#casdean purgatory

[vendettasfanfictioning]

AND ANOTHER THING Destiel's first rodeo down at Purgatory did not need to happen when they exploded Dick Roman. Cas did not fucking need to be that close to Dean and Dean could've survived on his own with Benny—in fact that would've taken some of the heat off of Destiel now that Dean's just making friends with non-humans, even blowing off Sam at some point because Benny called—but nooooooo they got trapped in their own narrative.

They made the Destiel girlies even more delusional by taking creative choices like "I prayed to you, Cas! Every night!" and "I ain't leaving here without you, Cas," but also "they were after me, I had to get away from you," and that whole memory reset Dean had to do, post-Purgatory. NOT TO MENTION building himself an actual reputation in Purgatory that the monsters just started referring to Castiel as his [Dean's] angel. Because that's literally what he was.

Like seriously, they could've cured Crazy!Cas with one hastily written cure or sent him to therapy idk but they could have solved that topside. Cas would've been fine eventually but no what did they decide on doing? Yeah sped up the process but also kickstarting even more Destiel shenanigans—because that's exactly what happens when Sam is out of the picture and Dean and Cas can be framed together in a non-platonic way.

I hate this show.

#destiel rant #destiel rants #spn #supernatural #dean winchester #castiel #casdean #deancas #purgatory

[lab-trash]

Dean singing Take Me To Church to Castiel while they're in purgatory.

#'the only heaven ill be sent to is when im alone with you' #and whats benny's in the corner like 'yall are gay. good for you. good for you.' #or whatever #supernatural #purgatory #castiel #spn castiel #castiel spn #purgatory destiel #destiel #deancas #casdean #dean winchester #benny lafitte #take me to church #hozier #i feel like i dont have the right to tag that actually #im definately not the first person to think of this #but if you know of a fic or some art #please link to it

[jonasdirection101]

Benny: “Can I ask you something?”

Dean: “Yeah, of course.”

Benny, talking about Cas: “If it was just down to him and me, and you had to make a choice, who would get the goodbye? Who would it be?”

Dean, looking down before bringing his head up to look at Benny: “I love him, Benny. He came into my life at a time when I needed someone and I fell for him instantly. No matter what I feel for you, I… I never unfall for him.”

Benny, looking down: “Hey, I get it. It’s Castiel. It’s always gonna be Castiel.”

#incorrect quotes #supernatural incorrect quotes #incorrect supernatural quotes #benny lafitte #dean winchester #castiel #purgatory #Denny #destiel #cas x dean #cas and dean #casdean #dean x castiel #dean x benny #hunter #angel of the lord

[insanesonofabitch]

I can’t find it but I just remembered that damned post about how Dean fighting off souls in purgatory for a year to get to Cas mirrors Cas fighting demons in hell to get to Dean and now all I can think about is how both of them, during those times, felt that they didn’t deserve to be saved.

#destiel #deancas #casdean #dean winchester #castiel #dean x castiel #purgatory #purgaytory #supernatural #spn #lazarus rising #a little slice of kevin #spn 4x01 #spn 8x07

[rosstrytobe]

I was the one catching the parallels here then...

Also, the "i need you" part started pack...

#eric kripke im hundrr your bed #how dare you #i knew hughie and starlight were too similar to destiel #but cmon #hughie x annie #hughie and starlight #destiel #purgatory #jensen ackles #misha collins #dean x cas #casdean #destiel parallels

[what-if-i-just-did]

Destiel Prompt List 6. Purgatory

Trigger Warnings: mention of always being alert for danger, self-sacrificial behaviour

Purgatory Prayers

Dean pants. He looks around. Benny's on look-out, but this is Purgatory. The essence of where he is disallows him from being anything but alert and hypervigilent. He takes a deep breath. "Hey Cas." He starts. "We're.. we're getting closer, I think. Closer to you." He leans back against the closest tree and lets his eyes fall shut. "I.. I miss you, man. I need you back... Fuck I really hope you've been getting these." He slides down untill he's sitting, makes sure his blade is easy to grab. "I hope you're okay, man. This place... every creepy crawly I've ever gutted is out for revenge here, and you're an angel, so it's probably a dozen times worse for you. Or maybe it isn't. You never hunted. I don't really see heaven dispatching angels to kill a ghoul or a vamp. I don't know..." He's avoiding the subject, he knows. Dean decided a while ago that he was going to tell Cas today. "You know it's been ten months? The days... everything kinda bleeds together here, but I've been keeping track. I might be a little off, actually, but Hell, who's gonna tell me different, right?" He bows his head. "Look, Cas... I love you. Fuck, I've said it. I love you. Not like a friend, not like a brother, but like a... I don't know what the right word is actually. Lover? I don't expect.. Boyfriend? You're not a guy. Something like that, anyway. I don't expect anything of you, but I just... I had to say it. I had to. Because I need to find you. I need you- I love you. I gotta stop mixing the two up. You know, I gotta lotta time to think, down here, about shit. 'bout Sammy, and 'bout my dad and things. Y'know? An' I realized I've been telling you I need you instead of I love ya. But, you know- you, you deserve to know. You should know." He doesn't hide the break in his voice when he says, "I really fuckin' hope you can hear me, Cas. I miss you." Determination returns to his voice with, "I'll find you. I'll find you." His breath stutters a bit, a semblance of a yawn escaping him. "G'night Cas."

-

-

Castiel closes his eyes, mustering his strength not to fly to Dean, not to undo all the miles he's put between them. He's not sure he believes this. He can imagine a thousand reasons why this could be a lie, or not Dean, or something else that makes it so he will still never have Dean. But hearing Dean say that, say those things- it only fuels his determination to keep Dean safe. To stay far away from him. To never endanger Dean again, even if it means being hunted and chased for the rest of eternity, untill he slips up and something happens. He'll keep Dean safe. He'll always keep Dean safe.

#destiel #purgatory #castiel #dean winchester #deancas #casdean #destiel fic

[ao3feeddestiel]

Chances Are You've Made A Very Poor Career Choice

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/kxmFifT by HeartOfStars The year is 2013. Sam has just taken on the trials to close hell, Dean is simultaneously trying to make sure his brother doesn't die and continuing to process everything that happened in Purgatory, and when they need him most, Castiel is nowhere to be found. In the midst of all this, a case springs up in the middle of Utah involving an ancient pizzeria, possessed animatronics, and the realization that the brothers may have been there before. At the same time, as well as twenty years earlier, the year is 1993. Mike Schmidt has just accepted the job of his dreams. AKA the Supernatural-Five Nights At Freddy's crossover that somehow doesn't already exist (at least, not the way this has been written). Is this an absolutely insane idea? Yes. However, it was begging to be written, so here it is. Enjoy. Words: 3017, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005), Five Nights at Freddy's Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Graphic Depictions Of Violence Categories: Gen Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Michael Afton, Henry Emily, Castiel (Supernatural), William Afton | Dave Miller, Marionette | The Puppet, Mike Schmidt (Five Nights at Freddy's), Classic Animatronics | Five Nights at Freddy's 1 Animatronics, Jeremy Fitzgerald, John Winchester, Original Male Character(s), Original Female Characters (s) Relationships: Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester, Michael Afton & William Afton | Dave Miller, Castiel/Dean Winchester, Castiel & Dean Winchester, Michael Afton & Henry Emily, William Afton | Dave Miller & Henry Emily, Michael Afton & The Crying Child, Dean Winchester & John Winchester & Sam Winchester Additional Tags: Supernatural-FNAF Crossover, yes I understand that that is kind of an insane combination, but also fnaf feels like a thing that could very easily have been a supernatural episode, Alternate Universe - Fusion, Horror, in both the supernatural and fnaf sense, so be careful, Gen or Pre-Slash, honestly you can read the casdean interactions however you want those bitches are weird, Angst with a Happy Ending, Michael Afton is The Crying Child's Older Brother, Sam Winchester Needs a Hug, Michael Afton Needs a Hug, Everyone Needs A Hug, Psychological Trauma, Time Shenanigans, it's confusing but it'll get explained later, Michael Afton Doesn't Get Scooped, Dean Winchester Being Dean Winchester, Season/Series 08, Body Horror, Child Murder, Mike Schmidt Being Funny, really he's a riot, Parent Henry Emily, Hurt/Comfort, Blood and Gore, Springtrap Being Generally Terrifying, good old family bonding time, Bad Parent William Afton | Dave Miller, Bad Parent John Winchester, god these tags are a doozy, Have fun everyone read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/kxmFifT

#IFTTT #Chances Are You've Made A Very Poor Career Choice #HeartOfStars

[ao3feed-destiel-02]

Chances Are You've Made A Very Poor Career Choice

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/GrSeAKH by HeartOfStars The year is 2013. Sam has just taken on the trials to close hell, Dean is simultaneously trying to make sure his brother doesn't die and continuing to process everything that happened in Purgatory, and when they need him most, Castiel is nowhere to be found. In the midst of all this, a case springs up in the middle of Utah involving an ancient pizzeria, possessed animatronics, and the realization that the brothers may have been there before. At the same time, as well as twenty years earlier, the year is 1993. Mike Schmidt has just accepted the job of his dreams. AKA the Supernatural-Five Nights At Freddy's crossover that somehow doesn't already exist (at least, not the way this has been written). Is this an absolutely insane idea? Yes. However, it was begging to be written, so here it is. Enjoy. Words: 3017, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005), Five Nights at Freddy's Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Graphic Depictions Of Violence Categories: Gen Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Michael Afton, Henry Emily, Castiel (Supernatural), William Afton | Dave Miller, Marionette | The Puppet, Mike Schmidt (Five Nights at Freddy's), Classic Animatronics | Five Nights at Freddy's 1 Animatronics, Jeremy Fitzgerald, John Winchester, Original Male Character(s), Original Female Characters (s) Relationships: Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester, Michael Afton & William Afton | Dave Miller, Castiel/Dean Winchester, Castiel & Dean Winchester, Michael Afton & Henry Emily, William Afton | Dave Miller & Henry Emily, Michael Afton & The Crying Child, Dean Winchester & John Winchester & Sam Winchester Additional Tags: Supernatural-FNAF Crossover, yes I understand that that is kind of an insane combination, but also fnaf feels like a thing that could very easily have been a supernatural episode, Alternate Universe - Fusion, Horror, in both the supernatural and fnaf sense, so be careful, Gen or Pre-Slash, honestly you can read the casdean interactions however you want those bitches are weird, Angst with a Happy Ending, Michael Afton is The Crying Child's Older Brother, Sam Winchester Needs a Hug, Michael Afton Needs a Hug, Everyone Needs A Hug, Psychological Trauma, Time Shenanigans, it's confusing but it'll get explained later, Michael Afton Doesn't Get Scooped, Dean Winchester Being Dean Winchester, Season/Series 08, Body Horror, Child Murder, Mike Schmidt Being Funny, really he's a riot, Parent Henry Emily, Hurt/Comfort, Blood and Gore, Springtrap Being Generally Terrifying, good old family bonding time, Bad Parent William Afton | Dave Miller, Bad Parent John Winchester, god these tags are a doozy, Have fun everyone read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/GrSeAKH

#IFTTT #ao3feed #fanfic #(your tags here)

[ldrmas]

Okay so things about 15x09

If I dont see Benny then I will literally be disappointed!!!

If the episode opens up with God killing Eileen then im going to throw my screen!!!

Dean better make a loving prayer to Cas not just a random prayer.

I'm excited but pissed we gotta wait til Jan 16th! Arghhh!! Oh well back to Ao3 i guess.

#spn 15x08 #spn 15x09 #spn s15 #jan 16th #benny #if eileen dies again #spn eileen #spn benny #cas/dean #dean/cas #purgatory #casdean purgatory

[chocolatecakecas]

Misha did not sit down on that bed after they told him it was "too gay", for you to turn around and say this about him I-

#guys.....guys....cmon #he was literally joking and hes literally been one of the only people on our side for the past 12 years #the man said dean was a bottom in purgatory what is not clicking folks #misha collins #destiel #castiel #bec speaks #dean winchester #desncas #casdean #mish cameos

[kazifer]

Shoutout to that one unnamed Leviathan in 15x09 that had to deal with Dean&Cas drama

#supernatural fanart #my art #fanart #spn fanart #comic art #destiel #deancas #destiel fanart #spn s15 #15x09 #spn 15x09 #15x09 the trap #castiel fanart #dean winchester #castiel #casdean #I cant believe dean and castiel had a whole breakup plot line #purgaytory 2.0 #purgatory #purgaytory #web comics #comicpage #my artwork

[5typesoftrash]

15x09 || Dean's prayer

#destiel #deancas #casdean #supernatural #supernatural spoilers #supernatural season 15 #supernatural s15 #spn spoilers #spn season 15 #spn s15 #spn 15x09 #supernatural 15x09 #spn #dean winchester #purgatory #otp: the greatest love story ever told #deansil gifs #blue #dw

[waywxrdwitch]

dean’s prayers to cas in purgatory

so a few days back i was thinking about how dean prayed to cas every night in purgatory and then i started imaging what it would have been like and i made myself cry so here is what i was imagining it to be, enjoy!

It would have started off with more aggressive prayers like,

“Cas, where are you man? You better get your feathery ass down here.”

But as days would have passed it would change to Dean just being concerned for Cas’ safety rather than being angry at him,

“Cas, You better not die on me here you son of a bitch. If you do, i swear i’ll kill you.”

And when he met Benny, he would tell him stories of Sam and Cas, Cas would hear them all and smile, until he feels his eyes well up with tears because Dean’s voice is breaking telling Benny how it broke him to see Cas go in the water.

Some days Dean wouldn’t have it in him to say a prayer, but he would close his eyes, say “Cas...” but would break down crying. Cas would hear it and cry too...

#dean winchester #castiel #deancas #casdean #dean and castiel #dean and cas #Destiel #desteil is canon #dean and cas in purgatory #purgatory #destiel in purgatory #dean prays to cas

[spnsmile]

my humanity

Cas loves Dean here 8x5

#relieving season 8 purgatory #loving cas there #loving his ass jealousy too #and dean #ahh gimme gif #destiel #purgatory #casdean #benny lafitte #dean winchester #castiel #profound bonding in purgatory

[trenchcoatimpala]

🥺 can you write a fic about Dean going through withdrawal in purgatory

He was drinking A LOT before that in the show, and he was definitely always drunk at that point, so I imagine when he got to purgatory he would have had the hangover of his life.

Destiel would be cool but also BeanDenny is absolutely welcome!

I love your fics and saw your post about requests so I thought why not give it a go

Hey anon! Thanks for the request :) I’ve often thought about Dean going through withdrawal in purgatory, so I was happy to write this. 

Read below the cut.

also on archive

The first day was hard. 

Dean trudged through the forests of purgatory, eyes scanning the trees warily for anything that might try to jump out at him. His body ached and he wanted nothing more than to collapse and let sleep take over, but he had to find Cas. The angel could have gone anywhere, he could be in trouble. Purgatory was no place to be alone. 

Dean still couldn’t figure out why Cas had left him, why he’d just up and vanished without an explanation. They’d stand a better chance if they stuck together. 

The longer he walked, the more his head began to hurt and his dry mouth called for something other than water. Eventually, he had to let his exhaustion drag him to the ground, where he sat under a tree, head leaning against the sharp bark, eyes fixed towards the gloomy sky. 

“Cas,” he whispered to the tree tops. “You got your ears on?” Dean paused, listening for the rustle of wings. When no sound came, he shut his eyes, drawing in a breath against the pound of his aching head. “Cas, buddy, please. Where are you? I’m gonna find you… I’m gonna...” he trailed off as sleep finally claimed him. 

The second day was harder. 

His headache hadn’t disappeared with sleep and he couldn't stop his hands from shaking. Dean forced himself to keep going, to stumble through the trees, grabbing onto their trunks to steady his unstable legs. Nausea rolled over him in waves and more than once he found his empty stomach heaving to expel a string of bile. 

His body screamed for alcohol that Dean couldn’t provide. 

But still, Dean pushed on, barely managing to fight off the monsters that got in his way, nearly losing his life twice. 

When night came, Dean didn’t even care to think about where he was stopping for the night, he didn’t survey the area or check for sleeping monsters, he just fell to the ground. 

“Cas,” he said in a whisper. “Please man, just come back.” 

The third day was the worst. 

Dean couldn’t move. He was pressed against a tree, energy completely drained from his body, queasy, head drumming with what could only be described as a migraine, and hands unfit to hold a gun. The only thing he could do was stay where he was, spit bile onto the ground and pray to Cas. 

It was probably midday when he saw him. 

The back of a dark head, a tan trench coat sweeping behind him as he walked. 

“Cas!” Dean called out, voice hoarse and degraded to a rasp. 

Cas didn’t turn around, he kept walking, each step talking him farther and farther away from Dean. 

“Cas, wait!” Dean tried to push himself to his feet but his legs didn’t seem to want to cooperate.

Eventually, Cas disappeared and Dean was left alone again, mind foggy, and heart aching for the angel to return to him. 

When Dean finally managed to get control of himself, it had been about a week. A week of crawling to streams and eating whatever he could find. A week of shaking hands, horrible headaches, and watching Cas, whom he’d come to understand wasn’t real, walk off in the distance, back always to Dean.

Monsters came and went, he managed to hide from most of them well enough, only fighting when he had to. But now that he’d recovered a bit, he knew he had to continue his quest for Cas, and the only way to find leads, as to the angels whereabouts, was to question the locals. 

That was how he found Benny. 

Dean was wary to trust him at first, a vampire is a vampire. But Dean had been a vampire once, and he’d met monsters that weren’t bad people, why not use Benny to find Cas. At the very least, it was nice to have someone to fight beside and cover his six. His hands would still often tremble when he held his blade, but Benny would pick up the slack, and he never questioned Dean’s issues. 

Dean didn’t notice the lingering touches at first. The squeeze of a shoulder with a hand that stayed for just a tiny bit longer than it should afterwards. There were also times when Dean caught Benny staring. His mind instantly wondered if Benny was sizing him up for a meal and would attack while he was asleep, but he quickly learned that those looks were filled with fondness. 

Sometimes he found himself wanting to lean into the touches, to run a hand over the beard on the vampire’s face just to feel the scratch of it under his fingers. There was so much pent up sexual energy building in Dean’s gut, and part of him wanted to jump Benny, slam him against a tree and capture his lips in a kiss. 

But there was always a voice in the back of his head, whispering one name over and over again: CasCasCas. 

His sudden feelings for Benny made his nightly prayers to Cas that much more desperate. He wanted to push those urges away because there was only one person -angel- that he wanted to be with, even if he was too much of a coward to admit it aloud.

As the days went on, and the hunt for Cas seemed to grow more and more futile, Dean’s want for a beer or a finger of whiskey dulled and Benny’s soft touches grew more frequent. 

Finally, Dean gave in. 

Benny kissed him hard and Dean let the vampire have his way. 

Two days later, they found Cas. 

Seeing him again, made guilt burn in his veins, like he’d somehow betrayed someone he’d never even been with. 

His attitude changed towards Benny, and even though there was hurt in Benny’s eyes, Dean couldn’t bring himself to acknowledge what they’d done. Being near Cas again reminded him of how much he’d missed him, how much he… 

Dean supposed that he hadn’t just gone through alcohol withdrawal, he’d gone through Cas withdrawal too. He’d been so used to the angel always being there, always a constant, always a shoulder to lean on. And being back in his presence made him want to reclaim what he’d been forced to give up. 

Maybe once they got out of purgatory he’d finally have the balls to tell Cas how he felt, or maybe he’d just disappear back into the bottle he’d been deprived of. 

Dean already knew which one he’d choose, but pretending it could go differently gave him the strength to climb up to the portal. But when Cas slipped through his fingers, the decision was made for him. 

The first drop of alcohol after purgatory sent fire burning down his throat, and Dean shut his eyes against the feeling he’d missed so much. The alcohol took away some of the pain, and he knew that no matter how long he went without it, he’d always end up running back, nestling safely against the curve of the bottle, warming his body against the flames that the liquid offered.

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[milfjodymills]

Dean doesn’t think Cas loves him because for him, love is sticking around. But Cas always leaves. Cas always leaves because he doesn’t think Dean loves him because Dean never asks him to stay. But Dean doesn’t ask him because the one time he did, Cas left anyway. So Dean never asks and Cas never stays. And Cas never stays and Dean never asks. And Dean never asks and Cas- 

#you see where I'm going with this #going around in circles #like headless fucking chickens #this is truly the miscommunication of the century #and they NEVER resolve it #i mean kinda in the purgatory prayer scene #but not really #DEANCAS #Destiel #casdean #supernatural #superatural fandom #SPN #spn fandom #dean winchester #castiel #cas