#borderline recovery

[spookietrex]

Guess who tried to sabotage their relationship today

#it's me #borderline personality disorder #borderline problems #bpd problems #actually bpd #being borderline #actually borderline #actuallymentallyill #bpd #bpdprobs #complex ptsd #bpd recovery #bpd meme #bpd thoughts #bpd vent #borderline recovery #borderline thoughts #borderline pd #cluster b #self sabotage #lol oops

[theaddictspoetry]

In her head,

all the flowers that grew are dead,

and when it rains, it pours instead,

she's always stuck in her head,

cause a whole storm's up there-

that no one else can hear,

her cries, her screams

yet everything stays the same......

@theaddictspoetry

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[leaveittomybpdbaby]

When you try to do wayyyyy too much house cleaning than you have Adderall and energy to do so.

Now it just looks like a tornado hit my living room.

Note to self: Good intentions doesn't equal enough focus and motivation lol.

Girllll 🤦

#smi #borderline personality #bpd #being borderline #borderline recovery #adhd things #my adhd #adhd #lgbtqia+ #biseuxal #recovery #reproductive rights #omagassh #mentally ill #mental illness #mental illness problems #Adderall #adult adhd #girlllll

[nousertalks]

Losing my "favorite person" has made me come to a lot of realizations about my life. The main one being how much it sucks to have gone your whole life thinking you don't need anyone but them, only to now realize that's not true. So if any of you think we'd get along don't hesitate to reach out and say hi!

#actually borderline #quiet borderline #making friends #meeting new people #borderline recovery #cptsdsurvivor

[dreamtmydesign]

#borderline recovery #bpd recovery #healing #self acceptance #radical acceptance

[worthless-mess]

"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

#bpd thoughts #bpd blog #actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd #bpd mood #bpd feels #bpd recovery #bpd meme #actually borderline #bpd stigma #bpd shit #bpd vent #bpd splitting #bpd stuff #bpd fp #borderline thoughts #living with borderline #borderline problems #borderline things #borderline pd #borderline blog #borderline personality disorder #borderline personality problems #life of a borderline #being borderline #bpd struggles #bpd symptoms #bpd triggers

[futureless]

i be in my own head fighting for my life

[moonlit-positivity]

Here is my controversial mental health take of the day: your negative emotions are not the problem, its the way you handle them that becomes the problem. You being jealous that your friend hung out with someone else and didn't tell you, is actually not the problem. It's when you choose to get angry with them, yell & lash out, or passive aggressively do something they hate to get revenge, or when you ignore them and isolate and self harm, those are all harmful ways to cope with your feelings. Rather than react, take the time to validate yourself, because it's normal to feel jealous or left out and chances are that there are deeper abandonment wounds that are triggered here, probably from your childhood. Take a moment to pause before you react. Then try a direct and open communication to your friend instead. Because I guarantee you they'll respond so much better to you opening up a conversation with, "hey, I felt left out when you hung out with so-and-so without me, can we talk about that? And maybe hang out soon?" Rather than the now laborious and torturous emotional work of having to feel guilty for your rage when you lash out or get revenge. Splitting is normal, because who doesn't get pissed off at someone you're close with? Your switching emotions from highly affectionate to devaluation are not the problem. Everyone gets disgusted & hurt by someone they love at some point in our lives, especially small offenses, I guarantee you chances are that person isn't doing it on purpose and would gladly like to know how you feel, these emotions and conversations are normal and necessary for humans to have. But the inability to clearly and directly communicate your feelings and needs to that person when you are hurt is what makes it toxic. You can absolutely learn how to handle your reactions in a safer manner, how to identify when you're feeling hurt, and how to communicate and ask for clarity and resolution rather than react and escalate. Communication is the backbone of every relationship you will ever have. This is what the emotional work of most personality disorders looks like.

#recovery #trauma #boundaries #mental health #bpd #healing #borderline personality disorder #splitting #emotions #emotional work #shadow work #cluster b #cluster b pds #npd #toxic traits #toxicity #communication #relationships

[cccat-in-a-meat-sack]

me, with both:...

#borderline personality disorder #bpd splitting #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #bpd problems #bpd #bpd vent #actually borderline #borderline pd #ptsd #complex ptsd #actually ptsd #ptsd recovery #tw ptsd #tw abuse #tw abuse mention #calico hisses

[theaddictspoetry]

I keep my guard up,

Cause I've been burned one too many.

Bruised and scarred,

By the ones i thought would always love me.

So i keep my heart caged,

Never open to attack.

Still, I watch my back,

The aftermath in my mind.

I keep my guard up,

So the ones i thought loved me, can't hurt me.

@theaddictspoetry

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[borderlinebelle]

ARE YOU OR SOMEONE YOU LOVE LIVING WITH MENTAL ILLNESS?

Cool, me too.

I’m assembling a community of like minded humans who can relate to the feeling of their own flesh+bone matter constantly contending with their sentient consciousness in a bid for power and control over their decisions and emotions… and/or humans who love other humans who continuously battle their own prefrontal cortex and endorphin creators for a bid at happiness…

come… rest here, weary traveller. find out more below ⬇️

delivered in a clear & chaotic voice of authenticity, my content centers around conquering challenges made into marathons by, often times common, mental health symptoms.

FIRST EPISODE: MY ROTTING TOOTH THAY ANXIETY AND FEAR HELPED ME AVOID

i didn’t explicitly reveal in the video… but I lived with a rotting tooth in my skull for months until it finally fell out of my jaw, months after my first botched root canal. 🙂

EPISODE TWO: STUPID WACK TAXES AND SHOCKINGLY I END UP MORE POOR!!! BUT I DID IT! (spoiler alert)

this new editing style for the 2nd video is going to land so ✨wildly✨upon your retinas…

i wanted you to FEEL what I feel and understand what those closest to me experience when I bang their lines with a new story of hardship overcome, as friends often do 📱🧠📱

unexpectedly entertaining & a true visual representation, a reflection, of the way I often perceive and process information and life😵‍💫

EPISODE ONE… was the prototype

for a fleshy & meaty ep 2: TAX TORMENT

(because it IS and ISN’T that serious) 🫠

I also fought a bug i guess… because spring sprung all up on me…

SO JOIN ME IN BEING BORDERLINE MANAGEABLE!

You can support the channel by stubbing & turning on notifications so you’ll know when my new video drops. I really really appreciate your not being a jerk about the ad, thanks.

#borderlinebelle #mental health #mental illness #personality disorder #personal growth #recovery #support black women #support black artists #support black creatives #mental heath support #actually mentally ill #mentally fucked #mentally exhausted #mentally unstable #sorry for being depressing #anxiety #borderline personality disorder #bpd #bpd community #bpd shit

[leaveittomybpdbaby]

Splitting on my child in stressful situations? Check making yourself look like a total ass? check

Feeling completely embarrassed about having to do damage control after your inappropriate unneeded outburst borderline rage? Check

Sounds like the norm. Off to do damage control I go 🙄

#bpd #smi #borderline personality #borderline recovery #being borderline #bpd blog #bpd splitting #bpd stuff #bpd stigma

[a-sip-of-milo]

Abuse isn't only physical. Sometimes it is...

Shouting at them until they cry/retaliate.

Humiliating them in front of friends and family.

Refusing to let them see friends and family.

Isolating them from what's outside.

Refusing to let them have control over their own finances / keeping it all for yourself.

Belittling their looks, their personality, their thoughts, etc.

Bullying them in any way.

Purposely pushing boundaries.

Threatening them, either physically, verbally or emotionally.

Controlling what and when they eat.

Locking them in rooms so they can't escape.

Refusing to let them use the toilet/eat/sleep/etc. after or before a certain time.

Gaslighting them into questioning their own reality.

Lying to or manipulating the people around them so they look like the abuser.

Purposely breaking their belongings, especially in front of them.

Ignoring safewords/"stop"/anything that indicates they're not okay with what's happening (in general, not just in the bedroom)

Giving them zero privacy. That means going through their diaries, tracking them, attending their therapy/doctors appointments when they don't want you to.

Setting them up to fail for the sole purpose of getting to punish them.

Obvious favoritism of one child over another/the others.

All of these are things that I have personally been through. They contributed heavily to my eating disorder, my BPD, my anxiety and my depression.

#cluster b safe #cluster b #bpd #borderline #borderline personality disorder #actually bpd #actually borderline #npd safe #aspd safe #hpd safe #tw.abuse #bpd safe #emotional abuse #childhood trauma #ptsd #actually ptsd #ptsd recovery

[nousertalks]

I have everything I need. I'm on the right path. I have support. But for some reason all I think about is you. I'm trying my best to live on and be happy, but it is so hard when everything reminds me of you. I'm sorry I ruined things, I just wish I had the chance to show I'm making progress. It was just supposed to be a break, not a break up but you gave up on me and it really hurts.

#breakup #borderline recovery #mentally exhausted #tired of feeling like this #closure

[yourhealingjournal]

i read this post about someone simply accepting their depression is not going to go away & instead of resenting themselves for never getting rid of it or trying to find so much energy to banish the sadness away or to be fully "healed" from it, they just focus on adding more happy things in their plate.

and that is something i can resonate with.

#might not resonate with many. might not even be the hopeful amazing tone i usually keep up in this blog #but something clicked so #be kind to yourself #cptsd recovery #trauma recovery #actually traumatized #just cptsd things #living with cptsd #actually cptsd #bpd recovery #actually mentally ill #actually borderline #rose.txt

[worthless-mess]

"You’re so polite" thanks i was raised in constant fear of upsetting people.

#bpd thoughts #bpd blog #actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd #bpd mood #bpd feels #bpd recovery #bpd meme #bpd stigma #bpd shit #borderline thoughts #bpd fp #bpd vent #bpd relatable