#griefsucks

[seductiveandcynical]

He grew flowers in the darkest parts of me, they died when he left.

Sometimes I wish I would have died too.

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[greyaugustuspoetry]

I wish I saved your number

And all of our texts

I wish I took more photos of us

So then I couldn’t forget

I wish I had called you

The night before you died

But I didn’t do any of this

So how will I survive?

-Grey Augustus

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[literallybonkers]

You left too soon. I am not done with the love I have had for you yet.

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[pigeonheadsmumblngs]

I broke open

And weeds spilled out

From the places

Flowers once grew.

So much dust

Filled my mouth

I spat mud

Upon my shoes.

I broke open

with a visceral scream

I thought to be your name.

A garbled sort of fucked up sound

That cracked the sky

And brought the rain.

Vines of sadness

tied me up,

My own crucifixion.

Looking down upon the world

I didn’t want to live in.

I broke open

Everything laid bare.

You had died and my grief

Left me hanging there.

I broke open

Like the sky

During a hurricane.

I broke open,

I bled out

And never loved the same.

~pigeon head~

January 2024

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[he4rts4alexis]

Summer isn't the same

Pairing: Clyde Donovan x Fem reader

About: Losing a beloved friend🤧🤧

Warnings: Profanity, Angst, no comfort I just don't know how to do angst with confront😭

As you watched the summer trees blow in the wind outside the window of the car with your long love best friends. Craig, Tweek, Jimmy and Tolkien it's the same as every summer but something was different something is different it's not Craig driving he always does that it's not tweek panicking the whole car ride it's not Tolkien finding places to eat and it's definitely not jimmy cracking jokes.

So what was? As you look to your right you see an empty seat oh that's what it was your friend not just any friend the one friend that gave you everything even if they didn't have it that one Friend you met and instantly clicked with the Friend that seen you at your best and worst and never left. Well now he did and for good.

"this summer is not gonna be the same" you say under your breath. After fourteen stops you guys finally made it to your destination. "Finally" Tolkien says as he stretches his arms. "Which one is the house they look so identical" Craig says squinting his eyes confused. "Whichever one has 6521 on the door" "C-Can I get a l-little help here guys" tweek says as he tries so carry four suitcases in his hands.

"Woah dude let me help with that" as you say that you grab two of the suitcases and follow Craig inside. "Jimmy how did you get in here so fast?" Craig says as he looks at jimmy confused "y'all were so worried about s-s-suitcases and h-houses and shit" jimmy says as he on one of the many balconies in the house. "So where d-do I put th-these?" Tweek says clearly struggling from holding all the suitcases "put them by the couch" you say as you point to the couch. "Where's Tolkien?" You say

"Right here" you jumped as he touches your shoulders "fuck don't do that" you say as he push his arm away lightly. "Damn my bad" he says as he laughs "y'all look at th-this view" jimmy says still at the balcony. Everyone joins him "damn this is nice if only Clyde could be here" Craig says leaning on the balcony watching the waves. That hurt you and before you knew it tears started to form in your eyes. "Dude" tweek nudges him so he can look at you "y/n I didn't mean it-" "No it's fine imma go to my room for a bit" you say as you walk out to your room

You lay on the bed and start crying remembering the words you said before he left "I wish I never knew you" oh how you wished you could have taken those words back. You grab your phone and open the photos app on your phone and go through all the pictures of you two you cry even harder than you call his phone just to hear his voice grief was not a good look on you I can say that but I was all you can do oh how you remembered how he would always quit what he was doing to answer your text the daily facetime calls helping you with your projects even though he had his own to do.

The way his hair flowed when he danced his smile when he got prom king him in general he always put a smile on your face and now it's all gone down the drain everything nothing but memories that's what hurt the most.

The fact you're here without the person you need the most.

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[hellaynasdiary]

Roman's realization hitting him when he saw his dad's coffin was honestly so accurately done. When you lose someone so close to you it doesn't always hit you when you hear the news. It doesn't always hit you the day after. Sometimes it doesn't hit you at the funeral either. Sometimes it takes you years to realise that the person who was so close to you is gone and will never be there for you again. Roman joking about having grieved already and he took it all out was a huge lie not because we know it didn't happened, but because it is just impossible to happen.

Grieve doesn't stay with you for a day or two, it doesn't have an expiration date.

The person that you love might be gone but the emptiness and the grief that you carry because of that is the one thing that's not gonna leave you.

And it's absolutely heartbreaking.

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[alive-with-grief]

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[thegriefbutton]

I like to scroll Reddit and I'm part of the Grief Support thread.

Someone was struggling to come to terms with the euthanasia of their family dog and this was my response. I'm so passionate about aftercare in regards to euthanasia and pet loss.

It's so hard to deal with. They're a constant in our lives and loss is hard enough, nevermind when you have to make the choice to assist them to the rainbow bridge. We feel so much guilt. It's natural.

I feel like euthanasia is one of the most pure forms of love. We wouldn't break our own hearts with this decision if we didn't love them so much.

#griefsupport #dealing with grief #grief blogging #griefrecovery #griefsucks #pet loss #euthanasia #pet death #pet grief

[anonymouslyspectacting]

This is going to be done by audio speaker to text. Today, today has been a mixture of a bunch of things, rough, good, happy, depressed, anxious, nervous. All of the above to stuff that I like and dislike or whatever I guess. I guess I may say how today was, so today was good, my gf left to go to home to get ready for work @6:30 then I went back to bed after telling her I loved her, I woke up officially around 9:30-10:26ish I think, then I got a burrito and ate that for breakfast (it was really really bad, my dad tries his best to cook but sometimes his meals aren’t very goob). Then I waited for my friend and I played overwatch for the first time ever w/her and I had a lot of fun! Then I started to try to get into the groove w/playing Minecraft which didn’t really work too well sadly which made me nervous/kinda down and I was kind of going through a downward spiral which sucked, but then I started watching yt videos and that kinda blew the time away. After that I went bowling kinda w/my brothers and dad and I felt very overwhelmed because there were a lot of ppl there and it was very noisy and it was a super duper noise overload which just made me uncomfortable and paranoid that people may have been judging me or whatever. I just mainly listened to music when I was there on Spotify, but that didn’t really help too much, so I was kinda just stuck there not able to do anything :/, then after that we went home, I downloaded some more games on my 2ds and finally organized everything into folders, and ate 2 peanut butter sandwiches. I do need to drink water so I’ll probably get some after this post. I called my gf to say goodnight which was nice, but I wanted to talk to her abt this but I don’t wanna wake her up and bother her with how I’m feeling right now. There’s a lot of other things going on also, like how my mom’s ex boyfriend is and has been very very scary and how he has made her feel very unsafe and uncomfortable when she found out he was an alcoholic which isn’t good. And I feel like I’m not ever going to be a good enough son for my dad, because we just never get along at all and it really really sucks, and my brothers hardly ever talk to me, like ik my 15y/o brother isn’t because he’s going through 9th grade and he’s always talking to his friends or is in his room on his computer or is watching a tv show for the hundredth time and never wants to hangout w/me and I understand that, but me now being in college just makes me feel like I don’t belong in this family I’m in. Ik that seems scummy or whatever, but that is just how I feel rn. And my youngest brother bless his heart, has adhd and autism like I do, but he hasn’t ever been given consequences or anything if he did something wrong, plus he’s an iPad child and gets whatever he wants pretty much. And it’s like, it’s sucks cause he never even wants to talk to me :/. My other younger brother who is almost 10, is scared of his dad and his dad is trying to get complete custody of him so my mom can’t see him anymore. He didn’t even get a Christmas tree for them to decorate. I’m hoping to get him something really nice and special this year. Okay okay, I’m sorry this has been long, it’s just how I feel rn and how I’ve been feeling for the past few days. I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday and a happy Xmas :p Gn ppl

#venting #family #anxeity #tw depressing stuff #autistic adult #adhd #college #student #home issues #griefsucks #biseuxal #lgbtqia

[charmyesucks]

The most innocent of crimes

It happened

Something happened today

Talking to a person I love,

Their shoulders rise

Their nose curls

A familiar awkward smile paints on their face

There it is

That's exactly something you used to do

Their voice shrieks the way yours would

And I get this itch

In my eye

I can see you in the room now

With me

Like an hallucination, you're real you're there

I thought I had forgotten your face but now it's right in front of me

It's right here

I feel your warm breath

Cold water on my face reminds me where I am

In a toilet, not yours, looking at myself in the mirror, I'm free I'm free

You won't be walking in any time soon I'm free

I'm free

I'm fine.

Sometimes I feel trapped in a ball of yarn

The more I push to get out the more tangled I get

I illude myself by poking my head out from time to time

And believing I'm finally free

Then, my head goes immediately under

And I see you again

You've never stopped tormenting me

I can stop talking to you, move away, not acknowledge you

You'll still appear in my head

You'll still follow me

You'll still be here, forever I fear

You've planted a seed in my head

And it keeps getting infected

I keep producing puss and loathing

Pure hate and filth ooze from my brain thinking about you

Trying to push the seed out

Trying to push your memory out

But it may be rooted in too far

And it's poisoning me

You keep poisoning me even if you're not here

You've caused damage the lengths of which you will NEVER be capable of understanding

And I hate you I hate you I hate you so much

Like a little girl I tear my hair out and I cry and I scream and convulse

Get out get out get out

You're the worst natural cataclysm

the most poisonous of slithering snakes, slippering in sizzling luminescent putrid acid

Love shouldn't condemn me forever, I suffer of the most innocent of crimes

Being a girl, desiring to be loved, trusting a man

Biting the apple, getting too greedy

Being discarded, unappreciated, underestimated, ignored, blamed, fucked and now infested by these ticks that swarm over me

Please, have mercy on me, please let me forget

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[seductiveandcynical]

My heart will continue to bleed in silence for the soulmate connection that was never meant for this lifetime.

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[greyaugustuspoetry]

And I screamed at the bodies in the stars

To come back to me on this uneasy ground

In exchange for my own soul and tears

And a few of my half drunken beers

But they wouldn’t do that to me in any universe

My friends would never trade their places

For my stance on this world

No matter how much I cry and groan

And god,

Does that make me angry in every pit of my body

But it also comforts me to know

That even in death, their kindness grows

-Grey Augustus

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[literallybonkers]

It is a curse of a grieving heart that it never stops mourning. It clings onto grief as its last refuge, as its final act of defiance. It stands singing in the wake of its own destruction, refusing to move on.

But this isn't tragic, you know? Grief isn't sad, it isn't something to move out on; grief is the acknowledgement of love, it is an acknowledgement of life, and of the truth that follows. It is a promise of rememberance. "You were here, you were loved, and even though my heart aches from the weight of the hole you left, I'll remember you, in every moment of happiness, in every fickle realization of content, in every dream, in every prayer, in every act of kindness, in every breath, in every twinkle of every star, in every little whisper of wind, in every sob of nostalgia, in every turn of time, in every way of existence... I will carry you on with me, until I can't anymore"

The lost life continues. The love lives a thousand lifetimes. The span of one's life is only the core of their actual existence, and you owe all of it to a grieving heart.

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[pigeonheadsmumblngs]

LETTING GO

I threw my heart out

to the sea,

the words I never can say.

The secrets I keep deep inside

carried on the wind today.

If the ocean can carry words

than maybe you can know,

I opened up my mouth,

and I let all of it go.

In a whisper and a cry

with a tear upon my face,

all of it flew out…

I left not a trace.

It’s lived in a pocket

deep inside my heart,

it’s beaten me down,

and it’s torn me apart.

I sent it to you

with love and with a sigh,

then I turned away,

and I told you goodbye.

~pigeon head~

4.23.2023

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[c0smicism]

"Happiness Used to Strike at 12" a small thought by me :3

word count: 433

I remember the nights I’d cry over you. Not because we fought or because you hurt my feelings, but because I loved you so much, I did not know any other way to expel my feelings than to cry them out.

Those memories, despite everything, are not tainted with how things ended between us. I still look back fondly at those memories. It’s funny if you compare that version of me to who I am now—it seems unrealistic that I’m capable of holding that much love.

My head would hurt so much after, but it never mattered. I had you, and I had the knowledge you loved me just as much, or that’s at least what I thought. Maybe I doubted your love only when the situation was severe, but I at least tried to convince myself you deeply cared for me as I did.

Those nights where I’d weep, full of love, would only multiply when I started living on my own. I guess it’s because I was all alone. I didn’t have my family or my dogs to talk to. It was me all on my own. I grew more dependent on you and your “love” because of it.

What was unfortunate was that was also the time you became more distant. There would be sparks of the early joys of our friendship when we were younger, but it was rare. However, I trained myself to survive on scraps from then.

I don’t know if you knew that your attention would dictate how I felt for that day, but I hope you picked up on it. I hope your big, bulky, dense brain could notice what tiny sliver of your attention I fought for every day.

I wonder how are you and your partner now.

I wonder if your partner loves you entirely as I did back then, despite your unwillingness to love yourself. I wonder if your partner showers you with gifts randomly like I did even if I was struggling in school since I still had to adjust to my surroundings. I wonder if they greet you good morning and good night, if they apologized profusely like I did I if I missed a day. I wonder if they changed for the better like I did because of you, even if you were bad for me. I wonder if they’ve tried to understand you and see your mind as the world’s most beautiful mystery like I did.

You were my everything. Disturbingly. I’ve never wanted to hug someone more than I wanted to hug you. I never wanted to love someone more than I loved you.

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[operawritesthings]

I say so much to you in my head, I can only hope it reaches you in heaven

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