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abyssofsydney · 5 months

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Almost every night, for probably the last 5 years, I dream about the same things in different forms. I always wake up anxious, usually with the anxiety pouring into the rest my morning & sometimes it casts a dark shadow on my entire day.

Usually it starts with packing. I begin packing things into my house or car; boxes & bags, not entirely sure what the entail, but in the dream it feels like they’re always my most prized possessions. Then I start packing the animals. Sometimes I’m packing both dogs & the cat, others they’re already inside waiting to run out the door each time I open it.

Then the anxiety really sets in.

The things that I’ve packed, that in my dream I’m feeling so much attachment too, keep getting unpacked. Either in the dream individuals will come by and grab things and take them, or boxes will break and fall apart, making me have to repack once again. The animals will get loose too, and then they’re running free in what usually is a town or community area. The anxiety builds as my things are not packing the way they should and the animals are now who knows where and I’m stuck trying to clean it all up as quick as possible because for some reason these dreams make me feel as though I’m racing the clock.

I wake myself up often, moaning & groaning & tossing & turning, but almost always I go right back into the dream, or something that gives me similar feelings as I sleep.

Once the dream merges, it’s usually me or my husband driving, with all the stuff that’s packed, trying to get to some very important destination. For some reason or another, we can never get to where we’re trying to go. We make stops, have detours, our animals escape, things fall out of the car, etc. there’s always something creating tension & that tension I begin to literally feel inside my body while I sleep.

Usually when I dream like this, I wake up early the next morning in pure anxiety. Heart racing, heavy breathing, & I constantly have to tell myself “I am here” (in real life) to even get myself out of bed. I’m scared waking up like this as I don’t want to fall back into a month long panic attack again like a did a few years back.

This morning was the first morning I have woken up in my own bed at home in months, as I travel out of state often for work & currently am staying with my grandfather as it’s closer to my husbands work. My grandmother also recently passed away, so while I’m not working currently, I get to spend my time helping my grandfather around the house and I get some more quality time in with him. With being away from home so often, it makes me crave a peaceful night sleep in my own bed. This morning, I woke up again to the disappointment of torturous dreaming all night long and the feeling of a brick on my chest along with extreme feelings of worry and panic.

I’ve always struggled with nightmares since I was a kid. It used to be scary creatures coming for me, now it’s time counting down & anxiety that fuels these dreams.

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amozon28 · 5 months

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The amount of anxiety this girl gives him. Shes like a cat that keeps trying to eat food shes not allowed

Bonus

She tries again lol

#lol the amount of anxiety this woman gives him by eating dangerous shit for funsies #like it probably wont kill her so its fine lol #girl no #the apothecary diaries #Kusuriya no Hitorigoto #maomao #jinshi #mine

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worthless-misery · 4 months

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Dear diary...

The fact that I'm still "alive" in 2024 just feels like a huge mistake...

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kolomo · 3 months

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the apothecary diaries | kusuriya no hitorigoto ⤷ 01. maomao

#mine #kusuriya no hitorigoto #the apothecary diaries #dailyanime #anisource #animangahive #fyanimegifs #userroh #usermoh #himawaari #usergojoana #userkyaa #useralphonse #userinahochi #userjenny #usermoonz #tuserashes #flash warning #yo i had mad anxiety while making these gifs........totally unrelated to them but oooh BOY

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shisasan · 10 months

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𝙹𝚞𝚗𝚎 𝟸𝟷, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟹 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙵𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚣 𝙺𝚊𝚏𝚔𝚊, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟶-𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟹

[ID: June 21. The anxiety I suffer from all sides. END ID]

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lesbianjudasiscariot · 5 months

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#haha i love feeling so overwhelmed that i end up isolating from everyone but at the same time the anxiety caused by college makes it #like impossible to actually get anything done so i just kinda fail at life and academics :)#i'll be fine come december 8 but until then i am a wreck #diary #♡

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socialanxietygurl · 1 month

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Suicidal thoughts are getting a little too loud lately

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whatsupbeanie · 2 years

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That feeling when you have a perfectly good hang out with a friend and afterwards you question whether they ever want to see you again because you have Anxiety :' D.

#cartoon #comic #webcomic #comics #webcomics #comics on tumblr #relatable #diary comic #social anxiety #anxiety comic

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sowlmates · 1 month

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all systems red has the best first sentence of any book ever because it basically starts like 'well I could commit mass murder but there's so many sitcoms to watch'

#murderbot #the murderbot diaries #very fun first chapter! I'm enjoying it so far #what if a robot had anxiety. what then

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soulmvtes · 3 months

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something that has changed my life is thinking about where feelings exist in my body and noticing this when they arise

#like i often feel anxiety in my chest or stomach and guilt in my throat and happiness in my eyes and cheeks and it changes every now n then #just a way to be more present w myself n my emotions i guess #diary #tiyas thoughts

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ivynightshade · 2 years

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