#because barb was into her

[enfinizatics]

okay i’ve got to vent about the nicki minaj situation bc yeah. i used to be a hardcore barb for almost 10 years (2010-2019). and when i say a HARDCORE stan i truly mean it, i had a twitter account dedicated to nicki, she was even following me and often interacted with my tweets when she was online. i was absolutely in love with her and her work. i met my best friend, who’s like family to me, because of her. the pinkprint helped me survive middle school bullying. i followed her through europe when she went on tours. i supported every project, stayed chronically online for her and engaged in petty arguments with people on stan twitter to defend her. i fell out around late 2019 because i felt like most of her lyrics had sounded the same for a while but mostly because she started seeing her current husband, a confirmed rapist. seeing nicki pick up a beef after beef with every young female rapper gives me a huge ick and internalized misogyny vibes. but the beef with megan? it’s been years since i last followed news on nicki, but now i find myself losing my mind every time i see something on here or tiktok. not to mention her twitter omg. it truly feels like i’m witnessing her downfall caused by no one but nicki herself. she’s literally destroying her legacy, a legacy tied to so many memories i made during those 10 years while being her fan, and it just sucksssss. it feels like she no longer has a pr team capable of damage control or persuading her to take a break from social media. she seems to be spiraling with everything she posts. not to mention that ben shapiro tweet, congratulating a white, homophobic supremacist. and the barbz who let her remain in her perfect little bubble, shielding her from any criticism, constructive or otherwise (perhaps out of intimidation – i know, i've been there) and doxing people in the name of what? a millionaire to whom you’re a literal stranger?

#ex barb #no because i’m just so fucking upset #i know what a beef is #its just that #her comebacks used to be so much better: both the old ones like 5 star bitch ir monster but also older ones like no freuds or make love #or plain jane or motorsport #but god #this is a mess #it’s not even a beef anymore it’s a literal rap icon throwing all that legacy through the window #i still like to listen to her sometimes #and acknowledge how she paved the way for female rappers #but i also have common sense and touch grass #nicki minaj #megan thee stallion #hiss #big foot #personal #moira speaks

[carolperkinsexgirlfriend]

Steddie Upside-Down AU Part 96

Part 1 Part 95

Mom makes him go home when he starts dosing on Steve’s hospital bed. But it’s okay because she kisses Steve’s cheek before she leaves, and Eddie and Wayne stay parked by his side. 

The connection’s easier now. It’s like all that time straining for Steve has snapped something into place. He can feel them all the time, a warm buzzing in his chest. He wonders if he runs hot now. If the warmth will diffuse through his whole being, make coats obsolete even in the dead of winter. 

Hopper is waiting for them in the waiting room, El burrowed into his side. She looks wan, and tired, drooping into her extravagant coat, eyeliner running down her cheeks like she’s been crying. Something inside him twists when he looks at her.

Before he can untangle that knot of emotion, Hopper stands up, both hands slapping against his knees first the same way Mike’s dad does before he gets up from his recliner. “You ready to go?” he asks, not looking away from Mom. 

When Will glances up, Mom’s smiling up at Hopper in a way he doesn’t want to think about. The adults talk quietly in front, leaving El to stumble tiredly along beside Will. She’s staring at the side of his face. Will can’t bring himself to look back. 

“Steve,” she says, sounding the word out and making it longer like it still tastes foreign on her tongue. “He is okay?”

When Will gets up the courage to look over, her eyes are big and worried. He smiles at her helplessly. It’s almost funny how innocent she looks; like she’s a bunny dressed up in punk clothes. “He’ll be okay.”

She smiles, small and close lipped, but it still beams out of her like the sun. Will tilts his head to the side and tries to see what Mike sees in her. He wants to hide her in Castle Byers, build a fortress around her, and keep her away from all the lab people for the rest of her life. 

Is that howMike felt, hiding her in his basement, giving her frozen eggos and keeping his mouth shut? 

But then her lips thin and she looks forward again. The feelings vanishes. It’s just El, hia friend, despite how much of Mike’s attention she’d snapped up just by being herself. 

“I’m glad,” she says, looking at Hopper’s broad back as she takes two steps for each one of his. 

It’s quiet after that, the way it always is after; all of them too brittle and bruised and bone-deep tired for conversation.

Hopper’s truck rat-a tat-tats itself to life in the hospital parking lot. The radio croons out something quiet and thrumming until Hopper reaches over to shut it off.

El’s heads smushed into the window, vibrating against the pot-holed roads of Hawkins.

Will’s so tired he’s wide awake. 

He watches the familiar buildings of Hawkins flicker by. It's been a long time since knowing his surroundings brought any comfort. 

Monsters could live behind every door, every tree, every smiling face.

He’s not sure any of them will ever feel safe again. 

Will closes his eyes, locking the scenery out so he can focus on the bundle of warmth in his chest. They’re still huddled together, two sparks merging in his chest. 

The past couple days have been a necessary violation of Eddie’s private feelings. He’d bared them all with love confessions and grasping hands, trying to pull Steve back from the edge of immolation. 

He’s not even sure Steve knows, hopes he does. Steve deserves to hold that love delicately between his palms and choose what to do with it. 

He won’t crush it, even if it’s unreturned. He’ll hold it gently like he always does.

Will doesn’t realize he fell asleep, or that they’d arrived home until he’s in free-fall. It feels like one of those falling dreams where you wake up solidly in the middle of your bed, but this time he really is tumbling, only Jonathan’s arms keeping him from hitting the gravel. 

“Are you okay?” he asks shakily as he pulls Will into his chest, holding him tight enough to hurt. “I’m so sorry.”

“Oh, sweetie,” Mom murmurs, wrapping them both up in her arms, chin landing solidly on Jonathan’s shoulder, sandwiching Will between their bodies. “Everyone’s fine, right Will?”

Will murmurs his affirmation, feeling groggy and confused in the light of day. 

“I was with Nancy,” Jonathan whispers. “I was just with Nancy, and you were–I almost–”

“Shh,” Mom cuts him off, reaching up to cradle his face and smile up at him. Will barely catches the edge of his watering eyes from his restricted vantage point between them. “Everyone’s fine.”

“I should have been he–”

“Jonathan,” Mom interrupts again, sharper this time. “Everyone is fine. You deserve a normal life.”

“But Will–”

“I’m fine!” Will cuts in this time. 

Jonathan pulls back, looking down at him with worried, droopy eyes. “And Steve? Mike said he was possessed.”

Will feels that bundle of warmth in his heart, lets it shine through his smile as he looks up at his brother. “He’ll be okay.” As Jonathan droops with relief, Will feels his smile turn cheeky. “Eddie will never let you forget that you were on a date while we were fighting monsters, though.”

Jonathan closes his eyes, pained while Mom laughs. 

It’s not until they’re walking toward the front door that Will notices the lack of demo-dog bodies. There’s still puddles of black oil-slick blood, but everything else looks normal. Who covered their tracks? The lab? Hopper?

He settles down for the debrief, pillowing his head on Jonathan’s shoulder as Hopper’s even tones flit through his brain. 

Maybe familiar places no longer hold any comfort, but Jonathan’s bony frame is enough to lull him into a peaceful sleep.

Part 97

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#steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #will byers #steddie upsidedown au #my fic #Steve pov: I'm a wretch and a monster and everything is my fault #will pov: steve's so comforting :) #also Jonathan freaking out because he missed everything is something that is so fun to me. He's like. I'm a terrible brother! #Meanwhile Nancy only has low stakes in the whole thing. And she never got involved so by the time she knew to worry about Mike. #She already knew he was fine. so her main reaction is feeling left out. #Nancy is so fun in this AU because her inciting character incident (Barb's death) shapes so much of who she is #that we have like maybe one episode of characterization to work off of wrt what she was like before #anyway I'm sick so we'll see how much writing I can actually get done while feverish!

[reluctantbylerblog]

call me crazy and controversial but I don't think nancy did anything wrong, nor is she fundamentally a bad person for what happened to barb in s1, and I absolutely do not think she needs to be redeemed. the end of her character arc should always be about reaching a point of self-compassion and forgiveness—specifically by healing enough to allow herself to move past her guilt and belief that she caused barbs death by letting herself become close to others and form intimate friendships. especially with robin (who imo she was cagey with in s4 because of her trauma around barb)

#stranger things #nancy wheeler #ronance #kind of #redemption arca are for people who djd something weing and nancy wheeler did nothing wrong #she was a bratty 16 year old who wanted to lose her virginity to a hot guy and ignored her friend for one night #and saying nancy needs to redeem herself from that is fucking crazy to me #barbs death was very much not her fault and the implication that she needs to atone for that is crazy to me #like did we watch the same show? #she has major survivors guilt! and the false belief that she caused barbs death #(I don't even like nancy that much but jesus I dislike interpretations of her character where #she needs to ‘‘choose’’ robin in order to redeem herself for not ‘‘choosing’’ barb #not even romantically because ronance in this particular scenario can be read both ways #what she really needs to do is allow robin to choose her! because she doesn't let people in anymore! because she HAS SURVIVORS GUILT!)

[koppaiterocker]

SOME BARBED WIRE CAUSE @starzwithapen ASKED WHERE MY BARB GIFS ARE. PUTS MY FACE IN NY HANDS THEY'RE HERE

#some are squares because i make them to be my discord pfp #like my profile right now is pfp of “we're all gonna be one nation of trolls.. UNDER ROCK” #and my banner is the one where she runs her finger down the neck #because hello. im very weak fir that scene #its probably a crime i havent made a proper dedicsted barb gifset yet #ill fix it.... #koppaiterocker #dreamworks trolls #trolls #trolls world tour #trolls barb #beeps gifs

[findafight]

The urge to write an S1 au where Steve is pursuing Barb instead of Nancy and Barb is like this fuckin guy but is, admittedly, charmed by his goofiness he only seems to show when they're alone or with just Nancy and/or Tommy/Carol. And she does like him, quite a bit. She plays it coy but Nancy is there giving her side eyes like girrrllll you just made out with school heartthrob, little bit of a slut, Steve Harrington? He's giving you dopey smiles in the hall?? Was that a flirty little finger wave I saw? And Barb is going shut up Nancy it's not like me to go around making out with boys or whatever he's just cute and kind okay he's bitchy too tho it's fun to flirt I guess and Nancy is like you are also bitchy? Seems like a good match to meeee? And Barb is like FINE okay we made out under the bleachers and I touched his butt. It was so much fun.

And the hangout happens etc but Nancy is like okayyy baaaarb I'm gonna ;) head out now ;) you okay here? And Barb is like Nancy for the love of fuck I am going to make out with him and he might even take his shirt off I will call you when I get home but Nancy goes it might be a bit late to call...maybe try in the morning;) and Barb kinda wants to die a little bit because her best friend is sorta living vicariously through her and it's embarrassing to have a crush but also. It's fun and exciting to have a sort of boyfriend who's clearly super into you but also backs off when you tell him to and lets your intense best friend come to what you are realizing may have been a casual double date, so she waves to Nancy and heads upstairs.

They sleep together and it's nice and she even got him to help her take her bra off while she felt him up under his shirt and she's pretty proud of how smooth she was. But she does have to go home, so she nudges him awake and he kisses her again and she tells him she's heading home but is also stealing his sweatshirt. He gives her a lazy smile and asks if he's picking her up for school tomorrow and she's like nu uh I'll see you AT school bucko. And he gives her a little pout but says goodnight and she starts walking the few blocks to her car.

She never makes it.

The next day at school Nancy is like Steve. Where is Barb. And he's like Nancy. Where is Barb. And both go ???? WHERE IS BARB!!

Cue them both kinda freaking out, and then finding out Jonathan took pictures of the backyard and had at some point looped around and taken a picture of Barb fiddling with her Keys with Something in the background. Steve still smashed his camera because what the fuck Jonathan, the picture he took was like. Ten seconds before her bra came off? But now they're all stuck together because they've gotta find Barb and Will.

Idk what else I just think Steve/Barb is an under used ship but it's cute.

#stranger things #steve harrington #nancy wheeler #barbara holland #barb holland #steve x barb #stranger things au #starbara #that can be the ship name #coin toss to whether barb lives im leaning to her living because she wasnt trapped in the pool so she'd be able to run away #stevara #a different ship name lmao #barb x steve #idk i think barb being pursued and nancy being like damn. wish thst were me. but also. get it barb!! is fun. #bc shes not so jaded bc she hasnt gone thru losing barb #st1 #finda's rambles #finda writes stuff

[blueeandyellowmakesgreen]

yall know i love my ronance content but a part of me is also really happy for nancy for finally having a platonic girl friend her age. i imagine ever since barb, shes had a lot of walls she had to put up, and maybe robin practically tearing it down and letting herself in is just what she needed and wanted, so nancy just.. let her. idk im looking forward to more of them in the next season. nancy deserves that

#byler #mike 🤝 nancy benefitting from having more women in their lives #also again tagging byler bc yall get it #byler tumblr #nancy #nancy wheeler #i mean think about it her only company was her two boyfriends her dad then her brother and a kind of neglectful mom #she must feel relieved to be able to confide in her. #hell i could even argue that its because of this fact alone that she wasnt jealous abt steve at all #she just didnt know how to take another friend again #we forget that nancy wasnt actually popular since steve. it was just her and barb and was basically like mike in a way shes smart #and kind of nerdy and potentially lonely with a very small circle. straight A student #so yeah i think she deserves this #and it must mean a lot to finally have someone who is a girl be her friend again #considering she always felt strongly against the patriarchy and how women are treated in general #so yeah it must be a treat to not be surrounded by men for once

[menaceadored]

posts, quotes, snippets that remind me of nancy wheeler pt.1

can you see her?

#nancy wheeler #stranger things #ronance #tagging ronance bc they’re always the target audience #robin buckley #barbara holland #i can’t begin to describe my love for nancy wheeler #pt. 1 #because i might make another post like this at some point #this just barely touches on her depth #also nancy and barb totally had one of those intense girl friendships that leaves you hollow when it ends

[lunar-years]

funniest misunderstanding of a character has got to be how many people in the st fandom think of nancy as like. genuinely that high school's It Girl. she's It Girl in my heart <3 but like... IN the show? middling popularity at best i hate to say.

#and even then it's like. she's only popular amongst the semi loser gifted kids #and i say this all very affectionately #the whole point of the 'THIS ISN'T YOU' stuff between her and barb was because #nancy was trying to fit in with steve and his popular crowd and distancing herself from her loser girl crowd like.... #what's not clicking? #nancy wheeler #stranger things

[barb-l]

HEAR ME OUT--

#Wednesday Netflix #rwby #Wednesday spoilers #bumbleby #Wenclair #beauty and the beast allusions for Wenclair would be sksnksosn #except its the opposite #the beast became human because of his and belle's love #enid became a beast to save Wednesday because she cares for her #hi im barb. i like to draw parallels even between things that I shouldnt

[ridaine]

Like Father Like Daughter

#dnd #dungeons and dragons art #dnd art #dnd oc #drow #half elf #Freyja #evantide #Alrith #tfw to avenge your father's stolen freedom you sell your soul #and end up accidentally repeating what he did #The difference is Freyja wholeheartedly believes she's in control #Hence why I drew her grasping the barb as it spears her hand #and that she has the chains wrapped around her other arm #Basically she sold her soul to avenge the ones who hurt her father #which is the opposite of what he would have wanted #All he ever wanted was his daughter to grow up and live a normal peaceful life #but he's blissfully unaware she's following in his footsteps #She doesn't actually have any freedom but she's so convinced she does because she chose part of it #She chose to sell her soul and will keep selling parts of herself for power #it's getting a little nervewracking #worried about the things my own pc is gonna do

[knightinink]

tfw the “random” imps you pulled away from exterminators are actually your daughter & the boy you treated like a son who thought you were dead for the last 15 years (aka, drawing what I saw in a dream that I’m now making into an entire Helluva au).

#in the dream Tilla then asked where Blitzo was & Barb & Fizz got angry & quiet respectively so I guess this is a pre-Oops au #basically how I’m writing it is she faked her death in the fire (to get away from Cash) #& then just never contacted her kids because too much time had passed & she thought it would hurt too much if she told them #so she just let them believe she was dead #this is really messy rn I just gotta do a lot of developing #thanks dreams love when I get an entire au made with them #I may finish this drawing later #fizzarolli #barbie wire #helluva boss tilla #helluva boss au #helluva boss #my art

[soramimi-keeki]

I had a lot of fun making this one

More doods featuring Brad's pals because THEY'RE MY ENTIRE WORLD (I'm sorry if I come off as a weirdo aa, plus they're a few months old)

UHHHHH and STICKY FROM LISA THE OBLIVIOUS GRRA

#i am obsessed #Richard Weeks #sticky angoneli #cheeks gaywood #Genderswapped Rick because I said so!! #Her name is Rachel though #I was too lazy to draw Barb/Brenda #fem brad GRrra #I LOVE HE R #RICHARD WEEKS ENJOYERS PLEASE RISE UP I'M LOOKING FOR FRIENDS GRRR #anyone who is as deranged as I am for Rick is #the prettiest person ALIVE #let's fill the world with em ricks yayyy!! #Cheeks is there too! #He looks weird as fuck without his silly little hat though #lisa the painful #lisa rpg #Hehe Hatsune Sticku #yumyum

[jackiietaylor]

NANCY WHEELER in STRANGER THINGS 3.04 | The Sauna Test

#nancywheeleredit #strangerthingsedit #tvstrangerthings #dailystrangerthings #stedit #sthingsedit #nancy wheeler #stranger things #linds.gif #<3 #i could go on and on about the importance of nancys s3 arc and how important it is for her to believe everyone who tells her that somethings #Wrong because no one was willing to believe her when she said something bad happened to barb and shes gonna make sure that theres always #someone who is willing to dig deeper and believe what theyre being told no matter how crazy it sounds

[roselleasly]

I broke down: "That man's good, I bet he works for the government!"

#rea's doodles #dreamwork trolls #queen viva #king peppy #trolls viva #based on that post i made about king peppy not approving of viva and barb because shes a rock troll #very quick i didnt even give viva her scars #but i had fun drawing it #vivarb #i guessss :3

[snowangeldotmp3]

the fact that everyone overlooks nancy canonically having ptsd... in s1 she had a flashback in the shower, in s2 she disassociated when she saw someone that looked like barb, and in s4 she had a flashback when barb was brought up on tv. like in that last one you can even hear ringing in her ears and it takes fred waving his hand in front of her face to bring her back

like :((( Fuck :(((((

we talked about this earlier but it really does make me think about how like. everything for nancy is a reminder of barb. by season 4 she takes down the pictures of her and barb in her room because like, she can't have the reminder that barb is gone. sure the memories are happy in the photos but for a whole year nancy was convinced that she killed barb. that it was her selfishness that lead to barb's death, not the hawkins lab, so she (albeit indirectly) got barb killed. imagine you’re 16, almost 17, and not only lost your best friend to a monster from the hell dimension, but thinking you caused it. and!! not only does she think she caused it, but caused it by being reckless. a teenager. it's a direct cause and effect of nancy having fun and being a normal teenager. (which is exactly why she has the "what's the deal? we're just being stupid teenagers for the night." line in season two. it's directed at steve for his want to return to normal but nancy directs it at herself, too. her fault for being a stupid teenager. and look where it got her.)

like you know that thing where it's like, "if you experience a trauma, sometimes your brain will be stuck at the age the trauma happened?" that's nancy. she's always gonna be 15/16 years old and just a scared girl who wants her best friend back.

#got mail! 📩 #solarsleepless #nancy wheeler #stranger things #anyways yeah :) #i do think steve and nancy deal with it in vastly different ways (neither of them particularly healthy) #but nancy very obviously has a lot more grief about it because barb was hers!!! she was her best friend!! this is her cross to bear!!! #sorry for lamenting about nancy wheeler. it will happen again

[ronanceisintheair]

Me and Nancy had to sit through the little nuggets speech so now st*ve should have to sit through Nancy's speech of why he left her during her darkest time. Why he ignored her trauma. Why he thinks it's okay to tell her this when she's with Jonathan.

Robin should be there. And Nancy should look at Robin, the most painful tears and disgust in her eyes "do you even know why we broke up. Did he tell you?"

Enough time has not gone by for the writers to act like this girl isn't still crying regularly over losing her best friend. (And yall know she still blames herself😭)

#Nancy is a better person than me(because the writers suck and don't let her have righteous girl boss reactions) #literally why did they have vecna show her. have her relieve her barb trauma and jusy for her to continue to la di da with st*ves nonsense #she doesn't have to not be his friend. but like i said in a previous tags; when something like that poisons a relationship. #dont try and write it off because thats dumb as shit #nancy wheeler #stranger things #as someone who has lost someone very close to me im *random incoherent noises*