#does any of this make sense

[bookwyrminspiration]

being an older sibling is like. you've never known a life without me. mom yelled at me and it taught her she never wanted to yell at you. I painted my room purple and grey and then you did too. we live in the same house but I haven't spoken to you in months. I don't know your favorite color. I saw it was going to rain so I picked you up from school on my way home so your books wouldn't get wet. i was so worried when you woke up sick when you were three. you don't remember being sick. mom and dad made their worst mistakes with me and I'm glad they didn't make them with you. I'm doing everything for the first time so you won't be in the dark. I don't know any of your friend's names anymore. I used to know them all. if something happens to mom and dad you won't have to worry because everything will fall to me. you don't like to be home alone but even if you don't see me just knowing I'm there makes you feel better. at least that's what mom told me. you still give me jars to open for you because you can't quite get them. I only see you during dinner. i'd never even think about missing one of your concerts. I stand at the counter when I eat and now you do, too. when offered a selection of books you picked the same one I did when i was your age. I'm terrified you compare yourself to me. I love you. I don't know if you like me. I want you to. mom says dinner's ready

#quil's unholy underworld #siblings #sibling relationship #older sibling #eldest sibling #listen. #does any of this make sense #this has all been just circulating in my heard forever and I had to put the words somewhere #so now the words are on tumblr #do you get what I'm saying #i don't know who my sister is but like. we're right next to each other. she's just down the hall #something something it's already a poem just look at it it's on the ceiling #but instead it's we're a poem just feel it we're standing right here

[wielderofmysteries]

A Vorthos Defense of Lukka

Sorry this response turned into a small essay (~1400 words) that doesn't really answer your question, but my Hot Take™ is that I don't think Lukka needs to be fixed.

I believe the problem doesn't lie in Lukka himself, but in the way both the narrative and the fandom treated him extremely unfairly. I'm not asking anyone to like Lukka. Personally, I don't even think anything about him is particularly likable. But I think as a character he deserves a lot more respect than he gets, and I'm tired of seeing other people hate on him without actually engaging with his story or understanding what his character is about.

Here's the thing: Lukka is basically the homeless veteran of planeswalkers.

He started his story in Sundered Bond (Ikoria ebook by Django Wexler) already successful in his military career, engaged to be married to Jirina, and having General Kudro's favor. He was a model citizen and his life was great. One day, a flying-hyper-murder-tiger killed Lukka's entire squad and people discovered Lukka was a monster Bonder because the tiger spared him. The rumors got to General Kudro, whose decision upon hearing Lukka might be a bonder was to have Lukka immediately executed.

Lukka didn't betray Drannith. Drannith betrayed Lukka.

Lukka escaped his execution and was rescued in the wilderness by Vivien, who traveled with him to the Ozolith, where a mysterious evil voice caused Lukka to unlock the full power of his monster bonding abilities. Through it all, Lukka still tried to hang onto his old life. His allegiance hadn't changed. At first, Lukka wanted to use the monsters he controlled to fight for Drannith, not against it. Lukka was convinced that the offer of a loyal monster army would be enough for the city to take him back, but he was no longer welcome in Drannith.

Lukka became increasingly unstable and spiraled into insanity because he had his life unexpectedly, completely ruined and wanted nothing more than to return home to his old life, but that wasn't possible because he now belonged to a class of people who were extremely stigmatized in Drannith's society. He had become an undesirable. Once the city's shining star, he was now the lowest of the low. He lost his loyalty and turned against the city when he realized Drannith didn't care about people, Drannith cared about keeping people in their places.

In Sundered Bond, Lukka loses literally everything. He loses his job. He loses all his friends. He loses his fiance. He loses his home. Everything. He even loses the cat. This all happens to him within like, a week.

Lukka experiences the same hostility in his second appearance, Strixhaven. At this point, he's still a new planeswalker, and he's been planeswalking blindly trying to find civilization again. He arrives on Arcavios thirsty and starving and tired and injured. When he finally finds a town, he visits an inn and asks only for food. But they don't give him any food! They won't allow him to wash up or to rest! This is a man who has nothing and has done nothing, and the townspeople are suspicious of Lukka and want to call the Dragonsguard –Strixhaven's magical cops– on him because he committed the crime of... existing near them while visibly having basic needs that are unmet.

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"Looking for something, stranger?" said the innkeeper, a round man with a head of robust curls.

"A hot meal," said Lukka. The innkeeper hesitated as though about to say something, then nodded and moved toward the kitchen.

"Haven't seen clothes like that before," came a voice behind Lukka. "You're not from around here, I imagine."

He turned. A tall man in the same rough clothing as the rest of the townsfolk had stood up from his table and was walking over.

[…]

He heard the man suck his teeth. The innkeeper still hadn't returned from the kitchen. Lukka was starting to doubt he ever would.

"Okay, Oriq, I think I've heard enough. We don't take kindly to meddlers in this town, or those who seek to disturb the peace. If we were a proper city, we'd get the closest, least busy Dragonsguard to sort you out. But we're just a small farming village—so we've learned to deal with strangers ourselves."

[Episode 2: Lessons - Adana Washington]

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Fans like to point at Lukka and make "ACAB" ("All Cops Are Bastards") jokes about him, but they don't understand that he's explicitly an anti-cop character. Lukka was formerly a cop, but he quit and fully turned his back on the entire concept of policing when he realized that the reason cops exist is not to protect people, but to rid society of undesirables like him.

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"These dragons," Lukka said, his voice a growl. "Those Dragonsguard. They've held power over these people for too long. They've made them fearful of every shadow, every unfamiliar face. What happens when it's not just the Oriq they're hunting down—when it's anyone who practices magic in a way they don't like?"

[Episode 3: Extracurriculars - Adana Washington]

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I know what many of you will say: "How can Lukka have such a based take when he's such a terrible person?" It's true– he is not a good person. He's an asshole and he's harmed / killed innocent people and animals. But he's been both a cop and a homeless man, and he knows that cops are far more dangerous. You don't need to be a "good" person to deserve food and shelter. It's cops who promote the idea that you can deny the basic rights of the people you think are "bad".

So on Arcavios, he's again forced out of civilization and back into the wilderness. His suffering seriously never ends. The way he was treated, it's no wonder he accepted when the Oriq kidnapped him and asked him to help attack Strixhaven. Why should he give a damn about society if they don't care about him? If their society is so fearful of others that they are unwilling to practice compassion, unwilling to provide for people's most basic needs even when they haven't done anything wrong, then doing wrong doesn't matter. They will share his pain. He will watch it all burn to the ground.

Lukka is an example of what happens when someone's basic humanity is repeatedly denied to the point that they can no longer feel anything but anger.

This line from the story Survival of the Fittest, by Roy Graham, expresses it perfectly:

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He had been a cruel man by the end, a villain in so many ways. But perhaps in his position, there was no way to become anything else."

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Lukka reaches out for stability and support and never truly finds it. He's a character who keeps getting punished over and over for having bad things happen *to* him, not because he *does* bad things. Most of the bad stuff he actually does is in response to others treating him like shit for no reason.

Despite everything, Vivien still cared for Lukka and wanted to help him get back on his feet. She thought Lukka's military expertise would be useful to the strike team against New Phyrexia, and she encouraged him to join. They both saw it as an opportunity for Lukka to regain some of his dignity and protect his home once more. How does the narrative reward him for his effort? By corrupting him, humiliating him, and having him be put down like an animal by the only person who showed him any compassion through all this.

What could Lukka have become if he survived to be rehabilitated? I guess we'll never know.

Unfortunately, there is absolutely no hope for a character who mistreats animals. Most fans will never ever get past that, and there's a part of me that honestly believes Lukka just got phyrexianized and killed off because the Magic narrative team realized they couldn't salvage his reputation and didn't know what to do with him. The fandom's overwhelming negative response to Lukka had irreparably damaged him as a character.

As my bespoke friend @xantchaslegacy said, "The only meaningful difference about Lukka and Gideon's cop-to-planeswalker journey is that the narrative let Gideon live long enough for other people to make him a better person. And Lukka got shanked before it could happen."

Again, I don't need people to like Lukka. I just want people to understand. I wish people were more willing to actually engage with the story and see the value in characters they dislike. There's no reason Lukka should've been treated like a punching bag the way he was. He was trapped in a cycle of being dunked on by the story and then dunked on by the fans, again and again. And people continue to push an understanding of Lukka that is just false.

The fandom reacted to Lukka the same way the strangers on Arcavios did: He'll never get a second chance because they wouldn't even give him a first chance.

#lukka #mtg #gwunky #sorry i wrote most of this between 2am and 5am on very little sleep lmao #DOES ANY OF THIS MAKE SENSE #analysis

[jameswilsonsupremacy]

headcanon that house once dressed up in a cheerleaders outfit and did a performance of “mickey” by toni basil as a ‘joke’ to embarrass wilson in front of others at the hospital, and he uses some of his actual cheer skills he picked up in college (though it’s still limited bc his leg obvs)

extra points if this is when they’re both still repressing their homosexual thoughts for each other, and wilson thinks it’s normal to think so much abt house in the cheer uniform (and house thinks it’s normal that he didn’t even have to think twice abt dressing up to fluster wilson)

#house md #james wilson #gregory house #hilson #dr wilson #dr house #robert sean leonard #hugh laurie #I feel like Hugh Laurie would approve tbh #house md brainrot #does any of this make sense #I’m so exhausted ngl #have been struggling lately #but house md is my escape #I just haven’t had energy to make posts of my own #soz guys #xoxo #Lucas rants

[trauersinfonie]

i feel weird when people credit the hito hito no mi model nika for luffy’s good deeds because luffy isnt kind and frees people because of his devil fruit, he’s kind because its who he is &it’s the type of person he’s grown to be. its because luffy has these traits that his devil fruit chose him & he was able to awaken it

#I love g5 and the idea of Sun god Nika but that isn’t luffy #I think it’s entirely possible for luffy to be a good person and that be an entirely human &natural aspect of him #&I’m still under the belief zoan awakenings only happen once the user is fully in sync with the zoan #it’s more likely that luffy’s ideals just happened to match up with nika’s #but then again we aren’t even sure if Nika is real or just the personification of a collection of hopes and dreams #idk #does any of this make sense #one piece #yapping

[objectosexual]

I'm glad more of Tumblr is becoming more accepting of objectums + a lot of people are realizing that they're objectum themselves, but it really does feel like the current "in" thing right now so I hope this support for us continues even when people get tired of the eroticism of the machine

#i feel like there's always been a lot of robotfuckers on here so i dont think this will fade any time soon #but that last bit really is the Tumblr catchphrase of the month so i hope that ppl who arent objectum #will continue to realize that like. we will still be here #does any of this make sense #im really tired and had an episode this morning so lol. #(alsooo... i could go on a tangent abt how not every objectum is into machines & that ppl seem Weird about us liking objects that arent... #... mechanical in nature... i get that those are easier to personify and have some things that feel more human... #... but. idk whereim going w this anymore sorry)

[wbswag]

Yaknow, all that talk of “Why don’t any of you understand what I’m trying to accomplish/that it’s for the greater good” from Chisaki gains a whole bunch more layers with the confirmation that he was in one of AFO’s facilities as a kid.

Because since he was potentially experimented on (and considering he was the direct source of an apparent quirk copy, the chances of that are extremely high), that can spin the context/thought process greatly from apathetic stubbornness. He repeatedly claims that quirks are diseases and humanity needs to be rid of them, and it’s said he gained this mindset from a pretty much baseless study he read when he was younger.

Now here’s the thing; I always thought that was stupid. Or, uncharacteristic is a better word. I always thought “Really? Chisaki wholeheartedly believes some unsupported, one-off article and that’s why he hates quirks? The guy who meticulously thinks out and plans everything based on stone-cold facts and logic?” But then I realized. Humans in general, but especially kids, are going to look for anything to latch onto to outsource their frustrations about the traumas they’re going through that they don’t yet understand. Chisaki didn’t necessarily buy into that theory because he genuinely believed it, but because that while everyone else was treating quirks like the best thing a person could have, he knew that his own quirk was causing him pain via the experimentation (and potentially whatever landed him in the orphanage in the first place), and he wanted a way to outlet that distress, and to finally fault quirks, to tell everyone they’re not amazing or good. And that’s why he ‘believed’ that article. It gave him an out, an “I told you so!” moment, validation.

But what’s also interesting is how that all didn’t stop him from experimenting on Eri. And truth be told, I think Chisaki genuinely doesn’t understand that he’s traumatized. He doesn’t realize what he went through had actual, lasting effects on him. Instead he thinks, “If I could endure it, why can’t she?” And moreover, that whole “it’s for the greater good” thing is probably, whether consciously or subconsciously (most likely the latter), stemming from a thought that kids will no longer be experimented on for their quirks if quirks don’t exist anymore. He’s thinking, con or subcon (probably latter), “One last kid in the cycle before it’s broken”, since we know he thinks of Eri as a symbol for ridding the world of quirks and “returning it to normal”.

Also the whole thing that how Chisaki manipulates Eri (and kinda just his opponents in general) is potentially him repeating words that were said to him/him projecting, which coincides with his mindset that kindness is something that makes you indebted to someone else, going off the idea he possibly thinks of himself as a burden or a curse (hm), because what value does he have if he can’t be used to achieve someone else’s goals for them? To the point he simultaneously resents his own quirk and fears losing it because he thinks he’s worthless/weak without it.

Ahhh, anyway, this was like. My longest yap session yet. Sorry 💀🙏 but the facts are I’ll keep going. I’m just choosing to shut my mouth so that this doesn’t get any longer. 💀

#bnha #chisaki kai #kai chisaki #overhaul #mha 419 #bnha 419 #chapter 419 #all for one #deepdiving Chisaki’s psyche once again #mha #mha theory #mha eri #rambles #does any of this make sense #is this too long for people to read #midoriya with all the mutters floating around him = me rn

[thisloveislikeabattle]

SandRay is just AkkAyan spelled differently

I've lost count of the number of rewatches I've done of The Eclipse since watching it six months ago for the very first time, but once Only Friends started airing I haven't done any rewatch, just because all my thoughts these past weeks have been obsessively about Sand and Ray

BUT yesterday I found myself watching it again after months and when I got to episode 11 it hit me: SandRay's dynamic when it comes to taking care of each other is the same as AkkAyan's but backwards.

Let me explain, I was watching this specific scene

And this thought came into my mind: "If in The Eclipse it's Khaotung's character that takes care of First's character, especially when it comes to emotional needs, in Only Friends it's actually the opposite with First's character taking care of Khaotung's character"

Since then I haven't been able to stop noticing all the ways Ayan and Sand mirror each other when caring for their partners

Ayan looked at Akk, and saw something extraordinary. He saw this beautiful broken boy, who was hurting so much and doing it all wrong, he saw him holding on to a very thin thread just on the verge of letting go. Ayan saw all the love Akk needed, and despite being very broken himself, he never ever let go of him.

Akk did bad things and said awful stuff and pushed Aye away time and time again, and still Aye stayed right were he was and held him up every time Akk hit the ground.

Showed him how despite all his flaws, all his mistakes, he was still someone worthy of love.

And so throughout their journey Ayan gave his heart and soul, took all the love he could muster and stood firm by Akk's side, no matter what.

Ayan made no excuses for Akk's behavior, held him accountable, called him out when he was doing something wrong and at the same time offered Akk all the support he needed to get out of that bad place because he knew how necessary it was to have a support system.

And isn't that exactly what Sand has been doing with Ray ever since he first saw him, left alone, drunk as hell, getting into his car without any concern for his life?

Just like Ayan, Sand has found this special fragile boy who needs lots and lots of love. And where Akk wanted acceptance and to be good for others, Ray only wants to be loved and to be someone's priority for once in his life.

Even the little things Sand does for Ray. And yes, we joke about Ray being Sand's spoiled princess, but before Sand came into Ray's life, did anyone ever treat him with this much care and affection? No.

Lighting up his cigarettes, cooking for him, helping him with his helmet, driving him around, changing his dirty clothes when Ray is too passed out to care, going after him no matter what Ray said or did, shaving him...

Yes, Sand is a natural caregiver and perhaps acts of service are his love language, but to me the point is that Sand is able to see the full potential Ray could reach.

Sand knows how precious he truly is; with patience and love and care, with someone by his side ready to fight the battle with him, someone who will not give up on him, Ray may one day be able to blossom into this wonderful person that he is capable of being.

Until that moment comes, Sand will be there for him like no one ever has before. Because Sand looks at Ray and sees someone worth fighting for, someone worthy of love.

And yes, I am aware that Ayan and Sand are very different characters, they are at different points and have different expectations when it comes to relationships.

Even the way they handle things when it comes to love is different: Ayan is very much open and ready and unafraid to communicate what he wants from Akk, while Sand is emotionally constipated, with his walls all up, still falling hard but refusing to admit it even to himself.

Yet the way Ayan and Sand care for their loved ones appears to me as the very same.

#does any of this make sense #i'm just rambling #and we're only halfway through so maybe I'll come back to this once all the episodes are out to see if my prospective changed #also i would like to point out how in the last two screenshots both scenes take place in bed #and i absolutely did that on purpose because there's nothing i love more than bed scenes with no sex involved #i spent too much time on this #sorry if my english is bad #only friends the series #only friends series #ofts #only friends #sandray #raysand #the eclipse #the eclipse series #akkayan #firstkhao #firstkhaotung #first kanaphan #khaotung thanawat #only friends meta #thai bl

[reitheist]

bucchigiri is so funny bc like. arajin is a pretty flawed teen put into the wildest dystopic school of battle-hungry pretty boys who answer to no authority. if arajin were even the slightest bit interested in men he might actually play along with the premise of the show. he's drowning in a harem of eligible bachelors dying to fight him while simultaneously being given the main character powers needed to fight back, but he doesn't want ANY of it. arajin is actively nerfed by his heterosexuality.

#does any of this make sense #ive never seen a bl bait show so dedicated to keeping its mc unambiguously uninterested in guys before #i respect that ig #i mean theres probably gonna be some more interesting tension between him and matakara but thus far its seeming pretty one sided 💀 #bucchigiri?! #arajin tomoshibi #thoughts

[clairenatural]

i honestly think deancas transcends the queercoding vs baiting argument. there are too many layers. too many writers going in and out of the writer’s room, all with their own agendas. 4 different showrunners (5 if you count singer) with different goals for both their relationship and the story at large. massive real life social and political shifts. the market research. the show ultimately being dragged on and extended multiple times, thwarting the ability of whoever was in charge at the time to wrap up the story the way they were planning to. the rise of tumblr shipping and queerbait discourse fundamentally changing the show’s relationships with its fans. the rise of modern tumblr fandom culture colliding with destiel’s height of popularity, and supernatural rising to the highest ranks of fandom with superwholock. misha collins crossing all sorts of actor/fan lines and redefining how to interact with your shipping fanbase. a generation of fans growing up and going on to actually working on the show itself. the intense heller vs. bronly divide that only got more polarized as time went on. the real, behind the scenes drama about not being able to get rid of cas. the first pairing to reach 100,000 fics on ao3 even after the show had ended. yo a ti cas. the obvious disagreement at an executive level on the post-confession messaging. an incredibly powerful fanbase nobody expected or knew what to do with. 12 years of this. ultimately i think the full story of why they didn’t go there sooner, why we didn’t get dean’s answer, what the intentions were from the beginning and how they evolved would be different based on who you ask and destiel was (and continues to be) a phenomenon that cannot be explained with normal media analysis.

#does any of this make sense #bc idk. knee jerk reaction is yeah it was bait but also no????? #i think half the writers were baiting us half the time and half of them were intentionally coding #and misha was. well he continues to be misha #(/pos i love him) #and it just has spiralled out of everyone's control #mae.txt

[veilkeeper]

No no no, I saw those tags on that post of Astarion's "Midnight Chimes, eh?" Line.

Let's talk about Astarion in a relationship with Tav that he feels is a ticking time bomb, about to explode and then it's over!

Cuz like...that's HEAVY. That's HARD. That shit HURTS. Tav's perspective on their relationship has to be very different than his, and he probably can't even comprehend that it's real for a long long LONG time. And a LOT of that almost DEFINITELY comes from his own insecurities. ESPECIALLY if you get together during the confession scene BEFORE meeting Araj. The GUILT and WORRY he must feel??? Gut wrenching.

to catch people up this is the post and these are my tags:

#literally i got all the break up dialogue just to see and every time he says midnight chimes with that sad little face#its like.... man he really thought it was too good to be true huh#and it adds a lot of... umm.... context. to certain paths that can be taken in the conversation where you get together#because he really does think he doesnt deserve the PC and hes very vulnerable in that convo & in the early days of the relationship i think#*forcibly drags myself away before i add more tags to this innocent ops post*

and i completely agree with you, i think for quite A While astarion is waiting for that other shoe to drop and for his partner to come to their senses and "realize" (heavy air quotes) that he has nothing to offer them. hence why he says "this facade." not because his feelings are fake (theyre not) but because their whole relationship feels like a sham to him because he cant give them a "real" relationship (i.e. one where he is able to provide, sexually, emotionally, romantically, etc). because as he says, he doesn't know what any of this means or what he wants their relationship to look like. and people can hc any number of romantic overtures or whatever (im not your mom) but the text of the game very much implies (to me) that the relationship is progressing at a snail's pace.

and that dialogue, the immediate acceptance when he's broken up with (and his fixation on protecting them in act 3 in the lead up to the ritual), is why i just cant take anybody who says "nah astarion isnt afraid of losing the PC" seriously. because like. no i think he's very afraid. he just shows it/doesn't talk about it in the way other characters might, and he's completely prepared to lose them at any moment because he can't even fathom why he has them to begin with.

#DOES ANY OF THIS MAKE SENSE #HELLO. IS ANYONE OUT THERE. #asks #astarion #astarionmance #bg3

[bisexual-panic]

i was bored so i started reading through the reasons on why people on here ship sylki and lokius and it was interesting to see how people who watched the same show came to such different conclusions on characters relationships

i then remembered that meme of your ship is a character you relate to and your type (no this did not call me out in many ways) and the saying that what you read/watch is what you want in a relationship (no thank you)

so i made my own little theory that people who ship lokius ideal relationship is one where they are best friends, spend a lot of time with each other and are always sweet to one another (essentially the best friends to lovers trope) whereas people who ship sylki look for that dramatic relationship, where that bicker, are awkward around each other and don’t often express love through words (enemies to lovers), (did i really just tell myself what i want in a relationship through talking about two fictional gods)

#does any of this make sense #absolutely not #but it made some sense it my head #sylki #loki series #loki season 2 #loki laufeyson #sylvie laufeydottir #lokius #tom hiddleston #sophia di martino #mobius #owen wilson

[morganaspendragonss]

it’s like…perry and leo were fully assimilated into the usher way of life. they were introduced to this world of luxury and abundance and they took it all and never gave back. they became ushers in every sense.

then there’s camille and vic who kept their names. it’s like madeline said — she didn’t want any of it if it involved being shackled to a man. vic had her work which could have done so much good, and it would have happened under victorine lafourcade, not victorine usher. roderick’s name wouldn’t be (entirely) dominating the headlines.

then there’s camille who roderick keeps a very close eye on by placing her behind the scenes. she leads her entire life in service to fortunato and the usher name, but in reality she is not camille usher, she is camille l’espanaye.

this even goes for tam in a way - her product is faced by bill but when that falls apart she decides - fuck it, i’ll do it myself. obviously that doesn’t work out - it doesn’t work out for any of the women.

they try creating their own identities outside of roderick usher, but in the end it all comes back to him.

#the fall of the house of usher #victorine lafourcade #camille l'espanaye #mike flanagan #does any of this make sense #it did in my head

[transmasccofee]

this scene is ruining my life at first I didn’t get it but now I get it and Aughdhyfhfheujfuejfjjfjfnv

#Kusuo learning from Akechi that competition can be fun and playful and not like. Torture. #And then learning that Kuusuke despite his shitty brother-isms is deep down seeking that exact thing #but just doesn’t know how to approach it #because of how their relationship functioned for years and how they both are #Like don’t get me wrong Kuusuke is uh. Not a good brother and his inferiority complex lead to him hating and mistreating his brother for #Many Years #And I don’t think this scene functions as forgiveness exactly (Kusuo still has resentment towards him in later arcs) #But I think it’s a moment where he realizes they’re both on some level really lonely people #Who have been fighting their whole lives #And being like “hey I don’t hate you. Let’s be friends instead of enemies.” #And Kuusukes response being “I should really be the one saying that to you” #I just. Like it’s a Start. #IDK like Kusuo was completely justified to hate his brother especially after something like the catgun arc #But he doesn’t and I think it’s because he realizes that his brother genuinely doesn’t hate him anymore #Their whole deal is just really interesting to me but idk how to phrase my thoughts on them coherently #The only thing I wish this arc had was Kuusuke having a “what did I do to you” moment but it is a comedy and we already got that from tori #so ynow #i just say he had that moment post meteor #does any of this make sense #Also it makes me so emo that he pictured akechi

[butraura]

there’s something so personal to me about how after the lightning strike, we see how Buck’s coma dream reacts to the people around him in real life. Chimney and Hen in his dream around the relative same time as they’re visiting him irl.

bobby in his coma as he sees him with his rosary beads irl. Athena talking to him irl and buck talking back in the dream, frustrated. Christopher saying “you have to come back” and then immediately after coma dream!buck walking into the hospital saying “I think I have to come back here.” Maddie and their parents visiting and his interactions with them in the dream.

But there is no interaction with Eddie, except for in the dream when he realizes Eddie isn’t there.

And how in real life you see that Eddie can hardly look at him at all. Is literally averting his gaze at every turn. He can’t look at Buck.

To me, this just proves he never spoke to him while he was in his coma. I always like to imagine or write that Eddie talks to him privately while he’s in his coma, but truly I think he didn’t. He probably silently prayed on his own out of the room, or said things in his head. But I don’t think he spoke out loud to Buck.

It was too hard for him.

#does any of this make sense #idk #I’m tired #I miss them sm #we were robbed of seeing Buck next to Eddie while he was asleep in a hopsital #i love them your honor #and #they’re fruity officer #buddie #911 #buck x eddie #evan buckley #eddie diaz

[dyke-ulaura]

One thing I love about Falsettos is that AIDS is never mentioned. Which makes sense - obviously - as none of the characters would have known, all Charlotte has to say is “something bad” and the audience knows exactly what is happening. We never even see Whizzer’s specific symptoms. There’s the fall during racquetball and the baggy clothes that imply weight loss, but other than that the illness itself doesn’t even really matter. AIDS is this major plot point of the second act and yet rather than detailing the horrors of the disease, falsettos is so focused on the people affected by it.

And it feels so different to media made today about the AIDS crisis. It’s not trauma porn, there’s no gay-bashing, there’s no real homophobia at all in the second act. The main focus is love, the love that Whizzer and Marvin have for each other, the love and support from the rest of the tight knit family. We see Whizzer as a lover, a friend, a father figure. Falsettos does such a good job at establishing Whizzer as a person. He is so much more than just an AIDS victim, and Falsettos is so much more than a show about AIDS

#and this is part of why I hate the whizzer aids jokes #not only are you making fun of a global tragedy #you’re reducing Whizzer’s character (and all the real people he represents) to just another AIDS victim #which misses the point of the show completely #does any of this make sense #im shit at structuring my thoughts #falsettos #marvin falsettos #whizzer brown #falsettos analysis

[bottle-of-newts]

Okay okay hear me out hear me out

I literally just finished watching the OG Trigun after watching Stampede like last week and I am simply - haunted by this and need to know if I'm insane or not???

Does Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls not feel so like - vehemently Vashwood coded? From either of their POV?? Like it works both ways??? Am I a madman??? Help???

#the bottle came uncapped #trigun 1998 #trigun stampede #trigun #send help this is driving me mad and i have no mutuals to talk abt this with #cause i keep playing the “I'll give up forever to touch you” bit in my head #and it's just playing while vash and wolfwood rotate in my brain like rotisserie chickens #does this also work for other vash and wolfwood related ships??? #does any of this make sense #also #vashwood