#glass anxiety

[redsoda1111]

my offering for swap!au (dozo)

i have a lot of Thoughts about this au. specifically where both kni and vash's goals differ but yet i still try to keep the same. the shift is, who was the one who got rem's speech after tesla's revelation.

kni uses his powers of creation so as not to let his sisters suffer the end of a last run anymore. hence the black hair. meanwhile, vash doesn't want to eradicate all of humanity, but to control them and strip them of their free will. he thinks in this way, he could control how plants are to be treated and kni won't have to slowly kill himself for the Humans and their sisters. he's starting a cult lmao

#i have more Thoughts on this #kni also does preses his head against the glass of a plant's tank but instead of healing the plant #he learns how to create whatever the plant was designed to generate #i also think with vash having lost faith on the only human he thought he could trust and love like a mother #he'd be Extra clingy to kni and the separation anxiety is Real af. like really 'there's no one else but you' vibes #and for them to be opposing forces i think vash wouldnt care so much about the plants as much as kni does. #he just wants his brother by his side and not to slowly kill himself for them Period #you could say he'd be a little jealous as well. #SO MANY POSSIBILITIES!!! #trigun #trigun stampede #KV #plantcest #swap au #millions knives #vash the stampede #redsoda art

[forestgreenlesbian]

youre not allowed to b a freak loser loner anymore or at least youre not allowed to mention it lol. even like five years ago you could talk about being awkward and socially weird around meeting new people but now if you do that eveeryones like "ok edgelord you are deliberately cutting yourself off from community why are you so obsessed with being alone. you all need to go outside and make real friends you are too online." which like yes obviously but why is eveyrone acting like the only two options are you either a) have a load of friends or b) you don't want them??? it is so weird. to be seen trying & failing has become so taboo that people assume if you're alone it's because you want to be and youre trying to be cool & aloof or else you see things like small talk or reaching out to people as "emotional labour" and choose not to do them. like i am not fucking choosing not to do them i literally try to do them every day and find it very hard and then you tell me i can't even joke about that struggle or being a lonely friendless loser to maybe for one second make light of the bottomless pit of disconnect + loneliness i experience every day without someone blaming me for not putting myself out there. idk

#as i'm typing this i'mrealising maybe this is an autism problem. like to feel completely separated from the social world by this pane of #thick glass your whole life and then to hear people say it's a you problem that you need to fix if you don't want to be alone forever #idk just that post going around about small talk 'i have social anxiety' 'then suck it up and learn how to interact with people!' like?? #arent we trying to do that already??? i'm sorry that being percieved as a social reject freak my whole life might have negatively affected #my ability to reach out to people? it just feels mean spirited lol. idk. anyway

[blueberrymffn]

Nothing to see here but poppy petals

#dream of the endless #sandman fanart #the sandman #my art #broken glass brush by Joanna Vu #the rest is base #procreate #digital art #trying to get over my anxiety over actually posting things

[43sol]

Probably die first in a horror movie

#fgo #servant summer camp~chaldea's thriller night~ #i had a lot of fun with this event but I keep forgetting to post pics about it lmao #XuFu and paisen were a delight-exact same in unhinged #my anxiety ridden purse dog that bites XuFu :) #I usually dislike anything illya prisma but this illya is okay she suffered for our sins #wished we had more sibling interactions and more emiya being nerdy #the advance team really had the time of their lives while we're fighting for our lives #gintama reference if you know you know #really out here having wildly different experiences on murder mountain #double lake really took me out the first time like that can't explain everything->explains everything #nito somehow became the manager of discount hell #wished we communicated across the lake with morse code using the bus sign and sigurd's glasses #sigurd....bestie....you are not helping your case here #kiara: how big that dick boi #guda: small. leave me alone.

[andromeda3116]

planning to make a move tonight with this guy and deeply terrified even though i know he's interested, he's made it very clear that he's interested but putting the ball in my court to decide what, if anything, i want and i've made up my mind to pursue this but like. i've been single since the obama administration because there's not, like, a person-shaped hole in my life, i don't need to be with someone to feel whole, and i have to make room in my life for another person and idk how to do this and i hate feeling vulnerable or exposed or out of control and giving someone else the power to hurt me and having to just. trust that they won't. but i kind of... accidentally already gave him that power without realizing it. i kind of... feel like this is just acknowledging something that's already started.

i am. so nervous.

like, a little giddy, a little eager, a lot anxious for no reason other than how terrified i am of major changes even when i feel like they're good ones and. and. and.

#i am having to force myself to eat #i have cleaned the whole apartment. i am shaking like a leaf. i will 100% need a glass of liquid courage. #i've already told all my family that i'm doing this so i can't chicken out. #it just feels like... it's time. we're here. we've reached this point. #he won't be over here for like four more hours and my brain is eating itself. #this is going to be comical probably i am just going to have to come out of the gate with it bc if i wait i'll chicken out. #i've been trying to come up with what to say all week but i know my mind is going to go blank and i'll end up babbling. #he knows about my issues with vulnerability. he knows about my anxiety. he knows about... me. #he'll probably pick up on the gist of it even if i'm stumbling through what i need to say #hnnngh #i feel like komi from komi can't communicate when she accidentally calls tadano #like bouncing around the room ''panic panic panic panic'' #and its been all day of this and like probably four more hours of it and ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[transmechanicus]

Hi gamers hot tip, you’re not supposed to leave cosplay contacts in for more than 6 hrs bc they’re not sufficiently breathable and will suffocate your eyes over longer periods. Do not, i repeat do Not, be a dumbass like me and leave those shits in for like 10hrs. My vision is fine long term afaik but godDAMN is it hard to Look At Anything while your eyes frantically gulp air post-removal.

#my stuff #also had to walk the rest of the way home post removal (stopped at work to remove out of anxiety) without my glasses #huuuuge headache on top of the circulation cutoff from my wig #absolute cluster of face pain aughhh

[theyellowotter]

I used to work in a museum as a guard who mainly told people not to touch stuff and now I work in an office building wherein is a hallway of large, likely expensive paintings

So you can imagine my near aneurysm as I watched a person gush over a detail and put a flat hand about half-an-inch from the canvas. I made an actual noise that, if I didn't cover it with a throat-clearing cough, probably would have turned into EXCUSE ME PLEASE DO NOT PUT YOUR HANDS SO CLOSE TO THE ART

#brings back memories lol #and then I forgot about not looking at the sun directly #and even though I only looked for about five seconds with the glasses #I'm having a silent anxiety attack in the breakroom #as I wait for my eyesight to leave me and never return #(I'm not actually losing my sight but my anxiety doesn't know that) #oh god someone is just full-on staring #well now I feel better #art museum #museum officer

[dilfkuza]

i feel sick :)

#y8 spoilers #yakuza 8 #SMASHING MY HEAD IN THE WALL SCREAMING FUCKING CRYING BREAKING GLASS TEA4ING MY HAIR OUT WAILING FUCKKKKKK #i knew 'happy' would never be a possibility for Kiryu but you gotta be FUCKING KIDDING ME #bashing my skull open and letting the emotions flow out of me naturally bc i cant find the words to express how i feel rn #fucking. fucking. god fuck damnit KIRYU 😭😭😭😭 #they couldn't let his ass retire. had to give him cancer on top of every other fucked up thing in his life. hhhhhhhhhhh #bulletin board #kiryu kazuma #god. this has spiked my 'kiryu sendoff' anxiety so high i might puke fr

[gretanotkreta]

Aelin Week Day 2: The Magic of Friendship ✨

Uhmm somehow I spent 17 hours on this 🥴

I haven’t drawn most of them before so it was really hard to get them looking somewhat like in my imagination and I’m not happy with some of them :// but I spent a lot of time today just to color it and now I’m exhausted

Also if you want to do some coloring of your own you can totally save the lineart and color it in, I know how relaxing that is :)))

#please let me know if they are at least recognizable #i don’t really know if I’m happy with this #wow anxiety is really kicking in right now #my art #sarah j maas #sjm #throne of glass #aelin #aelin galathynius #digital art #tog #aelin ashryver galathynius #tog fanart #rowan whitethorn #sjmaas #aelinweek

[teplejtrouba]

my psychiatrist confirmed that i am in fact autistic

#all of my friends were like 'no really?!!! i had no idea“ listen i know we all know but i wanted to know For Sure #she's very 'aspergers' and 'you're going to learn how to make eye contact' about it because czech psychiatry is... well #but overall the other stuff she said checks out and im happy I don't have to live in constant self doubt anymore #now she's not completely sure i have adhd tho because my attention is mostly normal according to tests #but she's also not opposed to me having both like it's definitely still possible she just wants to focus on mainly treating my anxiety rn #she was like 'so it would make sense that you're living in social isolation' #me with most friends I've ever had in my entire life: :-) #i was like 'no i have friends they just all have adhd or autism too' #i mean i am still socially isolated. i oftentimes feel like other people are living behind a glass wall and i can't reach them #but i took it literally in the 'you are alone and no one talks to you' sense #anyway #i am disappointed none of my friends sent me 'náš auťák' from the czech Grease dubbing #i have many feelings about this but they are difficult to put into words so autism creature gift shall suffice

[keeps-ache]

they're like shiny knickknacks to me

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #oc #tw scopophobia #never considered Knick as a name and now i'm starting to think hfbvs #//anyway [will smith wife pose] #i've decided they are friends (? ambiguous) and go on hijinks :3 though of course there are the Horrors (ambiguous) #//also ayo i got my id !! #cool cool cool #apparently i look androgynous (ambiguous (i'm gonna stop now lmao)) so that is a funkin WIN #downside is i DO look Very tired (bc i had to take off my glasses (and i thought i had more time to prep before the flash suckerpunched me) #and/or intoxicated SO. LMao #it was fine though :) DID i freak out? yea a lil. WAS it aighty though? yea :> #take that anxiety i only missed an unknown amount of social cues Lol B3 #//anywho my computer is going to die and i'm gonna get motionsick again bc i am in a ~+~caaaar~+~ #toodles noodle :3

[i-hate-it-here-too]

New glasses! I can finally see again

#me #social anxiety #canadian #university student #tired #ontario #22 #glasses #green

[itspileofgoodthings]

my life is a very slow process of everyone around me telling me not to be anxious and me fighting them all tooth and nail while inching towards more stable mental health.

#I know it’s not true but sometimes I feel like if I didn’t have anxiety I would not suffer at all #which. again. is false #but there’s a lot of things I don’t want in this life and a lot of things I am not scared of and a lot of things I just accept #and like. It’s FINE #but all my suffering from anxiety stays in one fixed flame of sheer agony #and it’s hard because I don’t shake like a chihuahua in the corner of my bedroom #unable to move or function #I’m always doing things and functioning and joking at parties and (generally) saying the right thing #but it’s all located in one corner in the middle of my mind attacking my ability to make judgments and live with my decisions peacefully #like an unseen wound #and the distance i feel it puts between me and other people #is one of the most painful things #just several sheets of frosted glass between me and them #and sometimes the worst it gets is when I can bear it without breaking down and so I just do and I just keep functioning #and the cold just creeps in and everything goes kind of numb! #tbh now that I think about it this might be why I often think of myself as a person with no desires or ambitions or dreams #or impetus or forward motion or anything #because I DO want things and have opinions and the exist in flashes. But also they’re buried deep under several layers of protective apathy #so they’re not stable. I drop them many times. forget them ignore them imagine that they aren’t there. I’m sorry I’m rambling I’m FINE #actually when I talk about it that’s how you know I’m doing okay with it #when I can’t talk about it and am half-heartedly going through the motions #that’s the problem #anyway whew. thanks for listening sorry for all the self-reflection etc. etc. etc.

[randomreasonstolive]

Reason to Live #8894

  Little glass bottles filled with sparkly things.  – Guest Submission

(Please don't add negative comments to these posts.)

#sad #help #hope #reason to live #depressed #depression #empty #alone #mental illness #anxiety #trauma #guest submission #mental health #glass #bottle #bottles #sparkle #sparkly

[aurosoul]

I feel like I’m at the stage where I need to start advertising this more but I have a webcomic!!!

it’s about cetacean sapience - the idea that dolphins and whales have the capacity for conscious thought and language. the link above goes to Webtoons, but you can also read it on Tumblr and on DeviantArt!

(3D model and animation by The7thSea)

ps: reblogs appreciated to spread the word!! 🐬💙

#dolphins #cetaceans #dolphin #cetacean #whale #whales #animal comic #webcomic #webtoon #comic #'dolphins and whales' is somewhat of a misnomer because all dolphins are in the order of toothed whales #meaning all dolphins ARE whales but i digress #sunderverse #anyways i still struggle with getting over the anxiety of self promotion #but i'm really trying to kick it in the butt here because i've let anxiety hold me back for too long!!! #i'm learning the importance of being a fan of your own work as a content creator #because being proud of your work is the first step towards getting others excited about it too!! #anyways check out sunder!! it's got dolphins! it's got WEIRD SCIENCE!! it's got a scientist lady with big glasses and a gray hair streak!!! #basically all the essentials for a balanced breakfast

[mack-anthology-mp3]

GUYS turns out i can actually do a fantastic tenth dr cosplay using just clothes i already have!!!!!!

brown pants blue button down shirt (even has brown pinstripes like the inverse of his coat) brown waistcoat, blue green brown plaid tie, and i have this really long brown corduroy coat i almost never wear but it fucks hard i swear, and a pair of sneakers like yeah!!!! i'm the doctor!!!!!!! david tennant gender!!!!!!!!!!!

#i would sent a picture but internet safety & anxiety #also my phones in the other room and i don't want anyone (my family) to see me in my brilliant dr who cosplay heheheeeeeeeeeeeEEEEE #wonder if i could borrow my dads old glasses lol he probably threw them out tho tragic #the coat goes so hard though it's the right length & actualy 60s vintage made in nz too #it doesn't have a long vent at the back or a breast pocket but other than that it's PERFECTTTTTT #dr who #david tennant #this fucks so hard omg #i kinda want to like. go into town wearing this or something but. what if i see people i know #too embarrasing #like half an hour ago i was crying over s3e8 but WE'RE SO BACKK #jk i'm still distraught over that episode like. i thought the Final Fifteen gomens was good acting #the emotional distress on his face actually undid me #aavvvajasjnakjns david tennanttttttttttt in yuor wallsssssssss