#did this make sense at all lmao

[natelia-aldelliz]

1 : Soap never had any idea that woman wanted him carnally, he's not the most observant on that front (he never noticed Ghost flirting with him and thought his love was one-sided for the longest time, but tbf Ghost was also very discreet about it)

2 : He sewed the hat, eyepatch and hook himself, because he's the best uncle and then got distracted as he was wrapping it up, so now he's watching a tutorial on youtube about how to build a voice box. Honestly how hard could it be, he builds explosive devices as a hobby (listen, Price doesn't have to know)

3 : He is out to his family, but doesn't want his mum to know he has a boyfriend because he knows she'll insist on meeting him and welcoming him to the family and making a big deal out of this, and he knows that Ghost isn't ready for that.

4 : Christmas is obviously a very hard time for Ghost, but he is very very in love with Soap and some days still can't believe that it's mutual, but then his Johnny does something like that and his head gets quieter while he's melting a bit.

5 : For the people that didn't see my other post : the bird is a Caique parrot, and they're supposedly very energetic, a bit loud, medium sized, unintelligible, very friendly to what they consider their family, adventurous and danger prone, with an explosive personality and a hate of boredom, so basically the adhd bird.

#cod mw2 #john soap mactavish #simon ghost riley #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghost is hard edges and sharp knives but simon is babygirl #i tried my best to make soap's sister look as much like soap as possible #as someone whose siblings look nothing like them i find it hilarious i have no idea why i swear i have the weirdest sense of humour #hc that simon's very first wait no second actually bc i feel like the first special interest for every child with autism is dinosaurs #but wait plot twist birds are dinosaurs so still hc that simon's first (or second if you want) special interest was birds #and he still loves them very much and both soap and his sister have adhd and his sister has a reoccurring hyperfixation on birds #and soap thinks ghost and his sister could get along very easily and is waiting very impatiently for the day ghost is ready and he can #introduce him to his family #but also ghost is very wary of families and especially since there's a young child because he's scared that he'll bring them death like he #feels he did to his own family #i initially wanted to colour it but then i wondered why my brain was working against me and very quickly decided that colouring all that #would be a nightmare and that i already hate colouring so why would i want to torture myself #anyway pls be nice with me i've given all i had to make this lmao

[edorazzi]

Some Thunderbirds Are Go comics I’ve been working on over the last few weeks! Sorry to everyone but I’m completely obsessed with this show lately. Love these boys so much.

Feat. Scott getting some dopamine from Virgil, Gordon and Alan getting creative (inspired by a Distractible clip) and John forgetting how gravity works. I’ve got the scribble bug so lots more of these are on the way! 💖

#thunderbirds #thunderbirds are go #scott tracy #virgil tracy #john tracy #gordon tracy #alan tracy #josie's art #did you know virgil is the second eldest?? i genuinely thought it was john because of the character lineup at the start #like why else list them as TB1; 5; 2; 4 and 3 unless it's in age order; especially when scott and alan are at each end like they should be?? #but lo and behold john calls virgil ''big brother'' at one point so i guess that's that #it makes sense that john is the slightly misfit (and ginger) middle child but i imagined virgil as the stable central one :'V #two brunets and two blonds on either side but where did HE come from huh #ANYWAY i'm only thinking about this because i love all these characters so much lmao. they're all my babies now

[ofswordsandpens]

racked my brain and the only time i can remember percy worrying about physically hurting annabeth before this is when he blew up mt st helens—he says he wasn’t sure she “made it out of the volcano”, and she’s the first thing he asks hephaestus about on ogygia. it seems like regular worry to me, although i think you could read guilt between the lines, and he’s more overwhelmed when he learns how big the eruption he caused was. i don’t know if rr was particularly thinking about this at the time but it would make sense as a traumatic event that sparked this fear of not being in control of his powers/feeling guilt/self-loathing about the possibility he could hurt his friends, and then the events of hoo really making it an issue. (the thread between this + thinking he deserves to die because he lost control and tortured akhkys which scared annabeth + thinking “i will never forgive myself” because he lost control and potentially hurt annabeth… aaaagh.)

yes yes yes mt st helens is a great point and I completely agree with you, that I would almost qualify it more like a regular worry because I think the distinction between this moment and the moment in cotg for me is that Percy had specifically told Annabeth to leave and go to safety, and its not like he (or anyone) knew what he was going to accidentally do, but I felt there was an argument to be made that he knew it was going to get nasty (as both him and annabeth recognized on some level that he was likely going to die there)??? And the shocker was not just him losing control but the scale of him losing control and that scale of power is what endangered Annabeth, despite his warning for her to leave. Meanwhile, in cotg, Percy loses it and controls millions of metric tons of river water and Annabeth is just, chilling on a ledge that's close enough where he had regularly been remarking on her expressions and what she had been doing in the paragraphs prior. (Honestly, he's really lucky that nothing happened to her.) So I guess its the proximity of annabeth to Percy in these moments that makes them more distinct in my eyes, if that makes any sense at all. And as soon as Percy comes back to himself in cotg, he's immediately like "oh shit did I just kill annabeth?" and it's not even him overreacting, the scene reads like he really could have, which is absolutely WILD for RR to throw in there.

The other part in pjo that I was debating if you could qualify is the death of Michael Yew because Percy was the one inadvertently responsible for it. Despite how much the pjo wikia wants to gaslight me about Michael Yew's death, its literally a canon example of Percy accidentally killing a friend as a byproduct of his powers. But like, Percy didn't lose control or "snap" in that scene, using his powers had been very intentional, it was again, the scale and the fallout that had led to Michael's death. And then Percy never thinks about it again.

But literally yes, in a perfect world where Riordan was planning all of this out and actually connected these moments with intention, mt st helens being the traumatic event that sparked the fear of not being in control of powers make SO MUCH SENSE. And since Riordan does want to characterize percy as feeling guilty and worrying about the possibility of hurting his friends, I feel like guilt over Michael Yew's death is just, sitting right there for the taking

ugh I know im rambling but there's just so much for RR to purposefully connect but instead its as if he's treating these moments where Percy snaps/loses controls/hates himself/worries about hurting others as separate, unrelated incidents while we the readers are seeing how all these events would realistically be influenced by one another and are compounding/piling on top of Percy and getting worse. It IS all connected.

#sorry this makes NO sense at all lmao #but as usual you're so right #also please how the wikia treats Michael Yew's death is so funny its like #/he went missing in battle ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ / #but you read the bridge scene in tlo and its just like..... but DID he tho??? #it makes me feel crazy #asks #pjo #percy jackson #mine

[mindfogs]

a brief comparison of compleately different medias that rewired my brain. yes i'm aware the target audience of this post is me only.

It was supposed to be a joke but I can’t do anything casually so a more vaguely detailed analysis under the cut.

spoilers for all three obviously but vague spoilers about themes and not plot points. i could have gone more in the specifics but it's late and i don't want to fall in this rabbit hole right now i need sleep.

If you strip these stories of all the cool visuals and funny jokes, if you take away their narratives with the world about to end, you're left with pure, naked, vulnerable love that is such a core essence of any of these characters. Love is what can destroy or save the world. Love is what drives the heroes forward. Love is what keeps them from dying.

I think all three stories are about being loved and accepted for who you are. Even if you've changed and you don't like yourself, even if you've stayed the same and you don't like yourself.

They're about tearing yourself apart, throw up, slashing yourself open in front of the one you love. Let them see everything, the bad and the gross and asking "do you still love me?".

They're about enduring, sacrificing yourself, everything, sacrificing the world, God, the entire universe for the one you love.

They're about trusting to choose each other over and over again, everytime, in every universe, even if the next time you see me I may not be what you remembered. Even if you don't recognize me.

They're about eating, gnawing, cannibalizing each other over and over and over in a mutual exchange of obsession.

They're about carving your own peace when you don't even know what peace it's supposed to be like

They're about grief and loss and learning to be whole again.

They're about submitting oneself to the horrifying oredeal of being known in order to allowing the reward of being loved.

It's about "it's rotten work" and answering everytime without esitation "not to me, not if it's you"

#also all fanficion are technically canon in each of these lmao #foggy thoughts #the locked tomb #good omens #slay the princess #griddlehark #ineffable husbands #love #it's always about love in the end #go and tlt are more similiar in the sense of superficial similiarities being both bible gays and all #go and stp are similiar in the more worldbuilding and backstory way both eternal beings with a love so eternal we cant even comprehend it #but tlt and stp? #the similiarities are so visceral i feel like they narrate the same exact concept of love #a love so evershifting and multifaced #also obviously where tlt has cannibalism as a love methaphor stp has killing #theres something so beautiful having such vile acts rapresent something so pure as love #insert that south park clip “hope everyone enjoyed that” “no randy only you did” “that was pretty much my target audience anyway” #if i spoke fluent english i'd make a cool 2 hours video essay on youtube about this

[guildling]

i appreciate him very much

#fiona and cake spoilers #fiona and cake #i love shermy a lot hes such a silly guy And i would love to know more about shermy and beths story also this is like one of the only parts #i really really liked… the finale makes sense and i did like the ending scenes with all those flowers Very pretty but it was very anti #climatic :( i still like the series for what it did and what they managed to put out there though:) ty f&c crew #edit i take that back It was a very good ending but it must be hell for petri//grof shippers lmao #i think im just going to keep documenting my thoughts about ths ending here anyways i think my main issue with the series as a whole is def #the pacing. f&c was definitely a different experience that at with how they paced there episodes and i think thats one of my favorite thing #s about the main series #how they manged to fit so much into so little time and how it didnt feel rushed at all #i feel if f&c just got two more episodes i would be completely satisfied with it . and also if we got to see prime finn & marcy more than #once. they leave a lot of open ends for things incase they get to make a series about it and i do think we’re probably getting more content #in the future due to that apple end credits thing #many many thoughts

[sea-buns]

Forgive me if I'm a bit nervous about Gorgug this season. It's just that the last Zac Oyama pc was Colin Provolone, who was arguably one of his greatest D20 performances, if not the greatest.

Zac always does great with every pc he plays, but Colin was something else. He came out swinging with actions and words that were teeming with unspoken emotional baggage. The way Colin's presence affected the other pcs; there was this level of depth that I don't think I've seen in any of his other characters. It was understated and quiet in that signature "just a guy" way that he tends to be, while still captivating everyone instantly with just how raw it was.

Not to say we haven't seen emotional depth in Gorgug. It's just that, compared to the other Bad Kids, Gorgug's journey and progression as a character has been very... impersonal? Like, yes, he found his birth parents, and he found friends who appreciate him, and he faced his insecurities about his intelligence, and he navigated relationship troubles, and his trial through the claustrophobic bug-tunnels was a horrifically-uncanny parallel to how he's spent his entire life trying to make himself as small as possible.

But how much of that has actually changed him from the Gorgug we started with? I would agree that he's definitely happier with his life, given all the loving and supportive people that have been added to it when it used to be just him and his parents. And he's certainly grown into himself and become more self-assured in his abilities, even if he's still, and always will be, our anxious little guy. And there's nothing wrong with that. I've always liked how Gorgug was a representation of all the little things. The subtle acts and kindnesses that don't seem like much to most, but to some are everything.

We don't need another Bad Kid living in fear that their mouth could be shit-in at any moment. We've already got one-too-many.

All that being said, I just feel like Gorgug's personal story beats are much easier to sweep under the rug than everyone else's. He has the same soft and understated quality that Colin held, but they lack that extra oomph that pushed Colin over the edge from being just another guy in a series of dudes, to a character that the vast majority of us could not get out of our heads. He took someone who was anxious and softspoken, who ultimately never wanted to be violent— someone who is remarkably similar to Gorgug in many ways— and maintained that demeanor and core in Colin's character while still hitting us in the feels with character development at max velocity at every turn.

I think Zac gets better and better at this with every season that goes by. With each new character, there is always something that leaves me stunned in awe. And it's been, what, three? Four years since we last saw Gorgug?

I'm just,,, I'm cautiously optimistic but also going into a bit of a worry about what violence this man may inflict upon us

#i got SO carried away LMAO #i dont think ive ever written any posts about gorgug specifically #i made a lot about colin. and some about pib. and some more about zacs performances in general. #but never anything gorgug-focused. i just wasnt on tumblr at those other times that hed been on my mind like this #you can tell i still couldnt resist talking about colin lol #he was just so fucking good. a fantastic character all around. i cant imagine a better example to get my point across than him #when i do posts like this its all very much just me taking a vague idea and working with whatever comes out in the moment #so when i tell you i very much did not plan to get lost in the counterargument and had to stop for a second to remember what my point was #my point still stands but so does everything else #you dont realize it. how similar gorgug and colin really are. or how metaphorical the bug tunnel was. #or how gorgug IS the epitome of little details. small acts. quiet rights and wrongs. the faint causes and the even subtler effects. #u dont truly realize it until youre writing it yourself in a free flow fugue state and it all comes to a halt cuz youve blown your own mind #anyway i love gorgug and i love zac pcs and i hope this post makes sense cuz finding the right words was fucking hard hah #dimension 20 #d20 #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #fantasy high sophomore year #fhsy #gorgug thistlespring #the ravening war #trw #colin provolone #zac oyama

[volivolition]

reading the "after the mind, the world again" ttrpg rulebook and im in love with it

my god i am so affectionate towards them. but MAN this is so fucking cool i wish i wasnt a scared little guy so i could play ttrpgs hkjhd...

#chemi chats #i would love to play any facet i think. preference for motorics or psyche but ough... all of this is so cool :'] #however in the way the game is set up it's meant to be argumentative and while i love seeing it i dont want to uh. play it hkjgh #SCARY!! SCARY TO ME!! im nervous and non confrontational!! so i will just read the manuals and think about it really hard!! #this is so interesting to me because i was literally planning a skill ttrpg before i found this one!! my god they did it so much smarter. #i like how they do it here a lot more because i was planning on making character things and move sets for each individual of the 24 skills. #mine would have been much more skills inside-the-mind focused than outside world focused which isn't everyone's ideal #this makes way more sense lmao <3 i will return to my previous idea now that i dont have to fulfill that ecological niche #[gripping my planning document With Force] #task: message please survive

[mysandwichranaway]

this is like an hour late but whatever. I sacrificed an hour of sleep for this, i love him so much. Happy birthday leorio!!!

#killua took a bite of the cake and also he chose the candles #lmao #also i did not think about height AT ALL. i know this makes no sense. please ignore it XD #maybe leorio is sitting??? i don't know :P #leopika #leorio paladiknight #alluka zoldyck #gon freecss #kurapika kurta #hunter x hunter #sandwichart #fanart

[chainsawctopus]

I made a Yoshida-Denji roleswap AU some time ago but gave up on it cause I don't know how to design a good Ocean Devil Hybrid design LMAO 😭 Octopus Pochita's name is Takocchi, more random info in tags

#csm #chainsaw man #chainsawman #hirofumi yoshida #csm au #Yoshida is the Ocean Hybrid cause I think the fear of the ocean makes more sense than octopi for such a powerful devil #Idk ocean devil just seems like a more even match for the chainsaw devil #Yoshida bites his finger off and the tentacle starts forming from there and blah blah #Did that cause Denji's transformation is pretty violent and I needed some kinda balance #Denji's earring cord pull isn't like when he pulls the cord in og cause its not actually attached to him #its basically just the equivalent of yoshida crossing his fingers to summon octopus. chainsaw devil sees the motion #im too lazy to explain all the other au details i made up so far #maybe try and search my rambles on twt lmao #i tagged some with OctoYoshi AU iirc #Denji's angsty looking cause his whole thing for this au is just fighting the bisexuality devil /hj

[dykefruit]

Fuck dude, I finally found that quote I was looking for and I read more stuff from Rabbi Tzvi Freeman and it’s just hitting me hard. Like the one I was looking for was this:

The child naively believes that everything should be fair and everyone should be honest, that only good should prevail, that everybody should have what they want and there should be no pain or sadness. The child believes the world should be perfect and is outraged to discover it is not. And the child is right.

And like, that is one of the most important moral beliefs for me personally, and I become outraged when someone insists that believing this is naïve and a result of immaturity. Like I’m sorry you became sad and bitter, but I refuse to and I work hard every day to focus on hope and compassion and it baffles me that anyone could see that as a flaw or as something I should grow out of. I will always refuse to.

A child cannot learn something without running out and screaming it to others. And so it should be with all those who have knowledge.

This is another one that hits me hard bc I feel like sharing knowledge is one of the truest forms of love. At least for me personally. Like, when we are young our parents teach us as much as they can as fast as they can to help us grow into the best people that we can be. They love us so much that they try to share as much knowledge with us as we can learn, but why does that stop when we become older? Why do so many treat correcting false information as a personal insult and belittlement? Why do so many treat someone who shares knowledge as a braggart and assume this person must think themselves superior? I know that it is because of pride, that to be corrected damages the ego and to be taught new things makes one feel inferior. But they shouldn’t. And I am baffled and upset that they do.

And then, as the child emerges to discover that the world outside is not quite the same as that sanctuary, we will explain, "Yes, this is not the way it is supposed to be. But it is only temporary. You and I and all of us, we are going to change it. We are partners in the act of creating this world, because it is our mission to perfect it. And we are doing this now, with acts of beauty and kindness, one good deed at a time."

Is this not the entire purpose of life? Community? Society? I am so earnestly begging to not feel like I am alone, screaming this out for no one to hear.

I am not (currently) religious at all, much less Jewish, so I have no idea how I came across Rabbi Freeman’s writing, but it just speaks to me so incredibly. I’ll end this way-to-long post with one final quote from him:

A child gives love for the sake of love. But even an adult can learn to do the same.

#my words #poetry #in a way #in all honesty I cried the first time I read that stuff #I just now realized that like I never understood what was meant by “a strong sense of justice” meant as an autistic trait #and like I think it means this lmao #file that under things that I thought didn’t make me autistic but actually very much did

[cryptid-moose]

Some Shawn doodles feat. Gus

#forest fumbles #forest draws #Shawn Spencer #burton guster #psych #would Shawn wear a sleeveless turtleneck? absolutely not #did I draw him in one anyways? #of course i did 💥💯✨💅🦅💪🍍✨💥 #I’m not gonna be active for a bit so I decided to post some art before I dip lol #my mental health has kinda been spiraling to a level that im not really used to #so im gonna be taking a break from social media #AND THIS TIME ITLL ACTUALLY BE A BREAK ISFVBHUEVHFU i wont just dip for 30 hours #and come back with absolutely no progress purely because i was too bored lmao #cause if this does lead to a mental breakdown like i feel its going to i dont want that on the internet for all to see FHUDVHBVEU #cause that would be like- majorly embarrassing 🤢 huvefbhuvefbhu #ive already gone a teensy bit bananas on here i dont need ppl seeing the whole basket lmao #if u reblog pls dont make tags referring to the tags i made about my mental health #like i appreciate the sentiment 100% but idk how i feel about other ppls followings knowing im having a moderate crisis rn lmao #im not even comfortable with the entirety of my following knowing thats why i kept this all under the see all thingy #if that even makes sense #okay i need to stop adding more train of thought tags its not healthy suhfvhuefvuhe #anyways bye bestiessss 🤙

[ghost-bard]

Ahaha jrwi riptide 115 is out publicly gang does anyone remember the caspian traitor theory from a while back ahahahaha

#jrwi #just roll with it #jrwi riptide #jrwi riptide 115 #jrwi riptide spoilers #riptide spoilers #riptide 115 #jrwishow #like i get why ppl are hoping its not caspian (i am as well lmao) #but in my head it makes the most sense considering. the caspian traitor theory #BUT I GUESS WE’LL FIND OUT IN 6 MONTHS LMAO #but all in all im glad that riptide is taking a break especially since i dont think theyve ever taken an actual break from riptide? #but who knows i think john did also say there was a new member on the crew so maybe its that one new guy #though i do doubt it lmao

[earlgodwin]

"Not with a Borgia. I've had duplicity enough for a lifetime."

#one of the sexiest things about season 3 is how they fleshed out cesare's character and showing us who he Really is #juan was the only one who was straightforward about who he was back then until cesare killed him and became more ruthless than juan #manipulative and cunning too. not to mention he killed alphonso basically pulling everything juan did so... #cesare is %1000000 worse lmao like that's my dark prince right there and we stanned harder than ever #by jen #anyway. when the fandom was active. a lot of cesare fans were insufferable by woobifying him and making him perfect etc etc wah wah #obviously the borgia family is all hypocritical and the aggressive juan hate didn't make sense to me at all since they're all horrible like #horrible (affectionate) #cesare borgia #juan borgia #catherina sforza #francois arnaud #david oakes #the borgias #perioddramaedit #periodedits #cinemapix #smallscreensource #dailytvfilmgifs #juan and cesare

[gunsatthaphan]

“no one will come in here again, right?”

#609 bedtime story #ohmflluke #mumdew #609 bedtime story ep11 #Ohm Thitiwat #fluke natouch #is anyone still watching this show? lol #like the thing is....... #the concept of all this is amazing #i love how meta it is and i can see where theyre coming from with the message its trying to convey #but the plot is way too tangled lmao #i think they wanted too much #ive been trying to make sense of it for 11 weeks now #and now its over and i still dont understand most of it lmao #OFs chemistry was good and it peaked in the finale #but idk theyre just deanpharm to me no matter what jfhgkfld #i like them in those roles the best #although they did great in this #and kudos to the team for really trying #they just missed the mark a little bit #but its fine #at least the cinematography was stunning #💜

[mayxo-hxh]

do u think illumi is bad at cooking ? i have a feeling he would be but im not fully convinced , what are ur thoughts ?

I think that hc is based off of the fact that Illumi as a Zoldyck probably 100% had professional chefs prepare him all 3 meals everyday. And while I definitely agree with that, I also think there is no way the Zoldycks have not taught Illumi survivability skills that included the basics of cooking or making your own food with what you're provided (like chucking em in the zoldyck forest and they just gotta find their own food from there for a month)

How I see it, from the logical pov he doesn't necessarily cook. He knows the basics, but thats about it. BUT if he were given a recipe book, he can replicate the meal down to a T. He can definitely cook textbook perfect recipes if he wanted to.

Whether that counts to "bad at cooking" or not is up to u tbh but im also one of those people that find it very funny if he would just ruin the entire kitchen on one saturday night because he lacked the knowledge of fundamentals like not leaving oil for too long on the stove or having to be careful of cleaning meat to not spread salmonella all over your kitchen. you learn through practice after all and when it comes to standing in an actual kitchen i think he had about none

maybe shit like salmonella wouldnt affect him but.......... poor hisoka lmfao

my general hc for illumi cook is he learned a lot through watching hisoka cook first and foremost and was supervised by hisoka the first few times before he was trusted enough to be set free in the kitchen. I see hisoka having a whole written textbook of recipes he saw and likes to make and illumi uses that as his guide to making whatever he needs in there.

there are still ways for him to mess up even with all these pillars of support but imo that doesnt make him a bad cook yknow? It's like that one meme abt someone asking u to heat up a cup of water and u send them back a photo of a glass cup on the stove. He would just take things too literally but hes a fast learner so im sure after a good year of living with back and forth practice he'd become perfect at proper safe cooking.

TLDR he cooks just not safely and needs very clear proper instructions and guidance and proper practice to truly thrive but that does not make him a bad cook by definition. does that make sense.

#that unprompted hisoillu mention. u gotta have it #theyre a buy 1 get 1 free package they affect each other's hcs a lot #like if illumi was on his own? yeah hes gonna burn a couple kitchens down in his lifetime. it happens to the best of us #with hisoka? hes safe for the most part. hisoka isnt tho- #did any of this make sense?? i felt like i went too back and forth with all of this lmao #im trying to say. he cooks. just not safely in the slightest. and needs very very clear directions to actually bring out good results. #but that doesnt necessarily make him bad at cooking no? just bad at perceiving instructions. #which is ok. hes trying his best #hxh #hunter x hunter #hisoillu #hisoka x illumi #illumi #illumi zoldyck #hisoka #hisoka morow #asks #my post #my hcs

[mildmayfoxe]

yknow it is crazy to think about how much i have been able to improve my quality of life by selling art as a supplementary form of income. like obviously it's a second job and it's taxing but it's also so rewarding to know how much people enjoy my work and how much good it is doing me to like, feel like i can buy snacks at the store. to be able to get takeout every once in a while. like obviously those are extremely minor changes or things most people take for granted but to me it's huge. having berries in the house when they're out of season and more expensive. buying things for CONVENIENCE??! it feels so crazy to me to have such a sense of luxury which i know says more about the bleak feeling of poverty that's followed me around my entire adult life than anything else but i feel so much gratitude that i am afforded these small luxuries at least in part because of people that like my art. not to mention how nice is is to make things consistently again when, prior to 2020, i hadn't made art regularly in almost a decade. anyway. it's cool!

#of course there are extenuating circumstances! i finished my student loans in 2020 with help from family #i moved to a cheaper place in 2020. i get paid more now than i did then; even though i'm only working four days a week #obviously i am not RICH; i cannot afford to live by myself. housing here is crazy. but i can buy MEAT at the STORE #not only do i have SNACKS in the house i also have MULTIPLE KINDS! do you know how crazy that is. #and now of course a lot of it is combatting my wicked sense of guilt for buying anything i dont 'need'. like snacks. #but obviously i still buy them i just make myself feel bad about it for a while first. lmao #i mean i haven't done my taxes for 2023 yet who knows maybe i'll be hit with some big fees and i'll take this all back #but idk you gotta be grateful. anyway i think i'm gonna order pizza later #chatpost #i used patreon money to buy a new desk chair a couple years ago. a NEW one!! not one from the street!