#fetus ash | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

thenewgothictwice · 25 days

Text

"Palestinian": new poem by the Palestinian poet Ibrahim Nasrallah (trans. Huda Fakhreddine), March 24, 2024.

"I was silent and nothing came of it.

I spoke and nothing came of it.

I cursed, I apologized, and nothing came of it.

I was busy, I pretended to be busy…and nothing.

I sat, I walked, I ran.

I shivered and I warmed up. Nothing.

I was parched until I cracked. I drank until I drowned, and nothing came of it.

I crumbled like a fetus, like the father, the siblings, and the mother.

I was then gathered in a shroud made of old curtains,

and nothing came of it.

I stumbled more than I could stand but then I stood up,

and nothing came of it.

I prayed until, like a prophet, I became a verse in a holy book,

I rowed until I reached hell,

I beseeched and begged …and nothing.

I raged, I calmed, I remembered what was once distant,

and I forgot what was always close.

I befriended a monster, and I fought a monster.

I died young and sometimes survived.

In both times, I grew old from all that I had seen,

but nothing came of it.

I charged, I withdrew,

I fought the wind when it blew,

And reconciled with the waves when I rose and raged.

Among the horses my heart was a horse,

in the night my heart was a night,

and nothing came of it.

I ate, I hungered, I vomited, and nothing came of it.

I embraced my shadow, and I chastised it and then I chastised myself.

I greeted a woman lost in the streets.

I fought with a man and his smile nearby,

and with a bird that sang briefly in the garden,

and nothing came of it.

I closed all the windows in my house and opened them.

I wrote words on death when it is merciful,

death when it is futile,

death when it is hell,

death when it is the only way…at last,

death when it is gentle and light,

death when it is heavy and dark,

and nothing came of it.

I wrote about the river and the sea, about tomorrow and the sun,

and nothing came of it.

I wrote about oppression and depravity – purity too.

I slept without a bite of bread.

I dreamt without dreams.

I woke up not missing my hands or feet or reflection in the mirror

or the thing I call my soul.

I died and lived. I lit myself on fire. I put myself out with my own ashes,

and nothing came of it.

I am all these elements, O God: fire, earth, wind, and water.

Their fifth is a pain that blind songs can’t see, their sixth is this immense

loneliness, and their seventh, since my slaughter, is blood.

When I burned, I inhabited the letters of my free name like a butterfly:

P A L E S T I N E

When my roof was suddenly blown off into the sky and with it a wall, a window,

and the youngest of my children,

I gathered myself in the G and the A and the Z and the A.

I became GAZA.

A thousand warplanes circled and hit me. I collapsed and collapsed again,

and then rose in a scream. I called out, but nothing came of it.

Nothing came of it.

I lost faith and believed, lost faith and believed again,

and lost faith and believed and…

nothing came of it,

nothing came of it.

And the filthy world asks me:

All this…what of it?"

#ibrahim nasrallah #huda fakhreddine #palestine #gaza #free palestine #palestinian poetry

407 notes · View notes

something-in-the-seas · 1 year

Text

Kratos: So, then Zeus dug through the ashes to find the fetus. When he found it, he cut open his thigh and placed it inside. Seven months later, the stitches were cut, and Dionysus was born…

Freya, Atreus, Mimir, Freyr, Brok and Sindri, Tyr:

#god of war #god of war ragnarök #god of war spoilers #kratos #atreus #freya gow #freyr gow #tyr gow #mimir #Freyr on the herbs: no way that’s crazy :D

3K notes · View notes

footnotesaregreat · 2 months

Text

Hua Cheng's Simp Diaries 101

*a list of his simp moments bc you've never seen a man so deeply in love*

1. found and kept xie lian's earring from the first time they met when he was 10

2. plays with it a lot

3. kept the umbrella xie lian gave him when it was raining at his shrine

4. only ate from the offerings at the shrine when he was certain it was xie lian himself who told him to

5. was one of the few people who didn't kneel to pray to xie lian bc it was what he asked

6. he brought fresh flowers to the shrine everyday for xie lian's statue to hold

7. he tied the red string of fate on the finger xie lian had tied his own hair around to protect him in the cave

8. he turned his ashes into a ring which he gave to xie lian

9. told him it was nothing important

10. made him his reason to live because xie lian told him to

11. he built thousands of statues and shrines for xie lian

12. he challenged the 33 gods that ridiculed xie lian beat them in battle and burned down their temples *girlboss*

13. he's been drawing xie lian's picture from when he was a child from the first day that he saved him

14. made a big ass door for the shrine so it'd be better protected

15. when xie lian was blown away by the sandstorm at ban yue pass and accidentally grabbed onto him he only said: gege there you are don't fly away again

16. literally sucked venom out of xie lian's hand and then proceeded to explode the snake that stung him

17. made sure to give xie lian the ferns that did not grow with humans as fertiliser to heal his hand bc he knew he would feel bad about that

18. killed hundreds of ghosts at ban yue pass in seconds before xie lian came down there

19. protected him from the snakes leaving mu qing alone to fight them

20. taught xie lian how to play dice just to hold his hands bc the motherfucker definitely just changed the dice himself

21. he gave xie lian dice that would always bring him to xie lian as long as he wanted to see him

22. when he fought with qianqiu and accidently hurt xie lian he felt so bad

23. eming was crying actual tears

24. he came into the heavenly capital to take xie lian away immediately bc he rolled the dice he gave him and he wanted to see him

25. once he saw how much qianqiu didn’t know about the gilded banquet he took them to qi rong's lair and forced him to tell the whole story so there would be no misunderstandings

26. he built a literal temple in the ghost city for xie lian specifically for the mid autumn festival so he could "make things interesting" for xie lian's "amusement"

27. he lit up 3000 blessings lanterns for xie lian from the temple he made in the ghost city

28. spent billions in gold to get the lanterns

29. *twice*

30. he captured the fetus ghost before xie lian bc he couldn’t let him hurt himself and to do so kissed him in the pretence that they shouldn't have their mouths open

31. brought xie lian back to paradise manor and instantly made him feel so comfortable that he actually let his pain show while removing the needle he'd stepped on

32. he went to puqi village to bring xie lian’s hat back bc he mentioned it while rambling after their first kiss

33. he cleaned puqi shrine and took qi rong out of the house along with the rest of the trash

34. when he saw he xuan come in with qingxuan he threatened him bc he didn't want xie lian involved with the whole thing with he xuan and the wind and water masters

35. got his people to watch over qi rong and lowkey lang ying and guzi and also probably to look after the shrine while they would be away with qingxuan and he xuan

36. when xie lian FINALLY asked for his private communication array password his eyes legit twinkled

37. he purposefully set his password to sth very much embarrassing so that no one but xie lian would dare reach him

38. the only time xie lian actually used it himself was when he was legit imprisoned by jun wu

39. he actually found xie lian's password funny and the poor thing got the validation he wanted for his joke after 800 years of having this password

40. he constantly changed outfits to watch xie lian struggle to keep his eyes off him

41. while qingxuan was in xie lian’s body he wouldn’t hurt him so he punched he xuan into the ground to release his frustration

42. totally sailed across black water's domain with xie lian's dead body in a coffin

43. the worst suffering for him is watching his beloved get trampled and ridiculed which he experienced when xie lian descended and the people turned against him

44. also watched him get stabbed a hundred times

45. and saw him drunk in a graveyard crying and breaking down

46. he thought he hadn't won xie lian over yet but he had even though xie lian himself hadn't realised it yet

47. he made a new donation box for xie lian while shirtless and sweating even though he's a literal ghost and doesn't sweat

48. he pretended to be unconscious even though as mentioned he's a literal ghost just so he could have a laugh and totally freaked out when xie lian attempted to perform cpr *on a literal ghost*

49. proposed to xie lian and for some reason said he was kidding

50. he’d already given xie lian his ring and wore the string of fate (smooth bro)

51. built a coffin to safely cross the sea with xie lian and successfully caused him a boner (erectile dysfunction cured great success)

52. went along with xie lian to the east sea to protect him from black water but still didn't interfere with his choices

53. when xie lian did the soul switch he sucked his power from his body so that he could bring xie lian's soul back and again freaked out when xie lian kissed him to get the powers back

54. he only practices writing with a specific poem that specifically describes the specific feelings he has for xie lian

55. when he lost control of himself he *intensely* kissed xie lian and afterwards he was so worried that he had hurt him

56. he turned into lang ying even though xie lian told him to not be with eachother for now since they would both be busy

57. even though he was with him he sent the litter to carry them

58. had yin yu gather all the ghosts and the clothes while searching for the brocade immortal so that xie lian could work faster

59. he tattooed xie lian's name on his arm but his handwriting is so awful even xie lian himself couldn't tell what was written for the longest time

60. he ignored xie lian telling him to not do all the chores and did them for him while maintaining lang ying's form

61. he refused to change even when it was clear that xie lian had figured it out and was struggling to write whatever he’d asked him

62. he tried to make himself look good when xie lian asked him who is the prettiest, strongest etcetc

63. he was definitely crying tears of joy whenever xie lian picked him up and told him who cute he was

64. he shared his ✨feelings✨ about looking weaker than he is and feeling powerless

65. did not want xie lian to have to protect him but still listened to him and accepted the help

66. went with xie lian to mount tong'lu to protect him and make sure no one messed up with him

67. he told xie lian anything he wanted to know about whatever they encountered at mount tong'lu

68. he changed the bloody rain to red flower petals so he wouldn’t get xie lian wet

69. he brought him under his umbrella and shielded him from the boulders refusing to help anyone else

70. he tied THE FUCKING RED STRING OF FATE to xie lian's finger to make sure the two would always find their way back to each other

71. he quoted a line from the oldest known chinese novella literally meaning "not even death can do us part"

72. he showed xie lian what happened between yin yu and qi ying so he could better understand their situation

73. he was very ok to just hang around inside the mountain and told xie lian that if it was with him he wouldn't mind staying there

74. he heard and comforted xie lian's worries about his guoshi and told him exactly what he needed to hear

75. it later helped xie lian remain calmer when the identity of white no-face was about to be revealed

76. when the rest of their group where being loud he told them to shut the fuck up bc xie lian was sleeping

77. when pei ming was being a little shit and commented on the red string tied on their fingers he covered it with an illusion

78. then he showed it to xie lian who was worried that it was gone completely

79. he said to xie lian: "i know you can’t die, and you’re not afraid to die, but no matter how tough you are, don’t think yourself incapable of getting hurt.”

80. and: “not dying doesn’t mean not getting hurt, and it definitely doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt. when you see something strange and dangerous, don’t just touch it. find me. let me take care of it.”

81. when xie lian replied with: “...you too. if there’s something dangerous, you don’t touch, i won’t touch either, alright?” he was downright giddy, giggling, eyes twinkling, hair twirling

82. he built tens of thousands of statues and painted all of his encounters with xie lian throughout the years

83. he also sculpted the two of them boning (my guy was so sexually deprived)

84. he was so so scared when they ended up in the cave bc he didn't want to make xie lian uncomfortable in any way

85. he never wanted to make any kind of move that would frighten xie lian

86. he healed xie lian's frostbite wounds that even xie lian himself hadn't noticed

87. honestly can't separate the moments at this point the man is a ball of affection

88. when xie lian hugged him and showed him that his feelings were reciprocated he said: "your highness, you really will be the death of me." BRO IS LEGIT LIVING IN A SAKUATSU FIC WHAT THE FUCK

89. his eyes would not stop twinkling the whole time xie lian held his hand

90. he was in such a good mood that he didn't even say anything *extremely* insulting to mu qing and feng xin

91. he is just a little bby

92. he loves xie lian so much

93. when xie lian asked him about his ashes he once again said that they were absolutely safe and if the place he kept them was destroyed he wouldn't want to continue existing anyway

94. he basically turned into a ghost for the sole purpose of protecting xie lian and being with him

95. he twirls his little braid and fidgets with the coral pearl from xie lian's earring

96. he KISSED xie lian before they jumped into the kiln and this time without any false pretence of "transferring powers” or performing cpr" *once again on a literal ghost*

97. his spirit stayed in the mortal realm after dying in battle for xie lian and when he saw him told him once again that he will never forget him

98. also referred to xie lian as his beloved

99. also said that he wanted to protect him

100. and that he is his most devoted believer

101. and if his beloved felt bad that he stayed to protect them he would just not tell them

102. very slay of him

103. he was still so young there i-

104. they are the death of me

105. in the form of a literal ball of ghost fire he followed xie lian and did his best to warm him up and protect him even though he couldn't do that in that form

106. when white no-face held him and forced him to stay still while people stabbed xie lian a hundred times he couldn't take it and transformed into a vengeful spirit

107. he found xie lian in yong’an and offered to fight for him again as wu ming

108. while in yong'an he protected xie lian multiple times

109. the best and most beautiful statue of xie lian he built was inside the kiln and ended up being the one that broke xie lian out thanks to the powers he’d transferred to him

110. he continues to give xie lian spiritual powers by sticking his tongue down his throat and xie lian is going for it ofc

111. sent out his people to find the humans xie lian needed for the spiritual array

112. immediately noticed someone extra joined the array and told xie lian to check it out

113. when xie lian had to go to the heavenly capital with jun wu and his guoshi he asked him for a kiss bc staying back to take care of the spirits and the people in the array was just so hard to do without

🎐🍒🔥✨gege✨🔥🍒🎐 at his side

114. when xie lian connected with him through the spiritual communication array he instantly knew sth was wrong bc xie lian would never say his password unless it was an emergency

115. he gave qingxuan spiritual powers to have a way to connect with xie lian and sent help immediately

116. came to the heavenly capital despite knowing that jun wu would find him

117. talked with xie lian's guoshi and even spoke respectfully to him *mostly*

118. he sent he xuan to the array to give qingxuan his fan and transfer powers maybe bc xie lian cares for him or maybe bc he tolerates qingxuan *guess we’ll never know*

119. let's be honest from this point on, even more than the rest, every moment should be added

120. the man is a ball of love

121. he quoted himself while he was evaporating into butterflies because he's just such a poet and a romantic

122. he dies 3 times for xie lian

123. three

124. separate

125. times

126. he came back on the same day they first met

127. he lit another 3000 blessing lanterns for xie lian

128. "they spent eight hundred years running towards each other. this time, it only took an instant to fall into each other’s embrace."

129. he turned puqi shrine into a gay monument to xie lian

130. he left an essence of evil inside xie lian *successfuly caused mu qing and feng xin strokes*

131. he asks xie lian to call him 🧧🥟🗡️✨san lang✨🗡️🥟🧧 bc it means husband so xie lian has been calling him his husband all along

132. he got spoiled by xie lian and tried to bone every chance he got *fair*

133. when someone goes to pray to either one of them, for the prayers to be successful they must pray to both of them *together*

134. treated xie lian to yuanxiao and he finally remembered how it tasted after 800 years

135. he was definitely shaking from happiness when the answers to the riddles from the ghosts wrote "my husband is hua cheng" *even though the ghosts didn't know grammar*

136. when xie lian temporarily lost his memories he followed him everywhere to keep an eye on him

137. it's implied that mu qing and feng xin found him to tell him the situation with xie lian and then he went to find him so maybe he trusts them more now

138. he immediately sent yin yu to capture the creature that ate xie lian's memories

139. he loved every second of making fun of him

140. he made xie lian call him 🧧🥟🗡️✨gege✨🗡️🥟🧧

141. you bet his eye was twinkling the whole time

142. eming is used to taking baths with xie lian but when he went to him while he didn't have his memories hua cheng slapped it *save eming*

143. when he got sick he didn't want xie lian to have to take care of him but they talked about it and agreed to let the other take care of them whenever they needed it

144. when the whole fiasco with xie lian’s statues happened they made statues of hua cheng to keep them company

145. he has given up on learning calligraphy since he can just turn xie lian on and he forgets about everything

146. no one is doing it like them

147. hua cheng is insane for all of this

148. and very valid bc xie lian is gorgeous

if anyone made it here here's some tgcf playlists i'm quite proud of

84 notes · View notes

smartycvnt · 3 months

Text

Two Bros and a Baby

Title: Two Bros and a Baby

Pairing: MJF x Reader

Word Count: 886

"Are you sure that you're okay? You look kind of uncomfortable," Max's voice was full of genuine concern and care. If someone would have told Ash that the guy she had been hatefucking a year prior would be doting on her hand and foot, she would have never believed them.

"I'm fine," Ash reassured him. "Relax, go have your match. I'll be right back here after you win."

"Kiss for good luck?" Max asked. Ash leaned forward and pressed a kiss against the corner of his mouth. She was careful not to leave any of her lipstick on him. Max placed his hand on Ash's stomach, and the fetus inside moved towards him immediately.

Ash smiled to herself at the knowledge that when their child was born, they would love Max. He had been so nervous about being a father, but Ash didn't think that he had any reason to be. Max had completely changed his attitude towards their relationship and stepped up in ways that Ash didn't know he was capable of.

"Good luck out there man. I'll keep an eye on her," Adam said. Max smiled and thanked him quickly before going out there. Adam helped Ash over to sit by a monitor, knowing that she'd want to watch Max's match. It wasn't a title match, but it was the start of a new feud.

"Shit," Ash winced. Adam shot her a concerned look, one that Ash was in the middle of brushing off when she felt her water break. "Fuck. Adam, I need to get out of here."

"You're not? It's not time, is it?" Adam asked. He looked incredibly freaked out, not that Ash could blame him.

"It is," Ash confirmed. Adam sprung into action and ran to get one of the doctors in the arena. Ash was unsurprised when he came back with Britt and an EMT. Everything after that happened so quickly that Ash realized she never got the chance to have someone tell Max where she went. Surely, his match was over by the time that she had arrived at the hospital.

"Hey, is everything okay?" Adam asked. He was holding Max's place as the doctors waited for Ash to dialate some more.

"Where's Max?" Ash asked.

"He's on his way now. Don't worry about that or anything else," Adam reassured her. Ash appreciated it, but it didn't help that Adam looked super nervous. Between the doctors talking amongst themselves and the uneasy look on Adam's face, Ash was on the verge of a panic attack.

It only got worse each moment that Max was kept away from her. They had a plan for the birth. Ash would happily accept whatever drugs they offered her, and Max would try his best to help deliver the baby. He had even gone as far as to watch a couple of videos and take classes on what to do.

"I am afraid that we can't wait much longer. This baby wants out, and to avoid any complications, we're going to have to try a c-section," the doctor said.

"I'll let Max know when he gets here," Adam said. Ash watched him leave the room as the doctors prepared her for the procedure. Ash was terrified that Max wouldn't get there in time, but as she was wheeled out of her room, she swore that she saw him in the hallway waiting for her.

"I'll be right out here, baby!" Max called out. He followed Adam to the waiting area, glad that someone was there to sit with him. Max couldn't fathom being alone while he waited to make sure that the loves of his life were okay. He couldn't raise a baby without Ash, it wasn't even something that he was willing to think about trying.

"Hey man, are you doing okay?" Adam asked. He sat down next to Max and placed his hand on the back of Max's shoulder. Adam was worried about Max. He had been for quite some time, but it wasn't until recently that Max had begun to show his nervousness.

"I'll be fine. Ash is going to be fine, so I'll be fine. The baby will come out healthy, and there are tons of guys who can give me pointers about being a good dad," Max reasoned. Adam wasn't quite sure what to say to him, but luckily, he wasn't alone in waiting for Ash.

"You're right Max," Britt spoke up. Max and Adam looked over towards her, both with thankful looks on their faces. "And if you guys need any help, Adam and I will always be there for you."

"I'm right here, by your side. I want to help you be the best version of yourself Max, I really do," Adam said. There was a moment of silence in the waiting room before Max turned and pulled Adam into a hug. Max had never had a friend like Adam, someone who genuinely seemed to love and support Max.

"I love you man," Max muttered. Adam didn't say anything back to him, but Max didn't mention it, assuming that Adam just didn't hear him. There were more pressing matters at hand anyway, ones that kept a blanket of tension in the air until the doctors came in to announce that Max's son had been born.

#one shot #my writing #aew x reader #aew #maxwell jacob friedman x reader #maxwell jacob friedman #mjf x reader #mjf

50 notes · View notes

haggishlyhagging · 1 year

Text

Women were burned with remarkable lack of compunction throughout the Middle Ages. If statistics were kept they have been very successfully concealed; but evidence indicates that the proportion of women to men who were burned alive from about 800 to 1800 was as much as ten thousand to one. Men were sometimes burned as heretics after having been mercifully strangled to death. But women were burned alive on countless pretexts: for threatening their husbands, for talking back to or refusing a priest, for stealing, for prostitution, for adultery, for bearing a child out of wedlock, for permitting sodomy, even though the priest or husband who committed the sodomy was forgiven, for masturbating, for lesbianism, for child-neglect, for scolding and nagging, and even for miscarrying, even though the miscarriage was caused by a kick or a blow from the husband. We read in the old chronicles of women in the last weeks of pregnancy being burned until the heat burst their bellies and propelled the fetus outward beyond the flames. The infant was then picked up and flung back into the fire at its mother's feet. We read of the little daughters of burnt women being forced to dance with bare feet one hundred times around the smoldering stake, through their mothers' ashes and through the still glowing embers in order to "impress upon them the memory of their mothers' sins." And all of this in an age when the only law of the land was the law of the church, when civil courts were merely the agents of the Christian hierarchy.

-Elizabeth Gould Davis, The First Sex

#elizabeth gould davis #femicide #religion is torture for women #female oppression #male violence #patriarchy #anti christianity #middle ages

222 notes · View notes

choirgamerfangirl · 2 days

Text

I regret this so much but at the same time I don't. Im dying at my creations.

BUT HEEYYYYY NEW CHAIN PERCHANCE? WE DONE DID THE FETUS ONE ALREADY SO WHY NOT THE ASH BABY TOO/SILLY.

#the stanley parable #tsp narrator #tsp #tspud #tspud fanart #the narrator fanart #silly #IM SO SORRY FOR THIS IM #IM CRYINF AT MY OWNCRESRUON #HELPME

32 notes · View notes

mirageofadesert · 4 months

Text

Who is the most tragic character Luo Yunxi has portrayed?

#1 Rong Qi from Princess Silver

#2 Runyu from Ashes of Love

#3 Tantai Jin from Till the End of the Moon

#4 Zhou Xiao Shan from Broker

#5 Shangguan Tou from And the Winner is Love

#1 Rong Qui

Crown Prince Rong Qui has suffered from the moment he was born. The only happiness he has ever known was taken from him by the person who should have loved him, but her love was always conditional and the price he had to pay was high. Though he suffered many hardships, his heart remained kind, and this led him to sacrifice not only his happiness, but also his life. The reason I put him first is that even in death, he couldn't rest.

#2 Runyu

Another prince who has suffered since childhood, abused and neglected by his family and betrayed by the people he loved. Runyu grew bitter and vengeful, ultimately costing him everything he held dear. But there is still a chance for redemption.

#3 Tantai Jin

In a familiar pattern, Tantai Jin is another prince who has suffered from birth because he was born as a devil's fetus. The Ancient Devil God had planned a cruel and torturous fate for him that would make him experience all the darkness of human existence. However, the reason I put him in 3rd place is that he is ultimately able to escape this and choose his own fate, freeing himself from all of it all. And because I'm delusional, I think the open ending leaves room for a novel ending!

#4 Zhou Xiao

It's a testament to Luo Yunxi's choice of roles that Zhau Xiao is only number 4, after being blackmailed and oppressed, gaslighted, abused, lied to about his mother's death and his daughter's existence, and finally giving up his life because he couldn't trust the system to take the guy out. On top of that, he was torn between his sister, his child, his ex and his love, ultimately choosing them all over himself.

#5 Shangguan Tou

There are many tragic characters to choose from for my last spot, but I chose Shangguan Tou because he was abandoned by his father, drugged and (almost?) sexually assaulted. On top of that, he falls in love with an immature woman who can't express her feelings very well. A different kind of tragic love story in my opinion (the why-does-he-have-to-fall-for-her kind). The Winner was definitely not love.

Honorable Mentions

Luo Ben from Light Chaser Rescue and Li Zeliang from Lie to Love are not on the list, but they could be. Luo Ben lost his parents, feels guilty about his sisters' medical complications, but therapy could actually save this guy. Li Zeliang lost his father, failed to save someone and instead watched them die; an incident that cost him his leg and his passion. The latest addition to this list is Gu Yunzheng from Love is Panacea, who has severe abandonment issues due to a mother who left him and died, a neglectful father and a dead wife he couldn't save in time. But again, therapy could really work here.

I can't wait to add Chu Wanning from Immortality and Tang Lici from Shui Long Yin to this list! I have a feeling they will make it into my TOP5!

What is your ranking?

#luo yunxi #cdrama #till the end of the moon #shui long yin #and the winner is love #ashes of love #princess silver #罗云熙1227出道十三周年快乐

57 notes · View notes