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premakalidasi · 4 years
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–Mata Amritanandamayi Devi in Awaken, Children VII.
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bigskydreaming · 3 years
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I don’t often muse upon PJO, but when I do, its random as hell. 
Anyway, tonight’s thought (singular, also: derogatory, as in very possibly a mistake) is about exploring aspects of the Greek gods that are extrapolations of like, what they’d be like in the modern world instead of just in terms of their ancient myths.....and how that might widen the scope of their demigod children and their powers.
Like take Hephaestus for instance. God of the forge and fire, of invention and artifice......now widen the scope on those things through the lens of the modern age.....might he also be considered the god of modern science, not just in terms of things like engineering and technology, but also physics, chemistry? Or would those things fall more under Athena’s purview......unless you separated them into finer divisions. Like, you could consider Athena’s overview of knowledge and wisdom to make her the goddess of science and higher learning or whatever in general........OR you could separate it like.....Hephaestus is the god of natural or physical sciences like physics and chemistry, and Athena is the goddess of not just wisdom and tactics but things like psychology, computer sciences, etc.
Or OR get Dionysus up in there too, and make it like Hephaestus is the god of chemistry, of chemical reactions and the like, Athena is the goddess of physics, of the most full and complete understanding of the physical universe via things like the unified field theory and its comprising forces of electromagnetism, strong and weak nuclear force, etc, and then Dionysus the god of biology, hmmmm.....
Cuz imagine then, demigod children of Hephaestus, where instead of pyrokinesis, some get powers like transmuting elements.......oh man, the things you could do with that??? Not just lead into gold but they’d be terrors in battle because they could transmute the very air someone breathes into chlorine gas, blood into acid, flesh into stone. Or using that power defensively, making them able to keep guns from firing by dampening the chemical reaction that comes from igniting gunpowder, or just knocking someone out or putting them to sleep by just tanking their metabolic reactions. Mingling magic with modern know-how and creating their own version of truth serums by turning the water someone drinks into something akin to sodium pentathol when just brushing their fingers against someone’s glass, or rendering all drugs or toxins that might have been slipped into their drink null and void by transmuting them into harmless H20. 
(I know that Luke was mentioned briefly as being good at making potions aka alchemy due to being a son of Hermes, but frankly, transmutation as a mastery of the periodic table makes waaaaay more sense for Hephaestus’ kids, I’m just saying. And plus the Greeks didn’t so much consider Hermes an actual god of alchemy as they more just kinda viewed him as their god of all things miscellaneous and tended to lump anything they didn’t have particularly strong feelings about and/or a grasp of under his umbrella. Hermes was really just the patron god of being random as fuck and oh great gods of Olympus I have no idea what I want to do with my life, give me a sign. Hermes: poofs into existence on their shoulder and says SOUNDS LIKE YOU NEED TO GO BE GAY AND DO CRIME YOU HEARD IT HERE FIRST, DIVINE MANDATE, LETS GOOOOOOO).
Give children of Athena more practical applications for being heirs to her wisdom, knowledge and strategic acumen by also giving her dominion in the modern age over humanity’s quest to better understand the universe we live in and all its rules, the ins and outs of the laws that govern reality itself.......thus Annabeth and others’ potential acumen for magic being here not the end result of them stepping on Hecate and her kids’ toes, but rather more a function of making them the embodiment of ‘magic is just sufficiently advanced technology’ as they - via an innate and heightened understanding of the very nature of the physical universe - find holes in the fabric of space and time that let them slip from Point A to Point B as easily as crossing the street, play tricks with gravity and relativity and things that leave others baffled and amazed and them just shrugging and being like its all in the wrist, dude, and also, the fact that our mom just GETS reality in a way that everyone else will still be playing catch-up to a thousand years from now.
Children of Dionysus (yes I know he barely has any shhh we’re not paying attention to the series we’re just musing on demigod powers here) who combine the godhood of grapes and revelry with loud music and laughter......the way music can help with plant growth, because music is essentially just VIBRATIONS and vibrations stimulate activity in plant cells in a variety of ways.....and thus similar to Mr. D’s tricks with controlling vines and rapidly growing plants, AND his ability to affect the psyches of others, which is described as inflicting or curing madness and I’m like ehhhh do we have to describe it thus though.....put all that in a pot, shake it, not stir, and abrakadabra, alakazam, other psychic pokemon random Psyduck shout-out and voila! ALL of that could be afixed to and made the end product of godly and demigodly control and manipulation of vibrations, cuz Dionysus is literally the god of just vibing in all its infinite forms.....and thus its all just about how vibrations affect plant life on a cellular level, how they can affect brain chemistry in a variety of ways, triggering a lot of the more primal centers/functions of the brain, etc. You kids are driving me crazy, he’d yell at his demigod kids, and they’re like umm wow, like ACK CHOO UGHLY, father, welcome to the 21st century, all we’re really doing is directly stimulating the prefrontal cortex of your cerebellum with our banging rock music, and its making you angy, what about it?
And speaking of actually, if we and by we I mean me cuz I am and its wheee, are theorizing about Athena’s brood getting to be all magical wunderkind whizkids with their scientific acumen and divine cheat-sheets for the physical universe, maybe Aphrodite and her kids could snatch up those psychology and psychiatry job titles instead. Love, desire, also things like obsession, hyper-fixation......is Cabin Mighty Aphrodite really just pheromone central or are its campers more like magical dopamine and serotonin factories just pumping out good vibes all around them, being like come hang out, its free brain juice. Like, imagine kids of Aphrodite who just by their mere presence could help the legions of ADHD demigods focus better, concentrate easier, get shit done because the goddess of passion and her children like....have the gift of helping people to more productively pursue their passions in ALL forms, not just the physical desires they hold for others but the passions they hold for arts and crafts and sports and y’know, saving the world on magical coming-of-age quests when their milkshakes bring all the monsters to the yard. 
And then Ares not just as a god of war and conflict, but of entropy....the tendency of the universe to trend towards disorder, randomness, uncertainty....the kind of things that so often incite or enflame conflict......but applied at large not just to interpersonal dynamics but to the world itself. With his children possessing demigod abilities that disrupt or weaken bonds, both in the form of emotional ties between allies and commitments towards various ideals or courses of action, but also the ability to PHYSICALLY weaken bonds, resulting in an enemy’s weapon falling apart at a touch, or increasing the instability or volatility of an object so it blows up akin to how Gambit of the X-Men’s powers work and can turn even playing cards into a weapon, etc, etc.
And don’t even get me started on Hermes! No, seriously, don’t. Mostly because I haven’t thought that one through yet and I got nothing. I mean I got some things but they are nebulous and have yet to spring forth fully formed from my head like Athena from the fuckhead of Zeus, that absolute fuckhead of legend and yore. In my defense though, I haven’t like, eaten any primordial goddesses of thought and memory, so.......like, idk, I’m taking the longer route here I guess.
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wahbegan · 2 years
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@immortalbeloved​ @colapepzi​ Okay so it was just like a demolition derby “have a few beers with your friends and unwind” violent racing game, about a contest run by Very Obviously The Devil and whoever wins gets whatever they can possibly wish for, but the backstories for all the characters were just unbelievably FUCKED for no reason???
The mascot, Sweet Tooth, was a  deranged serial killer in a clown mask whose head was perpetually on fire because a preacher cursed him to forever burn in Hell as he was being shocked in the electric chair
There was this girl Dollface who had an abusive father and an abusive boss who one day, for like spilling coffee on his shit, nailed and locked a doll mask onto her face that is like giving her brain damage because she’s i mean still growing and she’s weirdly child-like and like I DESERVE IT
There’s No-Face, an underground boxer who got his face smashed in in a fight, and the back-alley doctor who he gets dragged to to fix him up lost money on him, so instead of fixing him up, he cuts his eyes and tongue out and sews the sockets and his mouth shut
Uh there’s a kid, what’s his name, Charlie Kane? Who’s piloting his own dead father’s corpse to drive him around like a remote-control zombie
Oh yeah, Mr. Grimm, one of my all-time favorites, a Vietnam Vet who was thrown in a pit with his war buddy and then forced to eat him when he died, after which he went crazy and started wearing his dead friend’s skull like a mask
Just it’s all shit like that murder and abuse and mutilation and revenge and i have NO idea why it’s like vroom vroom ha ha shoot missiles out of my ice cream truck murdermobile wheee fun racing game and then AND HIS WISH UPON WINNING THE RACE WAS TO HAVE THAT DOCTOR CHAINED TO A BOXING BAG AND JUST GO TO TOWN ON HIM WITH GLOVES THAT HAD SCALPELS AND RAZORS NEEDLES AND BITS OF BROKEN GLASS TAPED TO THEM
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empirexsin · 3 years
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“what did you do to them?" / @salixxs
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it is probably wrong to believe there can be any limit to the horror which the human mind can experience. on the contrary, it seems that some expontential effect begins to obtain as deeper and deeper darkness falls-as little as one may like to admit it, human experience tends, in a good many ways, to support the idea that when the nightmare grows black enough, horror spawns horror, one coincidental evil begets the other, often more deliberate evils, until finally blackness seems to cover everything. and the most terrifying question of all may be just how much horror the human mind can stand and still maintain a wakeful, staring, unrelenting sanity. that such events have their own absurdity goes almost without saying. at some point, it all starts to become rather funny. that may be the point at which sanity begins either to save itself or to buckle and break down; that point at which one’s sense of humour begins to reassert itself.
faith is a great thing, and really religious people would like us to believe that faith and knowing are the same thing. but he doesn’t believe that himself. because there are too many different ideas on the subject. what we know is this: when we die, one of two things happens. either our souls and thoughts somehow survive the experience of dying or they don’t. if they do, that opens up every possibility you could think of. if they don’t, it’s just blotto. the end. max is the latter. he’s dead, but he looks alive. he’s dead in every scientific way imaginable and yet he lives, and he has memories of what has come and what has passed. he has seen centuries pass, and now he’s here, living and taking advantage of mortal souls by sucking their blood until they’re dead and fucking them. in what order, he doesn’t care anymore. max thinks, wonderingly, that he’s gone crazy. wheee! he’d think with excitement. but now is not the time. confronted by a blonde, very much alive woman. a woman he can smell blood dripping through her veins. it’s warm and juicy. but she stands, with him, overlooking several corpses of people he’s taken their kindness of advantage of so that he might have a good meal. so that he may use their flesh afterwards to wipe his mouth like a napkin. 
“ anything that i wanted to do ” he looks at her with this intense green gaze of his. he barely blinks. his skin is still golden, if not for a slight paler disposition he has managed to maintain most of his unearthly complexion. he imagines what is going through her mind. ‘ hey police? i just saw the world’s weirdest man climb through a window and kill a bunch of people. looks like he’s a cannibal because their necks are fucked. yeah, looked like a grave matter to me. kidding? oh no. i’m in dead earnest. maybe you ought to dig into it’. he could laugh at the thought. but he doesn’t. this probes more issues than solutions currently. he could frame her. but she looks weak and fragile, even if she’s going to try parade the idea that she’s strong - like every feminist wants to believe. “ lady, it’s just death ”
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stray-tori · 3 years
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An Innocent Sin & the good gay flashback ft. my descent into madness
I wasn’t sure if I should post this but I mostly want it archived so here we go. This is from like,, September?
So. “An Innocent Sin” is a dumpster fire unlike anything I’ve ever seen. I don’t remember why I decided to read it. maybe I was crazy. Either way... I read it. It soon started to touch upon (very very outlandish) sexual abuse which I thought was interesting. (the angst, not so much some of the wack circumstances surrounding it)
ANYWAY. at some point... we have a flashback. And not just that. It has a gay character.
And it turns rly gay. which mind you, is still in a het smut manwha (that has a “gay” side couple, but still!)
And it destroyed me.
For those who want to read it because I genuinely think the flashback is a decent bit, it’s all the bonus chapters between chapter 77 and 78 I think. There’s a part before that too, but idk where exactly anymore. (It’s on lezhin! or your platform of choosing)
I don’t THINK you’ll need any other knowledge to get the flashback bit? but it’s been a while.
Below the cut (rip mobile users), you can read all of my amazing reactions (all of these were text messages, for context - but I took most of the replies and convos about other things out). Post is also tagged as long post. :))
(i’m serious, this is fucking long)
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Here I am. Liking the gay flashback character. Feck. Main dude is still straight but idk it's cute pff
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This is a mess. The girl white hair likes, likes black hair, maybe, but thinks white hair is attractive
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What just happened is sth I'd like to know too pff He's so cute tho omg. Watch me melt Can we stay in this flashback before everything got perverted af and before white hair gets assaulted all the time I would send an eyebrow emote if I could Context: he's asking he says it again
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Ik it's not mutual but loookkk he's so sweet. He's kinda rude in present time, can't we stay in this flashback forever
I never asked for gay, never expected gay but I got gay
This story is trash why am I still reading it shdhhd
He caught his mom cheating. And now she's forcing him to watch??? What is thissss Well adoptive mom But still sudhdidu what Bitch how dare YOU exist
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Save my babyyyy
Yay sister that's not yet a rapist to the rescueee
This flashback is actually just nicer in every way let's just stay here This is a super long flashback btw Idek anymore what triggered it
Okay I think I'm gonna make the sensible decision and let this dumpster fire rest and just go sleep
It was very wild. I kinda wanna see white hair get therapy but it has 90 chapters and I'm at like 30... So I'm very concerned this is gonna be very dragged out. Idek if it's even finished ahahsududi - but I do kinda wanna see where it goes and see more cute Noah (white hair) so. Here we are.
yeahhh like i was down for the sexual abuse angst but then the mother killed the adoptive son's mother bc the dad had a thing for her?? and it was someone a person studying with white hair knew and so he's investigating and I'm like how did this turn into a crime organisation kind of plot
hhhhhhh i... i appreciate these horny things also tackling abuse but it always kind of gives me weird vibes to have both, especially when its very horny. And when people are horny to people who've been abused. Idk but I'd assume... you might try NOT to tie them up if they're frequently bondaged during their assaults. I'm just.... disjdksdj hello?? am i weird?? why are they fine with it???
also this manwha is so wild, theres this murder mystery investigation thing and then theres just a couple doing honry stuff sprinkled in between and i'm like OKAY
they rescued a guy in their basement and he's understandably very traumatized and they're trying to question him cut to our main couple trying bondage which i still dont understand bECAUSE HE'S A RAPE VICITM WHY ARE YOU OKAY WITH THIS the ones questioning arent the main couple of course but idshkjds
like im glad he's somehow okay with all this horny stuff despite his trauma and im glad he can be happy and have a nice relationship but DO WE NEED THIS MUCH OF IT he's very cute tho
i like that even when i try other stuff lezhin recommends me it still has large amount of gay in it
[mei: i mean... that's pretty great, if you ask me]
I mean I agree, I'm enjoying the gay eheheh these tonal whiplashes there's not even that much white space between the panels fhjd nvm it just turned horny goddamn it can there be 1 chapter without fucking? okay, there were the flashbacks
WE ARE BACK IN FLASHBACKS but im not getting the gay relationship, sad
OH WAIT AM I GETTING GAY COMFORT bc thats very good too
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OH NNOOO this turned sad very quickly
I'M SORRY IM SPAMMING BUT THIS IS JUST ANGSTY
I'M :((((
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different species confirmed
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I rly like them :((( I like the current girl too but it's just..... very horny with her. the flashbacks are nice [current tori edit: she’s very unloyal idk why i said I liked her] im weird HHHHH RIPPP 
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someone help him he looks so saddddd
not sure if thats the most healthy relationship but I'LL TAKE IT
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AWWW black hair's mom cooks mild food for them bc Noah can't eat spicy food :((( im soft
PFFF
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I LOVE THE FLASHBACKS :(((
awww
i feel like theyve done much more bonding than noah's current relationship. I mean yes I think its cute when she comforts him, too, but they rarely do anything besides be horny together
OH OH THEY'RE KISSING
best buildup, honestly
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the position is hornier than I'd like later here goes hope it stays cute
D-did someone just respect the word "stop"??? I am amazed
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i think you might uh. have some trauma stuff too so yknow
Dohye is a little dramatic in his reassurance but it's all rly cute so I'm :(( I like them a lot pls stay like this getting invested in flashbacks is always like: ik it wont stay but pls stay like this
hELP
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chapters ending in "i wanna touch him" is never good. I'm scared. Oh okay he didnt do anything. PHEW. He's already better than the girl, can't they just end up together lmao
[Noah was jealous]
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w-why do you look so evil dohye haukdhjs
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oh. oh no. the horny is starting. pls dont... just be cute forever
DOHYE NO YOU WERE SO DECENT WHY ARE YOU LYING ABOUT KOREAN TRADITIONS TO GET HIM TO DO STUFF HORNY STUFF TOO NO PLS STOP I JUST- WHEEE TvT the manwha is actually less visually horny in the flashbacks but im not sure if its bc its BL which isnt rly the genre of the manwha or if its bc they're still kids basically, which... I'd respect the latter, tho I'd prefer it to be like this constantly haha
okay. he's not respecting stop anymore, but it's also more of embarrassed nature more than "no i dont want this stop" so maybe i can forgive it. Still losing points, but he hugged him and it was sweet so HHHHHHHHHHH NOT SURE HOW I SHOULD JUDGE THIS SITUATION
They [Noah’s family] forbid him to visit his friends house I AM DEVASTATED
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understandable they're a rapist, a fucked up murderer mother and a father with a thing for younger women so
tho he dont know any of that but yknow he's so pretty just fucking end me on the spot
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hooo
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they are boyfriends and ik from the future that his sister is gonna ruin it allll she has those drugs that make visual imaginations feel like they rly happened to the person (dont know if thats real but holy fuck its terrifying) and she's used it before to say that Noah assualted her. and im pretty sure shes gonna use it again bc there was a panel of Noah remembering Dohye being uhhhh intimate with her and thats why Noah began to hate him and im so sad im not ready for it. bc he's denied it in the future and i honestly couldnt see it happening even before that or she drugged Dohye, i guess thats a possibility too
[current tori: oh girl, it’s neither and it’s wack]
which if, btich you gonna die even more enough rambling, more reading. this makes me so sad but also spicy
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on the manwha note, he thinks Noah doesnt like his family bc he's adopted and doesnt feel comfy which....... fair enough i suppose. and he's so cute im gonna melt just looK AT THIS 
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SHUt UP, IM GONNA CRY
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OH MY GODDDD he ate like ice and gum and all that, and Dohye assumed it was bc of the more spicy food and got rl worried, but he was just trying to get the smell out of his breath bc he wanted to kiss him ukhsdjs HOW CAN YOU BE SO CUTE HELLLOOOOOOOOO
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look at them. LOOK AT mY BABIESSSS
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how am i ever gonna care about the main couple again aww he-he wanted to go to the same highschool as him :((( im sad bc i know its not gonna happennnnnn
[mei: also at this point, you're literally never gonna care about them. i don't even know the main couple that well and i honestly don't care about them whatsoever.]
WAIT NO they're actually going to the same school awww ik it wont take long until sister fucks it up for them but for now theyre so sweet ohmygodddd
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cant he move in with them, fuck his family honestly
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dohye he's not a fucking pokemon iukhsdjs
oh. its. turning horny i am displeased with this development but i guess its natural for their relationship however COULD YOU DO IT AT HOME AND NOT IN SOME DUSTY SMALL ROOM how do ppl do this i like that the comments too are just "... is anyone still carng about the other girl?" sakjds
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this is the best 3 panels in existence.
h-he just took your hand dohye idk what to tell you
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[mei: "you blush at everything i do" god if that isn't me, idk what is]
awww its cute dohye is getting bonus points bc he invited Noah over while his mom wasnt home, they watched some sexual stuff and he DIDNT try to do anything what is this where can i get more of this
"well im not okay"
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MY BABIESSSS 
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they still didnt do much btw they're just kinda exploring and its honestly nice TvT I dont want this to ever endddd
[Dohye sees Noah’s sister and approaches her] N O
N OOOO
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this is the starttttt of something.......... TERRIBLEEEE 
:((( babyyyy
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I AM EMO
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Noah was drugged im sure. hes having dreams and waking up in pain and the sister is asking doyhe over I DONT LIKE THISSSSSSS OH HE DECLINED
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OKAY OKAY he saw him with her again but it was from behind and im not sure if it rly happened??? oh no this is terrible. Noah :((( poor child
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i am so emo about this
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[reminder he’s been abused TvT]
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[the sister: “Don’t you want to know why?”]
i will. murder someone he called to ask her to delete his number btw what is this manwha but this is just gonna make it that more tragic when whatever happens that breaks them apart :(((
he's such a good bf but Noah just wont TELL him his side I'M SO SAD
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I AM SO SAD
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No
NO
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It cant end im actually tearing up nooo you were so cuteeee and happpyyy
[*sister is telling dohye to come to the gym hall*]
what else is she gonna do she already teared [current tori: ahem... T O R E] them apart THAT'S NOT DOYhE. THATS NEVER HIM. OH MY GOD. is it a look alike??? damn, she's dedicated to just. ruining it, huh
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I’M
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I’M SO SAD
now he's switching SCHOOLS NO NOOOOO how will i ever find happiness againnnn NO they're misunderstanding further they're not talking properly i mean i get it but oh my god
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I'M :((( 
NO NOOOO pls make up in the future at least omg he tried to clear it up tooo ahhh i dont even have hopes for them getting back together but i just i want them to clear it up im crying first manwha to make me cry and it's this dumpster fire ahaha maybe a little too bc it kinda hit a little close to home i guess but goddamnn ittttt they were so cuteee and so happy and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
OH NO. Noahs getting drugged and assaulted. And he's realizing it happened before, he just forgot. I am. so sad it's not horny drawn either which i appreciate but MY HEART NO
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N O DONT YOU DARE MAKE THIS WORSE
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Im. gonna cry more 
Doyhe kept an eye on him im so emo :(( but he thought he was doing well enough and gave up.... Im im so sad no i want you to make up and get back together its all just a stupid........... MEHHHH will i ever find sth like this flashback again
[mei: p-probably not, no]
i am so devasted i dont even wanna go back to the main couple just fucking. i want this relationship back :(((( but i guess the investigation might end up somewhere so hhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhh the baker manwha had a similar flashback feeling so. i just gotta find more of that haha
BUT THIS WAS SO SAD??? im so emo
[Dohye got kidnapped // the flashback commentary stops here but I think my descend into madness is pretty funny too]
OH YEAH THAT HAPPENED. THE FLASHBACK WAS SO LONG I FORGOT. NOOOO SAVE HIM. JESUS CHRIST PLS JUST ONE GOOD THING
its. actually rly smart to have another, more focused on them flashback, before the arc where he gets kidnapped by the rapist murder household so. good job. from a meta perspective but also NO but also. maybe theres hope for them making up at least after all :(((
[main couple kissing] this is. very weird now. but im glad he has someone, he deserves it but dohyeeeee
and switching to sex, YET AGAIN now i wanna see this EVEN LESS THAN I DID BEFOREEEE it's even.... a threesome now with one of the other characters why are you like this why can't you be. like in the flashback i am so upset HAHHHHH WHEEEZEEEE
I am just stop fucking jesus christ PLEASE I DONT WANNA SEE IT ANYMOREEEEE
im just stop the horny pls just tell me who that new guy is and why doyhe likes him so much
[mei: this manwha is a fucking mess but at least we got your lovely commentary out of it]
dhsuksj thanks i feel honored at least i got cute BL out of it before everything went [back] to shit
[mei: THAT TOO]
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tbh im getting kinda mad about doyhe... i dont... feel like he'd just fall instantly for a guy who looks like Noah... but eh not my character
i just want closure for dohye at this point, fuck everything else ... not literally pls theres already too much of that
pls get it together for like 1 chapter is the investigation even still happening i am so confused save dohye plEASE wait what i have less than 10 episodes left Dont tell me this shit isnt even wrapped up yet
[Dohye is having a breakdown over the Noah double not coming to see him anymore]
yeah i this... doesnt feel like Dohye... at all... Even when Noah was rejecting him he was just kind of... taking it with some humor and maybe he was a little desperate and risky sometimes but... oh well... i do want him to get better but... im having a hard time believeing this development??? he never seemed overly anxious or anything. but who knows what else they did to him. Sister can still go fuck off tho
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i mean. i liked the flashbacks a lot honestly??? it stayed simple and focused on the dynamics and less trying to balance smut with murder plots
[dm partner: NO THAT'S WHAT I MEAN LIKE CLEARLY THE AUTHOR CAN MAKE A GOOD STORY SO I'M JUST... CONFUSED AS TO WHY THEY DIDN'T STICK WITH SOME SOFT, FLUFFY BL ROMANCE MANWHA AND DECIDED TO MAKE WHATEVER THIS IS INSTEAD ]
okay i dont care bc dohye is currently getting assaulted nobody asked for this why i just. this is terrible. he was... so sweet. he doesnt deserve this. nobody does of course but jesus christ pls someone save him at least its not horny visually, one saving grace
ah... the assult is back to being depicted horny-ly thank you for nothing
[... removed some general confusion about the plot]
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YES. SOME SHIP FOOD.
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i am. suffering i mean i cant stop but GOD
okay so apparantly. the sister. has just an arsenal of people who look like other people Dohye, then Noah... and even Noah's GF??? this is ridiculous??
one good message 
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why 
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did you feel the need to add that [actual tired rage]
im gonna die this manwha is gonna kill me im laughing but im suffering oh hes arrested great and thats the end and the last update was in january of this year
why AS IN NOAH IS ARRESTED nobody who actually did anything is arrested What is this why is this AHHH I at least wanted the complete-ness of finishing this but now I'M JUST SUFFERING
[ mei: I MEAN TO BE FAIR I'D BE SUFFERING TOO BC JUST... WHAT THE FUCK I HAVE?? MANY QUESTIONS?? AND MANY CONCERNS BC THIS MANWHA IS JUST... AN EXPERIENCE ]
its an experience allright WELL
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yup that’s it.
in my head, in a twist of events Dohye and Noah make up and are actual endgame. Something like that must exist out there but I won’t ask because it’d destroy the surprise and ruin the point.
That’s it.
Have a nice day.
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aalissy · 4 years
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Sacrifices
Day 15 is done wheee!! I hope you like it! It starts off angsty but has a happy ending, so don’t worry <3. Lemme know if you liked it :D :D
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It hurt. It hurt every time Adrien smiled and said she was just a friend. Hurt whenever his eyes would take on that glazy look as he gazed off into the distance and talked about the woman he loved. But Marinette hid it. Hid the twinge of pain with a bright smile and warm hugs. Buried her feelings deep within her chest in order to become one of his best friends. Sacrificing her feelings for him. And it was worth it. So, so worth it. 
She even got better at it. Was able to completely hide the winces or the flinches after a couple months of him gushing about seeing her again. After about a year, Marinette hardly ever even fantasized about them being together. She still had her moments, sure. Moments when they were walking down the Parisian streets, hand-in-hand as they ate the ice cream they had gotten from Andre’s. She’d look down at her ice cream curiously, realizing that it’s still the same from when she was a kid. As though her heart was still singing for them to be together and Andre could sense it. But then she’d glance over at him, see that his ice cream was still the same, shrug and once again brush off the fluttering in her heart.
Of course, Alya never believed her. Rolling her eyes whenever Marinette would tell her that they were just friends. Her frown deepening as though she could see the heartache that her best friend was burying.
“I’m telling you, girl, the way he looks at you is just different. He’s either in love with you and hasn’t realized or thinks that you aren’t into him,” Alya would say, poking her shoulder as her lips pursed.
As per usual, her eyes would be drawn to the boy who still sat in front of her. Her heart begging her to sigh dreamily, ask Alya if she really thought so, and gush about how much she loved Adrien. Instead, she shook her head, her own lips quirking into a small smile, “I’ve told you before, Alya, we’re just friends, and, you know, I’m actually ok with that. At least I get to be his friend without all the crazy gibberish of before.”
Her friend’s eyes would narrow, suspicion clouding her features before she spoke, “If you say so, Marinette. I just don’t want to see you get hurt.”
“I’m fine,” she would say. The practiced words falling from her lips easily, even if she knew they were a lie. Alya would nod, turning back to the teacher in front of them and the conversation would end. 
Still, the words stuck with the designer. Their talk swirling around Marinette’s head as she lied with Adrien on the damp grass in the Place des Vosges. Their hands were intertwined like usual as they stargazed together. Another one of their dates that wasn’t a date. Her sky blue eyes drew over to him, looking at the blonde boy gaze up at the stars with a bright smile on his face. Before she even realized what she was doing, she was speaking, the words falling from her lips before she could scoop them back up and stuff them inside, “I had a huge crush on you back in middle school, you know.”
Adrien choked, his head whipping over to her as his mouth fell open, his eyes as wide as saucers, “Y-you what?!”
There it was. Her out. Her get out of jail free card. Instead of backing out though, Marinette laughed, squeezing his hand, “Yeah, I know. Pretty crazy, huh?” 
Moving her head back over to the stars, she hardly noticed Adrien scrambling to sit up, gaping down at her, “No, no, wait! You can’t just... You had a crush on me?!”
Another giggle escaped her at the face he was making, “You mean you didn’t know? I thought it was pretty obvious.”
“I... you...,” he sputtered, running a hand through his blonde locks almost agitatedly, “Not to me. W-why didn’t you tell me?”
“Because...,” Marinette trailed off at the serious expression on his face, clearing her throat lightly, “Well, I mean, I don’t know. You were always talking about how much you loved Kagami I guess I nev-,”
He cut her off with a shake of his head and a frown, “Kagami, I don’t like her like that. What do you mean?”
Her own brow furrowed in confusion, “What? Well, I guess I just assumed it was her with the amount of times you talked about the girl you liked.”
Adrien’s face turned the color of a tomato, breathing out an exhale, “Ah.”
Sitting up slowly, Marinette raised an eyebrow at the boy in front of her, “I-if it wasn’t Kagami that you... t-then who?”
“It’s kind of embarrassing, actually,” he chuckled, rubbing the back of his neck nervously, “I don’t know, I guess she’s sort of my celebrity crush. You know Ladybug, right?”
Her frown deepened, “Know Ladybug? What do you mean? Do you have a crush on Chat Noir, or something?”
“No, no, no!” Adrien waved his hands almost desperately, “Believe me, I do not have a crush on Chat Noir. I, well, I actually really like his partner.”
Marinette shook her head slowly, something was still not adding up, “Adrien, I-I don’t understand. If you don’t like Chat Noir or Kagami, then who?”
“It’s Ladybug! I have a really big crush on Ladybug,” he blurted out, his cheeks flushing a dark red once again.
Her mouth fell open and her eyes widened larger than they ever had before. Me? He likes me? Marinette thought to herself, All this time I’ve been jealous of myself? All at once, before she could stop herself, laughter came bubbling up from her lungs. She collapsed back onto the damp grass as she let the hysteria take over.
“You see?! This is why I never told anyone!!” Adrien grumbled, running his hands through his hair angrily.
Coughing harshly to stop her fit of giggles, Marinette quickly sat up, grabbing Adrien’s hands and squeezing them tightly, “No! I’m not laughing at that! I promise! I was just... remembering something that just happened.”
“And I’m supposed to believe that?” he arched a brow at her as he spoke rather sarcastically.
“Please,” she tilted her head, giving him a soft smile. The model rolled his eyes before nodding his head. With another wide grin, she wiggled her eyebrows at him, “So, Ladybug was the one who distracted you from me, huh? What was it about her? Was it the confidence or the ability to crush you anywhere, anytime?”
“Marinette!” Adrien spluttered, his face coloring before he ducked his head in her neck, murmuring something she couldn’t hear.
“What was that? I couldn’t hear you,” she grinned down at him.
Pulling his face away from her neck, he murmured rather quietly, “Both. It was both.”
Ignoring the giddiness rushing through her at those words, Marinette nodded her head rather seriously, “Of course it was. Ladybug is amazing, after all.”
Instead of responding to her latest quip, however, Adrien frowned, looking her straight in the eyes, “Why did you never tell me, though?”
“Tell you what?” 
“Tell me that you had a crush on me.”
She froze, paling considerably before her eyes darted around the park, “Well, I guess I always feared that you’d reject me, or something.”
“I wouldn’t have, you know,” Adrien lowered his voice to a murmur once again.
“Wouldn’t have what?” Marinette returned her gaze back to his, looking at him curiously.
“Wouldn’t have rejected you, that is,” he stated, searching her eyes for something, even as the tips of his ears turned red.
“Oh,” she squeaked out quietly.
Adrien continued to search her eyes for something before he looked away rather suddenly. Soon after that he was standing up, brushing his pants off as he offered her a hand up, “Come on, we should probably get going.”
“What if I said I still have a crush on you?” Marinette said boldly, even as she was practically shaking on the inside. 
This time it was her turn to search his eyes for an answer. Instead of speaking, however, Adrien quickly moved down, grabbing her neck softly before connecting their lips together. Her eyes widened considerably before fluttering closed, wrapping her arms around his neck as she kissed him back. All too soon, he pulled back, murmuring quietly, “This is alright, right?”
“Yes! Now please kiss me again. You have no idea how long I’ve waited for this,” Marinette pulled him back down to her, deepening their kiss as the feelings she had previously buried finally surged upwards. As her heart stuttered in her chest, she knew she would never give them up again.
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emmyrosee · 5 years
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Sober Up (Fluff)
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Uhhhhhhh I got bored at work and settled into a soft mood. That’s pretty much the only explanation I can give for this. Hope you enjoy regardless!
Warnings: Language, needy Jim, mentions of drugs. 
Jim Mason x Reader; After a seemingly crazy party, or at least crazy enough to interrupt date night, Jim comes back hours later, and you know you have to care for this needy, drugged babe
Pawing at your nightstand to silence the buzzing that interrupts your sleep, you can’t help but feel a pang of anger. You know exactly who this is from, there is not a single doubt in your mind.
Hey, it me. Am ouside. The bright screen shows, solidifying your assumption. The text is from none other than your boyfriend, who left your date night at 8 to go to some bullshit party across town.
And apparently he had fun, considering the bright clock on your phone reads 2:45.
In your heart, you almost expected nothing else from Jim, his desire to be insta-famous and loved by the masses was what originally made you fall for him. But over the course of your relationship, you knew that Jim was a double edge sword- exciting and free came with the usual task of taking care of him.
You swiftly swing your legs out of bed and waddle down to your front door, gently creaking it open. You immediately notice Jim’s slight sway as he stands on your steps dopily.
“What’re you doing here?” You ask in annoyance.
“I’m here to finish what I started,” Jim slurrs, stumbling into your house. “Date nights not over yet.”
You grab his arms to sturdy him, “actually, yes it is.” You hoist him up to stand taller, but the weakness of his body flops against you. “Jesus, what’s the matter with you?” You ask, tapping his face lightly to make him look at you. Sleepy, unfocused eyes look up at you with a smile to match.
“Oh shit,” you whisper, “what the hell did you take?”
“Some wicked shit from the party, that you,” he points an accusatory finger at your chest, “abandoned me at.”
“I abandoned you?” You bite, helping him inside to your room.
“You abandoned me.”
Rolling your eyes, you gently push Jim onto your bed, “we’ll talk about this when you’re fucking sober,” you scold. “For now, just let me take care of you.”
Jim looks at you as seductive as he can muster before grabbing the waistband of your pants and tugging, “let me take care of you.”
Chuckling, you remove his hands, “relax, Romeo, let’s wait until you can walk a straight line first.”
“Nuh-Uh, I’m fine,” Jim assures. “See?” He points his index fingers out before extending his arms, folding his arm in and out as he touches his nose.
“Don’t fight me on this, Jim, I’m far from in the mood,” you warn, bending down to remove his shoes. You capture his swinging feet, and he rolls back on the bed, giggling like a little kid.
“Wheee!”
“Jim, come on,” You groan in annoyance. “I’m fucking tired!”
“‘S nice to meet you tired,” he jokes, eyes struggling to stay open.
It’s almost endearing, how gone he is. But you can’t ignore the fact that this isn’t Jim- you aren’t quite sure what he took to make him like this. It’s a mixture of drugs to be sure, but the natural dulling in his eyes, despite the laughter he’s spilling hides a secret ingredient to the mixture. Sadness? Embarrassment? Guilt?
“I’m going to get you something that’s going to flush this out of your system okay? Get in bed and be quiet,” you command, already guiding his feet over the edge and flat on your mattress. You gently take his shoes off, the giddiness of falling over clearly far from his fuzzy mind.
“Where you goin’?” He asks, reaching out for your wrist. His face is full of worry, cloudy eyes wide at you.
You sigh, “I’m gonna get you some juice, okay? A special juice, you stay right here.” You can’t help but hate the feeling of talking to him like he’s a child, but the absolute lack of attention and focus is all he has.
“I come?” He asks, sheepishly smiling. You shake your head, “no jimmy. You stay here and be a good boy.”
You gently but quickly pull your hand out of his grip, making him whine deep within his chest. “Jimmy! Shush!” You scold. Jim seemingly ignores you, whines and whimpers still prominent and loud.
“Here, take this,” you growl, quickly sliding off your shirt and giving it to him. Jim quickly calms down at that, but his eyes are fixed to your chest, staring at the nipples that begin to perk up at the sudden cold.
You sigh in annoyance as you pick up another shirt, sliding it on as you make your way to the kitchen. You wrack your brain trying to remember the recipe your father taught you after your first hangover.
Kale, spinach, celery, avocado... would it even make a difference? God knows if Jim was drunk or not, only Christ knew what was currently abusing that boy’s body.
Or was he abusing his own body?
Of course he was, this was his choice.
He left you anyways, why are you helping him?
Thoughts like these swam through your tired mind as you struggled to make the mixture, fear of waking your family weighing on your shoulders.
After a long struggle, you finally managed to blend the ingredients together sufficiently enough for Jim to drink with supervision.
“Here, drink,” you command, walking back into your room. Your shirt dangled from Jim’s hands as he clutched the fabric to his nose, huffing it, and you couldn’t even bring yourself to question it.
“What is it?”
“It’s a special juice to help you sober up. Drink.”
Jim gently leans forwards to take the cup from your hands, “can you come to bed with me?”
You groan, “drink first. Then we’ll talk.”
Jim slowly brought the concoction to his lips, and he could barely get a sip back before his face contorted in displeasure.
“What the hell is this?” Jim whined in betrayal. You shushed him gently as you sat on the foot of your bed, “I know it’s gross, but you’ll feel better.” You gently grabbed his hand, “for me? Just drink it?”
Jim eyes you like a frightened puppy before drinking what he can of the drink.
“That’s my good boy,” you praise. “Thank you, Jim.”
He slowly finishes the glass before wiping his lips with the back of his hand. “I wanna go to bed,” he whispers, knuckling his eyes. “I don’t feel good.”
“And you probably won’t for a few days,” you say quietly, petting his hair.
“Can you stay with me?” He asks quietly, leaning forward to lay his forehead against your shoulder.
“Could you stop me if you wanted to?” You ask back, making him chuckle. He was definitely coming down from his high naturally, and once that drink filters through his system, he was definitely going to need you by his side.
“I’m still mad at you for abandoning me tonight,” you whisper to mostly yourself.
“‘M sorry.”
“It’s okay,” you plant a kiss to his head. “You’ll pay for it in due time.”
“How?”
“Dunno. Let’s see how bad this hangover gets. Or how annoyed I am at you later.”
Jim merely chuckles again.
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mittensmorgul · 5 years
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wheee monday! back to the tnt loop! 1.22 gives us a lot...
Bobby, most of all. And the beginning of our Good Practical Demon Knowledge. Not our Christo’s and our Two Part Exorcisms that make the demon wildly more dangerous before sending it to Hell. We learn that demons can keep otherwise dead or dying meatsuits alive, and exorcising them can kill the human trapped inside. We get all of this demonstrated for us via Meg. And we learn a bit more about where Dean’s ultimate moral lines are drawn:
Dean: Sam, there’s an innocent girl trapped somewhere in there. We’ve go to help her. Bobby (comes up to them): You’re gonna kill her. Dean: What? Bobby: You said she fell from a building. That girl’s body is broken. The only thing keeping her alive is that demon inside. You exorcise it – that girl is going to die. Dean: Listen to me, both of you, we are not gonna leave her like that. Bobby: She is a human being. Dean: And we’re gonna put her out of her misery. Sam, finish it.
(which will become interesting again in 4.02... the things they didn’t know at the time literally coming back to haunt them in new and bigger ways because of something new they’re just learning about... which is exactly what makes the spiral narrative spin. The same thing over and over again isn’t interesting, they need to keep leveling up, being forced to build on their knowledge and understanding and applying it to the next degree of cosmic problem, only to learn some more and compound their understanding, only to level up yet again.)
We also learn what’s “normal” for the supernatural world:
Bobby: Normal year, I hear of, say, three demonic possessions. Maybe four, tops. Dean: Yeah? Bobby: This year I hear of 27 so far. You get what I’m saying? More and more demons are walking among us – a lot more. Sam: Do you know why? Bobby: No, but I know it’s something big. The storm’s coming, and you boys, your Daddy – you are smack in the middle of it.
Heck they so did not want this, nor ask for it.
We still don’t really understand Azazel’s motives in possessing/kidnapping John outside of the fact he now needs to reverse his trap, use what he does have, and hope Sam and Dean are just as unable to resist saving John as he was to save them. In the most immediate terms, he just needed the Colt off the playing field. (heh, was he gonna store it in Ramiel’s armory for safekeeping I wonder, or just flat-out destroy it like Dagon did?)
We get our first “whoops they killed a dog, so they’re now irredeemable” when Meg shows up at Bobby’s and kills his dog. (cue 13 years of “Dean is a dog” imagery)
We also get both Meg and Azazel taunting Sam and Dean over the fact that they killed Mary:
Meg: Jeez. You kiss your mother with that mouth? Oh wait, I forgot, you don’t.
and
John/YED: What? You’re the only one that can have a family? You destroyed my children. How would you feel if I killed your family? (he smiles at Dean) Oh, that’s right. I forgot. I did. Still, two wrongs don’t make a right.
And they’re not wrong... for all we learn about Dean’s personal moral code, we also learn his exception:
Dean: Killing that guy, killing Meg. I didn’t hesitate, I didn’t even flinch. For you or Dad, the things I’m willing to do or kill, it’s just, uh .... it scares me sometimes. John: It shouldn’t. You did good. Dean: You’re not mad? John: For what? Dean: Using a bullet. John: Mad? I’m proud of you. You know, Sam and I, we can get pretty obsessed. But you – you watch out for this family. You always have. Dean: Thanks.
When “John” asks for the Colt a moment later, this is where Dean draws another line. He knows it’s not John. In the standoff, “John” and Dean play a weird game of “calling the puppy to them” when Sam questions what’s going on, why Dean has the Colt pointed at “John.”
Tell me this doesn’t sound EXACTLY like 14.20:
Sam: Dean? What the hell’s going on? John: Your brother’s lost his mind. Dean: He’s not Dad. Sam: What? Dean: I think he’s possessed. I think he’s been possessed since we rescued him. (He starts to get upset.) John: Don’t listen to him, Sammy. Sam: Dean, how do you know? Dean (fighting back tears): He’s .... he’s different.
vs
SAM: Our entire lives. Mom, Dad -- everything. This is all you because you wrote it all, right? Because -- Because what? Because we're your favorite show? Because we're part of your story? CHUCK: Okay, Dean, no offense, but your brother is stupid and crazy. And that kid is still dangerous. So pick up the gun. Pick it up... pull the trigger... and I'll bring her back. Your mom. DEAN: No. (Dean takes a few steps back to stand side by side with Sam)
“Your brother’s lost his mind” about Dean, vs “your brother is stupid and crazy” about Sam. Both times, Dean holding Magical Kill Everything Guns and pointing them at yellow-eyed monsters. Dean facing killing his father in 1.22, and someone he considers a son in 14.20. And he couldn’t do it either time, not to get revenge, not to kill the current concept of “Ultimate Evil and Danger” to the world. And yet another parallel between John and Chuck, even if this was actually Azazel speaking here he was using John’s face to do it. This is the archetype of “toxic fatherhood” in the narrative from the jump.
Dean does get one good comeback in:
John: You know, you fight and you fight for this family, but the truth is they don’t need you. Not like you need them. Sam – he’s clearly John’s favorite. Even when they fight, it’s more concern than he’s ever shown you. Dean: I bet you’re real proud of your kids, too, huh? Oh wait, I forgot. I wasted ‘em.
And then after this bit of mental torture, because this is psychological torture for Dean here, the physical torture kicks in. The wounds look shockingly similar, in retrospect, to the ones the hellhound leaves on Dean in 3.16, claw marks down his chest. And both times, Dean is unwilling to kill the person he loves to stop the larger evil thing.
This is also our very first instance of what we’ve come to refer to as a “crypt scene.” Breaking through demonic possession or other mind control to reach a loved one. For a complete rundown, including a description of this scene in that context, please have the very long and complicated history here (excellent reading, btw. Click through the read more for the entire original post and then the s12+ additions in this reblog):
https://elizabethrobertajones.tumblr.com/post/167800948433/elizabethrobertajones-so-basically-you-cant
Just another thread of the big narrative spiral getting broken in 14.20.
And not related to anything I’ve said above, but because heh I find this amusing  as heck, just as a weird... production wtf. At the scene outside the Sunrise apartments, there’s two men (one man in the crowd of bystanders and one of the firemen he approaches) who it looks like they were scripted to be possessed by demons in this scene. Both men open their mouths and gasp at the supposed moment of possession. But we don’t see any smoke crawling down their throats. I figure it’s because it was the VFX crew who realized it was implausible for random smoke to be floating around outside a supposed scene of a fire in broad daylight, without drawing any sort of attention from anyone in the crowd. So instead of these demons simply “activating” and coming to the surface of the people they’ve already been possessing, we get this weird “invisible possession” gasp. Because of who I am as a person, my brain has decided these two people were already possessed, but the demons inside them were lying dormant until they were called up for service, like a couple of understudies being told they’re finally getting to take the stage. And they’re both inordinately delighted by this, to the point they do the lil “gasp of excited glee:”
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ME?! YOU WANT  LIL OL’ ME TO HELP?! *omg okay this is actually happening, we are really doing this, i’m readY I’M READY I’M READY!*
alrighty then, moving on to season two now :’)
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windforge · 6 years
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Special Edition Lair Review: Trachynhawb
@pudgykookaburra thank you for waiting on me
it is time to scream now
so i had to stop myself at 15 bc that’ll make it a really long post although rest assured i love the rest of them too. if you want me to do more i can tack on a bonus Shame Vortex review although i don’t know if i can bring myself to throw shade at your aesthetic bc it’s flawless
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BEACH BOY!!!!! god i love that accent series, and he wears that apparel so well. I even like his pink and purble, and you know that’s high praise from me. maybe i’m extra high on beach aesthetic bc i just got back from my honeymoon but tbh id love him all year round
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LIONFISH GIRL LIONFISH GIRL! SHE SHARP! I love all her lil jewels tho, they pop so nicely. and mmm cantaloupe pintrail is amazing. one of my fave spassow accents in action
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i want to eat him up but tbh he’d probably eat me first?? but seriously idk which i love more his art or his dragon form they’re both amazing, such tastey mesoamerican goodness
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i love his lore!!!! what a good archaeology boy and i also am an absolute sucker for the bird items in weird places aka on snoots
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jadklga;kfgah;krh;gajng;jfdgn GREAT ACCENT, FLAWLESS COLORS, PERFECT CHOICE OF APPARELS AND FRIENDS, ABSOLUTE 100000/10
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wow what a gross eel boy i love eel boys so much!!! and i love what the headdress does to his big ol spooky mouth too!! and tarnish!!! mmmm. also i love this accent bc i just imagine a regular chunky bog flopping around with no back legs like the unholy lovechild of a seal and a monitor lizard and i just cackle inside
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ok but?? this guy??? makes firefly so valid???? and his accent ties the GG apparel with the autumn stuff together so well it aint even funny 
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I have to be proud of my daughter just bc 1) i love what u did to her genes and 2) i love her everything else too and 3) i love her name thank u for the theming <3 she looks like she’d cut you not with her claws but her flawless looks
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THIS IS JUST HILARIOUS AND BEAUTIFUL GOD BLESS AUTOPILOT YOU BEAUTIFUL MOTHERFUCKER. AND THANK YOU FOR MAKING HIM A COWBOYSAURUS REX THAT MAKES ME EVEN HAPPIER
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I know i’ve gushed about her before but she’s just 1000000% windforge aesthetic approved. like....celebration sage apparel? check. fire? check. turquoise? check. big teefs? huge check. scales??? additional check. bonus round: runes? YELL HEAH
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Another kid i know i’ve yelled about already but he’s Too Good this is Not Allowed i want to order things from your clan just so he can deliver them to me and i can see his beautiful fluffy goldslab raptor face
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this skincent is??? SO COOL!!! i bet he’d rock sanddune rags. 10/10 would probably trust in a forest
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AHSDGAURHGAKJDGHAKJDFGHALDURGHAKJDRGHAKRJGAK
i know you paid me far too much money to get keysmashes but I DIDN’T THINK ANY COPIES OF THIS ACCENT WERE ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!! and it’s on a HECKIN COOL DRAGON
real talk tho if u ever go crazy and want to sell that u come to me friendo. i have the other color version already so. wheee.
what an excellent succulent pupper and i’m happy to end the review with him
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calpicowater · 6 years
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Day 103/365: April 13th 2018 | Last Day of ... Undergrad ???
To be honest, I am always paranoid about announcing stuff like this just in case my academic advisor and I fucked up on calculating my degree requirements lmao...... Even though I got 2 official degree assessments (during 2016 and 2017) as well as an informal degree assessment at the beginning of this term. I double checked, triple checked, quadruple checked. I checked for courses and credits until I went crazy LLOLLLL. In other words, I did ****everything**** that I possibly could. If things go wrong, that really would be the worst luck ever and even Bad Luck Lily does not seem to have the ability to fuck That up. Because I know that my GPA standing will be enough to graduate for sure. I’ll be fine.... so... calm tf down @/me. ;_;
ANYWAY. About today! Today was ridiculously busy and eventful. Felt super long. I woke up at the ungodly hour of 9am and got ready. Before going to class, I went to SUB with Charmy to get free pancakes and sausages (+ orange juice 🍊)! One of the UASU volunteers asked me about compliments because they saw my shirt and I felt so recognized LMFAO. Anyway, a bunch of people were waiting on sausages and each person could take 2. But when it came to my turn, there were THREE left in the bin and there was another person reaching for sausages at the same time as me and the just TOOK the extra piece without negotiating with me!!! OR EVEN TRYING TO LET ME HAVE IT!!!!!! BUT!!! I waited for a bit longer for more sausages and even though I ended up freezing for 5 more minutes outside, I ended up getting 3 sausages in total so who’s the winner now!!!!!!!!!!! >: ( 
Ate the free breakfast, went to the final earth science lecture (zzz) and went to quad for PositiviDay! I basically just made balloons with Vivian + Kevin for 1.5 hours LMAO. I have never made so many balloons in my life!!! Overwhelming but fun lololol. After making balloons, I ate Pearl’s leftover Donair poutine with Erica HAHAHA. After that, I went to the BeaverTails food truck and used the 5 free tickets that I was given *_* and got the cinnamon/sugar/lemon flavour. Nom nom. Spent the rest of the time sitting at the treats table with Cindy. Wheee. 
Went to my brain chem lecture aka my final lecture of undergrad........... WOAH... The lecture deadass ended within 30 minutes LMFAO. Went back to quad for club group pic and then went home and rested (cooked + ate noodles, proofread my research proposal + submitted it) before going to Kung Fu Tea with Erica and Jerry at 9pm lolololol. We went for their Buy 1 Get 1 Free event and tbh it wasn’t super worth it because they seem to be really cheap..... deadass filled mine + Erica’s cups with 50% ice like what the fuck........ this is especially wtf because we both asked for no ice smh fhkjsdgks anyway after being at KF tea for 30 minutes, we went to Coco because Jerry wanted more bubble tea??????? LOOOOO>LLLLFJSKF wild kids right here!!!! But today was a good way to celebrate the end of classes (5ever). I had fun ^_^ ~
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haro-hawayu · 7 years
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Code Blue Season 3: Episode 01
Major spoilers, or not depending on how accurately I understood/interpreted the events.
Thoughts while watching—any translations will be paraphrased of course due to my limited Japanese :3 super duper long cuz I’m pretty much commentating as I watch!
THIS MUSIC!
この背中!!!
このナレーション!!!
この声!!
As always, they’re focusing on themes with the narrations, so in this case: Tanabata 七夕 = tanzaku = hopes and dreams and whatnot~how children would just innocently, purely, and very すなおに, write their wishes. But of course, as adults, it’s not so much. 
Nooo Mitsui-sensei’s quitting T_T why
New Fellows = hot messes, each and every one of them. 
Fellow #1 (Haitani): The frazzled one/nervous wreck with glasses
Fellow #2 (Yokomine): The upbeat female one who doesn’t realize how serious the situation is 
Fellow #3 (Natori): The not-very-motivated-looking one who also doesn’t realize how serious the situation is
WHY AREN’T YOU YELLING AT HIM FOR BEING ON HIS PHONE? 
What’s up with that strange face/smile there Fujikawa??? Hitting on another nurse already?
Soo… Shiraishi-sensei just got promoted 2 hours prior? やる~
LOL chickening out as usual. Hang in there Fujikawa-sensei~ビシッと言てね~
Aizawa-sensei~~~♥
LOL Saijo-sensei, you know him so well. Only finds the more complicated/difficult stuff interesting
And they’re chatting about Lifesaving Team :) wonder if this happens often
So I guess Hiyama left at some point but is returning? 
It was already weird enough that the 4 Fellows back then would gather in one place and receive the patients together with some of the seniors, but now there’s like a total 3 Fellows hanging around with 3 senior doctors… still too many in one place… don’t you guys have other things to do? 0_0
Hiyama-sensei~~~XD uwahhh what happened?? ひどいな~
What’s Code Blue without shirtless Aizawa? LOL
It’s been 7 years since he’s been in Neuro?? Is that what I’m hearing?? 0__0
AHHHH the dreaded plot point for Aizawa this season—the Toronto U residency… don’t go!
Saejima is strict as usual, but Fellow#2 totally didn’t read it XD
Aiyayaa, these three Fellows… ><
THERE’S A NEW CS lady!!
Ahahaha, call Neurosurgery ♥
Aw shucks, they lost 2/3… =/
Tachibana-sensei’s looking super stressed here. Yikes. 
「戻って来ないか、藍沢」!
SHUT DOWN T_T
This nostalgic OP ♥ isn’t Aizawa wearing that new uniform in the silhouette though? So he will return to LS eventually!
Oh heyyy, bigger office/hangout room. Nice. It’s brighter too :)
Mmmm not too crazy about this rivalry between these Neurosurgeons.
Didn’t notice this until I replayed this again, but looks like Hiyama’s looking for a place, lolll Fujikawa totally sucks at following-up for Shiraishi, haha.
Ahahaha, Hiyama’s the best to have around! She brings life and energy to this group in their conversations.
Gotta love Aizawa & Shiraishi’s elevator encounters ♥ giving me life since Season 1!
LOL poor Shiraishi~~~that hurts.
Oh man: If I leave this place, there won’t be any doctors–Hiyama’s words truly burn like scathing water. 
Wheee~another Aizawa-sensei Neurosurgery-call
Even Aizawa’s extremely displeased by how things are looking in LS–if looks could kill.
Heheheheh♥ 見えるか?見える–do you see it? I see it ♥ 
What’s going on between Tachibana & Mitsui-sensei nowadays??
Wow, the patients will die before those fellows grow, Aizawa-sensei’s comments burn too. It’s gonna be a contest between Aizawa, Hiyama and Saejima to see which Fellow cries from whose words.
「戻ってこれない?」♥
Aizawa’s thumb fidgeting… he’s pretty troubled over this too huh, or annoyed, or both :3
SHUT DOWN #2
Hmmmm is something going on between Saejima & Fujikawa? This looks like a reverse situation from the previous seasons.
Ugh, it’s times like these I wish I reviewed my kanji more. Is Mitsui-sensei sick? Or her kid? 0__0
Lol, 7-8 patients only? It’s probably like 2-3x more for sure… throw in some brain clots, pregnancies, broken bones, etc.
They’re really starting this episode with a bang by doing a big accident in just the first episode instead of near the end like the previous seasons (probably here to shock those Fellows to like buck up).
懐かしい indeed!! Love this new heli-music ♥
Definitely more than 7-8 people, lol. And cue the dramatic music.
Fellow #1 kinda freaking out like Shiraishi’s first heli trip.
Again, another mom who’s kid has been separated and in trouble.
Fellow #2 being bossed around by the rescue team.
Ahhhh… やばいな…
Shiraishi’s as cool as a cucumber, like Mitsui-sensei when Hiyama freaked out in front of her XD
The current senior team’s pretty cool, hehe.
Looks like another Neurosurgery call again~~
Pregnant lady trouble!
It’s amazing that these two can just communicate with just a look–さすが!
Aizawa-call time~~「お願い まだ いて」ahahah, where else would he be? XD
Shiraishi’s relieved: “Aizawa-sensei?”♥
「もういい 分かった、現場に向かう。」♥♥♥
Aizawa having to remind Shiraishi of what she needs do, lolol. Always getting those cool lines: 俺もいる♥
Ahhhhhhh it’s their son T_T 
Aizawa~~~you know Shiraishi so well. Then again you guys have known each other for like 9 years already~so longggg~
Those lines again, don’t say things like that Shiraishi~~~T_T it breaks my heart. You can tell that he’s troubled! He’s questioning himself! He’s conflicted! He wants to come back! You guys want him back too!
「だって どこにいたって あなたは 絶対 命から逃げない。」T__T
Oh whee, this is gonna be fun! Shiraishi & Hiyama being roommates! Hehe.
OMGSH Fujikawa & Saejima!!! SINCE WHEN??
AHHHHH!! 妊娠7週!
I hope from the bottom of my heart they don’t do anything crazy for this pair—no cheating, no miscarriage, no abortion, no marriage blues–just a lovey-dovey story for them please. My heart can’t take anything else.
いい話だ!!!Tachibana-sensei delivering some good news!
Aizawa-sensei~~~~!!!! おかえり♥ The blue always looks better on you!
Hehe, ending the episode with another elevator scene ♥ love it!
Lol, I’m pretty sure he’s explaining that he wants to make himself look better via LS work, since they get more cool cases and whatnot and he can show how he can be an amazing Neurosurgeon in these crazy situations—and by that, hopefully still make it to the Toronto U residency :3 yeah okay, we’ll see about that.
「それに、救命には お前がいる。」!!!
That curve-ball line that threw me off! OMGSH WHAT???
I’M JUST AS PUZZLED AS SHIRAISHI!!!
「お前は面白い。」What’s this supposed to mean??????
Okay, longest longest post ever. I probably won’t do this play-by-play commentary every week—just wanted to do this for this first episode cuz my thoughts were seriously all over the place.
Anyways, to add some more thoughts. The promotions really threw me off because they totally fooled me into thinking that Aizawa would be in Neuro for at least half, if not, nearly the entire season, but just always be at the beck & call of Shiraishi the Lifesaving Unit so that we see more of his awesomeness when working with his former fellows. Totally surprised to see Aizawa back within the first episode, and they even changed the character charts and main poster/banner—lol, sneaky sneaky. But I’m so happy~
Another HUUUUGE thing is just the conversation between Aizawa and Shiraishi at the end. Since I was at work, I wasn’t able to diligently follow the news, so from the random clips that I saw on Twitter (Shiraishi getting caught by elevator, and then the ending scene between Shiraishi and Aizawa) gave me the impression that Shiraishi completely day-dreamed or imagined that conversation happening, hence the scene of her getting caught by the elevator. Cuz c’mon, why would Aizawa say something like “Because you’re also here [in Lifesaving]”–when he was explaining why he returned to LS?? Doesn’t that just totally sound like Aizawa’s way of saying “I’m interested in you?” (doesn’t help that in the end he even said “You’re interesting” to her). Of course, after seeing the episode and how the scenes transpired, I’m totally floored. As always, there’s still a huge possibility that there won’t be romance at all, and whatever it is that Aizawa had said (it’s still very misleading, I tell you!) can definitely have a non-romantic meaning behind it, but it’s a total tease for us watchers nonetheless. I’ll just have to keep in the back of my mind that CB hasn’t really focused on romance all these years (well, we do have Fujikawa x Saejima now), although they do throw random stuff here and there, for Aizawa and Shiraishi, but also be just a tad optimistic because this is a Getsu9 show. I’ll just enjoy it, come what may.
EDIT: I’m wondering, if Aizawa is saying that Shiraishi is interesting in the same way he views difficult medical cases interesting. Perhaps it’s just that she’s puzzling to him. So despite having known her for 9 years already, and knowing some of her tendencies as a doctor/person, there are still aspects of her being that still surprise/puzzle him or he finds challenging... lol, I was trying to make sense of his words in a non-romantic note, but somehow it still turned out with a hint of it. Oh well! Aizawa’s expressions are much softer now, yay :)
Wheee, I’m so excited for this season ♥
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lucygloom753-blog · 7 years
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Everything Ponyboy Curtis says in the book.
“No.”
“I’m okay. Quit shaking me, Darry,  I’m okay.”
“I’m okay.”
“I did?”
“I am?”
“Yeah.”
“I know. I’m just a little spooked, that’s all.”
“You’re crazy, Soda, out of your mind.”
“Didya catch ‘em?”
“I’m okay.”
“Really?”
“I was comin’ home from the movies. I didn’t think...”
“Me and Johnny’ll come. Okay, Darry?”
“A little.”
“Sure.”
“Soda?”
“How come you dropped out?”
“You’re not dumb.”
“Okay.”
“Tuff enough. Wait till I get out, though, so you can keep Darry off my back.”
“No.”
“Ponyboy Curtis.”
“My dad was an original person. I’ve got a brother named Sodapop, and it says so on his birth certificate.”
“I know. You’re a cheerleader. We go to the same school.”
“I’m not. I got put up a year in grade school.”
“I’m a grease, same as Dally. He’s my buddy.”
“Yeah.”
“Yeah. Dad made him quit after he tore a ligament, though. We still hang around rodeos a lot. I’ve seen you two barrel race. You’re good.”
“He’s a dropout.”
“Okay. Might as well.”
“Fourteen.”
“Sure. We’re young and innocent.”
“He’d leave you alone if he knew you.”
“Glory, Two-Bit scare us to death!”
“He went hunting some action—booze or dames or a fight. I hope he don’t get jailed again. He just got out.”
“Not that I know of. I think he’s got a piece of pipe, but he busted his blade this morning.”
“Sure. Y’all want some?”
“He ain’t dangerous like Dallas if that’s what you mean. He’s okay.”
“It was the Socs.”
“Sure.”
“I believe you. We’d better get back out there with the popcorn or Two-Bit’ll think I ran off with his money.”
“That’s why we’re separated. It’s not money, it’s feeling—you don’t feel anything and we feel too violently.”
“He got sold. They came and got him one day and took him off. He was a real valuable horse. Pure quarter.”
“Yeah. Why?”
“He’s...He’s not like Sodapop at all and he sure ain’t like me. He’s hard as a rock and about as human. He’s got eyes exactly like frozen ice. He thinks I’m a pain in the neck. He likes Soda—everybody likes Soda—but he can’s stand me. I bet he wishes he could stick me in a home somewhere, and he’d do it, too, if Soda’d let him.”
“Well, I don’t. An’ you can shut your trap, Johnny Cade, ‘cause we all know you ain’t wanted at home, either. And you can’t blame them.”
“I’m sorry.”
“It ain’t fair! It ain’t fair that we have all the rough breaks!”
“I couldn’t use this. I couldn’t ever cut anyone...”
“I know.”
“It’s okay. We aren’t in the same class. Just don’t forget that some of us watch the sunset too.”
“What was that?”
“Not right now.”
‘Maybe I would have. Where you headed?”
“I reckon.”
“Big-time Socs, all right.”
“Don’t. You can’t kill yourself, Johnny.”
“Out of the big towns. In the country...”
“Glory, what time is it?”
“Okay. If you get cold or something come on over to our house.”
“I...I went to sleep in the lot...”
“I didn’t mean to. I was talking to Johnny and we both dropped of...”
“I said I didn’t mean to...”
“You don’t yell at him!”
“Johnny? Come on, Johnny, we’re running away.”
“Gotta cigarette?”
“Johnny, I’m scared.”
“I don’t very often. It was Darry. He hit me. I don’t know what happened, but I couldn’t take him hollering at me and hitting me too. I don know...sometimes we get along okay, then all of a sudden he blows up on me or else is naggin’ at me all the time. He didn’t use to be like that...we used to get along okay...before Mom and Dad died. Now he just can’t stand me.”
“Shoot. You got the whole gang. Dally didn’t slug you tonight ‘cause you’re the pet. I mean, golly, Johnny, you’ve got the whole gang.”
“Let’s walk to the park and back. Then maybe I’ll be cooled off enough to go home.”
“You ain’t a’woofin’.”
“What do they want? This is our territory. What are Socs doing this far east?”
“Oh, glory. This is all I need to top off a perfect night. Want to run for it?”
“You know what a Soc is? White trash with Mustangs and madras.”
“Johnny, I think I’m gonna be sick.”
“You really killed him, huh, Johnny?”
“Like—like they did before?”
“Johnny! What are we gonna do? They put you in the electric chair for killing people! I’m scared, Johnny. What are we gonna do?”
“Okay. I’m okay now.”
“Where can we find him?”
“Tell him it’s Pony and Johnny. He’ll come.”
“Y-y-yes-s.”
“Then don’t tell him.”
“I’m sorry. Why didn’t you wake me up?”
“Now how do we find Jay Mountain?”
“I don’t look like a farmboy.”
“I guess I look okay now, huh, Johnny?”
“They ain’t green, they’re gray. And I look about as much like Soda as you do. He’s good-looking.”
“Could you tell me where Jay Mountain is?”
“Yessir. We’re playing army and I’m supposed to report to headquarters there.”
“Johnny?”
“Hey, Johnny. Fancy meetin’ you here.”
“Who’s acting? What’d you get?”
“Wheee! A paperback copy of Gone with the Wind! How’d you know I always wanted one?”
“Gee, thanks. Peroxide? A deck of cards...Johnny, you ain’t thinking of...”
“Oh, no! No, Johnny, not my hair!”
“I don’t see why. Dally could just as easily mug somebody with short hair.”
“Okay. Get it over with.”
“Not too short. Johnny, please...”
“It’s lighter than I thought it was. Can I see what I look like now?”
“Johnny, you can’t wash your hair in that freezing water in this weather. You’ll get a cold.”
“I guess so.”
“Shoot nothing. It took me a long time to get that hair just the way I wanted it. And besides, this just isn’t us. It’s like being in a Halloween costume we can’t get out of.”
“I’m still tired.”
“Oh, it ain’t that. I mean, not all of it. I’m just a little spooky. I really don’t know what’s the matter. I’m just mixed up.”
“Remember how he was wisecrackin’ last night? Last night...just last night we were walkin’ Cherry and Marcia over to Two-Bit’s. Just last night we were layin’ in the lot, lookin’ up at the stars and dreaming...”
“Whatta we gonna do?’
“No! I’m fourteen! I’ve been fourteen for a month! And I’m in it as much as you are. I’ll stop crying in a minute...I can’t help it.”
“Johnny? You awake?”
“We ain’t gonna cry no more, are we?”
“That’s what I thought.”
“Dally? Shoot, he ain’t got any more manners than I do. And you saw how he treated those girls the other night. Soda’s more like them Southern boys.”
“Yeah.”
“Uhmmmm.”
“Nothing gold can stay.”
“Nature’s first green is gold, Her hardest hue to hold. Her early leaf’s a flower; But only so an hour. Then leaf subsides to leaf. So Eden sank to grief, So dawn goes down to day. Nothing gold can stay.”
“Robert Frost wrote it. He meant more to it than I’m gettin’, though. I always remembered it because I never quite got what it meant by it.”
“And what happens to be so funny about it?”
“I know. Well, you ain’t like any of the gang. I mean, I couldn’t tell Two-Bit or Steve or even Darry about the sunrise and clouds and stuff. I couldn’t even remember that poem around them. I mean, they just don’t dig. Just you and Sodapop. And maybe Cherry Valance.”
“Shoot. Maybe they are.”
“Hey, Dally!”
“How’s Sodapop? Are the fuzz after us? Is Darry all right? Do the boys know where we are? What...”
“Is it safe to go out?”
“Look who’s talking.”
“A letter? From who?”
“Sodapop? But how did he know...?”
“How come you got hauled in?”
“I know. I look lousy, but don’t rub it in.”
“Dally! You kill people with heaters!”
“Cherry? The Soc?”
“Dad used to take us all huntin’. I’ve been in the country before. How’d you know about the church?”
“Yeah. Darry always got the most ducks, though. Him and Dad. Soda and I goofed around too much, scared most of our game anyway.”
“I guess so.”
“Let’s go see what the deal is.”
“What’s going on?”
“I bet we started it. We must have dropped a lighted cigarette or something.”
“I’ll get them, don’t worry!”
“Is that guy coming?”
“Too scared?”
“In the back, I guess.
“Where...?”
“Where’s Johnny? And Dallas?”
“I didn’t either. Dallas hit me. How come?”
“It was? Golly, I didn’t feel it. It don’t hurt.”
“Are you taking us to the police station?”
“Are Johnny and Dally all right?”
“Johnny has black hair. Dally’s the mean-looking one.”
“No, we’re greasers.”
“Greasers. You know, like hoods, JD’S. Johnny is wanted for murder, and Dallas has a record with the fuzz a mile long.”
“I am not. Take me to town and you’ll find out pretty quick.”
“Yeah. Even on my birth certificate. And don’t bug me about it. Are...are the little kids okay?”
“How come? How come?”
“I am?”
“Darry!”
“Darry, I’m sorry...”
“Take a bath.”
“Hmmmmm.”
“In here! Don’t slam the door.”
“Now look what you did. There went our breakfast. Can’t you two wait till I set the eggs down before you go shovin’ me all over the country?”
“Aw, lay off.”
“How do I like what?”
“You mean...that they’re thinking about putting me and Soda in a boys’ home or something?”
“No.”
“No, they ain’t goin’ to put us in a boys’ home.”
“Darry, did you know about the juvenile court?”
“I had one of those dreams last night. The one I can’t ever remember.”
“No.”
"You going to take Sandy to the party? What’s the deal?”
“How come?”
“Oh.”
“I’ve stayed by my lonesome before. You can’t afford a day off.”
“Nope.”
“Yeah. You carry more than one bundle of roofing at a time today and me and Soda’ll skin you. Understood?”
“Bye.”
“A judo expert?”
“We’re gonna clean up the house. The reporters or police or somebody might come by, and anyway, it’s time for those guys from the state to come by and check up on us.”
“I have. And if you had the sense of a billy goat you’d try to help around your place instead of bumming around.”
“I don’t know. I felt like playing hero.”
“You might not have. You might have done the same thing.”
“’Greaser’ didn’t have anything to do with it. My buddy over there wouldn’t have done it. Maybe you would have done the same thing, maybe a friend of yours wouldn’t have. It’s the individual.”
“Yeah.”
“Running away won’t help.”
“I’d help you if I could.”
“No. You hate the whole world.”
“My name’s Ponyboy. Nice talkin’ to you, Randy.”
“He ain’t a Soc. He’s just a guy. He just wanted to talk.”
“Nope.”
“He wants a copy of Gone with the Wind so I can read it to him. You want to run down to the drugstore and get one?”
“Dally’s gonna be okay. And Darry, and me, we’re okay now.”
“Johnny! Are you okay?”
“You’ll be okay. You gotta be. We couldn’t get along without you.”
“You’ll be okay.”
“You ain’t gonna die. And don’t get juiced up, because the doc won’t let us see you no more if you do.”
“That’s what Johnny said. What’d he want?”
“Me? Why?”
“I’ll bet.”
“I’m all right. Don’t tell Darry, okay? Come on, Two-Bit, be a buddy. I’ll be well by tonight. I’ll take a bunch of aspirins.”
“I’m okay. And if you keep your mouth shut, Darry won’t know a thing.”
“Yeah, but they raised two boys before me. Darry hasn’t.”
“I know.”
“Tonight—I don’t like it one bit.”
“I ain’t chicken, Two-Bit Mathews, and you know it. Ain’t I a Curtis, same as Soda and Darry?”
“I mean, I got an awful feeling something’s gonna happen.”
“Yeah. I know.”
“Not so good. Will you go up to see him?”
“Why not?”
“That’s okay. I wouldn’t want you to see him. You’re a traitor to your own kind and not loyal to us. Do you think your spying for us makes up for the fact that you’re sitting there in a Corvette while my brother drops out of school to get a job? Don’t you ever try to give us handouts and then feel high and might about it.”
“Hey, can you see the sunset real good from the West Side?”
“You can see it from the East Side, too.”
“Soda, when did you start shaving?”
“When did Darry?”
“You’re funny. We ought to send you in to the Reader’s Digest. I hear they pay a lot for funny things.”
“You like fights, don’t you, Soda?”
“How come?”
“How come you like fights, Darry?”
“How come? I’ve always come through before, ain’t I?”
“I’ll be okay. I’ll get hold of a little one, okay?”
“What happened to Tim Shepard?”
“Let me fight, Darry. If it was blades or chains or something it’d be different. Nobody ever gets really hurt in a skin rumble.”
“I’ll be okay. How come you never worry about Sodapop as much? I don’t see you lecturin’ him.”
“And what do you do for fun?”
“Hey, Two-Bit, how come you like to fight?”
“Yeah.”
“I ought to, he’s my brother.”
“Yep. But why him?”
“I thought you were in the hospital.”
“How?”
“Huh? Yeah, I guess so”
“I have been. A rumble. I’m okay.”
“I am?”
“Gosh, mister, I’m sorry.”
“Thanks a lot.”
“Johnny...he’s dead. We told him about beatin’ the Socs and...I don’t know, he just died.”
“Dallas is gone. He ran out like the devil was after him. He’s gonna blow up. He couldn’t take it.”
“I’m okay. I don’t want to sit down.”
“Soda...is somebody sick?”
“Am I sick?”
“Is Darry sorry I’m sick?”
“Hey, Darry. Hey, Darry, wake up.”
“What was the matter with me?”
“Where’d I get a concussion? How long have I been asleep?”
“No. Darry, I’m not ever going to be able to make up the school I’ve missed. And I’ve still got to go to court and talk to the police about Bob’s getting killed. And now...with Dally...Darry, do you think they’ll split us up? Put me in a home or something?”
“I don’t remember.”
“Darry..”
“Where’s Soda?”
“I’m okay. Just a little hungry.”
“Man, I’d like that just fine.”
“Oh, no. Track meet. I guess this just about puts me out of every race. I won’t be back in condition for the meets. And the coach was counting on me.”
“Soda. What all did I say while I was delirious?”
“I don’t like it. I never liked it.”
“I don’t like it. Soda, did I ask for Darry while I was sick?”
“Oh. I thought maybe I didn’t ask for Darry. It was bugging me.”
“You look beat. I bet you ain’t had three hours sleep since Saturday night.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah, I know him.”
“Yeah. Sure, why not?”
“Hi, Randy. Have a seat if you can find one.”
“I’m okay. You can’t really miss my name on any kind of bulletin.”
“Wanna smoke?”
“Yeah. I know. Hey, holler if you see one of my brothers coming. I’ll catch it for smoking in bed.”
“My parents are dead. I live here with just Darry and Soda, my brothers. That’s what’s worrying me. If the judge decides Darry isn’t a good guardian or something, I’m liable to get stuck in a home somewhere. That’s the rotten part of this deal. Darry is a good guardian; he makes me study and knows where I am and who I’m with all the time. I mean, we don’t get along so great sometimes, but he keeps me out of trouble, or did. My father didn’t yell at me as much as he does.”
“I had it. I had the knife. I killed Bob.”
“I killed him. I had a switchblade and I was scared they were going to beat me up.”
“Johnny is not dead. Johnny is not dead.”
“Okay, okay. I ain’t going to sleep smoking, Darry. If you make me stay in bed there ain’t anywhere else I can smoke.”
“Well, golly, I can’t pick it up and Soda doesn’t, so I guess that leaves you.”
“All right, all right. That don’t leave you. Maybe Soda’ll straighten it up a little.”
“Sure. I’ll be more careful.”
“Yessir, I’ll try. What’s the theme supposed to be on?”
“I mean it. I’ve had about all I can take from you guys.”
“I guess so.”
“Picking up the glass.”
“How was work?”
“Something wrong?”
“What’s the sweat about my schoolwork? I’ll have to get a job as soon as I get out of school anyway. Look at Soda. He’s doing okay, and he dropped out You can just lay off!”
“You’d like that, wouldn’t you? You’d like me just to get out. Well, it’s not that easy, is it, Soda?”
“You don’t have to draw me a picture.”
“Maybe he tried.”
“Where did you think you were going?”
“I’m not crying.”
“Okay.”
“Race you.”
“Mr. Syme, this is Ponyboy. That theme—how long can it be?”
“Can it be longer?”
“Thanks.”
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fearofaherobrine · 7 years
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Roleplay Server Log #166
Okay, this one is too important to mince words, if you read the fic this blog is based on- http://archiveofourown.org/works/4193259 Then this is a must read because it gives closure for TLOT and Steve on the seed they fled from, and you get to see Jeb get his for toying with them and their NOTCH also get what he deserves.
[Sam] Looks up eagerly from wiping the bar.
[alexine and Stevenson] -see the skeleton Enderman and steffan and they bot take out a shield and try to protect steffan not understanding he is in no danger-
[Enderbro] Notices them and waves his skinny arms exciedly -STEEEEVE Look! Other Steve!
[Steffan] Turns expecting Father Steve and makes a suprised face.
[Stevenson] there are mobs here are you ok?
[Steffan] Uh... yeah. You're new here aren't you? Bro here is my roommate. And Sam's the bartender.
[Enderbro] Reaches all the way over the bar with his long arms and gets a pair of already bunned hotdogs out before sticking them in the newcomers mouths like cigars - Wheee! Welcome!
[Steffan] Bro....
[Sam] Is making no noise but obviously laughing
[alexine] -drops her shield and is very confused and spits out the hotdog-
[Stevenson] -takes the hotdog out of his mouth- so I am assuming you have a mod to make mobs friendly.
[Enderbro] Awww.... You don't like it? We might have some ketchup...
[alexine] and a food mod
[Steffan] No. Bro is just... Bro. He's always like this. Just a big kid at heart.
[Stevenson] but mobs aren't friendly why is he.
[GK] Pokes his horned head in the door behind them. - Because Sam likes making drinks.
[alexine] -has the most confused face showing-
[Steffan] Shrugs- Bro doesn't care if you look at him either. He thinks the other Enders have zero chill.
[Enderbro] Makes a face. - Endrea's Endermen are way to serious! No fun at all
[Stevenson] why does this server react so weird without mods
[Gk] Because we're from all different seeds? - He pushes a bit more of his head and neck in before transforming into his human shape and pushing past them
[alexine] HOW THE FUCK DID YOU DO THAT!
[Gk] Slaps Steffan a little too hard on the back. - Me and this asshole here. I was cursed to wear his shape instead of my normal form, a punishment dreamed up by my dick of a brother. But this guy - shakes Steffan a bit more- this guy broke my curse. After a thousand fucking years at least. So now I can be myself, but being human shaped is easier for drinking.
[Steffan] Sighs- Thanks Gk...
[Enderbro] OTHER OTHER STEVE SO MANY STEEEVES
[Stevenson] I am so confused
[Steffan] Leans on his elbow - you get used to it. Did Doc let you in or was it Deerheart?
[alexine] the brine.
[Gk] Does a fist bump with Sam and the skeleton serves him a drink with a cherry and a color gradient like a sunrise.
[Steffan] Human form or no?
[alexine] what do you mean by no human form I thought they only where the shape similar to a human
[Steffan] Oh you're in for a suprise then... not sure if I should spoil it....
[Gk] Toasts Sam- The resident Doctor is a bit off hir rocker when it comes to modifying things- Takes a long swig- Thank the gods for it really. But they built themselves a new body from raw bits and they flip to it when things get... hairy.
[Steffan] Or the more unruly brines misbehave...
[Gk] Shut up
[alexine] WHAT KIND OF CRAZY SERVER IS THIS!
[Steffan] Suprisingly, a really safe one. Doc has everyone hooked to respawn with the local difficulty set on easy. And if you do manage to fuck up and die you come back with all your stuff still intact in your inventory.
[Gk] Passed Enderbro a harmonica - Present for you.
[Steffan] Whhhhhhhyyyyyyy?
[Gk] Because I'm still the Griefer King.
[Enderbro] Happy random notes at an annoying pitch-
[Stevenson] me and alexine are the only two who had a respawn on our server
[Steffan] That's kinda selfish isn't it?
[Gk] sarcastic - Woo hardcore johnnies
[Stevenson] the server was to give real humans one chance to live in Minecraft for as long as they can survive but they depending on their world they had when they died they could be in a real hardcore world a peaceful they could even be in creative it was all up to what they had even mods where common place there.
[Steffan] Ah... well, we do have some, like, irl humans here too.
[GK] TLOT's little gay village is full of frigging human kids.
[Steffan] Do you guys want some food or drink? Sam can make pretty much anything.
[alexine] -freaks out slightly and pulls out a bow that looks like it is made of diamonds it's clearly a moded bow-
[Gk] Whoah lady... chill your nips. What's wrong now?
[Steffan] Woooow..... look at those diamonds...
[alexine] the server is crazy your crazy this whole place if crawling with brines and things that shouldn't work -she pulls back the bow and three arrows are on the string-
[Sam] Dives under the counter.
[Steffan] Jumps up on the table and blocks Enderbro who's still playing happily.
[Gk] Barely looks up from his drink. - I can still throw fire in this form. Don't make me burn my favorite bar roasting your ass...
[Stevenson] -rips the bow out of alexine's hands so steffan doesn't get hit-
[Gk] Takes a sip - Thats better. Now sit your asses down and take a few breaths.
[Steffan] Still looks wary.
[alexine] -screeches and tries to get her bow back but is it's being kept out of her grasp-
[Stevenson] all the oddity in this server have made alexine scared she is more likely to attack then she is but when she is scared was more likely to have been during a large battle with hostile mobs from mods-
[Gk] Oh for fuck sake... I can't do this touchy feely shit. - he types into the chat - Hey TLOT! Come to the fucking bar.
[TLOT] Tps to Gk's location and clips into him for a few seconds.
[Gk] Fucker...
[TLOT] What's wrong?
[Gk] Are you blind? She's hysterical. Slap her or something.
[alexine] -reaches into Stevenson's innovatory and pulls out a mod sword which is three times bigger then her-
[TLOT] Is disoriented for a moment but streches out a hand and buries Alexine in invisible Netherweights.
[Gk] That is a big fucking sword....
[alexine] -falls to the ground she is only freaking out more because she doesn't understand why she can't move-
[TLOT] Sees what's wrong. He starts whispering calming thoughts into her mind. - You're safe, relax. I won't hurt you.
[Stevenson] that's my prince sword -take the sword and puts in back in his innovatory-
[Gk] Prince huh? Ya aint compensating for something else are ya?
[alexine] -is still confused but is slowly calming down-
[TLOT] So what did I miss? I saw some new people come in but I had... my hands full...
[Gk] Full? Yeah, each hand full of one of Steve's asscheeks...
[Stevenson] no it's from a mod you get it after beating the king dragon it help tame the prince dragon
[Gk] You killed a dragon....- Lets out a little growl.
[Stevenson] they are a destructive mob from the crazy craft mod you have to summon then to even fight them and the prince dragon is worth getting if you do try and get them but If you summon then let them run free they will destroy everything to bedrock
[TLOT] Puts his free hand on Gk's shoulder- You know it's a common thing for players to do.
[GK] Makes a sour face. - Still... How would you like being brought into existence just to be destroyed?
[Stevenson] I mainly did it because I wanted the prince dragon to take care of unfortunately I lost them when the server started to fall apart.
[Gk] bitterly- Probably just left em behind to die.... fuck...
[Steffan] Whispers - We have baby dragon's here. Don't lay a finger on them if you value your skins.
[alexine] -finally back to her senses- no he nearly got himself killed trying to save them I ended up pulling away from dieing.
[TLOT] Can I let go now? My hand is cramping.
[Stevenson] yep
[TLOT] releases the weight with an airy wave. He gives them a saucy wink simply because he's pleased with himself.
[alexine] -gets up and walks over to sit on the floor by the pool table-
[TLOT] watches her walk by him curiously. - Nice outfit. I'm Herobrine the Lord of Tears. Or TLOT around here. So what do I call you guys?
[alexine] I am alexine and that's Stevenson.
[TLOT] Charmed.
[Gk] Grumbles-
[Stevenson] -to gk- you act like I didn't care for the prince dragon when in reality I spoiled them an made sure no harm ever came to them unlike the players who would use the prince dragon for a weapon.
[Gk] Even a spoiled pet is still a pet.
[TLOT] Sighs- You know they're not all as intelligent as you are Gk.
[Gk] bitterly - Everyone seems stupid when you can't speak their language.
[Stevenson] I treated them more like my child because the prince dragon is a toddler I wanted to raise them like a father prince dragons are smart by mod but only to some point they are one hundred percent smarter then the king and queen dragon
[Gk] But it's gone now anyway huh? fuck it... Hardly anybody here has a home they could go back too. Brines can't go home again...
[TLOT] Don't be so sour Gk.
[Gk] Bite me.
[alexine] he is going to complain how he failed as a father to the prince dragon and couldn't protect them for a very long time most likely for years
[TLOT] Don't have any experience parenting myself, just babysitting for friends; but I've seen how attached people can get.
[Stevenson] things from crazy craft where hard to get and a prince dragon was harder people who had that mod didn't live very long because of dangerous of a mod it was
[TLOT] Oh trust me, I've been in some precarious situations. This seed is practically a retirement village for me. I finally have a safe place to lay my head, and I don't have to worry about my Steve or Alexsezia, or my villagers being threatened or killed.
[Stevenson] it was more like as soon as they died that part of the world would be replaced with normal Minecraft because as people spawned what they explored from their server they still had when they died got put down and when they died in the server it stopped being their world
[Steffan] That sounds really chaotic.
[Enderbro] Leans over the booth backwards to look at Alexine - Hello pretty lady.
[alexine] - is refusing to look at enderbro-
[Enderbro] Waves and wiggles his arms- Laaaady
[stevenson] it could be there where a lot of different mods that could make it more more or less chaotic but there also was times where people just had worlds without mods
[alexine] yes?
[Steffan] I've been in the multiverse. I prefer private servers.
[Enderbro] Hi.
[alexine] hello.
[Enderbro] Pulls out some small flowers and holds them out to her. The air is suddenly full of heady scents.
[Stevenson] the part me and alexine lived in was originally modless till we started to take parts from mods and it became a mix of mods
[alexine] uh... thanks -takes the flowers-
[TLOT] ah, we've done a lot of adding things, but it's mostly been bringing bits in from other games.
[Stevenson] but not mods.
[TLOT] No, we've visited modded or reskined seeds and filched a few blocks and items, but never altered this one. Doc doesn't even like to update the snapshot. They're afraid of destabilizing or glitching the server.
[alexine] -puts the flowers away to stop the smell- that sounds dangerous
[TLOT] The visiting or the updating?
[alexine] the possibility for the server destabilizing
[TLOT] You can get chunk errors when you update, it's really obnoxious to come home and find part of your house has reverted to natural seed conditions. One time it snowed us all in for a day or two.
[alexine] yep sounds dangerous
[TLOT] It's okay, it's rare, and we have two aces in the hole if things go wrong. One is a spirit of magick and the other is the embodiment of the server itself.
[Stevenson] so the server is safe because of these things
[TLOT] chuckles - The server is safe because Doc is paranoid. The server is well maintained because they have excellent help doing so. Besides, some brines like to scrap and we don't want them accidently glitching things.
[Stevenson] -notices he is low on hunger- actually I think I will take you up on that offer of food
[Sam] Sidles up with a big smile.
[TLOT] Ask them for something, Sam is a great cook.
[Stevenson] I don't know what I want.
[Sam] Taps hir chin for a moment with one bony finger and slips back into the kitchen.
[TLOT] Just give em a minute.
[Gk] Is peeking around the corner to spy on Sam and gets hit in the face with a dishcloth- HEY!
[Stevenson] -give gk an odd look-
[Sam] Comes out with a tray the size of a block containing a huge ring sandwich that's a medly of colorful veggies and meat slices. They pull a big pitcher of tea and some glasses out of their inventory to go with it, as well as a bowl of thick yellow paste.
[TLOT] Sniffs the bowl -So you did like my suggestion.
[Sam] Pffft.
[Stevenson] that looks good.
[Steffan] Looks like plenty for everybody. Nice work Sam.
[TLOT] Gets a chunk of sandwich and some tea for Alexine since she's sitting on the floor- here you go, sorry for squishing you earlier
[Gk] spins his stool just long enough to grab a piece as well.
[alexine] thank you and it's ok -takes the food from tlot and starts eating-
[TLOT] Coyly puts some of the paste on his sandwich and makes happy noises as he eats.
[Stevenson] -takes a chunk and some tea and starts eating- this is very good
[TLOT] Types in the chat - Steve? Are you still watching Yaunfen?
[Steve] Chat back- No, Doc retrived them.
[TLOT] Gonna tp you, you're missing good food
[Steve] Appears next to TLOT with a slight buzz of clipping. And a sandwich is put in his hand as he reorients himself. - Thank you love.
[alexine] how many steves are there?
[Steve] People come and go, but the regulars are me, Steffan here and little Stevie.
[Stevenson] stevie?
[TLOT] He's the little brother of our creepypasta Herobrine.
[Stevenson] it sounds like they are a lot of brines here. -finishes his piece and goes for another-
[Deer] Is keeping her distance and making sure the bar doesn't explode-
[TLOT] And dragons, and children, and little colony of peaceful NOTCHs.
[alexine] I hope the children are safe
[TLOT] Oh yes, the Testificates take very good care of them. Poor things.
-There's a bit of fumbling with the doorknob before Stevie manages to push it open-
[Enderbro] TEENY STEVE.
[Stevenson] -jumps a little before looking at stevie-
[TLOT] Stevie? Please tell me you aren't hiding from Notch, you know what happened last time.
[Stevie] - Uh-uh, I'm wanna surprise father!
[TLOT] Well that's sweet.
[Steve] Hey Stevie! Meet our newest Steve. - Gestures. -And a new Alex too!
[Stevie] - Hi!  I'm Stevie!
[TLOT] Perfect cinnamon roll....
[Stevenson] hello i'm Stevenson it's a pleasure to meet you stevie.
[Stevie] - I'm getting food for father
[alexine] i'm alexine nice to meet you.
[Sam] Leans over with a grin to see what Stevie wants.
[Stevie] - Um, uh, I want...  Um...- He did not think this through
[Sam] pokes him lightly on the nose spot and flounces away.
[TLOT] Random is always suprising....
[Sam] Brings back a huge bowl of spagetti and pushes it at Stevie so it vanishes into his inventory.
[TLOT] Pasta... Sam... - trying not to laugh-
[Steve] Sits down next to Alexine - Cute kid huh?
[alexine] yea he is
[Stevie] - Thank you!  I'm gonna go give it to father!  And miss Lie!  Because she's talking with him right now
[TLOT] Okay, you be careful Stevie. Go straight home.
[Stevie] - I will...  What's a birthday?
[Steffan] The anniversary of the day you were spawned.
[Stevie] - Oh, okay because they're talking about going someplace for one...  Bye!- He heads out the door
[TLOT] Maybe it's Markus's birthday?
[Doc] Arrives at Lies house and knocks lightly on her door
[Lie] Is a bit surprised and goes over to open the door- Oh!  Doc!  Hello, what brings you by?
[Doc] Something scientific actually... I need a horse, maybe more then one
[Lie] - Why?
[Doc] Splender's dragon hatched...
[Lie] - Awww!  He had the rainbow egg, right?
[Doc] yessssss, it is cute. There's just one problem, it's deadly venomous and bitey as hell. I need to learn how to make antivenom with a quickness
[Lie] - Do you want me to try and make a flower?
[Doc] I guess? I think it will need to be quick acting though, this is way beyond lethal. Maybe something with fruit that can be squeezed out on a bite or drunk?
[Notch] is thinking quietly and pipes up, - uh Doc, do you have the seed number for where TLOT and Steve came from?
[Doc] Sure, but it would be dangerous as hell to go there
[Lie] Has been thinking herself- Turning venom into anti venom would be the difficult part...
[Doc] well... It's a digital dragon so presumably the venom works like a virus. It gets past the firewall of your player skin and starts making fatal system errors. But that means it's actually a series of commands, so - hir voice is increasing in speed - if I can map out the command list like a DNA strand I can reverse it and have you make the resulting code into something that can be planted and ingested!
[Lie] - Oh!  Okay, and how are you planning on doing that?
[Doc] is rather excited now- same way I do everything Pinky! I need a command block, the analysis might take a few hours at least but it should work. Mind if I just set it up here?
[Lie] - Oh, uh, sure...  Go right ahead...
[Stevie] Runs in- Father!  Father!
[Doc] thanks! - Drops a command block and starts fiddling with it- [Notch] Hey Stevie, why so excited?
[Stevie] - I...  I went aaaaaall the way to the bar by myself!  And, and, I got us food!
[CP] Sneaks in via the window arches on the bridge having followed Stevie to make sure no mobs still left about got to him-
[Notch] How did you do that?! I thought Cp was watching you.
[Stevie] - I snuck away!
[CP] Comes into the room shaking his head a little-
[Notch] I swear I can feel some of this black hair going gray...
[Doc] Really?! Where?
[Notch] it's just an expression...
[CP] Suddenly snatches Stevie up who shrieks in laughter- There you are!
[Notch] I'm finding it very hard to believe Stevie could sneak away from you Cp.
[CP] Scowls at Notch-
[Lie] Giggles a little before mentally speaking to Notch- I can guarantee he didn't, CP didn't have that bit of blood on his pants earlier.  He was following his brother, making sure he stayed safe
[Notch] Tries to acknowledge Lie without letting on too much
[Doc] Getting rusty huh?
[CP] Flips Doc off-
[Doc] So why do you want the server number? I supect that seed may be attached to Jeb's actual computer.
[Notch] Considering how obsessed he was with it that doesn't suprise me at all. He acts like his favorite fish jumped out of the tank.
[Stevie] Pulls out the spaghetti- Look what I got brother!
[CP] - I see...
[Notch] That looks tasty.
[Stevie] - I got it for us to eat
[Lie] - Doc, didn't TLOT bring a priestess of Jeb's or something like that?
[Doc] Oh yeah, that's Beanz. I think she didn't want to come so much as she was there when shit went down and it was 'take her with the others or leave her to die a thousand chunks from her home'.
[Lie] - I see...  Notch, think it would be worth it to talk to her?
[Notch] I'm not sure I should talk to her at all. I promised to stay out of the villagers sight so they don't freak out, remember?
[Lie] - Oh, right...
[CP] - What are you two talking about anyways?
[Doc] I can do it. I know where she lives. Oh, the seed TLOT and Steve came from.
[Notch] We think it belongs to Jeb, like, it's on his personal PC.
[CP] - And this is important why?
[Notch] Because it's Jeb's birthday and we're discussing ways to let him know that the brine he helped didn't die. As a present of sorts. He's getting suspicious because he thinks I'm avoiding him. I can tell him whoever goes is a hacker friend of mine or something.
[Lie] - Who would go anyways?  I mean, that's a decision that we have to think about really carefully...
{CP] - I'll go if I'm allowed to kill his avatar after delivering the news
[Doc] Well at least I would spawn in already in creative since that was my last mode there. I cut into the server codes shortly after arriving the first time. And his avatar wouldn't be there anyway. From what TLOT has told me he always speaks through the Testificate priests and preistesses of his temple, probably to maintain an air of mystery and keep them on their toes.
[CP] - Well then count me out
[Doc] We probably won't have much time before their NOTCH realizes we're there. You're free to fight him if you want.
[Lie] - But wouldn't the NOTCH there recognize you Doc?  Wouldn't it make it harder for you to deliver the message?
[Doc] Yes, most likely, but if I'm transformed it might take longer to be noticed. And I'm not who I was when I was there. I wasn't even a brine back then.
[Lie] - I don't think that's a good idea, your other form would probably terrify everyone there and quickly draw attention...  We need to send somebody who can defend themselves but at the same time not seem like a threat at all...
[Doc] But you won't have a fast travel method or access to the admin codes without me. Besides, I can change right before we hit the city.
[Lie] - I don't know...  I don't like the idea of a group going...  One person is far less noticeable...
[Doc] You need me Lie. And if we're attacked, which I think is likely, you'll be glad of my aid.
[Lie] - What!?  I never said anything about going!
[Doc] Fine. - a bit sullen- I'll go alone then. I can travel underground without a rider anyway.
[CP] - Oh fuck no!  She is not going there!
[Notch] You probably shouldn't go alone....
[CP] - Anyone who went anyways would need to hide their features...
[Doc] When you log on it shows up in the chat. What good is a disguise?
[CP] - To hide the eyes dumbass
[Doc] I can put on contacts, remember? Mine aren't that bright.
[Lie] - But who would be best to go with you?
[CP] - Not you
[Doc] Loud thoughts - Cp would be best, if not Lie...
[CP] - Nope, not happening, neither one of us....
[Lie] - Why me Doc?
[Doc] You have formidible powers Lie. Don't sell yourself short like that.
[Lie] - Ah, but if it comes down to a fight I'm not that good
[CP] Growls- She's not going...
[Doc] Spread hir arms helplessly. - I can't take TLOT, all hell will break loose instantly, even if I could convince him.
[Lie] Bites her lip- Fine, I'll go, but there's something I'd like you to make first Doc, let me go get something
[CP] - What!?  No!
[Doc] Anything Lie. - Watches her with naked curiousity.
[Lie] Is gone for a few moments before returning with the cloak TLOT made for CP- Can you make me a copy of this but with a hood?  It will help to hide my hair and eyes.  Plus in a way I'll then have CP's protection with me...
[Notch] Awwwwww.
[CP] - Lie...
[Doc] I would love to, Lie. - clicks on it and starts pulling and shaping a hood onto the copy.
[CP] Pulls Lie aside- Don't do this...  Please, you don't know what the aggressive NOTCH's are capable of...
[Doc] Then come with us.
[Lie] - I'll have Doc with me, I should be fine...
[CP] Growls- I'd rather she not go at all!
[Doc] You know I can move like greased lightning Cp, I'm not going to fight if I don't have to.
[CP] Grumbles and turns his attention completely on Lie- If your going through with this asinine plan then don't hesitate to call for me, I'll rip open a way and bring you back...  Okay?
[Lie] Leans up onto her toes and kisses CP- Understood
[Notch] Please be careful. Both of you.
[Lie] Takes the finished cloak and pulls it on- We'll try to be
[Doc] We should talk to Beanz first though. I don't know if she'd want to go home, but I don't feel right in going without asking her.
[Lie] - Lead the way then
[CP] Hands Stevie off to Notch- I'm going to go talk with Endrea
[Doc] I also don't know where Kore is, she might have coordinates for me.
-The village is filled with kids running around.  Some are helping out in some of the shops while others are daring each other to see who can climb the highest up the vines towards the buildings in the sky-
[Doc] Breathes a happy sigh- So glad to see everyone bustling about and having fun. So much life.
[Lie] - Yeah, it's nice seeing the kids happy and well
[Doc] Is making gracious nods and waves to some of the Testificates. - Beanz lives over there, top floor of the hotel. Though it's more of an apartment complex these days.
[Lie] - You know her better than I, go ahead
[Doc] Has a quick chuckle at the signs inside the door and heads up the steps. The hut tub on the second floor is empty but bubbling and xe raps on the door across from it.
[Beanz] Opens the door a little and gives Doc a wry look- It must be quite an emergency to find you in town Doctor. And with a friend. Another brine?
[Lie] - Hello, I'm Lie
[Beanz] Beanz, high preistess of Jeb. Well, formerly. I'm sure I've been fired or presumed dead since I never returned this - Points to the small white bead on a thread around her neck.
[Lie] - What is it?
[Doc] Does it still work?
[Beanz] Mostly. It's a few pixels from the holy patchbook on my home seed. It used to let Jeb talk through me, but it hasn't worked since coming here. It does give me access to creative most of the time though. It was his way of keeping me safe while I ran his errands.
[Lie] - Interesting
[Beanz] I'm sorry. Come in if you want. - moves back. The room is small but clean and the doors are open to let the sun and breeze in from the outside balcony.
[Lie] Hesitantly steps inside-
[Doc] Leans against her crafting table.
[Beanz] Sorry I only have one chair. Or you can sit on the bed if you want.
[Lie] - I'm fine standing, we actually have some things to ask you
[Beanz] I suspected as much. - Her gaze is abstracted and drawn somewhat to the noise of children playing outside.
[Lie] Gives Doc an unsure look-
[Doc] Beanz... We want to deliver a message to Jeb.
[Beanz] Puts a hand around the bead protectively - I won't give it to you, it's all I have left -
[Lie] - We wouldn't dare ask you to, we were planning on going to your old seed actually...
[Doc] Beanz, if you want to go home, we'll take you with us.
[Beanz] A little too quickly - No! I mean... no... I don't have anything to go back too. As I said I'm sure my name is mud for vanishing with a bit of the book for so long. And I can't leave these people with just that... idiot Zile to provide guidence.
[Lie] - Zile?
[Beanz] He's barely a pup and he acts like he's second in command to Father Steve. He used to be a priest of Notch until he dedicated himself to serving the Lord of Tears. But he mostly just sits around writing trashy gay romance stories.
[Lie] Fights down a small fit of laughter-
[Beanz] I don't know who's more annoying, him or Flicker!
[Doc] Is trying not to laugh now.
[Lie] - Flicker's the one with all the creepers, right?  She seems docile enough...
[Beanz] Gets a blush around her cheeks- she's just, annoying!
[Doc] Riiight. Flicker does keep the village safe though. Her creepers are useful.
[Beanz] Huffs-
[Lie] - Pretty sure my mate alone is the one of the main reasons why there are very few if ever any mobs around my place...
[Doc] laughs- Yeah, they're afraid of being cornered and complained at.
[Beanz] Who is your mate?
[Lie] - The very tall angry brine.  And Doc?  You have no idea...
[Doc] The redhead.
[Beanz] Oh! Yeah. I've seen him. Sometimes on fire?
[Lie] - Usually
[Doc] That wasn't what I came to ask you about though, I need coordinates for Kore. I've never been there and I need to find it. That last place I was was where we escaped from. Can you give me directions?
[Beanz] I think.... I mean, I remember the way I came, sort of. It's a big place, you should be able to hear and smell it before you get in view. - Starts making some notes on a scrap of paper.
[Lie] - We'll also need to be able to know which building is the temple
[Beanz] Snorts - No you don't, it's dead obvious. It's the biggest building in the city. All white quartz, steep staircases and stained glass.
[Lie] - Ah, I see
[Doc] Jeb is one of the go big or go home types...
[Beanz] Here this should help- Passes the paper to Doc who reads it and puts it away.
[Doc] I think that's good enough. Is there anything you'd like, from us?
[Beanz] Can you... take pictures? I would love a shot of the nave in the temple. Just to remember.
[Doc] I'll do that for you.
[Beanz] Thank you
[Lie] Tugs her cloak a bit closer- Are we heading out then Doc?
[Doc] Yes. Let me fire off a note to Deerheart first though- Starts quietly typing in the chat.
[Beanz] Turns to Lie. - They will fear you mis. Watch your step, and don't linger. I've seen what my home's NOTCH is capable of. It was terrifying....
[Lie] - So I've heard.  I'll do my best to remain hidden. It's why I have this cloak as well....  Well, that and to have a bit of my mate with me
[Beanz] Is that... made of hair?
[Lie] - Er...  Well....  Yes...
[Beanz] Touches the hem - Oh it's lovely and soft. Your mate must love you a lot.
[Doc] Smiles sweetly -
[Lie] - More like I stole his copy and had Doc modify this one to have a hood...  He's still not happy about it being made of his hair
[Beanz] Oh dear! I hope you didn't shave him bald!
[Lie] - Oh no, TLOT copied a few pixels of his hair to make this
[Beanz] Chuckles- Our king is a fiesty one. But creative.
[Lie] - That he is
[Doc] Okay, I'm ready. She's not happy but she understands. Thank goodness.
[Lie] - I'm guessing you mean Deer?
[Doc] Well yes. I always try to let her know before I leave and where I'm going.
[Lie] - Alright, let's go then.
[Doc] Thank you for the help Beanz, if there's nothing more, we'll be going.
[Beanz] Good luck.
[Lie] - It was nice getting to know you
[Beanz] Gives her a happy wave- Drop by anytime.
[Lie] Follows Doc out-
[Doc] Braces hirself before making a hole in the firewall and leading Lie out before closing it behind them. They transform quietly and hunker down in the sea of statick and void to offer a seat to their friend.
[Lie] Slips onto Doc and pulls up the hood of the cloak to hide her hair and eyes- We should probably land close to Kore and have you change back, otherwise I don't think we'll be able to get a single word through
[Doc] I can't do it directly, I have to come in where I went out and go from there so I can use the directions Beanz gave me.
[Lie] - I understand that, I just meant when we do reach our destination
[Doc] xe's already seeking out the numbers, retracing the path they ran such a long time ago. -Of course.
[Lie] Is rather nervous about doing this-
[Doc] Finds the seed and takes a deep breath before entering it quietly. The scene before them is desolation. The jungle is a mass of fallen trees and the swamp has much deeper lakes now as the rains have filled the craters that were carved into the biome. Little remains of the house that was on the hill and there's a glow from a ribbon of lava running down into the grass.
Alexsezia's house looks like it exploded and there isn't much left of even the foundations.
[Lie] - All this...  Done by a NOTCH?
[Doc] I don't think this is even the worst of it... He wasn't even a person, just.. it was like being attacked by a hurricane.
[Lie] - I've seen the devastation those can cause on tv...
[Doc] Walks down the little path, thunderstruck by the sheer force of the damage. The dirt pyramid is a just a triangle of one side leaning crazily, and the remains of the Testificate houses are lying in huge pits as if the ground was scooped up under them and thrown back down. Even the low bedrock wall is smashed and grass grows around the scattered blocks.
[Lie] - I'm so glad you got them away from this Doc...
[Doc] It was a near miss. I'm just glad we were able to give them a head start and make sure no one was left behind. - Xe smells something and trots forward at a quicker pace - I smell fire.
[Lie] - Maybe from some lava?
[Doc] Passes around a chunk of wall and stops short. - Well... at least we know they weren't forgotten. - In front of them, at what was once the entrance to the village, is a cleared patch, a simple base of cobblestones set into the dirt and atop it, burning with the Nether's eternal fire, is a small summoner pyramid.
[Lie] Smiles a little- Perhaps there's still a small group passing along TLOT's teachings?
[Doc] There was a little fishing village run by a witch that swore fealty to them a few chunks away. They likely built the shrine in their memory.
[Lie] - Good
[Lie] - Perhaps we should leave them a gift as well to let them know they're not forgotten?
[Doc] What would you suggest? A miracle of some sort?
[Lie] - Well I was thinking just a few of my flowers
[Doc] That would be lovely Lie. - Xe trots up next to the pyramid and stands for Lie to reach down or dismount.
[Lie] Slides off and feels the ground.  The server feels a bit different than what she's used to, but it didn't cause much of a problem as she concentrated.  Blooms sprung gracefully from the ground, lantern flowers, calming flowers, healing flowers, and even a few love blooms, the bright gathering of flora surrounding the summoner-
[Doc] Bows hir head to smell them. - That's lovely Lie. Thank you. I'm just glad they weren't forgotten.
[Lie] - So am I- She climbs back up onto Doc- Should we go?
[Doc] Yes, I'm sure we won't have long before.... one of them notices we're here. Don't say their names, just in case. - Xe mounts the airblocks and takes off at a run over the river valley and up over the thickly wooded hills.
[Lie] Pulls the cloak closer to defend against the wind-
[Doc] Moves faster until the ground is flashing below them, woods and plains and them out over the desert-
[Lie] Clings tightly to Doc's mane just so she wont be blown off-
[Doc] Is scanning the directions in hir inventory and making small corrections. Xe looks back for a second and cannot hide the small shudder of fear that passes through hir. The lengthing shadows of the sand hills seem too dark, as does the sky in the direction they came from.
[Lie] Felt the shudder- Doc?  Is everything okay?
[Doc] I'm going to assume no even though it may just be my paranoia... - Xe goes faster, touching against a mountain before taking a long leap out over the vastness below them.
[Lie] Sits there, hoping Doc is wrong but sensing they may be right-
[Doc] There it is! Beanz was right, there's no mistaking the temple. - They hit the side of a cliff and cling there upright in a shadow. - Hang on to my mane and I'll get us down.
[Lie] - Already am Doc
[Doc] Turns nearly upside down and scuttles down the wall like a gecko before stepping down on the ground.
[Lie] Once safely on the ground she slides off- Do you want to talk to Jeb or should I?
[Doc] We'll both go. I'm not taking my eyes off of you for a second. - Xe pulls out two green pixels and squints a bit as xe puts them over the glow of hir mint colored pupils.
[Lie] - Well I figured that much
[Doc] Heads for the city with a determined stride- Come on, lets hurry.
[Lie] Follows Doc, making sure her glow is hidden by the cloak-
-A few Testificates look up as they pass, unused to seeing visitors. Some quietly run ahead to the temple to let the clergy know they have outsiders in their midst.-
[Lie] Bites her lip a bit nervously, she's holding back her power, knowing that just a little of it could leave a trail of flora behind her-
[Doc] Takes the marble stairs two at a time, thrilling quietly knowing this was the same place hir friends had tread so long ago.
-The high windows catch the sun and bathe them both in dazzling colored light as they pass the front doors and emerge into a white anteroom.-
[Lie] Lifts her head just enough to look at everything around her but not allow the glow from her eyes to be visible-
-A priest moves to bar the way before they can enter the inner sanctum. They're older then the ones that peer at them curiously from farther down the hall, they also look rather nervous. -
[Mason] May I ask why a pair of griefers have entered the temple of Jeb? And what you intend here?
[Lie] - We have come to speak to Jeb, we bear a message for his ears only
[Mason] That will be difficult as our god only speaks through those of us chosen as his mouthpieces.
[Lie] - I think he may be willing to make an exception
[Doc] We're not griefers anyway...
[Mason] Who else would show up uninvited? We have not seen humans here in a very, very long time.
[Lie] - Please, we speak truthfully
[Mason] Hmph. Fine, what does it matter? Liars wil be smote for their hubris anyway. Follow me. - opens the door to the larger chapel
[Lie] Silently follows him into the room-
-Inside the great book is lying at an angle on it's pedestal, and there's a faint sound of scratching as it writes in itself with some unseen instrument. -
[Mason] Makes a gesture and the penitents clear out the other visitors and then leave as well to fetch Jeb's emmisaries.
[Lie] Glances at Doc- Do we wait or...?
[Mason] You will wait here. His chosen ones will pray for his attentions and if you are lucky he may deign to speak to you.
-Several Testificates in white robes of varying sexes and ages file in and kneel in a line in front of the book, chanting softly. -
[Lie] Watches in interest before mentally speaking to Doc- I swear if this is the one time the arrogant asshole decides to ignore them...
[Doc] Makes the tiniest snort and Mason gives hir a mean look in response.
-There's a bit of a crackle like someone plugging in a microphone and one of the Testificates stands up, staring straight at the book. The others take note and file out of the room without a word.
[Mason] Makes a gesture towards the standing one - Say your piece and leave us to ours. - He turns with a flourish and shuts the door behind him. Leaving them alone with the standing Testificate.
[Doc] Careful, these guys remember what was said through them afterwards. If you want Jeb himself we'll have to ask for that first.
[Lie] Steps forwards- Jeb?  We have come to speak with you, and you alone...
[Testificate] Cocks hir head, and their eyes narrow - You.... You stay right the hell here. Don't move an inch.
[Lie] Is confused- Are you referring to me?  Or my companion?
[Testifcate] Both of you, damn it. - There's a bit of consternation on the priests face as the god leaves him and he marches out of the room and shuts the door behind him.
-/ Player _Jeb has logged on /-
[Jeb] His avatar looks like a Greek god crowned with laurel leaves and he advances on them in aggravation. - How did you two get on here? This computer is protected and private dammit!
[Lie] - Er...  Um...
[Jeb] Shakes a finger at Doc - and YOU, didn't you cause enough damage the last time? You took my Herobrine!
[Lie] - That's...  Actually kinda why we're here?
[Jeb] What?! Where is he?
[Doc] They were about to be killed!
[Lie] - First of all, this is Markus' birthday present to you, understood?
[Jeb] Markus? - He falls silent. Then. - Did he have some part in this? Dammit. I told him not to interfere!
[Lie] - He didn't, he was invited to, well, it's really none of your business...  Now do you want your damn present or not!?
[Jeb] Present? What the hell are you talking about?
[Lie] - Knowledge...  About a certain fellow brine
[Jeb] What... what do you know?
[Lie] - He's safe, so is his mate in a server where they are surrounded by friends including the two of us here.  They have all the freedom they could ask for, and none of the fear they had here
[Jeb] Is just standing there dumbfounded.
[Doc] Please tell me you weren't blocking them in here intentionally.
[Jeb] Of course I fucking was! The NOTCH on this seed is insane. I was hoping he and his pet Steve would find a clever way to kill it! The damn thing roams around freely on any seed I load, but it always stays close to my computer. It's a menace!
[Lie] Rolls her eyes- It's not the only NOTCH...  And Steve isn't a pet!
[Jeb] I didn't say it was the only one. I just wanted this one in particular gone! Why do you think the Testificates worship me here? I've helped them rebuild after it wrecked their shit trying to grief me!
[Lie] - Yet you refuse to do anything to help any of us!
[Jeb] Waves his arms at her - What do you want me to do? I don't even know who you two are! Just that this one hacked into my server once before!
[Lie] Lowers her hood, her hair glowing brightly from her anger- I'm bitchy cat
[Jeb] What the fuck...? You're a cat that can use a computer?!
[Doc] Lie, I don't think you should-
[Lie] - No, I'm a brine dumbass!
[Jeb] A brine that can.. be a real cat....? Did you do something to Markus?! WHERE IS HE?!
[Lie] - Safe and happy
[Jeb] That sounds... like you kidnapped him. I know he hasn't been home in weeks.
[Doc] He's just spending a lot of time online....
[Lie] Some of her black thorns are curling around her feet-
[Doc] Lie please... calm down!
[Lie] - I'm trying!
[Doc] Look... the truth is... Markus had a stroke. His features are frozen on half his face and he just doesn't want anyone to see how bad it looks. He's hiding while he looks for someone qualified to repair the worst of it. He's really depressed and staying with us.
[Jeb] That's terrible! But who are you? Really? I mean how many players are there out there who call themselves Herobrine? And a cat on a computer? You're just messing with my head.
[Lie] Is shaking a little in anger and mentally speaks to Doc- For once, I want CP to drag somebody in just so he can beat the crap out of them
[Doc] I'm just a hacker, a friend of Markus's. I found your server on accident the first time, and took pity on your brine. We're just here to tell you they're safe and happy. It's Markus's present to you since he knows you've been worried.
[Jeb] He could have gotten them back...
[Lie] - They wouldn't have wanted to come back and for good reason!
[Jeb] But... what about this damn NOTCH? I really thought he could beat it. Now I don't know what to do.
[Lie] - Well to fucking bad for you
[Jeb] Is fuming- Where. is. Markus.
[Doc] Not telling.
[Lie] - Safe!  Just like TLOT and Steve
[Jeb] You really don't give a shit do you? Neither of you?
[Doc] I kinda do...
[Lie] - We give more of a shit than you do
[Jeb] Gets an evil tone in his voice. - You know that TLOT left a lot of people behind who really believe in him, don't you? Testificates that worship him over me even though he hasn't been seen in decades for them?
[Lie] - Yes, and we left something for them
[Jeb] Help me get rid of this NOTCH or I'll delete this seed. If you try to evacuate them I'll do it immediately. You'll never find them all in time.
[Lie] Stiffens and before Doc can stop her, her thorny vines are around Jeb and lifting him high-  How.  Dare.  You.
[Jeb] Grabbing my avatar won't do anything. I'm not here.
[Lie] - Doc!  Can we please let my mate do his thing?!
[Doc] I'm actually for killing this NOTCH if it's possible. I don't give a shit about what Jeb wants, but I know all the terrible things it did to TLOT and Steve.
[Lie] Groans- But he's such an asshole!
[Jeb] I'll give you the whole damn seed if you get rid of it! I can't even play my own game in peace!
[Lie] - We have our own seed thank you very much!
[Doc] I could maintain it as a sub in the server. Just to keep it safe?
[Lie] - Can we please still let CP do his thing to Jeb though!
[Doc] loud thoughts at Lie- Do what thing? Kill him? Somehow I don't think that will solve anything. We'll lose our insider for what the company is doing.
[Lie] Mentally- No, drag him in and beat the shit out of him
[Doc] Slaps hir forehead- Lie please... Maybe later.
[Lie] - OH COME ON!
[Doc] Stares at her - are you sure whatever Cp has isn't contagious?
[Lie] - Look, it takes a lot to piss me off, you know that, and this guy has done it...  Multiple times...  Besides, if we fight this NOTCH, CP will probably already be here
[Doc] Alright. -Xe pauses- I think... we don't have much time to decide...
[Lie] - Should I call CP?
[Jeb] Fuck! Figure it out! I'm monitoring from the desktop. If one of you needs to go for more help that's fine, but if both of you leave I'm deleting it. -
-/ Player_Jeb logged off /-
[Doc] YES. Fucking hell call him now! And Splender too! - Xe grabs Lie and starts dragging her outside
[Lie] Sends a mental call for her mate and briefly explains the situation.  CP immediately rips open a pathway and drags Splender through with him-
[CP] Gathers Lie to him, not used to seeing her this pissed and works on calming her down-  Hey, it's okay, I'm here- He throws out a spawn egg and out pops the baby wither as well
[Splender] - ooo, what a pretty place!
[Doc] We need to get away from the city at least!
[Lie] At CP- Yeah, but first could you scare the asshole monitoring us right now?
[CP] Grins and kisses Lie's forehead- Absolutely- He vanishes briefly before returning
[Jeb] Nearly falls out of his chair at the sight on his screen - AAAAAA!!
-The screen glitches and CP's maniacal laughter echoes out of the speakers before everything returns to normal like nothing happened-
[Doc] Is pointing to a an area of darkness that's now filling a rather large slice of the horizon. Xe's tugging on the others- Let's do this in the desert at least!
[Splender] - What are we doing?
[Doc] See that? That is a NOTCH. We need to find some way to kill it without wrecking this seed.
[Splender] - But why do we need to kill it?
[Doc] Because if we don't then the admin is going to delete this world and kill every Testificate on it!
[CP] - And that's bad how?  TLOT's village is on our seed
[Doc] But there were more! So many.... he crossed this world... you have no idea how many lives he touched.
[CP] Groans-
[Doc] You do what you like. I'm going to fight. - Xe transforms into hir larger shape and gallops in the direction of the desert with a thunderous roar.
-In the distance the patch of night seems to coallese and there's a wave at gound level as something dark pours out onto the sand. An army of mobs, driven by the fear of what follows them.
[CP] Sighs and throws a small ball of code at the baby wither, it shudders and grows to several times the size of a normal wither, each head turning canine with large fangs and resting at the ends of long snake like necks, it charges forwards as well.  CP then turns towards Splender- Splender, this thing we're fighting?  It's hurt TLOT and Steve many, many times and very badly for no reason.  It wants them both dead, do you think they deserve that?
[Splender] Growls a little- No- There's a growing red light in his eyes as he ducks his head and tilts his top hat so hide his face a little.  CP knows it's a risky move to anger the slender being, but probably worth it
[Doc] Shouts from overhead - The only thing that ever hurt this NOTCH was bad code! Go for the EMP if you can make a controlled burst! Glitch it out!
[Splender] - Gladly- He teleports to the very front and lets off a strong blast, the ground and everything around him glitching
[Doc] Is gathering statick in hir mouth and scattering the mobs with wide sweeps of hir paws and tail.
[NOTCH] Roars in fury and there's a hint of a shape against the skyline
[CP] Motions for Lie to stay back and flies forwards-
[NOTCH] Is hitting and kicking the ground, even to the point of injuring the mobs beneath his feet. Sand is flying everywhere as the storm that swirls around the titanic being reaches the floor of the desert.
[CP] Spawns his weapons and flies with the direction of the wind as it circles the NOTCH-
[Wither] Spews it's attacks in rapid succession-
[NOTCH] Is punching the air, trying to hit the small things that are attacking it.
[Splender] Let's loose with a staticky screech and sends an EMP blast forwards-
[Doc] Fires a giantic ball of statick that hits the being with a geltaninus splat and clings there, burning like acid and making part of the NOTCH visible.
[NOTCH] Reels under the force of the screech and is desperately trying to get the statick off of itself.
[Lie] Is concentrating from a ways back, the sand shifting beneath her as something moves underneath-
[NOTCH] Stumbles a little under the combined pain and some of the mobs flee at a dead run to keep out from under his feet.
[CP] Darts in to slash at tendons which could weaken the NOTCH, keeping himself alit in fire all the while-
[NOTCH] Howls in a voice that is more like the roar of a hurricane. It's bleeding code and trying to hit CP out of the air.
[CP] Teleports to make it harder-
[Doc] Uses the admin commands to drop bolt after bolt of lighting on the NOTCH while they make more statick
[Lie] From beneath the NOTCH erupts a massive offensive plant pod, ripping open and dripping with massive amounts of lust nectar as it bites down on the NOTCH and tries dragging it into the sand some-
[NOTCH] Falls and grabs hold of the rocky cliff to keep from being pulled under, it's eyes are black holes in the vaguely human shape that's outlined against the sand.
[Lie] Wobbles, the plant pod having taken much more energy than she thought and taking a noticeable strain on her energy-
[Doc] Spews more statick right into it's eyes-
[CP] Aims for the throat- HONEDGE!  GET THE SPINE!
[NOTCH] Flails at the plant, trying to rip it off
[Honedge] Unwraps itself from CP and nimbly dances in front of the NOTCH, it's shadow reaching behind him and striking the back of the neck-
-The plant is trying to wrench a piece off-
[Splender] Releases another burst, his hands having elongated into claws as he rushes forwards to dig into the NOTCH, his tendrils having also become deceptively sharp to stab their victim-
[Doc] Grabs one of the flailing hands and savages it with teeth and claws.
[CP] His sword dug deep into the throat, coating him in blood-
[NOTCH] Is sparking and screaming as it's cut and yanked apart. The body itself is flickering wildly.
[Splender] Releases a very strong blast-
[NOTCH] Vanishes out of their grasp, leaving a small prone figure in the sand. The body of the NOTCH is in pieces and the mostly severed head manages a single zombie-like groan.
[CP] Dives down and slices right through the remainder of the neck with his sword and then focus' on stabbing the body over and over again with his pick before setting it alight-
[Doc] Stomps the ground and gives off a roar that shakes the sandhills. The remainder of the mobs flee in terror.
[Lie] Wobbles and falls to her knees, having used too much energy-
[Splender] Is pacing to let off his excess anger-
[Doc] WE WON JEB! THE SEED IS OURS! GIVE US THE CODE!
[CP] - Wait, what?  Were we ordered to do this?
-/ player_Jeb logged on /-
[Jeb] Is practically dancing in place - You fucking did it! That was amazing!
[Doc] Fuck you! I didn't do it for you!
[CP] Lunges at Jeb- YOU FUCKER!
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So, the movie Split. Let’s talk about that. And before I dump my spoiler-laden commentary about it beneath the cut, let me say this: about 60% of the problems I have with this movie were about how the clips they used manipulated the previews into a ‘Villain with DID Kidnaps Some Kids!!! CRAZY STUFF HAPPENS YEEHAW!’
Completely ignoring all my critiques for a second, what Split is actually about, is an allegorical tale on how complicated the nature of trauma is on the human psyche. But, with that, I’m gonna cut the rest.
Fair warning, talk of sexual abuse and violence and mental illness below. 
The trick with the trailer, is that what it shows you are exclusively things that happen within the first 20 minutes of the film. This doesn’t absolve it of any of its actual problematic elements, which trust me, there are still a lot of them. Like... I don’t even know where to start levels of ‘a lot of them.’ But I think if it had been more honest about the content of the film, people would have had a much better idea of what to expect going in. It plays on the stigma to get you in. That’s gross as fuck. But at least it’s not like... two hours of torture porn, either?
Like I said, I wanted to watch it without giving any money, because I’m trained as a historian and it’s like... they really push that whole ‘come to your own conclusions with what the source gives you’ thing. Which, while we’re on that subject?
What this film is actually about, is trauma, triggers, and respect (or that lack thereof.) The writing of the DID is ridiculous and grossly problematic, and I won’t sit and sing praises of M. Night for it. You’re not gonna find that here. There were a lot of things that could have been done differently -- much better -- so that we didn’t have to rely on an already stigmatized population to tell the message the story is getting at. Because while this film exists as an allegory, and a metaphor in and of itself, most people are too oblivious to read between the cracks to see any of that. Just ‘PERSON WITH MULTIPLE PERSONALITIES IS TOTS CRAY AND KIDNAPPING WHEEE!’
So, I’m gonna just lay out what the trailer doesn’t as bluntly as possible. 
The actual breakdown of the character of Kevin is this: beginning in late toddlerhood, Kevin begins to be viciously abused and beaten by his mother. This trauma eventually results in a split, to which Dennis is the first, who studies and learns what behaviours will keep Kevin’s mother at bay and develops characteristics in line with several anxiety disorders. As they grow older, Dennis, despite protecting Kevin from his mother’s abuse, begins to show problematic paraphilias. How the rest of his “alters” come about is not said in film, but what is later implied is that, once Kevin learns what are healthy coping mechanisms are from his therapist (before the professional portion of the relationship goes belly up, but I’ll get to that later), that his “healthier minded” alters do not allow Dennis to front for this reason. Nor do they allow Patricia to either, who is another alter, because of her manipulative and aggressive behaviour.
The alters (which I’m not going to put in quotes beyond the above, because it’s 3am, but assume they are there) you see in the trailers? Those are Dennis, Patricia, and Hedwig (who is apparently nine and easily impressionable.) Who they don’t show, but you see in the film, are a few other alters in diary entries that last about 30 seconds to a minute a piece:
Jade: Shown that this alter has diabetes and has to take insulin. Their journal entry is complaining about how hard it is to obtain insulin, because doctors refuse to take their condition seriously at all. Barry: Enjoys fashion and “has control” of the system. Or used to. Seems to be extroverted and is the one that their therapist seems to have most contact with. Is coded as being a gay, overly feminine guy very overtly, which ughhhhhh. Orwell: You see this alter twice and literally, speaking as an autistic person, if Orwell is not meant to be read as autistic, I will eat my own shoe. Obsessed with history and Islam, from what I gathered.
That said? Here’s some other relevant... idk. Relevant something:
#1) The girls Dennis kidnap, outside of Casey, are the very same girls that ended up triggering Kevin into this downward spiral. Doesn’t make what happens to them okay, and it certainly doesn’t explain the behaviour of a grown ass man, but there you go. They ‘prank’ Kevin, triggering him and forcing him to confront his traumas without prior warning. This fractures the system he has in place and allows for Dennis to take control, and sick of being mistreated, him and Patricia set about unleashing ‘The Beast.’
The Beast, by the way, is literally the personification of the anger and resentment Kevin feels at being abandoned by his father, because I imagine it meant many more years of abuse that could have been perhaps been avoided. He exists not in the ‘room with the chairs’ where all the alters seem to metaphorically sit, but in Kevin’s memories of the train station his father left him at. Basically, I don’t think he’s meant to be an “alter” insomuch as just a feral combination of trauma and rage that wasn’t properly treated or healed because the therapist was too busy preening over her own career.  
( Which, well, I was abandoned with my stepfather by my mother and abused sexually/physically/mentally/etc. repeatedly for years by him -- which lead to partial fragmenting of my personality -- and honestly, I think that’s the hardest part of my trauma/PTSD component to reconcile with? So maybe that’s why I’m reading it that way. )
#2) Casey is a survivor of sexual abuse and the talk of being ‘pure’ and ‘impure’ has less to do with what those words mean and more to do with the fact that The Beast is relating that she understands what trauma is capable of doing to someone. Literally, he spares her because ‘oh, you get it.’ Then he walks away, laughing. Alrighty. If you say so. 
The good thing that comes about from this, is that by tearing her clothes in the climax (which you think is kind of pedo-y fanservice at first)  exposes the scars she has from years of dealing with her own abusive guardian. They are noticed by the medical staff in the ambulance, and through her reluctance to go with her uncle, it is implied that they take her somewhere safe for her to recover. Which may be the only positive of this entire fucking movie, and even then it’s like jesus christ. 
#3) The therapist in this is hella flawed. Like she sits and glorifies her patients as showing us what the mind/body connection is capable of and at first you think maybe there is going to be a decent rebuttal to the fuckery of how it’s portrayed in Kevin at some point. Nope. She projects her own problems and desire to be recognized for greatness onto her patients and Dennis in particular misreads this as cues about the Beast. 
( I actually liked the therapist character for all the wrong reasons because I recently had a fucking psychologist who started projecting her feelings about her daughter onto me as a patient and how confusing and frustrating it was for me to navigate as someone who had been recently diagnosed with PTSD and had literally just survived almost being strangled to death a few months prior. )
So, that said? Is it a good movie? The story is weak and problematic as fuck but also not as literal as the trailer implies but also like worse in other ways? The upsides are that the acting is actually good and so is the cinematography. Literally probably the entire reason I sat through the whole thing and didn’t get bored at the 45 minute marker. That and I literally was confused for two hours by how well James pulls off a South Philadelphian accent (I lived in Camden for awhile, so.)
Basically? I’ve seen worse film-wise, and the acting is definitely like 10 Beefy James McAvoy Arms, but the marketing relied on the whole ‘mentally ill people are always violent’ thing to bait you, but then gives you a bunch of other problematic shit to irritate you with until you, too, develop Beefy James McAvoy arms and an urge to smash shitty portrayal of mental illness in 2017. I would see it to draw your own conclusions, because I’m a big one about doing that sort of thing, but I would further suggest not paying for it if that’s possible. 
Side note: Wasn’t Taylor-Joy in The VVitch? I swore I recognized her terrified face from some other movie I’d seen recently. Idk. Speaking of movies that are basically torture porn. D:
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I wish it was July already. I wanna be in Missouri, Hanging out with Todd & Ashley. That seriously would be amazing. I love those two. I seriously do. Ashley is literally the sister that I've always wanted in my life, no lie foreal. And Jesus lord! Todd is just the most wonderful person ever, he's my best friend and my boyfriend. I literally couldn't ask for anyone better. He's just too fucking perfect. And so is Ashley. Like I relate so well with her, things are so easy with her. She makes me smile and she doesn't even have to try hard. All she needs to say is "Always" and I already know what she's trying to say toward me, and that'll make me smile like fucking crazy. I don't get how I lucked out, like seriously my life was so fucking shit and now it's amazing. Like what did I do right? Did all I really have to do was drop a really negative person out of my life? Like was it really that simple all along?? If so, geez I feel dumb like I should have done this sooner. But I'm glad I did it when I had the chance and I'm glad that I have such amazing people in my life right now. Not just online but in real life too. I've been getting closer with my cousin Anthony. We went out Thursday and had some fun all day long because he had the day off. Now we're going up to grandpa's tomorrow for awhile, then I'm having my friend Amanda come over and possibly spend the night. Saturday Kenneth is gonna come chill with us. Might see if I can go up to Hannah's Sunday and stay with her for awhile. There's been a few other people I've been getting back into touch with from school. Maybe gonna see if they wanna hangout someday soon as well, like this is so fucking crazy. I've never been this happy ever in my life. I almost feel like I don't need my anti-depressants anymore, I feel like I don't even need therapy anymore. Like all I need is some weed and my friends. I'm good to go. I'm better then good. I'm fucking fantastic. Planning on moving out soon, me and Anthony are thinking about moving to Oregon together. Which I'm hella down for, we're saving up the money for it. Todd is planning on moving there also, maybe even Ashley will come stay with us. Literally will be so fucking down with that. Me and Ant might open up our own Vet clinic in Oregon. We're already in school for the program, I'm down. Like so fucking down. Me and him have been planning something like this since we were kids, life is amazing. Seriously I've living fucking proof that even with years of depression life does eventually get better. You guys can do it. I did it. Took me forever to get to wheee I am right now and I'm glad I kept pushing forward and didn't give up when I wanted too. You have so much to live for, set a long term goal and go after it, I believe in you. You can get through this.
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