Phantom Pain prompt list: "we have the kind of hx anyone would never want to think about again, and you're here asking me on a date?"
Phantom Pain - Chapter 10
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Note: This fic has been nominated in the Angst: Why? and Best Golden Lace categories of The Espenson Awards! Thanks to everyone who nominated this story and, if you’re so inclined, voting is open from now until February 3rd at here.
Also note, this chapter is rated Explicit.
Gold’s hands bury themselves in Lacey’s hair, pulling it from its pins until her curls tumble over her shoulders. Her hands run over his arms, enjoying the feel of his biceps moving beneath the silky fabric of his dress shirt. He took off his suit jacket and waistcoat earlier and she’s grateful, one less barrier between them.
His kisses are soft and sweet, almost tentative. She can taste the frothy wine on his lips and she chases that taste, her tongue tracing over the seam of his lips, begging for entrance. Gold presses one more soft kiss to her lips before pulling back.
“Lacey,” he says with a shake of his head, his face still so close that his nose brushes against hers. “You’ve been drinking.”
“So have you,” she counters with a nod toward his own abandoned wineglass.
“I don’t want you to do something you’ll regret,” he says instead.
“What’s one more regret at this point, Gold?” she asks, leaning forward to press a kiss to the corner of his mouth. ”We’re fucked you and I. We might as well enjoy it.”
That train of thought doesn’t seem to ease Gold’s mind at all, his eyes falling from hers and down to his lap.
“Hey,” she says, her hands tightening on his arms and drawing his attention back to her. “Do you want me?”
He blinks at her for a moment before answering. “Of course I want you,” he says finally, the words hoarse and rough, going straight through her and settling heavily at the apex of her thighs. “I always want you.”
She can’t help the little smile that crosses her lips. It feels so damn good to be wanted.
“I want you too,” she says, and Gold’s jaw tenses at her words, like he’s clenching his teeth together so hard they might shatter, clinging to his last vestiges of self-control. “So will you just fuck me already?”
That last little bit of self control seems to go out the window at her words. Gold grips her by the waist, kissing her again, harder this time. She opens her mouth to him, welcoming the feel of his tongue across her palate, his teeth scraping deliciously against her bottom lip.
It soon becomes apparent to Lacey that she is not just being kissed, she is being devoured. She’s never seen Gold like this, so intent on her, and she loves it. She wants him more with every passing moment. She is breathless and panting but she doesn’t want to come up for air, doesn’t want to do anything that will make Gold stop kissing her like he’s drowning man and she’s his source of oxygen.
He pushes her back against the sofa and for a moment she mourns the loss of him so close, thinking he’s thought better of this yet again. But he slides down on to the floor in front of her, mindful of her still healing leg in its boot. Gold pulls a throw pillow down from the sofa beside her to kneel on, and braces his hands against her thighs. He gives her a questioning look and it’s all Lacey can do to nod, words escaping her for the moment.
Gold’s hands slide up the inside of her thighs, spreading them apart. One hand trails down her right leg, over the boot on encasing her calf and ankle. He ever so gently props her foot up on the coffee table, reaching for another throw pillow to cushion it there.
Lacey blinks away the sudden wave of tears at his thoughtfulness. He’s such a good man. Why has it taken her so long to realize?
For his part, Gold is totally focused on Lacey. He starts pressing soft, open mouth kisses against her left knee, dragging his mouth across her skin and slowly, maddeningly, upwards. His stubble rasps against her sensitive skin and Lacey lets out a shiver, squirming a bit beneath him. She thought this would be fast and rough, like they always used to be. She thought this would be frenzied, both working as hard as possible to get each other off as quickly as possible. Instead he’s taking his time with her. He’s never done so before. She doesn’t think anyone ever has.
Gold finally reaches the crease where her thigh meets her hip and trails his tongue along it until he’s at her core, his breath hot against the thin barrier of cotton that separates her slick flesh from his mouth. She’s already so wet, she can feel it soaking through her panties. She’d almost feel embarrassed, but Gold just closes his eyes, pressing his nose against her and inhaling.
“Fuck,” she mutters out. She’s never seen anything so erotic in her whole life.
“God you smell delicious,” Gold says, his tongue darting out to flick across the sodden fabric of her panties. They’re simple cotton, nothing fancy. All Lacey’s more scandalous lingerie is long gone, burnt to a crisp in the wreckage of her car. But Gold doesn’t seem to mind and she can’t find it in herself to care either.
“Can I taste you, Lacey?” Gold asks, his dark eyes looking up at her from between her thighs, nearly black in the low-lit living room. There’s something feral and frightening and thrilling about him like this. No wonder she was addicted to it.
“Yeah,” she rasps out. It’s all the encouragement Gold needs to bury his face there, lapping at her until the cotton is so wet from his mouth and her juices that it’s nearly translucent, sticking to her skin. She wants her underwear off, to feel him there completely, but it’s a task easier said than done with her cast.
As if Gold can read her mind, he hooks his fingers into the waistband of her panties, pulling them down as far as her knees. Then he takes her by the left ankle, working her leg up and out so that they’re left hanging about her right knee, right above her boot. Gold grabs on to her hips, pulling her closer to the edge of the sofa, pushing her skirt up around her ribcage, and buries his face in her again.
Lacey can’t help but squeal at the sensation of having him there with no barrier between them. His tongue is hot and wet as he laps at her, trailing down across her slit before coming back up to circle her clit. His lips latch on to her, sucking at her like she’s a fucking peach while his tongue continues to swirl and probe. Her thighs are tense and shaking, her toes curling. She wraps her left leg around Gold’s shoulders and buries her hands in his hair, holding him as close as possible as her hips buck against his mouth, seeking out her own pleasure.
She comes with a shout, her entire body spasming as Gold continues to lick her until she finally pulls him away by his hair.
“Holy shit,” she breathes, sitting up and pulling Gold toward her by his tie. He goes willingly and she wraps her arms around him, kissing him again. His face is slick with her juices, his lips covered in her, and she kisses him even more deeply. She wants to return the favor, but there’s no getting on her knees in her current state and asking him to stand seems an impossibility with his bad ankle. She lets out a laugh and Gold pulls back to look at her, his eyebrow lifted in question.
“We’re a pitiful pair,” she says, stroking her hands through Gold’s soft hair. “Only two fully functional legs between us.”
Gold’s lips twitch up in the beginnings of a smile.
“I’ve never let it slow me down,” he says, his voice low, a promise. “Just have to be a little more creative.”
And even though she’s just had one of the best orgasms of her bloody life she can’t wait any longer to have him inside her.
“Fuck me,” she pleads, her voice almost coming out in a whine.
Gold nods, taking the pillow from beneath her ankle and placing her foot back on the ground. He places a hand beneath her bottom, lifting her slightly to slide the pillow beneath her hips, and encourages her to lay back against the sofa once more.
“Alright?” he asks.
It’s not. This far away and she won’t be able to kiss him. She so wants to kiss him, more than she ever has before. But she concedes that Gold knows what he’s doing.
His hands go to the buckle of his belt. Lacey can see the hard outline of him through the soft wool of his trousers and she licks her lips in anticipation as he works them down his hips followed by his boxers.
Finally he’s free, every blessed inch of him, but Lacey only has a moment to admire the view before he’s draping himself over her, pulling her ever closer so her backside is almost hanging off the edge of the sofa. Gold braces himself on his elbows on either side of her, his hard cock pressing against her thigh.
“Hey,” he says, then laughs a bit at himself, his hair falling forward and tickling Lacey’s cheek. She finds herself laughing as well. And God, when was the last time she laughed in bed?
“Kiss me?” she asks, and Gold leans forward to press a chaste kiss against her lips, simple and sweet. Lacey reaches down between them, wrapping her hand around his cock and positioning him at her entrance. With his arms still braced on either side of her, Gold pushes forward, slowly, so she can feel every inch of him as her body stretches around him. He feels so good and Lacey wraps her arms around his neck, wanting him as close as possible. She wants to feel his skin against hers and she’s disappointed neither of them got around to taking their shirts off. They’re half dressed on his living room sofa and yet this feels like something more, not just the morphine to dull the pain of Belle’s passing like all those half dressed fucks in the shop, but something real and true.
Gold pushes all the way home and then stops, holding himself still. He buries his face against Lacey’s neck, planting soft kisses there. He whispers something against her skin, something she can’t quite make out and she’s not even sure she wants to know what it is. Then he pulls back as slowly as he entered her before snapping his hips back in to hers.
Lacey lets out a startled gasp, her hands digging in to Gold’s back. All thought of his mysterious words are driven from her mind as he sets up a steady rhythm. With her hips propped up by the pillow, he’s hitting her just right, deep inside and it’s all Lacey can do to hold on for dear life.
It’s still not enough though. She needs to feel him, his warm skin beneath her hands instead of smooth silk. She pulls at his tie and the buttons on his shirt until she gets them more or less open, then she yanks at her own blouse, pulling it up over her head and throwing it God knows where.
She pushes her hands up under Gold’s shirt, over the warm skin of his back, feeling his muscles jump beneath her touch. His belly is pressed to hers, they’re so close she feels like she’s being consumed by him, that pretty soon they’ll be one person and isn’t that how this is supposed to be?
Gold bends his head to Lacey’s chest, nipping at the swell of her breasts above her simple cotton bra. His lips find her nipple through the thin fabric, latching on, laving her with his tongue, and Lacey can feel herself getting so damn close. Her inner muscles are tightening around Gold’s cock, her fingernails scoring his back as he hits her so deeply it feels like the entire world is going to come apart around her. The coarse hair at the root of his cock is grinding against her in just the right places and she can’t hold back any more. She comes, hard, her entire body tensing and shaking at the force of her orgasm.
Gold’s thrusts lose their rhythm, his hands gripping her hips as he bucks into her, his eyes never leaving her face. His mouth is slack, his eyes heavy lidded and Lacey thinks he never looks so beautiful to her as he does right before he’s about to come. Lacey feels the rush of warmth when he lets himself go, spilling himself inside her as his hips continue to thrust shallowly through his orgasm. Eventually he collapses against her, his head on her chest as they both struggle to catch their breath.
“Are you okay?” Gold asks after a moment to collect himself, pulling back just enough to look down at her booted lower leg.
“Fine,” she manages between pants. “Better than fine. How about you?”
Gold pulls out of her with a grimace, getting his feet beneath him and collapsing next to her on the couch. He looks thoroughly debauched with his tie loose around his neck, shirt unbuttoned, hair mussed, and trousers about his ankles. She likes this look on him, always has.
“I’ll be sore tomorrow,” he says, flexing his ankle. “But it’s well worth it.”
Lacey rolls on to her side to the best of her limited ability so she’s facing Gold.
“That was good,” she says. “Not that it wasn’t always but that was just…”
“Yeah,” Gold finishes, understanding her unspoken words. Every other time was tinged with grief and regret and guilt. This is the first time they’ve been together where it didn’t feel wrong. Maybe it wasn’t right, not quite yet. But maybe one day it could be. That was enough for Lacey, just the hope of something better.
That change in the air continues to ripple around them, everything shifting and for once Lacey thinks it might be a change for the better.
Gold leans over to kiss her and Lacey lets him. She doesn’t think they’ve ever kissed after the fact. When they’re done with each other it’s a time for shame and quick goodbyes. They never linger.
But Gold lingers now, his lips soft against hers. When he pulls back, he keeps his forehead pressed to hers, breathing her in.
“Will you have dinner with me?” he asks suddenly, breaking the almost tender moment between them.
Lacey shakes her head confused. “We already ate.”
Gold rolls his eyes. “Not right now, not here,” he says. “I mean go out together sometime soon.”
Lacey pulls away at his words, sitting up fully on the sofa. She can feel the evidence of their coupling leaking its way out of her and onto the leather surface. She’ll have to clean that up later.
“What?” she asks. They eat dinner together every night, here at his home. They live together and work together. She supposes it shouldn’t feel that strange to go out to eat somewhere else. But that feels a bit too much like a date. Lacey just got used to the idea of fucking Belle’s husband. She’s not sure she can make the jump to dating him.
They’ve said they love each other, they’ve expressed that love just now in the only way they’ve ever known how, and she’s hung up on dinner. Lacey almost laughs.
“We have the kind of history any sane person would never want to think about again, and you’re asking me on a date?”
Gold looks a little abashed, pulling his shirt back closed around himself and Lacey immediately regrets her words. She’s hurt him enough. She doesn’t want to hurt him again.
“Okay,” she says, reaching out and putting a hand over his before he can pull his trousers up and run away to the safety of his own room. “Okay. What’s the worst that can happen?”
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