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shivroy · 6 months
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HIBERNIAN ROY-WAMBSGANS!!!!! literally why have a succession oc if im not gonna make a season 4 promo pic of him. this is how hibs can still become canon
bonus: given the slightest opportunity hibs will steal tom's clothes, especially ones that have a nostalgia factor from his dad's college days & how tom dressed when hibernian was naught but a tiny pink fetus. check out the tomshiv nightmare interaction white sneakers
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hella1975 · 9 months
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the mha fandom really took 'uraraka is poor' and decided to be the most annoying cunts in the world about it
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andi-o-geyser · 1 year
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HEY! HEY YOU! YOU UPDATED YOUR PAGE TWENTY-SIX MINUTES AGO! TUMBLR TOLD ME SO! GIVE ME YOUR PERCAHLIA BRAINROT!
Haha, gladly! Buckle in, because the brainrot has been going for weeks now and will not stop. Currently, I’m stuck on their journey to the Water Ashari, where Vex and Percy have the most heartfelt conversation about what they heard during their respective resurrection rituals. Percy basically says that in space of limbo he was stuck in while Orthax was feasting on his soul he could only hear pure noise and feel pain and he’s tried so hard to not put the experience into words but now he is putting it into words, for Vex, because she deserves the full truth of the offerings that called him back during his ritual. He tells her that he had: “great motivation to live a long life”, which just makes me want to go fucking feral because on a meta level Vex rolled true love’s natural 20 and Tal specifically said that he told Matt to text him because if they didn’t say what Percy wanted to hear, he just fully wouldn’t come back, good resurrection rolls be damned, but despite Pike’s plea for the gods to save him (which was something he explicitly wouldn’t have wanted), Vex told him she loved him and she needed him back, and Percy was called back anyways for her. 
He was ready to let everything go: his sister, his home, his found family and all the friends he’d made, because he was done and he was tired and he felt like he’d completed his journey and earned his tragic end, and he even preemptively wrote what essentially functioned as a suicide note for the occasion. But he didn’t die, he came back anyways, and, almost 20 full episodes after the resurrection ritual and exactly 15 episodes after he and Vex first kissed in the snow, he admits to her in this quiet moment on the ship that he heard her. And it was the only thing he heard. 
This contrasts directly with the ritual itself, where after being brought back he thanked Keyleth, saying: “I saw what you did, it was the only thing I saw”, referring to how Kiki severed him from Orthax, but he also explicitly states that he couldn’t hear her, he just saw her hand reach out. And when she hears it you can just see Laura play it brilliantly, because Vex looks so dejected as he says it in that scene post resurrection. She’s so full of this sudden grief at something she’s barely had but already lost, which was her confession of love to him because he just said he only saw Keyleth, and that means he doesn’t remember Vex’s plea for his life. But he did remember, and it was the only thing he remembered and the only thing that mattered. But he didn’t tell her not because of any time he needed to consider if he felt the same way, because he was already head over heels just like she was; he didn’t say anything because she just bore her heart in front of all their friends, all their family, and he didn’t want to put her on the spot like that. 
“I never would have hoped... you’re far too wonderful for an idiot. I treasure every minute”. Percy knows and Vex knows that he was very well almost gone for good, and Vex saved his life by calling out to him the way she did. He never would have hoped she felt the same way, he never would have hoped the heart she was referring to when confronting Saundor was his, but he treasures every minute they have together because they both know what they could have lost, and after the Thordak, Raishan, and second Raishan fight, this is even more potent because they both either went to death saves or outright died and had to be revivified. And she treasures every moment right back. They’re so deeply in love, and they have such an immense respect for each other that as soon as Vex asks at the top of the scene what he heard during his resurrection Percy instantly catches on that she’s both probably curious about Scanlan’s ritual, but also still feeling insecure about him not mentioning her contribution, and the entire subsequent scene is basically him both working through the remnants of trauma from the experience but also laying it out in an considerate way for her, and apologizing for any pain he caused. 
And then they get drunk and imply they’re going to have sex in a closing line. It’s peak Perc’ahlia and it makes me go insane 
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pepprs · 7 months
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ok. giving myself 4 minutes to make this post and then i finish my homework. i just am so deeply miserable. i really think i made a mistake. i should not be in grad school. i only took a year between this and undergrad and i am still so burned out and mentally ill. im working full time. im only taking one class and this program is supposed to be so good and aligned with what i want and all of that. but i just cant stand having homework. i just cant stand it. i think i am not cut out for academia even though i work in academia. i think i will never get better as long as im still living at home but i have to get better before i can no longer be living at home but i cant get better until im not living at home and every day i still live at home saps away at my will to live quite literally. i should not have started doing grad school without regaining my will to live. without restoring my love for reading and writing that i used to have voraciously when i was younger and less deeply miserable. without recovering from the burnout. i think i made a mistake. i need a masters degree so bad so that i can be safe but i need to not have fucking homework when i already struggle to get through my days without school. i feel so stuck in my life and hopeless and helpless. i dont know what to do
#purrs#i cant drop out or anything because. lol and this class isnt even that big of a deal like i TRULY am freaking out over nothing. but my life#situation is so bad rn bro like i cant get my parents to take me out to drive and i cant get myself to get my parents to take me out to#drive and every day i am guilt tripped berated etc etc and i feel like i am never ever ever going to be able to have my own life where i a#stable and safe and happy. it can happen for other people except for me and my siblings. i dont know. im not explaining anything well.#i just cant do this. i need to not have this one more thing on my plate but i have to because if i dont have a masters degree in my field i#am nothing even though everyone is telling me that isnt true and all of them are credible but im just so mentally ill i cant believe anyone#and icant accept any advice or hope or whatever good about me i just. am stuck. this is as good as it gets and its not even good.#delete later#that was 7 minutes not 4 and i didnt even write anything substantial. nutshell. i just have been so fucking depressed lately oh my goddddd#this is maybe too strong of a thing to say but like. i know it isnt technically neglect if i am an adult but... i think i may kind of be#neglected by my family in some ways a little bit and always have been but like. emotionally. like in the ways in which im never a priority#and the things i need are seen as burdens etc etc. and theres nothing anyone can do about it even myself because im an adult but like lol.#24 year old dependent moment <3#well there is one thing i can do about it as an adult actually. its called move out. but that requires strength i will#never possess unfortunately due to the inherent flaws in my character and constitution so. guess this is it lawl 🥰#side note (and i swear im done after this lol): i think i was doing a lot better mentally over the summer. funny how when the semester#starts i get depressed and the depression just gets worse and worse until the end of the semester 😻 funny how this is my seventh year like#this. willingly subjecting myself to this. that should be a clue no? but i love my job and if i could just have my job and be stable in it#would be happier but also im lying to mysaelf and i will always be unhappy but its because of my mental illness not my job being bad or#anything its like. i am just sick in the head with impostor syndrome and thats how i got myself into this whole mess. lol#well that and the not moving out thing which is partially my fault but also because i live in hell as described earlier! <3
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deus-ex-mona · 2 months
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s. s ave me, meoto…
#n o t me clinging to meoto to retain my sanity bc g o o d l o r d today was the worst#today was truly a very bad; very horrible day indeeeeeeed#man. today truly was a comedic tragedy in every way possible. i’d laugh if i were anyone else tbh#first i couldn’t start my workstation bc we were out of this cleaning acid thing.#t h e n this other branch lab sent over a precise amount of [reagent] that we needed to make the cleaning acid thing#*and* what’s worse was that they also demanded like. 1/5 of the acid we mixed. like bro. make it yourself mans.#but the worst part was when i tried to use a dropper to poke this sediment out of [tube i was supposed to be cleaning]#bUT THEN HALF OF THE DROPPER MELTED BC THAT BUGGER CAN’T HANDLE HIGH TEMPERATURES AAAAAAAAAAAAAA#stupid new droppers man. the old droppers could handle 100 degrees just fine. s o now the tube is clogged with melted plastic and it’s just.#life’s *really* great sometimes yk~~~~? (ʘ‿ʘ)#and so the night shift dude who came to take over the workstation against expectations seemed kinda pissed that i hadn’t started anything#and im just there. with my intestines wriggling about like internal abdominal worms. tryin not to cry in the face of my mistake.#while he’s fumin’ away like a freakin’ chimney or sth. like. man. no one asked you to take this workstation. you came here on your own. :(#anyway i ditched him and left for my break to calm myself down only to be approached by some random terribly lost middle aged to old lady#who was looking for directions to *somewhere* but she only spoke chinese aaaaaaaa#and i can’t read maps/i don’t even live in the area of my workplace so i have no idea if the lady managed to make it safely#but. lol. the lady showed me her message screen when she asked me for directions to her destination#and by pure coincidence the person she was texting is apparently related to someone with the same first name as me#the cons and cons of having common names man. i hope the lady managed to find her friend with the same name as me though lol#anyways. pls hw im begging. pls drop the crossfade for lxl birthday tmr i n e e d more meoto to carry on—#s o b s this is what im living for now ig. meoto………..
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scyathan · 3 months
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There are two conflicting sides inside Neuvillette as far as his psyche goes. To him, Scylla is himself in a past life he has many gaps to fill for over 400 years until he recovers his authority and his nature as a dragon makes him look at this world from a grander perspective and to its inhabitants as per the proportion and impact on the world they have. What concerns his draconic side, death doesn't move him. It's part of the natural cycle of this world and just as death happens, so a new life is bound to be born. He as an entity akin to a God of Life knows this better than anyone, as insulting as it would be addressing to him as anything remotely similar to what the Usurper brought with himself.
Given his special circumstances due to his authority over hydro, Neuvillette has a deep sentience over others' emotions. In his past life when he was exceedingly older, these emotions ceased to have any effect on him, his nerves were more steeled. Because of his understanding of the world and all living creatures within it, as Scylla he had learned to acknowledge these emotions without letting himself be affected by them unless exceptions occurred.
But it is not so the case for Neuvillette, both when he had yet to reclaim his authority over hydro and afterwards. While his draconic nature continues to permeate his being, a new variable was added the moment he was reborn as human: humanity. And because of this humanity he now has, all those emotions he senses from all manners of water are more intense than they would if he was a dragon as he originally was. Learning about humans by living among them accentuates the intensity with which he feels the emotions of others, because he understands them— unlike when he used to be Scylla, as his understanding was more limited and enshrouded with draconic pride and hatred towards anything related to the Usurper. Nevertheless, despite everything Scylla was no tyrant and united with humans for one same purpose, as Neuvillette has for 400 years.
Because he's used to feel the emotions of others and because of what they transmit to him, Neuvillette struggles with his own emotions. In addition to his struggle to belong, being a creature in between dragon and human, doubts plague him within his process of learning about himself concerning his nature, what he should do with his life and where he should belong. Feeling his own emotions and with a bigger intensity than he would as Scylla is a novelty even if he were to count with all the memories of his past life that makes more difficult to understand himself. Though his pride as a dragon still remains, it's not out of sense of pride and superior complex that he doesn't understand himself— but because no matter how hard he tries, he doesn't.
Even after he imparts judgement over the humans of Fontaine to rid them of the curse, and even after he makes peace with himself that in truth, he belongs to both realms (human and light/vishap/dragon), figuring himself out will be a consuming exercise that he will have to endure for more years to come. Until then, were he asked what or who he is, he would lay an answer every time.
He's just Neuvillette.
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silverislander · 3 months
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prof said congrats for writing up a proposal so early i am going to get a good grade in. well this is literally going to be graded. but yk the meme
#i really hope its decent proposals are really hard for me to write. i never really understand how much im supposed to say#also i dont plan stuff in advance! i hate drafts and proposals why cant i just jump in and run w my topic#i dont Know exactly what im going to cover just yet can i get back to you once ive covered it#levi.txt#i spent One page just opening the two page proposal so. i know it needs some cleaning up#but the last time i wrote one of these i only got a 75 (not a bad grade but i could do significantly better) bc. and i am not kidding.#i wrote a several page intro abt the themes of a story i was super pumped to write. and forgot the /plot characters and title/#a 75 was honestly generous. that prof already liked me and knew my work so i got very lucky#also i just think the guy im working with for my essay is so cool and i want to impress him bfhshsk#ive taken 2 classes with him before he is so smart and so enthusiastic. i was 1 of only 3 who was there for every class both times#everyone whos helped me has been so cool and very nice to me i want to do a good job and prove that im as capable as they think#and also jesus fucking christ ive worked so hard for this degree PLEASE#if i dont get honours im walking into the forest laying down and letting the fae take me as they will#side note: i have 1.5 movies left (its late and im finishing army of the dead tomorrow + watching evil dead rise)!! thats so exciting#theyve (mostly) been really fun and i feel like i have a really good general idea of where im going w my essay now#the movie eras are starting to kind of organize themselves into coherent themes in my mind#i think its smth along the lines of racism/xenophobia -> social change -> satanic panic -> action and militarism -> prejudice/bias#and i actually think were in smth of a thematic reckoning w zombies rn as a culture that im excited to discuss!!#for so long weve accepted that zombies arent people but weve really been starting to interrogate that since abt the mid 2010s#w tropes like searching for a cure (not just a vaccine) or movies like warm bodies or evil dead where you can truly turn back#and im really excited to see where the future takes the zombie genre!!
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T-minus 1 week until I finish externship.
T-minus 2 weeks until I finish all of my clinical hours.
T-minus 3 weeks until I
Freaking
✨GRADUATE ✨
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good-night-space-kid · 5 months
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Every time that I think maybe I should just focus on geology I have a public history experience that makes me wish desperately that I could spend the rest of my life in a history museum
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tvrningout-a · 1 year
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yells!! i'm gonna update my resume and put in some applications but i don't wanna!!
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yuribalisms · 7 months
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Essentially what it is all boiling down to is I have fully realized I am bad at being a person, that will always be true, and I don’t know how to handle that
#I’m going to be depressing and self depreciating in the tags so. fair warning to anyone who reads them#I’ve known for a while now that I don’t know what to do with my life. I’ve thought of a few ideas but none of them seem to be working. and I#think a good chunk of what it’s boiling down to is that I am quite literally just stupid when it comes to an actual useful real life skills.#and it’s frustrating because I can’t even talk to ppl I know and confide in them that I feel dumb and stupid without them being like ‘nooooo#don’t say that! you’re not stupid! you were top of your class in hs!’ (that is their favorite thing to fall back on) but like. the thing is#I wasn’t even smart in hs. sure I did good but that’s because I cheated my way through and got lucky a lot. I never actually learned anythin#I never understood what I was being taught or how to apply it. I was good at English and art classes and that was it those were the only one#I truly felt I knew what I was doing in and grasped the subject matter well. I know I’m good at those two things and smart when it comes to#those subjects. but the thing is. in real life. both of those are useless skills. I can’t make money with them and it is highly unlikely#that will ever change. and yes I know not being able to make money with it doesn’t mean it’s useless but like it kinda does. capitalism#sucks. I know that. we all do. but that doesn’t change that we live in a capitalist society and it’s unlikely to actual change in my lifetim#so I’m stuck to try and figure out how to live in it. but I have no skills I can make money with so I will live my entire life poor and#miserable and working dead end jobs that make me want to kill myself. I’m not good at socialization I’m so fucking bad at it so I can’t work#any kind of job that hinges on networking or sales or human interaction which is MOST JOBS but I’m also too stupid for anything related to#STEM. I tried two different stem degrees and flunked out of both of them because I am a FUCKING IDIOT and I know there’s no point in trying#to go back to school for another one. but no degree in anything I naturally have a knack for will help me find a decent well paying job. ill#just be wasting my money to go to school for something like that. and then like. I don’t even think I’ll ever get married and I def won’t#ever have kids. so I can’t even put any hopeful stock in just being happy with a family one day. I know a lot of ppl who don’t like their#careers but they’re fine with that because they’re happy with their family but like I don’t even have that and I won’t ever have that. I#have NOTHING to strive for and NOTHING I am good at that’s meaningful I’m going to fail at having a career and a family and I know that#doesn’t mean I won’t be happy in theory but by societal standards I am and always will be a fucking failure of a person and since I do live#in this society yeah. it’s kinda fucking true. and I don’t know what to do about that. I’m just tired. I’m tired of being afraid and#struggling and going through patches of wanting to kill myself because of this because like what’s the point. I’ll never have anything#better so what in the actual hell is the point of me existing. and I know I’m being ridiculous and my brain is eating itself and none of#this is probably even true but that doesn’t change that it FEELS like it is a lot of times and esp right now and I don’t know what to do#to anyone who reads this I’ll be fine tbh prob as soon as tomorrow like dw about it I just need to get it out so I stop stewing in it.#I’m just. yeah. not having a great time rn but I left work so I’m gonna cry and then maybe sleep for a bit and hope that helps#kaz rambles
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batteryeatery · 8 months
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hello hello! i hope you’re doing well <33
Hello K, I Am doing well thank u how r u!!!
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milfleeta · 2 years
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seriously can’t get over the transporter room scene. hemmer is addicted to light despite having no concept of light because his entire species is blind so he’s just like fuck it. molten rock is said to be bright, let me drill into this planet’s core for my new personal pillow pet. then when his boss asks him what’s happening, he corrects her not once but twice on the logistics (“You're transporting a piece of the planet's core?” “Mantle, to be precise.” and “It’s 1,000 degrees. It'll kill you.” “More like 10,000”). his boss has to shoot him and then carry him to sickbay like a parent would carry a tantruming child out of the grocery store.
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cowboycunt · 2 years
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okay i’m actually busy this evening so i need to do this properly later but just as i’ve been thinking about my output on this website i want to say that, as a white adult
a) please tell me if anything i reblog is harmful to any communities. i work to educate myself but given my privilege there is no doubt that some things slip through and i would like to know so i can educate myself further and not make similar mistakes in the future
b) this should go without saying but if you support bab or racism in any shape or form, unfollow me, block me, whatever. same goes if you’re a proshipper. output of this sort of content actively harms various communities and i do not wish to be associated with such.
c) if you are a minor, please unfollow/softblock me. nothing against y’all - some of the strongest voices in speaking out against racism on spnblr have been minors and you guys are very kind and bright. but the past day has got me thinking about my personal output on here, and i’ve realized i would rather not be responsible for some of the material you guys see. i was a fifteen year old on tumblr once, so i totally get it (and i certainly bent rules to see adult material at that age). however, since i’m in my mid twenties now, i simply do not want to contribute to the potential output of explicit material to minors who may follow me. also i know i’m bad at remembering to tag m/dni. thus i’d rather have a blanket rule. really no hard feelings i hope.
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sxturdaysun · 9 months
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wait...WAIT...... do i dare ask for Izumii— ❣️❇️💞➿🕔🎟🔊
KDJFNGKDJFNGKDJF congrats on being the funniest person on this entire website, queen.
❣️: reminds you of your f/o
daywalker! - machine gun kelly, corpse
hand crushed by a mallet - 100 gecs (LMFAO)
❇️: reminds you of your s/i
homemade dynamite - lorde
💞: reminds you of your relationship
kali ma - neck deep
she's my collar - gorillaz
➿: you imagine mutual pining to
she's the prettiest girl at the party, and she can prove it with a solid right hook - frank iero
🕔: makes you think of the first time you met (in canon)
funeral grey - waterparks
🎟: you can imagine your first date to
stupid for you - waterparks
first date - blink-182
🔊: make a playlist between 2-8 songs long for your self ship
crush - ethel cain
bad influence - hot milk
super psycho love - simon curtis
she's so mean - matchbox twenty
bad idea! - girl in red
what he don't know - anarbor (lmao. lol, even.)
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coffeeshib · 2 years
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So I’m not asking anything, I’m here to state something. I wish I could put things into words as you do. You my friend are quite literally one of the best writers I’ve found in my life. The way you write emotion, it’s something that makes you stop and say to yourself “ that’s exactly how I feel, someone finally gets it” it’s like a sense of relief. I just needed to tell you this, I honestly don’t care if you have ten thousand people telling you this every day, I am one of those ten thousand people because they see how talented you are. I wish I could hug you or something. You literally touched my heart. You will be someone I think about at night. I will remember you. I really wish this becomes more because I know you can do great things with this. Like go back and reread one of your works and act like you didn’t write it, and think about how freaking good that work is. I inspire to be like you. I hope you live a full life of joy and happiness. Xx
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