#dear future boyfriend

[creatingnikki]

Dear the love of my life,

Once again I attempt writing to you. But this time with a more grown up and different perspective. And yet with all this perspective, the words are harder to come out now. Everything feels too much, a lot of it hopeless, a lot of it doomed. But with the little hope and faith I find, I write this to you. To you who I know is out there. To you who is figuring his life out.

Where are you now? Bangalore? London? Mumbai? Toronto? Badlapur? New Mexico? Seoul? Delhi, perhaps? Wherever you are, I send you the kind of energy you need the most right now. As of 23rd August, 2022, my love, what is it that you need? Is it the warmth of someone's sincerity? Is it a miracle to fix a very sticky situation at work or home? Is it strength that your body needs? Is it strength that your mind needs? A good, comfort meal? Peace? Whatever it is, I ask the universe to send it to you — kindly, timely, consistently, and abundantly.

The person I am right now is seeking something so intensely to a point that I have started to stray away from my values and beliefs. To a point that I have started to treat breadcrumbs like a gracious feast prepared specially for me. But if I love bread so much and there are supply chain issues, shouldn't I be strategic and figure out ways to fix them? Quarter by quarter but fix them? That starts now.

As I sit in Third Wave Café sipping on a very milky, very sweet iced coffee with a flower bouquet I curated for my friend who is sitting across me writing a letter to his to-be fiancé, as I feel cold due to the air conditioner for the first time in Bangalore, as I think about everything that's happened in the last five months, I now know this.

This is not the life I want. This is not the life I am going to continue to let myself live. From now on I am going to make decisions that protect me, that provide me with the best, that bring me peace, and that give me power. For I am going to bloom into the person that has always been inside me, waiting politely for me to recognize how precious I am. And I truly hope that you too are able to make the decisions that honor the divine in you and pacify the undivine.

We will meet. We have met. We exist. Soon. Always. Other than this, I have no declarations of love to make. I have no expectations to articulate. We will build and we will nurture and we will love exactly how it is precious to us. And we will laugh and laugh and laugh.

Love,

Nikki

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[theloveofalonelyheart]

Dearest Cupid,

What about me ? Please.

-<\3

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[mixchronicles-futureboyfriend]

Dear Future Boyfriend – I Do… No Seriously, Forever I Do!!!

Some girls grow up dreaming about their wedding day. The white dress, the perfect groom, the Coming to America rose pedal walk way. “She’s Your Queen To Beeeee”… yeah, I am not some girls. Not that I don’t like cute dresses, handsome men and beautiful flowers.  It’s just I kinda never thought I’d get married (don’t worry neither did my mother).  While other girls made wedding collages and fantasized about their perfect day, I cringed on the inside and faked it on the outside. Yes, yes, I cannot wait to be stuffed into an oversize Cinderella dress, with a 10-foot train and a 20 lb. veil for 5 to 10 excruciating hours while my feet throb and my face hurt from flashing a 32 teeth megawatt grimace… I mean smile.  Definitely sounds like a dream, hosted by Freddy Krueger.  Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t cynical because I didn’t think I was marriage material.  I absolutely am. Actually, I’m the finest, most exquisite… the Vicuña of marriage material. It’s just I didn’t really see the point.  Well… that’s not true. I did understand the importance of having one sole emergency contact and not rotating it amongst your three best girlfriends depending on who’s in town. I also understood the possibility of dying alone in one’s home only to have your corpse eaten away by your 12 disloyal cats. No, the reason I never thought I’d get married is because I didn’t make marriage a priority.  When I visualized my life, marriage just didn’t matter.  Of course, I dated and even thought I was in love a time or ten, but I could never see me with that person long term. I was emotionally nearsighted. Actually, I might have been legally blind.  Well, that was until 2020.  When the world was on lockdown and people were fighting in their local Walmart over toilet paper, I was at home snugging with my doggie and wine, ready to ride out the wave of the pandemic.  But as the weeks passed, my wine ran low (kidding it never ran low) and the waves continued, it was actually a check-in call from my 70-year-old dentist that changed my perspective.  One evening, this kind man took a break from a family game of Scrabble to give me a call.  While laughing with his loved ones he grew concerned because he knew I was somewhere alone and single (and probably drunk).  At first, I thought, “Aweee that’s so sweet,” but then instantly I became troubled. As a single woman I could never clear the dinner dishes and enjoy a friendly game of Scrabble with my family.  Mainly because my family consisted of one small dog, but mostly because I’m a horrendous speller (yes Google helped me with that word) and my dog refused to play with me.  It was at that very point, Future (Current) Boyfriend, I knew it was time to find you. 

So how does one find their soulmate or at least someone to go enough of the distance with to qualify for a tax break?  Not sure, but at that point I knew it was time to try.  If the world was coming to an end, I decided I wanted mine to end with a special someone.  Finally, it was time to take dating seriously.  So, I did what any serious dater would do… I updated my Bumble profile.  It had been a while since I’d last been on the site so I needed to refresh my pictures and suspend my disbelief that only unemployed mactors (model/actor – both words used loosely) looking for a part-time relationship and a full-time crash pad, were the only men left on the site.  It was time to get back into the depressing dating cesspool pool of La La Land.  With an open mind and very low expectations I began swiping and to my surprise it took less than a week for me to be sitting across from you, Future (Current) Boyfriend.  Maybe it was your smile (when you dropped your mask), or your laugh, or the way you looked at me, or looked out for me, or perhaps it was your Midwestern roots and the way you stood up when I stood up, or that you asked about my wants, or shared your intentions, or when you suggested I try the bread, or when you ordered me another glass of wine (which is my love language btw), or when you walked closest to the street so I didn’t get mowed down by a truck or a car or a drunk kid cruising the PCH on a scooter, or maybe it was the conversation we shared overlooking the ocean, or the call to your aunt to tell her about me, or when you took my hand and said, “you have old lady hands” and then I laughed and you laughed and we laughed until the sun went down and the moon came up...  Actually, I’m not sure when or why or how and honestly, I don’t care because what I do know is that somewhere in that epic 6-hour first date, despite a pandemic and freezing weather (thank you global warming), I decided I didn’t want this to end.  And thankfully neither did you.  So we kept dating… and dating… and dating until we were both madly in love. And for the first time in my life I thought, “I want to get married.”  Well no, actually that’s not true. What I really thought was, “I want to get married to THIS man!”

We were together less than a year in when you, Future (Current) Boyfriend suggested we take a trip to Hawaii for my birthday.  Despite only a few months of dating, I just KNEW you were going to propose.  According to LA standards, 3 months is equivalent to a decade in relationships. People marry divorce and remarry in less time than our courtship, and I was growing impatient. You have to understand, after writing well over 100 SOS messages to My Future Boyfriend, I’d finally found him. I knew this was the real deal and I was ready for us to begin our happily ever after together. Before leaving, I’d spend weeks shopping online. I wanted The Perfect Outfit to go with My Perfect Proposal from My Perfect Boyfriend.  And as expected, you did not disappoint. After a spa day filled with pampering, you whisked me away to the most luxurious hotel, with an ocean view and tiny mints on our pillows. As we stood on the balcony to enjoy yet another sunset my heart quickened, “Omg it this is just like our first date. He’s gonna pop the question right here.  Damn, I really should have moisturized these old lady hands…” Instead, you cut my fantasy short, reminding me we had dinner reservations in 30 mins.  No worries, I’d been preparing for this moment for months. Faster than a Beyoncé costume change on the Renaissance tour, I was ready to go. Fully glammed in 5-inch heels, with a white summer dress, sporting a subtle (not subtle) train, I hopped in an Uber with My Perfect Boyfriend and headed to a Perfect Dinner for My Perfect Proposal.  But there was no proposal at dinner. Actually, there was no proposal that night at all. The food at that 5-star restaurant was so horrible a homeless man turned his nose up at it. Our after dinner stroll was abruptly interrupted by a downpour of humid island rain. And my beautiful white summer dress was quickly tied into a knot (by prince charming himself) to keep the subtle (not so subtle) train from dragging down the muddy streets. As I sat in a plastic chair replacing my 5-inch impractical heels for hot pink plastic sandals the vision of my Perfect Proposal began melting away, alongside my eyelash glue.  Did I make this all up?  You suggested a simple birthday trip and here I transformed it into some Hallmark proposal.  And now I was left soggy and disappointed with no ring or fiancé.  But you know what I love about you Future (Current) Boyfriend?  It’s that you are your own man. You sniffed me out way before the dinner and decided if you were going to propose to me, but it would be on your terms. And that’s exactly what you did.  A couple days later with no fancy, horrible dinner, no heels or trains, no eyelashes or gimmicks, we took a hike to a waterfall. We held hands and laughed, we picked flowers and shared a lunch, you made fun of my old knees and my inability to swim, and then you asked if I would be your forever best friend… and just like that first date I fell in love with you all over again.  So Future Boyfriend, Current Boyfriend, Fiancé, Husband, Forever Best Friend thank you for FINALLY showing up and allowing me to close this chapter. But more importantly, thank you for the new one that I get to begin with you.

xo,

Mix

#dating #dear future boyfriend #bad dating #marriage #commitment #love

[hit-the-dirt-and-get-back-on]

Can someone marry me already?

#i want to get on with my life #marry me #dear future boyfriend #dear future husband #this is me #me #my thoughts #lets get hitched #married #im single af #single iowa girl #iowa girl #lets get married

[meanrichbitch]

Da, shte ochakvam ot teb da mi kupish kinder yaice kato sum v losho nastroenie, da gledash detski s men sled strashen film, za da se uspokoya i da si navit za spontanni razhodki kudeto i da e.

A, i da imash ogunche. Vinagi shte ti tryabva ogunche.

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[pixiechymbe]

Kapag magka bf ako gusto ko lang naman laanan niya ako ng space sa bahay niya as my reading nook. May armchair, foot rest, bookshelf, books na gusto niyang ipahiram saken, mug, lamp, blanket at pillow.

#Dear Future Boyfriend #reading nook #wishlist

[hobis-hope94]

dear future boyfriend,

you also have to love bts as much me, otherwise we cannot be a couple sorry.

#dear future boyfriend #bts

[foulhologramsheep]

Dear future boyfriend,

I have lots of things to talk about with you. Whenever I think of meeting you in the future, the more I get excited. I was aware that it could be worst for me but I am putting much hope on my future self to be able to handle that.

#dear future boyfriend #personal diary

[miantonella]

You are beautiful in ways you aren’t even aware of.  And I’m trying to explain this all to you over breakfast, but there is a science to loving someone, and I have failed that course every time I’ve signed up for it.

Excerpt From: "Dear Future Boyfriend" by Cristin O'Keefe Aptowicz. Scribd.

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[alvaldezsworld]

Things I hope to do with my future boyfriend/husband:

Have lightsaber duels/fights

Build with Legos

Be gym/fitness buddies

Play video games

Go hiking, camping, and fishing

Play laser tag

Play at arcades

Aimlessly walking around the mall, park, etc. getting lost in a conversation

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[creatingnikki]

I am going to let you guide my behaviour. You who I haven't yet met. You who I know I will meet. My future love, my future partner. I know I should improve first and foremost for myself. I know I should heal for me. I know I should take these decisions that are right for myself. But is it so bad if my motivation is us? The life we will build together. The people we will be to each other. The way we will love each other. Is it so bad if I gather strength from the idea of us? And let that help me do what I need to do now? You will be someone I will love, yes, but also respect and cherish, and I will be someone you love, respect, and cherish. So the things I do now, the choices I make, have to be those that I can be proud of sharing with you. And breaking my own heart, letting others break it, or breaking that of someone else will not be choices I will be proud to share with you. I don't want you to look at me like you don't think I'm the absolute best. So I will do better. No matter how hard it is now, I will do better. For us.

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[theloveofalonelyheart]

For all of the things I’ve gotten wrong over the years I sincerely hope I’ve done just one thing right enough to be blessed with an ever lasting love. I turn 30 next year and while so much has changed , so much is the same and for that I’m so grateful. I still wish for love to know my name. I still wish to know my lovers face. All of the faceless dreams and failed dates . The nights are my loneliest hours. I dream of being held and finding comfort within his arms. How nice it would be to wake up in lovers bliss. To experience what it’s like to fall in love and stay in love and build upon that love. To choose to love that person even when it’s hard and know that love is worth the effort. I’m old enough to have removed my rose colored glasses. I know that it is hard to find love and trust to fall in love and then maintain that love through life’s hardships but if heaven will allow , it would be my greatest honor to give true love a try. - <3

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[mariellaolden]

Dear my future lover,

I am currently playing love songs and suddenly thought of writing to you for the first time. Do you know what? I have always believed in love. I want the kind of love my parents have. I like the type of love that is real. It may not be perfect, but it is the kind of love that embraces despite the cold and shines regardless of the rain. The love that stays and heals. The love that is simple but feels whole.

I don't know you, and we haven't met yet, but I hope life treats you well. I hope you are somewhere great, enjoying life. If it doesn't, I hope you get through it. I hope you overcome every hardship. Do you find joy in gazing at the sky and stars at night? Are you into taking photography, exploring new things, or visiting museums? Do you prefer going outdoors or staying indoors? I want to know your favorite color or if you like pineapples on pizza as I do. I want to know your favorite coffee drink, but it's fine if you prefer water or milk. 

Everybody around me and my age is falling in love, and here I am, one of the peculiar people who don't want to rush into love. I know you are out there waiting, too, and I hope the waiting never wearies you out. I look forward to sharing my favorite songs with you and making poetry inspired by you. Let's meet halfway soon.

I want us both to eat well and before we meet, let me strive to become the best version of myself first.

With anticipation,

Mariella

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[hit-the-dirt-and-get-back-on]

I'm not a hard girl to please. Tell me you love me, buy me a cute necklace. Really nothing hard. I don't need expensive things.

#dear future husband #dear boyfriend #dear future boyfriend #ohio #this is me #me

[tradfem-princess]

Want I want in my future husband:

Christian

Must like cats

WIPE THE SEAT AFTER YOU PEE

Above 5'2

20-26 years old (updates every year I get older)

My dad must like him

If he likes Andrew Tate we aren't gonna date.

Willing to wear matching autumn themed plaid clothes

He knows how to swim

He must be willing to shave his armpits. Armpit hair grosses me out.

Must know how to drive cuz I cannot

Understands that mental health is not caused by being possessed by demons.

Willing to understand my boundaries with sex/ptsd/autism/dogs and whatever future boundaries I have

Understand that we will have a kitten (or a few) before kids.

No sex until marriage but kissing is welcome. And cuddles.

Add more later

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[wibble-wobbegong]

could a more perfect man exist

#i love him so fucking much #he helped me cook pasta over the phone and was so sweet about it the whole time and he’s so silly :(((( #pasta with seasoned marinara and parmesan cheese is fine dining in this house considering everything is expired ir we dont have it #no bread no eggs no tortillas nothing i could throw some cheese on and call a meal #we had spaghettios totinos pizza lettuce cheese and canned beans #i try not to make anything i dont know for sure i can make bc im bad at cooking #or we just. dont have the ingredients #most of the time we just dont have the ingredients to make things bc my mom is My Mom and kinda shit at feeding us #so i never learned how to cook beyond the basics #but he was so sweet and helped me make pasta #he said im gonna get fat in the future when we live together because we’ll have good food and snacks and shit #i always feel bad when he comes over and we dont have food bc im used to just looking at the stock and realizing its either disgusting #expired or Lettuce so i just. dont eat. but i dont wanna do that to him #and he’s jsut #djnejrbskdbsjhks :(((( #i love my boyfriend #dear diary