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haruchuiyo · 2 years

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Yearning

Was it so scary to yearn for your older brothers best friend?

content: mutual pining, in love Suguru, implied age gap, lots of fluff, kisses, suggestive, mentions of cheating (it’s not suguru or you), satoru is a protective (and a good) brother.

fem!reader

word count: 5k+

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Suguru Geto.

Your older brothers best friend.

You didn’t expect to fall for such a man. You didn’t expect to fall for a man who gives you a sly smile as he turns his head knowing his silly harmless prank fooled you. To fall for such man whose eyes turn glistening as he looks at you giggling at his reaction when your own harmless prank fooled him back. Or the way your days turn for the better when you see him, hear his pretty soft voice or the way he deepens it when he whispers in your ear to tell how your brother Satoru, who’s also his best friend, looks silly being constantly at his girlfriends side who is also your own best friend. You can’t get the look in his eyes away from your mind, the way he looks at you, the featherlight touches and the way he is with you gives you hope.

You didn’t like the hope it gave you. The possibility of him possibly thinking of you as well, liking to be in your presence and to talk to you. Because that’s what it all is.

Hope and possibility.

No.

You can’t feel this way again, not after what happened last time. You can’t believe in the hopes and possibilities again. After all he is your brother best friend and what he is doing could be in courtesy of his best friends little sister.

It takes you back to the time you first saw him. Your brother called you to come and hang out with him. As you see your brother a few meters away, you didn’t see who else was walking beside you so suddenly and you bumped into them. Looking up as you apologize, the way he stood almost looming over you, his dark hair up in a bun and the way he looked down at you with a gentle smile. “No worries.” His voice was soft and reassuring. Looking away, feeling flustered you see yourself nearing your brother so you call out for him. “Satoru!” You call out, hearing another voice do so as well. You look beside you and you didn’t expect the man you bumped into to call out Satoru as well.

“Oh great, both of you are here.” Satoru says happily and you fidget with your hands as you let out an awkward chuckle. You hear the same soft voice speak up. “So you’re the little sister, I’m Geto.” He introduces himself and you nod in acknowledgement, about to speak up as well before your brother cuts in. “It’s Suguru Geto, tell her your full name dumbass.” Satoru says in a scolding way and you giggle at his behavior while looking up at this Suguru Geto. “Nice to meet you.” You say with a smile, which has Geto smiling back as well. And that was the first time you met him.

Afterwards you saw him so many times, you got so used to his presence. It didn’t feel as awkward when you two first met or when Satoru left to bring something leaving you two alone, in this awkward silence with a little small talk.

You do still like him. The way he makes you feel happy, the way being in his presence makes you think less of your worries, the way your body tingles when his hands brushes yours when lending you something or the way your heart seems so out place when he is simply with you or does such nice gestures. You love that every time you meet, there’s always something new to know about him. He looks too good, he is just too good.

You want Suguru Geto.

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“Just leave me alone, alright.” You say as quietly but as sternly as possible. “And for the hundredth time, leave me out of your emergency contacts.” You add, glaring at the man in front of you, who you have the fortunate thing to call a ex boyfriend.

“Please, I’m sorry, I will never do it again.” He says and you chuckle non humorously. “You’ve said that plenty of times, trust me and every time it backfires, so no. Leave me alone.” You tell him as you stand up from your chair and couldn’t even take one step before he grabs your wrist.

“I will prove myself to you, I won’t do it again. Ever.” He pleads, his eyes flickering and you swear you feel his hand shake on his hold on your wrist. You chuckle, that’s all you could do and your ex looks worried and scared. You couldn’t care less about his own feelings. “As said, leave me alone. I don't want anything to do with you.” You grab his hand with your other hand and yank it off.

“And don’t forget the emergency contact.” You say, shuddering at the memory of the times you went to the hospital when they called you. Because of him. You walk away and out of the cafe and take a breath in of the fresh air then you walk away. Your heart feel lighter every time you manage to speak out about feelings to your ex, you always held them back and every time you gave him a chance to redeem himself, he does it again and you grew tired of it. Of him.

Your phone buzzes in your pocket and you pick it up and see Geto is calling you. Just by reading his name your heart and body feels warm and fluttery. Accepting his call, the first thing he says almost made you break down in front of the entire world.

“Are you okay?” His voice, you love it so much. The way he looks like he has a natural deep voice, his real soft spoken voice is just way better. It fits him so much. The way he asked was so genuine, you felt your eyes burn. “Yes, of course. Why wouldn’t I be?” You slightly chuckle, trying to erase any hint of your voice shaking.

“I saw you walk out of your favorite cafe, you didn’t look happy.” His voice, as usual, so soft and gentle. You exhale before speaking up. “I met my ex, he wanted to meet me there.” You tell him and on his end, it was quiet for a few seconds. About to ask if he’s there, he speaks up.

“So it was him I just saw,” he says and your eyes almost popped out, about to ask for confirmation for what he said, he cuts you off. “Meet me there, so walk back.” He tells you and hangs up the call. You look at your phone, baffled, confused and most of all, even more confused again. What just happened?

You open the door to your favorite cafe, feeling slightly better inhaling the aroma of the freshly baked pastries. You see Geto talking to the cashier, ordering something. Walking towards him, you hear him order your favorite cupcake and as per usual, your entire body warms up, heart is racing and stomach fluttering. This man is the end of your life. Geto turns his head after paying, his eyes on you and a gentle smile breaks out on his stunning face.

“Hi.” You softly say. “Hey, how do you feel?” He asks as he steps to the side. Now standing directly in front of you. You can smell his cologne, and you take a whiff off it and wanted to melt to the ground. Geto saw what you did, but you didn’t see it, he couldn’t help but smile to himself seeing how the mere smell of his cologne seemed to make you feel better by how your eyes is glistening and your lips turning into the smile he loves. “Great.” You shortly say. Such a short answer but Geto knew it was genuine.

“Excuse, do you see number fifty four cake?” A small voice asks and you look down and see a little child, she was looking at you with a shy expression. “Hi sweetheart, I do see a number fifty four cake. Is it yours?” You ask her gently as she eagerly nods, you smile at her and give her the tray. “Be careful now.” You tell her softly as she holds the tray with her small hands. “Can you please put two spoons on here for me?” She asks softly as you nod “Of course.” You say as you place two spoons on the tray. “Thank you.” The child says and you smile at her. “No problem, sweetheart.”

During the entire interaction, Geto watched you. How good, gentle and patient you were with the child. The way you smiled at her as she walked away after you had put the spoons on her tray. You look up and face him. Theres a slight flicker to your eyes and he sees out of his peripheral vision how you’re fidgeting with your hands. You’re nervous. Is it because he is looking you? He sees how your lips part, you were gonna say something before the barista called out his order number. He takes the tray with the pastries and drinks he ordered before thanking the barista. You follow him and take a seat in front of him at the table. “Thank you.” You softly say as Geto hands you your favorite cupcake. He takes a sip of his drink and you munch on your cupcake. You look at him while munching, his eyes almost looked so amused when he looks at you.

“What is it?” You ask and he slightly chuckles, he takes a sip from his drink again when looking like he is about to burst into laughter. “Don’t you feel the cupcake cream on your nose?” He laughs and you pout. “I did in fact not feel it. Could’ve told me.” You retort at him and he chuckles again.

You were to go for a tissue before he grabs ahold of your face with one hand, you instantly look at him, surprise evident on your face. He looks at you with such intent, you look elsewhere as he gently wipes the cream off for you. Before pulling away, you swear you felt him gently stroke your cheek before letting go of you. And you instantly miss his touch on you. “Thank you.” You say, your voice soft. Your heart is still racing at what happened seconds ago. You glance at Geto as you take a bite from your cupcake. You see how he takes a sip from his drink, how he gulps it down and licks off a wet spot on his lips. And you instantly look away when your eyes met each other. You swear you saw Geto slightly chuckle and smile to himself.

“Why did you two break up?” He suddenly asks, your eyes in widens in surprise before relaxing. “He cheated on me.” You answer and Geto body stills as you see how his grip on his cup tightens. “He was so adamant about going back together, I did say no of course.” You add on and you see how Geto relaxes.

“Does Satoru know?” He asks and you nod your head as you look at your cupcake. “He was the one to tell me that some people don’t deserve the amount of chances I gave him.” You chuckle slightly, as you think back to the time Satoru nearly scolded you for going back to your ex so many times. At some point, you thought about the time Satoru almost landed a punch on the ex when he found out he cheated. Again. You stopped him before the ex could have a reason to report him.

“You gave him many chances?” Geto asks, surprise evident in his voice. You chuckle again, bitterly this time. “I regret those chances, they were just a waste of time.” You remark as you take a small bite from your cupcake. “I can see that, he was muttering to himself when I saw you two.” Geto tells you and you look at him.

“Can’t believe you saw that, that’s humiliating.” You state as Geto chuckles. “He was quite funny, kept muttering ‘just two times’.” Geto says, imitating how the ex said it and you laugh at that. Geto’s lights up at hearing you laugh, how your lips curves up, how your eyes almost turns into moon crescent as you laugh. He saw your hands on the table, how its holding the cupcake and he wishes to hold your hands so badly. Your hands would fit perfectly in his own.

You see how Geto is looking somewhere and you look down and see him staring at your cupcake. He startles in surprise, making you slightly giggle. “Sorry about that, but do you want my cupcake? You’re staring pretty hard at it.” You tell him with a grin. Geto loves how endearing you look right now, especially how endearing your obliviousness can be sometimes.

“I eat it if you don’t want it.” He says, shrugs his shoulders while sending a sly grin your way. You grin at him back, “Well I do want this cupcake so I suppose we are gonna share.” You tell as you break the cupcake into halves.

“Can’t believe you gave me the smallest piece.” He dramatically gasps which has you laughing. “This is my favorite cupcake after all.” You say before biting on it and chewing on the piece you bit.

About to flex the last piece of your cupcake, Geto snatches it from your hands and eats it. “Suguru!” You gasp as he grins, mouth full of cupcake. You laugh his antics and he laughs too, making crumbs of cupcakes fall from his mouth and you laugh even more at that. He covers his mouth as he laughs at the same as he tries to clean his mess up.

“That looks like karma for stealing my cupcake, Suguru.” You remark grinning as he is still laughing. “It should’ve landed on your face honestly.” He teases and you gasp at that as he laughs at your reaction. You see some piece of the cupcake stuck in between his front teeth and you almost cackle at that but stop yourself by covering your mouth. Geto sees your behavior.

“I have something between my teeth don’t I.” He says in a matter of fact way. You giggle as you shake your head. “Not really.” You look amusedly at him. You see a piece of cupcake on the corner of his mouth. So you grab a tissue and wipe the mess off his lips. Geto watches you doing so, looking rather focused and when you were done, you looked away shyly. How he knows that, he sees your fidget with the tissue in your hand. You always fidget with something when feeling shy or nervous. It’s not nervousness in this instance, or you would’ve fidgeted with your hands instead of an object. He smiles to himself seeing your reaction. How your eyes look everywhere except at him.

The same day, Geto walks you home after a day being with each other. Being with him for so long, feels fulfilling. He is walking beside you, with the exact same thoughts. He feels your hands brush against each other and he wants to intertwine your fingers so much, he exhaled nervously. Should I go for it? He thinks to himself. He glances at you, you look content. There’s a small smile on your face, your nose tinted red a slightly from the cold.

You feel someone loop their finger around your little finger. You feel yourself stop breathing completely when he completely intertwines his larger hands with yours. And pockets your interlaced fingers in his pocket of his jacket. You look at him and he looks content himself, you look away smiling. Letting out a small exhale.

Geto doesn’t regret it all. And he was right. Your hands fit perfectly in his own and he wishes to never let you go. He gently strokes the top of your hand and he feels you squeeze his hand. He closes the small distance between you two, your arm brushing against his own.

Maybe the hope and possibility won’t be so scary now.

Both of you arrive at the door of your apartment building. You face him after the walk home. You feel yourself getting pulled forward to him and you shyly smile to yourself and Geto sees it and squeezes your hand.

“I’ve always loved you, you know.” Geto speaks up as he grabs ahold of your other hand and intertwines them as well with his other hand. Your breath hitches at his confession. So the hope and possibility weren’t so scary after all.

“I love you so much, it’s like I can finally breathe when I am with you.” He confesses, his voice softer than usual if possible. He sounds genuine and it makes tears almost pile up in your eyes. You feel how he is pulling you closer and still is holding your hands and looking at them. His hold so gentle you almost sniffle but stop yourself as if to not stop him from talking.

“Hearing how many times you’ve got hurt, I wanted to punch that little shit myself.” He expresses, his voice a more stern and serious but nonetheless still so soft. “Personally, I’d hold you back from stopping Satoru from punching him.” He says making you giggle. He finally looks up at the sound of you giggling. His eyes that turned so quickly from slightly amused too worried.

“Why are you crying?” He sounds worried, his eyebrows furrowed and he is frowning at the sight of your tears as he lets go of his hold on your hands to cup your face. You lean into his touch while placing your hand on top of his, smiling softly now. “Too much emotions, I suppose.” You chuckle out, feeling embarrassed to even cry at a love confession.

“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have cried like that.” You mutter, still feeling embarrassed. Geto flashes you a slight smile as he wipes your tears off your face with his thumb. “Don’t worry about that.” He reassures you gently. “Do you wanna come inside? It’s pretty late.” At your words, Geto’s hold on your face and his thumbs wiping off your tear, stills.

And here he is in your apartment, you saw some mess around and cleaned them up while collecting the trash.

“You can put your jacket there, I’m just gonna throw this away.” You hastily say, walking past him and leaving him alone in your apartment. Truth to be told, you were nervous. This is the first time he’s in your own space and home. And you invited him in after he just lovingly confessed his love to you and after you had just cried cause of heightened emotions.

Geto was nervous himself, he put his jacket there you told him to put, took off his shoes and took a seat on your couch. He rubs his hands on his thighs as he looks around. His mind is a mess, he wants to kiss you, he wanted to kiss your tears away so badly, he wanted to kiss you all over your face yet at the same time he was nervous about your reply. You hadn’t replied to his confession and he has no idea what you’re gonna say. Are you gonna reject him? Do you feel the same way he does? If you do, he wouldn’t know what else to do than just kiss you like he’d never let you go.

He hears the front door open and he sees you there, he sees you take off your shoes and jacket and place it close to his. When you finally look at him, you look flustered and you’re fidgeting with your keys.

“Do you feel the same way I do?” He wonders as he stands up, approaching you.

“I do feel the same way.” You answer. Geto still approaching you.

“Cause if you-“ he stops himself from continuing further. Did he hear what he just heard. You’re biting your lower lip as you you fidget with your keys again. He closes the distance between you.

“I’ve always loved you, Suguru. Always.” You declare softly as he holds your face again, only to gently grab a hold of your hair, caging you in closer to him. You crane your neck up as he brushes his lips against yours. You wrap your hands around his waist, fisting his shirt at his back. You feel how his hold on your head tightens when you just slightly trace your hands up his sturdy back and fist his shirt again. You feel how his breath hitches when you put a slight pressure on his parted lips.

“Kiss me please.” You let out a soft whine and Geto doesn’t waste time to answer to your pleas.

He molds his lips to yours, pulling your face closer and you whimper into the kiss, fisting his shirt harder, almost marking your nails on his back through his shirt. The kiss is so slow yet so desperate, like the both of you are taking each other in in every way possible with nothing amiss. His grip on your hair tightens slightly, barely controlling himself, he pushes his tongue inside your mouth. The slow pace is frustrating, it’s agonizing.

He lets go off one hand on your hair to trail down your spine and lands on your waist. He presses you against his hips and you moan into the kiss. Taking chance, he nips, sucks on your lower lip, tugging on it before letting it go and presses his lips on top of yours again. The emotions almost submerging, you pull your arms away from his back and go to wrap them around his neck. Along the way, you felt his sturdy bare arms. Tipping up on your toes, you kiss him harder. Geto quickly brings his hands to the back of your thighs and hauls you up, so you wrap your legs around his waist as he takes you both to the couch and sits down. Your knees hits the back of the couch and he holds you on your hips, his fingertips close to your backside and grasps it.

He loves the feel of your lips on his, how it perfectly moves together, your soft gasps and your grip on him, oh how it ever slightly tightens when he kisses you a certain way.

Sensations so overwhelming and needing oxygen, you pull away from the kiss. Geto lets out a slight grunt, pressing his lips on yours, nipping on it as you could only hold him tighter and love how he makes you feel. How he kisses you.

“Suguru.” You whisper against his mouth, he doesn’t stop kissing you, with eyes closed he is placing featherlight kisses on the corner of your lips, on your lips directly, on your jaw. You feel how he trails his larger hands up your spine and places his hands on your neck, his thumb close to your pulse point.

He opens his eyes, they look dazed and captivating, he looks all over you, he can’t stop looking at you, too pretty, too good for him.

You feel him lightly stroke your jaw as he brushes his nose against yours and places his forehead on your own. He closes his eyes again, exhaling as his grip on your neck tightens. You softly whimper at the almost tight hold. You push yourself plush against his chest, your breasts flattening against it. You feel Geto’s warm hands go below your shirt. You let out a soft gasp at his touch on your lower back, you feel how he rubs circles on it.

“I’ve never felt like this before.” He mutters against your lips when you feel it brushing against yours. You place a chaste kiss on it, it makes a soft smile curve up on his lips. “It made me frustrated, it’s beyond anything I can control.” He murmurs, his voice soft. “What do I do, angel?” He asks as he pulls away from your face so he could look at you, his eyes flickers over yours as he watches you, for your reaction, to hear what you’re gonna say.

“Is it something good? What you’re feeling.” You ask, your tone itself soft as you lightly scratch the nape of his neck.

“Yes, I never want to stop feeling like this.” He admits which makes you smile. His eyes flutters down to your lips and he slightly pulls his head towards yours again with his lips parted. He wants to kiss you more, more and never stop.

“Me neither.” You admit yourself which makes Geto smile, his eyes glistening and he leans in, pressing his lips on top of yours, kissing you again. You’re drowning in his lips, in his kisses. He nibbles on your lower lip as he pushes you against his crotch. Gasping, you feel how Geto pulls away from your lips to pepper kisses on your pulse point, on your jaw and neck. Your hands now in his hair, the grip tightens when he sucks and nibbles a certain point just below your ear. Goosebumps raises, Geto turns more desperate as he places kisses on your skin. Then he goes back to kiss you again on the lips, reveling on it until you need a break to breathe after such a breathless kiss.

You disentangle your lips from him, giggling seeing how he comes chasing after you. Panting hard as he is opening his eyes, he sees such a beautiful smile on your face, your hair is messy and lips swollen. He feels your finger on his lips as you look at him. Strands of hair so out of place, his bun tousled. He couldn’t stop himself from smiling himself as he burrows his face in the crook of your neck. Happiness overtaking him, he hugs your body to his and you giggle.

“I love you.” You hear him say and you nod your head. “I love you.” You tell him back, making him him rub his face on your neck which feels tickling, it makes you let out a laugh. Geto loves the sound, he can’t have enough of it.

He brings both of you down to lay on the couch, holding you close to him. You place your hands on his chest as you burrow your face on it. A quiet contentment filled his chest as he held you close all night.

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Waking up with the sun beaming in through the windows, you find yourself at ease in the arms of Suguru. He is sleeping soundly, lips parted with soft snores exiting. You smile at his cute sleeping face. His hair is tousled and occasionally, he licks his lips as he sleeps making you giggle as quietly as possible to not wake up.

Gasping in shock when the familiar face of your brother peeks up from over you. Your eyes widened in shock and his as well. He looks at Geto’s sleeping form then back at you. Then suddenly, your best friend who’s dating him, peeks up over you from beside him as well. For a moment there, you completely forgot you had given them the key to your apartment.

You slowly grasp yourself out of Geto’s embrace, giving yourself a quick internal pat on the shoulder for not waking him up.

All three of you go to the kitchen and that’s when Gojo stands in front of you, having an expression of saying ‘I want you to explain yourself’. Your best friend took a seat on a chair as to not disturb the both of you. You catch her sending a quick wink with a grin before she looks away to busy herself with something else.

“I can explain myself, well, ourselves.” You say, feeling nervous. Satoru crosses his arms on his chest. “Well, go ahead. Nobody’s stopping you.” He remarks. Feeling more nervous, feeling like you’re at gunpoint by your own brother, you fidget with your hands.

“Satoru, I always loved him.” You start off, your brothers eyes widens and you see your best friends look at you with a knowing face. Sighing, you continue. “I don’t know when it started but I’ve always done that. And yesterday-“ Satoru cuts you off.

“Yesterday?!” He almosts shrieks in surprise. You shush him, not wanting to wake up Geto. “Be quiet. Yes, yesterday. I met him after confronting my ex.” You tell Satoru the short version of what happened yesterday.

“Oh that damned ex, once I see him again I swear-“ now it was your turn to cut him off, you see your best friend quietly laughing to herself at her boyfriends antics. “I know, you’re gonna punch him, but he is a waste of time so don’t bother doing it.”

“Alright, so does he feel the same way? Suguru.” Satoru asks and you smile widely, happiness flooding through your body at the thought of his confession yesterday night. “He does, Satoru. In fact he was the one to tell me first.” You chuckle, feeling on the verge of tears cause of the happiness you felt. Satoru’s eyes soften and he uncrosses his arms and approaches you. He holds your arms and gives them a slight squeeze.

“I’m happy he feels the same way and for your information I’ve always known.” He admits making you gasp which makes him having the biggest grin on his face. Your best friend rolls her eyes at his behavior.

“But if you did, then did you act like you were mad just now?” You ask, feeling baffled at his admittance. He nods with a slight shrug. “Both of you weren’t the slightest bit subtle, it was obvious to everyone.” He says and your best friend stands up and nods along.

“It was just about time someone confessed.” She adds on as she wraps an arm around her boyfriends waist, leaning into her side. He wraps an arm around her as well, holding her in.

“I thought you’d get mad.” A familiar voice you love speaks up, although his voice a bit husky from waking up. You look at Suguru, he looks tired still but still manages to flash a gentle smile your way. Your heart flutters at his smile. Geto saw you give him a shy smile and he stops himself from smiling even wider, seeing how he has his best friends eyes on him.

“I’m not, but I’d get mad if you ever hurt her. Which leads me to tell you, if you do, I wouldn’t hesitate to punch you.” Satoru says as matter of factly, he looks more serious now when he is turning his attention fully on Geto. He stands up from the couch and approached him, standing close to you somehow as well.

“I don’t think I can ever think of myself hurting her.” Geto says, reassuring your brother. Satoru’s face shows that he is pleased with the answer his best friend gave.

“Good answer, Suguru. Didn’t think you had that in you.” Your brother says with a grin as Geto chuckles. You feel him grab a ahold of your hand and pulls you into his side. Your entire body heats up at the contact and you feel yourself melt into him.

“Alright, now not in front of us.” Satoru sighs as he sees the fond look Geto has as he looks at your flustered one, your best friend laughs at his behavior.

“Satoru, I don’t think you can say that considering what we did in this apartment.” Your best friend speaks up which makes Satoru’s face flush red and he turns quiet. You laugh at that along with your friend.

“Can’t believe you actually did that in my home.” You say, teasing Satoru while you see how Geto looks confused. “I tell you later, it’s quite a little story.” You tell him with a grin as he looks at you in an affectionate way. His expression has every evidence of contentment and happiness on it, like he all he can see is you and that makes your heart feel like racing out of its place.

After some time the same day, you see Satoru huddled up into your best friends embrace as they lay on the couch watching tv. You were in the kitchen with Geto, him washing the dishes.

“You know what I’m gonna do after this.” Suguru speaks up and you hum in response, looking at him. “What are you gonna do?” You inquire, turning your attention and body on him. He wipes his hands off on a towel, places his hands on your hips and pulls you in close.

“Kiss you a lot.” He whispers close to your ear and you giggle.

“Will you stop kissing me?” You whisper back, grinning. He looks like he is thinking for a second.

“No, never.” He shakes his head before cupping your face and leans into you for a breathless kiss.

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