#but the system is against me this day

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

At rest, your lungs wish to deflate, and your ribcage expands outwards.

#better drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #yiling laozu #Happy Friday the 13th! #This is scientific fact btw! #Ventilation operates through a series of active and passive forces #The active forces being muscular contraction with inhalation and exhalation having their own set of muscles. #but the interesting part is the passive forces at work: #The lungs have a certain level of elasticity to them - meaning the more they expand the more the those elastic forces are functioning- #-to try and return the system to rest (exhalation passive forces). Your diaphragm is the main force - pushing against the lungs at rest. #Your ribcage on the other hand is under a state of being pulled outwards. It *wants* to be as open as possible. #These to contradicting forces create a constant push and pull which assists in the ebb and flow of air. Most significantly with exhalation. #Now that being said - the primary action of inhalation ventilation is through control centers in your brainstem. #If you lose connection to that due to trauma you're going to need ventilation assistance. #Small note: Respiration is the cellular event of chemical exchange in the alveoli. Ventilation is airflow and pressure. #They are both important but also very different things. Sadly used interchangeably. #My anatomy nerd brain is screaming over the inaccurate ribcage...but its...recognizable. I will get it right one day. #Okay nerd rant over (I cut out a lot of stuff about pressure gradients. They are cool. To me.) #This is a redraw of an mspaint doodle I made back in april. I yearn to make the Yiling Laozu eerie as he deserves #Tear that bitch (affectionate) apart! #Been playing around with hatching for a while and its amazing how many styles there are! Not sure I'll stick with this one (but it was fun)

[arschbiene]

I love u. Can i plz request any of your takes on loser au?

I wnat to do more but life is beating me up, but two things I thought were funny

1. Bran/Dietrich's eagerness to take in a teenage cousin because he's broke, G/ermania having ONE SOLE incident of his kid not behaving and being like get the fuck out of my house (but i made it sadder bc HRE being sick is something i like to see transfer into human Aus with ludwig)

2. During college days: Tolys being a crazy ex and checking Gil's phone when he was sleeping just so he can be a hater on his and Ivan's dramatic teenage breakup texts makes me laugh

I want to really flesh out my b/randenburg, but I need to draw and compile and think so I'll save some ideas for later. Loser AU overview for anyone who wants more.

#hetalia #hws lithuania #hws prussia #hws brandenburg #hws germania #god i need to get my tagging system under control #ANOTHER DAY #also if anyone knows to hide following count on tumblr i will smooch you tenderly bc this account is old and the #count is SUPER inflated but still makes me a tad anxious idk #i hate seeing it on new tumblr against my will all the damn time i want to do maintenance on my blog :) #aph brandenburg #aph germania #aph prussia #aph lithuania

[stuckinapril]

I’m finally biting the bullet and contacting a therapist today after being ambivalent ab it for so long… this hellsite has its many disadvantages but one thing I can say is it has truly helped me be less scared of pursuing therapy. Silver lining etc etc

#And to be clear I have nothing against therapy. I’ve seen it do wonders for other people #I think the reason it’s a point of defeat (just a little) for me to be like ok. I need a therapist. Is bc I’m admitting to myself that I #need one to begin w. And I get it’s not healthy but I always liked to think I could handle anything by myself #That was even the whole point of this blog. It was supposed to serve as a conduit for these feelings #And I’m not saying I don’t have a support system. I do. I have many wonderful friends #But I struggle to be vulnerable at all tbh and whenever I am I’m guilty ab it bc #I understand so many people have busy lives & I feel like an emotional burden on them by venting #Despite them telling me that it’s totally fine. Obvi a therapist is literally paid to listen so no guilt there #And I think that’s what I need #I’m not like on the brink of a psychotic break or anything but it’s just little things. I think it’d be nice to sit in someone’s office for #One hour a week and just go. That did bother me actually. I am tired actually. I do feel that way actually. #Rather than just burying my feelings w school and a busy schedule #I don’t think therapy will make me any less of a workaholic anytime soon but it’ll at least allow me to slow down one hour a week #And also not bottle shit up so fuckin much #But ya all of this is to say I’m drafting the email to her RIGHT now . #Starting the day off strong by oversharing on tumblr dot com

[fuckyeahagainstme]

Sometimes you just can't turn back no matter how much you would like to. Days come where change is necessary for survival. I've spent the past two years denying the fact. Trying to find myself in a person that I struggled to be, but just wasn't. There are many ways to achieve dreams, this just isn't the way. I can still remember every last look, as I acknowledged that while this may only be good bye for the moment, nothing will ever be the same. I've tried to rebuild relationships countless times to no avail. The bags I've accumulated from pushing everything down inside time and time again always proves itself too heavy to cope with. Screened thoughts are passed out, not on purpose, victim of habit. Celebrated tradition of denying release.

- Vivida-Vis! track listing page in the lyrics and other associated writings booklet Image source: Discogs

#against me! #vivida-vis! #laura jane grace #1998 #misc #n e ways. i know the image is That Quality #but i really liked this so im posting nonetheless #ill get back to filling queue with old posts and photography eventually i PROMMY #for now u will take random drafts of shit i find interesting #one of these days ill experiment with a new tagging system too #and posting a taglist

[disengaged]

so i left the psych ward against medical advice 💁

they detained me for hours (while classified as a voluntary patient) and when i told them it was illegal a nurse looked me in the face and told me he didn't care about my rights 👍

& then when i got upset about being illegally detained he told me getting emotional is evidence that i am incompetent and if they want they can just keep forming me for it as long as they want 👍

and then they ignored me for two hours and refused to give me my belongings. and also called four (4) giant male security guards to have on standby 👍 even though i have zero history of violence, am 5'5" and weigh (not much) and previously disclosed to them many, many times that i have a history of ptsd, part of which is specifically hospital trauma 👍

and then they locked me in a room and searched all of my belongings to find a reason to form me 👍

like i'm gonna throw up thinking about it. (also they still have my wallet with all my IDs and credit cards.)

anyways i got the fuck out. and it was like 12:30am but my friend picked me up and i had a fucking panic-oh-fuck-oh-shit-meltdown in his car . but i went and took a shower and then he drove me to another hospital

and they formed me too except it's way nicer here and the staff are so nice. & the unit is way bigger and quieter . and they actually listened to me and referred me to a rheumatologist (after ...... 6-7 years of begging various doctors to be taken seriously)

and i have hope for the first time in a long time! & i'm getting discharged tomorrow :)

#bit nervous. the usual 'feeling like an alien/shaky baby deer' thing i suppose #but i have a plan for going home and at the end of the month i have an intake to a 5week day patient program #i'm off work until the end of june which is weird but i guess for the best. since my stress tolerance and fatigue is at an all-time low #i want to register a complaint against the staff at that hospital except i don't think i have the energy #it was so stressful and dehumanizing and ever since i've been having nightmares again and im scared every time someone wakes me up #but i also just want to forget about it #just go home and get my life in order and rest and feel more normal #this whole thing has been so awful #and i'm glad i'm safe but so much of it was so unnecessary and im so mad at the healthcare system #pegasus speaks #ask 2 tag

[shima-draws]

Currently in my banging my head against the wall phase. Hope you all are well 🥰

#Doc told me to schedule another MRI on Tuesday. They said they sent the order over on Tuesday. #I call on Tuesday to schedule the appointment. They don't have the referral yet #I called yesterday to try and schedule. They STILL don't have the referral #I message my doc and make sure they actually sent it over to the right place. (They did.) #They say they'll fax it over again! Great! #I call AGAIN today. They STILL don't have the referral #Bro I just need to schedule this fucking MRI so I can find out what's WRONG with me #The girl on the phone was like 'Oh yeah we're real busy we get orders all the time it must not have hit the system yet' #BRO IT'S BEEN THREE DAYS. HOW HAS NOBODY SEEN IT. TEARING my hair out #I went to their website to try and schedule online. Guess what? THEIR GODDAMN SCHEDULING ASSISTANT IS DOWN FOR MAITENANCE #SCREAMS #Anyway yes so in my banging my head against the wall phase. I'm so tired #And still in pain! To nobody's surprise!! #They can't fix what's wrong with me if I can't even get in to get an MRI. Hello. PLEASE #This isn't really smth that can wait a couple weeks #I should've been in to see them like YESTERDAY. #My pain is so bad I had to stay at home today. And I go and ice my back every hour or so #Bc I can't sit down for more than 45 minutes without wanting to kill myself ;)))) #Shima speaks #I'M SORRY I'm just so. I've been over this for months. And now that I'm THIS close to getting answers #I can't. Seem to get these people to schedule an appointment for me #Grinds my teeth

[thenightwinggraveyard]

a naruto blurb i wrote trying to get a feel for sakuras character

sakura knew better than to be needlessly reckless with her life.

an insight her fellow team seven members unfortunately didn’t share. 

sasuke did anything to achieve his goals, even if it hurt him or the people around him. naruto had a hero complex bigger than the sky; if dying meant saving just one person then it would have been worth it. it was admirable, and so very naruto it hurt. 

sakura wasn’t like them. she didn’t have all-encompassing goals and determination, and she knew she was too selfish to ever be considered a hero. 

what good is she dead? why lay down her life when she could come up with a strategy that would save people and ensure herself one more day? 

it wasn’t easy work being a shinobi, a fact that slapped her in the face when she was younger. being a hero meant being a memory. she was content to leave the heroics to the others.

she ignored the voice screaming otherwise. 

she wasn’t like her teammates. if she tried any of the careless acts they’ve carried out she’d be dead. she’d be another lost comrade to avenge. she didn’t have naruto’s endless stamina and chakra, or sasukes precise hits and powerful jutsu. 

she was sakura haruno, a clanless shinobi destined to be left behind. stuck staring at naruto and sasukes backs.

…

#sakura #haruno #sakura haruno #insecurity #naruto #naruto shippuden #anime #writing #blurb #kunoichi #shinobi #ninja #the disease of ​believing what everyone told you about yourself #there is a burning inside her i imagine that started the day ami and her friends started bullying her #there’s some kind of burning inside me #it’s kept me from falling apart #and i’m sure you’ve seen what it’s done to my heart #but it’s kept me from falling apart #mitski #goodbye my danish sweetheart #imagine being told you’re weak and annoying and insignificant for years and being against a system which considers you canon fodder #if you cannot tell i have strong feelings for sakura haruno

[obeetlebeetle]

what if, by falling in love, you found yourself able and willing to protect those that cared about you? what if, unable to be anything but loyal, you finally devoted yourself to protecting someone who would protect you in turn? what if devotion to someone who loves you could be instrumental in your own salvation?

#i didnt say her name but it popped into your head anyways #god. if hob was in tlt he would simply get so eaten so fast #cav-coded little freak! #it is really interesting to see this crop up in a regency drama -- bc like obviously it's feeding off the same source material that taz. #..is using to critique certain aspects of love (pyrrha's toast to camilla be one of the more chilling lines in ntn) #but . well acofaf is obviously working in a very different register #i feel like actual play as a medium allows ppl to tell these very honest stories abt how community and affection actually work #bc we see hob and rue build all these other networks to work against their repressive systems #so love&devotion becomes a very different force -- one that is not undermined by the rules of their society #but instead undermines the rules themselves #insane day for me #kprue #acofaf #battlemaster of ceremonies #ruehob

[spotsupstuff]

Okay, I need to know how Sparrow's job was saved by Boreas. What did he do that let her win the case?

Also, was there a reaction from the High class Ancients as for why Boreas was defending Sparrow?

Boreas' involvement with the case was all very hush hush. he reached Deep into his big macho core to pull out some of that feminine manipulation and planning skills (oh wow he has those) and called up Sparrows. with her, he was all genuine and gentle for once. cuz she was all stressed, her eyes were puffy from crying cuz she just doesn't know how to save this (she studied as a Mechanic not a Lawyer, goddammit!!! she doesn't know this! neither do i so gimbe a break if anythin) and he admitted to himself that "alright Three Sparrows can be a part of the family, the girl is now my responsibility to keep safe" those two years ago

so he tells her that he has a plan. it shall be based from the truth- she trusted Euros with telling her about things like that, she was "too" kind- but we shall spin it even further without revealing your two's relationship. Boreas kind of played the role of her lawyer, basically

the main key was getting some evidence to back up the claims that Three Sparrows on a Wire is far too empathetic when interacting with Iterators. Boreas guided Sparrows to call upon her old teachers/school for evidence of that (and also then to show off her good grades to prove that she Is competent). the evidence, of course, ends up being all the footage of her lessons and tests that's saved in Boreas' memory since he has his consciousness in the entirety of the facilities and the city. he IS the security system of himself

now, taking out things from Boreas' memories isn't such an uncommon thing. it is invasive and typical Iterators don't have to go thru this, but he does. accessing him like this is usually done for quite recent things to prove a crime or smth, however. Sparrows attended the school like 40 years ago so it requires a Deep Dive into his memories and oh he HATES that. so That's a little sacrifice he does for her sake. opens his mind up to smth like that and lets people dig through him for the required footage without trying his damnest to be inconvenient like usually

with this memories combing thing also comes being a lil shady about stuff like this, too (needs to keep his memories of spending time with Zephyr a secret from his Houses). so he helps Euros falsify some of his own memories to make himself look worse and Sparrows better (cuz what can they do against their Own Iterator? they won't reset/wipe him over This)

and so all of this proves that Sparrows was sort of a damsel in distress in the Rot situation and got bitten terribly because of being a Good person. they can't fire her for being just a good person! that would look bad in their little religious community!!!! so she gets off with the warning/requirement to be sharper and... more merciless/meaner (they say "strict") while interacting with Euros i suppose

n das how Boreas bails her out!

#Spot says stuff #rw #oc tag #boreas n sparrows r especially fascinating to me cuz like! boreas has known her longest out of the anemoi iterators. she has forged Some- #-kind of bond to him before anyone else really. their relationship goes through the most drastic changes from boreas lightly bullying her- #-during her school days to Almost managing to kill her and be her first death and then it ends with him letting her teach him how to sing- #-and even check up on his puppet's internal systems. he hasn't had a check up in Centuries. everyone just counts on his self-sufficiency #one of sparrows favorite songs is iris covered by chris lanzon. she once plays it through her phone while hanging out with boreas n they- #-just. end up sitting side by side sharing a quiet moment while they listen to a sad song. it helps forging a certain kinship between the 2 #their journey is so fascinating to me n seein Boreas lettin himself open up n care for n hide under his chlamys an ancient is... wow... #hes the angry guy!! hes supposed to be the mad sharp one! but then he softly pulls her against his side because shes shivering and like oh #-slaps the top of me blog- dis do be full of euros but fun fact my favorite child is still boreas

[lynaferns]

School is draining any small motivation I had for art

or creativity in general

(tw: I got pretty much depressive in the tags but I needed to dump this somewhere and this may not be the best place but is where I feel better talking about my problems or insecurities, so feel free to ignore)

#vent in the tags #tw vent #i'm tired #and I hate that I'm tired #everytime I try to finish education is worst than the last time. my head can't take any sort of information from the class #no matter how many times they try to explain me or how many times I read and reread the same text #I can't focus. I can't memorize anything. I'm just sitting there in the classroom waiting for the 4 hours to finish to go back home #and spend the rest of the night just doing nothing. staring at the walls or doomscrolling till I have to go to bed and wake up again #for another day of fighting against an stupid anxiety attack in class because I'm going to fail this again #I hate school. I fucking hate it. the most boring stressing overwhelming way of learning #having the teacher talk for 1-2 hours straight and the student listening the whole time not saying anything is stupid #it's so fucking stupid they only want them to be mindless sheeps that only listen #because if you say anything 'no. you're wrong. I'm the teacher and I know better' fucking bullshit #this system is bullshit #and how am I supposed to study a whole school year of history. biology. math etc in less than 4 months?? #everybody was like #'oh it's just 4 months and you'll be out of school!' 'in 4 months you'll get the education!' 'you can finish this in just 4 months!' #I fucking can't! I can't do this in such short time! I can't. focus. on 6. subjects at the same time. my brain can't! #and it's so fucking depressing. I have 4 opportunities to finish this. the longest it could take me is 2 years #I could just focus on 1 or 2 things each time but if I fail too many times I won't have another opportunity like this ever again #and I won't be able to finish highschool education and I. just. can't. #I'm tired of giving my biggest effort and not being enough. I'm tired of getting no satisfaction from any achievement I get #I hate so many things right now #and I have a lot more things in my head right now but I better shut up #you don't have to comfort me. it's ok. I'm not searching for confort. I just needed a place to dump my frustration or something #idk #you can ignore this #I might delete this later

[thatfaerieprincess]

Feel free to skip on past this, I’ve just gotta ramble for a minute bc i cant stop thinking about this kid from work last week. They were so much like me at that age (5-6th grade) that I didn’t know how to interact with them? I didn’t know what to say to them bc I don’t know what I needed to hear back then, what I would’ve WANTED to hear? What would I have even listened to? They were almost entirely silent and looked out at the world with a hesitant curiosity, but would pull back so fast as soon as you tried to interact w them. Little to no eye contact, face hidden in hair, always looking down, following others until they could strike off on their own and just quietly explore. Intently focusing on drawing any chance they got. We did an art project and they hunched over their piece the entire time and wouldn’t let any of us see it in progress, refusing to look up or acknowledge us if we asked to see it or to know what it was. Idk. I barely interacted w them while they were with us for those few days bc I didn’t know how? It almost hurt to try? It was like looking back into a time machine and i didn’t know how to tell them that it does get better,,, I still don’t even know if where I am is better, some days feel so unsure that I don’t think I’ve made any progress at all. But seeing that kid, idk. I’ve come pretty far. And it DOES get better. Maybe it’s not the best now, or even that great at all, but it’s better. I wish I could’ve told them but I don’t think they’d have wanted to hear it anyway

#im a rambling sam #I’m in a weird place again since getting here for this season of work #idk maybe I’ve been in a weird place all year probably #I don’t think I’m that far from where I was at that age but I know I am there’s just still so much further to go #one day I think it’ll feel easier but maybe not today #I do love working w kids but I’m considering going into horticulture instead of outdoor education bc I don’t know if I can handle this #I can #but god I don’t know #in my heart I’m still that exact kid and she’s still in there so damn anxious and unsure and needing to observe the world and everyone in it #just to get some sense of understanding of just what the fuck is going on around here #but by the time I’ve gotten a good handle on what is going on everything is already so set in place and my place is outside the system and I #I don’t know how to step into it #sorry sorry I’m still rambling I’m having a weird day I probably just haven’t eaten nearly enough in the last few days and I’m about to #start teaching on my own this week which is terrifying and I can’t stop thinking abt that damn kid I wish they stayed longer I think #we probably would’ve gotten along #but groups only come here for a couple days and then go home which is v weird after having the same kids for 3 weeks for summer camp #idk life gets better and it gets worse and sometimes u grow into the world a little more but there’s still a mute child in your ribcage #little hands pressed up against ur ribs like laying a palm against a bus window #I put my hand over my sternum as if we could press our hands together thru time #when I was that age I used to pretend to have someone around me like an imaginary friend but usually it was a book character that I liked #and I’d talk to myself in my head like having a conversation and giving myself motivation and assurances from someone else to me #and now I’m here and I still talk to myself like that but without the imagined friend as a buffer I just talk to myself in my head #now I’m the imaginary friend for the little Sam that lives in my chest #when I talk to myself I’m talking to her #I’m giving her the assurance she needed back then #the assurance I still need now #I am here for her so I am here for myself #this is getting poetically nonsensical maybe it’s time for bed

[ljandersen]

hey girl 😭,

I just finished reading ur fanfic sideways and i was just wondering when part 5 is coming out, cos that cliffhanger left me ispeechless and i NEED more 😭😭😭💔

I'm so glad you enjoyed Sideways! I wrote it with so much love and emotion. I'm so gratified when readers are moved by it too!

For an update on Sideways Part 5, it's not currently on my front burner. That's not to say I'm no longer writing, and I haven't forgotten about it. In fact, my current project is distantly connected, so Sideways is never far from my mind.

There were many factors that influenced my decision to shift priorities. I spent two years writing Sideways. I spent an additional two years, not writing anything new, simply editing. And I hate editing.

Each part of Sideways has become progressively more labor-intensive. Part 5 will require the most work by far. It requires adjusting storylines, writing new scenes, and rewriting old scenes. I have to type it up from handwritten notebooks.

As the editing has grown more demanding, the fandom has grown more quiet (broadly speaking). It's only natural post-lockdown and MELE hype, but it's discouraging.

I came to the point where I was burned out. Having my work stolen and published on Amazon pushed me past the tipping point. I needed a break.

On the flip side, with the AI revolution, it felt like I needed to follow my dreams. If it's not now, it will literally be never.

Who knows where we'll be in five years or even just one? Will authors be displaced by prompt writers? Instead of devotion to craft and intricate storytelling, someone will push a key and churn out hundreds of novels from an algorithm? Quality is easily overwhelmed by quantity in the marketplace.

I've dreamed of being an author since before I knew how to write my first word. It's upsetting to fail at a dream, but what happens when that dream simply ceases to exist?

For those reasons, I chose to reprioritize my project. While I love Sideways and the readers who support me -- I miss them! -- I knew it was time to shift focus. I need a chance to write something new instead of only editing. Most important of all, the window for my dream is closing and I need to be there for it.

I have my first draft of Part 5 in a safe. It's waiting for me, and I'll be back for it soon. For now, I think about it every day and have every intention of finishing it.

#anon ask #sideways update #my writing #Thank you for the ask! #Sorry it took me a few days to respond #Hopefully you still see this anon #Additionally I am working on how to protect my work from theft #Theft from a person #I don't think I or anyone else knows how to protect it from corporations and their AI #I applaud the actors and screenwriters standing against exploitation by AI (in addition to others points of course) #I wish as creatives we all had a way to push back #To protect our work #To prevent being replaced by a system that exploited us as individuals to ultimately exploit us again as a community #Anyway answering this question wasn't focused on AI but it's definitely a factor in making choices as a writers right now #on AI writing #on fandom #on fanfic #on plagarism

[twistedappletree]

wtf is even the point of western medicine fr

#been fighting this stupid ass flu SO hard #and all the crappy otc shit did nothing #until i was finally able to see my chinese medicine doctor #and literally everything he gave me kicked the majority of my symptoms in a few hours #lmAO #LIKE #CHEAPER THAN WESTERN MEDICINE TOO???? #is2g it’s all designed to make you spend more and more fucking money that’s all they care about #fever aches chills sore throat runny nose cough - all gone after 1 dose of herbs #and that’s only 1 of 4 for the day #anyway #go to your preferred trad doctor if you have a flu you’re gonna feel way better than whatever westerners give u #apple babble 🍎 #non fandom #also editing before anyone flips #i’m NOT against modern medicine #just the fucked up system that makes it so inaccessible #and the majority of western otc shit that literally does jack shit #gotta clarify bc there’s always that one person that’s like #‘AcUpUnCtUrE cAnT cUrE cAnCeR’ no shit sherlock #but some trad medicine legitimately works for low tier health conditions #and it’s more affordable in western countries #which some of us need bc we can’t fucking afford a $15000 doctor visit lmAO #exaggeration for dramatic effect so chill tf out thnx

[sharkbaitju1ce]

Schools: "bullying is bad!"

Schools when you stand up for yourself after years of bullying: "heyyy.. so, we can't punish that guy for bullying you for 5 years straight, but we CAN put you in isolation!!!"

#hi im angry rn #like FUCK YOU MEAN i gotta sit in a little room all day for finally protecting myself?? #HELLO??? #ESPECIALLY WHEN ITS RACISM AND TRANSPHOBIA (in my case) #LIKE YOU ARE PUNISHING ME 4 STANDING UP AGAINST SOMETHING YOU TEACH AS WRONG??? DUDE. #rant #fuck you school system

[torgawl]

literally obsessed with that one stupid page about the 4 samsara cycles by the narzissenkreuz ordo and the concept of descenders. what exactly are the "remains" of the third descender? does that mean their physical form or something else entirely?

#i feel like i can point out a few things i feel are relevant to understanding the big picture but then don't know how to connect everything #i REALLY think something is up with time in teyvat as a whole #you cannot tell me the fact istaroth has been worships before in teyvat and no longer is and the only way it has preserved through time #and consequently the samsaras has been through stories (like we experience in sumeru) isn't extremely relevant #it has to be!!! it's unwanted information in the 'system' #much like forbidden knowledge which we know is associated with the fall of multiple civilizations #and what is also associated with places that have been targetted by celestia's nails? irminsul branches #the same irminsul that records all information in teyvat #the same irminsul we can assume dain uses to continue to live till this day breaking free from erosion #erosion from 'time' that affects even the gods?! #is erosion even natural in the first place? #curses by the heavenly principles... fear against otherwordly information... cycles of life... #4 cycles... 4 descenders... 4 shades of phanes (2 unknown)... #the samsara cycles having names of civilizations/regions... #what's connecting these things? #natlan's incsndescant ode of ressurection... ressurection... gnosis being remains of the third descender... #the tsaritsa collecting the gnosis... i know there's a connection there has to be #i really think time is fucked up in teyvat like what if the entire thing is just timeless? #i feel like i have the brain the size of a pea #could the descenders be us or our twin in different 'times'? #the concept of the gnosis fucked me up i don't understand it genuinely what are remains and can they coexist with the supposed 3rd or not #genshin thoughts

[inklore]

thinking about Hobie doing disgusting things to me while softly telling me how pretty and beautiful i am and afterwards, he whispers "thank you" into my skin 😊 i am soooo normal about that spider-punk

all i gotta say is🧍🏽‍♀️🧎🏾‍♀️and a follow up of 😫💦

#there’s something about him that just makes me want to rebel against the system but also get him INTO my system winkwink #i was having a good day and now i’m suffering #▸ laur answers