I just had one of my fear foods for the first time in a long time!! It was pasta and sauce, which seems stupid to freak out about, but I wasn't able to have it for so long. I'm really proud of myself for being able to work on this!
Felt like having eggs & toast for breakfast so I made eggs & toast instead of my usual safety.
I guess that’s what they call a ‘recovery oriented decision’. Weird how they just sneak up like that every now and then. I still feel very entrenched in my ED, despite my weight restoration, though symptom use looks & feels different
so last summer I was at my lowest weight ever -100 pounds- and I would literally do anything to get there again I always got complements about how skinny I was and
I started gaining weight in October 2021 and haven't been able to get back on track since but i really want to now i have swim team all summer and i wanna be lookin cute.
If anyone has any tips on some safe foods, don't be afraid to share because I'm gonna go grocery shopping soon and I have like no safe food ideas I usually just end up binging horrible food and fasting.
guess whose brain found a food fact and avoided a food it liked for at least three years, only to find out it was incorrect about said fact? mine. that’s right, my brain hates me.
ate my second b12 vitamin, a peach, and drinking coffee before work. i was in bed all day because i woke up at 7 randomly and couldn’t get back to sleep. i feel so tired and have no energy but i’m going on 48hrs of my fast and i don’t even want to eat any real food
as i was in the kitchen making the coffee my family is making chicken and rice, and it smelled so amazing. i want nothing more than to dig my hand into the pot of rice. my step dad puts oil in it, so much it changes the fucking color of white rice. i hate them so much, so much oil in everything.
i won’t eat it, i’ll just have a nice bowl of watermelon again after work and go to bed since i haven’t been getting any sleep lately. may be a controversial take but i allow myself to eat fruit during fasts; ie the small peach and some watermelon. i think i’m starting to grow another fear food: apples. they were safe for so long because i was severely underestimating the cals before i got my food scale. used to log them as under 100, but when i weighed it for the first time it was over 200. Wtf? for an apple? whatever, i just won’t eat them anymore. jk, or not?
spotted on facebook. is this gross to anyone else? i couldn’t imagine eating a burger, fries, and chicken nuggets… my usual order is 4 nuggets and a diet coke. am i the asshole, or is this gross to the yall as well?