I keep praying my phone will ring and it’ll be him saying, “Babe I’m sorry. I made a mistake, I fucked up. Come home.” I know he won’t, but I can’t stop imagining it.
Hayaan na natin
yung mga taong
hinayaan na rin tayo..
vorrei solo eliminare tutto intorno a me per qualche minuto.
starmene sotto la pioggia e non desiderare che essa mi sciolga
ma solamente starmene sotto la pioggia
There are nights like this where I’m silently hoping that you’d come back to me and we’ll try once more.
I was always the strong one but you make me worse in everything
listen, she tells me, smoke curls from her lips, grey, musky, bitter in my nostrils and billowing into my face. she knows it suffocates me, water filling my lungs that i can’t expel no matter how violently i cough. but she laughs as she turns, blows smoke into my face. she never seems to take me seriously.
listen, she tells me, we sit side by side, shoulders touching, huddled for warmth yet we are oceans apart, collapsing water, tidal wave, engulfing ships into our icy chaos. we are calm, tranquil, soothing on some days, yet other days i feel as if i am helpless to her demands and drowning in her words.
listen, she tells me, her burning cigarette dangles from freezing fingers, supposed to keep her warm but doing nothing. she is supposed to be here for me, supposed to support me, supposed to be happy for me, and yet she is glacial and i am numb.
listen, she tells me, illuminated by dim streetlights and surrounded by eerie 2am atmosphere, odd silence and ambiguous ambiance. it is always unpredictable with her, the dread of something approaching you can’t quite explain.
listen, she tells me, finally putting out the cigarette, crunching under her boot, an ghostly hand of smoke reaching out from the tombstone of her sole. i want to tell her to stop, but my words are hushed by fear. she tells me things she knows i don’t want to hear, but forces me to listen, anyway.
— purposeful ignorance
when the only person you really want getting attention from hurts you, what are you supposed to do? You were the only person I was sure I want to spend my life with. The person I would’ve given my life for. Now that I know you don’t even like me at all, I just simply don’t know how to handle that. This emotion is worse than everything that I’ve ever experienced and trust me, that’s really insane. Now that seeing you everyday and not being able to even look into your eyes, makes everything so much worse. I don’t know how you could to this but you did and you broke me, again. Who do you think you are?
- You know what sucks?
Knowing fully well that all this insecurity, weakness, wanting to not exist, feeling like you’re a burden, a failure, a disappointment, a pathetic excuse of a human, like you’re annoying everyone just by existing, for not having your shitty life together, that the world would be better off without you, these are just thoughts all in your head and you can’t shut them off, and then feeling even worse
For realizing that the world has bigger problems than you being a whiny crybaby 24/7, that people are actually suffering from hunger, poverty, all kinds of abuse, illnesses, diseases, loss, heartbreak, there’s so much bad happening in the world; yet all you care about how miserable you are after having a perfect life? After having a nice place to call your home, loving parents that would do anything for your happiness, food that most people can’t afford to eat, perfectly functioning body, everything you could ever ask for in the palm of your hand?
For over three years he was my life. How am I supposed to just get over him?
I can’t focus on anything. I’m supposed to be taking an online class right now. I just keep seeing images of him with her and I can’t keep them out.
I don’t know how I didn’t realize but for three days before, he never said “I love you too” when I texted him “I love you.” I didn’t think anything of it at the time, and now I can’t stop thinking about it.
Before, whenever I was this upset, I could just go to him and he’d hold me. I don’t know how to get over it on my own anymore
I know they always say this, but I don’t think I’ll ever stop loving him
Every morning I’m okay for a second, then I remember that I’m waking up alone while he’s waking up with her
Im just a lost soul waiting for a love that might never come
“out of all the people i could’ve fallen for,
why did it have to be the one that couldn’t love me back?”
- why did it have to be you, why did it have to be me /#37
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