#i am schizoaffective

[petewentzisblack1312]

happy world mental health day to the psychos, the schizos, the bipolar and borderline bitches, the cluster b babes, the dissociative dolls including anyone whos plural, to the totally (and literally) ocd, to folks who are actually 'delulu', happy world mental health day to everyone with 'scary' mental illnesses. and a special shoutout to everyone whos ever been told with a straight face that theyre possessed by demons.

#dils declares #i personally am indeed quite scary. not because im schizoaffective and bipolar but because people are cunts about it.

[s1yeye]

people seem forget nonverbal semiverbal speech unreliable speech loss all can be caused by things not autism outside of autism. kuru i me is not nonverbal semiverbal self, but body have somewhat frequent speech loss, and many alters (like self) speak weird funny or not speak at all. is mostly part of us our schizophrenia and brain damage and ID. we autism autistic too, but autism tend cause more words speak hyperverbal lot lot lots words spill out ramble off, rather than hard to speak hard make sentence hard words or no at all.

this post, want say hello and i see you to others with schizospec or brain damage or ID who not speak or struggle speak some way because of it. you welcome here, is your community too. ^_^

#level 2 autism #level 2 autistic #medium support needs #actually autistic #actually schizospec #schizoaffective #schizophrenia #actually schizo #actually mentally ill #intellectual disability #intellectually disabled #brain damage #traumatic brain injury #tbi #nonverbal #semiverbal #unreliably speaking #<- tag for reach #kuru i am not nonverbal semiverbal #not want try claim those. sorry if overstep

[manta-ray-space]

also i think its weird that i have vivid memories of things that were not part of reality. like ive forgotten so much about high school (because i was utterly detached from reality and everything other than my academics) but i remember that they had fake grass on the football field which is where george washington's teeth were buried. like that is a memory i have, even though i know it is not part of reality. what do i do with that.

i remember dogs barking right outside my english classroom's window even though we were on the second floor. i dont remember what classes i had which years. i dont remember my teachers' names. i remember feeling like people's voices in the cafeteria felt like a physical presence suffocating me. i dont remember some of my friends from highschool. its only been three years since i was in high school, and its not like ive been so so busy with college or work. what the hell.

#schizo spectrum #schizoaffective #i am so bad about tagging things

[ghostlyschizophrenic]

me: i’ve been in recovery for a while, my delusions don’t control me anymore!

also me: *has to hide under blankets if i want to look at fandom content for certain fandoms because i think i’m being watched by the characters*

me: yes i’m definitely 100% better

#also it’s not every fandom #it’s mostly the ones i was in right before and during my first psychotic episode #but yeah alas my delusions still have a lot of control over me #i AM a lot better than i have been in years i just can’t seem to let go some of the delusions #and because i’m ‘better’ i feel like i can’t talk about still believing them because i don’t want to worry my family/doctors #ghost.txt #schizophrenia #schizoaffective #psychosis #delusions

[xsaintseraphx]

Idk idk idk

#barely ate anything all day because everything is poison #spent the day pacing the house and idk what to do now bcuz my roommate is here and i dont want to act weird #i need to pace around but my roo. is too small #wont sleep tonight #i heard people talki g about me this morning #schizoaffective #schizophrenia #my art #is it really that? or am i just finally learning the truth and theyre coming after me

[blushingchaos]

there is only so much anger that a short person’s body can hold, and i have reached that limit !!/!!:!/&/&/!

#AHAHHHHH #): #bpd #schizoaffective #actually schizoaffective #bipolar type #actually adhd #actually bpd #actually neurodivergent #i am gonna throw something #a chair maybe #i want to cry #why am i so angry all the time #someone take me to a rage room #let me rage ): #cries

[hoshii11]

Is it just me or when you get sick Hallucinations and Auditory Hallucinations just get worse? Because for me the more drained and tired I am, the worse my schizophrenia gets. I also get a lot of brain fog that makes me dissociate much more frequently. I hate being sick.

#schizo things #schizophrenic spectrum #schizophrenia awareness #schizoaffective #schizophrenia #me dissociating #sick day #i am sick #schizo spectrum

[noraqrosa]

EDIT: AHHH @monnawesv FOUND IT IT WAS ACTUALLY ON WORDPRESS:

https://howtogeton.wordpress.com/social-security-disability/

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trying to find a very specific Tumblr post, it was a step-by-step guide on how to get approved for government disability benefits in the U.S.

it's got infographics, but it also has the info in text form (i.e. not just in the images)

@izukuleeyoung sent this to me a while ago and i thought i saved it, but i can't find it, not even in our messages

#lost post #ssdi #ssi #disability benefits #disability aid #i fuckin need this because i genuinely am too disabled to work a traditional job #but i need to until i can get approved #and i want to cry #because i need this ASAP but it's so fuckin difficult to actually get disability in the United States #ableism #i tried and was rejected #according to the government i'm not disabled despite the fact that i literally am incapable of walking correctly/without pain #and despite the fact that i have paralyzingly bad depression and anxiety #and despite the fact that i genuinely experience schizoaffective delusions paranoia and hallucinations #🙃

[bearstuck]

theres a hypothetical instance of asylumstuck being written well and not incredibly offensive and yet every single time i see some old asylumstuck posts i am blown away by how they manage to get literally every depiction of mental illness incorrect. its like they googled the symptoms and then deliberately wrote against the reality of those illnesses. its like they googled awful stereotypes about mentally ill (mostly psychotic or suicidal people) and made it their personal project to include as many as they could

#i am not opposed to the idea of writing characters from anything in a psychiatric hospital #however #like from the bat they use the very sensational name 'asylum' which is okay i guess since its one word and well known enough #but to go on and be like #yeah terezi and john *know the truth* about them being in an au and believe theyre supposed to be gods in a video game #oh calliope has some weird fucked up writing combination of psychosis and DID #where she simultaneously thinks caliborn is a hallucination ('imaginary friend') and an alter that 'takes over when shes mad' #or like #gamzee is a murderer and a schizophrenic and a cannibal #or sollux has schizophrenia and bipolar disorder and its obvious op didnt google if you can have both at once bc theyd immediately see #that that would usually just be diagnosed as schizoaffective disorder #like im not saying you cant write this setting and write it well. but its so fucking obvious its coming from a sixpenceee sort of place #where psychosis and DID and ocd and personality disorders are creepy aesthetic horror movie things #like hey you guys know not every psychiatric patient is psychotic right. and psychotic people are normal right #ffs have some tact its really not hard to google the actual symptoms and testimony from people with these conditions #sorry this got really ranty it just blows me away how ive seen people posting about asylumstuck in this decade #sorry if i spelled asylum wrong in this post and didnt catch it ive got the dyslexia

[smrtelnaaleziva]

how do i deal with the fact i failed my 13 year old self, that none of the dreams i had at that age came to be and that i am my biggest obstacle, asking for a friend

#mental illness #actually schizoaffective #neurodivergent stuff #actually psychotic #actually schizospec #gifted kid burnout #no but seriously #how do we come from this? without burning everything to the ground #sillyposting i am totally not losing my mind guys

[hoshi-kawaii]

Living with chronic physical or psychological hereditary disorders is like, "I am the trauma of my ancestors."

#i am made up of all your sufferings #they live on through time in me #genetic disorders #mental illness #chronic illness #fibromyalgia #pots #lupus #chronic pain #depression #bipolar #schizoaffective #anxiety #so many more #trauma #generational trauma #ptsd #sensory processing disorder

[wuppydog]

this dude’s story post (which are hilarious usually) kinda freaked me out for a lil bit earlier lol

#I am a cockroach 🪳 #trauma #delusions #paranoia #schizo #schizoaffective #childhood trauma #tw sui talk #tw child abuse #💜

[hilsoncrater]

me six months ago when my therapist of 2 years said a schizoaffective diagnosis would be more appropriate than a bipolar diagnosis:

me currently, as i experience gradually worsening psychotic episodes without any mood shifts:

#the kicker is that. the first ever therapist i had back in 2019 theorized i was schizophrenic #like she . said . hey girl. i think youre schizo or bipolar #& back then we all thought it was the pot i was smokin #so it was diagnosed as bipolar ii #2020 rolls around & Oh Boy . get hospitalized in early jan 2021 #bipolar i with psychotic features <- new diagnosis #but again . we thought it was the pot i was smoking #quit the pot . i start seein my then therapist #shes great i stick with her for 2 years . dont have any drastic mood shifts except depression #no mania . she thinks the depression is enviornmental based (turns out to be true) #however . she notices that . the Anxious Thought Patterns are . well . ocd #which is what the hospital staff had said #however . she also began to see that . they were psychotic #so . she told me toward the end that schizoaffective would be more fitting #well . im out of the bad enviornment i dont smoke pot anymore and yet . i am still losing my mind #she may have been . correct

[echo-stimmingrose]

It's 12:30 a.m. and I can't sleep cause I randomly remembered the exorcism someone performed on me because of my mental health.

#wtf #christians #they are gonna drive me insane #i can't with religious people sometimes #actual quotes from this women: “i bind you suicide spirits in the name of Jesus and I bury you!” “I bind you bipolar spirits” and so on #im not making this up #mental illness #mentally unhinged #i am not mentally well #actually autistic #autism #schizoaffective #bipolar #adhd #cptsd #sewer slide #self harm #religious trauma #its okay really cause my aunt told my mom to pray my autism away after we fought to get a diagnosis #ex christian

[schizopositivity]

I've been showing symptoms of Schizoaffective, including delusions..hallucinations... and alot of the depressive symptoms but I don't know what to do, I don't have access to a professional or anything, do you know any reliable sites I can check out to idk... double check facts and stuff? I'm sorry if I'm not allowed to ask this here.

Im really sorry you dont have access to a professional, especially when dealing with such serious symptoms as this.

In my opinion, I think you may have better luck focusing on coping with individual symptoms if you can only do it by yourself. Although it is very hard to find resources online for yourself and how to deal with these types of symptoms, it is possible. Try starting with the depressive symptoms (like "how to cope with negative thoughts spirals" for example), because there are far more resources online on how to cope with depressive symptoms rather than psychotic symptoms.

For more information on schizoaffetive disorder, I'd suggest websites like NAMI or PsychCentral (or any website that has the authors listed as licensed professionals and is medically reviewed, it should say so after the title of the article). Also if you want to hear people with schizoaffetive talk about their experience you can go to YouTube and search "SBSK schizoaffetive" (special books by special kids is a great channel and interviews people of all ages with different disabilities and experiences).

Sorry if this wasn't the answer you were looking for, good luck on dealing with your symptoms, I hope that you can one day get the treatment you deserve.

#hello im gonna try to answer asks now #im sorry its been so long #i am just one person trying to help people out #as always feel free to add things in the replies if you have any ideas thanks #schizoaffective disorder #schizoaffetive #schizoaffective deppresive type #schizophrenia #depression #hallucinations #delusions #answered