#i am just as infatuated with him

[uncanny-tranny]

The funniest thing about my transition is slowly becoming even more of a spitting image of my dad. It sometimes makes me double-take in the mirror because I look like my dad if he were cooler

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #nonbinary #how i am cooler than my dad: 1. long hair 2. face piercings 3. fagswag #the stereotype is that people go on testosterone to look like anime boys but i did it to look like Some Dad #i want to look like charlie twilight saga unfortunately (fortunately) #(guess what i'm watching. this shit is so so so so so funny. funniest movies made by man) #i was told pre-medical transition that i look like the spitting image of my dad by somebody who knew him as a teen and :') #i wonder what they would say like 2.5 years on testosterone thiugh #also tangentially-related but i had like. the biggest infatuation with kristen stewart when i was younger and i don't even know why #i think i just thought she was really pretty and i liked how deadpan she was in the movie i watched featuring her (lmao)

[bawltongue]

#jonathan davis #jon davis #korn #nu metal #metal #90s #why he ourple #his baby face. i am weak #actually though never been so conmected to and infatuated with an artist before. which says a lot becauze i have had.. PHASES… #i just love him so much

[esmeraywrites]

Because there is something so utterly precious about Griffin Lovell/Harley. Like this boy probably did everything he could and was not able to satisfy his mentor/father despite it all for something that wasn't even his fault. Something that probably tore at his insides because despite being raised in an English and Hindi surrounded area, I am still Telugu and I can't think of not knowing it. And yet, I don't dream in it like my father does and that really makes me feel like an absolute outsider in my own house so imagine being Griffin.

Imagine being taken from ur motherland for something and then not being able to accomplish so you don't really belong to where u were taken but also don't belong to ur motherland because u were taken too early. And imagine when he realised this. Think of how much grief he had to deal with, he is lost. He has no shore, no anchor. And isn't that really a scary asf thought??

And maybe this ideology he shares with Hermes is his anchor? The only thing keeping him afloat? But imagine finding out u have a baby brother that prolly went thru all u did but turned out successful while u were just a failed demo? Imagine how shitty that must have felt?

(only on pg 254 as of now y'all)

#dark acadamia aesthetic #dark academism #chaotic academia #dark academia aesthetic #babel an arcane history #babel rf kuang #babel or the necessity of violence #griffin lovell #griffin harley #robin swift #lovell #can i just say i am absolutely and utterly enchanted by griffin? #i love him #i am in love with him #infatuated

[sysig]

He’s my little meow meow, my darling, my bbygirl (Patreon)

#Doodles #Commander Peepers #I'm soooooo normal about him you guys <3 So normal! <3 <3 #*Looking back over the other Little Guys I've collected* Hmmmmmmm Evil Xisuma and Spamton and Sableye and Rick Diggins #I think there might be a theme here #Just casually making Venn Diagrams in my head - Evil X has the red/black - Spamton is trans - Sableye has Gremlin energy - Rick is too tired #And those are just the ones I can think of lol - if you look I did the same stretchy pose with EX when I was still drawing him lol #The Stretch Pose is how you can tell if I like a character lol - they stretchin'? I am infatuated <3 #I mean I'm normal I'm totally normal lol #Also had to give him a bbygrl pose - I for the life of me cannot find it again but the reference is very strong in my mind's eye! #Not that I couldn't go for another one at some point lol ♪ #Ugh the middle one lol - so that Word of God I mentioned in passing about female Watchdogs #I read it in passing as just a basic research of ''Oh here's what The Original Creator has to say alright neat'' #Except that it Immediately made me itchy and I was like ''What. What brain this is not that big of a deal what are you doing'' #And I was like ''No I'm being silly about this - just because I don't agree doesn't mean it's a big deal lol'' #Except then I had stress dreams and woke up Weird the next day and the last time that happened I left a fandom #And the time before that I wrote 4 consecutive pages of 20-something panels in like 18 hours of consciousness - I have normal reactions lol #But I opted instead to vent to smol about it and she agreed with me so basically I'm just saying I'm correct lol /s #Personally Peepers doesn't strike me as misogynistic - he's very much an Equal Opportunity villain in my eyes! #And yeah I considered a lot of different angles around it but like - based on the text of WOY I just don't buy it #If it's not in the show it doesn't count! For all we know there might not even be any female Watchdogs! Lol #Would also lead to the equally-to-Spamton interesting question of How Does Trans Work in that kind of situation #I've definitely not already put a lot of thought into it don't look at me lol #Don't ask me to write an essay about both of those things I'll do it and where will that leave us lol #ANYway lol ♪ He's still the absolute funnest to draw in distress and discomfort <3 And kneeling! He makes me want to practice :D #I always feel like I can try again and do better! >:3c

[waifujuju]

Remembering that Sephiroth can shapeshift/make illusions and I want endless misadventures of him trying to disguise himself as a member of Avalanche and getting found out IMMEDIATELY every time

#FF7 #Sephiroth #Avalanche #I am Infatuated with this idea #I wanna see Sephiroth turn down a cigarette as Cid and the crew suddenly turning on him since Cid would NEVER refuse a smoke #Or Cloud would NEVER pass up an opportunity to do another chocobo race #Just give me Sephiroth not knowing how to blend in with Avalanche at all

[m0thisonfire]

No, you don’t understand, I’m obsessed with him.

I want to grab him by his stupid fancy cravat and punch him with my mouth. He’s such a dramatic weirdo.

He uses a fucking bendy straw. To drink blood out of a wine glass. He’s such a dork, he’s perfect, I can’t take it, I want to bite him-

I am not going to be normal when Afk Journey finally releases-

#afk arena vedan #afk vedan #vedan afk arena #just esperia things #I absolutely adore and hate him #I want to put him in a jar to keep on my nightstand and shake it every now and then #cunty old man. He’s such a dickish loser. I am infatuated.

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

would it seem weird/sus to go up to the guy I like on a youth group hike where we're both leaders and just start talking to him out of the blue

#like we have not had very much conversation outside of shop talk re: production so like... #idk man. even outside of potential romance I'd like to get to know him as a friend. idk how to do it Normally though #Google search: how to act like a normal human being #Lu rambles #I am probably vastly overthinking all of this and just need to chill out. every time I DO chill out things go great. #even our worship director told me that like a little bit of infatuation or a crush can be healthy as long as you don't #get too fixated or discount friendship as well so that's what I'm doing. that's where I'm at.

[goofyjelly]

So it turns out everyone just hopes to God you're failing And if you claim that you eat my words Then take this as a warning Nothing around here fucking works We're just flat-out boring We're all apes with a diary book And corporate reads your pages

- Wilbur Soot, Melatonin 130

#melatonin 130 #mammalian sighing reflex #music posting #lyric posting #wilbur soot #googles got him listed as his real name now #im just clarifying before i tag it lol #william gold #i dont wanna come off as one of those people being like -ACTUALLY HIS REAL NAME IS- #yk what i mean #theres one video of him playing some of this album live #he opened for the front bottoms i think it was #mine/yours is my favorite song so far #so i will also be lyric posting that #probably later tonight lol #ive said this so fucking much but I absolutely am infatuated with his lyrics #hes such a great poet in a way #songs are poetry #YALL KNOW WHAT I MEAN #oop ranting in the tags again i see #goofy jelly thoughts

[astrxealis]

me rn having the biggest hots for leon kennedy and astarion sorry LMFAOOO <3

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #^___^ me smiling innocently #bg3 is on the MIND !!! i dearly want it so badly. turns out my dad played 1/2 (not sure which) a looong time ago #but he never got too far i think bcs he's busy... :P but hey i love him. wow. it's really cool he knows it too (ofc he does lmfao) #me and him (handshake emoji) also never getting far in da origins yet bcs we have it on xbox bcs of him getting it a long time ago #but there's that bug in the mage tower... :( funny we both went thru it LMFAO <//3 anyway i got it on steam so i've been playing #again but not recently anymore since 1. ffxiv took over my life last days of summer again 2. summer is over back school so rip #anyway can u tell i love fantasy :)) da and bg babeyyy !!! my type is going to make you guys cry i'm so obvious #zevran... fenris... astarion... i have a thing for ppl w blond/white hair :P idk my fav in inquisition yet and idk anything abt bg1&2 yet #but Yeah. GHBSHJGBSHJG..... da origins is kinda funny (lack of better word) to me btw bcs i like all four main romance options #but it's hard to explain (i have a story behind stuff i want to share but it's tiring and annoying of me /hj !!!!!) #anyway i like blond elves if it wasn't obvious. yes i also like link and zelda from loz. yes i like legolas. yes i like #...anyway! so where does re fit in this? uh. u see i'm a coward actually i'm too scared to play re LMFAOOO #BTU I ADORE THE LORE and the characters and the game franchise and shit ^_^ just. i shld really watch it sometime #instead of reading wikis all the time and just soaking up all the knowledge but i'm. a Coward. okay #i can't even play bloodborne despite how nerdy i am over it... it's so scary to poor little me... i'm a coward (it's the harsh truth)..... #anwyay i'll conquer my fears one day but that day is NOT SOON !!! i wna get into re properly tho aside from just being a nerd #so i'm too scared to play but i'll watch playthroughs sometime (and admire leon) <3 yeah. another blond. i know. shut up. #is this my life rn am i just infatuated w blonds and white haired guys. it's gna be hell if i continue nier replicant rn too huh #uh. goodnight!

[homosexual-fast-dancer]

I am soooo normal about Ben Reilly btw :D soooo normal I don't at all wanna affectionately bully him, hug him, try to cheer him up, play with his hair, or anything like that!

I just think he's a completely average guy who's also a mega dork and not at all cute! Thanks for your understanding :D

#and that coloured name certainly doesn't mean anything either #i don't love him and am deeply infatuated by him #he's just a regular guy to me! #it's not like the moment i saw him i was immediatly struck by a deep affectionate feeling #he's just a dork! #yep i'm so regular! :D :D :D #(fellas we might have a problem here) #ben reilly 🕷️ #i like ben reilly... :(

[lotuseatingstone]

i hope we get to hang out with yugiri and hien again because this is literally my favorite genre of screenshot to take

#love yugiri 'i am going to become homophobic' face #dont be fooled they are together all three its just the boys are infatuated #ffxiv #yugiri mistwalker #hien rijin #viera #i love the idea of yugiri just being like. can you two stop making out there is literally a blasphemy #yugiri isnt alone here tho i do this to graha on labrys #not like making out with him but hugging someone else in his sights. #catboy more like cuckboy #anyway these scs literally made me like yugiri more. i prefer over the top women but this is genuinely just funny #the blank stare. it sends me

[transgender-catboy]

I'M BACK, LOOK AT THIS MAN!!!!

#god #GOD #... #breathing... #breeeaathiinggg #👁️👁️ #i. am fighting the urge to draw him...um. #ehe #....... i shan't say #i mean. i might. it's just gonna take a minute to get there so expect a wall of tags #teehee :3c #okayokayokay let me ramble for a minute... okay. so. peeb? you see him. he's right there. he's beautiful. #let's talk about him. but like not coherent thought because I'm so head over heels that i can't even think straight #(also because I'm a raging homosexual. ain't nothin straight about my infatuation) #his hair? im jealous. i wish my hair was that effortlessly nice. but. he'd totally use that like 76-in-one shampoo conditioner body wash #at least when he was living on his own. man was not practicing self care and that was visible by him sitting in the shower in his suit. #mood peeb. i understand. #good god. uh. whoa okay. that made me think of somethin gay #i... wanna draw him and widow sharing a comforting bath #the kind where one is gently washing the others hair. massaging shampoo into their scalp. the poor sap damn near nodding off in the tub #false widow and tragedy would be so kind to him (⁠ ⁠；⁠∀⁠；⁠) thats why I'm making a peeb for them #he's not gonna be a spider. idk what he's gonna be yet. maybe a high school teacher #and widow has/had a sibling that went there and they became friends from him always picking them up from school #AH #okay okay being gay now #cuddles? thinkin about it again. but I think mayhaps sometimes he'd like to be little spoon #someone needs to hold that man and i would be more than happy to step up to the plate #oh also have i mentioned how i love that he doesn't have perfectly straight teeth? yeah. happy about that #little details just make me love him nore #more*

[vimbry]

I haven't looked at any other game info at all bc I want experiences to be unspoiled, but the curiosity of the radio shoutout got the better of me (which I think is easily missable anyway? that's how I'm justifying myself), and it made me notice, the way evrart is described in the narration vs kim lol. oh harry's like, Into Him into him.

#(harry thinking about evrart) bug-eyed grotesquely magnified lookin guy #(harry thinking about kim) did you catch the way his eyes lit up behind his prescription lenses #did you see his eyes dilate with joy because they're Just magnified enough to make it out #I'd seen people mention long before playing that it's easy to read harry as being attracted to kim #but I didn't think so many thoughts would be so openly infatuated by almost everything he does #I guess the idea is that harry is a very passionate individual who's easily dependent on others anyway. and well #the portrait halo definitely says enough #anyway get this man out of the force and into a cool car with a few punk tapes #also wrt evrart. I am not far enough to gauge what my full opinion of his intentions should be yet #but I'm constantly switching to finding him slimy to a hilarious point in his manipulative power moves (the chair lmao #I didn't die to the chair but I assumed that you could) #or. altho clearly more self-serving than the man of the people he tries to assert that he is #possibly just doing what he can in his position by playing the game in a system he knows is inherently corrupt

[chowonsang]

The vid of dongil taking changmin's tie so he can tie it for him... shooting myself

#like i GET IT he probably cant tie ties on other people (i cant ejther) but im just... #why am i so absolutely infatuated with him #probably better for my metal health that he didnt tie the tie while kt was on changmin neck tho #would have immediately put gun to temple and pulled the trigger

[chaotic-solutions]

agent stone on the brain again. people truly do not write him as enough of a freak

#he is NOT nice he is NOT a remotely good person he is just as bad as robotnik and twice as much of an enabler #and i love him for it. he thinks hes smarter than everyone around him except robotnik. hes not really wrong. #this guy kills people and feels nothing about it he finds everything his boss does admirable hes fucking weird!!! #and yeah hes infatuated. but hes not sweet. stop making him sweet #robotnik wouldnt like him if he wasnt razor sharp at his core #everything about him is calculated and has been for a very long time. hes got an uncanny valley effect going on #i am. obsessed with this guy truly. but who isnt #anyway yeah half my experience w stone content is He Would Not Fucking Say That #and the other half is frantic applause for the people who get it #cannot WAIT for 3 i nedd to see him be worse #talk tag

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

the thing about me is that having a crush is fun for the first little while and then I just slowly become more and more overcome with insecurity about it

#like yeah he's friendly and nice to me but I know there's no chance. NONE. that it means anything at all. #no way. like there's no way he'd ever see me that way. We Just Work Together #and it sucks because I genuinely do enjoy just being friends with him! like there aren't many people I've met #who I genuinely click with and we get along well like that. and we definitely clicked as friends yknow?? #and I'm super glad for that. I just feel so stupid for being in love with him when I'm too loud and too awkward and i fidget too much #and I'm just. not an attractive person on ANY level #so like even having a crush is so unrealistic and I hate that. he's the only guy I've ever genuinely wanted to be with #(beyond a brief infatuation that I knew wouldn't work out i was just kinda caught up in the theater stuff yknow) #like.... UGGGHHHH this is bringing up SO many insecurities bc I genuinely want more than a friendship #and gurt called me out the other day by asking how important it is to me that this particular guy likes me back #and I had to play it down bc it's SO important to me like. WHAT am I supposed to do with this??? he's the only guy #I've ever been able to envision a life with and I KNOW daydreaming like that is probably bad and dumb and I just feel #SO stupid for how I'm feeling about this whole thing and yet. I go to church and work with him and it's just really easy and nice #and we work well together and get along and it's just GOOD #and I want that forever #and idk what God is trying to do here but it's making me feel SO STUPID all the time!!!!!! girl help!!!!!! #Lu rambles