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babz-madd-diary · 4 years
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babz-madd-diary · 4 years
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MaDD can be so many things but in the end it's just fear of being alone
How funny that it actually makes people even more alone...
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babz-madd-diary · 4 years
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Emotional support animal? Bitch, I have a group of emotional support characters I created in my head.
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babz-madd-diary · 4 years
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My paras are my guardian angels.
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babz-madd-diary · 4 years
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MaDDers are magic
I was thinking... isn’t it amazing that we can create, feel and “live” whatever we want?
I mean, people say “I wish I had a good friend” and we can just create it, “I wish I was in love” and we... we can feel whatever we want. We are magic.
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babz-madd-diary · 4 years
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My parame is friend with all her exes because I just can't stand the idea of losing a para.
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babz-madd-diary · 4 years
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So “normal” people are able to watch a TV show WITHOUT daydreaming about it for days?
And for “days” I mean weeks, months, years... who knows.
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babz-madd-diary · 4 years
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People: whats going on in your mind? Me: 
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babz-madd-diary · 5 years
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me: “I should totally transform my daydream into a book one day”
always me, one minute later: "nope. the plot is too messy and it makes zero sense."
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babz-madd-diary · 4 years
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Sharing a paracosm? Am I the only one?
Tell me if you also experienced something like this: as I was 12 years old me and my best friend were huge fans of a band and we both really liked the singer, so we both used to daydream a lot about him and what it would be like to be their friends... okay, this is quite common I guess, however
we knew about eachother daydreams so we decided to merge them and live the same daydream. 
We talked about the paras as they were real and we agreed the plot together like “today this para will be with me, next week it will come on holidays with you” and when we talked we explained the other what happened in our part of the paracosm so we could link all the pieces. 
It was super cool and at that point I had no idea of what MaDD was. 
Everything ended in a couple months as we were busy with school and activities and out interest in the band vanished. But now that I think about it I realised maybe we were both maladaptive daydreamers that shared a paracosm for a while, isn’t that crazy?
In the following years we never talked about it and I never told her about maladaptive daydreaming... 
do you think I should? 
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babz-madd-diary · 5 years
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Me trying to understand if I spend so much time daydreaming because my life is boring or if my life is boring because I spend so much time daydreaming.
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babz-madd-diary · 4 years
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"Because of maladaptive daydreaming...”
let’s talk about all the things, good or bad, that make us different because of maladaptive daydreaming, I’ll start with something nice:
1) Because of maladaptive daydreaming... I have a huge music knowledge
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babz-madd-diary · 4 years
Conversation
My brain: “how much trauma are do we want in this daydream?”
Me: “yes!”
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babz-madd-diary · 4 years
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Me diving back into my paracosm after a long day of forced socialisation.
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babz-madd-diary · 4 years
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Relapsed
On 14 August 2011, I write about how I failed the attempt to stop daydreaming:
“I’m in it again, completely. I hate not being myself but I love this world (paracosm). Now I realise that I live my life just when it’s better than the dream, just when it’s worth living... I want more! I NEED more, otherwise I risk to die after living someone else’s life.”
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babz-madd-diary · 4 years
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Random person: "if you think about it too much, it will never come true"
Me, with MaDD: 
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