued to speak, and see one another for a long time after. She caught us out twice, and kicked him out once. I pushed him away, because I did not want the death of his relationship on my conscience. And regretted every moment of it. 

Could I go back now, I would fight for Ramon, and fight dirty, if i had to. I still run into him on occasion, and seeing him is always as sweet as it has always been. My heart pounds, and my smile leaps to my lips, and I’d like nothing more than to perish in the embrace of his arms, to feel loved as I did in the relationship with him. But this is not to happen, dear ones. 

After the relationship fell apart, or rather, was blown apart, I remained single again for a time. I courted Christopher during this time, but naught really came of it besides a friends with benefits situation, when he wasn’t dating others, of course. This evolved into him explaining that he didn’t want to date me for fear of leaving me for his ex as he had done to others, and losing my friendship. Once it seemed well established that we would not date, I began to move on.

This is when I met Nathaniel. Nathaniel... was a massive mistake from day one. He was a benefit, at first, until we moved in together, but... still was a mistake from day one. 

I again met another paramour at work. Nathaniel was situated next to me at work, and shared skittle with me, seeming sweet, and companionable. We began to get to know one another at work, and I noticed he seemed to have a mac computer. I mentioned that i had one, and didn’t know how to use it well, and commented how I needed someone to teach me. Surprisingly, that was all the invitation he needed to ask me out.

Our first date, we met at a park after dark, and talked, spending time together. I found him beautiful at the time, and wanted nothing more than for him to kiss me under the stars. I’d put my hair up in a bun, and he gently pulled it down, saying he liked it better down. He kissed me right after that. And my heart melted. I have a thing for guys who do things like that, I guess. Guys who know what they want, and aren’t afraid to take it, if it’s offered.

We dated a year and a half before he put me in the hospital with three broken ribs, a punctured lung, dislocated jaw, and a cracked orbital socket. 

Christopher and I didn’t talk for a year while Nathaniel and I were dating, but when we did start talking, we picked right up where we left off, and I again felt loved and cherished. And yet, he lived over 100 miles away. I visited him, and it almost felt right. I almost felt at home. And I almost wished I didn’t have to go home. The first time. The second time... I went home two days early. Why?

Because I met Kyle. I met him at karaoke, and we quickly became friends. We hang out near daily, and if we’re not together in person, we’re talking on the phone, or texting. Even while I was on my trip, we texted nearly constantly. And on the day before I left spent 5 hours on the phone. (I was alone in Chris’s home because he had something to attend.) And on the day that I left, we again spent time on the phone. (Chris was at work.) 

In the past three, or perhaps four, weeks, we have been nigh on inseparable. And I’ve been enjoying myself immensely, and enjoying time spent with Kyle. I enjoyed myself more at home than I did on my trip. And my trip felt wrong. 

I’m not dating Kyle... but I would not be opposed. He presents to me the best traits of each aforementioned man in this post, and has yet to show me a bad side. (Though I am, of course, sure it exists.) He understands my past, and is considerate of it, and understands my boundaries. He does little things for me that others have not, and big things that others would not think to.

I suppose that I am writing this now because I want to be completely honest with myself, and the universe, before I embark on the next part of my journey, whatever that next part might be. The important thing is that I understand my past now. i understand my history, and the feelings associate with it. So, I can let them go and be in the universe as they need to be. They need not be bottled up in my heart any longer. 

But for now, I will leave this post here as a reminder to myself, to be reread as need be. If anyone else has read this long: Thank you, I suppose. I hope you have a wonderful day. 

#long post #hush elizabeth #past relationships #my past #my heart

[chwpromoblog]

CRISTIANO DE LA RENTA. college sophomore; nineteen. xavier serrano. OPEN.

and, as christian stovitz once said:

"Thanks, man. You got my mark."

BEFORE THE PARTY;

Cristiano De La Renta was first and foremost a legend. He was infamous figure amongst fashion crowd and why was that? For starters, he was the heir to the De La Renta label, a world renowned fashion house known for it’s breezy Spanish flare and immaculate tailoring. It was a shocking revelation to the fashion world, this massive label had been left in the hands of a nineteen year old kids. While that turn of events would have been enough to make him a big name in fashion, it was the lavish lifestyle that he lived that kept his name on the tip of everyone’s tongue. Everything Cristiano did was in excess. From the extravagant blow outs to the group trips to the  destinations that hosted the after party to the monthly trips to the most stunning vacation destinations, Cristiano was the culmination of a kid who had far too much money and far too little rules and discipline. 

He had been left to his own devices for a large majority of his life. His parents having either been too busy being the best at their respective careers or they were getting busy with their respective homewreckers. His mother and father didn’t clear too much time in their schedules to take care of their baby boy, so they left him in the care of au pair after au pair. They eventually caught onto what the other had been doing behind their back, so a television worthy messy divorce proceeding followed suit. Both of his parents accused the other of being the original unfaithful party, so began the untangling of their twisted web which left Cristiano that much more neglected. It came to a point where Cristiano only ever saw his parents if it was in the company of one of their lawyers, attempting to get some dirt out of him. 

But someone had decided to step up in their absence. His grandfather, Oscar.

Cristiano would only ever speak highly of the man. Despite running a fashion empire, he had genuine interest in his grandsons life. He took time to be a part of his life; teaching him the tricks of the trades, helping him with his homework in his own eccentric way, being there for each and every one of his achievements. No matter how big or how small. His grandfather was a constant reminder that someone did in fact care for him, he was loved. Someone remembered that he was a human, not just some pawn in a hopeful legal win. But unfortunately, those moments would soon themselves cut short when his grandfather passed away. It had been expected, he’d been suffering with Alzheimer's for quite some time but Cristiano just wanted more time with the man. He would have given anything for that, even the massive inheritance that had been left solely to him. Anything

But life didn’t work that way, no matter how much money you had.

The loss of his grandfather triggered something inside of Cristiano. He didn’t need his family's love and approval, why attempt to get theirs when he could make everyone else love him? His change in him began with the way he dressed, as soon as he was able to work off his baby weight- his closet consisted of shorts, sheers and Versace. Just about anything that emphasised his newfound body. 

After the weight loss and closet reinvention came the praise. Given the obvious changes to his image, he began to attract the attention of the fashion world. They had been all but ready to take him on as their next it boy and Cristiano relished the attention. 

Attention that began to pull his focus away from his academics. But how was he possibly expected to sit in some classroom learning about Earth Science when he had booked editorial spreads for Vogue or GQ?  He couldn’t. But his attendance wasn’t the only problem that the board at his former school, St. Agnes had with the boy. He was a bad example, that’s what he was often told. He must have forgotten when he signed on to be some sort of role model? Plus, he wasn’t the one that asked to be photographed stumbling out of Up N’ Down. Maybe these were things they should have brought up with the celebrity obsessed culture they lived in. But he would take full responsibility for having boxes of champagne delivered to the school’s front steps. That was all him. The stunt hadn’t been received by the board so he had been expelled from the school. To most, that would have been seen as shameful but not amongst the private school circuit. Not only was he fashion’s newest shining star, but was he a legend to those in Rosewood.

Yet his parents didn’t bat an eyelash at his behavior. Rather than scold him, his parents blamed the other for the person he was becoming. Instead of it bringing them together in the vein of some cheesy after school special, it simply gave them more ammo in their war against each other.

But there was one person who had shown concern about his well being. Chanel Horowitz. They came into each other’s lives when they both needed each other the most. Cristiano needed someone to care about him, given he was quickly spiraling out of control and Chanel had wanted someone to show her love and affection. He had that and then some for the girl, so things led to them eventually dating. They had dated for quite some time actually, but Cristiano found his eyes wandering every so often. He had needs after all and given Chanel strict no sexual contact rule, he found himself getting it from the secretary at his father’s lawyers firm, the sales women at Barney’s, and several members of the Lacrosse team. Their relationship having came to an end because she had been caught in the act with Phillip Dyun— in his defense, nothing turned him on more than a man that knew fashion. He understood that he hurt Chanel deeply, but he intended on making it up to her somehow.

The love that they had once shared had been what saved him. After every bender, after every fuck up... it’d been her that had been by his side. So Cristiano made a vow to himself, he was going to be a better person for Chanel. Well a somewhat better person.

What? A gentleman needed to divulge into his fair share of debauchery from time to time.

DURING THE PARTY;

Cristiano had been behaving himself at the party. Mostly because he’d invited one of his favorite photographers to be his date to it. Not his actual date, the man was unfortunately very heterosexual but no matter— he was giving the man exactly what he wanted. The perfect shots for his upcoming tablebook. He was putting together a collection of teenage rambunctiousness and from what he could see, this party was that and then some. 

He loved it.

Cristiano continued to lead him through the party before he caught sight of Chanel. A vision of perfection, as she always was. Did she ever have an off day? No. That was just one of the many reasons why he adored his ex girlfriend. And given he still had plenty to make up for, a lightbulb went off in his head. What better way to make her happy than to have her beauty shown off to the masses? Sure she could get a spread in the man’s publication. While nothing about Chanel screamed madness nor secret angst, she was what every teenage wanted one way or another. Whether it was looking like her or wanting to be with her. 

So Cristiano introduced the pair, letting his friend know that he would keep an eye on her little project Taissa for the evening. It was the least he could do for her. He might not be getting the spread, but he’ll be the one walking the shows at Milan fashion week so it all evened out. Cristiano turned his attention back to where Taissa had been, only to find her gone. 

She’d just been there. That goofball Tate having been right by her side. His eyes wandered until they caught Phillip Dyun’s. A smirk found itself on his lips as the guy motioned him to come over.

Sure, he’d promised Chanel that he’d keep an eye on Taissa but last he saw, she was with Tate and the guy was harmless. That was the universe letting him know that it was time for him to enjoy himself.

alternate faceclaims and prompts.

#rp #rpg #roleplay #active rp #town rp

[multimetaverse]

There are some massive spoilers regarding Buffy and Marty in 3b courtesy of a casting notice. I’m going to post the relevant parts of the notice and my analysis under the cut. Fair warning, these spoilers are very big.

Andi Mack Episode(s) 317 Shoot Dates Saturday, November 3, 2018 through Friday, November 9, 2018 RACHEL Female, 13-16, Any Ethnicity, Marty's girlfriend, Jealous when Marty runs into Buffy at the Bowling Alley. She questions whether or not Buffy and Marty have feelings for each other. Co-Star IMPRESSED STUDENT Male or Female, 13-16, Any Ethnicity, A student admires Andi's art piece on display at the Middle School. Co-Star

Obviously Muffy is endgame, that was clear from the very fact of Marty’s return, this just 100% confirms it. It’s not like the show is trying to sell Wuffy but this pretty much confirms that Walker is done in any significant role and likely won’t even appear at all after 3a. It’s good to see that Andi is branching out with her art, that could be a really good story line. I think this bodes well for Tyrus in 3b that they’re giving Buffy such a dramatic story line, I’ve always said that the het ships will have to bear most of the drama and angst so as to counterbalance the gay story line. Looks like Buffy and Marty reunite around ep 8 then Buffy decides to forgive Marty and welcome him back into her life in eps 13/14 before the angst hits in ep 17. 

What is very interesting is that they’re going with the old ‘two people are in love and one of their significant others realizes it’ trope. There’s almost no way that Marty and Rachel are still dating by the end of 3x17 and most likely Rachel will have to initiate the break up (and maybe it’s revealed she’s not a nice person) so that Marty and especially Buffy don’t come off looking too bad. This is fairly similar to what the show did with Jandi and Jamber in S1, obviously Jamber was toxic but the show had to tow a careful line so Andi didn’t look like a homewrecker.

I always said that the show was bringing back Marty because sailing Muffy would provide the show lots of drama and angst and passion and here we’ll have it in spades. There’s so many things they can do in ep 17 and beyond. We’ll almost certainly get a Buffy hair twirl, hell maybe even a Muffy look back, they could bring back Buffy’s mom for another mother daughter chat, they could have Buffy go to Bex, Cyrus and Andi will certainly be involved at some point, and they could really dig into how does Buffy deal with her feelings, and how her and Marty navigate the treacherous waters of their relationship when they have already lost and then found their way back to each other. The possibilities are endless. 

If I had to guess the Muffy plot culminates in the same episode as Buffy’s team plot which would be the big championship game which I imagine would probably be in the last 4 or so eps before the finale. It’s a classic sports movie trope, the hero wins the big game and wins the person of their dreams. I think the writers will find it too tempting to resist playing that trope straight, so I think after Buffy wins the game she has a big moment with Marty that makes Muffy official. Realistically it makes no sense that Marty would be at the Bexie wedding in the finale unless Buffy invited him and there’s little reason to invite him if she’s still wrestling with her feelings for him. 

This strengthens my theory that they’ll occasionally put Raquel’s character into Cyrus’ plot because they want to keep her around but also need time in Buffy’s story to focus on Marty. And funnily enough I was about to write a post speculating that Garren would be showing up on set for more than just a day or two in the the near future because his character on GH is about to be murdered near the end of October by a serial killer doctor who has an angel of mercy complex according to a seemingly well sourced article I read that now looks very accurate. I have no idea how many episodes Garren will show up in for 3b but if he’s no longer on GH the show can bring him back whenever they want in theory. 

There’s been some discussion over why people don’t take Buffy turning down Marty at face value in regards to her not having had feelings for Marty. Part of the answer is that she obviously will develop those feelings as we can now say with 100% certainty. The other big reason is that Buffy not having a crush on Marty is most likely a retcon the writers had to do once they realized that Marty wouldn’t be back in S2 that they are now able to unretcon now that Marty is back for S3.  It’s very hard to watch the Muffy scenes we saw before Buffy turned Marty down and not think that Buffy did in fact have a crush on Marty. In S1 when Buffy meets Andi in the bathroom as Andi is washing off her goth makeup they specifically talk about feelings and Buffy mentions that her feelings are always rational right before she dunks Marty’s sneakers.

These spoilers are very exciting. Marty’s departure really sent Buffy’s story line careening off track and I’m very interested on a meta level to see what Terri’s original plan for them was and if we can tease out why exactly his leaving the show had such an outsized effect. From what we can glean from here on the outside it looks like Andi Mack is setting itself up for a very good final stretch.

#Andi Mack #Muffy #Buffy Driscoll #Marty from the party #Andi Mack Spoilers #Andi Mack Season 3 #Andi Mack Meta #Andi Mack Production

[chwpromoblog]

CRISTIANO DE LA RENTA. college sophomore; nineteen. xavier serrano. OPEN.

and, as christian stovitz once said:

"Thanks, man. You got my mark."

BEFORE THE PARTY;

Cristiano De La Renta was first and foremost a legend. He was infamous figure amongst fashion crowd and why was that? For starters, he was the heir to the De La Renta label, a world renowned fashion house known for it’s breezy Spanish flare and immaculate tailoring. It was a shocking revelation to the fashion world, this massive label had been left in the hands of a nineteen year old kids. While that turn of events would have been enough to make him a big name in fashion, it was the lavish lifestyle that he lived that kept his name on the tip of everyone’s tongue. Everything Cristiano did was in excess. From the extravagant blow outs to the group trips to the  destinations that hosted the after party to the monthly trips to the most stunning vacation destinations, Cristiano was the culmination of a kid who had far too much money and far too little rules and discipline. 

He had been left to his own devices for a large majority of his life. His parents having either been too busy being the best at their respective careers or they were getting busy with their respective homewreckers. His mother and father didn’t clear too much time in their schedules to take care of their baby boy, so they left him in the care of au pair after au pair. They eventually caught onto what the other had been doing behind their back, so a television worthy messy divorce proceeding followed suit. Both of his parents accused the other of being the original unfaithful party, so began the untangling of their twisted web which left Cristiano that much more neglected. It came to a point where Cristiano only ever saw his parents if it was in the company of one of their lawyers, attempting to get some dirt out of him. 

But someone had decided to step up in their absence. His grandfather, Oscar.

Cristiano would only ever speak highly of the man. Despite running a fashion empire, he had genuine interest in his grandsons life. He took time to be a part of his life; teaching him the tricks of the trades, helping him with his homework in his own eccentric way, being there for each and every one of his achievements. No matter how big or how small. His grandfather was a constant reminder that someone did in fact care for him, he was loved. Someone remembered that he was a human, not just some pawn in a hopeful legal win. But unfortunately, those moments would soon themselves cut short when his grandfather passed away. It had been expected, he’d been suffering with Alzheimer's for quite some time but Cristiano just wanted more time with the man. He would have given anything for that, even the massive inheritance that had been left solely to him. Anything

But life didn’t work that way, no matter how much money you had.

The loss of his grandfather triggered something inside of Cristiano. He didn’t need his family's love and approval, why attempt to get theirs when he could make everyone else love him? His change in him began with the way he dressed, as soon as he was able to work off his baby weight- his closet consisted of shorts, sheers and Versace. Just about anything that emphasised his newfound body. 

After the weight loss and closet reinvention came the praise. Given the obvious changes to his image, he began to attract the attention of the fashion world. They had been all but ready to take him on as their next it boy and Cristiano relished the attention. 

Attention that began to pull his focus away from his academics. But how was he possibly expected to sit in some classroom learning about Earth Science when he had booked editorial spreads for Vogue or GQ?  He couldn’t. But his attendance wasn’t the only problem that the board at his former school, St. Agnes had with the boy. He was a bad example, that’s what he was often told. He must have forgotten when he signed on to be some sort of role model? Plus, he wasn’t the one that asked to be photographed stumbling out of Up N’ Down. Maybe these were things they should have brought up with the celebrity obsessed culture they lived in. But he would take full responsibility for having boxes of champagne delivered to the school’s front steps. That was all him. The stunt hadn’t been received by the board so he had been expelled from the school. To most, that would have been seen as shameful but not amongst the private school circuit. Not only was he fashion’s newest shining star, but was he a legend to those in Rosewood.

Yet his parents didn’t bat an eyelash at his behavior. Rather than scold him, his parents blamed the other for the person he was becoming. Instead of it bringing them together in the vein of some cheesy after school special, it simply gave them more ammo in their war against each other.

But there was one person who had shown concern about his well being. Chanel Horowitz. They came into each other’s lives when they both needed each other the most. Cristiano needed someone to care about him, given he was quickly spiraling out of control and Chanel had wanted someone to show her love and affection. He had that and then some for the girl, so things led to them eventually dating. They had dated for quite some time actually, but Cristiano found his eyes wandering every so often. He had needs after all and given Chanel strict no sexual contact rule, he found himself getting it from the secretary at his father’s lawyers firm, the sales women at Barney’s, and several members of the Lacrosse team. Their relationship having came to an end because she had been caught in the act with Phillip Dyun— in his defense, nothing turned him on more than a man that knew fashion. He understood that he hurt Chanel deeply, but he intended on making it up to her somehow.

The love that they had once shared had been what saved him. After every bender, after every fuck up... it’d been her that had been by his side. So Cristiano made a vow to himself, he was going to be a better person for Chanel. Well a somewhat better person.

What? A gentleman needed to divulge into his fair share of debauchery from time to time.

DURING THE PARTY;

Cristiano had been behaving himself at the party. Mostly because he’d invited one of his favorite photographers to be his date to it. Not his actual date, the man was unfortunately very heterosexual but no matter— he was giving the man exactly what he wanted. The perfect shots for his upcoming tablebook. He was putting together a collection of teenage rambunctiousness and from what he could see, this party was that and then some. 

He loved it.

Cristiano continued to lead him through the party before he caught sight of Chanel. A vision of perfection, as she always was. Did she ever have an off day? No. That was just one of the many reasons why he adored his ex girlfriend. And given he still had plenty to make up for, a lightbulb went off in his head. What better way to make her happy than to have her beauty shown off to the masses? Sure she could get a spread in the man’s publication. While nothing about Chanel screamed madness nor secret angst, she was what every teenage wanted one way or another. Whether it was looking like her or wanting to be with her. 

So Cristiano introduced the pair, letting his friend know that he would keep an eye on her little project Taissa for the evening. It was the least he could do for her. He might not be getting the spread, but he’ll be the one walking the shows at Milan fashion week so it all evened out. Cristiano turned his attention back to where Taissa had been, only to find her gone. 

She’d just been there. That goofball Tate having been right by her side. His eyes wandered until they caught Phillip Dyun’s. A smirk found itself on his lips as the guy motioned him to come over.

Sure, he’d promised Chanel that he’d keep an eye on Taissa but last he saw, she was with Tate and the guy was harmless. That was the universe letting him know that it was time for him to enjoy himself.

alternate faceclaims and prompts.

#roleplay #rp #rpg #bio rp #original rp

[chwpromoblog]

CRISTIANO DE LA RENTA. college sophomore; nineteen. xavier serrano. OPEN.

and, as christian stovitz once said:

"Thanks, man. You got my mark."

BEFORE THE PARTY;

Cristiano De La Renta was first and foremost a legend. He was infamous figure amongst fashion crowd and why was that? For starters, he was the heir to the De La Renta label, a world renowned fashion house known for it’s breezy Spanish flare and immaculate tailoring. It was a shocking revelation to the fashion world, this massive label had been left in the hands of a nineteen year old kids. While that turn of events would have been enough to make him a big name in fashion, it was the lavish lifestyle that he lived that kept his name on the tip of everyone’s tongue. Everything Cristiano did was in excess. From the extravagant blow outs to the group trips to the  destinations that hosted the after party to the monthly trips to the most stunning vacation destinations, Cristiano was the culmination of a kid who had far too much money and far too little rules and discipline. 

He had been left to his own devices for a large majority of his life. His parents having either been too busy being the best at their respective careers or they were getting busy with their respective homewreckers. His mother and father didn’t clear too much time in their schedules to take care of their baby boy, so they left him in the care of au pair after au pair. They eventually caught onto what the other had been doing behind their back, so a television worthy messy divorce proceeding followed suit. Both of his parents accused the other of being the original unfaithful party, so began the untangling of their twisted web which left Cristiano that much more neglected. It came to a point where Cristiano only ever saw his parents if it was in the company of one of their lawyers, attempting to get some dirt out of him. 

But someone had decided to step up in their absence. His grandfather, Oscar.

Cristiano would only ever speak highly of the man. Despite running a fashion empire, he had genuine interest in his grandsons life. He took time to be a part of his life; teaching him the tricks of the trades, helping him with his homework in his own eccentric way, being there for each and every one of his achievements. No matter how big or how small. His grandfather was a constant reminder that someone did in fact care for him, he was loved. Someone remembered that he was a human, not just some pawn in a hopeful legal win. But unfortunately, those moments would soon themselves cut short when his grandfather passed away. It had been expected, he’d been suffering with Alzheimer's for quite some time but Cristiano just wanted more time with the man. He would have given anything for that, even the massive inheritance that had been left solely to him. Anything

But life didn’t work that way, no matter how much money you had.

The loss of his grandfather triggered something inside of Cristiano. He didn’t need his family's love and approval, why attempt to get theirs when he could make everyone else love him? His change in him began with the way he dressed, as soon as he was able to work off his baby weight- his closet consisted of shorts, sheers and Versace. Just about anything that emphasised his newfound body. 

After the weight loss and closet reinvention came the praise. Given the obvious changes to his image, he began to attract the attention of the fashion world. They had been all but ready to take him on as their next it boy and Cristiano relished the attention. 

Attention that began to pull his focus away from his academics. But how was he possibly expected to sit in some classroom learning about Earth Science when he had booked editorial spreads for Vogue or GQ?  He couldn’t. But his attendance wasn’t the only problem that the board at his former school, St. Agnes had with the boy. He was a bad example, that’s what he was often told. He must have forgotten when he signed on to be some sort of role model? Plus, he wasn’t the one that asked to be photographed stumbling out of Up N’ Down. Maybe these were things they should have brought up with the celebrity obsessed culture they lived in. But he would take full responsibility for having boxes of champagne delivered to the school’s front steps. That was all him. The stunt hadn’t been received by the board so he had been expelled from the school. To most, that would have been seen as shameful but not amongst the private school circuit. Not only was he fashion’s newest shining star, but was he a legend to those in Rosewood.

Yet his parents didn’t bat an eyelash at his behavior. Rather than scold him, his parents blamed the other for the person he was becoming. Instead of it bringing them together in the vein of some cheesy after school special, it simply gave them more ammo in their war against each other.

But there was one person who had shown concern about his well being. Chanel Horowitz. They came into each other’s lives when they both needed each other the most. Cristiano needed someone to care about him, given he was quickly spiraling out of control and Chanel had wanted someone to show her love and affection. He had that and then some for the girl, so things led to them eventually dating. They had dated for quite some time actually, but Cristiano found his eyes wandering every so often. He had needs after all and given Chanel strict no sexual contact rule, he found himself getting it from the secretary at his father’s lawyers firm, the sales women at Barney’s, and several members of the Lacrosse team. Their relationship having came to an end because she had been caught in the act with Phillip Dyun— in his defense, nothing turned him on more than a man that knew fashion. He understood that he hurt Chanel deeply, but he intended on making it up to her somehow.

The love that they had once shared had been what saved him. After every bender, after every fuck up... it’d been her that had been by his side. So Cristiano made a vow to himself, he was going to be a better person for Chanel. Well a somewhat better person.

What? A gentleman needed to divulge into his fair share of debauchery from time to time.

DURING THE PARTY;

Cristiano had been behaving himself at the party. Mostly because he’d invited one of his favorite photographers to be his date to it. Not his actual date, the man was unfortunately very heterosexual but no matter— he was giving the man exactly what he wanted. The perfect shots for his upcoming tablebook. He was putting together a collection of teenage rambunctiousness and from what he could see, this party was that and then some. 

He loved it.

Cristiano continued to lead him through the party before he caught sight of Chanel. A vision of perfection, as she always was. Did she ever have an off day? No. That was just one of the many reasons why he adored his ex girlfriend. And given he still had plenty to make up for, a lightbulb went off in his head. What better way to make her happy than to have her beauty shown off to the masses? Sure she could get a spread in the man’s publication. While nothing about Chanel screamed madness nor secret angst, she was what every teenage wanted one way or another. Whether it was looking like her or wanting to be with her. 

So Cristiano introduced the pair, letting his friend know that he would keep an eye on her little project Taissa for the evening. It was the least he could do for her. He might not be getting the spread, but he’ll be the one walking the shows at Milan fashion week so it all evened out. Cristiano turned his attention back to where Taissa had been, only to find her gone. 

She’d just been there. That goofball Tate having been right by her side. His eyes wandered until they caught Phillip Dyun’s. A smirk found itself on his lips as the guy motioned him to come over.

Sure, he’d promised Chanel that he’d keep an eye on Taissa but last he saw, she was with Tate and the guy was harmless. That was the universe letting him know that it was time for him to enjoy himself.

alternate faceclaims and prompts.

#clueless #xavier serrano #rp #roleplay #active rp